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Author:     Warwick Deeping
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Title:      Old Pybus (1928)
Author:     Warwick Deeping





Mr. Conrad Pybus collected pictures, and being the possessor of two
"Constables," and three "Cotmans," he had some right to stretch out
a large hand and to indicate the picture that was hung against the
blue horizon.

"That's Castle Craven--over there.  Rather like a thing by
Constable.  What?"

In spite of the largeness of his hand and the largeness of the car
in which he sat, he spoke with an assurance which failed of its
effect.  He was shy of the woman beside him.  She was leaning
forward in the coup, her dark thinness and her pallor joining to
disconcert Mr. Conrad Pybus's vague yet ample correctness.  She was
smiling, and when she smiled the angles of her long and expressive
mouth curved deep into either cheek.  It was a curious smile,
showing a gleam of teeth, but not as the conventional beauty
displays them, all to the front as though advertising a musical
comedy or a dentifrice.  As a small nephew put it:  "Aunt Ursy
laughs in her cheeks."  She did, with a kind of slanting, upward,
ironic swiftness, as though the two corners of her mouth were
retracted by a couple of hooks.

Mr. Pybus's hand, sheathed in wash-leather, seemed to fascinate
her.  Extended, palm turned towards the landscape, it suggested the
hand of a policeman on point duty, pontifically presenting a whole
street to some hesitating motorist.  But with the gloved hand the
illusion ended.  The blue-and-white striped shirt-cuff, nicely
protruding from the blue sleeve, marked the particular Pybus.  No
man could have been better tailored.  His hats came from Pont's in
St. James's Street.

She examined him with one swift and inclusive stare while he
remained for a moment in that attitude of civic dignity, presenting
her to Castle Craven, that hill town, grey under a kind of blue
murk, the lapis of a horizon that was tumbled with clouds.  She saw
the red gold gleam of a wheat field, ripe on a green hillside.  The
world seemed a welter of hill-tops, green and grey and silver, or
bewigged with smooth beech woods.  The distances appeared immense.

But beside her and very much in the foreground was Conrad Pybus,
solid and obvious, all black and white, a heavy man who could not
sit comfortably in her presence.  He had been trying so hard to
impress her.  He wanted her to marry him.  And she, with the
merciless eyes of a woman who had no illusions, saw him as a
glorified and rather flashy stockbroker's clerk, a morning-paper
man, worth perhaps fifteen thousand pounds a year.  He had a place--
Chlois Court--in Berkshire.

She allowed herself to agree with him.

"All those clouds massed up there.  Rather fine.  How much have we

"Oh--about seventy.  You wouldn't know it in this 'bus, would you?
An hour and a half.  Not so bad."

His large, white face, with its unblinking blue eyes and a very
black moustache, reminded her somehow of the face of a chef.  But
why a chef?  How oddly one associated things!  Only--that particular
sort of face seemed to call for a chef's white cap.  She smiled.

"You are going to give me lunch there?"

His right hand reached for the gear lever.

"Of course.  Saracen's Head.  I wired them before we started."

The car went softly down into the valley where the Brent ran under
the grey span of an old bridge between the steep greenness of
overhanging trees.  "Aunt Ursy" was peering into a little mirror.
She had one of those ivory skins that are proof against sunburn or
worry, and neither her skin nor her hair needed attention.  Conrad
Pybus was showing her how he could handle a car on the narrow
steeps of the ascent into Castle Craven.  He was very conscious of
her sitting there, squinting at her sleek face in that provoking
little mirror.  Yes, she was "it," as much "it" as the car he was
driving, but she would take more handling.  Oh--yes--much more
handling.  He might be a new man, but Chlois Court had a ripe and
proper atmosphere.

While she, consummate worldling, but coolly honest, as many
worldlings are, watched a high stone garden-wall glide by, its
greyness tufted with Siberian wallflower and draped with aubrietia.
Colour!  Of course!  The man had no colour.  Moreover, he possessed
one of those heavy white skins which resemble greasy vellum.  Hence
the "chef complex."  Yes--that settled it; for, whatever she might
be, she was like most women, richly fastidious, a saint in her
sthetics, if something of a vagrant in her morals.

Meanwhile Conrad Pybus's blue car, with its black coup and silver
snout, climbed the steep and tortuous Bridge Street into Castle
Craven.  He drove with a confident care.  He was doing the thing
well, and it was no use doing things badly in the presence of
Ursula Calmady.

"Might be the Brooklands test-hill.  Oh--you idiot!"

Baulked by a Ford van that pulled out in front of him without a by-
your-leave or a signal, he had to hold the car on the steep hill.
The lady glanced at his face.  He had the air of saying to himself
things that in her presence could not be said.

She smiled to herself.

"No--my dear, no.  You are not a bad sort, but in six months you
would be saying those things aloud."

The car moved on, and she allowed herself to feel self-revealed in
the dignity of Castle Craven.  Its very steepness was dramatic and
Shakespearean.  Between little grey crowded houses, the cobbled
street swept up and through the black throat of an old gate.  There
was a sudden enlargement of the sky.  The tall houses drew back
under the smiling white clouds.  A church tower with six pinnacles,
each topped by a gilded vane, made a glittering against the
blueness.  In the centre of the great space a market cross rallied
the town.  There were houses of stone and houses of Georgian brick,
and a row of pollarded limes shading the fronts of a line of shops.
On the left a golden head swinging on an iron bracket overhung the
broad pavement.  A little farther on the White Hart Inn wore upon
the top of its white-pillared portico a turban of flowers.  Two red
'buses, and half-a-dozen cars were drawn up by the Cross.

The obvious Pybus drew in towards the Saracen's Head.

"Well, here we are."

He was made to measure.


Double glass doors opened from the vestibule into the hall of the
Saracen's Head.  Directly opposite to you as you entered was the
office, with the registration book open upon the counter, and the
fluffy fair head of Miss Vallence--the book-keeper and reception
clerk--visible between a green-baize letter-board and a time-table
of the local 'bus service.  A strip of faded red carpet stretched
from the glass doors to the office.  Four cane chairs and two
smokers' tables were arranged symmetrically, one either side of
this red strip of carpet.

On the right and the left, passages led to the lounge and the
coffee-room.  A flight of stairs, covered with the same red carpet,
disappeared between two green china pedestals supporting
aspidistras in cherry-coloured pots.  Between one of these
pedestals and the office window, with a big brass gong hanging
behind him like a halo, a little man in a black alpaca coat stood
for some eight hours each day.

He was the hotel "boots," but his activities were various.  He was
a sort of watch-dog and cicerone.  Whenever a car drew up he would
go out to meet it.  He carried up luggage, and carried it down
again.  He sold odd stamps, and provided luggage labels, and
distributed the morning papers, and was sent upon errands.  The
Saracen's Head knew him as John.  His rather big and well-polished
black boots had--in that particular place between the china
pedestal and the office window--impressed a blurred, worn mark upon
the carpet.  His digressions were frequent and various, but
returning from them he would resume his place by the brass gong
like a spider returning to the centre of his web.

His appearance was not a little remarkable.  Imagine the head of a
Roman emperor upon the body of a boy of fourteen.  He was old, how
old nobody knew.  His brilliantly white hair fitted his big head
like a legal wig.  He had very blue eyes, and a grey, inscrutable,
resolute face.


"Yes, miss,"--or, "Yes, sir."

He had manners and dignity in an age which is peculiarly lacking in
both of them.  Understanding people put him down as having been a
servant in some house of quality, a footman, or perhaps a groom.
There was something about him that suggested horses.  Moreover, he
could stand quite still under the eyes of the hotel's loungers, and
such stillness is rare.  He might appear a funny little old fellow
in his black alpaca coat and grey trousers, and very clean as to
the collar, but not so funny as many a young fellow-my-lad might
think.  You took him courteously, or you did not take him at all.
Those blue eyes of his could be as disconcerting as the eyes of
Marius were to the slave.


It happened that this old Roman was standing in his usual place in
front of the brass gong when Mr. Conrad Pybus's car pulled up at
the kerb.  The blue bonnet was the colour of a French soldier's
tunic.  Every sort of car pulled up at the Saracen's Head, and
their cargoes were as various as the cars.  But this was a car of
quality, and old John walked along the strip of carpet and out down
the two well-whitened steps.  He did not hurry.  He was both brisk
and deliberate.

"Allow me, madam."

The lady was in the act of opening the door of the coup.  Old John
saw her and not the man, for--in the act of leaning forward she
obscured the figure of Mr. Conrad Pybus.  She was a gentlewoman--as
well as a lady.  She exhaled an indefinable perfume, and was smart
with an exquisite and simple rightness.  Her dark and jocund eyes
smiled at old John from under the brim of a black hat.  She was
wearing a simple tweed suit in which purples and browns were

John held the door open for her.

"Any luggage, madam?"

There was something roguish in her glance.

"No; no luggage, thank you."

"Very good, madam.  The lounge is on the left.  I will show the
gentleman the garage."

She crossed the pavement and went up the two white steps, and old
John stood holding the handle of the coup door.  He was looking at
Mr. Conrad Pybus.  His blue eyes seemed to grow very large with a
staring, challenging intensity.  Mr. Pybus started back, but his
eyes were the eyes of a man profoundly astonished and nonplussed.
Also--he was profoundly disturbed.  His big white face seemed to
hang there in the interior of the coup like a bladder of lard.  A
gloved hand rested tentatively on the knob of the gear lever.

There was an extraordinary stillness.  It may have lasted for ten
seconds.  Then the interlocked glances of the two men seemed to
fall apart, or rather--the younger man's eyes flinched from the
older one's.  Old John was closing the door when a voice

"Oh, I have left my bag."

She had come back for her vanity bag, and old John recovered it
from the seat, and closed the door of the coup with a gesture of
crisp fierceness.

"The garage is on the left, sir, through the arch."

Mr. Pybus, staring straight ahead through the windscreen, pulled
the gear lever over.

"Are you taking lunch, sir?"

"I am."

"You'll find a side door in the yard, sir.  Gentlemen's lavatory
just inside, first on the right."

Old John, turning with deliberation, walked back into the hotel,
and his white head regained its yellow halo as he resumed his place
in front of the brass gong.


That he as a man should sit calmly down to lunch after cutting his
own father was beyond Mr. Conrad Pybus's capacity.  Obviously he
was not himself, or rather--he was too much himself.  He had
reverted--and without realising his reversion--to the little
barbarisms of the struggling 'thirties, when he had scuffled with
life in his shirt-sleeves.

Moreover, he was so very conscious of Lady Ursula, sitting opposite
him at the little table in a recess by the window.  A card with
"Reserved" printed upon it remained propped against a vase full of
purple and white asters.  Yes; she too was so confoundledly
reserved, such a woman of elevation and of quality, poised like
Diana before his moonfaced homage.  For the last three months he
had been trying so hard to place himself on some sort of feeling of
equality with her, to impress her, to realise himself as Conrad
Pybus, Esq., of Chlois Court.

Then--consider the immoderate obstinacy of that absurd old man!
How could a fellow have foreseen such a damnable coincidence?  To
hear yourself saying:  "Hallo--Dad," to a little old fellow who
cleaned the boots, and saying it in the presence of that most
elusive and ironic goddess.  Besides--it wasn't as though he and
Probyn had not attempted to do something for the old curmudgeon.

The head-waiter was standing at Mr. Conrad's elbow.

"Lunch, sir?"

"Take that card away."

"Certainly, sir."

"I ordered lunch by wire--a special lunch."

"Yes, sir.  I know all about it, sir.  The wine is on ice."

George, of the Saracen's Head, had a soothing voice, and a sleepy
and humorous eye.  He knew his world.  Obviously the gentleman was
in a fractious mood, being the kind of new gentleman who raised his
voice and made a fuss when things were not going well.  George's
sleepy eye observed the lady.  She was putting one of the asters in
place with an air of doing what came natural to her.  Her face had
the glimmer of an inward smile.

"Soup or hors d'oeuvres, sir?"

Mr. Pybus was posed.  He bungled his French, and realised that he
had bungled it when his lady made her choice.  And he was most
absurdly annoyed.  First--a wild oddity of a father bobbing up like
the ghost of his own past, and then a fool of a waiter tricking him
into speaking of hors doovres!  He became throaty and self-

"I must apologize for this--place.  Had it recommended to me by
Pelham.  Doesn't do to take an ipse dixit."

She looked him straight in the face.

"Don't you like it?"

"Flyblown--like most of these country pubs."

That something had upset him was as obvious as was the heavy white
solidity of his countenance.  She wondered what it was.  Not that
it mattered.  The loutishness in certain sorts of men is easily
rediscovered.  He glared; he examined the table silver; almost she
expected to see him take up a spoon and polish it with a corner of
the tablecloth.  And she was amused.  Always she had loved
mischief, but mischief without malice, and it seemed to her that
she was watching a materialization of the real Conrad Pybus, of the
man who sat in his office chair in his shirt sleeves and smoked
rank cigars, and bullied people.  His voice appeared to slip back
into his throat and to become thick and aggressive.  She was
vividly aware of his crudities, of the inherent vulgarities of the
man, and suddenly she wondered how she had been persuaded to spend
the day in his car.  She hadn't been persuaded.  She had been
provoked by an impulse, an ironical curiosity.  And here she was
sitting opposite to him, and feeling the hot waves of his extreme
discomfort pouring over her.  Moreover, what was the use of
ordering wine to be iced if you had not been schooled to suppress
the common heats of the body?

She glanced over her shoulder at the window.

"Don't you find it very hot in here?"

He did.  He was perspiring.  He expended a further portion of his
heat upon the waiter.

"Open that window, will you?"

"Certainly, sir."

The window was opened, but he continued to give her the impression
of a man lunching in a London grill-room on a hot August day.  She
surmised that the salad would be flat, and it was.  And again he
expanded more heat upon the waiter, quite unnecessary heat.  She
was feeling the freshness of the hill-town air whispering round her
shoulders, and she had all the essential and clear coolness of her
breed, but she began to be infected by his flushes and his
discomforts.  It was like travelling in a stuffy and crowded
railway carriage next to some stout person who mopped and panted.

"Beastly lunch--I'm afraid--I'm sorry."

She assured him that the lunch was excellent.  But what had upset
him?  Not that she asked the question.  She had ceased from wishing
to ask Mr. Conrad Pybus any questions.  She had become too
conscious of his incongruities.  He continued to remain in a heat
of frettings and apologetics, and while applying the coolness of
her easy voice to the fevered forehead of conversation, she
considered Mr. Conrad Pybus as a social specimen.  He reminded her
of some common child who had been carefully drilled and prompted
for some social occasion, and whose niceness crumbled and fell to
pieces under the stress of sudden publicity.  She saw him as a
moist, awkward figure, eating with uneasy ferocity, using its table
napkin too frequently on that very black moustache, pulling bread
to pieces with its bolster fingers.  She was reminded of the simile
of a man sitting upon a hot-plate.  He fizzled.

"Hang it--this meat's a bit off."

"Is it?  Really--I think you must be just a little unfortunate."

Her incorrigible self was conscious of inward whisperings.  A bit
off!  Oh, delicious and splurging Pybus!  Almost she feared for his
aspirates.  And with the cool air on her neck and shoulders she
thought of Chlois Court, and his pictures, and his library with its
multitudinous classics all bound in red leather.  Culture--culture
spelt with a very big K, Teutonic, a little pathetic.  And yet, in
spite of his carefulness and his contrivings, the trotter protruded
in proximity to the trough.

But she began to wish for the end of the meal.  She decided that
the day's adventure had reached its climax, and that he needed
cooling under the trees of Chlois Court.

"Really--it has been a delightful drive."

He asked her if she would care to wander round Castle Craven.
There was the castle, and the Master Mostyn museum--"Pre-historic
stuff, you know."  Smiling her own smile she assured him that she
had to be back for tea.  Could he manage it?  Of course he could
manage it.  He showed a sudden restiveness.  He brought out a black
leather wallet and put it back again.  He asked her if she would
like a liqueur with her coffee.

"A Kmmel, please."

He called the waiter.

"Two Kmmels and two coffees."

"In the lounge, sir?"


His restiveness seemed to increase.  Frowning over his Stilton he
actually missed a remark of hers.

"Wonder if you'd excuse me a moment.  I'm a bit doubtful about the

"Of course."

"My chap's a careless idiot.  There's a petrol pump in the yard.
I'll get the fellow in charge to fill me up."

"Please do."

He placed an open cigarette-case in front of her, but forgot the

"Won't be a minute."

She smiled at his departing back.


Mr. Conrad Pybus appeared in the hall of the Saracen's Head rather
with the air of a man who had pocketed some of the table silver and
was determined that no one should know it.  He strolled.  He lit a
cigar.  He had come out in search of the little old man with the
big white head and the black alpaca jacket, but the father of
Probyn and Conrad Pybus had gone to his dinner.

The son strolled to the street door, stood on the white steps for a
minute, and listened to Castle Craven's old heart beating to the
new rhythm.  A dirty young man in a blue French cap and a soiled
brown mackintosh passed by with his modern music and his odours;
the detonations of his machine seemed to strike against the faces
of the old houses and to reverberate from one side of the square to
the other.

"Filthy things," thought the man on the doorstep.

Certainly.  Filthy, yet useful.  But where was that incorrigible
old man, that Diogenes out of his tub, that John Pybus of the
invincible blue eyes?  Was it possible that he was still a little
afraid of his father?  He--Conrad Pybus, Esq., of Chlois Court,
afraid of an hotel "boots!"  But was it not the unexpected and the
incalculable that one feared?  Yet, he wanted to explain.  It was
necessary that he should explain Ula Calmady, and the awkwardness
of the contretemps, and the need for shutting one eye.  His father
had always been such an uncompromising old devil.  He had always
insisted upon keeping both those very blue eyes wide open.

Mr. Conrad strolled back up the strip of red carpet.  He was for
tempting a second encounter.  He spoke to Miss Vallance in the

"Excuse me--porter anywhere about?"

"Gone to his dinner, sir.  I'll ring."

"Oh--don't bother.  It was about some petrol.  I can manage."

He took the passage leading to the old coaching yard, where the
blue car stood in the shade of a high wall, and as he emerged into
the yard he saw a little figure crossing it.  The son removed the
cigar from between his thickish lips.

"Here--I say--one moment--"

John Pybus paused, turned, and looked at his son.

"Did you call, sir?"

Mr. Conrad strolled heavily across the cobbles.  He was very
conscious of that grey, resolute face with its incorruptible blue
eyes.  As a man of the world and a man of business--big business--
he would have chosen to wink at his father--but then--you might
just as well have winked at Jehovah.

"I say--just a moment--"

His voice insinuated.  It suggested a smooth yet stealthy gesture.
The yard appeared deserted.

"Just a moment--"

Old Pybus seemed to stand very square on his heels.

"I don't know you, sir."

And he went on and by his son, looking up slantwise into his face
like a veteran marching past some very young general who had seen
no red blood spilt.



Old John Pybus's father--Peter Paul Pybus--whom someone had
nicknamed the "Cato of Booksellers' Row"--had--as a counterblast
against his own parents' partiality for apostolic names--christened
his own son John Julian Apostasius.  For Peter Paul had gone beyond
mere nonconformity.  He had been a Bradlaugh man in the days when
such hardihood might seriously damage a man's pocket, and in
associating his son with the Emperor Julian--called the Apostate--
he had defied both his wife and society.  Peter Paul had relented
so far as to allow the "John," for as Mrs. Mary had asserted--"How
could a boy go to a Christian school labelled Julian--Apostasius!"
Peter Paul had agreed that it would not be fair to the child, and
that a good, stout simple name should be added as a sort of handle.

In those days, before the coming of Kingsway, and the "Waldorf,"
and Bush House, Peter Paul Pybus had had a shop in Booksellers'
Row.  Boys from the city schools had come to Mr. Pybus for
secondhand copies of Ovid and Thucydides, but they had been obliged
to go elsewhere for their cribs, for Mr. Pybus had held strong
views upon education and had refused to pander to the lazy.  A
little, brown, snuffy shop in the very narrow part of the street,
it had had a certain reputation with collectors of first editions.
The reputation of the shop had been the reputation of Peter Paul
Pybus.  Packed full of literary gossip, obtained from heaven knows
where, he had taken an interest in all the literary scandals and
sensations of two generations.  He could have told you just how and
why Buchanan attacked Rossetti, and how Tennyson liked to
administer rhythmical smacks to a pretty and feminine shoulder when
declaiming his own verse.  Mr. Peter Paul would never allow
Tennyson his poetry.  "Suburban stuff, sir.  Give me Browning."

One of John Julian's early recollections was of a certain shop that
was opened in the Row directly opposite the bookshop of Peter Paul.
John was fifteen at the time, and the shop had puzzled him.  It
offered you French novels of a sort, and queer little boxes of
artificial sweets.  It was a surreptitious shop, and people peered
into it surreptitiously.  It attracted the schoolboys who came to
buy school-books.  John Julian would sometimes catch two or three
of them sniggering outside it, and waiting for some other boy who
had sneaked in to buy photographs.

John remembered asking his father about that shop, and his father's
frozen face, and the rasp of his voice.

"There isn't any such shop, sir--"

"But--there is.  Haven't you been across--?"

Peter Paul had gripped his son by both shoulders.  "Dog's vomit--my
lad.  Step over it.  I say there is no such shop."

And for Mr. Peter Paul Pybus there was not.  He had a habit of mind
that was Cromwellian, and he passed on a part of it to his son.

The elder Pybus and his wife died somewhere in the 'eighties, and
John Julian inherited the business, and took to himself a wife.
And he, too, was something of an oddity.  He stood five feet three,
and he married a woman of five feet eleven.  It was said in jest by
their intimates that John Pybus had to fetch the step-ladder out of
the shop when he wanted to kiss his wife.  But her height was her
only distinction, and it is more than probable that John Julian was
disappointed in his marriage.  Poor Edith Pybus was both weak and
argumentative, and she argued at the wrong moments.  She set out to
spoil the two boys whom John Julian had given her, and over the
upbringing of these two boys there were many clashings.  Not for
nothing had John the head of a Roman emperor.  And he was a
Victorian.  He had a sort of moral earnestness, an extraordinary
sense of honour and of public duty, and like his father he was
absolutely fearless.  The mother, sentimental and flabby, had set
herself with the boys against the father.  She gave them sweets
after their canings.  She tried to smuggle their offences out of

"Boys will be boys, John."

Whereas John Julian believed that most boys--his own included--were
little savages and howling egoists, and that no man is made without
good and appropriate lickings.  Nor should this be set down to
hardness of heart.  He tried to be more wisely kind to his two boys
than was their foolish, conspiring, jealous mother.

He sent the two youngsters to a goodish school, but he was never on
such terms with them as he had been with his own father.  They were
big youths; they appeared to take after their mother; at the ages
of sixteen and fourteen they were able to look down upon their
little Roman-headed father.  During those earlier years, when he
had felt more the mate of his wife, John Julian had allowed her to
choose the babies' names.  Hence Probyn and Conrad.

John Pybus had trouble with them from the time of their going to
school, and as they grew taller and more full of the arrogance of
the awkward age, the trouble increased.  They had inherited the
concentrated, lower-middle-class snobbery of their mother; they had
a loudness; they quarrelled; they purloined each other's ties and
collars.  Conrad was a bully.  Both of them were perfectly familiar
with the secrets of the shop across the way.  In fact, at the age
of seventeen, Probyn was the possessor of a collection of indecent
photographs which had to be hidden away under a loose board in his

So that when the wife died, and the two young bounders were put out
into the world--Probyn with a wholesale woollen firm, Conrad as a
clerk in a shipping office--John Julian felt a little weary of
them, and of the narrowness of the Row.  In fact, it is probable
that it was the pulling down of the Row that sent him into the
country.  He sold the London business, and took over a shop in the
Dorsetshire town of Winterbourne.  For many years he sold books to
the Dorset folks; but the market was limited, and if he managed to
keep himself and his housekeeper, he did little more.  He wrote
regularly to his sons, and saw them occasionally.  More than once
they borrowed money from him--or rather--he gave it, and would not
hear of its return.  Probyn married the daughter of a speculative
builder who was scattering villas about the Surrey suburbs.  They
had one son, Lancelot, prophetically shortened by his mother to
"Lance."  Conrad was unmarried.  He liked his adventures, but he
liked them cheap.  A fellow could be a very devil among the shop-
girls on Yarmouth beach, and if you were careful--.  Conrad was


But of John Pybus's ultimate and final quarrel with his sons no one
knew and no one cared.

Why should they care?  John Pybus had never asked for pity.  As a
gladiator he had gone down fighting, and fate had dragged him out
by the heels, and finding him still alive had decreed that he
should live as one of the arena slaves and scatter sand over pools
of blood.

On that August day he had met one of his own sons in the arena, and
the man of the 'forties had fled from the man of the 'seventies.
Old Pybus had watched Mr. Conrad get with some hurriedness into his
car and bundle out into the market square.  Mr. John resumed his
halo.  He was on duty by the brass gong when Conrad, having
recovered the lady, shepherded her with heavy impressiveness out of
the Saracen's Head.  They passed Mr. John Pybus standing by the
gong.  They went together down the strip of red carpet.  Mr. Conrad
was still apologizing.

"Beastly place!"

His father was wondering whether a woman with that dainty and
whimsical face could bring herself to bargain across the counter
with a shopman.  He felt a liking for the gentlewoman.  She had
smiled and looked at him and spoken.  He was an old man.  His
impulse was to accost her and to say:  "That fellow's a rotter.
Turn him adrift."  But, then, Conrad Pybus was not exactly a
rotter, but a person of property, and it was probable that a woman
who could wear her clothes as the lady wore them had her own

George, the waiter, coming out for a few words with old John, who
was treated rather as a sage and a great man by those who worked
with him, spread a palm in which lay a shilling.

"Gave me that--he did, for a special lunch, and the wine iced, and
him with a lady."

Yes, Conrad had always been careful, and old Pybus's thoughts went
back to the occasion when he had quarrelled finally, and like a
Cromwell, with the carefulness of Conrad and the punctiliousness of
Probyn.  It had happened during those Winterbourne days, in the
second year of the war.  Mr. Pybus had been in difficulties at the
time, for his selling of books--never very brisk--had languished
with the war.  But the quarrel between John Pybus and his sons had
had nothing to do with business, though business had been at the
back of it.

For John Pybus was old English.  When there was war there was war,
and if his country was involved in it, then it was his--John
Pybus's war, and his sons' war.  He was an old-fashioned patriot.
Also--he was--or had been a bit of a Puritan.  Also--he was blue-
eyed and resolute against the bully, were he emperor or Bolshevist.
So Mr. Pybus had been able to speak of the war as Armageddon
without cribbing an obvious bleat from the popular press.  St.
George for England!

Absurd, great little old man, facing bankruptcy, yet able to lose
himself in the great tragedy, and to get up at recruiting meetings
and speak to the young men.  "I am a man of peace--but I charge you--
take up the sword."  For a year he was a kind of fiery cross at
Winterbourne, and so successfully fiery that he was sought for to
set alight other and damper districts.

Meanwhile his own sons procrastinated.  Probyn could not be spared,
but he was doing his best to be spared, though he was thirty-seven
and a married man.  Conrad spoke of joining the Royal Naval
Reserve.  The letters that old Pybus wrote to them were not models
of tact.  Your Cromwellian soul does not trouble about the squeak
of a boot.  He could not understand at first why sons of his had
not been among the first hundred thousand, but when he did
understand it, he took up the scourge.  He bought a third-class
return ticket to London, but he had to follow Probyn to Yorkshire,
in order to have it out with the elder son.  Probyn, a little
sheepish and sententious, had very good excuses.  It appeared that
he had become indispensable; his father-in-law had put up some
money, and Probyn had interests.  Wool was a necessity--you know,
and so was a man who could give the army what it wanted.  Conrad,
unearthed somewhere near Fenchurch Street, was less explanatory
than his brother.  He was busy, arrogantly and perspiringly busy.
Ships--you old fool--ships and more ships!  He did not call this
meddling old fire-eater a fool, but he implied it.  Besides, he was
a careful fellow; he was out to make money.

John Pybus returned to Winterbourne with a very fierce blue eye.
He had said things to his sons, things which would not be
forgotten.  He had called them shirkers, gun-shies, opportunists.
Such burs stick even to sleek jackets.

And then--when speaking at an open-air meeting in a certain rather
backward town, old Pybus met the new English.  He was heckled.  A
young man with a little ginger moustache and prominent teeth, who
was something in a Somersetshire coal-mine, reared a head and asked

"I'd like to ask the speaker--whether he has any sons."

"Two," said old Pybus promptly, like an old Roman confronting the

"And are they in the army?"

"No--they're not.  And be damned to them."


Early in 1917 John Pybus sold himself up, lock, stock and barrel,
and after paying all his creditors, disappeared from Winterbourne
with some twenty-five pounds in his pocket.  He disappeared, too,
out of the lives of his sons.  He had cursed them and, without
wishing that the old fellow's curses would come home to roost, they
found it convenient to remain estranged.  Not that they made no
effort to find the old man, or failed to make a magnanimous
gesture.  Probyn, softer-fibred than his brother, happening to be
in the south-west on business, broke a journey at Winterbourne on
one reeking December day, and found the little book-shop in other
hands.  Squeezed in between two bigger buildings rather like a
child in a crowded railway carriage, it reproached Probyn.  It
looked cold and grey.  His father's name had disappeared.  The
paint was cracked and peeling, and Probyn was wearing a fur-lined

He had made inquiries.  His father's putting-up of the shutters had
signalized a voluntary bankruptcy.  John Pybus had departed with
honour, but no one knew what had become of him.  It took Probyn
three months to discover that his father was earning a living as a
tram-conductor in a midland town.  Probyn held out a filial and
magnanimous hand.

It was repulsed.  John Pybus was not to be pitied.  He was quite
capable of working.  He had no intention of accepting three pounds
a week and obscurity in a south-coast watering-place or a London
suburb.  He said in effect:  "You can keep your money; the money
that ought to have gone to the men out there in the trenches."

Obstinate old man.  After that there was silence, and the silence
lasted for ten years.  The two Pybus sons had made use of their
opportunities.  Probyn had bought and sold mills; he had a place at
Windover in Bucks; in 1920 he was knighted; Dolly Pybus became Lady
Pybus; Lancelot was at Eton.  Conrad, still a bachelor, and in the
cream and the plumpness of the forties, had translated sundry
shipping deals into a country estate and culture, and some two
hundred thousand pounds safely stowed away.  So did some of our
great men arrive during those extraordinary years, while old Pybus
drifted about England, an obscure and resolute philosopher.  He
came to rest at last at Castle Craven.  He liked the large sky and
the rolling country, and the cheerful human bustle of the inn, and
the little stone cottage he was allowed to occupy between the
garden of the Saracen's Head and the Castle Field.  He had a niche.
He was both a nobody and a somebody.  He had books, and one or two
intimates.  He had a patron and protector--though he did not need
one--Mr. Backhouse, miller, seed and cake merchant, and man of
property, who owned the Saracen's Head, and kept Pounds, the
cockily-servile young manager, very much at heel.

To some of the irreverent know-alls Conrad and Sir Probyn Pybus
were referred to as "Shipping and Shoddy."  But no one knew that
they had a little old curmudgeon of a father who was "boots" at a
country hotel.  The paternal Pybus was supposed to be dead.  He had
become a mythical figure.  Lady Pybus allowed it to be known that
her father-in-law had been something of a literary man, a
connoisseur, and a merchant who had traded in rare books.  Oh, no,
there had been no soiling of the Pybus fingers.  The Herald's
College had traced the Pybus family into Lincolnshire, good old
stock with a somewhat Dutch flavour.  Lancelot was to go to
Cambridge--Trinity, of course.  He was a dear boy, and so clever.
Lady Pybus's father had built himself a mansion on a Surrey hill.
All was well with the Pybus world.


After his tea each evening, John Pybus fed the pigeons.  White
fantails, blue rocks and half-breeds, they came to him from the red
roofs of the inn's stables and outhouses, and from the ruins of the
castle.  They swarmed and fluttered about the old man, alighting
upon his shoulders and his hands, and often his white head would be
crested with one of the birds.  He fed them with bread-crumbs and
odd handfuls of corn.  With his short pipe stuck in his mouth he
would stand in the midst of these wheeling, fluttering, strutting
birds, and so thick were they at times that he appeared as in a
cloud of living snowflakes.

Any time of the day he had only to take his stand in the stone-
paved yard or broad passage between his cottage and the inn garden,
and whistle his pigeon call, and half a dozen birds would come to
him.  There were some of them ready to follow him into the cottage,
but since the fantails shed white feathers and John Pybus had a
passion for tidiness, he allowed them as far as his doorstep, but
no farther.

The cottage was half stone, half red brick, with a pan-tiled roof.
The kitchen faced the inn.  The window of the living-room looked
out over John Pybus's patch of garden, and beyond it to the green
slopes of the castle field and to the castle itself, with its walls
tufted with wallflower and snapdragon.  Some very old ash trees
grew among the ruins.  The Hart Royal tower still showed its
crenellations black against the sunset.  Beyond it the ground fell
steeply to the river, the banks deep with the shade of beeches, and
always there was a murmuring of water and the play of the wind in
the trees.

Mr. John Backhouse had put Mr. John Pybus into the cottage.  In the
old days the head ostler had occupied it, but since hardly a horse
came into the inn yard, and the garage attendant had seven children
and lived out in Bridge Street, the cottage was at Mr. Pybus's

Mr. Backhouse had--with characteristic abruptness and a twitching
of his grey eyebrows--announced the fact to Mr. Pounds.

"I'm putting Pybus into Castle Cottage."

That was in the days when Charlie Pounds had believed that, as
manager of the Saracen's Head, he had a right to argue with Mr.

"I thought of sleeping the girls in it.  There are three rooms,
counting the sitting-room--"

Mr. Backhouse did not argue.  He was laconic, and wasted no breath.
If a person disagreed with a statement of his he just repeated the

He said:  "I'm putting Pybus into Castle Cottage."

Pounds, who had a face rather like a cake of Castile soap, with two
sultanas for eyes, had begged to object.

"It's waste of good room, sir."

Mr. Backhouse had twitched his long eyebrows, and had asked Mr.
Pounds if he happened to be deaf.

"Did you hear what I said?"

"I did, sir."

"Well, don't waste my time."

John Pybus made his own bed.  It was a very simple affair: a camp-
bed of green canvas, with one army blanket below and one above and
a pair of cotton sheets between them.  His furniture, too, was of
the simplest; a couple of Windsor chairs, an oak table very worm-
eaten, a five-tier deal book-case full of books, a basket chair
with a red cushion, a square of green cord carpet to cover the
floor.  His bedroom floor had no carpet.  On the living-room
mantelpiece in front of a little gilt-framed mirror he kept a
calendar, his pipes, a tobacco tin, and three photographs, the
photos of his wife and his two sons.  It was an ironic, yet human

He fetched in his own water and swept his own floors, though help
was available.  The women liked John Pybus.  He was a clean and
handsome old man.  They spoke of him always as Mr. Pybus, and in an
irreverent age that was no light tribute.  One of the chambermaids--
Sally Summerscales, a sturdy little dark-eyed thing, insisted on
occasional tidyings up, more for the love of the thing than because
the cottage needed it.  But she darned John Pybus's socks, and
patched his shirts, and fussed over him as some women fuss over a
man for the sake of human self-expression.  She was a mixture of
shrewdness and of unsophisticated curiosity.  Mr. Pybus was an
oddity, but to Sally he was an interesting and picturesque oddity.
She chattered to him and told him about her love affairs, and asked
his advice about them, and never took it when it was given.

From the first she had been interested in the photographs on Mr.
Pybus's mantelpiece.  She had asked about them.

"My wife--Sally."

"She's dead, is she?"

"Thirty years or more."

"And who are the gentlemen?"

"My two sons.  They were killed in the war."

"Poor fellows," said Sally, going closer to look at Conrad and
Probyn, and stroking her square chin with a crooked first finger.
"They are not a bit like you, Mr. Pybus."

"They took after their mother."

"So you're all alone?"

"Yes, quite alone, Sally."

"It does seem hard."

"No company is better than poor company."

Sally supposed that it was.  And Mr. Pybus was not quite like
ordinary men.  She had discovered the gentleness in him, but it was
the gentleness of some stout old tree sunning itself in the light
of a tranquil evening.  He had his thoughts and his books, and the
belief that nothing could matter to him very seriously any more.
He put on spectacles to read with.

He read a great deal by the light of a paraffin lamp with a green
shade, sitting in the basket chair with the red cushion, and
wearing horn-rimmed spectacles.  He read poetry and philosophy.  He
was a great admirer of Blake.  He was both classical and modern.
He subscribed to one of the London libraries, and each month he had
a box of books sent down.  He was amazingly up to date in his
knowledge of social tendencies and of scientific thought.  His
interest in life as life was deep and unabated.



Mr. Conrad drove over to Windover.

Mr. John Pybus's presence at Castle Craven within a morning's drive
of both Windover Hall and Chlois Court was a family complication,
and Conrad was a cautious fellow.

Turning in at the lodge gates, between two stone pillars capped
with griffins, he saw before him the famous avenue of beeches
arched like a great green tunnel.  Always there was a soft, cool
movement of air under the spreading boughs of the old trees.  The
grey trunks were spaced like the pillars of a temple, and the cool
drift of the air between them made young Lance Pybus imagine that
he was feeling the breath of the divine afflatus.

He was an imaginative lad; he had a temperament.

Mr. Conrad Pybus, proof against all such fancies, saw the redness
of the Queen Anne house glowing at the end of the avenue.  The old
brick-work had the sun upon it, and the sashes of its windows were
very white.  Chlois Court was bastard Gothic, conceived by some
early Victorian; and though Conrad's house had a more dramatic
exterior than his brother's, Conrad was a little envious of that
old red brickwork.  It was so mellow.  It suggested that Probyn
himself had mellowed more gracefully than had his younger brother.
Yes, there was something Georgian about Probyn.  He had developed a
country manner, or what he conceived to be a country manner.

Conrad stopped his car on the gravel, to the east of the yew hedge
and the terrace.  Through the square openings in the yew hedge he
had glimpses of Probyn's lawns, and the flower borders, and the
pleached limes of the Dutch garden.  It was all very still, and
slightly autumnal, with the dew yet upon it, and some of the old
trees showing here and there a tinge of yellow.  Conrad's broad
nostrils seemed to narrow.  Always it appeared to him that Probyn's
head gardener got better results than his man did at Chlois Court.
Damn the fellow!  Still, his dahlias were always better than
Probyn's.  Jealousy can include the most trivial of details.

You might be jealous of your brother, but you entered his house
informally, and Conrad walked towards the terrace; but in the angle
that the yew hedge made with the south-east corner of the house
young Lance was reading Noel Coward's plays.  He had tucked a deck-
chair into this sheltered corner.  His flannel trousers were well
up to his knees; his dark blue socks were the socks of a rowing
man.  He wore a white, blue-edged Trinity blazer.

"Hallo, Conrad."

"Hallo, my lad."

There was a sulkiness in these salutations, for Probyn's son had
the knack of making his uncle feel aggressive and uncomfortable.
Eton and Trinity!  This second edition of the Pybus text-book had
received the author's corrections.  It was a more complete and
polished product.  It could lounge in a chair, and glancing up
casually address its uncle as "Hallo, Conrad."  Young prig!

"Father in?"

"Try the library."

Lance Pybus resumed his reading, and his uncle walked on towards
the french window of the library.  He disliked his nephew, because
Lance--even as a child--had been a creature of queer aloofness, the
kind of boy who watched you and listened to you with a mysteriously
grave face, and remained insultingly silent.  At least Conrad had
felt his nephew's silence to be an offence.  It had given him the
feeling of being spied upon, criticized, ridiculed.  The boy had
never been anything else but a reticent, conceited, embarrassing
young brute, and the young man looked like being worse than the
boy.  Probyn and Dot had spoilt him.  Obviously.  But Lance's very
looks were very disturbing to his uncle.  There was something
challenging in the eager, upward lift of the head.  His dark hair
gave the impression of being blown back.  It was like the head of
youth running swiftly against the wind.  His broad face, with its
large and sensitive mouth and short nose, had a young matureness, a
reticent but sparkling obstinacy.  And there were those very blue
eyes, either very bright and near or very distant.  They were the
eyes of that incorruptible old man--his grandfather.

Meanwhile, Lance turned his head to watch his Uncle Conrad's
progress along the terrace.  Conrad turned his toes out; he had the
walk of a man who would be very fat at five and fifty; his neck was
too short; he had a greasiness.

Yes--that was it, a suggestion of greasiness, for if Lance was an
offence to his uncle, Conrad was far more subtly unpleasing to his
brother's son.  It was a question of temperament, of fibre, of
vibrations.  Lance might baffle the older man, but Conrad Pybus was
no mystery to the nephew.  It was as though those very blue eyes
looked right through Mr. Conrad's thick and soapy skin, and saw--
Yes, what exactly did he see?  Perhaps it was more feeling than
seeing, a shrinking, a scorn, an indignation, a revulsion from a
nature that was essentially garish and vulgar.  For as a boy Lance
had been absurdly fastidious; he would shrink away from the touch
of certain people; he had loathed fat meat, or the smell of
vinegar.  Conrad had been one of the persons who had nauseated him.

Beneath a lounging exterior there was swiftness and fire.  He had a
dignity of his own, a very definite attitude towards life.  It
included a mental bearing upon his father's business, the "Jason
Wools," and the "Sign of the Golden Fleece."  He disliked the Pybus
advertisements in the daily papers.  They were not redeemed even by
their publication in the advertising pages of Punch.  Why tamper
with an old Greek legend?  Why throw Medea overboard, and stamp a
golden fleece in red upon your packing cases?  Why commercialize
Jason?  No doubt Jason had been nothing but a fighting merchant
adventurer.  But these modern Jasons with their custard powders and
their pills, and their blatant shoutings, and their quite foolish,
cheap exaggerations!  What a modest age!  Language was ceasing to
be able to express the stupendous virtues of soaps and motor-cars,
and bottled beer and shoddy.

Lance might have a temperament, but he was a fighter.  There were
certain people and properties that he could not abide, cheap
people, louts and their loutish English voices, all raw and crude
creatures, the sploshed faces one sees in a city, faces that Nature
did not think it worth her while to finish.  In fact, he hated
ugliness.  He had been known to fly into sudden passionate rages.
It was known among his intimates at Eton that, mocked at by three
louts who had come in a char-a-banc to see the house the King lived
in, he had fought the three of them in a side street.  And though
the three of them had set upon him in chorus, having the peculiar
sense of honour of their class, he had come away prettily battered,
but with his young male pride in the ascendant.  He had seen the
three flinch from him and from his berserker scorn of them.

Nearly ten years ago he had seen Cyrano played in London.  Cyrano
was one of his great men.

Meanwhile it occurred to him to wonder what Uncle Conrad wanted
with his father at ten o'clock on a September morning.  Mr. Conrad
must have left Chlois Court directly after breakfast, and he was a
late riser.  He was one of those fellows who got out of bed like a
wallowing beast emerging from a mudhole.

Lance frowned.  There are occasions when a young man has qualms,
and an unpleasant realization of what those qualms imply.


Sir Probyn Pybus was writing a letter when he became aware of his
brother standing at the open window.

"Hallo, Conrad."

Probyn was red where his brother was sallow.  Tall and ruddy and
rather spare, he had a smooth geniality and very fine manners
which, though put on like the shopwalker's frock coat, fitted him
with some naturalness.  His right eye had a slight cast in it.  His
eyes were of that colour which is neither blue nor green nor grey,
but a blending of all three.  He smiled a great deal.  He had what
Ula Calmady called "the civic manner"; you might count upon seeing
him in mayoral robes, and upon his having his portrait painted in
those robes.  As a matter of fact, his portrait had been painted by
Wycherly, and had been hung in the Academy.

"Come in, my dear fellow."

He had become a euphuist.  He had got into the way of speaking as
though he was receiving endless deputations, or presenting prizes.
When he shook hands he did it with a kind of genial clat, bending
slightly at the hips, but keeping the upper part of himself rigid.

"You are early."

He smiled at his brother.  His strabismic eye, and his grizzled,
clipped moustache, and his ruddiness, and his general air of
condescending prosperity were very familiar to Conrad.  He had been
called "Collars and Cuffs Pybus" at school.  But now he was very
much the merchant prince and country gentleman, wearing his Harris
tweeds and floppy hats, and boots with thick soles to them, and
decorative waistcoats.  On the estate he carried either a gun or a
thick ash stick.  He bred cattle and took prizes at agricultural
shows.  Every morning at eleven, accompanied by his agent, he went
over the farm and the gardens.  Yorkshire saw him less and less
these days, for he had been lucky in his subordinates, and he liked
to think of himself as the great man in the background.

Conrad looked out of temper.  He threw his hat into a chair, and
chose a cigarette from the silver box on his brother's writing-
desk.  Probyn's library was not so full of books as was the library
at Chlois Court.  Its atmosphere was different: it suggested,
rather, the country gentleman, the squire, farmer, fisherman,
sportsman, knight.  It had a mellowness, the vague and genial
shrewdness of its owner's swivel-eye.

"You do a devil of a lot of writing, Probyn."

"Necessity, my dear chap.  Responsibilities--"

Conrad sat down in a leather chair.  When Probyn talked of his
responsibilities--the younger brother was moved to exclaim "Bosh!"
He was inclined to be abrupt with Probyn, perhaps because his
brother's civic manner irritated him.  There was too much clanking
of gold chains.

"I've seen the old man."

Probyn put down his pen.

"Our father?"

"Our reverend parent--if you like.  He cut me dead."

Probyn looked shocked.

"You don't say so.  But where--?"

"Castle Craven.  He's 'boots' at a local pub.  I'd turned in there
for lunch with Ula Calmady.  Beastly awkward."

Probyn got out of his chair and went and stood with his back to the
window.  He had a liking for being on his feet when any alarm was

"By Jove!" he said.  "By Jove.  What a predicament!  And he cut

"Dead.  That's to say--"

"You spoke?"

"I wanted a word or two.  He spat in my face like an old tom-cat."

Probyn made a smooth, deprecating gesture with one hand.  Conrad
still retained so many of his crudities.  He was apt to go off the
deep end.  He had not cultivated a nice, gentlemanly restraint.

"My dear fellow!  Awkward--of course.  But then--mark you, he is--
our father."

His brother's eyes gave him a transient, scornful glance.

"Obviously.  I thought you ought to know.  I thought you might like
to go over--"

"It's conceivable--"

"You'd look a fool--"

"My dear fellow--that point is debatable."  In moments of stress
John Pybus's two sons differed in their attitudes and gestures.
Conrad sat heavily and aggressively in the club-chair, his big
hands spread upon the padded arms like two bunches of bananas.
Probyn, looking down and to one side, stroked with his fingers the
left lapel of his brown tweed coat as though smoothing the fine nap
of the cloth.  He was for conciliation, smoothness.  Conrad was
both cautious and truculent.

"It made me look a fool--caught with a woman like Ula Calmady."

Probyn raised his eyebrows.

"But--you didn't--?"

"Is it likely?  But how the devil--?  Well, you see--when I drove
up--the old chap came out and opened the car door.  We just glared--"

"Very awkward.  But--my dear fellow, it makes me feel conscious of
a kind of humiliation.  'Boots.'  He's an old man."

"He's still a damned tough one."

"My dear fellow, I think we ought to remember--"

Conrad gave his brother a stare, and became explanatory and
aggrieved.  Yes, it was a fact that he and Lady Ursula Calmady had
been seeing a good deal of each other.  He had been minded to bring
the affair to a climax on that particular day, and the last thing
that he had expected was an anti-climax such as the resurrection of
old John!  Because you couldn't do anything with old John.  He had
no instinct for life's business subtleties.  You might have tipped
another sort of man the wink, a man who was capable of seeing the
humour of the thing.  "Say, dad, I want to hook this fish.  Mum's
the word.  You take me?"  Conrad did not put it quite so baldly,
but he made Probyn look a little uncomfortable.  After all, who was
Ursula Calmady?  A woman of good family and of the world.  Might it
not have been better if Conrad had been bold and frank?  Taken the
situation by the collar.

Conrad looked contemptuous.

"Well, would you have done it?"

He had Probyn straddling a fence.

"Very awkward.  You remember, when I attempted a rapprochement?  I
sometimes think that he was a little bit touched in the head."

Conrad threw the end of his cigarette into the grate, and reached
for another.

"He began it.  After all, a fellow needn't lie down under his
father's curses.  Besides--the whole business was absurd.  But
there it is.  Of course, he thought me a beastly snob.  But why
should I pick the old beggar off the pavement at such a damnable
awkward moment--?  'Say, Lady Ula, this is my old man.  He's a bit
of an oddity, of course.'  No, damn it, let's be honest.  The old
chap cut us adrift.  Ridiculous rot, too.  I believe he was a bit
jealous of us.  He was always a rotten bad business man.  But the
question is--"

"Exactly," said Probyn, as though meeting a deputation.  "The
situation must be considered."


Lance had left Noel Coward's book of plays lying face downwards in
the deck-chair.

He happened to be wearing tennis shoes, and in strolling along the
terrace towards the Dutch garden he came within the range of those
two voices.  He was thinking of other things.  Had he been asked
the question he would have replied that there was but little
likelihood of his being interested in anything that Uncle Conrad
might have to say to his father.  At that critical moment, when he
was about to pass in front of the library window, he had paused to
watch the sunlight making a chequer on the grass under one of the
cedars.  He observed such things.  It seemed to him that life might
be spent in observing birds, and the effects of sunlight, and the
changing colours of the year.

Somewhere, at the back of his consciousness he heard Conrad's thick
voice saying:

"It made me look like a fool, caught with a woman like Ula

Lance came back to his realities.  He had no intention of listening
to his uncle's confidences.  The very suggestion that there should
be any relationship whatsoever between Conrad and a woman could be
nothing but an offence to a young man who had gone three times as a
boy to hear Gwen Ffrangon Davies sing in The Immortal Hour.  Ula
Calmady?  The name had the flavour of a night-club, and Lance could
associate his uncle with night-clubs.  Well, it might be humorous.
That fat bounder!  And Lance was about to pass on when he heard
something more singular.  He could not help hearing it.  With one
of those flashes of intuition he realized that he had a right to
hear it.

They were speaking of his grandfather.

But his grandfather was supposed to be dead.

Lance did not remember old John Pybus.  As a very young child he
had seen him but twice, and the memories had faded.  There was no
portrait of the old man in the house.


Beyond the old bowling-green that was now a tennis-court, and the
brick and stone Georgian shadow-house with its lead cupola, someone
with French feeling had long ago planned a "Bosquet."  Planted with
old yews, box and holly, it held at the end of its little secret
path a dim and windless space paved with worn flagstones.  The
white figure of a marble nymph poised upon a pedestal, and half
lost in the dark foliage, seemed both to advance and to retreat.  A
moss-stained stone seat stood in a square recess.

Lance stared at the figure of the marble girl, but at the moment it
was no more to him than a white blur contrasting with the dark
foliage.  His face was very grave.  The Bosquet was a favourite
retreat of his, with its shadows and silence and its moist green
gloom.  It smelt of box.  It seemed to symbolize the change that
had come over him during the last year; he had been conscious of a
withdrawing, of a significant aloofness.  He had retreated so much
more into himself, a new and rather mysterious self.  There were
times when in one of his fanciful moods he could see himself as a
young faun lurking in these thickets and peering out at those other
human figures moving in the unmysterious sunlight.  He had had
qualms, doubts, discomforts.  He had a new pair of eyes and a
reinformed consciousness.  He had been seeing his mother and father
as strangers.  He seemed to have been making rather shocking and
disturbing discoveries.  These people of his!  How was it?  And how
beastly of him!  To be suddenly ashamed of your father and mother,
to be able to see all their weak points, to be vividly and hotly
conscious of certain defects!  Was he an infernal prig?  He had not
wanted to see that which a something in himself was compelling him
to see.  He could not help it.  And at times he would feel a sudden
rush of tenderness and compassion, impulses of affection that
alternated with moods of silent hostility.

Ten minutes ago he had been standing outside the library window
listening to the self-revealments of his father and his uncle.  His
grandfather was alive.  That unknown and rather mysterious old man
whom he had been brought up to think of as an eccentric bibliophile
continued to exist as "boots" at a country inn.  An anomalous
figure, a figure which appeared peculiarly disconcerting to those
two other men!  But how, and why?  What were the motives that could
persuade a man to cut his own father?

And what of his own father?  It would appear that Sir Probyn
regarded the situation as one that required tactful handling.  They
ought to do something for the old man.  Certainly.  But what?

"Well--if you think you can resurrect him after all these years!
Have him to live with you, what?  Besides, he'd turn you down."

This had come from Uncle Conrad.

"Most disconcerting, my dear fellow."

"Call it--an infernal complication.  I'd put down three hundred a
year to pension the old boy--but I'm damned if I want him living
within a morning's drive of me--as boots at a pub.  No, it's not
our fault--"

Sir Probyn had allowed that such proximity could not be permitted.
Something would have to be done.  Should the situation become known
it would create a false impression, an unpleasant atmosphere.  The
world could not be expected to understand old John Pybus's
eccentric stubbornness.  The world would think--

"It likes to think its bloodiest," said Conrad; "especially about
successful men like us."


Lance sat down on the moss-stained stone seat.  He still seemed to
hear his father's voice suavely conspiratorial and bland.  Sir
Probyn had said that he would drive over to Castle Craven--by
himself, of course--and visit the Saracen's Head.  He had suggested
the making of certain proposals to John Pybus, proposals that
included independence, a settled income of--say--500 a year, and a
little house on the south coast or in the suburbs.  Conrad had
agreed to the proposals, but had shown a scepticism.  You might
take this old horse to the water, but you could not make him drink.

And to Lance Pybus hidden in the Bosquet came the consciousness of
shame.  His father and his uncle were ashamed of their father--
while he--!  But was his the same kind of shame?  Was he not
ashamed of their shame?  Yet, what did he know of old John Pybus,
this grandfather of his who was "boots" at a country inn?  Might
not the old boy be a shabby reprobate, an impossible old man, a
very solid skeleton hanging in the family cupboard?

A fellow had to be fair.  And in fairness to those others he had to
remember those qualms of his own, those very personal memories of
the stuffy, stuccoed, semi-detached house at Putney which had been
followed by a very new and raw red villa-mansion on the outskirts
of an industrial town.  Eton and Trinity and Windover Hall, and
these beech woods, and the pleasant spaciousness and beauty, and
the intimate aloofness of this very Bosquet had come to him as the
result of his father's climbings.  Material success.  His father
had always been generous.

What right had he to criticize his father?  He could remember the
double and secret shame of the last May Week when Sir Probyn and
Lady Pybus had put up at the "University Arms," and his people had
met the people of his friends, and he had been conscious of
torturing differences.  His mother talked too much and too loudly.
His father--!  What a beastly sensitiveness was his!  Surely you
ought to be able to respect your father, and especially the human
foibles of your father?  Wasn't it a question of affection?  Why
these hypersensitive qualms, this feeling of vague antagonism?

Which was the more vulgar, a pretentious shame, or snobbish
mortification in the presence of that shame?

For Lance was in the first flush of his season of ideals.  He meant
to take life with immense seriousness.  He was serious.  There were
the realities, or what seemed to him to be the realities, love,
beauty, endeavour, the following of your inspiration, accomplishment.
He had a young dignity.  Youth can have a stateliness of its own,
inward pageantry, a graciousness of movement.  It is the age of
protest, of a passionate questioning, of eyes that look up and out.
Its very defects are active, not passive.

"A man ought to know.  I--myself--ought to know.  Let's be honest."

He was a far more subtle creature than his parents, and perhaps he
knew it.  Their reactions were so obvious.  And a part of his
trouble was that while he saw--or thought he saw--these two people
as two rather mechanical figures moved by the most simple of
impulses--they understood him not at all.  Their visualizing of him
was arbitrary and conventional.  He was the son, the heir, the
gilded youth, success in the flesh, Eton and Trinity, the future
dictator, the wearer of the Golden Fleece.  They had no knowledge
of the bird in him, of the musician, the saint, the child of
original sin, the scribbler, the dreamer, the rebel.  They wanted
him to be the conventional son, the "Lance, old lad"--the nicely
polished product of their material union.  And he wasn't.

Well--what of it?  He got up off that Roman seat, and walking like
a young prophet full of inward stirrings out into the sunlight,
turned instinctively towards the Dutch garden and the splash of its
little fountain.


His mother was there.

She, too, liked glitter, and was pleased as a child is pleased by
it.  Lance could remember her in a purple dress all covered with
silver sequins, but now her stoutness had to be more decorously
draped.  But at night--on state occasions--she had taken to wearing
a tiara.  It seemed that any bright thing or any gaily-coloured
object had an irresistible lure.  Had she had her way she would
have covered herself with pieces of lace, and ribbons and scarfs,
and brooches and bangles, but the sophisticated simplicity of the
day and her modiste had compelled her to refrain.

The french, panelled drawing-room of Windover had not satisfied
Lady Pybus.  She had filled it with lacquered furniture, and
brilliant cushions and tuffets, and painted shades with gold
fringes, and orange and blue rugs upon a black and polished floor.
Her exuberant taste had invaded the Dutch garden.  Liking comfort
and shelter and the splash of water she had had erected upon one of
the little panels of grass at the end of the water cistern an
orange and black striped hammock bed.  She was in the act of
settling herself under the awning when her son came to one of the
openings in the pleached lime hedge.

Lady Dot was very plump.  She wore very short skirts.  Her bobbed
head of very fair hair stood out like a nimbus.  She was one of
those women with a high colour and a beaked nose, and eyes of hard,
bright blue.  Her voice was rather high pitched, decisive, and a
little brusque, never changing its tone or its timbre and, like her
voice, she was without modulations.  She was a woman who always set
out to manage people or a situation with the same assurance with
which--had she been a cottage woman--she would have washed her
children and put them to bed.  She was utterly without shadow
effects.  She said at once and with confidence exactly what came
into her head.

And her son, standing there at one of the green windows, saw a very
stout pair of legs in flesh-coloured stockings, and that atrocity
of a hammock bed, an orange blot in the centre of the sunk garden.
It was an atrocity, insulting all those old, tired, gentle colours,
the grey of the stone, the soft rust red of the old bricks, the
lily leaves, the grass, the dark clipped yews, the lavender, the

He had dared to call the thing an atrocity.

"My dear, you're too squeamish.  Besides--if I want to be comfy--"

She might have had it put anywhere but in that perfect little
garden made for the gentlewoman of another day, and for brocades of
old rose and grey and lavender, the subtle shades of twilight
moods.  His mother was all full noon.  Had he tried to tell her
some of the intimate truths that a young man never tells to a
mother, she would have exclaimed, "How--absurd!  Really--my dear--
you ought to see a doctor."  Having no reticence, and being a woman
who was quite ready to discuss her husband with other women, she
did not understand the reticences of her son.  In fact she was not
aware of his reserve.  Lance had silent moods, and silence to Lady
Dot was merely the absence of anything that needed saying.

Her son watched the swaying of the hammock bed, the subsidence of
the cushions, and his mother's very large and flesh-coloured legs
arranging themselves.  He thought "She shouldn't wear those
stockings," and while he was thinking of it she looked up and
discovered him.  She was able at all times to find an immediate use
for anybody.

"Lance, old lad, I've forgotten the oil of lavender.  Get it--will

"Yes, mater."

"And you might see if Mills has put a man to mend the holes in the
stop-netting.  The Ashleys are coming in this afternoon."

He was half-way to the house when he heard her calling:


He hated being called Lancie.


"If Conrad's still there--tell him I have a bone to pick with him.
Send him down here."



John Pybus had gone to the bank.

At half-past eleven every Saturday morning he would appear at the
doorway of the Saracen's Head wearing a hard felt hat and a black
coat, for this was both an official and a personal occasion.  He
would cross the cobbles of the market square and, passing between
two of the pollarded lime trees, enter the Castle Craven branch of
Barclay's Bank.  John Pybus had a banking account.  He received a
pound a week, his cottage, and his food; and his tips amounted to
quite a comfortable little sum.  His needs were few; tobacco and
his books his only luxuries, though to John Pybus they were

The sallow young cashier treated him with respect.

"Good morning, Mr. Pybus."

"Good morning to you."

John Pybus would bring out of his pocket a canvas bag which, when
emptied upon the counter, would produce a pound note or two, some
silver, and a few coppers.  He carried the paying-in-slip
separately, all the details neatly filled in, and the cashier knew
that there was no need to check Mr. Pybus's figures.  The old man
had a cheque-book, and it is possible that he wrote three cheques a
year.  He had never been known to draw a cheque to self.  The money
remained on the right side of the counter.

"Very muggy to-day, Mr. Pybus."

Mr. Pybus would reply with a "Very" or an "I agree with you," and
after giving the cashier a nod and a glance from his blue eyes,
would walk out of the bank and back to the inn, and hang up his
felt hat, and change from the cloth coat to the alpaca.  He would
be away for ten minutes, never more.  He was not interfered with.
Mr. Pounds, the manager, had realized that interference was neither
necessary nor advisable.

John Pybus was hanging up his felt hat when Miss Vallence hailed
him from the office.


"Yes, miss."

"A gentleman's called to see you.  He's in the lounge."

Mr. Pybus gave her a stare.

"What name?"

"He didn't give any name.  He said you'd know him."

That she was curious about his visitor John Pybus was well aware,
for Miss Vallence was curious about everybody.  It was part of her
business to be curious about people, especially when you never knew
whether a lady and gentleman were man and wife.  "It's always the
man that looks sheepish.  The women are as bold as brass.  Besides--
a case is such a noosance.  It isn't nice."  Miss Vallence made
John Pybus think of a very yellow canary shut up in a cage, ever
ready to pipe "Sweet-sweet," but keeping a black eye brightly upon
the realities.

John Pybus changed into his alpaca coat and walked towards the
lounge.  He had his suspicions.  A gentleman who gave no name when
inquiring for the hotel "boots" would probably be a Pybus.  And
after all--a name was superfluous; but when John Pybus saw Probyn
sitting alone in the lounge, with that swivel eye of his pointed
like a gun over the top of the daily paper, John Pybus was not

He said, "Good morning, sir.  Anything I can do for you?"

Probyn rose rather hurriedly, leaving the paper on the round table.
It is probable that he saw his opportunity in the emptiness of the
lounge.  He held out a hand.

"After all these years--surely?  I heard from Conrad.  I was--

John Pybus made no attempt to take his son's hand, and Probyn, with
an expostulating and embarrassed smile, withdrew it.

"Well, as you please.  I wished to make the first move.  Are we
unreconcilable?  It seems a pity."

Old Pybus watched his son's face.

"Lunching here?"

"No, at the White Hart.  I left my car there."

"You'd get a better lunch here."

"You think so?"

"But you wouldn't enjoy it.  Conrad didn't.  I'm just going to have
my dinner."

Probyn had the air of a man being heckled at a political meeting.
He continued to smile; he looked hot; he stood, bending slightly,
with his hands on his hips.

"Do you know how many years--?"

"About ten," said old Pybus promptly; "my memory and my digestion
are as good as ever.  As I was saying--I was just going to have my

Probyn made some sort of polite noise.

"Usually--I have it with the rest of the staff; but if you have
anything to say--"

"Believe me--I have."

"Very well.  I'll take my dinner to the cottage.  You can come and
see me eat it."


So, Sir Probyn, looking rather like a man who had lost his
chauffeur, had to stand in the coaching-yard while his father was
collecting his dinner in the kitchen.  Old John came out of a side
door into the yard, with a plate of roast beef, greens and potatoes
in one hand, and a slice of bread with a piece of Cheshire cheese
on it in the other.  He jerked his white head at Probyn.

"This way, sir."

Incorrigible old derider of the higher conventions!  The plate was
very full of gravy, and old Pybus walked with great deliberation,
assuming that his son was treading on hot pebbles.

"Musn't spill the gravy--you know--sir."

Probyn cleared his throat.

"You always loved irony."

"Not a bit of it.  Gravy's gravy.  Like to soak my bread in it at
times.  So they made you a knight."

"They did."

"Saw it in a paper.  What did they do it for?"

"As a recognition--I gather--"

"Public services, patriotism, self-sacrifice.  Didn't buy it, did
you, Probyn?"

"The gibe is unworthy--"

"Ooops--mind the gravy!  Boiled potatoes to-day--you see.
Personally, I prefer them mashed--with butter.  Plenty of butter."

And Probyn, following in step behind him, was thinking--"You old
devil!  Just the same as ever.  What am I doing here?  Wasting my
time--of course.  But I'll do the generous thing.  I can always
remind myself that I did make an effort.  Why on earth can't the
old fellow be--respectable.  No tact, no consideration.  Never

Over the grey cobbles between the ancient red brick walls Probyn
followed his father, who persisted in going at a snail's pace,
talking the while as though wielding a playful scourge.

"Democratic age, sir.  But a handle is as much a handle as ever.
Your dustman has to be Mr. This, and your bricklayer's labourer Mr.
That, when they are mentioned by the local press for getting run
over when drunk, or for growing a prize pumpkin.  And the scullery-
maid is Miss So and So.--Bosh, isn't it?  Better a plain Bill Sikes
and a Nancy Lee.  Mr. John Pybus!  What use--what bloody use--as
the vulgar would put it--is the Mr. to me?  But then--of course--a

They had reached the green door of Castle Cottage, and old Pybus
turned and looked wickedly at his son, though there was no
wickedness in him.

"This gravy!  Both hands full.  Mind opening the door, sir."

Probyn opened it.  He saw the red-tiled floor, and the Windsor
chairs, and the dahlias in the little garden on the southern side
glowing like velvet and cloth of gold beyond the lattice windows.
He was thinking at the moment of that saying of Conrad's that old
John was jealous of his sons, and had always been jealous of them.
Big fellows looking down at him.  Yes, little men were often touchy
and self-centred and arrogant.

"Take a chair, sir.  You'll excuse me going on with my dinner.
Have to be back on duty at a quarter to one."

Probyn let his father pass, and then closed the door, but he did
not sit down.  He was looking at the two photos on the mantelpiece.
John Pybus saw the look.

"My two sons, sir; killed in the Great War--both of them."

Probyn made a movement as of pulling down his waistcoat and
settling his collar.

"You won't accept sentiment.  Can't we delete the irony and come to
realities.  I'm a business man."

"Exactly," said his father, and sat down to his dinner.  "And
what's the business to-day?  I think I know, my lad.  Much better
leave me alone.  I shan't interfere with you."

His son, standing by the window, and looking out at his father's
little garden, felt the muteness of a discredited motive.  As a boy
Probyn had been a plausible youngster, full of florid yet ingenious
excuses, but always his father had poked a finger at the
fabrication, and the thing had burst like a bladder.  Besides, few
motives are single and direct, and Probyn's motives were mixed.  He
had good nature.  He liked to feel well with himself, and he was
wishing to feel well with himself in his attitude towards his
father.  He would rather do the generous thing.  Moreover, there
was Lance to be considered, and Lance's mother, who had said with
abruptness that she would never have the old man in her house.

Meanwhile, John Pybus was contentedly eating his dinner, and Probyn
knew that something had to be said.  He turned and sat down in one
of the Windsor chairs.

"May I put it to you, father, that I should like to make things


Old Pybus paused with a piece of potato on his fork.

"Easier!  I'm not complaining.  I've got all I want.  How could you
make it easier?"

"There is no need for you to remain--"

The blue eyes fixed him.

"Pension me off.  Put me comfortably on the shelf somewhere?  I'm
quite contented here.  You need not worry, my lad.  I am not going
to complicate the new coat of arms."

Probyn winced.  For with unerring aim his father had thrown a stick
and knocked down and marked out the principal motive.

"You're not fair to me.  If you remember--on a previous occasion--I

John Pybus gazed at him fixedly for a moment, and then went on with
his dinner.  He had every appearance of enjoying it.

And then, while Probyn was trying to sort out his motives and to
make a respectable pattern out of them, his father asked him a

"How's your boy?"

"Lance.  He's up at Cambridge."

"Putting him in the business?"

"It's there for him.  You won't be offended if I say that it is a
very fine business."

Old Pybus broke bread.

"Hope he'll like it.  Though making money's not living, Probyn.  I
suppose--he is all--that you want him to be?"

"I have no fault to find."

"Splendid.  The perfect little gentleman, God bless him!  Got his
own car--I suppose?"

"He has.  It's justified.  Lance isn't--"

The blue eyes observed him.

"I wish you luck with him, Probyn.  There is no bitterness between
me and your boy.  Don't spoil him."

Probyn's colour seemed to come quickly.

"Really--father!  You did not spoil us, did you?"

"But your mother did.  There--there--let us leave it at that.  I
suppose when a boy is up at Cambridge--he wouldn't be pleased to
have it known that his grandfather--.  Quite natural.  I'm not
quarrelling with the prejudice.  What do you make the time?"

Probyn pulled out a gold watch.

"Five and twenty minutes to one."

"Thanks.  I must eat my cheese.  You need not worry about me,
Probyn.  Never was better in my life.  I shan't intrude.  No wish
to.  Besides--no one here need be told--that because my name's
Pybus--you take me?  No obligation anywhere."

His big white head caught the sunlight.  He smiled.

"My good wishes to your boy--anyway.  He's young.  A fresh start.
New blood.  Hope he'll miss our mistakes.  Good luck to him!"


Lance had been writing.

This room on the third floor was very much his own, impulsively
untidy; the room of a young man who, with a freedom of gesture,
distributed his belongings where and how he would.  Furnished much
like a college keeping-room, it had an additional door which
communicated with his bedroom, and a south and an east window, each
filled with that green English landscape.  For writing he used a
deal table covered with a powder-blue cloth, which he could move
from window to window as his mood shifted.  The east window gave
him more open country, the south the beech avenue, the park and the
distant woods.  The general colour of the room was a soft and
indefinite rose.  An oak bureau, in which Lance kept his private
papers, stood between the passage door and the south window.

"My son writes--you know."

Lady Pybus allowed the information to be broadcast.  It was an
interesting and refined fact, or a kind of gentlemanly trick which
was allowable, provided it was not taken too seriously.  Lady Pybus
was a little proud of it.  Lance helped to edit one of the
Cambridge magazines.  He spoke at the "Union," gravely and a little
fiercely on subjects that were in the empyrean so far as his mother
was concerned.  She had never read any of his work.  He never
showed it to her.  He was funny and secretive about his scribbling.

That morning he had written at the top of a page--

"Who will hold up the sky for me when I go for the Apples of the

What a question to ask!  And for a Pybus!  His mother would have
looked brightly blank over it.  If the apples were golden apples,
and there was any difficulty about them, Lance had better ask his
father to write a cheque.

But Lance himself had got no further with it that morning.  He was
standing at the east window looking down at a car that was standing
on the gravel.  So his father was taking the Buick.  There were
three cars in the Windover garage, the Daimler, the Buick, and
Lance's little Talbot.  His father was going alone.  Lance saw
Wyman the chauffeur standing aside, and his father at the steering-
wheel pulling on a pair of wash-leather gloves.  It was unusual for
his father to drive a car, especially so without Wyman beside him.
Sir Probyn drove rather badly, and was helpless when trouble

To Lance the suggestion was irresistible.  His father was driving
over alone to Castle Craven to seek out old John Pybus and to
persuade him to be respectably buried in some suburban villa.
Youth confronted one of its problems.  What manner of man was this
John Julian Apostasius Pybus?  The name had the flavour of old
vellum.  For to Lance the fiercedly sensitive, with his almost
uncanny insight into the workings of his father's mind, the
discovery of his grandfather had quickened certain curiosities.

He watched the blue Buick slide into the black slot of the beech
avenue.  He was conscious of a restlessness.  Standing idly beside
the table and tapping it with his fingers, he looked at what he had
written, and at the white space below it.

"Just what I am," he thought, "a question and a blank sheet.  What
does one write on the page of one's self?  What can one write
without knowing?"

He turned the page.  He was in no mood to sit in a chair and
scribble.  Going down and calling one of the dogs, he made for the
open country.


Sir Probyn was back at Windover by four o'clock.  He looked tired.
He glanced at a picture paper while he drank his tea; and Lance was
as silent as his father.  Lady Pybus, who treated her menfolk like
children, was yet full of rare retrainings.  She read the daily
paper, yet she could never refrain from reading portions of it
aloud, and from making comments upon the tendencies of the day.

"Really!  I call it absolutely scandalous!  They ought to do
something," the "They" being the Government, or Scotland Yard, or
Public Opinion, or the Press.  Lady Pybus reposed upon public
opinion as upon a pillow.

Lance escaped.  He strolled round to the garage where the Buick,
covered with dust, was standing under the glass shelter for Wyman
to wash her down.  Lance happened to know the Buick's mileage, for
he had driven her the previous day.  The speedometer recorded the
fact that his father had driven 113.6 miles.  A map and route-book
spread upon the tail of the two-seater gave the distance to Castle
Craven as 66 miles.

The coincidence appeared conclusive.

Windover dined at 7.30.  Lance, on his way downstairs after
dressing, heard his mother's door open.  His father came out, but,
turning back with his hand on the handle, answered some question of
his wife's.

"What?  No other alternative.  Well, one could not have done more.
He always was a little eccentric."

Lance heard his own name uttered by his mother's voice.  His
father's back was turned, and Lance continued a swift and soft

"Quite so.  Much better that he shouldn't."

So they were not going to tell him.  He was to be given no key to
the family cupboard and, somehow--he resented this exclusion.  What
did they mistrust?  His common sense or his curiosity or his
youthfulness?  Or was it parental consideration?  He had no wish to
be considered in that sort of way.  But parental prejudices are
regular and universal, a part of the social scheme.  Fashions
change, but the passion to possess and to cover up is always in the
picture.  His mother danced and wore short skirts.  That was about
the only difference between her and his maternal grandmother.

After dinner, Lance went up to his room and shut the door, but he
did not switch on the lights.  He carried a chair to the open south
window and, straddling the chair, looked at a sky that grew
brilliant with stars.

"I want to see for myself," he thought.

Yes, that was life, seeing things for yourself.



Lance drove fast.  He had youth's swiftness and its love of
swiftness without youth's recklessness.  He had, too, much
imagination to be reckless, for the reckless are those who cannot
see round life's corners.  With the chalk hills and high beech
woods behind him he crossed Oxfordshire, going west.  He had no
great love for flat country, with its root crops and its stubbles
and its endless cattle in endless fields.  He was out upon
adventures; he pushed the little Talbot hard; his hair, blown back
from his bare head, made the swiftness of the adventure visible.

Then, with the hill country rising to him once more, he came to
Castle Craven.  Capturing its steepness, and captured by its
soaring austerity, he pulled up in its market square.  He sat there
a moment, conscious of the grey town's atmosphere, as of something
splendid and spacious, yet intimate.  Those six soaring pinnacles,
each with its gold wind-vane, the blue spaces of the sky, the white
clouds sailing, a wind ruffling his hair.  The town made him think
of a ship at sea, sailing that rolling landscape, with the wind
alive in her rigging.

Over on his left the portico of the White Hart wore its turban of
flowers.  The Saracen's Head was a little lower down.  Lance parked
his car by the Cross, and walked across to the White Hart.  He was
drawing a bow at a venture.

In the office of the White Hart a girl, looking up from a ledger,
saw this young man with the wind still in his blue eyes and his

"Can you tell me whether you have anyone named Pybus here?"

The girl came to the office window.  She had a rather sullen face.

"Staying here?"

"No, on your staff."

He smiled, and she felt compelled to smile back at him.

"Oh--you must mean the Saracen's Head?"

"Do I?  Thanks so much."

"Old John--the 'boots.'  Everyone calls him Mr. Pybus."

"Out of respect--I suppose!"

"Well--I suppose so.  I've heard--"

But her sullenness hid a sensitive self-consciousness, and
overwhelming her suddenly, it sent her back to her ledger.

"The Saracen's Head's a few yards down."

"Thanks so much."

She watched him walk towards the hotel door, and she allowed
herself to wonder who he was, and what he wanted with old Pybus.
Such a good-looking lad and not in the ordinary way.  Interesting.
He had a mouth that was irresistible to some women; they thought of
him as lying with his head in their arms.  Moreover, he had the
"County" look, that indefinable air.  It was probable that he
belonged to some family which had employed old Pybus, and had
remained interested in him.  Not like this beastly ledger!  She
scratched in a "bath" and a "breakfast," and wished that she had
kept Lance there a little longer.  He had one of those faces which
seem to light up from within.  Most of the faces that the girl of
the ledger saw were so dead.

Lance went back to the Talbot, and drove it into the "Saracen's"
yard.  This time he varied his approach shot.  He returned to the
square, and entering by the front door, saw John Pybus in his usual
place with the brass gong like a halo behind his big head.

Lance said.

"Can I get tea here?"

He had a pleasant, quick courtesy, because he felt a natural
respect for people, especially for old people.

"Certainly, sir.  Would you like it in the lounge?"

"I should--please."

"For one, sir?"

"Yes, for one."

Old Pybus looked hard at him, but knew him not from Adam.

"I'll tell the waiter, sir."

"Thanks.  Are you the manager?"

"No, the 'boots,' sir."

"I have left my car in the yard.  If it's in the way--"

"I'll see the garage man, sir.  Plenty of room to-day.  Not

"No--not staying."

Lance walked into the lounge thinking "So--that's my grandfather!"
But what an unexpected figure!  And so unexpected did Lance find it
that he sat down in one of the lounge chairs with his blue eyes
staring.  He was conscious of a curious excitement.  He had come
over to Castle Craven, with a self-created image of an old man in
his mind, and when he tried to recover that image he found that it
had vanished.  All that he could remember about it was that it had
been large and murky and just a little sinister, and that it had
included some of the features of his uncle and his father.  It had
been a composite image.  And instantly the reality had effaced it--
that vivid little, upright figure, so clean and alert, with its
striking head and fearless eyes.

He was both astonished and excited.  There were other people in the
lounge, touring motorists full of chatter; but Lance was conscious
of a stillness, a kind of inward silence.  It seemed to him that
something incalculable and significant had occurred.  He was still
on the threshold of the adventure when the waiter came and stood by

"Tea, sir?"

Lance came out of his stare.

"Yes, please."

The waiter was turning away when Lance detained him.

"I say, I have left my car in the yard.  There's a map in it.
Would you mind asking the porter."

"Gone to his tea--I think, sir."

"I mean--the little old man with the big head."

"Yes, sir--old Mr. Pybus; gone to his tea, sir."

"Never mind, I'll get it myself."

He went for the map, but saw no sign of his grandfather's big white
head.  He was a little disappointed.  It was possible that this was
going to be a rather baffling business.  How did one get to know an
old man who was "boots" at a country hotel?  How did you approach
him?  For to Lance the inspiration of the adventure lay in the
temporary hiding of his own identity; he wanted to approach his
grandfather as a stranger, to look at him with clear, impartial,
yet eager eyes.  For the situation was unique.  Here was the
original and almost mythical Pybus, a rather mysterious old fellow,
waiting to be discovered and explored by his own grandson who had
appeared as a casual young man in a car.

Lance's excitement had its tinge of emotion.  Also, it was
sublimated curiosity suffused with a sense of the picturesque and
the singular.  He had the qualities of an artist, a quick eye for
the dignity and the spacing of a situation.  He sat down to his
tea.  He reviewed his first impression of the old man, and it was
that of a white head seen against a background of gold.  A
venerable head with a halo.  Yes, that was the inspired word--
Venerable.  From that moment he christened his grandfather--"The


When, after hurrying through his tea, Lance went out into the hall,
his grandfather was absent.  He strolled to the door, filled and
lit a pipe, and considered the situation.  Too direct an approach
would appear clumsy.  If he waited it was probable that his
grandfather would return to his place by the brass gong, but how
public would be the opportunity!  How could you ever begin to talk
intimately to an hotel "boots" in such a place?

Well, why not explore?  He might happen upon his grandfather in one
of the passages, or in the coaching yard; he could get into
conversation with him, ask him about the castle.  The way to the
castle ruins lay through the Saracen yard.  Lance followed the
inspiration, but it failed at first to show him that little old
figure in the alpaca coat.  He strolled to the end of the yard,
past a group of loitering chauffeurs who were chaffing one of the
Saracen maids.  He both saw and heard a fluttering of wings, and
rounding the red angle of an old brick coachhouse, came suddenly
upon his grandfather, the centre of a cloud of birds.  Old Pybus
was feeding his pigeons.

Lance's head went up.  He had a way of throwing it back when
anything arrestive--a face, a landscape, or a picture--caught his
attention.  His eyes lit up, and in the smile of them there was a
sudden quality of tenderness.  Father Time and the pigeons!  He saw
one bird perched like a living crest on the old man's white head.
The birds were on his hands and shoulders and round his feet, and
old Pybus's face wore an absorbed and meditative smile.

Lance had paused, and when he walked slowly on, it was with a
feeling of exultation.  Here was his chance, and what a chance!  It
seemed to him that he was going to speak to someone who straightway
would be a friend, an old man whose hands were stretched out to
these fluttering birds.  How unexpected and how suggestive!  But
would the birds be shy of a stranger?

Again he paused, standing a little way off.

"Shall I frighten them?"

Old Pybus looked up and round.

"You, sir?  No.  They are only shy of children."

"The catapult boy.  Little beasts."

"I was one, sir.  It's natural--at that age.  What's natural--has
to be thought of."

Lance drew nearer.

"Wonder if they'll come to me?"

"Hold out your hands, sir."

"But there's nothing in them.  Wouldn't that be swindling?"

Old Pybus gave him a quick attentive look.  "There's a piece of
bread in my coat pocket.  Right hand side.  You can have it."

"That's very good of you," said Lance with eyes that saw John Pybus
as his sons had never seen him.

He felt for the bread in his grandfather's pocket, and standing
beside him and crumbling it became a part of the cloud of birds.
His impressions were quick and vivid.  The birds had no fear of
him; they settled upon his wrists and shoulders even as they
settled on his grandfather's, and it seemed to Lance that he and
his grandfather were sharing some beautiful rite.  "You have made
them very trusting."

"I have fed them like this for seven years."

"Every day?"

"Winter and summer--but in winter I feed them before dinner."

"Where do they come from?"

"Our pigeon lofts and the castle.  The castle's full of the blue

"I was going to look at the castle.  Can I get to it down this

"Yes, sir, past my cottage and over the field."

Lance wanted to say to him, "Don't call me sir.  It is I who ought
to call you sir."

"Is that your cottage?"

"Yes, sir."

"Looks out on the castle."

"It does.  The barbican used to be there in the old days.  They
have filled up the ditch."

"Very peaceful.  A place to read or write in."

"That's so," said his grandfather; "I read a lot.  Books stay with

Lance, with a smiling softness of the eyes, looked down at his
grandfather.  But inwardly he was looking up to him.  What a man of
surprises!  With that venerable head and thoughtful face of his,
full of the humility of service, yet resolute in his pride, with
birds and books for his friends, and that ruin close to his

"What books do you read, sir?"

The "sir" slipped out, and old Pybus's blue eyes gave a curious
flicker.  This young man was unusual, very unusual.  There was
something about him. . . .

"Solid books--most of them.  I read a lot of poetry, Blake and

"Blake's great.  And novels?"

"A few.  Conrad.  There aren't any more Conrads left for me to
read.  And he's dead."

"I know that feeling.  And Hewlett's dead.  What a book--'The
Forest Lovers!'"

"'Rest Harrow' was bigger."

"Different.  And what a figure--with his flowers and his shepherds
and his Wiltshire downs!"

"Talking of figures--Hudson--now."

"Ah, Hudson," said Lance, with a little thrill in his voice.

And--then--suddenly--they looked at each other, and in that look
there was a kindling of the emotions, a question, a wonder.  Each
had a feeling of subtle infection, of a drawing together, of some
mysterious spiritual relationship.  To Lance the thing was becoming
exquisitely real.  For the old man the feeling had a disturbing,
puzzling strangeness.

"Care to see my books?"

"I'd love to."

"I'm free from four till six.  They treat me very well here.  A lad
comes in to help."

"I'm glad of that," said Lance.

His grandfather's blue eyes seemed to grow big and strange.  Why
did he say he was glad?  And he was glad.  You caught the
vibrations of it--in his voice.


John Pybus had five shelves of books, but the first things that
Lance happened to notice in that austere little room were the
photos of his father and his uncle on the mantelpiece.  They had
been taken many years ago, but even from the doorway Lance had
recognized the flabby pallor of Conrad's full-moon face, and his
father's oblique glances.  But he paid no heed to them.  He was all
for continuing to be the unknown young man until he and his
grandfather should have come closer to each other.  Meanwhile, he
crossed towards John Pybus's bookshelves, but paused by the window,
one of those broad, low windows that one finds in old cottages.  It
gave to Lance the sheaved splendour of dahlias and tall asters,
with the grey walls of the castle and the gracious curves of the
ash trees rising to a blue and white sky.  The outlook from his
grandfather's window had beauty and tranquillity.  It offered you
glimpses of distant hills, and of the Castle Field, with its banks
and hollows very green in the sheeted sunlight.  It had the
spaciousness and the dignity of a fine picture.

"That's a good thing to live with, sir."

"Yes, you go out to it," said old Pybus, "and it comes in to you.
The older you grow--the more beauty gets you."


"Depends on your eyesight, doesn't it?"

"Insight, sir?"

"That's what I mean."

They smiled at each other, and Lance went on to look at his
grandfather's books.  He felt that he would be knowing his
grandfather in reading the titles of his books.  They were of all
ages and of all kinds, many of them books that Lance had never
heard of, queer old volumes in leather coats, histories, herbals,
gazetteers.  There were the old and the new, Chaucer and Swinburne,
and one or two little volumes of war poetry.  Lance glanced at the
modern, Shaw and Oliver Lodge, and Masefield, and Joseph Conrad,
and a few of the younger school.  The Venerable's taste was both
catholic and varied.  Imagine an hotel "boots" reading D. H.
Lawrence!  Moreover, in a place by themselves, Lance saw books on
contemporary science, sociology, psychology.  The Venerable read
Freud and MacDougal.

Lance picked out Hardy's "Tess."

"Ah, I remember that being published," said his grandfather, "and
the fuss over poor 'Jude.'  I saw Thomas Hardy once."

"Did you?"

"I used to sell books.  Yes, and I had quite a lot of first
editions.  Got some of them still.  Up--there.  Stevenson's
'Treasure Island,' and Conrad's 'Nigger of the Narcissus.'"

"I say--have you!  May I look?"


"Have you ever written a book?"



"No.  Had a try once.  Who hasn't?"

"I scribble rather seriously."

"You do.  Published anything?"

"No, not yet."

"Tried to?"

"No.  I'm not satisfied--yet."

"What's the matter with the work?"

"It doesn't strike me as real.  I just seem to miss things--at

"Plenty of time yet," said the Venerable with a smile.  "Generally,
youth is in such a devil of a hurry."

For twenty minutes they discussed books, and handled them, and
confessed to their intimate, individual passions and prejudices.
The Venerable could not, and would not, read Meredith.  The man was
too clever, boringly clever.  An artificial person.  They argued
about Butler's "The Way of all Flesh," and went on to discuss
Aldous Huxley.  Lance was a romanticist.  No, not of the Monsieur
Beaucaire school.  But wasn't the life of the day full of pungent
romance if you had the eyes to see it?

"Yes, things happen," said his grandfather.  "You can express them
in black and white--or in colour."

Lance was for colour.  But looking out of his grandfather's window
he saw beyond the reds and golds and purples of the Venerable's
garden the shadows of the castle and the ash trees stretching far
across the green of the castle field.  It was half-past five, and
he had sixty miles to cover, and a secret to keep both at Windover
and Castle Craven.

"I shall have to be going.  I've enjoyed this immensely."

"Far to go?"

"It won't take me long.  I say, sir, if I happen to be this way
again--may I come in and talk?"

Old Pybus looked at him queerly.

"Any time you like."

"Thanks--ever so much."

The Venerable walked up the yard with him and watched Lance drive

"See you again, sir."

He waved a hand, and old Pybus stood looking towards the arch of
the gateway.  He had a strange feeling of kinship with the lad.  It
was as though something that he had always known, something that
was his, had dropped down out of the sky.


Lance drove home with the sun behind him.

In leaving Castle Craven he seemed to be coming down from a height,
and was reminded of Italy and one of those Tuscan towns with a
shrine or a campanile soaring against the sunset.  His pilgrimage
had been to the feet of the unexpected.  He had discovered a sage.

His own grandfather!  A little old man with the head of a Roman
emperor, an imperial philosopher, a kind of little Marcus Aurelius,
with his flowers and his books and his pigeons.  The Venerable!
The polisher of boots and the bearer of burdens!  For in Lance was
that rare virtue, a passion to reverence men and things.  He
carried a flame.  At that time he had the audacity and the lan of
the idealist.  Also, he had the essential cleanness of a flame.  To
the sex-obsessed and the unpleasantly clever he might appear
something of a fool, lyrical and tiresome, a fellow who never
looked higher than a garter.

He was back at Windover by a quarter-past seven.  He rushed up to
his room to change.  It was a warm, still, September evening, and
in leaning out of his window to look at the world, he observed his
father sitting in a deck chair on the terrace.  His father was
reading a paper, the Financial Times.

Lance drew back.  He had felt himself above his father and able to
look down at him with sudden impartiality.

"Poor old pater!"

Yet he was conscious of antagonism, contempt, compassion.

At dinner they asked him where he had been, and accepted his vague
answer--"Oh, just knocking around, seeing things."  Neither Sir
Probyn nor his wife had sufficient imagination to penetrate beyond
their son's silence.  Besides--it was usual.  He would disappear
for the whole day and have nothing to tell them when he returned.

The poetic age!  Sir Probyn's swivel eye gazed rather dubiously at
the versifier.  Poetry, useless stuff.  The pursuit of it was quite
gentlemanly, but not very productive.  Sir Probyn supposed that it
came of Eton and Trinity, though you did expect a young man of this
tennis-playing, sports-model, slack-trousered generation to be a
little more practical.  Still, Lance was a good oar.  He might be a
scribbler, but he rowed in the Third Trinity May boat and at
Henley.  That was a solid performance.  You had to allow a lad his
head of steam.

But it never occurred to Probyn and his wife that their son had
discovered his grandfather, or that in discovering him Lance might
wish to keep the Venerable in a niche apart from the lares and
penates of his parents.



September mist.

Lance, standing at his bedroom window and brushing vigorously at
his insurgent hair, saw the beeches draped in vapour, and the grass
grey with dew.  Also, he saw the Daimler below on the gravel, with
Wyman standing beside it smoking an early and surreptitious
cigarette.  Sir Probyn was driving up to town to attend a board

Lance and his father had had a passage of arms over this very board
meeting on the previous evening.  Sir Probyn, pouring out a second
glass of port, had called his son back from the half-opened door.
Something had occurred to remind the elder Pybus that Lance would
be in his last year at Cambridge, and that the serious business of
life was approaching.  Probyn was an opportunist.  It may be that
right eye of his had persuaded him to approach life obliquely.
Also, he was just a little afraid of his son.


"Yes, pater."

"Just shut the door a moment, will you?"

Lance had closed the door.  He had come and stood by the table with
that air of alert gravity which was so disturbing to his father.
The lad was so full of silences.  Sir Probyn, very conscious of his
son's eyes and of the fact that Lance was being detained there like
a dog called back when it is bent upon some adventure of its own,
had smiled and tried to make an easy movement in his chair.

"I have a board meeting to-morrow.  Care to drive me up?"

"The Buick?"

"No--the Daimler.  Good opportunity.  I'd like you to come with me
and get an idea."

Lance had waited in silence.

"See how these things are done.  Can't begin too early.  You'll be
in your last year."

Sir Probyn had glanced at his son, and then had removed the band
from his cigar.  After all, to an intelligent lad like Lance a hint
should be sufficient.  Probyn was very fond of his son, though with
a rather puzzled and slightly diffident fondness.  He had given the
lad plenty of rope; he had not interfered with his scribbling.  Sir
Probyn always thought of it as scribbling.  But he had plans for
his son, quite gentlemanly plans.  The young Jason should travel;
he should be a man of languages, he should carry the Fleece into
foreign lands.  Experts!  A young merchant prince and director!
But first a year in the mills, and another year in the sales-
manager's office.

Lance had stood looking down at his father.  Only of late had he
begun to visualize himself as a business man; life had been so
easy.  Moreover, there had been a vagueness about the future.
Probyn had not been very definite in his suggestions; again, he had
preferred the oblique method.

"I don't think I should be any good in business, pater."

His father had said, "Oh--!  What do you know about it?" and had
looked at his son, not directly, but as though his glances diverged
and met again behind his son's back.  He had been surprised--as
parents always appear to be surprised--by Lance's abruptness, an
abruptness that had sounded aggressive.

"Don't know much about it, do you, Lance?"

"Not a great deal."

"Thought that you understood, my dear boy.  It has always been in
my mind--"

Lance had pulled some grapes from a dish, and had begun eating
them.  He supposed that he had understood in a way that his father
had intended him to go into the business--but never had he given an
inward consent to anything.  He had been too young to consent to
anything.  He did not know.  He had urges, prejudices, predilections.
He had been full of his rowing, and his inspirations, and his
explorations into the adventure of life.  He had taken things rather
as he had picked up those grapes.

"You see, pater, it's not easy."

He had frowned, while eating skin and pips, and thinking of that
other Pybus.  No, it was not easy, especially for a lad whose man's
cry was to be, "Give me something difficult.  Not the easy thing.
The easy thing's so fatal."

"I have been thinking a good deal lately."

His father had raised bland eyebrows.  Surely it was not necessary
for Lance to think!  The proof of the pudding was in the eating,
and if Lance's eyes were not open to the advantages of business--
well--he had only to look about him.

"Your mother and I have taken it for granted--"

He had been caught by a sudden swift glance.  Such a strange look.

"I don't think you ought to, pater."

"My dear boy!  Don't you appreciate the fact that your mother and

"You have been very generous."

His father had smiled over the apparent concession.

"Of course--naturally.  We wanted you to have every advantage.
It's our wish--"

Again he had been the target of that steady, searching stare.

"Do you want me to do--what you want me to do or what I--?"

"We want--what's best, Lance."

"Yes, that's just it, pater.  What's best!  But isn't that just
about the hardest--"

"Well, use common sense.  I'm not going to say--that I'm a good
deal older--"

And there Probyn Pybus had left it.  He had never been a man to
push an issue to immediate extremes.  His nature was bland and
circuitous.  Conciliation.  Allow a few suggestive persuasions to
soak in.  Besides, he supposed that most young men began life with
bees in their bonnets; and if you were a shrewd person you allowed
the bees to buzz themselves out.  He had said, "All right, I'll
take Wyman to-morrow," and felt that he had been tactful and kind
and rather subtle.

So Lance stood brushing his hair.  His father had ordered the car
for nine, and Lance was late for breakfast, and the Daimler--
standing on the gravel--suggested that it could carry a compromise.
Sir Probyn, with the morning paper propped against the coffee-pot,
was wondering whether his son would come downstairs and say
"Morning, pater, I'd like to drive you up to town."  While upstairs
Lance was passing through one of those experiences that may appear
trivial at the moment.  Being sensitive, he found the doing of
certain things difficult; but also he had youth's ruthlessness and
its scorn of compromise.  He had changed very much in a year.  He
had become more acutely self-conscious, and also more aware of
people and their proclivities.  He had seen people through the eyes
of other young men, and he had begun to see his own people with a
very disturbing clearness.  His father was a far more vivid and
comprehensible figure to Lance than Lance was to his father.  Youth
sees things freshly, with a cruel impartiality, wide awake to all
the tricks of soul and body; and by his son Probyn was seen as a
caricature of himself.  Lance had not asked to see him like that.
It happened so.  It was one of those inevitable discriminations
which make life both humorous and tragic.

"I can't go."

He went downstairs in flannels, and met his father's oblique eyes
looking up at him over the top of the paper.  He helped himself to
porridge while his father finished his second cup of coffee.  They
had wished each other good morning.

Probyn Pybus got up as his son sat down.  He gulped his coffee.  He
folded up the paper with a crumpling testiness.

"Lot of mist this morning.  Meet my board at eleven."

Lance, with a spoon in the sugar-bowl, supposed that the mist would
lift very quickly.  The day promised to be hot.

Sir Probyn--with a characteristic swerve of the right eye, allowed
it to be seen that he was nettled.

"You'll spend the morning scribbling--what?"

Lance looked out of the window.

"Very likely."

His father went out of the room saying something about life being a
serious business, and that every man--however young--should learn
to face responsibilities, the kind of thing that thousands of
fathers have said to thousands of sons.


Lady Pybus was a late riser.  When the maid carried in the
breakfast tray she would find that large, fair, overflowing
creature yawning under her lace cap.

"Sir Probyn left for town, Wills?"

"Yes, my lady."

"Where's Mr. Lance?"

"I don't know, my lady."

"No letters?"

"No letters this morning, my lady."

Dolly Pybus continued to ask questions as she had asked them as a
round-eyed and tow-headed little egoist of five.  Growth with her
had been mere enlargement, a doubling or trebling of the little
suburban ego.  She had been a very healthy woman, without subtlety
or reservation, an enlarged child with the mental make-up of a
child who treated her menfolk like dolls.  For years she had been
full of healthy, human satisfactions, and thoroughly enjoying the
climb and the various and expanding vistas it had provided.  She
had delighted in being Lady Pybus; she had been delighted with
Windover; she had been delighted with her boy at Eton.

But life was not what it was.  Fiftyish, she had begun to find life
less amusing; and having no inward life of her own to compensate
for her failing physical reactions, she was growing a little
puzzled and querulous.  Her doctor had dieted her.  She was allowed
only one lump of sugar in her tea.  French pastry was forbidden,
and when she rushed down to Cannes for six weeks in the winter she
was supposed to be content with brown bread and butter.  No eleven
o'clock invasion of the patisserie shop.  No cocktails, and she
needed cocktails.  And modern dancing was not what it was.  She had
taken Lance with her for three weeks last winter, and for some
reason or other her son had refused to dance.  He had been moody.

Lady Pybus put the breakfast tray aside and got out of bed.  She
had become a heavy woman, and heavy in her movements.  She went
first to her mirror, and then to one of the windows.  It was a
beautiful morning; but can anything be more boring and suggestive
than a beautiful morning, September sunlight, autumn, glimmering
trees, youth that is not youth?

Dolly Pybus looked down at the foreshortened Dutch garden.  She saw
Lance there in an old blue and white blazer and flannel trousers.
He was standing by the cistern staring at it, his hands stuffed
into his pockets.  He had his back to the house.  He appeared to be
absorbed in watching the gold-fish moving among the lily leaves,
and the yellow flowers floating on the water.

His figure had a stillness.

His mother watched him.  Lance puzzled her, baffled her.  He was so
"funny" at times.  He had so little to say.  He was always mooning
off somewhere, or shutting himself up in his room.  She could
remember the time when she had boasted to her friends:  "Oh, Lancie
tells me everything."  He had been such a jolly kid, a boy whom you
could take to Gunter's and stuff with food, but now--

She was not a subtle person, and like many mothers when they
discover the grown stranger in their sons she was both perplexed
and resentful.  Vaguely conscious of a sense of loss, she had
attempted to grasp at that which was no longer given.  She was
fussily affectionate.  She wanted to be able to feel and to say:
"I and my boy are such pals."  She took babyish liberties with his
young dignity, and was irritated when he treated her with a kind of
dark reserve.  He would look at her as though he were saying:
"Mater, don't be such a fool."

She was always tweaking the hair of her stranger.  She could not
let him alone.  She would not allow him to be silent or thoughtful.
She twitted him, and was archly familiar.

"Hallo, solemn face!  Who's the girl?"

She was incapable of realizing that she jarred upon her son, and
that she was like a distracting, worrying child to a sensitive man.
All that he knew intuitively she knew not at all.  That little
adjective "funny" described him to her.  Men were funny about this,
or funny about that, or funny about women.  But how exasperating,
just when a something in her craved inarticulately for the youth in

But he was not young.  She was the primitive; while he was Paris
and London and Trinity and St. Francis of Assisi, and Raphael and
Blake, and moonlight on Lake Leman, and Bernard Shaw.  She was
quite incapable of coping with him.

That orange and black hammock-bed for instance?  What was the
objection?  The thing looked nice and bright in the Dutch garden.
Besides--it was comfortable.  And he had called it an atrocity.

Child of impulse that she was, incapable of keeping back anything
that came into her head, she hailed him:


He hated being shouted at, especially by his mother.  She was still
the common child of the back street, overblown and overgrown.  "Mau-
die, yer mother wants yer."  He did wish that his mother would give
up shouting.  She shouted at the gardeners, at her menfolk, at
waiters, at the girls who came to play tennis.  She talked over and
through people.


After an interval, he turned and looked up at her window.  His
response was mute.

"Lan-cie--I want to go into Aylesbury."

Which meant that she intended him to drive her into Aylesbury, and
he was wanting to go to Castle Craven.

All the urge of his swift complex, and yet simple self, was setting
more and more towards Castle Craven.


That extraordinary old man!

How had his grandfather contrived to become what he was, both a
sage and a bearer of burdens?  How wrong it seemed, and yet how
right he made it.  For Lance had seen a swollen person in the
Saracen yard, a sort of over-ripe human mulberry, splutter at his
grandfather.  "Here, where's that soot-case.  Damn it, man, I told
you room No. 3."  And Lance's blood had felt on fire, until, in
watching the Venerable, he had realized that the heat in him was
natural but unnecessary.  His grandfather, looking with one
straight blue glance into that squashed, mulberry face, had
answered with resolute courtesy.

"One suit-case, sir, one kit-bag, one attach case.  The suit-case
is under that rug, sir.  There is no need to damn anybody."

The swollen person had oozed more purple, and Lance, standing by
the Talbot, and rattling the money in his trouser pockets, had seen
the dignity of his grandfather cut like a knife into that human

How was it that the Venerable understood the inwardness of the
thing you were saying almost before you had completed the saying of
it?  And the delight in being understood without explainings, while
catching the gleam in those resolute blue eyes, and in hearing the
right echo come back to you!  What was the subtle nexus between
them?  How was it that in the presence of his grandfather he felt
himself both man and child, and able to reveal his innermost
thoughts with a confidence that was perfect?  His grandfather was
so young, yet not young like the young things.  He could chuckle.
He had a sudden sense of humour.  You felt so near to him in that
little brown room, or when idling under the castle ash trees, or
sitting in the oriel of the Bayard Tower and looking down at the
Brent below.

His grandfather had a peculiar dignity.  You forgot the smallness
of him in contemplating that massive head.  The more you talked to
him the larger he seemed to grow, until the mere physical outlines
ceased to matter, or became a familiar cloak hanging about a soul
of understanding.

Did the Venerable suspect?

For Lance had not told him.  There had been a sensitive courtesy in
the younger man's approach to the elder one.  Lance had felt that
he wanted his grandfather to know Lance the man before he knew him
as Lance--the grandson.  For there was such a surprising sympathy
between them, and yet--somehow--it seemed to have an inevitableness.
Perhaps it had.


Sally Summerscales, coming in to scrub the Venerable's kitchen
floor for him, while the Venerable shaved himself before a little
mirror hung by the garden window, made conversation through the
doorway.  Sally on her knees was the Sally of symbolism.

"Your young gentleman been to see you again, Mr. Pybus?"

No, he hadn't, not since last Thursday, but Mr. Pybus was expecting
him.  Sally, flopping down a wet cloth on the red tiles,
straightened on her knees.

"He's got such lovely eyes."

Lovely eyes indeed!  Sally was incorrigible.  And Mr. Pybus nicked
his chin with his razor.

"What do you know about his eyes?"

"Only just passed him in the yard, that's all.  What's his name,
Mr. Pybus?"

"I don't know."

"What!  You don't know his name?"

"I don't."

"Well--I'm blowed.  You're kidding!"

"I'm telling you the truth."

"Where's he come from, Mr. Pybus?"

"I haven't the faintest idea."

"Go on; you can't tell me you don't know his name or where he comes
from.  And he's been here four times."

"Counted them, have you?"

"No--I haven't.  I was told."

"Well--you can take it from me, Sally, that I have told you the
truth--though it is no business of yours, my dear."

There were splashings and scrubbings, and the Venerable, having
washed the remains of the lather from his face, was applying a
small pad of cotton-wool to the cut on his chin.  He made
allowances for Sally, for when a young woman comes in of her own
free will to scrub your floor--and more especially so in these days
when service is called slavery--she is entitled to her graciousness.

"Mr. Pybus--"


"I've just had a sort of idea."

"Splendid.  What's the idea, Sally?"

"You haven't noticed it--I suppose?"

"I haven't seen it yet."


"Your idea."

"Oh, don't be such a quizz, Mr. Pybus.  I suppose you haven't
noticed that the young gentleman's eyes are awful like yours."

The Venerable was looking at himself in the mirror.  Sally heard
him give a queer little laugh.

"I gather that's a compliment, Sally."

"It's a fact, Mr. Pybus.  You look at him next time."

"I will."

John Pybus was putting on his collar; he was very particular about
his collars.  As for his young friend's eyes, of course he had
noticed them; you could not exchange a dozen words with Lance
without being aware of those eyes and of the spirit behind them.
And old Pybus had thought--"Now, if I had had a son like that!"



Lance had left his car in the Saracen yard and had walked down to
the cottage in search of his grandfather.  It was half-past four
and the Venerable's tea-time, and the pigeons waiting upon the
gutters and the ridge-tiles were on the watch for the Venerable's
white head.  A few of them fluttered down to Lance as he stood on
his grandfather's doorstep.

Getting no reply to his knock he walked back to the main yard,
where Sally Summerscales, sitting idly at a window, smiled out upon

"Are you looking for Mr. Pybus, sir?"

"Yes.  He's not at the cottage."

"He's busy, sir.  Put off his tea a quarter of an hour.  A 'sharry'
has just come in.  Thirty of 'em.  We call them 'one-nighters.'"

Sally thought his smile as lovely as his eyes.

"Thank you so much.  I suppose he's in the hotel."

"Looking after the luggage, sir."

Lance entered.  Sally's "one-nighters" and their luggage were
collected in the hall.  They were very much in charge of a brisk
and bald-headed man, who, standing on the third step of the stairs
with a list in his right hand, was assigning his sheep to their
pens.  He knew his party.  He was a humourist in the English
manner.  He drew little twitters of laughter from the women.  "No.
12, Mr. and Mrs. Bibster--please.  No. 13--Miss Soames.  No, as you
were.  That wouldn't be gallant.  Can't put a lady in No. 13, can
we?  Mr. Brown, perhaps--you--will take No. 13?  Thank you, sir.
Turn your pyjamas inside out for luck, sir.  Supposed to be
infallible--they tell me.  No. 14, Mr. and Mrs. Lovejoy, and good
luck to them.  It's a long time since I had a honeymoon."  Lance
saw his grandfather standing in the centre of a circle of suit-
cases and bags.  The strong lad who helped with the luggage was
having his half-day off, and old Pybus had the whole of it to deal

"Luggage for No. 12."

The Venerable was about to ascend the stairs with a suit-case in
either hand when Lance, pushing through the crowd, waylaid his

"All right--I'll do the carrying.  Show me No. 12."

Old Pybus gave him a queer, smiling look.

"You here, sir!  Not one of the party?  I can manage quite well."

He climbed the first three steps, but Lance wilfully got in front
of him.

"I'm serious.  I've done it before.  I was a porter at Southampton
during the General Strike."

His grandfather climbed two more steps.

"There's no strike here, sir, thank you all the same."

"You'll let me carry that luggage.  I ask you to let me."

"You can't do it here, sir."

"But I can."

"It's not your job."

They were alone on the stairs, Lance holding out his hands for the
luggage, the Venerable looking up at his grandson, and refusing to
surrender the burden.

"If you please, sir.  Can't allow it."

Lance was smiling, but there was much behind that smile.

"I suppose I can help my own grandfather--"

He saw the Venerable's figure stiffen where it stood.  The old
man's face had a kind of staring pallor.  He looked straight up at
his grandson.  He seemed to be asking himself and Lance some
momentous question.  "Probyn's boy?"


"Does he know--?"


Something happened to old John Pybus's face.  A sudden, strange
softness overflowed it.  The blue stare went out of his eyes.  He
allowed his grandson to take the luggage from him.

"All right.--Bit of a shock.  Turn to the right when you reach the

Lance went up with a heart that was beating more rapidly.  His
grandfather followed him.

"Second door along the corridor--on the left."

"Right, sir."

"Don't call me 'sir.'"

"Of course," said Lance, glancing over a shoulder, "you won't do
that to me any more, sir."

"I shall--unless--"

"Grandfather," said Lance, pausing outside the door of No. 12,
"isn't this a rather great occasion?"

Old Pybus's white head seemed a little bent.  Lance put down a suit-
case, opened the door of No. 12, went in, and placed the suit-case
he was carrying on the luggage stand.

"Why didn't you tell me before, boy?"

"I--I wanted you to know me a little."

"Ah!" said his grandfather--"I see."

He carried the other suit-case into the room and placed it on a

"Did they tell you about me?"


They did not look at each other.


"I heard something."

"Made you feel inquisitive?"

"More than that.  I think I had to come.  I wanted to come.  And--
of course--now--"

The sunlight striking through the window fell upon the Venerable's
head and face.

"We had better clear up the rest of that luggage, Lance.  Then--
we'll have tea."


At the door of his cottage John Pybus paused and looked up at his
grandson.  He was carrying a plate of bread and butter, with two
slices of plum cake laid to one side.

"Just one moment.  It's rather important.  Are you going to tell
them at home?"

"No--I'm not."

"Ought you to tell them?"

"They did not tell me."

His grandfather appeared to consider the question before opening
the door.

"Ashamed of me--of course.  Quite natural.  I dare say they did not
want you to know.  And you are up at Cambridge.  It is conceivable
that most young men--"

Said Lance with a kind of smiling seriousness--

"I have a friend at Trinity whose father was doing what you are
doing, grandfather."

"Oh, cleaning boots and fetching and carrying--"

"Yes--chap named Sorrell.  Great man.  Rather a peculiar

John Pybus opened the door.

"I haven't quite made my mind up--yet."

"About my people?"

"That's it.  There was a time when I was bitter, my lad, but
bitterness comes back to you.  That's done with.  I want to be

Lance, following him into the cottage, and closing the door, stood
looking at the two photos on the mantelpiece.  Old Pybus, putting
the plate down on the oak table, went towards the kitchen to light
the oil-stove on which he boiled his water, and to fetch a cup and
plate for Lance.  They talked through the doorway.



"Why do you keep those photos there?"

He heard the Venerable strike a match.

"All sorts of reasons, mixed reasons.  I call them the photos of my
sons who were killed in the war."

"They weren't in the war."


"Is that--why--?"

"We never got on very well together.  There seemed to be nothing of
me in them, and nothing of them in me.  Queer, but it's a fact.
They liked their mother, but I don't think they ever liked me.  I
have often tried to work out how and where--I was to blame.  Too
strict, perhaps.  Expected too much."

"But they are not like you."

"Not much--"

"Conrad's a perfect swine.--Sorry, sir, I oughtn't to have used
that word."

His grandfather was measuring tea into the teapot.

"I am more shy of using hard words than I was, lad.  Because--we
can't always help ourselves.  When a man was born a pig, it doesn't
help to call him a pig.  It's not piggery, it's nature.  I'm coming
to believe that we carry our fate with us."

"You're a determinist, grandpater?"

"Suppose I am.  Though it's not all Mendelism.  I have a feeling
that something's put in, or not put in.  The divine spark.  Anyway--
it's all mystery--mystery.  That's why that church tower is right
to go on calling with its bells."

There was a short silence.  Then Lance said--

"Grandpater--my father and I have never exchanged a single word on
anything that really matters."

"To you?"

"Yes--I suppose I'm looking at it--like an egoist."

"How else can you begin to look at it."

"We're strangers.  It's rather terrible--in its way."

"They and I--were just such strangers.  There are old souls and
young souls.  That's how I look at it.  And you can't mix your
souls.  Different planes.  The big soul, and the little greedy
soul.  Amazing rot--all this blather about equality.  I'll have the
kettle boiling in a minute."

Lance strolled to the mantelpiece, and having looked steadily at
the portraits of his father and his uncle, he saw them as
strangers, people to whom he would never have anything to say.
Also, with all deference to the Venerable--Conrad was a perfect
swine.  No other two words fitted him as those two words did.  As
for his father--?  Poor old pater, such a sedulous and flamboyant
snob!  Extraordinary world!  People ashamed of their jobs, and
ashamed of their own people for doing particular jobs.  Blind as
bats--too!  And he himself was ashamed of his father's snobbery,
and his mother's loud and florid nature.

He crossed to the window where the Venerable's flowers were
blooming--without taking thought.  Good old Solomon!  And from the
kitchen came the sound of a purring kettle.



"Don't you get very tired?"

"No, not very.  There's not too much for me."

"You're a wonder."

"Simple living, my lad."

"More than that.  You are medival."


"You make me think of Sir Isumbras, and St. Christopher, and people
who did simple and beautiful things.  Service, you know.  I've
watched shepherds, and they seem to me to be about the only people
in these days--who carry you back.  Yes; sailors, too, in a way,
and fishermen."

"I get tips," said his grandfather.

"Do people tip you?"

"Of course."

"How perfectly--scandalous and splendid."

"I take 'em, too.  Bank balance and books.  Besides--you never
know.  England isn't India.  You can't be a sage--in England--on


"Call it that.  I admit that I respect good blankets and a fire.
Now for tea."

He arrived with a little brown teapot, and looking with new
affection at his grandson, put down the teapot, and stood to say

"For what we receive--let us be thankful."

Lance sat down at the table with the air of a young man preparing
to break some solemn fast.


Said Lance to his grandfather:

"Tell me all about yourself, grandfather."

The Venerable's eyes laughed gently under the bushy white eyebrows.

"Once upon a time there was a little old fellow who kept a

"So you did keep a bookshop."

"For thirty years or so.  What was the family tradition?"

"If you don't mind, I'd rather not talk about it at present.  The
reality is so much better than the make-believe."

"Well--I kept a bookshop in London, and then--another bookshop in a
Dorsetshire town.  Then we had the war as an interlude, and my
books remained on the shelves.  I ceased to be a bookseller, and
conducted a tram.  I have been in this billet for about seven

Lance stirred his tea.  His face had a clouded look.

"Didn't they know?"

"We had passed out of each other's lives."

"But was there no--no effort?"

"Your father did make an effort."

"I'm glad of that."

"But--he did not like my job.  Quite natural.  It did not inspire
credit.  Very kindly--he offered to pension me, to turn me into an
old fellow pottering about a parade.  But I did not see it--as he
saw it."

"And you told him--?"

"I'm afraid I told him to go to hell."

Lance flushed up.

"Splendid!  That's just like--these people, they always want you to
do what suits them."

His grandfather gave him a shrewd look.

"You, too?"

"Yes.  It has all been arranged.  I'm to be a business man.  I'm to
be the expert specialist.  Everything is taken for granted.  I'm to
be a little second edition of my father.  Of course--I know--that
he has never grudged me anything.  Parents don't; but when it comes
to the crisis--"


"They grudge you the one big thing."

"And that?"

"The right to be yourself."

Old Pybus appeared to be counting the currants in one of the slices
of cake.

"Yes, we are all guilty of that, more or less.  We like to retain
control.  I let my boys go; but I kept the right of telling them
what I thought--"

"Did it do any good, grandpater?"

"Not a shred.  It made them dislike me--a little more.  They meant
to go their way, and I went mine.  And you--?"

Lance looked out of the window.

"My way's different, too.  At least--I think so.  I want to be


At the end of the meal John Pybus piled the crockery neatly on a
tray and carried it into the kitchen.  He came back to join Lance
in the lighting of pipes.  The talk between them had turned aside
into one of those silences which resemble a halt under the shadow
of a tree before the next march forward.  They went out to feed the

"About this being yourself," said the Venerable, scattering crumbs;
"it's easier to be a pigeon than a man."

"How do you mean?"

"A complete man.  Being yourself is being a complete man, isn't it?
Crowds, and still more crowds.  Peas packed in a pod.  How many men
can be themselves?  Can't afford it; haven't time; isn't enough
room.  Besides--what is myself?"

"I see you very clearly, grandpater."

"It's easier--perhaps--to see someone else.  What am I to see in

"A free man--body and soul."

"No one--is wholly free.  Even the desert island idea has its
limitations.  What you are asking for is free self-expression."

"Yes--that's it--that's it.  I want to interpret things; I want to

His grandfather watched the birds feeding at Lance's feet.

"Yes, if you are big enough, people will come and feed at your
feet.  But, meanwhile--"

"One has to live."

"Exactly.  Being yourself may mean doing without."

"I've thought of that."

"Standing aside from the scramble.  Teeth set--stomach empty,
alone, the woman passing you by, the successful young tripe-
merchants calling you--'That fool!'"

"Need it be--like that?"

"Take it for granted that it may be like that.  What's your plan?"

"It's in the making, grandpater."

"A top-floor room in London, or a labourer's cottage in the
country?  Sending up manuscripts and having them sent back again?
There's bound to be some of that.  Unless--of course--your father--"

He glanced at his grandson's set face.

"I don't want help."

"That's unusual."

"I'm as good as other men who have had to go into the dog-fight
without a collar."

"Money helps, my lad."

"Does it?"

"Unless it saps your fierceness."

"My father made his own success."

"Business is easier than the writing of books.  And books have to
sell.  I'm not a commercialist.  But youth asks for things.  It
feeds on its own heart.  I'm old; I have ceased to ask for certain
things; I have the few simple things I want.  For me--there is no--

Lance was leaning against the wall with the air of a man with his
back very much to it.

"Yes, I think I understand.  You have to begin with the hair-shirt

"Somewhat," said his grandfather; "come and look at life, modern
life.  You get it--samples of it--even in Castle Craven."


Standing in the Saracen yard with his back to a big blue "saloon"
which had come in for the night, John Pybus pointed with the stem
of his pipe at Lance's little "Talbot."

"There won't be any of that, Lance."

"No, I suppose not, grandpater."

"Not to begin with.  Books don't--as a rule--produce motor-cars.
But--of course--you have thought--"

He looked with a courageous kindness into his grandson's serious
face.  He was being braver than Lance knew.  It is so much
pleasanter to utter comfortable words; and this new and human
relationship had suddenly become precious to him.

"Criticism is one of the most difficult drugs to swallow.  You'll
be thinking me a platitudinous old devil--"

Lance's smile came back.

"He--whom the Lord chastens--grandpater--"

"You've got it.  Don't we all want to wave flags and shout hooray.
But I won't--my lad--to you."

"No, I don't think you could."

"But I can shout hooray at the right moment.  We are flesh and
blood--remember.  And then--Well, there's something to look at."

A long, white two-seater, a de luxe machine, had glided in through
the archway.  A very tall man, brown as to face and clothes,
climbed out of it, and turned to smile in a particular way at a
very decorative young woman in a velvet and fur coat.

"Puss staying on the cushion?"

She was a pretty thing with oblique dark eyes, and a slow,
sophisticated smile.

"Need I get out?"

"Need you do anything?  Just going across to the gunsmith's, that's
all.  Snuggle up."

The Venerable, after looking admiringly at the little lady in the
black and white chariot, glanced up at his grandson.

"Interested--in that sort of thing?"

Lance looked a little fierce.  He was more interested in--that sort
of thing--than his grandfather suspected.

"Oh--yes--sometimes.  It hasn't lasted long--yet."

"Expensive hobby in these days.  Say you sell fifteen hundred
copies of a novel.  A hundred pounds, more or less; probably less.
How far would that go?  There is a sort of celibacy--"

And suddenly he took his grandson by the arm.

"Let us go and look at the river.  You haven't to pay to look at
the river."


A moon, as big and yellow as a harvest moon, raised its face over
Castle Craven, and the whiteness of the Venerable's head was like
the sheen of a helmet.  The shadows of the ash trees lay like the
shadows of clouds upon the broken walls of the castle, and the
castle field was a goblin ground pocketed with darkness between
folds of silver.  John Pybus had finished his supper.  He had come
out with a pipe and his own thoughts.  He took the path to the
swinging gate in the stone wall, and passing across the grass-grown
courtyard, climbed the three steps to one of the windows.  The
stone mullion cut the sky into halves.  A hundred feet below, the
dark river slid beneath the droop of beech boughs, and into the
moonlight rose the soft thunder of the abbey weir.

John Pybus--of course--was thinking of his grandson, for, in
Lance's own words, the day had been a great occasion.  And if it is
possible for an old man to succumb to flattery, Lance's grandfather
should have succumbed to it; but flattery floats on shallow water,
and old Pybus was deep.

He had been touched.  He could think of nothing but the grandson in
the place of the father; Lance coming to help him with that
luggage.  What an ironical reversion to type!  If Probyn!  Ought
Probyn to know?  But there was no spirit of malicious exultation in
old Pybus.  Did one gloat over the strange unexpectedness of human
kinship, that sacred something in the blood?

He felt accountable to youth, and for it.  He had overcome
temptation.  In his little kitchen, with the brown teapot in his
hand, and Lance's voice coming to him from the other room, he had
confronted and frowned down facility.  No Agag easiness.  Rather
would he be Samuel to the young David.

Watching the smoke blow from his pipe drifting into the moonlight
he reviewed his resolution.

"I'll not try to bribe him.  If there is to be anything between us
that will last it shall be worth lasting.  Not the easy thing.  It
is so pleasant to prophesy the easy thing.  He is asking for the
most difficult thing that a man can desire."

Looking at the moon, old Pybus went back to his cottage.  His head
had a radiance, and in the face of the moon he seemed to see the
ardent, questioning face of his grandson.



Lance was looking at the same moon, and seeing it through the
branches of the Bosquet.  He, too, was reviewing the great
occasion, his back turned towards the marble figure of the nymph,
into whose white bosom the moon threw a handful of light.  Her head
was in the shadow, and out of this shadow she seemed to gaze with a
gentle and wondering disdain at this man thing who came to such a
place and at such an hour to meditate upon a grandfather.

But if the nymph was of stone, and could not move from her
pedestal, there were other nymphs and matrons.  Parental
conjectures may seem self-justified, especially if you have been
playing tennis--the last game of the year perhaps--and dinner has
caught you unchanged and you are still wearing tennis shoes.  There
were no pebbles in the path for the moon to shine upon.  Striking
through the foliage of the yews and hollies, it spread upon the
path and upon the paved space of the Bosquet, a flowered carpet in
which the flowers were moonlight upon a groundwork of shadow.

The mother saw the son standing there.  He made no movement.  He
was watching the moon climbing through the branches of the trees.
His face and figure were covered with patches of light.  And to his
mother he was a figure of interrogation, a human question-mark.
She answered the question as she was made to answer it.  Obviously
Lance was waiting for someone or something; she could not imagine a
young man stealing out to such a place and at such an hour without
a purpose.  Being the woman she was, she postulated "woman."

But who?  One of the maids?  She passed them in review.  Yes, it
might be Florrie, the under-housemaid, a sly, smoky-eyed little
thing.  Or could it be a girl from outside?  Lady Pybus was as
suburban in her suspicions as she was in her other attitudes toward

But suddenly Lance moved, and she was caught.  He came upon her in
the narrowing path where the shadows were more closely woven.



"What are you doing here?"

How was it he knew that he had been spied upon?--for know it he
did.  He stood looking at the large, dim whiteness that was his
mother.  He was conscious of feeling shocked, repelled, humiliated.
Had she so little inward dignity that she could so offend against
his own young dignity?

"I came here to think."

His voice was as cold as the moonlight.  He knew, even while he was
uttering the words, that she would not believe him.  But why should
he not reply to her challenge?  Did she not understand solitude,
moonlight, those moods of aloofness?  But how could she understand
them?  He had a feeling of helplessness in her presence.  This
vulgar, possessive prying.

"One--has--to think--sometimes, you know, mater."

She laughed.

"You funny boy."

Insensitive though she was, she was aware of his discomfort.
Essentially a woman of the people, she understood neither irony nor
the finer shades of courtesy.  She resented contact with anything
that she did not understand, and like a child sought to make the
contact crudely physical.  Posed--she became familiar.

"Well--it should have been a girl.  I believe it was."

He stood apart, head up, looking at her.


"Well--and why not?"

"And if it had been?"

Again that discordant, voluminous laugh.

"Don't be silly.  You're so touchy."

He was silent, with a kind of lamentable, fierce silence.  The
vulgarity of it!  Had she no feeling of reverence for things, no
reticence, no delicacy?  And this silence of his was like a hand
laid resolutely over her mouth.

She bridled.

"Well--I suppose I've got feelings.  You're so funny.  Always
mooching off, and shutting yourself up.  Always scribbling--"

"Am I?"

"Are you--indeed!  Why don't you tell me--things?  We used to be
such pals--Lancie--"

"I'm sorry, mater."

His voice sounded tired.  Yes, that was part of the pity of it.  A
kind of weariness would come over him during these hopeless
arguments with his mother.  They were intimate without intimacy.
She was like a woman picking at a tangled skein without being able
to find the ends of it, and she made him feel more tangled, and
more knotted, and more tied up within himself.

"I suppose it's the funny age, isn't it?"

She reverted to a sudden and ingratiating cheerfulness.  She caught
his arm, imprisoned it, and turning him made him walk with her down
the shadowy path.

"Why don't you tell me, Lance?"

"What am I to tell you?"

"Who--it is?"

She had a glimpse of his patient, frozen profile outlined against
the moon.

"Nobody, mater.  There isn't anybody--in that way."


Lance was both angry with his mother and sorry for her.  He had
made himself kiss her when they had reached the house.

"We're at cross purposes, mater."

She had talked to him and at him all the way through the gardens in
a voice that was unhushed.  She had the naked soul of a common
child.  She did not shrink from, or hurry by, those too public
occasions.  Like a common woman she would have exposed all her
domestic disharmonies on her doorstep before a group of interested

"If I don't understand you--who does?  It's absurd."

Yes, it was absurd, pathetically absurd!  But why should she

"I wish you would try and let me alone, mater."

"I think you are a perfect pig."

Perhaps he was.  He was ready to grant her her sense of injury and
of injustice.  But if only she would not assume--He had let her go
into the house, and had turned away along the terrace and across
the gravel, to find himself at the end of the avenue of beeches
pillared under the moonlight like some great gallery leading to
mysterious sanctuaries.  He stood there very still.  He saw the
splashed trunks, the black sweep of the foliage, the moonlight in
streaks and star-spaces, light and shadow clasped and intermingled.
There was a great stillness, the freshness of dew, an indefinable
suggestion of mystery, of other presences, other worlds.


Yes, beauty, and more than beauty!  Why was he so made that he
could tremble at some sound that his mother would not hear?  The
"Ah!" of the woods in the arms of the west wind, the voice of a
bird solitary at dawn, the flutter of aspen leaves, the sighing of
the grasses!  For beauty and his awareness of it had come to him so
suddenly a year ago.  It had seemed as though a blindness had
fallen from him.  He could remember moments of awe and of wonder,
sunsets, light under a thundercloud, a world wetly and passionately
green, tears in his own eyes, a voice singing, a sudden drift of

It seemed to him that life should be beauty, and that without
beauty life was as nothing.  Yet, how could you define beauty, or
explain it?  It was so instant, so inevitable.  It came to you full
of a poignant, sweet strangeness in a word or a sound, or a gleam
of the eyes.  It leapt upon you out of the pages of a book.  "And
the last sunset cry of conquered kings."  He had seen it in the
Venerable's white head with its background of gold.

Could anything be more wonderful than these old beech trees under
the full moon?  And then he remembered that these trees belonged to
his father.  His father had bought them, and all the other beauties
of Windover with the profits of big business, yet he had never
surprised his father in a moment of gazing.  How much did his
father see, and how little?  And his mother?

How extraordinary it was!  For he was very sure that the secret and
exquisite moods of the gardens and the woods were hidden from his
people.  Pan and his satellites remained in the deep glooms; the
fairies danced unseen.  And his mother would rush off to
Brooklands, and get her eyes full of sand, and her nostrils full of
the stink of burnt oil, and climb on the roof of her car, and
shout, and see nothing sinister and ugly in that most strange

Wandering down the avenue until the round face of the moon gazed at
him over the iron gates, he felt himself confronted by reality.
There was the reality of beauty, the reality of an ideal, the
reality of a world's materialism.  He was still full of his
grandfather's forewarnings.

To get certain things you might have to give up certain things.
Self-expression might entail self-martyrdom.  He had been shown
himself as a young man scribbling in some top-floor room, high
above the world of motor-cars and women, detached from it, despised
by it.  There was still the wilderness for the world's failures.

But what was failure?  According to the material standard, his
grandfather was a failure, and his father a supreme success, and
yet in the world of spiritual realities how subtly the position was
reversed.  Lance had no doubts as to which was the more impressive
figure.  His father had made money; his grandfather had made a man.

Yes, his urge was to follow his grandfather.  The Venerable
appeared to him as an unconquerable figure, a shining veteran on a
hilltop, sword aloft, calling him on.  Was he to lack the courage?
Was he to choose the easy thing?  His grandfather had spoken hard
words, but did you ask to see honey drop from the lips of an old
Roman who was captain of his own soul?

"Be yourself, to the uttermost and to the end."

He turned back.  He came again into the beautiful, mellow presence
of the old house.  In the moonlight the brickwork had a blurred
softness.  It was solid and yet not solid.  Its texture had the
quality of old velvet.  And he remembered that his father had been
complaining that the place looked shabby, and that he thought of
having the walls re-pointed and the mortar painted white.

"Good God!"

A week ago he had been reading that very significant book of
Chesterton's--"The Everlasting Man," and there was a little
sentence in it that, no doubt, he did not remember, but which
expressed this moment when he stood there looking up at this most
English house.  "Such men realize the real truth that enormous
things do often turn upon tiny things."

His father proposed to deface that old faade.  In the same way his
father proposed to deface the soul of the son.  It was his father's
notion of self-expression; it was life; it was one of those
inevitable personal urges.  It need not need consideration, but it
did need defiance.

He would go in and talk things out with his father.


Sir Probyn Pybus was a philatelist, but with Sir Probyn philately
was rather the hobby of a man who had spent his life in acquiring
material things, and who was nearing the end of his possibilities.
Certainly he was the possessor of some very rare specimens, and he
could say that he could show every stamp that had been issued by
the Republics of South America.  His collection was insured for a
considerable sum.

He had made a purchase that day from a dealer, and when Lance
looked in through the open french window of the library he saw his
father seated at his desk, with one of his albums open before him.
He was examining a stamp through a lens mounted on a silver handle.
The desk lamp showed an incipient baldness as he bent forward, and
on his face there was a little self-satisfied smile.

Lance had come to the window feeling a little sorry for his father,
but there was something in that smile which checked the flow of
this feeling.  At the age of fifteen Lance had collected stamps,
and had given his collection away at the end of eighteen months.
Rotten bad business!  His father, jokingly, had told him so at the
time.  And here was his father, fiftyish where the son had been
fifteen, but giving nothing away without a swivel eye on the profit
or the "advert."  Sir Probyn still spoke of "adverts."  It
irritated his son.

Lance stood there a moment looking through the lens of his own
sensitive nature at his father who was scrutinizing a postage-
stamp.  The son was trying to see some resemblance between that
other father and his other son, but to Lance they appeared as
unlike as two men could be.  Three generations of Pybi, and the
middle one a warehouse built between a cathedral and a castle!

"Pater, can I come in for a minute?"

Probyn had not heard his son's footsteps; he had been absorbed in
squinting at that stamp.  He looked up with bland, civic
expression.  It seemed to him that his son's figure, set in the
white frame of the window, looked taller than usual.

"Come in, Lance.  Look at this Honduras.  What do you think of it?"

Lance, moving to a position behind his father, looked at the stamp,
and also at that patch of baldness on Sir Probyn's head.

"Nice issue.  I want to talk about--things, pater.  It's--it's

Sir Probyn placed the magnifying glass between the leaves of the
stamp album.  He pushed back his chair six inches.  He was
deliberate, for deliberation seemed to be the right response to so
flustering a word.  Inevitable!  Was anything inevitable save death
and one's dinner?  Had the boy got himself into some mess, an
affair with a woman?

"What is the trouble?  Sit down, Lance."

Lance remained standing behind his father's chair.

"There's no trouble, pater--but I don't want to go into business."

So that was it!  Probyn, looking over his shoulder, with a shrewd
and facetious finger stroking his polished chin, prepared to
receive his son as he would have received a deputation.

"What's the matter with business?"

"Nothing, pater.  But I have reasons.  I'm not made for business."

"Haven't tried it, my lad, have you?"

"I want to do something else."

Probyn was no fool.  His shrewdness cast a wide circle, but it was
a circle described on a flat surface.  Youth's urges, and its
impossible enthusiasms were all very well, but they were like the
tantrums of a child, ebullitions of unadvised emotion.  You had to
be patient with children and young people; they could be very
exasperating.  But the trouble was that Lance did not appear to be
an ordinary young person with a healthy appetite for the good
things of life and a sensible determination towards the getting of

"Well--what do you want to do?"


Probyn could understand a lad wanting to be a racing motorist or a
wireless expert, something that was virile and adventurous--but


Lance's eyes were on his father's stamp-album.

"Books.  They may be novels."

"Ah!" said his father--"want to be an Arnold Bennett or an H. G.
Wells, do you.  That's quite all right if you are an Arnold Bennett
or a Wells."

He was bland and tolerant, and Lance understood the implication.

"I don't know what I can do yet, pater.  Writing's a great craft.
You have to work at it."

"Quite so.  Have you tried anything with the publishers?"

"Not yet."

"And how long do you think it will be?"

"I can't say.  I'm working on a novel."

"That's very interesting.  But--meanwhile--how do you propose to

His tolerance had a gaiety.  He made that point because it was
worth making, and all fathers have made it, but it was no more than
a point, a suggestion.

Lance seemed to reflect.  He stood with his hands in his pockets,
his eyes looking over his father's head and through the open

"As best I could."

"How would that be?"

"Odd articles and short stories--while I was getting going.  Or--I
might take on a secretarial job."

His father smiled, much as he had smiled over that new postage-

"My dear lad!"

He turned his chair, and looked up obliquely into his son's face.

"I suppose you realize that you are my son.  I have always tried.--
The best education--and all that.  Because--you know--his son does
matter to a man."

"You have been very generous to me, pater."


"I want you to be generous to me--in this other way, not with

"You mean--you want your chance?"


Sir Probyn got up, and walked to the window.  He stood there at
gaze, rattling a bunch of keys in a trouser pocket.  He was shaping
an attitude.  Every situation has its key.

"Supposing I made you an allowance--say for two years.  You are
twenty next month."

"Would it be fair, pater?"

"To whom?"

"To you."

His father faced about, still rattling those keys.

"To me!  Well--now.  Why--to me?"

"Because I should be doing what I wanted to do, and not what you
want me to do."

Sir Probyn looked blank for a moment.  The boy was so unexpected.
He was always skipping out of the nice little circle you had drawn
about him.

"Oh--I don't know about that.  I might make it quite a moderate
allowance.  Feeling on your dignity about it?"

"In a way."

"Quite right.  Supposing I allowed you two hundred a year.  When
you had taken your degree--I suppose you would go up to London.  Or
you could live here and work.  Why not?"

"I should have to see things, pater."

"Life--eh!  Get your copy.  Well, you could go into rooms--I might
even find you a part-time post--secretarial work--as you say."

"It's very good of you, pater.  I--"

But his father had turned a sudden back on him.  He walked across
to a cabinet in which he kept his cigars.  He opened two or three
different boxes; he appeared to deliberate.

"That's the son's point of view, Lance.  Ever considered the

Lance, watching his father rolling a cigar between thumb and
fingers, let his thoughts revert to that other father.

"I'd like to hear it, pater."

"You shall.  Ever occurred to you that I must have worked pretty

"It has."

"Watched you grow up, made plans, felt proud of you.  And a time
comes, my lad, when a man's responsibilities--get--rather heavy.
He finds himself wanting to sit in a chair and potter round his
garden.  And that's the time when he begins to think--'Here's youth
coming along.  It will take something off my shoulders.  And it
will be good to watch it growing big.'  Not unnatural--that--eh?
It's a point of view.  Hasn't occurred to you--perhaps--that I had

He threw a quick glance at his son's face.  It was immensely grave
and resolute and silent, for Lance was remembering that his father
had not behaved to the Venerable as he expected his own son to
behave to him.

"I know--pater.  I'm not saying to you that I did not ask to be
born--because it's just as possible that you did not ask for me to
be born."

"As a matter of fact--I did.  But aren't there other

"There must be good fellows in the firm who would be of much more
use to you than I should be.  I'm perfectly honest.  I should not
be any use in business."

"If you made an effort--?"

"My heart's not in it.  All this may sound very foolish and
selfish, but oughtn't one to try and do the thing--the big thing,
that calls you?  After all--you did, sir."

He watched a queer little shimmer of a smile flit across his
father's face.

"That's true.  But I made money.  I set out to make money.  I don't
think you know yet, Lance, how important money is."

"Perhaps I do--and perhaps I don't, pater.  But I want to follow my
own craft.  I'm not talking high-brow tosh.  After all--it seems to
me that his craft should matter to a man, and that if it doesn't he
might just as well be dead.  I know men up at Cambridge--"

"Is that where--?"

"No--I try and work things out for myself.  I haven't thought much
of making money."

"You haven't!"

"Perhaps it doesn't seem so enormously important when your head and
your heart are full of other things."

His father put in one of his sly touches.

"I dare say--that is so.  I did not have your advantages.  I had to
scramble for myself.  My money has made things pretty easy for

Lance's head went up.

"Yes.  But you ought not to taunt me with it, pater."

"My dear boy--!"

"That's one of the reasons why I want--well, perhaps you don't

Sir Probyn, bland and affectionate, crossed over and patted his
son's shoulder.

"More than you think, perhaps.  Well--we'll see about it.  You have
got another year at Trinity."


Probyn was unpinning his tie.  It was his habit to leave his
dressing-room door open, for his wife liked to talk while she was
in the process of going to bed, and had he left the door closed she
would most certainly have opened it.  Ever since Probyn had
attained to the dignity and the culture of a dressing-room they had
discussed night by night their own private affairs, their son,
their friends, or their servants.

Said the mother, dabbing at her face with a piece of cotton-wool--
"There's something funny about Lance."

Probyn was removing his collar, and uncovering a rather prominent
Adam's apple.

"Funny!  Oh, yes--I think I know all about that.  It's the hot-air

He smiled at himself in the mirror.  Yes, he had every right to
think that he had handled Lance very well.  It did not do to jerk
the reins.  A soft hand was the thing.

"The boy wants to be an author."

"Well--why can't he be an author?"

"But he doesn't want to go into the business."

"Told you that--seriously?"

"Might have been telling me he had had a call.  Going out as a
missionary to China."

Lance's mother turned in her chair.  She could see a part of her
husband.  He was getting into a blue silk dressing-gown.

"What did you say?"

"Said we would see about it.  Fact is--the boy has had things made
too easy.  My fault perhaps--"

"But--you can't let him--"

"Might be the best way, mother.  Let him go and find things out,
the things that matter.  I'm not so sure that I shan't give him a
small allowance, and let him try the scribbling game for two years.
That's to say--if the obsession lasts."

"But--authors--don't make much money, do they--unless they happen
to be best sellers?"

"That's my point.  If the lad's got any sense he'll soon realize
the limitations of that sort of life.  He doesn't know what life
is.  It would be an experience.  Teach him values.--Besides--"

He came to the door, and stood with his hands tucked into the
pockets of his dressing-gown.

"Things happen.--Women--and all that.  Bound to happen some day,
mother.  That'll teach him.  He's a good lad, a nice lad, bless
him.  He's the sort that will take falling in love damned
seriously.  Expensive game these days, marrying the modern girl.
She'll soon knock the nonsense out of him.  Nothing like
responsibilities for bringing a lad down to bedrock."

Lady Pybus picked up a hairbrush.

"That's rather clever of you, Byn.  Poor old Lancie.  He's so
dreamy--dear old thing."

"He'll get over it.  The thing is--to let him--find things out.  I
bet you that in a couple of years he'd be turning to with me--like
a Trojan.  Art--and all that's a mug's game."

"But there have to be artists and authors, Byn."

"I know.  But it's we who keep 'em.  We're the people who make all
that--possible.  Mark me--Lance will find that out--if he has to
find it out.  He'll want to do the keeping, hire fellows to write
and paint for him.  That's the idea."



John Pybus had learnt to say--"Don't expect too much from people.
The world's full of children."

Nor did he blame children for being greedy when there is a scramble
for cake and jam; but from his grandson the Venerable was daring to
expect higher forms of hunger.  For to some the Apples of the
Hesperides hang on mystical trees, and while most snouts are in the
flesh-pots, other eyes look over the edge of the world.

Old Pybus was a mystic, though there might be a touch of the
Puritan in his mysticism.  He insisted upon mysticism.  He would
tell you that mere cleverness is so much camel-dung, but that
mysticism sets it alight.  You smell a flower--but--who--is it that
smells it, and what is it that you smell?  The perfume of an
essential oil?  But lose your mysticism and life loses its odour.

For a week he did not see his grandson.

"Hard words."

Yes, he had spoken hard words to Lance.  How to be yourself with
everything and nothing!  A diamond in your head and twopence in
your pocket.  A scribbler's income--unless you were one of the
lucky scribblers--cheap clothes, new soles to your boots a problem,
soap a consideration, flat food and perhaps flat feet, your mouth
full of bad teeth, a third-class ticket to Brighton, your wife's
head indifferently shingled--if you could afford a wife; no scent
on the dressing-table, cotton pyjamas, grey flannel trousers at
twelve shillings a pair, the barber once in two months, the doctor
not at all--save as a disaster!  The eternal chasing of sixpences
in a climate that demands beer and beef; days when the soul of the
world looks like a boiled potato!  Yes, that was what your
mysticism might have to contend with.  London and an empty belly,
and a red winter sun setting over the trees of Hyde Park.

But at the end of a week Lance reappeared.

He found the Venerable at his post in front of the brass gong.

"Sorry, grandpater--but the car has been laid up."

John Pybus's very blue eyes filled with little glimmers of light.

"Thought I'd frightened you."

"No.  You gave me something to think about.  Shall I wait here?"

Old Pybus pulled out his watch.

"A quarter past four.  I shall be free in five minutes.  Go down to
the cottage and start the kettle."

"Right, grandpater."

Miss Vallence was leaning forward over her desk with her head half-
through the office window.  She had heard Lance call John Pybus,
grandfather.  She intended Lance to look at her, and look he did.

"Good afternoon, Miss Vallence."

"Good afternoon, sir."

She smiled upon him.  She wanted to ask him if his name was Pybus,
for if old Pybus owned such a grandson--well--the situation--would
be unusual and interesting.  Miss Vallence spent so much of her
life in a glass case that she was thrilled if a mouse ran across
the hall.

"We thought you had forgotten us, sir.  Lovely weather for the time
of year."

Lance paused by the office window.  Miss Vallence was a friend of
his grandfather's, and Lance had often noticed her tired face
suspended over her books.  She made him think of a little,
pathetic, yellow-haired monkey, full of amiable chatterings and
characteristic phrases.  He could see himself offering Miss
Vallence a red apple or a banana, but he never could think of
anything to say to her.  What did you say to that sort of girl?
Lance had his limitations.

"Had your holiday, Miss Vallence?"

"Me!--I--don't--think!  I've forgotten all about it."

"You haven't had one?"

"I had a week at Torquay in May.  Do you know Torquay, sir?"

"I've been there once."

"Lovely place--don't you think?  And Dartmoor?  I went in a
'sharry' to Chagford.  We--were--gay.  You ought to tell Mr. Pybus
to take a holiday, sir."

"Doesn't he take a holiday?"

"He's never had one since I've been here."

Lance glanced towards the figure of his grandfather, and found the
Venerable's eyes fixed on him with a kind of gentle and amused
shrewdness, for John Pybus saw many men--young and old--approach
Miss Vallence's window, goggle-eyed men, bright boys, bagmen away
from home.  Lance was the unusual male outside the glass cage.  He
exhibited a shy, serious courtesy.

Lance smiled at his grandfather.

"I had better see to that kettle."

He nodded to Miss Vallence and went down the passage, and Miss
Vallence, passing a hand over her shingled head, addressed Mr.

"Nice boy, your grandson--such nice manners."

"That's so," said the Venerable.

"Comes in his own car, doesn't he?"

"Yes, his own car."

"My word!  His people--"

But the Venerable was not to be tempted.  He glanced at his watch,
and decided that he could follow his grandson.  But he did pause
momentarily outside the office window to give Miss Vallence
something to satisfy her.

"Pots of money, my dear.  Between you and me, family differences.
You keep that to yourself--if you can!"

But his face had a softness as he went out into the Saracen yard
and saw the familiar redness of the old walls and the brown-grey
cobbles, and the grey and russet roofs, and pigeons wheeling and
waiting.  One white bird flew down and settled upon his right
shoulder, and the Venerable was made to think of the Holy Spirit
descending.  He smiled and, putting up a hand, caressed the bird.
He walked on past Lance's little blue Talbot, and in the cobbled
breadth of the passage leading to his cottage, he paused as a man
pauses to look at life and his thoughts, as through an open window.
The Castle ash trees were hung with golden keys.  Creepers were
reddening on the walls.  Autumn was here.  And he thought--"How
many more autumns shall I see?  Not so many.  But if--in the winter
of my years I am to have a son--may it please God to give me ten
more years."  The pigeon was still upon his shoulder, and taking it
gently into his hands he threw it upwards into the air as though
sending up a living prayer.


When old Pybus came to the door of his cottage he heard two voices,
and one of them was a woman's.

"That will save you five minutes, sir.  I'll turn it up full."

"Thank you."

"Mr. Pybus likes his tea fresh and strong.  One spoonful for him,
one for you, and one for the pot."

Woman--everlasting woman, that irresponsible petticoat fluttering
on his grandson's heels!  The Venerable stood and listened, not as
a mere eavesdropper, but as a man bending to catch the voice of
youth.  Sally was incorrigible, and yet as natural as a fluttering
pigeon swooping down upon his grandson.

"Thank you.  I can manage now."

That was Lance's voice, pleasant but a little shy, and suggesting
that he did not quite know what to do with Sally.  "Confound the
young minx!" was the Venerable's reflection.  But he remained there
for a moment looking through other windows, and remembering how a
kind of brightness had come to Millie Vallence's face, and how
Sally had spoken of "lovely eyes."  Damn it!  He supposed that
Lance might have that fatal something which draws women like the
piping of the Pied Piper.  His very shyness in the presence of
certain petticoats was a lure.  Sex and its vexings and its
disharmonies!  Paris and the fatal apple, and those three
goddesses!  Were women going to trouble his grandson, and were
their tempestuous petticoats storm signals?  Sex was both a
necessity and a sacrament, but it got in a man's way.  It was like
a pair of retarding arms clasping his knees.

John Pybus turned to the door just as Sally came out with one of
the hotel kettles.  Her dark eyes had a little glimmer of mischief
and defiance.  She held up the kettle.

"Brought you some hot water, Mr. Pybus.  I put it in your kettle
for the young gentleman."

"Yes, hot water!" said the Venerable.

She sidled past him with an air of mystery and archness, but she
made herself meet his blue eyes.

"Don't be cross with me, Mr. Pybus."

"Am I looking cross, my dear?"

"I did think you'd like your tea--quick."

She ran away and up the passage with one shy, backward glance at
him perched there like a little old eagle.  The Venerable nodded
his head at her with consenting kindness, for, after all--the
Sallies of the world cannot help themselves.  Birds fly down to the

Entering, he found Lance in the kitchen, standing by the oil-stove,
and holding the brown teapot ready, and undisturbed by Sally's
flutterings.  He met the Venerable's eyes without a flicker of self-

"Nearly ready.  That girl brought us some hot water."

"Very thoughtful of her."

"I have put in three spoonfuls of tea.  Is that right?"


A smile passed between them.  They stood side by side watching the
kettle and waiting for its voice to be raised.

"We shouldn't be doing this--I suppose, grandpater?"

"Quite wrong, according to popular superstition.  Shows that one's
estimate of time is purely relative!"

"I say, ought I to have put some hot water in the teapot?"

"Never mind to-day."

"Sins of omission!  Tell me, grandpater, was that true--?"


"That you haven't had a holiday for years?"

"What is a holiday?"

"Then you haven't."

"I have not removed my body to some place by the seaside, or into
Wales or the Lake District.  But the other part of me has

The kettle was boiling, and Lance lifted it from the stove.

"Do I fill it full?"

"Yes, for two."

"Have you ever been to Cambridge, grandpater?"


Lance's face was very serious.

"I'm going up again next Tuesday.  My last year.  Would you come up
for a few days this term, and stay with me?  I can get you a room
outside, and you could feed with me."

Old Pybus looked hard at him and was silent.

"I'd love you to come up, grandpater.  I want you to meet two or
three fellows, Sorrell and Frensham.  And we should be able to
talk.  I shouldn't have to rush off."

Having filled the teapot, he glanced at his grandfather, who was
holding the lid of it.

"Will you?"

"My son," said old Pybus--"I will."


When they were seated at the Venerable's oak table, John Pybus,
because of the emotion that was in him, and because the spout of
the teapot had somehow managed to develop an obstruction, appeared
to be twitching his white eyebrows.  Feeling his heart like a bag
of blood and water, he looked fierce.

"I make one condition, Lance."

"Yes, grandpater."

"I pay.  Do you understand me?"

"But you will be my guest."

"Not exactly--yours.  God forgive both our prides."

Lance looked at his grandfather with a flushed seriousness.

"Yes, I understand.  I'm sorry.  Of course--"

"There's no need for you to be sorry," said old Pybus.  "The
'boots' of the Saracen's Head visits his grandson at Trinity.  I
take off my hat to my grandson, and I take off my hat to myself."

Lance helped himself to strawberry jam.  If the moment was rich in
emotion, it had other inferences and little jarrings of the memory.
Was the mood of the moment ever of one texture, simple and
continuous, like a red or yellow jelly?  You saw people like
figures in a landscape.  The very "I" of yourself was a complex of
seeming contradictions.  The Venerable walking round the Great
Court at Trinity would seem a part of the mysterious reality of
things.  Whereas--his father--!  Lance had heard men say, "Awful
bore, but the gov'nor's coming up for the week-end," though some of
them were not ashamed of their fathers, and may have felt for them
a tolerant affection.  What was snobbery?  If your father made the
intimate inward self of you wince, was that snobbery?  And yet how
queer it was that he should be conscious of pride at the thought of
walking about Cambridge with his grandfather, a little old fellow
in a bowler hat.  Was it affection, or a mere flush of egotism, or
defiance?  Was there not some deep and rather sacred bond between
them--?  But how ironical!  The Venerable had been the despised and
the rejected of his sons, and the son of one of the sons was
reversing the process, not as a prig, but rather as a disciple.

But he ought to be fair to his father.  Sir Probyn might be what
you called a materialist, but his father's materialism had given
the son Eton and the Great Court at Trinity.  And what was
materialism?  Was there not a revolt against the social cataloguing
and labelling of life's reactions?  Were not the impudent young
moderns a little more subtle than their fathers?  They were more
conscious of what really did go on inside them, and were ready to
think about it and act upon it.  Their seeming impudence was the
aliveness of the urchin who had climbed a wall and, seeing top hats
passing solemnly to and fro in a stuffy lane, felt moved to shy
green apples at all that solemn headgear.

But youth has its reverences.  It might desire to make a holy relic
of Hobbs's bat.  It respects accomplishment, and especially
physical accomplishment.  Lance would not have been the lad he was
had he not known what it was to row himself blind in the Long

With his elbows on the table, and his eyes fixed on his
grandfather's plate, he made his confession.

"The pater has been rather decent.  I told him.  He has offered me
two years."

"An allowance?"

"Two hundred a year for two years--when I go down.  I'm wondering
whether I ought to take it."

"You have taken--it--for twenty years."

"I know.  But this is different.  I'm self-conscious."

"More tea, Lance?"

"Yes, another cup.  I want you to tell me something, grandpater."


"Did you ever feel--an enemy--in your own father?"

"Yes, and no.  We clashed--sometimes.  What else can you expect?
Two live personalities.  Just as Probyn and Conrad clashed with me.
But my father had a sense of justice.  In these days you'd call him
a sportsman."

"But you had a sense of justice?"

"Generations differ in their ideas of justice.  What's to happen at
the end of these two years?"

Lance took the cup from his grandfather's outstretched hand.  He
looked at the cup and not at the Venerable's face, but he seemed to
be aware of the Venerable's eyes looking at him and into him.  His
grandfather had asked the one inevitable and pregnant question,
just as Lance had realized that he might be expected to ask it.

"Yes.  It's beastly.  Do you ever remember a time, grandpater, when
you suddenly seemed to see people--naked--people you'd lived with
for years--?"

"I do.  Something in you--strips them.  All the conventional
clothes come off."

"It's rather horrible."

He stirred his tea, and his face expressed suffering, the shrinking
of youth from certain nudities.

"Caricatures--of what people had seemed to be--when you were a kid.
Even your mother.  You feel in a sort of bog.  Horrible sense of
things being squashy and insecure under your feet.  You've lost
faith.  You seem to see people's real motives coming out of their
mouths--like the puffy old labels the cartoonists used to draw--
like visible breath from the mouths of those Georgian folk.  All
coarse and crude and vulgar.  Because--one does ask to believe--in
people.  My God--one does ask--"

The Venerable's white eyebrows were twitching.

"Go on asking.  But perhaps one learns to choose one's people.
There's a lot that's wonderfully decent in human nature.  Decent.
That's a modern word turned upside down.  But what happens after
those two years?"

Lance looked suddenly and with a kind of flashing straightness into
his grandfather's face.

"He wants to see me fail.  He's letting me make a fool of myself.
He's quite kind about it--but I'm to be the silly prodigal back
from the husks.  I shall go like a sheep into the shearing-pen."

They looked at each other.

"Did that come to you?"

"Yes, how--I don't know.  Like catching someone grinning in a
mirror--when you were not supposed to be looking.  It's damnable--
to feel--"

His grandfather got up and reached for his tobacco tin.

"Prove people wrong.  That's the only way.  Remove that grin.  It
comes off like a mask--when they see you yourself--not the little
manufactured self they'd like to make you.  That's the only
alternative--that--or slavery--soul slavery.  It may be a bloody
business--like the war, but it's worth it."


When they walked up the Saracen yard, Lance had a hand tucked under
his grandfather's arm.

"I shan't see you again till Cambridge.  You--will--come?"

"Oh, yes; I shall come."

"I'll write and let you know.  Or perhaps you would like to fix it.
The end of the month?"

Summer-time had passed, and the sun was setting.

"I shall have thirty miles with the lights on," said Lance, turning
the switch.  "I expect they wonder--"

"You haven't told them yet?"


Just before getting into the car he remembered something.  He drew
a long envelope from an inner breast-pocket.

"I want you to read some of my stuff, grandpater, will you?"

"What's that?  Manuscript?"

"A short story.  You may think it a bit intimate."

"I'll read it."

"I want you to tell me.  No humbug.  Of course--I think it rather
good--but I dare say that in five years I shall think it tosh."

"No humbug."

"Not from you."


The Venerable had lit his lamp, and tilted the green lamp-shade so
that the light shone over his left shoulder.  His grandson's
manuscript, neatly folded down the middle, lay on the oak table.
It had been lying there untouched for quite a quarter of an hour,
while old Pybus sat very straight in his Windsor chair, and pulled
hard at his pipe.  Twice he had put out a hand to pick up those
sheets of paper, and each time his courage had failed him.

Because if the boy wrote rubbish, or expressed himself with a
conventional and uninspired facility!  If he expected praise?  If
he were to resent criticism?  Because it is human to resent
criticism, and youth flares quickly, or looks sullen and hurt when
challenged.  No humbug!  Yes, that was all very well.  But in
asking for sincerity from those we love, we ask for a sword and a
courage that does not flinch.  We ask them to stand up and wound,
and in wounding--to be wounded.  Just how candid can a friend be,
and is candour a poison or a purge?

Old Pybus's pipe became plugged, and he removed the mouth-piece and
blew down it with fierceness, but the trouble was in the bowl, and
he got up to look for a pipe-cleaner.  He wandered to the fire-
place, and came back to the table.  He spread the manuscript and
holding down the folded halves with two fingers, read the title.

"The Green Mirror."

Yes, there was something arrestive and unlikely about the title--
but how did Lance manage to get his mirror green?  The Venerable's
curiosity rallied his courage.  He turned over the title-page and
read the first paragraph.  It was made up of short, crisp
sentences.  It had a vividness--though there were crude streaks in
it.  It had been written by a young man who had vision, and who saw
things with so sensitive a clearness that sometimes the words had a
raw poignancy.

"The still water was her mirror, and the mirror was green because
the willows dyed it with their green reflections. . . .  She was
very thin, so pale and thin that she looked like an altar candle,
and the flame of it was her hair.  Her lips seemed to have bitten
deep into red fruit--"

The Venerable put his pipe down on the table, gathered the
manuscript, and returned to his chair.  He read quickly, turning
over the pages with a fierce deftness.  Now and again his white
eyebrows twitched.

He came to the end.  He sat with the manuscript on his knees.  His
face expressed relief.  There were little tremblings as of an
exultant smile.

"It's there.  He's got it.  Extravagant--of course, young, too much
colour.  But it's there.  I can tell him so.  I can--"

He got up and relit his pipe.



One of the Trinity porters was handling Lance's luggage.

"Had a good vac, sir?"

"Very, thanks."

Lance looked neither at the man nor at his luggage.  He was
standing under the span of the gateway, facing the Great Court.
Hundreds of times he had passed through this gateway, and the court--
with its grey buildings, its brown cobbles and flagstones, its
fountain and its grass--had become so familiar that his eyes had
accepted it without wonder.  But on this October afternoon it had a
strangeness.  He seemed to be looking at it with other eyes.  The
red geraniums in the beds round the fountain were like flowers in
some mystical picture, blood-red stigmata.  The day was very still.
The sunlight lay softly upon the very vivid grass.  The air had a
crispness.  And Lance Pybus felt out of his body, and floating in a
beautiful, autumn sadness.  Life was as plaintive as some of the
modern music.

He spoke to the porter who was loading luggage on to a hand-cart.

"Mr. Sorrell up yet?"

"Yes, sir.  I think so, sir."

"Same rooms?"


The porter trundled the luggage away, but Lance walked slowly
across the Great Court to the hall, still full of that most strange
feeling of being out of himself.  He did not meet any men of his
year; he did not want to meet them at this particular moment.  He
climbed the stone steps of the hall, passed through the dark
"screens," and down into the cloister court.  Taking the right
arcade he saw suddenly before him the open space of the gate under
the library.  He walked on a few steps and stood still.

Within him a voice was saying--"How is it that I never saw it like
this before?"

The picture, framed in the warm stone, was both soft and brilliant,
an infinite greenness of grass and trees, and scattered sunlight,
and still black water flecked over by the incipient gold of autumn.
Yes, everything was very still.  He had come in out of the
mechanical clatter of the K.P., away from the odour of progress
emitted by taxis and motor-bikes, to pause in front of this live
picture.  It had a sadness, an exquisite glow, a dignity.  It
seemed to be an expression in sunlight and water and grass and
trees of that which was in him, a yearning, a poignancy, an
unexpressed and almost inexpressible something.

He found himself thinking "The Venerable will understand this."

Yes, he could see the Venerable's white head passing out through
the gateway, and the Venerable's blue eyes taking in all that
beauty, and the repose and the rightness of it.  What an
atmosphere!  He remembered bringing his father to see the library,
and his father's bland progress past the books.  Almost--he had
bowed to them like a superior sort of shopwalker.

"Oh, damn!  What a beast one is!"

He turned quickly and retraced his steps.  He made for the doorway
in the Great Court where Kit Sorrell had his rooms.  He saw the
familiar name in white over the doorway.  Sorrell's "oak" was

Lance opened the keeping-room door.  He saw his friend stooping in
front of a bookcase with his hands full of books.  He felt
something in his throat.


"Hallo!  Pybie--old man."

Lance's arm went out and back.

"Mind if I shut you in?"

"Rather not--"

Lance pulled the outer door to with a crash and, strolling into his
friend's room, sat down on the blue sofa in front of the fire.  He
took out his cigarette case, extracted a cigarette and lit it.  He
felt most strangely near to tears.


Sorrell slipped the books one by one into their appointed places,
for, like his father, he had an orderly mind.  Also, he was
deliberate.  He did not rush at people, or ask them to rush at him,
but for Lance Pybus he was ready to make allowances.

"What a hulk you're growing.  They'll be putting you in one of the

"Not rowing this year."

"What rot!  Nor am I."

Kit turned about to collect more books from a trunk behind the
door.  He looked for a moment at his friend who was looking at a
photograph of the elder Sorrell.

"Mind if I finish the books?"

"No, go ahead.  How's your pater?"

"Oh--all right."

"So's mine.  It's not supposed to be decent to reverence your

"I don't find that a trouble."

"Sentimental old idiot."

Kit crossed the room and collected more books.  He was more solid
than Lance, rounder in the face and head, but he was as quick in
his feeling of things.  And he was wondering what was the matter,
for there was something the matter with Lance Pybus.  His friend's
voice had the casual tone of a fellow who had been afraid of
blubbing, and when Lance was flippant you might know that he was on
fire inside.

"A girl--I suppose," thought Kit.  "He was like this--after that
Christmas vac.  Met a flapper at a dance."

He crossed again to the bookcase.

"Been reading anything?"

"Not much.  I did come across one funny thing about our stinking

"Do we stink?"

"The young man of the day, no manners, no reverence, no ideals, all
petrol and jazz.  We're a filthy crowd, Kittums."

"We always were.  But the old fusters were glad of us in the Great

"Your pater's not a fuster."

"He's a great man."

Kit Sorrell had a smile in his eyes.  He was thinking for the
moment of his father, and also of Lance's father, whom he had met
last May Week, and how he had not felt himself comfortable in the
presence of Sir Probyn Pybus.  And what a baffling creature was
this "self."  There were times when it shivered like a very small
boy afraid of his first swimming lesson.  Fellows were afraid of
such different things.  Pentreath was afraid of being himself;
Lance was too much afraid of being anything but himself.  Then
there was that poisonous little fellow upstairs, Cornlees--who did
nothing but talk about syphilis, because he was dreadfully afraid
of it.  Christopher Sorrell knew his own particular fear to be a
dread of disappointing his father.  But Lance took himself too
seriously, and was inclined to exact too much from other selves.

"Yes, my pater's a great man.  I'm quite out of fashion, Pybie--"

"I'd like you to drop that name."


"I'm in the height of fashion.  If you are able to think of your
father as a snob and a cad--"

Young Sorrell, squatting on his heels in front of his bookcase,
looked round over his shoulder, and then became very intent upon
the proper and nice grouping of his text-books.  Embryology,
physiology, anatomy, pharmacology, chemistry.  But the self in him
understood that something had happened to Lance Pybus, and that his
friend was full to the lips with what old Ponsonby, their tutor,
would have called "the quintessence of emotion."  Lance had
something to let out.  He was in a stammering mood.  He was both
closing a fist and trying to open it.

"You take your people rather seriously.  What's happened?"

"Several things.  The angel of the Lord and Balaam's ass.
Supposing your pater had insisted on your going into business."

"But he didn't."

"I know--but supposing--"

Christopher rose and leant against the bookcase.

"It doesn't follow.  My pater gave me my choice.  Being what he is--
I suppose it was bound to happen like that."

"And being what you are."

"Oh--I don't know about that.  What line did your pater--?"

"Offered me two years' board and lodging, and a chance to prove
myself an idiot."


"Pretty well.--But--damn it--I know--and I feel--"

Leaning forward and picking up Kit's poker, he prodded at the fire.

"I want to write.  I can write.  I've got it in me, just as you
have surgery in you.  You want to cut up people--I want to cut up

"Is it quite like that?"

Lance turned quickly on the sofa.  He looked up into Christopher's
fresh, brown face with the firelight playing upon it.

"What does one want?  Isn't it self-expression?  I don't want to be
my pater's pup.  I want to be myself--here and now--and to-morrow--
and to the end of things.  I'm not asking for a comfortable job.
And I want to see and to know.  What do I know?  One ought to be
dirty and hungry--one of the slave crowd, get your guts twisted--"

"You will," said Sorrell's son--"if you don't make money.  You see--
I know.--My pater had to--"

"Oh, money be damned!"

"You'll be damned without it."


"Unless you are a saint, my lad, or so smitten with your job.  But
if you begin to want things, all the things people scramble for?  I
want certain things, and I mean to get them if I can."

"What things?"

"Well--freedom.  No boots to be licked.  You see, comes a time when
you want things for other people, for a girl or a kid.  My pater
wanted things--for me."

Lance stared at the fire.

"You're a good chap, Kit.  I'm not quite so beastly selfish as I
sound.  I've got something else to tell you.  Rather astonishing.
I've discovered a grandfather, John Julian Apostasius Pybus.  He is
coming up to stay with me."

Sorrell came and sat on the end of the sofa.

"How do you mean, discovered him?"

"I had always supposed he was dead.  And so he was--so far as my
people were concerned.  Rather awkward for a Sir Somebody to have a
little old hotel 'boots' for father."

Christopher's face grew very grave.

"I told you about my pater--"

"Yes, old chap--that's why I am telling you.  Extraordinary
coincidence.  I found it out by chance.  My people don't know--that
I know.  It's rather a filthy business."

The lift of his head was ironical.  His nostrils were shadowed with

"Strange, isn't it?  My pater and my uncle despised their father,
and now it's my turn.  It's difficult to tell you just how I felt.
Rotten.  But I have reverted.  It's as though the Venerable--my
grandpater--was my real father.--I used to go over and see him--but
he did not know to begin with who I was.  He is really rather
extraordinary.  Makes me think of Seneca or Marcus Aurelius.--You
see, I'm the third generation."

He gave Kit Sorrell a sudden, upward smile.

"I've been through things--somewhat.--I'm the son of an old
bookseller who has evolved a beautiful philosophy out of cleaning
boots.  I have shed the Golden Fleece.  In fact--I have shed--my

Sorrell's son was staring at the fire.

"Isn't that rather hard on him?"

Lance was silent.  Then he said--"I haven't seen enough of life--
yet--to know."


Lance Pybus stood in the doorway of his sitting-room.  He had not
seen the room for four months, and seeing it now after that
intimate half-hour with Christopher Sorrell he discovered in it a
garishness.  Everything was too pink, and there were too many

In front of a very bright fire his bedmaker spread a breadth
suggestive of innumerable petticoats, bending forward with a pair
of tongs in her right hand.  As Frensham would have it--"Mrs.
Cardew had a Dutch exterior."  A pink quilt folded over the back of
a chair was receiving an airing.

"Hallo!--Mrs. Cardew."

The claws of the tongs released the lump of coal.

"That you, Mr. Pybus!  Well--I'm glad to see you up again, sir."

Her breadth seemed to rise like a great black bubble.  Mrs. Cardew
still wore her hat with an air of jauntiness, a woman whose hair
had been very black and abundant.  She looked hot, and the light of
the fire lingered in her jocund eyes.  It had never occurred to
Lance that once upon a time Mrs. Cardew had been a saucy girl and a
merry one.  If he considered her at all it was as a good-natured,
red-faced bundle of a woman, rather too noisy and talkative, and
threatening to be familiar.

"That's some fire."

"Always like my young gentlemen to feel like 'ome, sir."

Because of her motherliness her glance was not quite an ogle.

"Had a good vac, sir?"

"Not bad."

"Any more pictures of nice young ladies?"

"No--Mrs. Cardew."

"What a pity!  I just 'ad the quilt out t'air.  I'll unpack for
you, sir, if you like."

Lance gave her a casual and absent smile.

"Yes--please.  Any letters?"

"One or two, sir.  I put 'em in front of 'er ladyship's photo on
the mantelpiece, sir."

Lance went for his letters, consciously avoiding looking at his
mother's photograph.  He found the envelope that he had hoped and
expected to find, a longish envelope which contained the manuscript
of "The Green Mirror," posted from Castle Craven by his grandfather.

"I 'ad to buy you a new teapot, sir."

"All right, Mrs. Cardew."

"The young gentleman who 'ad your rooms when 'e was up for 'is

But Lance did not appear to hear her.  He had walked off into
another world.  He was opening the long envelope and drawing out
the manuscript and the Venerable's letter.  Mrs. Cardew gathered
the pink quilt to her bosom.  She looked at her young gentleman--
her favourite young gentleman--with a droll and chagrined
tolerance.  She went out with the quilt.

She thought--"'im and 'is poetry!  Don't seem to see you--
sometimes; don't seem to know you're there.  Shut up with 'imself.
Too much so--I should say.  Someone will do a bit of screaming--
some day.  These young women can be 'ot stuff.--Poor dear!"

Lance was reading his grandfather's letter, and his eyes lit up as
he read it.  Of course he could write.  Things were so vivid in
him.  The Venerable understood.


The youngest of the "Pybi" kept a chapel.  The place seemed to him
dimmer, and the high roof more full of vague distances and the
soaring of the boys' voices.  There was a full choir.  Dr. Parry's
fine and venerable head made Lance think of his grandfather.

Out in the Great Court night had fallen, and the sky was full of
stars.  The windows of the hall were all yellow.  Other young men
went to and fro, and their voices were the voices of youth eager to
open life's shell--"But we won't be sloppy about it, thank you."
Lance lounged through the Great Gate and looked at the shops in
Trinity Street.  He stood in front of the window of a bookshop; he
saw some of the books of the moment---novels, essays, travels--and
the hunger of youth moved in him.  He felt a swelling arrogance.
In two years, in three years, in five years, he would have books in
that window.


In the hall he sat with Sorrell and Frensham and Pentreath--the
sensitive Pentreath.  The same dons, as of old, sat at the high
tables.  Hanging on the das panelling, Henry VIII, superb and
brutal and human, seemed to swell and swagger in the light, looking
down at all these young men.

"Come to France with me.  Come and see the French women."

Afterwards they went to Sorrell's rooms, and five of them sat on
his sofa, and two in each easy chair, and they shouted their Babes
Ballad.  Frensham was its author:

     "We have no manners, we have no sense,
     We hang our noses over Brookland's fence;
     We criticize our paters' ties,
     We think our aunts and cousins guys.
     Vile children, sons of stink;
     Oxford bags and ruddy ink.
     Accursd generation!
     The decadent of the nation!
     We toil not, neither do we spin.
     We play the game and never win.
          Say bo, say bo,
          To old Man Jericho.
     What ho!  What ho!!  What ho!!!"


When all the clocks were striking ten, and the stars up above
seemed to quiver with their chimings, Sorrell's son and Probyn
Pybus's son wandered round the Great Court arm in arm.  They
debated solemnly of life with that almost innocent seriousness that
persuades an older man to smile very kindly and to regret the
dimming of his own desires.  For him the apple has lost its polish,
or there is no apple left; but to Kit and Lance the apple was
mysterious fruit, both sweet and bitter.

Said Christopher--"I wonder how we shall feel about--this place--
ten years hence?"

"Does one ever know--how one is going to feel about things?"

"No--that's true.  You get such surprises."

Christopher was thinking of his father and of his father's face
when a certain old portmanteau had burst open on a railway platform
and exposed--pathos.

"Seems to me--you have to be a bit selfish," said Lance--"insist on

He looked up at the stars, but young Sorrell's glance was more
level and at the height of another man's face.  His eyes would
always be more level than Lance Pybus's.  The stars and the gutter!
For Kit had some of his roots deep in the heart of another man, and
Lance's roots were all his own--for the present.  He was a
syndicate of one.

"You'll bore people, you know," said his friend.

"Not if you insist--successfully, old solemn face."

"You ought to have won the Diamond Sculls."


"A seat in a May boat isn't a bad ideal."

"What about the pairs?"

"That's a funny ship to row in.  Who sets the pace?"

They laughed, but young Sorrell's laughter was deeper than his
friend's.  The simpler people laugh more easily.  You can subtilize
laughter until nothing appears but a sardonic grin.

"When is your grandpater coming up?"

"The beginning of next month.  I think I'm rather red--old Kit."

"Rot!  You're the most utter individualist.  You'll bring your
grandpater round to breakfast with me.  My pater may be up for a

"Thanks, old thing.  You might tell that dirty little swine,
Cornlees, that my grandpater's an hotel 'boots.'  Ask the little
brute to breakfast."

"Shut up," said Sorrell's son; "things like Cornlees don't matter."



On account of his small stature John Pybus always had had trouble
with his clothes.  A ready-made suit would be passable as to the
coat--but when it came to the question of trousers--it was indeed a
question of bags and frills.  As a rule Mr. Pybus had solved the
problem by buying boy's breeches and a man's coat.  In the matter
of hats he leapt to the other extreme, needing the biggest in the

But on this notable occasion he visited Potter's in the High Street
and was measured.  Mr. Potter made for him a black coat and vest,
and a pair of black trousers with a faint white line in them.  Mr.
Potter's "fitter" was politely inquisitive.

"Is it for a wedding, sir?"

"No, for a funeral," said old Pybus.

"Sorry to hear that, sir.  Just a leetle bit off the sleeve I
think.  These things will happen."

"Nothing you can do will prevent them."

"That's right, sir," said the young man very cheerfully.

"Your parents can prevent you being born, but they can't prevent
you dying."

Mr. Potter's young man began a snigger, but meeting the Venerable's
blue eyes, thought better of it.

"Yes, children are a problem, sir."

"Worse.  They're a necessity."

The Venerable also purchased a new felt hat, three collars that
were not ten years out of date, and a ready-made pepper-and-salt
bow tie.  He hunted out from somewhere a little accessory that
he had not used since his bookshop days, a monocle set in
tortoiseshell, with a handle like that of a miniature lorgnette.
It had been his custom to wear it dangling on a black ribbon
fastened under his coat collar, and to use it for reading small
print.  He took it up to Cambridge with him, and that piece of
black ribbon gave to him a touch of Roman distinction.  The
Venerable was not without finesse.  A little piece of black ribbon,
and something which glittered!

Creepers were reddening the walls, and the Castle ash trees
scattered yellow leaves.  The Venerable, listening to the gaillard
singing of a robin, saw in the fall of the leaf no lowering of a
flag.  He was driven down to Castle Craven station in the Saracen
'bus.  No one had objected to his taking a week's holiday.

At Cambridge station Lance met him.  They shook hands.  If either
of them betrayed any shyness that one was the younger Pybus, who
had experienced a moment of surprise--and perhaps of relief--in
reacting to the atmosphere of the outer man.  The Venerable was far
more presentable than the majority of "fellows."  But "presentable"
was a base word.

"I have been lucky about rooms, grandpater."

"That's good."

"I'm afraid they are across the river, and about a quarter of a
mile away from Trinity."

"There is a discretion in distance," said his grandfather; "and I
like to go to bed at ten."

Lance had taken the Venerable's fibre suit-case, and they got into
a taxi, and were driven up the straight and ugly road from the
station.  Old Pybus's blue eyes looked at everything, but he looked
at them like a little old emperor, a veteran who had a right to his

"How abominably the Victorians did some things."

"Pretty poisonous, grandpater."

"Perhaps--they were staging a contrast," said his grandfather.
"The man who first baked a yellow brick should have been frizzled
in his own kiln."

But this drive through Cambridge was the beginning of a new
intimacy, because it was associated with the ripening of their
confidence in each other.  Both age and youth registered swift
impressions.  Passing St. Catherines and Corpus Christi, the
Venerable's blue eyes took to themselves a gentleness.  He sat in
silence, but he was thinking that it is possible for men and
buildings to grow old beautifully.

He was at his ease.  With his suit-case left in the bedroom of a
little house across the Cam, he walked back with Lance, pausing on
the bridge in Bridge Street to look up and down the river.  He had
paid for the taxi; he had insisted on paying for it.

"That's 'John's' up there, grandpater."


They smiled at each other.

Under the arch of the Great Gate of Trinity the Venerable was
constrained to stand very still and to survey the Great Court.  He
said nothing at all.  He remained thus for half a minute.  At the
end of this period of silence and stillness he raised his new hat
and kept it raised for a few seconds.

"That's all--that's needed--I think."

Said Lance:  "Some people are so full of the superfluous.  Can't
forget themselves."

"Do you ever--forget--yourself?"

The Venerable's blue eyes quizzed him.

"Oh, sometimes.  But one is so--damned self-conscious.  What about


It was borne in upon Lance that his grandfather was somehow a man
of the world.  The Venerable could dominate his environment.  He
was as much at his ease in the Great Court of Trinity as he was in
the hall of the Saracen's Head at Castle Craven.

Crossing the court they met Lance's tutor, always in a hurry as to
legs and arms, but never in a hurry as to his inward soul.  Lance
capped him, and Mr. Ponsonby paused.

"My grandfather, sir."

The Venerable and the Don shook hands.  Mr. Ponsonby, being a very
subtle person who could talk to you all night on "conditional
reflexes," or multiple personality, or scribble Gilbertian verse
and sing it to you with a vamped accompaniment, could say
everything that was apposite while saying nothing.  He just bent to
you and smiled down through beneficent spectacles.  He was
admirable with parents.  He had a wicked way of making mothers feel
that they were even more interesting than their sons.  He had the
fine qualities of an Aldine and of Audit Ale.

Said Mr. Ponsonby to the Venerable:

"I always apologize to visitors--for our grass."

"It is very good grass," said the Venerable.

"Sacred to solemn feet.  I dare say--Pybus--will be in a position,
if he chooses."

Old Pybus's eyes twinkled.

"I approve.  Something--should be sacred to age!"

Mr. Ponsonby's face appeared to grow more round and beneficent.

"Do you eat breakfast, sir?"

"I do."

"I--likewise--and a very large one.  To-morrow, say, at half-past
eight.  Pybus, is your grandfather a porridge man?"

"I think he is, sir," said Lance.

The three of them smiled upon each other, and Mr. Ponsonby passed
on, arming his way along like a swimmer.

Upon Lance's stairs they met Mrs. Cardew busy with kettles, and
ready to flatten as much of herself as was possible against the
wall.  She looked boldly into the faces of grandfather and
grandson, and "Good after-nooned" the Venerable, whose response was
scholastic and bland.  She followed them into Lance's sitting-room,
where old Pybus--sitting in the middle of a pink and purple sofa,
and looking like an old Stoic over whose shoulders someone was
about to throw a superfluous garland--was listening to Lance's

"My mater--you know.  When I first came into college--she would
furnish for me."

"I see--you--over there, my lad."

His blue eyes were turned towards Lance's oak bureau, which
suggested the late activities of a burglar in search of paper
money.  Note-books, and odd pieces of manuscript and envelopes, and
an Italian dictionary, and publishers' catalogues, and old letters
made a vast untidiness.

"Yes, that's--me!"

"Very much the throes of composition."

Mrs. Cardew rolled in with a kettle.  She found self-effacement
difficult.  Moreover, she thought Mr. Pybus's rooms "heaven," a
paradise of pinkness and "artiness."  Her ladyship had inspired
enthusiasm by presenting Mrs. Cardew with a pair of cast silk
stockings and a five pound note.

"Shall I make your tea, sir?"


"Ain't it a lovely room, sir?  Her ladyship 'as such taste."

The Venerable produced his miniature lorgnette, and examined Mrs.
Cardew through it.

"Exquisite taste--undoubtedly."

There was a silence, that male silence which patiently awaits some
feminine departure, and Mrs. Cardew, knowing something of her
world, cushioned herself respectfully to that silence, and left
them alone.

"I wish she wouldn't clatter cans," said Lance.

"A form of self-expression, my son."

"Just when you are--"

"In the thick of self-expression.  You'll never get a hawker to
understand that you don't like him shouting under your window.  One-
half the world's a nuisance, the other half's fussy."

Lance went to pour out tea.

"I say, grandpater, it's good to have you here."

"It is good to be here."

"I want you to dine in hall with me to-night."

"I shall love to."

"Afterwards we'll talk.  We'll shut ourselves in."

"And let ourselves out."

"That's it."


During those autumn days young men observed that singular figure
wandering through the colleges with something of the air of an old
man returning to gaze upon the scenes of his youth.  The big hat
and the big head had an unexpectedness on that boyish body.  The
blue eyes were so very much alive.  They looked at towers and
windows, and gateways and chimneys, and at the faces of men, with
the same interested intentness.  The Venerable had no apologetics.
College porters were polite to him.  Had he chosen to walk on the
sacred grass it is possible that he would have escaped unchallenged.

Because--he was at one with the spirit of the place.  Never having
visited its courts before, he yet came to them like a scholar and a
sage, young man and old in one, nor was he a mere creature of
chapels and of libraries.  Nothing pleased him better than to
wander about the streets and watch the young faces.  He felt very
kindly towards all this youth, these lads with their smooth cheeks,
so exquisitely old in the body of their newness.  He liked to walk
briskly down Jesus Lane and across the green space to the river,
and watch the life of the boat-houses, and all that stir upon the
water, "freshers" being tubbed, fours shooting past, eights
labouring less gracefully on flashing feet down towards the gas-

He disapproved of the gas-works.  Who has not?

Lance had lectures to attend, and sundry hours with a coach, nor
was the Venerable afraid of solitude, for solitude is precious even
in the midst of a new comradeship.  Violets should not be vexed.
The weather was fine and not too cold, and each morning he would
cross Trinity bridge into the "backs," where all was drifting
autumn gold.  Sometimes he would stand on the bridge, and look up
towards Clare or down towards St. John's.  The weeping willows
dropped their leaves into the water with a gentle stealth, and the
water itself was very still in that windless weather.  Great elms
were towers of gold beyond the green spaces where the autumn leaves
lay scattered.

The Venerable's favourite seat looked towards the library across
the river; and when sitting there he was conscious of a gentle
spaciousness, of a world's wealth transmuted into spiritual values,
and of the murmuring of Tennyson's elms.  What a world within a
world!  He liked to utter the names "Newton," "Milton,"
"Thackeray."  Here--time was not, and life's plaintiveness tuned to
a robin's singing.

He would utter the word--"progress!" and smile.

But youth's voice was everywhere, and it was the voice of youth as
it should be, undiscordant, purged of loutishness, both serious and
gaillard.  Everywhere the Venerable seemed to see the swift and
eager and impatient face of his grandson.  How impatient youth
could be, how generous, and how ruthless!


Lance's three intimates, Sorrell, Frensham and Pentreath, accepted
the Venerable and were accepted by him, but young Sorrell was the
Venerable's favourite.

They took to each other from the first.  They liked each other's
looks and each other's voices.  The Venerable's resolute, blue-eyed
naturalness found its counterpart in the quiet, square-faced,
wholesome determination of Sorrell's son.

His heart went out to Christopher, as it had gone out to Lance.  He
was attracted by the essential cleanness of the lad, his wise
simplicity, that sudden smile, his air of oldness in youth.  They
went out and walked together.  Kit found the Venerable very easy to
talk to.

He talked to him about his father.  The impersonal is founded upon
the personal, and the struggles and the braveries of Sorrell's
father, as seen by the son, were understood by old Pybus as few men
would have understood them.  Here was a live reaction.  They were
under the elms, with a light breeze bringing down leaves like amber
rain.  The Venerable's black bowler did not rise much higher than
Christopher's shoulder.

"Seeing people hurt," said the Venerable.

Kit's eyes had a softness.

"I've seen--my father suffer.  Oh, yes; kids do see things, sir.  I
think that some kids see them more clearly than grown-ups do.  I
remember.  His face used to be so pale, with something knotted in
the middle of his forehead."

The Venerable's voice was gentle.

"You did see that?"

"Oh, yes."

"Then--you have seen--what shall we say--the great mystery--the
eternal--what--Christ on the Cross?  That's it."


"It's not my theory, Christopher.  These mysteries aren't theories.
They are as real as the blood.  Mystic blood.  They are as sure as
the fact that if you butt your head against a wall--it will hurt
you.  Being hurt is one of the necessities.  It's an inception.
It's the first."

"And the second, sir?"

"There are just two.  You begin by being hurt for yourself.  The
next--and sacred state is being hurt for some other person, feeling
in pain because that other person is in pain.  So simple--isn't it?
But on that hangs all the law and the prophets, and all that we
call civilization."

Young Sorrell was silent for a while.  His face had an inward look,
the flush of a mystical tenderness.

"What the psychologists would call sin--"

"It doesn't matter what the psychologists call it.  It does not
matter a damn.  The thing is to experience it."

"What would you call it?"

"Reaction--is a great word in these days.  I'd call it the reaction
of tenderness, or say--the crystallisation of emotion about a
certain person--or figure.  Or simply--in the older--more human
sort of language--compassion.  That's a live word."

"So many words seem dead, sir."

"Turning language into a sort of dissecting knife!  I prefer it as
a flame, my son, a tongue of fire."

On one occasion they talked of Lance and of Lance's future.  It
began with young Sorrell's visualising of London as a place to live
and work in and to be vexed in.  For certain aspects of modern life
did vex you, its ostentation, its hurry, its red lips, its many
perfumes.  And Christopher believed that his friend could do big

"He's got it in him.  You have read some of his stuff, sir--?
Don't you think--?"

Old Pybus's white eyebrows seemed to come closer together under the
brim of his hat.  He did believe with Kit that his grandson had the
big thing in him, but one or two of the big and simpler things that
had become part of the mystic consciousness of Sorrell's son were
still below the surface with Lance.  Lance had the wildness and the
fire, the generosity and the selfishness of the child.  He was a
child, a brilliant and lovable child.  He had not become man quite
as young Sorrell was man.  One lad had suffered more than the

Said the Venerable:

"It may be better for someone if he does not find things too easy."

"Have to struggle a bit, sir?"

"That's it.  The easy thing can be so fatal.  Besides, he has had
things made rather easy for him.  It doesn't do."

Christopher looked at a yellow elm leaf that had settled on the
Venerable's hat.

"I have--and I haven't.  What mean is--my pater is such a sportsman,
he's so--"

"Ah," said John Pybus, "I'll tell you what has always seemed to me
to be--the ideal situation.  To begin with--I mean.  That one
person should believe in you solidly, while the rest of the world
should think nothing of you at all.  There's an urge for you."

Kit gave him one of his sudden smiles.

"Yes, I should think that's rather a sound idea, sir.  But you have
to believe in yourself."

"Assuredly.  Lance does.  The rub comes when you find other people
hard to convince.  Not even taking you for granted.  Business men.
Excellent fellow--the business man.  He eliminates the rotter--but
he is also apt to eliminate the genius.  Lance has to prove that he
is not going to be eliminated."

"I think he'll do it," said Christopher; "he's got a lot of
character, you know."


The Venerable was less sure.  For Probyn's plan for the production
of the prodigal son had a sophisticated and commercial shrewdness.

Moreover, there was an up and downness in Lance.  He was swift, but
he might tire.  And he was sensitive, almost absurdly sensitive.
Nor is it always a question of what you make of life, but what life
makes of you.

The Venerable had open eyes, though they were eyes of supreme

"He will want to be understood.  He will want to be flattered.  He
will be apt to resent criticism.  He has to learn to take knocks,
and to shake his head, and go on.  He will be tempted.  He will
have days of fury, and perhaps days of disgust.  He will have to
learn to push people aside, or be so big that he will have no need
to use his elbows.  And, God forgive me--but he will have to be

On the last evening of the Venerable's holiday they went to chapel
together, and afterwards there came to old Pybus a vision of life
as it is.  Lance wanted some tobacco.  The Great Court was hung
with autumn vapour, and as they passed from it out into the town
new lamps were changed for old.  Modernity suggested to old Pybus
Bruges plastered with American electric signs.  A shop window
glared.  The Venerable stood with his back to it and the glare of
the various windows met in the marketplace and were sobered.  Lance
had gone in to buy four ounces of his particular mixture.

As he came out a group of young wenches went by, looking to old
Pybus like so many pairs of legs and hats joined by flat strings of
colour.  They were full of giggles and loud talk.  They appeared to
flow past Lance and round him.  The Venerable saw one of them look
with a kind of inviting defiance into Lance's face.

"Sorry to keep you, grandpater."

A wench's voice mocked him.

"So sorry to detain you--haw--grand--fawther.  So--sorry."

There were little screams of laughter.

Lance's right hand grasped the Venerable's arm.  They crossed the
market-place and came out on to King's Parade.  Lance was looking
up at the dim outline of King's Chapel.

"Distractions," he said.  "Is it the vulgarity of ugliness--or the
ugliness of vulgarity--that makes you scorn."

He stood still a moment, still holding his grandfather's arm.

"I suppose you have to bolt yourself down."

"But not in," said his grandfather, "not in."



The girl stood at an upper window of No. 7 Parham Crescent.  The
lower sash was raised, and by leaning forward she was able to see
the curve of the crescent and the little white houses with their
green area railings and their green, blue and brown front doors.
The houses were not so white as in Victorian days, nor were the
railings so green.  Vaguely north-west of Baker Street, Parham
Crescent was in a position to welcome artificial silk, and to feel
peeved when a new stocking "laddered."

The girl was dressed for going out, though on a warm May evening
all that was required for out-of-doorness was a little black hat
with a black aigrette cocked over the left ear.  She was a pretty
thing, and much more than pretty.  Someone had described her type
as both hot and hard.  Her smartness was relative, sufficiently
sleek to catch the eye of a man, and it was all that she could
afford.  But she had youth, and youth's skin, and a dewiness of the

The girl was watching for a young man who presently emerged from
the doorway of No. 17.  He turned to the left along the curve of
the crescent, and having assured herself of his direction the girl
scurried out of her bed-sitting-room and down the stairs.  The
green front door closed on her with a crisp thud, and for a moment
she stood poised on the steps, her dark and rather oblique eyes
going in search of the desired one.  He had passed some ten yards
beyond No. 7, and was about to cross the road to gain the path that
skirted the railings of Parham Gardens, where the young green of
the lilacs made the trunks of the planes and acacias look more
sootily black.  The grass had that curious unrealness of London
grass.  You could fancy it taken up at night and put down again in
the morning.  Even the lilacs had a sophisticated air in such a
place, an exotic vividness, like a London girl's face.  They woke
up tired in the morning, and tinted their hot lips with green stick
while the young moderns were using red.

Lance walked fast.  He was very much a young man with a purpose.
What the girl saw of him was youthfully modern, a soft brown hat
with a rather flat brim, a cigarette jutting out from a long
holder, a brown jacket slightly pinched at the waist, ample grey
trousers.  She knew as much about him as Mrs. Gasson, her landlady,
could tell her, for Parham Crescent was Mrs. Gasson's Zoo, full of
monkeys and snakes and parakeets, and laughing jackasses.  Mr.
Pybus was what they used to call a "literary gent."  It appeared
that he had some money.  He was an odd young man who was always
scribbling and walking.  On occasions a big car would stand for an
hour outside No. 17.  His mother visited him; at least--they
supposed that it was his mother.  She was a somewhat pink and
yellow lady.

The girl followed Lance into the Marylebone Road, along it, down
Harley Street, and along New Cavendish Street into Portland Place.
She did not know where he was going.  He crossed to the Queen's
Hall and, dodging a taxi, she saw him enter the hall.  The bills
told her that Thibaud and Cortot were giving a concert.  Obviously
No. 17 was in search of nothing more adventurous than sweet sounds.

The girl hung about for ten minutes, and then strolled away up
Portland Place.  She had sat out a Queen's Hall Concert once or
twice in her life, and had been interested in watching the
conductor of the orchestra playing at what she had called--
"swatting flies."  His active and almost vicious handling of the
baton had struck her as very funny.  She had been sure that he had
not succeeded in hitting a single fly.  Meanwhile, on this warm May
evening, with the London dusk beginning to dim her face, she
strolled, and supposed that the Pybus boy would be safely seated
for some hours.  She had gone out as the butterfly; she would
return as the moth.


To Lance music was coloured sound.  It gave him pictures, moonlight
on southern seas, old forests at sunset, or perhaps the face of a
girl looking out from some high window.  There was sex in it, and
the sublimations of sex, and all the colour and the plaintiveness
and the unrest of his years.  Youth's music is personal.  The
impersonal ear listens when the urge of life loses some of its

He came out full of the colour weavings of Thibaud's violin.  He
made his way through the crowd without realizing the crowd as a
collection of fellow humans.  He would have made his way through
the hazels of a coppice-wood in just the same fashion.  He had all
the artists' intense self-absorption.  If he saw the moon he saw it
as his moon.

Walking along Portland Place he may or may not have realized that a
girl was walking some ten yards in front of him.  He was thinking
of a particular scene in a novel that he was writing, and how he
had been unable to see the characters in it clearly until Thibaud's
violin had given him the movement and the colour.  He was
wondering, also, what Richmond of Blair and Donisthorpe's would
think of his novel.  Great man, Richmond!  It was something to have
interested John Richmond in his work.  Meanwhile the figure in
front of him was keeping its distance.  Working upon probabilities
it turned into New Cavendish Street.  So did Lance Pybus.

Suddenly he was challenged.  He was aware of a girl standing under
a street lamp and looking up into his face.  He had the impression
of anger.

"What do you mean by following me?"

"I beg your pardon?"

Lance's hand went to his hat.

"It's abominable.  One can't walk along a street--without--this
sort of thing--"

"I wasn't.  I assure you--"

"Oh, men say that."

"But I assure you--"

Her anger seemed to him very genuine.  She spoke with the voice of
a gentlewoman, and he could see her face clearly in the light of
the street lamp.  It was one of those faces which are sleekly thin,
and illusively sensitive.  It had a dusky pallor.  Its eyes seemed
darkly defiant.

"Oh, yes--I know.  It's perfectly disgusting."

Something in the movement of her lips stung him to the retort.

"It's nothing of the kind.  If you want to argue the question--"

"So you--were--following me."

"No--I was not."

He was aware of a sudden flickering of her very dark eyelashes.
She appeared to look at him both more attentively and with a less
confident resentment.  Her lips opened to a quickly-drawn breath.

"I say--I'm sorry--"

She smiled faintly.

"I really am awfully sorry.--I believe--I've made a mistake--"

He looked at her steadily.

"It might be rather awkward--"

"Well--make allowances.--A girl does feel--.  When you have been
working all day--you do like--to get out and walk.  He followed me--
three evenings.  Such beastly--cheek.  And I thought--"

Her candour had an appeasing softness.  Her face looked less thin,
and her lips seemed to ripen.  She gazed up at him with an
assumption of half-amused shyness.

"He was just your height, and wore a hat like yours.--I'm sorry."

She saw the beginnings of a smile.

"I suppose I ought to apologise for resembling--the cad.  If he is
a cad--?"


"Well, he might not be.  It doesn't follow--does it?"

"Oh--that depends.  On the way--"

"It is done."

"Well, doesn't it?  Besides--when a girl has to scrap along for

"And a man--?"

"Oh--a man--can--"

"But can he?  He might be most damnably lonely.  London is--
sometimes.--You can't go and ask the nearest policeman to introduce

She laughed.  She had an attractive laugh.  That rather curious
mouth of hers showed the sudden whiteness of her teeth.  It gave
Lance an impression of softness, and also of two very red lips
which protruded slightly, as in the act of biting.  He was looking
at her mouth without quite realising what his looking meant.

"Well--this lamp-post seems to have introduced us.--I hope you
don't bear any malice?"


"I'll be going--now.  Good night--"

He looked at her inquiringly.

"Look here--oughtn't I to--see that other fellow doesn't bother
you?  Mere matter of form--if you like."

Her eyes puzzled him a little.

"Oh, perhaps.--I think.--I don't know.--I live in Parham Crescent.
It's not far."

"So do I," said he.  "Let's be sensible."


Walking beside her he was aware of her slimness, the swift and easy
movement of her young body.  There was something vivid about her, a
sleek thinness, little--subtle swayings of the hips and the
shoulders.  He could imagine her dancing very well, and those slim
legs of hers swift as glimmering silk.  She wore black, and it
suited her and the London night; so did her little hat with its
dark aigrette.  Her dusky eyes and her pallor and her vivid and
slightly voracious mouth had all that modern provocation which
provokes without satisfying.  She carried her head with the chin
lifted so that her face had something upward and piquant in its
expression as of a face raised to be kissed, but ready to laugh at

He said--"Your home is in Parham Crescent."

She gave him an oblique glimmer of the eyes.

"If you call a bed-sitting-room a home.  I work."

He wondered what sort of work she did, and did not quite like to
ask her.  Probably she was a secretary or a typist, or something of
that kind; but she was smart, and no common wench.  Lance had come
to know his London as few men know it; for London was part of his
self-expression as rendered in his craft.  London had captured him
with all its richness and its movement, its baseness and its
beauty, its blood-red mouths and its little trinket shops, its
perfumes and its sophistications.  As Mrs. Gasson had said--he was
a young gentleman who was always scribbling or walking.  He wanted
life, life for his word-pictures, for those strangely ruthless and
flamboyant sketches which had so startled John Richmond.

Here was a young man of three and twenty who could see and enjoy
and render a handsome young Jewess in Aldgate, or some Covent
Garden fruit porter with a face like the squashed fruit in the
gutter.  How much enthusiasm is required for a wet night spent on
the Thames embankment, or for some perfectly innocent visit to a
professional's flat, where you sat on her bed and smoked cigarettes
and talked of the women police?  He knew his Bond Street, and he
knew the Borough.  He did not let a day pass without explorings.
He lounged in pubs, and loitered in warehouse yards.  He would talk
to anybody and everybody.  With perfectly clean fingers he would--
so to speak--pick up rubbish out of the street, examine it
carefully, and toss it back to its rightful home.

He talked to the girl as they walked up Harley Street.  He talked
to her as he would have talked to a man, and yet behind his almost
casual frankness there was an appreciation of her as a woman.  Thin
girls attracted him, but only when they were dark and vivid and
lissom, and full of a sparkle of restlessness.  And particularly
was he affected by this girl's mouth.  It was his business to
estimate the significance of a thing.

"Always lived in London?"

No, she had not.

"Southsea.--Know it?"

"Never been there."


He smiled.

"As bad as that?"

She reacted to this frankness of his.  It gave her a pleasant
little feeling of intimacy.  She thought him very modern; his
frankness passed with her for that easy impertinence which allows a
girl to know just where she is and where she might be.  She thought
it a pose, when it wasn't.  London and his craft had developed in
Lance an almost terrible frankness.  He could be so sincere that
you could be blinded by it as by a bright light.  The glare of his
young and ruthless ardour was understood perhaps by one solitary
observer, an old man who carried suit-cases up and down the stairs
of a provincial hotel.

"We were service people.  That's Southsea."

"Is it?"

"Which also may mean---a glorious independence.  My father left my
mother five kids and a naval pension.  A Commander--you know.
Pretty rotten."

"Why should it be?"

"You are not sympathetic."

"Do you want sympathy?"

"That might depend--"

"One's always giving sympathy where it's not needed, you know.
Like the old lady who saw a dirty youngster sucking a squashed
orange in Soho--and said, 'You poor little dear' to him--'I'll buy
you a clean orange.'  She was off the mark, you know."


"The squashed orange he had found for himself was--the--orange.
More to be envied than some old fellow trying to get ready for
dinner on a gin and bitters.  We always go and pity the wrong

They turned into the Marylebone Road and she seemed to draw a
little away from him.  He could see her profile better.  Besides--
the finesse of such a walk with a young man who was supposed to be
a stranger--was the perfume in the little bag of her pleasure.

"Very sure of yourself, aren't you."

"You have to be--or pretend to be."

"Part of your job, is it.  What is your job?"

"I'm what they used to call a literary man."


"Oh--books are nothing as mere books.  It's life I'm after--life as
you see it, and try to get it down on paper.  What do you do?"

She gave him an ironical look.

"Does it matter?  I help to sell frocks.  Also I give dancing
lessons to the fat and fifty who want to feel gay.  O, my God--and
they are gay!"

"Gayer than we are?"

"Much.  We're not gay."

"Then--what are we?"


He gave a characteristic toss of the head.

"You've got it.  Greedy--for self-expression.  We young things!
What about crossing the road?"


They crossed it in the glare of a car's headlights, and he saw her
flesh-coloured legs lit up, and a knot of green silk on the front
of her frock.

"My name's Pybus," he said, as they reached the kerb.

"Mine's Gadsden, Olive G.  They might have called me Gadabout.
That's a joke, please."

But he did not laugh.

She appeared inclined towards silence for the rest of their walk,
for silence can be like a veil, and though a woman does not veil
her face she can make play with her "atmosphere."  He had talked to
her sufficiently for one London night.  You could be a mannequin in
your moods as well as in the showing off of a frock.  Moreover, she
was confronting a peculiar coincidence, that his name should be
Pybus, and that he appeared to be the very Pybus whom another Pybus
had referred to as a "Damned young fool."

They came to the steps of No. 7 Parham Crescent.  She held out a
hand to him.  The light from a street lamp was on her face.

"Good night.  Thanks for your--protection."

He seemed to look at her intently for a moment.  His grasp of her
hand was firm, but impartial.

"Good night.  I belong to No. 17."

She nodded and smiled, and he raised his hat as she ran up the
steps, and brought out her latch-key.

"Good night."

"Good night."

He was walking away towards No. 17 before she had closed the door
of No. 7.


Lance threw up the lower sash of his window.  He lit a cigarette,
and straddling a chair with his elbows resting on the back of it,
he looked at the trees in the gardens of Parham Crescent.

He interrogated.  He had come suddenly against his self and his
self's orientation, against that London night and a girl's mouth,
and his work and its fascinations.  Thibaud's violin--too!  He had
felt a certain artificiality drop from him while he had listened to
the Frenchman's music.  But what did he mean by artificiality?  A
London mood?  The soul of Rimmel and Lafayette, and the picture
shops in St. James's, and a girl running into you suddenly, and a
red mouth and a perfume, and the luxury of Bond Street, and the fat
and flamboyant tulips in the Park.  Yesterday he had lunched with
somebody at Claridge's.

What was artifice?  Assuredly London did change you.  It persuaded
you to accept with smoothness that which in your more exalted
academic days you would have shrugged aside.  What a child he had
been two years ago!  But what mattered was your work, the fever and
the urge of it.  Were any lips as hot and as alluring as the lips
of your imagination?

He had accepted his father's allowance.  He had had great qualms
about it, but the Venerable had helped to allay those qualms.
"It's a bet, my lad.  Take it up--and win the wager.  Even parents
gamble with their children."  And now he had no qualms, but only a
slight feeling of resentment, as though his father had provided him
with an artificial leg which might refuse to function.

Would it?  He had but three months of the two years left.  Was it
possible that his father would foreclose on the mortgage?  Was it
possible that all that blandness concealed the business man's
determination to have his way?

And if so--where was he?  He was earning about five pounds a month.
His acceptances included two short stories, for which he had been
paid three guineas apiece.  Richmond had paid him eight guineas for
each of his London sketches.  He had managed to place a few
desultory articles, but his soul abhorred hack work.  There was his
novel--"Rust"--half completed, an intoxication, a panache.

He sat and considered the situation.  Not that he had the slightest
intention of going into business--no, not the slightest.  That
bounder Conrad might go on calling him a damned young fool.  He was
far less of a fool than he had been.  More sophisticated?  Yes, he
supposed so.  He had his eyes wide open.  He was not an art for
art's sake young man.  His art was going to get the world--that is
to say, England and America.  He might shock people a little.  His
business was to splash life down as he saw it, and as he had made
John Richmond see it, through the rather merciless eyes of a young
man who stood and stared.  There was to be no pretty-pretty
business, but he meant to get his public.  Incidentally, they would
throw money at him.  He had come to agree with young Sorrell as to
the virtues of money.

Besides, was there any money like your own money, the feel of that
first cheque?

He threw the cigarette end into the roadway.  The situation seemed
completely clear.  If his father had allowed him two years' rope
with the idea of pulling hard on the rope at the end of the period,
well, he would have to cut adrift.  He would take a cheaper room
somewhere, and just go on working.

But--somehow--he could not bring himself to believe that his father
had so much phlegm.


Lance was unfastening his collar when he remembered the girl's
face.  It seemed to rise within him with a sudden personal
vividness.  It--was--within him.  And that queer, provocative mouth
of hers.  It was the sort of mouth that made you feel--

And then the stud fell out of his shirt and rolled away under a
chest of drawers, and he had to go down and grope for it.



There were times--too--when the Venerable also did some groping,
for Lance was a different Lance.  Once a month or so he travelled
third class to Castle Craven, and was driven up in the Saracen
'bus, to spend a weekend with his grandfather.  He stayed at the
cottage, and slept in the little bedroom which looked out on the
Castle Field.

Lance had changed, but people saw differently the change in him.
Sally Summerscales would have said that he looked at you
differently, and as though none of the points of a woman escaped
him.  His eyes had a hard, frank friendliness.  She thought him
less good-looking.

"Well, Sally, how goes it?"

"Very nicely, thank you, Mr. Pybus."

He was so easy and so casual.  There was nothing personal in his
smile.  He talked to you as though you were a kid in short frocks.
A woman understands very well when she is not looked at as she may
wish to be looked at.

"London ain't done him no good."

She had the audacity to make that statement to the Venerable, who
twitched his white eyebrows at her.

"I'll tell him what you say, Sally."

"So you can.  Men get spoilt--these days."

"Who spoils them?"

"They spoil themselves.  We--don't."

"I agree with you."

The Lance Pybus of the Windover beech woods and Trinity Great Court
and the river had gone the way of Lance the child.  Our inwardness
changes like our clothes, and in the young man who walked down the
Saracen yard the Venerable saw youth on its high horse, a figure
still loved, but loved with a difference.  Old Pybus was one of
those rare persons who can remember themselves in the twenties,
just as they were and not as an illusive distance would have them
to be.  He could remember his own cocksureness, a young arrogance
that had been both aggressive and diffident.  He had known just
what books people ought to read and would read; he had known it so
much better than his father.

For Lance was in the flush of those years when the will to power
comes to a young man, when he has discovered the power that is in
him.  If he was inclined towards intellectual insolence, he had a
right to it.  He was as determined as young Sorrell was to impress
himself upon the world, and to do it with a smiling ruthlessness.
He had not young Sorrell's strain of courageous humility.

All the shyness had gone from him.  He was bold; but even his
boldness had a charm.  You could never quite convict him of being a
prig, for he was too swift and subtle for so starched an attitude.
His swift face and his swift imagination were in sympathy.

He knew what he had written.  The world had come to life in him;
the world as he saw it, with all its colour and artifice, its
exquisite blackguardism, its beauty, and its ravishing ugliness.
He neither scorned nor admired at this period of life.  He saw.  He
took.  He had discovered the mystery of words, their mordant and
perhaps merciless power.  To put a harlot on paper--just as she
was!  To paint a city father.  To take Piccadilly Circus at night,
and render it with all its lights and shadows, its frenzies and its
faces.  He was in the midst of doing it; he was in the midst of the
exultation of doing it.

To some people--no doubt--he appeared as a very impertinent and
self-sure young fellow-my-lad.  His Uncle Conrad thought of him as
a particularly offensive and swollen-headed "Damned young cub!"
Not that they met very often.  His father, bland and deliberate,
felt more and more uncomfortable in his son's presence, and was
preparing to rid himself of that feeling of discomfort.  His mother
remained completely bewildered, but without realising her

Nor did Lance realise that he was completely alone in the world--
save for that one friend and spiritual father.  He was so full of
himself that the world was no more than a picture gallery.  He
judged and priced things as he pleased.

Meanwhile, old John Pybus observed him with eyes of trouble and
affection.  The boy was brilliant, almost damnably brilliant.

That was the danger.


Lance unfastened the lid of his leather suit-case.  He had placed
the suit-case on one of the Windsor chairs.  His grandfather was in
the kitchen attending to the kettle.

"I have brought you six more chapters to read, grandpater."

"That's the half-way house, isn't it?"

"The end of a phase.  I got rather stuck over Stilton's marriage."

"I don't like the name.  What's your reason?"

"If a fellow is called Stilton--it gives you the kind of flavour
you want about him in the book."

"Gorgonzola or cream?"

"Oh, Gorgonzola at its rankest."

"I seem to recognise your Stilton."

"One of the family--grandpater.  Uncle Conrad, with green spots on
him, and beginning to crawl."

The Venerable heard the crackling of brown paper.  Lance was
unfastening the parcel that contained the six chapters of "Rust";
the parcel would be tied up with a boot-lace or a woollen golf-
stocking garter, anything that came handy.  But John Pybus's
thoughts were not so much with the book as with the author of the
book.  After each of Lance's visits he would ask himself, "Will he
come down next month?  Or will a month slip into three months?  How
much does an old fellow like me matter to him--and why?  If he
lasts with me through this second phase--he may last with me till
the end."  For this was the Venerable's last adventure, and perhaps
the greatest adventure of his life, the vicarious sailing with this
young Argonaut towards Medea and the Golden Fleece.

Old Pybus filled the teapot.

"Seen Probyn lately?"

"I was down there last week-end, grandpater.  The mater had produced
two choice flappers."

"A Medea?"


The brown teapot was carried in, and Lance brought his grandfather's
chair forward.  The Venerable noticed the act and was touched by it,
for whatever Lance might be to the world he was never anything but
gentle to this little old man.

They sat down to bread and butter, and raspberry jam.

"Extraordinary crude ideas people have."

"Our people?"

"My mother thinks--that a pretty flapper might make me diverge."

"It's natural.  You might.  Jason--even--"

"Didn't he drop Medea in the Euxine, grandpater?"

"A most ungentlemanly act, my lad.  Because--he had got the fleece,
and Medea had helped him to get it."

"You mean--she had a claim.  I suppose a woman might have.  But the
avoiding of Medea.  Then there is my pater.  I know he is watching
me--just a sly old dog waiting for the rat to come out of its hole.
He thinks if he spreads enough garbage--"

The Venerable's blue eyes stared.

"I don't like cheap similes.  Cut them out.  The trouble with

"Oh, I know.  It's apt to be cheap.  The margin between wit and
cheapness is very fine.  I have written stuff I thought clever, and
next day--one was nauseated."

"But about your father?"

"He is quite sure that I shall want to play with dollars instead of
with words.  It's not his fault.  It's simply that I'm an absolute
stranger to him.  I'm wondering what he'll do."

"At the end of the two years.  You've no idea?"

"Has one ever--a safe idea?  Probably he will let me go on.  But in
some ways--"

"You would rather he--?"

"I should.  What he doesn't realise is--that I'm going on, even if
I have to live on porridge and jam.  He doesn't realise how
inevitable the job is."

He helped himself to more jam.

"You are about the only person who does understand that, grandpater.
I wonder why you do."

"Because I do."

"Is that an explanation?"

"Think it over.  We are--and must be.  I suppose Windover is still
blind--as to my--being--?"

"Absolutely.  I'd rather they remained so--until I've stuffed it
into the world--that I can write."

That he could write there was no question.  For a young man of
twenty-three, "Rust" was an extraordinary book, vivid and fresh as
a cold May morning, navely crude in places, but perhaps all the
more vivid because of its crudities.  It had the tang of unripe
fruit.  It was audacious and modern to its finger-tips.  The
Venerable, who had read novels for fifty years, and who had passed
through William Black, Meredith and Hardy, Stanley Weyman and
Anthony Hope, Mrs. Humphry Ward and Joseph Conrad, to Wells and
Bennett, and so to the young old men of the moment, was finding
"Rust" peculiarly fascinating.  And not only because of the book,
but because of the writer of the book, and his reactions to life.
For there is no question but that age can be intensely curious as
to youth's outlook, while pretending to think youth callow.  How do
the old problems appear to the young things?  Or have they ceased
to be problems?  Or what are the new problems?

"Rust" had astonished John Pybus not a little.  How the devil did
the boy know what the writing part of him appeared to know?  Did he
know?  And then his women!  They puzzled the Venerable, did Lance's
women.  They were all legs and little hats joined by a thread of
sexual cynicism.  They seemed to do things without knowing why they
did them, and yet without obvious impulse.  Yet everything was
arranged, your attitude towards your parents, marriage or an
affair, the advent or the non-advent of babies, the apartness of
the sexes, the antagonisms, the disharmonies.  Nothing of life was
taken for granted; everything was questioned.

When tea was over they went out and fed the pigeons.  Lance's
sophistications, whatever they might be, had not taken away his
pleasure in the feeding of the Venerable's flock.  He was "Hallo--
old fellow" to any dog, and he could not resist the amber eyes and
the silky ears of the spaniel who lived in a kennel in the Saracen
yard.  Seeing him so gentle to dogs and birds, the Venerable would
wonder at his impartial ruthlessness towards the men and women in
his book.  Self-centred he was and had to be, for youth in its
earlier adventures must travel alone.  He talked more about himself
and his work, more than was necessary; but he did not talk to the
world as he talked to his grandfather.  And John Pybus forgave him.
A spiritual father should listen to his spiritual son.

"One has to bolt oneself down, grandpater.  There is a sort of
selfishness in a craft."

The Venerable retorted as he had retorted once before.

"Yes, that's all right.  But don't bolt yourself in."


On that particular week-end in May, Lance stayed with his
grandfather over the Monday, for he could work in his bedroom, and
the mood happened to be much with him.  He would get up at six and
make early tea, and write for an hour, with the dew still on the
grass of the Castle Field.  On these occasions Old Pybus would
dress himself very quietly, and descend the stairs in his socked
feet.  His grandson's inspiration was a delicate egg, and to see
that old Roman going softly about the cottage was to glimpse
something humorous and beautiful.

Lance's breakfast was sent across from the hotel--and what the
hotel thought of the pair of them can be inferred--but on this
particular Monday morning, Lance's breakfast was late, and going up
the yard with the idea of meeting it, and of saying good morning to
Floss, the spaniel, he chanced upon a very ordinary situation.  A
shabby little old two-seater car had been driven into the yard.
The radiator was tarnished, the wings dented and rusty.  One back
tyre was flat, and from the dicky, cluttered up with egg baskets
and boxes, a young woman was extracting a jack and a wheel-brace.

Lance stood for a moment and observed her and her activities.  She
wore a kind of loose Holland coat, breeches, brogues, and neat fawn-
coloured stockings.  He could not see her face.  She was jacking up
the rear wheel.  She looked very workmanlike, and slim, and
capable.  He noticed that she had a pretty back to her neck, in
spite of her shingle, for it was only a half-shingle, and her
crisp, dark hair covered the white curve with soft shadows.

But apparently the hub bolts were too tightly home for her to turn
them with the brace.  Maybe they were rusted up like the rest of
the car, or some over-energetic mechanic had put his beef into
them.  She straightened up, gave her head a shake, and tried again,
but the bolt would not be persuaded.

"May I try?"

Still stooping, she turned her head and looked up at Lance.  His
first impression of her face was that it was rather plain.  It had
a kind of austerity.  The little blunt nose and square chin, and
the firm fine-lipped mouth were neither soft nor hard.  She had the
air of a young woman with a job on her hands, and not too easy a
job, perhaps, but then--she was not made for easy things.

"Thanks.  You might."

Her eyes had an apparent coldness.  They were unusually fine eyes
under vivid black eyebrows, and of that quality of brown that is
neither soft nor sensual.  She looked at Lance just as she would
have looked at a garage attendant.

"Some idiot had smashed a bottle in the road.  I saw it just too
late.  Thanks--if you would."

She made way for him and handed him the brace.

"What Kipling calls one of the 'Too Many People.'"

Her face and eyes retained their aloof seriousness.  A punctured
tyre was just an annoying delay in the hurry of her day's affairs.
She was not a talker.  She had that in her life which made for

Lance conquered the bolts.

"I may as well finish the job."

"Thanks--I can manage now."

She was unshipping the spare wheel.  There was something in her
voice and attitude which suggested that she would prefer to manage
for herself, and that she was used to it, and had come to regard it
as her right.  She did not encourage interference.


"Quite, thanks."

Lance supposed, if he troubled to suppose anything, that she was
just as casual a modern as he was, and he was moving away when his
grandfather came up the yard and stood beside the grey car.

"Trouble, Miss Merris?"

She smiled at John Pybus, and when she smiled her face seemed to
become the face of another woman.

"Oh, yes--trouble."

She implied that trouble was the most obvious of life's
accessories, and that if you had a spare wheel you were lucky.

"This sort of thing always happens."

"Just when you are busiest."


"I may as well be of some use."

She allowed him to be of some use, and Lance, watching them from
across the yard, was a little intrigued by her change of attitude,
though his interest was the casual and desultory curiosity of a
young man waiting for his breakfast.  She and the Venerable
appeared to be very good friends.  Her pleasant voice had lost its
impersonal abruptness.  Her gloved hands became the hands of a
woman.  And Lance was sufficiently interested to remember her, and
to remark upon her to his grandfather, though she was no more than
a figure in his picture show.  He collected types, but not as his
father collected postage stamps.  The watermark corresponded to a

"Who's the young woman with the car?"

The Venerable told Lance that he--Lance--had to thank her for the
morning egg that he ate with his bacon.  There were occasions when
his grandson's flippancies drew from old Pybus a puckish reply.

"Independent young person."

"Possibly.  She earns a living."

"Chicken farming?"

"Yes.  Rents a little place from Hargreaves over at Woolshot.  She
supplies us and the White Hart."

Lance was lighting a pipe.

"Not much romance in chicken farming."

"Better ask her, my dear.  Possibly she doesn't ask to be romantic.
She has her job.  I know a little more about it than you do."

It was one of those rare occasions when Lance felt that the
Venerable had snubbed him.


Mrs. Carver, Lance's landlady, opened the door to Lance's mother.
Lance was away at Castle Craven upon one of those mysterious week-
end visits, but Mrs. Carver knew nothing of Castle Craven, or of
her young gentleman's adventures.

But Mrs. Carver had the eyes and the heart of a hare.  She was
timidus lepus, and having been chased by little sordid tragedies
for the best part of thirty years, she had a soul that crouched and
trembled.  She was afraid of everything and nothing; she was afraid
of things happening or of failing to happen.  Her little, anxious
whimpering face was rather like the face of a marmoset.

She truckled to people and to life; she would be immensely polite
to a police constable, and servile to the dustman.  And with this
golden and glorious creature on her doorstep she felt tremulous,
and a little excited and proud, and ready to abase herself.

"Mr. Pybus is out of town, your ladyship."

Lance's mother sailed in.  She had had previous interviews with
Mrs. Carver.  Almost they were a Musical Comedy couple, and their
understanding of each other was as obvious as their contrasts.


"Yes, your ladyship."

"I think I'll go upstairs and rest."

Mrs. Carver preceded her.  She supposed that Lady Pybus had reasons
for everything she did and said, and that you might allow yourself
anything and everything when you travelled through life so
expensively.  You could ask any sort of question and expect an
answer.  Besides, her ladyship was a mother.

"Could I get you a cup of tea, your ladyship?"

Dolly Pybus, arriving in her son's sitting-room, sat down upon the

"Yes, I will take a cup of tea.  But shut the door, please, for a

Mrs. Carver closed it.  She expected questions, and was ready for
them as woman to woman.

"Mr. Lance goes away every week-end?"

"Oh, no, your ladyship.  Just now and again.  He really does work
very hard.  I've never had a young gentleman who gave less trouble--

Lady Pybus looked at Mrs. Carver, and Mrs. Carver blinked back at
her consentingly.

"Nothing that you know of?"

"Nothing, your ladyship."

"Not women?"

"He's had young gentlemen here, your ladyship--but never a girl.  I
don't hold with girls in my house.  Besides--he's such a little

Lance's mother opened her hand-bag and extracted something that

"Yes, I would like a cup of your tea, and perhaps you would send a
cup out to the chauffeur.  I'm sure you look after my son like a

Mrs. Carver's thin fingers accepted the note.  She looked almost

"I shall never forget your kindness, your ladyship.  I had a son of
my own once, poor lamb.  Of course--if I ever thought--Mr. Lance--
was in trouble--like--I'd say so.  There always will be women--your
ladyship.  But then--as I say--Mr. Lance is such a gentleman.
Never gives me any trouble.  And I have had young gentlemen and old

Lady Pybus made a gracious movement.

"Of course.  You're a woman of the world, Mrs. Carver.  You'd let
me know--as one mother to another.  Now, I really should enjoy a
cup of tea."


Dolly Pybus returned to Windover without having seen her son.  She
had discovered nothing but his absence.  She was not a woman who
rationalised her motives, for surely a mother need not worry about
motives, and she had searched her son's rooms, and gone through his
drawers and his papers.  Lance appeared to be of an unsuspicious
nature; none of his drawers were locked, and his mother had been
able to rummage among his manuscripts and letters.  She had found
the first twelve chapters of "Rust" put aside by themselves, but
her son's work did not interest her.  She had discovered another
drawer half-full of old letters, and had read quite a number of
them, but she had been unable to find a letter from a woman.  Nor
had she lighted upon any of the Venerable's letters to his
grandson, for they were stowed away in a locked attach case on the
top tier of Lance's bookshelves.

It was difficult for a woman of Dolly Pybus's mentality to deny
herself the right of interference.  She talked at her men, not to
them.  She did not so much disapprove of Lance's profession as she
disapproved of his environment.  She disliked Parham Place.  It was
seedy and shabby.  The houses smirked at you.  They had that back-
street secretiveness which suggested pretty ladies.  For--after all--
there was no need for this shabbiness.  It was not inevitable that
Lance should go into business.  It was a mere gesture of Probyn's.
Of course, a man liked to get in his gesture.  The whole business
was rather absurd.  She would prefer to see Lance with a thousand a
year, and in a flat somewhere near Sloane Square, and publishing
nice little volumes of verse.  It was not a question of money, for
money abounded, and Probyn had only to write cheques.

She took it up with her husband that evening after dinner.  She
followed him to the library, and sat down by his fire, for the
evening was chilly, and she watched him select a cigar and light

"It isn't as though he was going to be any use to you in the
business.  Besides--there's no need."

Probyn prevaricated.  His attitude towards Lance's career had
changed during the last twelve months, but he was not going to tell
his wife so.  You should never be completely frank with women.
Business was all very well, and to Probyn business had meant
profits, not the service of making the goods that the multitude
needed.  He was the financier, not the creator; he manipulated
things.  And with the present attitude of organised labour and the
state of trade he was thinking less and less of creation and more
and more of capital.  In fact he had disposed of large packets of
"Jason" shares.  He had money in the Argentine, in the States, and
in rubber.  His swivel eye saw a good distance.

"You want him to be a young gentleman at large."

"Well, he's going off for week-ends with someone."

Probyn squinted at the end of his cigar.  He had plenty of good
nature, but he liked his slice out of the cake of possession.

"How do you know?"

"The woman told me."

"Ah," said her husband, "but did she say--?"

"No.  But I'm not a fool.  Living in a seedy place like that!  What
are you going to do about it?"

"About what, my dear?"

"His allowance.  You know--you agreed--"

Probyn smiled at and over her.

"Haven't quite made up my mind yet.  It wouldn't be a bad thing for
him to try and stand on his own legs for a year."

"But how could he?  His writing--!  Don't be absurd."

"I--had to stand on my own legs.  If you throw a pup into the

"Don't be mean."

"Have I ever been mean?"

"No, to do you justice, old lad, you haven't."

Probyn went across and patted her shoulder.

"You leave it to me, Dolly.  I wasn't born yesterday.  I think I
know how to handle the lad."



The front door of No. 7 opened two seconds after the door of No. 17
had closed.

It was May, and sunny.  The sooty lilacs in the railed garden
across the way had produced a few pale flower-spikes, and the
chestnut tree opposite No. 7 was set with wax candles.  No. 7 was
wearing a new pair of flesh-coloured silk stockings, and her hair
was very much in wave.

They met.  Lance's eyes were amused as he raised his hat.

"Not working to-day?"

"What about you?"

"I work when I walk."

"So do I--in a sense.  But there is no walking to be done this
morning.  Clothes aren't walking well."

"How's that?"

"Ask the public.  There are four of us at 'Mirabeaus.'  Instead of
sacking two of the four they have let us arrange to take alternate

"Decent of them."

"Oh, Mirabeau's not a bad old blighter.  His real name is Odgers."

They stood surveying each other, two young things temporising, and
conscious of having nothing very definite to do.

"Well, what's to-day's good deed?"

"Buying a pair of shoes."

"Serious business?"

"Very.  I have out half the shop."

"I'd like to see it."

"All right, why not!  You'll have a long way to walk."

"Splendid!  Where to?"

"Shaftesbury Avenue."

"I adore Shaftesbury Avenue."

"It's good enough--at a price."

So, on that May morning they sailed off together like a couple of
birds on the wing, and turned into "Jake's" in the Avenue, and sat
side by side on two chairs.  It was amusing and intimate.  Shoes
and more shoes were unboxed by a patient little slave in
spectacles.  Lance could not help watching a slim foot crinkling up
its toes under the crepitant silk.  He was fascinated by those
restless toes, veiled and yet visible.  They had the feverish and
provoking aliveness of their mistress.  She used those very red
lips of hers almost like a French woman; they seemed to curl
outwards and to grow plumper and more sensuous when she talked and

"Now--what exactly do you want?  That poor devil--!"

"I want what I want.  It's his job, too."

She glimmered her eyes slantwise at him.

"Evening shoes?"

"Yes, really.  I've got a dance on to-night."

"Then why try walking shoes?"

"Silly--don't you understand--that a woman enjoys--?"

"Like buying a pipe!"

"Something like it--perhaps.  Don't you ever let yourself go over
silk pyjamas?"

"I have done."

She laughed, and made a movement of the shoulders.  She was
thinking of this ironical position, that the nephew should be
helping her to buy the shoes in which she would dance with the
uncle.  Yes, she had found that out.  Old Conrad was quite silly
about her.  He had arrived suddenly at that age when an elderly
fribbler becomes frightened and sentimental, and desperately eager
to make sure of one woman by marrying her before the whole sex
found out his fatness.  Conrad Pybus had been taking dancing-
lessons, and Olive Gadsden had happened to be his instructress at
the "Curzon Rooms," off Bond Street.

Finally she selected a pair of shoes, honey-coloured satin, and
size three, for she had smallish feet for a girl of her height.
Lance did not offer to pay for the shoes; his petty cash was none
too abundant, and he was a little surprised that she should be able
to afford three guineas; but he supposed that by combining the
professions of mannequin at "Mirabeau's," and that of dancing
instructress at the Curzon Rooms, she did not do so badly.
Probably she earned more money than he did.  Nor had he arrived at
that state of intimacy with her when a man buys a woman shoes or
stockings.  A lunch was allowable.  He suggested it, and they went
off to one of the little places in Soho where for half a crown you
could run through five courses.  They shared a half-bottle of

Her sleek pallor warmed to him.  She was in teasing, mischievous
mood.  How shallow or deep she was he had no means of knowing, nor
did it matter.  What did matter was her mouth, and her rogue's
eyes, and the cream of her skin, and the scent she used, and all
those provoking little flicks and gestures and shruggings of the
shoulders.  She cultivated a frankness, the candour of a girl who
worked for her living.  She let him feel that she could be smart
without being exactly raffish.  Oh, yes, she had a goodness of her
own, younger sisters who had to be helped occasionally.

Leaning forward, smoking a cigarette and stirring her coffee, she
looked him straight in the eyes.

"I'd love to be able to write.  Besides--if you make a boom.  But
then--I don't suppose--"

"My ambition is ninepence a word.  I believe Arnold Bennett gets a


"Not for the mere money, mark you, but because my stuff is worth
ninepence a word."

"That's rather clever of you.  You want to catch the high-brows and
make the low-brows pay.  After all, the high-brows are a rather
useless crowd.  They wear slippers and talk psycho-analysis to an
audience of three."

He laughed.

"That's about it.  I belong to a little high-brow club.  Both
sexes.  None of them will ever do much."

"Freud on the brain."

"The men--aren't--so bad.  But the women--"

"What's the matter with the women?"

"You can't kick a woman."

She protruded her lips at him.

"Not me--at any rate.  I'm tough--to a point."

"Oh, no--I shouldn't put it like that."


"Hardly.  You are half Piccadilly and half the daughter of
Commander Gadsden, R.N."

"I don't think I like that.  When a girl has to scrap for herself--
she has to have a scrapping surface.  You don't know the real me."

"May I?"

"Perhaps.  The fact is--you haven't had to scrap.  I shouldn't,
unless you're obliged."

"You mean to say--?"

"Sir Probyn Pybus.  Only and beloved son.  You have only to sit
down and write what you please."

He looked at her with challenging intentness.

"You think so!  Let me tell you--writing--may be bloody sweat.
You've got to be nailed to a tree."

She allowed herself a sudden gentleness.

"Yes, laddie--I know.  You are the serious sort.  I was only
teasing.  Scrapping doesn't make you noble.  You have to learn to
scrap back."

"Ought a woman to scrap?" he asked, looking at her mouth.


Lance was due at Windover for the week-end.  His mother had
arranged a house-party, two or three girls--pretty ones, of course--
Mr. Adolphus Send, a young old gadabout whom she had met at Monte
Carlo; young Rowbottom--one of Probyn's bright young men; a Mrs.
Verity, who was asked because of her bridge; and Uncle Conrad, to
complete a third couple.  Probyn and his wife had been in council
together.  They had decided to dress the house with people, so that
if he or she should find anything serious to say to their son it
should have no air of premeditation.

But the inviting of Conrad was a mistake.  He had a fit of bouncing
youngness upon him.  He would play tennis and he would dance.  He
could not help trying to boss a party, and to appear your witty,
masterful fellow before the young things.  He had grown absurdly
sensitive and touchy, and was apt to sulk like a fat boy deprived
of the prize plum.

Also, Pamela Fish was a mistake.  She had no parents, and money,
and was supposed to be clever.  She was one of those very fair
women with a complexion like whey, eyelids that were red in the
morning, and the old scar of a scrofulous gland in her neck.  She
had a peevish voice, opinions upon everything, a sharpish tongue,
and a cold and consuming vanity.  She treated men with great
casualness; yet she would go very far with a man, if he wished it,
without the slightest intention of letting herself go as far as was

She talked books.  And Lance loathed anybody who talked books,
because he was one of those who wrote them, and the person who
talks pertly about the thing you do and doesn't do it--is apt to be
an eternal offence to the creator.  Lady Pybus thought Miss Fish
bookish and smart and amusing, quite the right sort of girl to put
next to Lance.  They ought to understand each other.

Lance arrived for lunch.  He found Conrad there in flannels, and
was displeased.

"Hallo, my lad; how's the great work?"

Lance gave his uncle one of those curious, homicidal smiles, and
was silent; and Conrad, being a loud fellow, was always annoyed by
his nephew's silence.  "Damned young fool!"  But on this particular
week-end Conrad treated his nephew with a jocund and pallid
condescension.  In fact, Conrad Pybus was in great form.

He fired genial shots at Lance across the table.

"Now--if you could write a book like 'The Green Hat,' my lad.--
What's the title of yours?"

Lance looked bored.

"Not made yet."

"You want something striking, you know, something that hits you in
the face."

"And as obvious--as some faces."

At the end of the meal his mother purloined him.  She wanted
cushions, and there were chairs to be carried out, and she had a
new racket to try.  Lance could knock balls over the net to her
before the others arrived.


"Yes, mater."

"You'll find a box of new balls--in the morning-room."

Suddenly, while they were adjusting the tennis-net, she shot her
arrow.  Lance was turning the winch-handle.

"Another inch.--Where--were you last week-end?"

He gave the handle a final turn.

"How's that?"

"Just right.--I wanted to send you a wire--and you'd left no
address at Parham Crescent."

Lance threw the balls on to the court.

"I went down to stay with a friend.  You don't know him.  Shall I
knock you a few over?"

He retired to the side of the court facing the great cedar of
Lebanon, and with an air of tense casualness lobbed balls at his

"What time do you expect the others?"

"The cars are going to the station.  Don't send them so fast,
Lancie.  So--it's a man!  Did you meet him up at Cambridge?"

"Yes--when I was up."

"Where's he live?"

"In the country.  He's keen on books.  That's one of the reasons."

"Is that where you go--when you don't come here?"

Lance, with a kind of controlled fierceness, smashed a lob into the
stop netting.

"Mater, do you expect me to provide you with a timetable and a map

"Don't be so touchy.--After all--your father--"


"He does make you--an allowance."

Lance walked up to the net to recover a couple of balls.

"Mater--you always drive me into saying beastly things.  When will
you stop thinking of me as a pup tied to a string?"

She flared up at him.

"Well--really!  You young things!  Aren't we to be allowed--"

"Here's somebody's car."

It was the Fish girl driving her own little de luxe saloon, languid
and sour, and observing everything.  Lady Pybus had to go across to
greet her, and then the Windover cars arrived from the station with
Mr. Send and Mrs. Verity and two young things in white tennis kit.
Rowbottom turned up five minutes later in a two-seater.  The party
was in being, with Conrad rotundly feverish to get up a game at
once.  Lance, after collecting the balls, had strolled off into the

He found himself among the azaleas.  Their strange perfume filled
the air, and he lingered among them, walking up and down, suddenly
and poignantly conscious of the young year's beauty, of the green
of the beech woods on the hillsides, of all the secret and exultant
life.  Beauty!  How amazing it was that his mother should live here
and be what she was.  And yet--in a way--how natural.  You could
not alter people.  As the Venerable put it--the world was full of
children--and of very raw children; and to most children a garden
was nothing but a place to play hide-and-seek in.  They tore
through it; they trampled.  But how he had been tempted to say to
his mother:  "Yes, I go to stay with my grandfather in his cottage
at Castle Craven."

He heard his mother's voice calling him.


But he was in a stubborn and non-consenting mood.  He idled as far
as the bosquet and sat down on the stone seat.  Windover, as
Windover, was all that it had ever been to him, but he felt more
and more a stranger with his people and with their people.  What
had possessed them to ask Conrad over for the week-end?  He loathed
the man.  He had to hold himself in lest he should say impossible
things to Conrad.

Wandering back at last, and looking through one of the squared
openings in a yew hedge, he saw them at tennis.  Conrad and one of
the Minchin girls were playing young Rowbottom and Pamela Fish.
Lance saw his uncle in profile.  Conrad protruded in both
directions; he ran about with a kind of clumsy fierceness; he had
no idea of the game; he was full of patter.  Conrad's paunch should
have been supported by a broad red sash; he should have worn rings
in his ears, and had his black hair oiled.

Later, Lance had to play against his uncle.  He partnered his
mother against his uncle and the younger Minchin girl.  It was a
futile game, for Conrad would come up to the net and smite wildly
at any ball within reach, and usually he missed it.  He was fat and
fierce and talkative and complacent.

Lance found himself driving and smashing balls at his uncle.  That
belted protuberance seemed to offer a target.  And then--suddenly--
the crude, human malice went out of him.  He felt a kind of hatred
of himself for loathing the other man as he did.  It was just a
ridiculous game played by ridiculous people.

His mother, very hot and active, ran about and shouted.

"Yours--Lan-cie.  Buck up--you lazy thing!"


After dinner they danced in the hall.  A young Prue had arrived
from the local parsonage, and Conrad took possession of her and
tried to teach her to Charleston.  Lance was running the
gramophone, and watching his uncle's fat legs wobbling.  Conrad
danced like a jelly.  Lady Pybus, too, was trying to Charleston
with young Rowbottom.

It was absurd and it was damnable.  Also it was damnable that he
should see it as he did, and feel himself humiliated--because his
own seeing of it was vulgar.  How could you see or render such
things without being vulgar?  Where was the subtlety?

Pamela Fish had come to sit on the oak settle beside the gramophone
cabinet--and she was watching Lance's face.  They had got on very
well together during dinner.  Her rather acid cleverness had
appealed to Lance.  He would have liked her to have spilled some of
her accumulated cleverness over his uncle.

Observing the ditherings of Conrad's fat legs, and observed in turn
by Miss Fish, he turned suddenly and met her eyes and the
unpleasant wiseness of them.

"Don't you dance this?"


Her cold glance fastened upon Conrad Pybus, and then passed to
Lance's mother.

"When a man looks wrong--he is wrong."


"Infallibly.  Whereas--when a woman looks wrong--it may only be the

"I'll remember that," said Lance, "unless you want to copyright

"You can use it--with pleasure."


Probyn had never been so near to winning his son's confidence as
when they found themselves on the terrace on that Sunday morning,
after Conrad had driven them from the breakfast-table.  The Fish
woman, dangling a hook, had caught Conrad at the first cast.

"I'm not a narrow-minded man--but I am an old-fashioned man.  It's
the woman's business--"

His voice still oiled its way out of the breakfast-room window, Foo-
Baaing Miss Fish, who gave the line a tweak whenever his
flounderings showed signs of flagging.  Probyn was lighting a

"I'm going to look at the new plantation.  Care to come?"

"Yes--I'd like to."

"It won't take us half an hour.--Conrad talks too much.  Always

They went through the gardens and across the park and past the big
fish-pond where yellow water-flags were in bloom.  Probyn had had
red, rose and yellow lilies planted in the pool, and he stopped to
look for the growth of the young leaves which should be spearing up
to spread and float on the still water.

"Ought to be rather good when they are all in full bloom."

The son gave the father's figure one of those quick and considering
glances which betray a reaching out towards some unexpected
impression.  Was it possible that he did not know the real Probyn,
and that his father was as much a stranger to him as he was to his
father?  They walked on up the slope to the beech woods, and under
all that young greenness lay the sheeted blueness of wild
hyacinths, touched here and there with fingers of light.  The elder
Pybus paused, his cigar forgotten for the moment.

"By Jove!" he said--"by Jove!  Fine that, isn't it?"

And Lance was moved.  He felt more near to his father as to a man
walking out on a May morning with all the green of the young year
dewy and fresh and innocent.  If the father could feel this
innocence, and the beauty of all that sheeted blueness, had they
not something in common?

"For what more could one ask?"

"Just so," said his father; "what more!"

They followed a little winding path ascending through the beech
wood, and the greenish light under the trees made the blueness of
the flowers more mystical.  The air was scented and very still.
There was a silence between them as of mutual questionings, and had
the elder Pybus renewed himself in that silence--and forgotten the
ulterior purpose behind the morning's ramble, he would have come
very near to knowing the man who was his son.

"How are you getting on, Lance?"

"Not so badly."

"What are you making?  Are you making anything?"  There was a kind
of closing up of Lance's face.  It was as though all those blue
flowers withered, and the unseen presences withdrew.

"Yes--I am getting stuff placed.  Richmond of 'Blair's' is
interested.  They're big people."

Probyn had resumed his cigar.

"Good.  I've been thinking.--These two years.  Nearly up.--What

"I'm going on, pater."

"I see.--Nothing like responsibility, your own legs.  Supposing you
try a year--on your own?"

"That's my plan."

He glanced quickly at his father, who was looking straight ahead
and smiling faintly to himself.

"Of course--you've got me to come to, my lad."

"You have given me these two years."

"Oh--that's all right.  If you find--that you can't do--"

"I shall manage."

The illusion of that nearness had gone.  His father's voice--tuned
to authority through all the years--had that fatal tinge of
patronage.  Its inflections condescended to youth.  It talked down,
even in its attempted and shrewd kindness; it betrayed that
something behind the man.  And Lance's head was up.  He was seeing
the sky through the young green of the foliage, his father's
foliage.  He was wondering whether there was not something inherent
in the reaction of most parents upon most children which rendered
real intimacy between them impossible.  It was one of those fatal
and pathetic disillusionments, shared by both fathers and sons,
mothers and daughters: the illusion of a beautiful friendship that
is rarely realised, because one assumes the possession--and the
other refuses to be possessed.

Yet Probyn was blind.  He thought that he held a kindly, world-wise
noose dangling over his son's head.

"Well--try a year on your own, old lad.  You can always come to

And the son--in silence--was saying--

"I shall never come to you."



Within three miles of Castle Craven there were other beech woods,
and other blackbirds that sang in the Spring of the year, but to
Mary Merris the voice of her brother was the voice of every day.

"Mary--I'm bored."

He could put such varying expression into those few words.
Sometimes the cry would be whimsical, sometimes peevish, sometimes
the whimpering of a little boy, and always she would answer it with
patience, and mostly with compassion, though she was not patient by
nature, and when one is over-tired compassion may falter.

On that May morning she saw him coming up out of the green glooms
to the rail fence that ran east and west under the beech trees.
The path was safe and he knew every foot of it, but he did not know
that she was up above there looking down at him.  He paused by the
stile, testing it with his foot as he tested everything, and,
throwing a leg over the upper rail, he felt in his pocket for his

The silence was supreme.  It associated itself with pale greenish
light under the trees so typical of beeches in young leaf, and with
last year's leaves following the slope of the little valley and
making the floor of the wood all bronze.  The sky was effaced.  Not
a patch of blue was to be seen.

She stood watching her brother.  He had not gone on with the
filling of his pipe; he smoked too much, and tobacco at a shilling
an ounce added to her problems.  He sat there perched on the fence,
and looking as much a part of the wood as a man could, and had he
been stripped of his clothes he would have resembled nothing so
much as a lean brown faun.  Always he had an air of listening
intently, and a habit of turning his head from side to side.  He
turned his face towards her at this moment, and she felt the
strangeness of being looked at and not seen.  His sightless eyes
had that effect upon her, and never had she grown quite hardened to
their emptiness.

For to Mary Merris he was like a child, and perhaps the saddest
thing in all the world--a blind child.  He had been blind now for
five years, and she had taken his blindness to her, not because she
had wanted to, but because human necessity and that something which
was in her had made her feel responsible.  She had had to give
things up, her beloved craft, her paints and brushes, though in the
beginning she had proposed to find time for it; but somehow her
brother's blindness had become like a hungry and insatiable mouth.
Mary this--and Mary that!  The strangest thing in her life was her
compassion for him.  He might wound her, but there was that in her
which accepted wounds, and made a business of them.  It was just--
life.  You might have chosen it otherwise, but when it happened as
it did you took it as it was--yes, in spite of the impulse to run
away or the urge towards self-pity.  She worked.  She rented the
little place called "Marions" below Woolshot Wood, with its garden
and orchard, and seven acres of meadow.  She had a girl in for
three hours a day; she could not afford more.  Gilbert had thirty
pounds a year--she--a hundred and fifty.  She was making another
seventy pounds a year with her poultry, her eggs and her honey.
She had not touched her brushes for a year.

Yes, that was the strangest part of the business; she had lost
her craft, but he still had his--his piano.  But he was so
incalculable, so moody, so easily and pathetically bored.  Always
he had been one of those people who light candles and blow them
out.  Even before that motor smash and the flying glass in his eyes
he had been a wayward creature, blowing hot and cold, lacking her
courage and consistency.  She had doubted then whether he would
make much of his music; and now it was no more than a melancholy or
complaining stream running through the world of his darkness.

She had only to rustle her feet in last year's leaves and he was on
the alert.  His hearing had become extraordinarily acute.

"Who's that?"

Her footsteps answered for her.


His sightless smile was a mere movement of the facial muscles, most
horribly like a grin.  He seemed to prick his ears.  Listening gave
to his face an attentive sharpness when he was interested; but
there would be days when he was interested in nothing, and his face
would be flaccid and listless.

"I say--Mary--my pouch is empty.  Did you get that tobacco?"

"I haven't been in this morning."

He looked peeved.

"Oh, it doesn't matter."

"You said you had enough to last."

"I thought I had.--If Hargreaves drops in he'll have a pouch full.
I don't mind cadging from Hargreaves."

His sister's face was like the rest of the world, a mere blackness
to him.  She was to Gilbert a voice, a presence felt and divined, a
woman cloaked and veiled.

"I shouldn't cadge from Hargreaves."

Her voice was controlled.  She had learnt to control it, for he had
grown very clever in picking out its inflections, and reacting to
its sound-shadings.  He was so easily ruffled.  She had to think of
her voice as a wind playing upon water.  Her face could express
what it pleased.

"Why on earth not?--We pay him sixty pounds a year.  Besides--"

She was silent.

"He likes my music.  If he sits there for an hour--it should be
worth the fill of a pipe.--You're peeved with me."

Her voice had a deadness.

"I'm not.  I may be able to get in to the village this afternoon.
It's nearly lunch-time."

He came down from the fence and was groping for her hand.

"Yes, lunch.  Take me home, Donna; I'm hungry."

It was his pet name for her, and he used it when he played the
child and snuggled up to her and wheedled her just as a child
wheedles a mother.  He had always been a little fellow, and it was
difficult to say "no" to him, and now he had so little; and, if she
feared anything for his sake, she feared those moods of apathy or
bored restlessness when he would play the piano like a man in a
rage, or refuse to touch it.  She felt responsible.  Yet why did
she feel responsible?  And in feeling the pressure of his fingers
as they went up the path under the beeches, she knew that her sense
of responsibility was like her response to his groping fingers.
But she did wish that he would not cadge from Bob Hargreaves.  She
had her reasons, and they were very good reasons.  To-day there are
no blackguards, but only gentlemen who are a little irresponsible.
It does not matter what you are if you have plenty of money and
throw it about, and smile largely at people.  Goodwill is on sale
for sixpence; but there are some men who believe in barter.

She had to guide her brother through the kissing-gate in the
Woolshot fence.  He pretended that he could not manage it for
himself, but that was part of his childishness; he played games
with her.  Often she had seen him go tapping along the fence with
his stick until he found the gate.

"Do come along.  There's a cheese omelette for lunch."

"Poor Gilbert's a greedy boy."

In playful and cajoling moments he would speak of himself as "Poor
Gilbert; poor little Gilbert," and yet in spite of his blind egoism
he could be so very lovable.  After some fractious mood he would
put up his face like a child.  "Kiss me, Mary.  Gilbert's been a
bad boy."

Her land lay on the edge of Woolshot Wood.  A lane sloped up to
"Marions" from the Castle Craven highroad, and beyond the high-road
ran the river.  "Marions" itself was all that the artist in her
might have asked for, a little stone house thatched and well
creepered, with two old yews to guard it, and a garden that could
be left half wild.  Between Woolshot Wood and her orchard the
grassland was cut up with wire netting, and dotted with brown
chicken-houses.  There were Silver Sussex and White Leghorns and
Minorcas.  And how--at times--she loathed these birds!  More than
once at feeding time she had to hold herself in lest she should
hurl basin and food at those feathered fools!  Was there anything
on earth more exasperatingly foolish than a hen!  She--a fastidious
woman--when a boy was not available--had to clean out the houses.
But--then--what did it matter?  Life usually had the laugh of you.


Mr. Hargreaves had two dogs with him, a black spaniel and an
Airedale, and Castle Craven would not have known him without a dog
at his heels.

"Good morning, Mabel.  Well, John; how are the pigeons?"

He called people by their Christian names after the old English
fashion, though his privilege extended back no farther than two
generations.  In his presence Castle Craven addressed him as Mr.
Hargreaves, and in his absence he was known as Hargreaves, or Bob
Hargreaves, or briefly as Bob.  When half a county knows a man as
Bob he wears the boots of an English worthy.

"I'll have something, John.  Mac, come here--you blackguard."

"What can I get you, sir?"

"What I always have.  Miss Vallence, how many gin and bitters have
I had since you've been in that glass box?"

Miss Vallence simpered at him.

"That would be telling, Mr. Hargreaves."

"By Jove! it would."

Bending down he pulled the spaniel's ears.  Dogs were devoted to
him, though he was ready with stick and voice, and the women who
had pleased him--and there had been many of them--had behaved like
the dogs.  He had a ruddiness, a round and yellow head, blue eyes
that stared, broad nostrils.  His breadth of nostril suggested that
life to him was full of interesting appetites and odours.  The
Venerable, who liked him not at all, could picture Robert
Hargreaves as a tawny savage smelling a bone before putting it
between his big teeth.

The Venerable was never anything but the debonair angel of the Lord
with this big, buxom, overbearing, genial man of forty.

"Will you take it in the lounge, sir?"

"Yes--John, in the lounge."

He walked into the lounge with the two dogs following him, and they
remained standing, watching him until their lord sat down.  Then
they lay at his feet.  He had a way of staring at strangers, and
his stare could be very disconcerting.

"Put it there, John."

"Yes, sir."

"Local paper about anywhere?"

"I'll get you a copy, sir."

As a philosopher the Venerable had often contemplated the
popularity of Mr. Hargreaves of Woolshot Hall.  He typified
something.  He was--perhaps--to certain Englishmen--what the wild
English in them acclaimed and envied, and longed to imitate.  He
did what he pleased.  He was full of a sort of large good-nature,
always provided that he was not thwarted.  He rode well, shot well,
and could make a speech that--with a thick mixture of crude humour
and sentimentality--captured the working-class mind.  He was a man
of property, a Justice of the Peace, a generous subscriber to all
the local clubs and charities.  His public gestures were free and
lavish.  He had done many kind things on his own estate.  Though he
was not quite a Sir Roger de Coverley, he had a sufficiency of
those qualities which impress a gamekeeper and farmer-tenants and
grooms and chauffeurs.  He did what he pleased, and as much of it
as the world would allow him, and the world allowed him a good
deal.  Probably he was the unregenerate man's ideal of what a
gentleman should be; large and comely and debonair; easily
familiar, yet keeping his height; full of strong language and
strong appetites; casual with money, and still more casual in his
adventures; the sort of man who never asked for his change, and
could use his fists.  Mr. Bob had been a bit of a lad, and he was
still very much of a lad, a gay bachelor.  The morals of Woolshot
Hall did not matter, save, perhaps, to one or two men who had been
made to look cruelly foolish.

When the Venerable took Mr. Hargreaves his local paper, Mr.
Hargreaves gave him a shilling.

"Something for bird-seed, John."

"Thank you, sir."

The shilling did not go into the Venerable's pocket.  He dropped it
into a collecting-box for the Castle Craven cottage hospital which
stood beside the office window.  He resumed his place with his back
to the brass gong.  It occurred to him to wonder how Lance would
render Bob Hargreaves in a book.  He would not be easy to render.
Besides, the behaviour of the essential animal in man is apt to be
boring, and if the description is too vivid it has the crudeness of

"A man with protruding blue eyes and broad nostrils and much
money," thought the Venerable; "perhaps one might as well leave it
at that."


Lance Pybus walked along Park Lane.  He had been dining at the
Ermyn Club, and it had been one of the club's literary evenings,
and in the smoking-room he had been made known to an amazing little
woman--one Lola Kentish--who, with the face and clothes of a
country schoolmistress, had sat drinking cups of black coffee while
talking to him upon literary methods.  He had got himself becalmed
in one of those stagnant phases when a book refuses to move, and
loses its sense of sincerity.  He had torn up one whole chapter.
He had gone to dine at the club, feeling baffled and impatient, and
by good luck had found Miss Kentish seated next to him.  As a
novelist she had arrived, while he was unknown.

Extraordinary little woman, looking mild as milk, yet exuding the
most flamboyant language!  But she knew.  He had found himself
listening to her, arguing a little at first, but in the end he had
surrendered to her rather flat and undistinguished voice.

He had said to her--"Do you ever find a character running away with
you--and getting you into a sort of cheap back street; and do what
you please you can't escape from it?"

Of course she had had that experience.

"Nothing is cheap.  It's all behaviour.  If you treat it as
behaviour--it comes out as what it is."

Her words retained for him all their vividness as he walked slowly
along beside the railings.  Somehow--she had put him right, and he
saw his formless and cheap chapter reconstructed and simplified.
She had said:  "What matters is what people do, not what they look
like or what they say.  You may describe a man through a whole
page, whereas you would have got the inwardness of him in a flash
if you recorded what he did and looked like when he cut himself
while shaving.  Keep your people doing things, see them doing
things.  That's the only way to keep cheapness out of your work,
for behaviour is never cheap if you treat it as behaviour.  If a
man blows his nose without a handkerchief--he just blows it without
a handkerchief.  Start to meddle with the act on moral or sthetic
lines and you are on the edge of the cheap and the vulgar.  An
incident--simply described--can be far more subtle than pages of
psycho-analysis.  Cut it out.  Stick to behaviour."

He paused and stood with his back to the railings.  He looked at
the windows of the Park Lane houses; he saw red 'buses and taxis
going by.  The London night was a dim mirror into which he gazed
and saw happenings and the simple significance of things as they
happen.  Nothing was adjectival.  You just did what you had to do.
You wrote about the things that people did--because there was a
kind of inevitableness in their doing of them.

He strolled on to the Marble Arch and stood on the pavement and
watched the traffic and the lights, and the figures which were
alternately dim and bright like moths flying through a garden lit
by fairy-lights.  He felt tranquillized, reassured.  After all--the
whole business of life was movement--or behaviour--as Lola Kentish
had said it was.  But then--if your book--and your own intimate
self were just behaviour, what became of the Venerable's mysticism?
Was life an affair of miracles or of muscles?


But behaviourism as expressed in a book and behaviourism as it is
expressed in intimate personal happenings are very different
propositions, and Lance Pybus in Portman Square on a May evening
was very much the young theorist.  The lights of the square spread
a soft canopy supported by the dim tops of the trees.  There were
the lights of the houses and the faint silver of the stars.  And it
occurred to him to wonder how beauty arrived, that impersonal
beauty which does not seem to depend on muscle and nerve cells and
glandular secretions.

Yes, life and your consciousness were problems, but in Parham
Crescent he returned to realities.  A taxi had left a girl at the
other end of the crescent, and halfway between No. 7 and No. 17
these two young things met.


"Hallo, laddie."

They stood facing each other under a lamp, very close together, and
mutually glad of their nearness.

"Where have you been?"

"Oh, my dear, where haven't I been?  On duty at a dance, being gay
with a gay old thing of fifty.  I had to go.  He's a posh patron of
ours.  And my poor feet!"

Her face looked very live and sensitive to him in the lamplight,
with its big bright eyes and mobile mouth.

"Bad luck!  Did he tread--?"

"Oh--those new shoes of mine we bought.  One ought to have steel
shoes when one dances with an elephant.  I'm sure the skin's off
one toe."

"Poor Olive."

"Not a bit of it.  I told him off, my dear.  And where have you

"At a literary dinner."


"Oh, very."

"Poor laddie."

Her little quick movements and the dim flashings of her face seemed
part of the May night.  He wanted to touch her clothes.  She was
all soft and perfumed, an exquisite reality, and he felt towards
her a sudden tremulous tenderness.  How alone they were together!

"Had any supper?"

"Oh--yes.  I did expect that--and I got it.  But one does get--
rather bored."

"Just bored--?"

She looked up at him, and then away.

"A little more than that.  Life's tantalising.  Giving your youth
to old idiots.  Part of my job--I know.  One has to live."

"Yes, it's beastly."

"Oh, not quite that; rather humiliating sometimes.  Laddie, who
tied your tie for you?"

"I did."

"It's all crooked."

She put up her hands, and with her head slightly on one side, gave
his tie little tugs and touches.

"There.  You want--somebody--"

He was looking at her mouth, and her hands still seemed to linger
under his chin.  And suddenly--in the emptiness of the crescent--he
had his arms round her.  Her mouth seemed to lift to his, and he
was kissing it, that eager, warm, voracious mouth.



At breakfast Lance opened and read a letter from his father.  Sir
Probyn's letters were rather like himself, buttoned up in a
conventional and stilted good-nature, and reminiscent of a
commercial phrase-book.  It was as though Probyn sat down self-
consciously at his desk, shot his cuffs, and with a clearing of the
throat announced to himself that he was about to produce "Letters
from a Merchant to his Son."  Probyn's kindness had not quite been
able to get into country tweeds.  It had remained frock-coated,
civic, authoritative.


"In continuance of our talk, I should like to say that I have
decided to let your allowance run to the end of September.  I hope
you will not accuse me of any lack of generosity.  I think we
agreed that a young man should try to stand on his own feet, and if
I remember rightly you said that you would prefer to have things

"I appreciate your desire for independence.  Need I say that you
can appeal to me at any time.  Your mother and I are solicitous for
your success."

Lance put the letter away in a drawer in which there were scores of
other letters.  He rang for Mrs. Carver to come and clear away his
breakfast, for it was his habit to write from nine till eleven.
Being young, noise did not distract or irritate him as probably it
would do when he was forty, and while Mrs. Carver was collecting
the breakfast things on a tray, he stood at the open window and
took stock of the situation.  So the paternal siege would begin on
the first of October.  But just how serious was his father?  And
did his father's seriousness matter? for it was his own seriousness
that mattered.  Possibly he might have to move into cheaper rooms.
Anyway he would push on with the novel.  He would go and see
Richmond and ask for suggestions from that most irritable, kind,
and understanding of men.  It was probable that some pot-boiling
would be necessary, but if the Blair & Donnisthorpe magazines would
take from him two short stories a month he would be in a position
to hang on until "Rust" was published.  He had no doubt that "Rust"
would be published and that it would be a success.  He was sanguine
even to the point of arrogance.

So--to the book!  Mrs. Carver had sidled out backwards, carrying
the tray, and giving him one of those anxious and propitiatory
glances that she gave to all her lodgers.  Lance filled a pipe, and
lit it and pushed his table into the window.  He made a practice of
reading through the work of the previous day, so as to reinsert
himself into the atmosphere of yesterday's inspiration; but this
morning there was no inspiration.  He sat and fidgeted, and let his
pipe go out, and scribbled fragments of sentences upon an odd sheet
of notepaper.

Nothing would come.  The mirror of his imagination remained
clouded, for there was a restlessness working in him, a distracting
curiosity.  He had said to himself that he would not look across
the curve of the crescent towards the door of No. 7, nor to that
upper window, and yet--in a little while he found himself looking.
Her window was open, and the opening appeared to him as a narrow
oblong of darkness in the pale brickwork.  He found himself
watching it.

But he had work to do.  He relit his pipe, and prepared to bolt
himself down in front of the white foolscap that waited for the
functioning of his pen, but the white sheet became a face.  Yes,
her lips would be just there.  And how did a woman look when she
was kissed?  He had heard that she closed her eyes, a sign of shy
or of sacred surrender.  He had not noticed Olive Gadsden's eyes.
He had been too absorbed in feeling the warm texture of her eager
lips.  She had come to the surface after that emotional submergence
with a catching of the breath--and a little gloating laugh.

"Oh, my dear, you've made me feel all funny."

Funny indeed!  He had gone to his door, trembling.  Even his latch-
key had been tremulous.

He looked up and across at her window.  Had she gone out yet?
Would he have to wait a whole day before seeing her again?

Something showed at her window.  It was the crown of a little rose-
coloured hat.  She was looking down into the crescent; he could see
a part of her profile.  A moment later she was looking towards his
window.  Could she see him sitting there?  He wanted to be seen.
He pulled out a handkerchief and fluttered it.

Mrs. Carver, having allowed something to crash from the "first
floors'" breakfast-tray, heard Mr. Pybus's door open, and Mr. Pybus
coming down the stairs.  He appeared to be in a hurry, and to Mrs.
Carver haste suggested anger.  She had disturbed that blessed work
of his, and he was coming down to tell her that he would go
elsewhere where women did not drop jam-pots.  But Mr. Pybus had his
hat on.  Mrs. Carver stood shrinkingly at the foot of the stairs,
blinking her hare's eyes at him.

"Oh, I'm afraid I've disturbed you, sir."

He gave a passing and casual glance as he went towards the street

"No.  I'm not working to-day."

In Parham Crescent he took up the pursuit.  He saw her rose-
coloured hat and her black frock and those slim, febrile, flesh-
coloured legs ahead of him.  She was walking fast, as though she
had not expected him to follow her, and when he overtook her at the
end of the crescent she turned her head as though startled.

"Laddie--you ought to be working."

His face had a white swiftness.

"I'm walking with you to Chalfont Street."

"Do you think you ought to?"

"I'm going to."

She gave him a little subtle and almost soundless laugh, and an
oblique glance.

"Cave man!  Well--perhaps.  You look tired, my dear.  Sat up
writing, I suppose?"

"No, not exactly.

"I heard two o'clock strike."

She hid her eyes from him for a moment under that sensuous little

"You ought not to have done--that, you know."

He said, looking at her steadily:

"I couldn't help it.  You can be angry with me if you like--but I
simply couldn't help it."

At the Marylebone Road crossing he held her arm, and she did not
resist him.  She had a wise, sleek look.  They made a dash like a
couple of children in front of a red 'bus, and on the farther
pavement she betrayed a laughing breathlessness.

"Quick work!  And to think that I shall have to loaf all day, or
mince about showing off frocks.  Like this--my dear.  Imagine
yourself 'Moddom.'"

She walked ahead of him for a few spaces, giving him an exhibition
of the mannequin's walk with its little, gliding swigger-swag of
the hips, and its exotic gestures of the hands.  But he caught her

"You can stop that, Olive."

"Don't you approve?"

"I say--are you going to be shut up all day?"

"Till half-past five."

"And to-night?  Dancing?"

"No, not to-night."

"Let's go somewhere.  I'll wait for you."


"You simply--must."



She looked straight ahead down Baker Street.

"Very well.  We'll be good and just sit in Regent's Park, and
listen to the seals in the Zoo.  I shall be outside the Baker
Street tube at six."

"That's great of you."

"Don't keep me waiting.  I don't wait."

"Do you think I shall?"

But at the corner of Chalfont Street she told him to turn back.
She was very determined about it.

"I don't allow men to hang about my place of business, laddie.  It
isn't done.  So--remember."

He stood looking at her with a kind of smiling yet serious ardour.

"All right.  I think I approve."


When he had left her he did not know what to do with himself.  In
fact there seemed to be nothing worth doing until he saw her again.
Life marked time, and he--alone in these hurrying streets--wondered
at the haste of these people on a day in May when the sun was
shining.  He kept his promise to her about Chalfont Street, and
finding himself in Regent Street he idled down it, looking in the
shop windows.  He found himself suddenly absorbed in the
fascination of feminine things, dresses, coats, precious stones,
perfumes, shoes, all those exquisite and provoking veilings of the
flesh.  In one window he saw a particular dress of black and jade-
green which seemed to associate itself with the body of the girl
whom he had left twenty minutes ago.  He would like to see Olive in
that dress.  But how?  He--an unknown young scribbler, who was to
be marooned by a shrewd and Roman father!

He was spurred.

He quickened his pace.  It occurred to him that he had good cause
to go and see John Richmond, and to put his case into Richmond's
hands.  Richmond would help him.  The May sunshine had a new
urgency, the scattered gold, the goblin gold for which a young
man's hands might begin to grope.

He found himself in the yard of Blair & Donnisthorpe's historic
"House."  Vans were delivering paper, or removing packages of books
and periodicals.  A porter, with the face of a sot, blundered into
Lance on the narrow sidewalk, and glared at him with bleary

"'Ere--mind yerself!"

Lance made a movement as of dusting his sleeve.  Demos, handling
its parcels and packages, received more money for its brainless job
than did many of the authors.  The commissionaire in charge of the
door had known discipline and gentlemen.  Lance's card was handed
to a flapper.

"Will you take a chair in the waiting-room, sir."

Lance sat down in the little tank of a room.  He glanced at the
magazines on the table with the names of popular authors announced
upon their bright covers.  The "House" of Blair & Donnisthorpe had
a vastness.  He could hear the pulsing of machines, while he felt
rather like a stock fish in a tank waiting for someone to fish him
out of his obscurity.  But what did it matter?  At six o'clock he
was meeting Olive Gadsden.

The flapper returned.

"Mr. Richmond 'll see you.  Come upstairs."

No "sir" or "please," but were not such frills superfluous?  He was
led up stone stairs and along corridors into which people popped
through glazed doors.  The flapper, with an air of stodgy boredom,
passed him in to Richmond's secretary.

Lance smiled at her.

"Good morning, Miss Vincent."

His smile was returned, and it was the smile of a woman who worked.
Miss Vincent was big and fair and deliberate, with a face that was
wide open to you, and eyes that were not to be beguiled.  Richmond
always said of her that she was the best secretary in London, and
the only being who knew when he was angry and when he was

"Mr. Richmond's engaged for a minute.  Please come in and wait."

"It's good of him to see me.  I won't keep him five minutes."

Miss Vincent, returning to her desk and her labours, gave him a
kind of mother's look, much the look she would sometimes lay upon
the crown of Richmond's big head.

"You won't mind if I go on working?"

"I should feel wrong here if you didn't."

At the end of two minutes Richmond's bell rang, and Lance was
allowed into the great man's inner room.  For John Richmond was a
great man.  You would find him as Lance found him, sitting squarely
and heavily behind his desk, and ready to look at you with curt
blue eyes from behind rimmed spectacles.  You would--perhaps--think
him a plain man; he had not a feature that was as it should be, but
when you knew him, when he had talked to you, the whole man became
transfigured.  His very plainness was lovable; it had a sort of
beautiful rightness, a Cromwellian vigour.  He talked very fast--in
swift, forcible bursts, or he said very little.  If he was silent
you might take up your hat and go.  He had moments of explosive
energy.  At times he might appear intensely irritable, because he
was intensely sensitive, and became fiercely impatient in the
presence of humbugs, and prigs, and obstructionists.  No man at any
time had done more kind things and forgotten them.  If he troubled
to curse you it meant that you were worth cursing.

He said:  "Sit down, Pybus.  What's the matter?"

Lance had the sense not to waste Richmond's time.  He could forgive
you anything but prosiness or false modesty.

"Nothing's the matter, sir.  I think I told you once that my father
was financing me for two years."

"Are the two years up?"

"At the end of September.  I was wondering if I wrote a series of
short stories."

Richmond got up out of his chair.  He liked to walk about the big
room when he was talking to particular people.  He held himself
very stiffly; head and shoulders seemed to have been carved out of
one solid block.  He would look at a photo, or take a book from the
shelves, and then turn suddenly upon a person with one of his curt,
blue stares.

He did this to Lance.

"Finished your novel?"

"Not yet."

"You had better let me see it."

"If you don't mind, sir, I would rather finish it before you see
it.  You see--"

"Quite.  What's the matter with your father?"

"Paternal curiosity, I think.  I'm to find my own feet, or go into

Richmond paused in his paradings to raise the lid of a silver
cigarette box.

"Have one.  It's a pity--"

"What, sir?"

"Pot boiling."

"Need it be?"

"No, not necessarily.  Of course you're young, but youth doesn't
matter.  Look at Arlen and Margaret Kennedy.  It's youth's day.
What's your idea?"

"To live on short stories and articles until my novel--"

"You believe in it, do you?"

"I do, sir.  It's not conceit--I believe I have the stuff in me."

Richmond returned to his chair.

"Look here, Pybus--you must promise me that I shall see the whole
of that novel--say--by the end of September."

"I think I can do it.  It's very good of you."

"Rot!  It's my business.  And write me three short stories.  If I
like them I'll start you with an order for two a month, at eight
guineas a piece.  Our magazines eat up stories by the hundred."

"It really is awfully good of you, sir."

"Hold on.  Wait till you see whether I like your tales, my lad.  If
they turn out as good as those London sketches of yours, you'll
like me."

It was the moment to go, and Lance, touched and a little flushed,
stood in front of Richmond's desk.

"I shan't forget this, sir."

The curt eyes looked up at him kindly.

"Don't forget--the end of September.  Get those three tales done as
soon as you can."

When Lance had gone, Richmond rang for Miss Vincent.

"Make a note--please.  Mr. Pybus's novel to be seen by the end of
September.  Three short stories to be submitted.  If satisfactory--
an offer of two a month at eight guineas--each.  Got it?"

"Yes, sir."

"Nice lad--that.  It is so much pleasanter to do things for the
right people.  Now, what the blazes are we to do about that
buccaneering blackguard, Corthrow?"

Lance was descending the stairs.  He had been offered a chance such
as few young men receive.  He had but to keep his word, and
Richmond would be to him a literary godfather.  But Lance did not
yet know his John Richmond as he was destined to know him, as a man
who had no use for delays, prevarications and excuses.  A generous
gesture was a generous gesture; let it be responded to.


Mr. Conrad Pybus emerged from a taxi in Chalfont Street, a very
glossy Pybus on this May morning; the complete man about town, silk
hatted, be-spatted, sleeked into his black morning coat.  He tipped
the taxi-driver a shilling, and was saluted.  With his malacca cane
under his left arm he walked towards the glass doors of
"Mirabeau's," and the doors opened before him as before the breath
of a god.

A woman with magnificent white hair, and wearing black silk, came
down the showroom to meet him.

"Good morning, sir."

Conrad removed his hat.  He was feeling at home with himself and
with all the world.

"Good morning.  Suppose you can show me some frocks?"

"Certainly, sir."

"Want to buy one--a bet--you know, lost it.  That's the position."

"Will you please take a seat, sir.  What kind of frock?"

"A thing that'll do for afternoon--or evening--at a pinch.  Well,
let's say--Ascot.  But it's got to be--it."

"I quite understand, sir," said the white-haired woman with a
gracious and imperturbable face.

Mr. Conrad Pybus sat down on a black satin sofa.  He placed his hat
and stick on a white table.  The showroom was all white, with a
black pile carpet.  It was plastered with mirrors.  The door of
every cupboard seemed to have a mirror attached to it.  On Mr.
Conrad's right were a series of white boxes in which the mysteries
of fitting were observed.  Directly in front of him two black
curtains looped back from a white doorway suggested a stage.

The white-haired woman had disappeared.  Conrad, pulling off his
yellow gloves, felt the need of slow music.  The first mannequin
appeared, a red-haired girl in a purple and green printed chiffon,
mincing in between the black curtains.  She postured towards Mr.
Conrad, her defiant blue eyes looking over the top of his head.
She walked to the right and to the left, revolved, and passed away
with undulations of the hips.

Mr. Conrad smirked.  Not a word had been uttered.  Not a word would
be uttered; that was part of the ritual.

A second mannequin appeared.  Ha!--this was it, both the dress and
the girl--Olive Gadsden in a kind of tomato-coloured thing,
superbly simple and superbly expensive.  The frock had that
indefinable French manner.  It both floated and clung.  Yes, Conrad
knew a smart frock when he saw it.

Olive's face appeared as expressionless as the wax face of a model
in a window, but she fixed her eyes on the man's face, and did not
look over the top of his head.  He was smiling; he nodded his head.
He winked at her.

Her right eye flicked out a response.

"Thank you.  Will you tell madame--I'm pleased."

He watched her walk back towards the doorway.  His heavy white face
had an oily sheen.  He was thinking.

"The clever young devil!  She knew what she wanted, and which one
to put on.  And, by Jove!--she's a peach."

Madame reappeared.  Conrad was extracting a cheque-book.

"I'll take that frock.  How much?"

"Forty guineas, sir."

"Right you are.  I'll write a cheque."

"You will have the dress sent, sir?"

"No, taking it with me.  Your porter can get me a taxi.  My
cheque's as good as the Bank."

"Of course, sir.  May I have your name and address?"

"Pybus.  Conrad Pybus, Esq., Chlois Court, Berks."

"Can we show you anything else, sir?"

Conrad gave her a sly look.

"Another day--probably--yes--very probably."


At the rendezvous outside Baker Street station, Olive Gadsden was
twenty minutes late, but that was a young woman's privilege.  She
had dashed back to No. 7 Parham Crescent at twenty minutes to six
to try on the frock that had been delivered by a special messenger.
Conrad had been too tactful and too cautious to drive up to No. 7
in a taxi and deposit a parcel in the hands of Mrs. Gasson.  Conrad
was a man of the world.  He might have matrimonial inclinations,
but, since that pup of Probyn's happened to be most inconveniently
lodged in Parham Crescent, his uncle exercised discrimination.

"I'm afraid I'm a little late.  We had a wretched woman in who kept
us parading till half-past five."

She looked up into his intent face.

"You're not cross with me, laddie?"

"Cross!  I was just a little frightened--that's all."

"What of?"

"That you might not be coming."

"Oh, I wanted to come."


"Rather.  What do you think?  Oh, let's get away from this damned
noise.  Aren't people fools?"

"I sometimes stand here and watch them stampede into the Tube."

"Funny form of amusement.  Half of us should never have been born."

"Which half?"

"Oh, the sploshy-faced, spoilt in the baking sort, and the sickly
sort.  Come along, my dear.  Let's find something green to look

He walked very close to her, as close as was possible.

"I feel I have such a lot to say to you, Olive.  I want you to

"Oh--serious laddie--!  Let's be ''Arry' and ''Arriet,' or Chloe
and Strephon.  We'll sit under a tree, and then I'll take you out
to dinner in Soho.  It's my turn--"

"My dear, you can't--"

"Oh, yes I can.  I'm in funds at present.  And have you been
working hard, my dear?"

"Not a stroke.  You wouldn't let me."

"Poor laddie!"



The Venerable's after-breakfast pipe refused to draw.  Absorbed in
reflecting upon other matters he had plugged the tobacco too
tightly into the bowl, and since the flight feather of a pigeon
failed to clear the stoppage, he was constrained to employ the
blade of a pocket knife.  Having come out into the Saracen yard he
made use of the window-sill of the billiard-room.  After scraping
out the tobacco into a little brown heap, he blew vigorously
through the pipe, and proceeded to replace the tobacco.

"Beautiful morning, Mr. Pybus," said a voice.

The Venerable agreed that the morning was beautiful, but he had the
air of not appreciating its beauty.  His eyebrows had a constrained
bushiness.  Lance had not written to him for ten days, and the
Venerable had grown accustomed to a weekly letter.  Moreover, that
last letter of Lance's had bothered him a little, because it had
suggested haste and perfunctoriness.

"Getting exacting--are you?"

He addressed the inward remark both to himself and to his pipe.

"Getting like an old woman!  Drop it.  The boy has enough writing
to do."

He relit his pipe, gazed at the sky and saw that it was very blue.
Also, he became aware of Miss Merris's car standing in the yard,
and looking as dusty and as deplorable as a car could look.  She
was bending over the open dickey; she was lifting something out;
old Pybus saw her face, and his attention was arrested by its
sadness, the sadness as of some inward pain suppressed and

He said to himself:  "That girl's not well.  She works too hard,"
but in a moment he was correcting his reflection.  Hard work hurts
nobody, not even a miner; and most certainly it would not hurt a
strong young woman who spent half her life in the open air.  But
there was no question about her sadness.  You could not cleverly
get rid of it as Shaw might do by putting it down to the effects of
insufficient food, or the wrong sort of food.  There are other and
more complex disharmonies, especially in this most unhappy age when
toys are too plentiful and too easily discarded.

Observed, she became conscious of it.  Some faces are very
sensitive--especially some women's faces.  Her eyelids flickered;
her self-absorbed melancholy was disturbed; she raised her head to
see who it was who stood watching her.  She was impatient,

But it was only old Mr. Pybus, and the hardness went out of her
eyes.  She did not mind old Pybus.  Her rather brusque manner
relented.  There was that in her which ceased to resist, or to defy
the man in him, because it was not necessary.

She lifted out a wooden box.

"I'm loaded up this morning.  Shopping day."

Old Pybus laid his pipe aside on the window-sill.

"I'll carry that in."

"Will you?  There's another."

"I'll carry both of them in."

Her brown eyes seemed to regain their depth and their secret
courage.  She was so very much alone; she had no one to go to, no
one whom she wished to go to; she had to carry two lives on her
shoulders.  And sometimes the heart of her courage felt so hard and
strained that she would wonder whether there was any softness left
in it.  Also, she did not dare to be soft.  There were times when
she could have thrown up her hands and wailed, or broken into a
storm of furious and bitter words.  She had to cherish her
gentleness, and, paradoxical though it may seem, the exaggeration
of an attitude of gentleness and forbearance seemed to be creating
in her an inward hardness.  She was starved of contrasts.  No one
was gentle to her; men wanted things from her, selfishly, brutally.
There were moments when she felt a wild impulse driving her to be
brutal towards men.  But old Pybus--!

"Thank you so much."

He took the egg-box from her hands.

"They keep you busy."

"It's best to be busy.  There is a box for the White Hart."

"I'll carry it up to them.  You go and do your shopping."

Courageous she might be, and self-restrained to the point of
severity, but she was hungry for kindness.  People called her a
hard young woman; she was judged by the surface she showed to the

"But that's not part of your job, Mr. Pybus."

"It's my job, if I choose to do it."

Her brown eyes softened to his blue ones.

"You're kind.  Most people are in too much of a hurry."

"It's a pity."

"I dare say I'm the same.  I'm always in a hurry."

She was smiling at him.

"It's when you feel rushed and flurried--inside--"

"Yes--that's it.  Try and take deep breaths.  I don't allow people--
now--to make me hurry.  But then your blood is younger than mine."

She turned to go, but pausing, looked back over her shoulder.

"How peaceful to be old.  I should like to be seventy."

He shook his head at her.

"Mustn't say that.  That's not you."


The Venerable had asked that every other Sunday should be made free
to him, and since the autocrat of Castle Cottage and the autocrat
who owned the Saracen's Head were cronies, John Pybus had his way.
It was a June Sunday, and June as it should be, and on the Saturday
morning a letter had come from Lance, a jerky, rambling,
disconnected letter.  It suggested some inward restlessness, or
that Lance was trying to talk on paper to his grandfather while
thinking of something else.  It made old Pybus feel vaguely uneasy
and insecure.

"What's wrong with the lad?"

He decided that he would go out and walk.  Unlike the majority of
old men he had not become dulled by age; he would never be a
dodderer, moving the young men to impatience or a kind of scornful
tolerance.  If he dreaded anything, that was the thing he dreaded.

Old Pybus retained his sensitiveness.  It is possible that he had
grown more sensitive, and as he took the path below the Castle and
saw the river sliding its swift silver below the young green of the
beeches he was conscious of emotion.  Always he had understood
those lines of Tennyson's--"Tears, idle tears--I know not what they
mean."  There were tears that are never wept; laughter that is
never laughed, save in secret, or on some autumn morning when the
yellow leaves fall slowly, or on some evening in the Spring of the
year when birds sing.  Oh, that singing of birds in the green and
chilly twilight, and the dead faces that were remembered, and dead
Springs!  How poignant a thing was beauty, the beauty of this green
valley, and of this England that was ceasing!

"I'm growing old," he thought.

And, as though defying the thought, he struck a stone post sharply
with his ash stick.

"Nonsense.  Don't fuss.  Nothing's so boring as fussiness.  Old
idiot, don't young men fall in love!"

But was that it?  He paused on the footbridge over the Brent and
watched the swirl of the water.  The last week of May had been wet.
Youth chafed like that, and fretted itself, and was driven by its
own swollen swiftness.

Old Pybus raised his hat to the river.

"Find the sea, my lad, find the sea."

He regained his tranquillity.  He had a feeling for landscape, an
old man's feeling for it, for he saw it as it was; and not as youth
sees it, as a mere setting for its desires and dreams; nor as a man
sees it in the force of his acquisitive years, as a building site
or as a possible golf course or a test hill.  Here was a green
valley in early June, and the river, and Castle Craven on its hill.
He loitered.  The path brought him to the main road, but it was
Sunday and car day, and being offered the lane that ran up past
"Marions" to the Woolshot beech woods he accepted it.

Coming to the hedge of "Marions" he heard a piano being played.
The Venerable did not know the name of the piece--it was Cyril
Scott's "Pierrot," but the richness and the depth of the rolling
chords were irresistible.  Old Pybus went a little way along the
hedge and past Mary Merris's white gate and, happening to find a
stump where a young oak had been felled, he sat down there.  The
music went on.  It had what the Venerable called "a human cry."  It
yearned, and was baffled.  It was full of life's--"Whence, and Why
Whither?"  It was blind and beautiful and sad, and it had the cry
of a man who was blind.

The music ceased suddenly.  It was replaced by another sound, the
clatter of a light mowing machine being pushed over a piece of
grass.  The Venerable heard voices.



"Must you make that damned noise?"

"Sorry--dear--but I must get this done."

"Oh--what a fuss--!  If the grass is too long--I can't see it.  But
I can hear.  I'm playing."

"I thought you'd finished."

"Well, I haven't!"

"All right.  I'll mow the grass later."

The piano playing commenced, but it was angry and egotistical
playing, an outburst of childish impatience.  In the garden there
was silence, and the Venerable was intrigued by that silence.  He
could picture the girl on her knees, with a set face, pulling up
weeds.  He seemed to get a sudden understanding of her life here
with that poor, spoilt blind child of a man.  The devotion of some
women, the patience of them!  The Castle Craven bells began to ring
out across the valley, and they had been at it for a minute when
John Pybus heard another voice.

"Hallo--working on Sunday?"

The Venerable's eyebrows bristled.  He knew the voice and its
owner, and he recognized the quality of both.  He heard the girl's
voice reply to it, and he could still picture her on her knees,
determinedly busy.

"As you see."

It was both a parry and a thrust.

"Quite wrong to work on Sunday."

"Is it!"

"Listen to those bells.  Know what they are saying?"

"Many things."

"The damned fools! the damned fools! the damned fools!"

There was a moment of silence, a stressed silence.

"Where's Gil?"

"If you listen--"

"Oh, plastering the ivories.  This is a soulful little place."

"Do you mind telling me how you arrived here?"

"Through your orchard gate."

"I'd prefer you to use--"

"Don't be silly.  I use any gate."

The piano playing ceased abruptly, and the third voice joined in.

"Mary, I'm bored.  Confound those beastly bells!"

"Hallo, Gil!  Here's your good sister breaking the Sabbath."

"Bob--that you--old chap?"

"Large as life.  Come and fill a pipe."

John Pybus left his tree stump and walked slowly towards the
Woolshot beeches.  He felt that the virtue had gone out of the
morning, for in some ways he was still as fastidious as a sensitive
boy, and as quick as Lance was with his qualms and aversions.
Hargreaves, with his complacent, well-oiled voice, and his air of
"Come hither--my lass--when I call you," was the sort of man who
gave him qualms.  Yes, a voice was a subtle revealer.  John Pybus
trudged up the hill, rapping at the oak fence of Woolshot with his
stick, conscious of himself as an old fellow who had been skulking
behind a hedge while two dogs were driving a brown-eyed creature
into a corner to worry it.

"Mary, I'm bored."

"Hallo, young woman, I want you.  What about it?"

Yes, the blind, and the broad of nostril!  Troublesome people,
greedy children!  The Venerable reached the shade of the Woolshot
beeches, Hargreave's beeches, purchased fifty years ago by the
original Hargreaves, who had kicked his way up to wealth in a pair
of weaver's clogs.  Again--three generations!  Old Jock Hargreaves
had been a stout, surly, useful old curmudgeon.  His grandson was
just a gentlemanly cad.

The big bell of Castle Craven sent a tremor across the valley, and
old Pybus sat down on a dry bank in the shade.  Rather hard luck on
the girl down there.  Was the fellow after her?  And that poor,
blind, petulant brother, bored and fractious!  What a situation!

Old Pybus prodded the ground with his stick.  He found himself
wondering what his grandson was doing on this morning in June.


As it happened, Lance was attempting to harmonize a situation, and
to drive two selves in double harness.  At half-past ten he was to
meet Olive Gadsden at the Baker Street tube station en route for
Waterloo, Hampton Court, and the river.  Meanwhile, he was trying
to bolt himself down in his chair and to complete the last five
hundred words of a short story, the second of the three John
Richmond was to read.  But he could not see things clearly, or
rather he saw certain things too clearly, a mouth, a pair of eyes,
a summer frock, cushions, a punt on the river.  His vision as an
interpreter was confused and clouded by his vision as a man.

At half-past nine the word-master in him surrendered.  The sun was
shining, the trees were green, and his own restlessness fluttered
at the window.  He got up, and without looking at his manuscript,
put a book upon the sheets so that they should not blow away.

He was before her at the station, and that was as it should be.
The first he saw of her was her little rose-coloured hat.  She came
towards him on those swift, feverish legs.  Her eyes were
mischievous and intimate, and challenging.

"Well, we've choused the snooky people."

He looked at her eyes and mouth, and the olive in her skin.

"No need for ostentation."

She laughed.  Everything about her was a little exaggerated, as
though the rhythm of life had been quickened; her flickering
movements, the rogue's brightness in her eyes, her colour, her
chatter.  She touched his arm as they went down the steps, and her
fingers exercised a caressing pressure.

"It's--our--day.  Got enough money?"


"Because I have.  Share and share alike."

"Not for a moment."

"Oh--all right.  Pity we haven't a car.  You've got a car?"

"I had."

"At home?"

"That's it."

"So there are three cars."


"Borrow one?"

"Can't afford to keep it."

Her eyes teased him.

"Oh, yes, you could."

At Waterloo the crowdedness of life began to assert itself.
Everybody seemed to be going on the river, and everybody looked
more or less alike; there were hatless young men with floppy hair,
and girls with standardized hats.  All trousers were white, and all
stockings flesh-coloured.  There were gramophones and tea-baskets
and cushions and children.  The carriage to Hampton was crowded;
Lance had taken first-class tickets, but five blatant "thirds"
pushed in without attempting to find a third-class compartment.  A
very hot and obstreperous small boy kept wiping his shoes on
Lance's white trousers.

"Sit still, Eddie, will yer."

"I want t' look out of the winder."

"Sit still or I'll smack you.  Mind the gentleman's trousers."

Hampton Court was a larger replica of the railway carriage.
Humanity was spilt about it like confetti after a wedding.  The
bridge was a jam of cars and pedestrians, and the road space
opposite the entrance to the palace adventurous with trams and
'buses and dawdling crowds.  Lance's eyes had a restiveness.
Crowds were very well when you came out to study them--but to be
one of a holiday crowd--with a girl at your elbow . . . !

He said:  "Damn all these people."

She was far less sensitive than he was.

"What about that car?"

"We'll have one next time.  Or we'll go fifty miles out.  I want to
get away."

"That's why money's worth while, my lad.  Hot Sabbath humanity!  Me
no likee."

It took them an hour to get a punt.  Punts were at a premium, and
while they waited, the river grew more and more crowded.  A steamer
went by, and the jazz band upon it ceased its syncopations to
refresh itself with bottled beer.

Lance's face grew stiffer.

"Damn all these people!"

She knew her world better than he did.  She produced a half-crown,
and waylaid a harassed boatman.

"We want a punt.  See--"

"Right, miss, right; I'll do my best."

They got their punt--and curled up on the cushions, and looking up
at him wickedly, she made her point.

"Money, see?  Money all the time!"


She had brought lunch for two in an attach case; sandwiches,
pastry, cherries and a bottle of cider.  They lunched under the
shade of a vast plane tree which grew inside the wall of a private
garden, and threw its shade on the earth and water beyond the wall.
The yellowness of the Palm Beach buildings on Karno's Island
gleamed through the trees like an artificial afterglow.

"Rum world, isn't it?  Have another raspberry tart, old thing?"

"No, thanks.  I say--I wonder if these people like going about in

"Does it matter whether they do or don't?  You're much too self-
conscious, laddie.  Give me a cigarette, and come and lie down

"Is there room?"


They lay side by side in the stern of the punt, he looking up into
the green shadowiness of the plane tree, she resting on her side
and watching his face.  She blew smoke at him.


"Not worth three farthings."



"Then it's not about me!"

He turned towards her.  She had taken off her hat, and her dark
hair stood out in black and shadowy cloud.  It was soft and
scented, and suddenly he felt tempted to take that soft head in his
arms and to bury his face in her hair.

Her eyes glimmered at him.

"Mustn't.--Not now."

"Why not?"

"Don't you know that the Conservancy people won't allow you to kiss
on the river?"

"What rot!"

"It's true.--Besides--too many people--"

He looked into her eyes.

"That's true.  Always--too many people.  Do you know, we never have
a chance to be alone.  There is no aloneness--in these days."

She patted his chin with the tip of a finger.

"Oh--yes--there is.  But it means money.  A big car, a place in the

"My God!" he said, "just listen to those gramophones!  There must
be half a dozen of them all going at once.  Look here--Olive."


"Let's go right away somewhere--next week-end.  Will you?"

Her head made a little consenting movement on the cushion.



Richmond, having read the third of Lance's short stories, asked
himself the obvious question.

"What's wrong with young Pybus?"

For when the work is wrong something must be amiss with the
workman, and Richmond, who had written and read for twenty years,
had somehow contrived to keep himself fresh to the perfume or the
rankness of the product.  And here was a lad who could when he
chose command an exquisite and remorseless intensity, writing
aggressive and succulent tosh!

Richmond was annoyed.  There was nothing he mis-liked so much as
mere cleverness, and especially cheap cleverness.  Also, it is
annoying to open a door to a young man, only to find that he has
lost his literary manners.

But why?

You could assume some distraction, or that fatal lapse from virtue,
when an ulterior motive edges in between life and the interpreter.
Richmond knew that when you take to kissing your craft on the mouth
for money--your craft becomes a harlot.  Extraordinary--but it is
so, and exasperatingly so, and John Richmond had had to experience
many such exasperations.  He had found that he had debauched people
by trying to help them, and so often had this happened to him that
he had developed a distaste for helping people.

"I'm not so sure," he reflected.  "Better if the young beggar had
been polite to his father.  Give them a fence to climb--make an
obstacle race of it.  You should have to get at your craft like a
boy breaking into somebody's orchard after school hours."

He sent one of the short stories back to Lance, with a curt, kind
note.  "This won't do, my lad.  You can do better than this.  I
want the better."

To himself he said--"This young man will have to be watched.
London's got him, or a wench, or perhaps both of them.--This
tendency to write for glitter!"

At Castle Craven the Venerable was at work upon the same problem.
Lance, arriving for a belated week-end, had brought with him five
more chapters of the novel, and a face which suggested to old Pybus
the simile of a window filled with frosted glass.  His grandfather
had to read both the book and the face, and he read those five
chapters in bed.  He blew out the candle.  In summer he liked to
sleep with the blind up and the curtains undrawn, and he lay in the
soft June darkness and considered his problem.

Obviously a change had come over Lance and over Lance's work.  You
could not dissociate one from the other.  As to those five
chapters, they suggested the workings of an imagination whose
temperature was raised, and whose sense of perspective had been
given an oblique twist.  It was cubist stuff, all jagged and
angular and raw as to colour, and the people had blue faces and
green hair.  Like the late "cubists," Lance had sat down in a cold
frenzy to emphasize the one feature of life which was centred in
his immediate consciousness, and that feature was sex.

The stuff had the face of a woman.

So clearly did the Venerable see that dominant face that he could
not conjure sleep, and when the Castle Craven clock sent out twelve
deep notes old Pybus got out of bed and relit the candle.  He was
wakeful and restless.  He went downstairs and rummaged for a pipe,
and in the stillness he fancied that he could hear his grandson's
confident and almost aggressive voice crowing like Peter Pan.  "The
best five chapters.  The best work I've done."

Inadvertently, old Pybus trod on the cat.  Pussy should not have
been there on the rug in front of the fireplace; she should have
been out hunting or being hunted.  The Venerable said "Damn,"
echoing poor pussy's squawk.

He bent down to make amends.

"Well--you shouldn't have been there, you silly."

While stroking Sarah's head he heard the door of Lance's bedroom

"Hallo!  What's that?"

"I trod on the cat--my son."

"Anything wrong, grandpater?"

"No.  I thought I had forgotten to lock the door.  I'm just making
it up with Sarah."

Lance's door closed, and his grandfather, having filled a pipe and
held the mouth of the bowl to the flame of the candle, made his way
back to his room.  He was thinking--"Is it my business to tread on
those five chapters as I trod on the cat?  Is it my business?  And
also--is this how youth sees things?  The eyes of the young
generation?  Am I an old stuffer?"  He slipped into an ancient blue
dressing-gown, effaced the candle, and with his crossed arms on the
window-sill, smoked his pipe.  He did not see the dim, jagged bulk
of the Castle, or the tops of the ash trees, or the star-dust
scattered above them.  His consciousness was all within.

He was thinking of Lance and of Lance's work.  He was confronted
and antagonized by some of the crude, flashing sentences.

"Mallison's teeth looked like a stick of celery stuffed between two
great tomatoes."--"Her hot lips dissembled."--"Everything in life
is as you happen to smell it, cabbage or face-powder."

Old Pybus blew smoke, much smoke.  If this was not what he called--
"Impertinent art," what was it?  An inflammation, youth seeing red,
and especially a redness of hair and lips.  Arrogant stuff!  And he
swore softly to the June night.

"Damn it--what a pity!  Self-expression, self-expression!"

For you might liken a man's power of self-expression to the water
in a conduit which serves to work a fountain or to flush a drain.
Turn on the drain-cock and the flow is downwards, and your fountain
will not play.  All the pressure that the heart of man's
consciousness can give is needed for the raising of that mystical
plume.  Lance had opened the lower cock of life's conduit.  Maybe
it was gushing red wine, blood, adventure.  But the "jet d'eau" was
out of action.

Also, the Venerable was persuaded to remember two volumes of
English plays that had been sent down to him six months ago by his
London library.  "Hindle Wakes"--"Mary Broome," and others of that
sort of industrial dismalness, had set John Pybus contrasting the
pre-war with the post-war.  He had not liked any of the young men
in these plays; he had not wanted to like them.  Leonard Timbrell
in Alan Monkhouse's "Mary Broome;" impertinent, ineffectual,
unpleasantly clever, selfish as hell, had set the Venerable
handling an imaginary strap.  How admirable to be able to despise
your father, to treat him with easy insolence, and at the same time
to be content to sponge on him!  The cult of the temperamental
young rotter!  And why should the son, who worked, and stuck at
things, be represented on all occasions as a crass prig and a
bourgeois fool?

He remembered his own sons, Probyn and Conrad.  H'm--yes!  Rather
unsubtle souls--certainly.  But if your interesting pre-war young
rotter had been portrayed as an insolently inefficient young person--
the war had produced a useful reaction.  You might be a rotter,
but there was something to suggest that the post-war rotter had
developed an efficiency.

Besides, words, words, labels, fatuous generalizations!  The whole
point was that Lance had a face like clouded glass, and that he had
written those five chapters.  Sexual stuff, and sexual stuff
unrelieved by other urges, can be so horribly boring.  Young
wenches loosening their garters!

The Venerable was troubled--not so much by those five chapters, as
by his grandson's clouded and taciturn face.  The candour had gone
from the eyes.  Lance was shut up with himself in some inner
chamber--a stuffy, cheaply scented, tumbled apartment--where
certain things happened.  He was secretive about it; he had locked
the door.

And old Pybus realized himself as being outside that locked door,
and desiring nothing so much as to be able to rush in and throw up
the window.

But there you were!  Half of life's doors are always locked, and
some of them are never opened.  We have closed cupboards within our
inmost selves.

The Venerable's pipe went out--and he stood breathing the night

"Oh, he'll come back to breathing this.  Sex stuffiness can't last.
But--meanwhile--?  Spiritual inflections.  Damn it."

He went back to bed.


When John Pybus looked out of his bedroom window the distant
country was very blue and clear, and in the south-west clouds were
smudging up.  Rain was coming, but not yet, and it was the
Venerable's own Sunday, and therefore he would make Lance walk.

At breakfast, Lance ate less than usual, and had silent periods.
He was expecting his grandfather to say something about those five
chapters, and the Venerable was aware of being expected to say
something.  But what?  He had not seen Lance for a month, and to
play the Roman at breakfast and before the first tranquillizing
pipe, was not humanly easy.  Therefore they talked disjointed
nothings to each other, and became self-conscious--though old Pybus
did not betray himself as Lance did.

"How's your egg?"


"So it should be.  Game for a walk?"

"Yes; let's walk."

"Woolshot way; get away from the cars."

"Splendid," said Lance, with that clouded but half-expectant face
of his.

He had a second cup of tea.  He got up and looked out of the
window.  He remembered that the first thought that had come to him
on waking was that Olive was going up the river with a party in
somebody's launch.  And he had wished.--No, he hadn't--not
actually.--And then he had gone on to remember that Richmond had
flung back one of his stories.  The memory rankled.

"Going to rain."

"Not before five o'clock," said his grandfather.  "I know that
horizon almost as well as I know my own chin.  Both things that I
look at early in the morning."

Lance failed to respond.  He stood by the window, rather moodily
filling a pipe.

"What time shall we start?"

"Ten o'clock suit you?"


They went out by way of the Castle Field, and down the path through
the hanging beech wood to the river.  Lance appeared preoccupied;
but to the Venerable this air of preoccupation took the guise of a
veiled expectancy.  He was right.  Youth may be exacting, but had
he not helped to create an appetite for praise in this beloved
child?  Also youth is nothing when it is not egotistical.  Even its
valour is not that of the veteran.  It must advance, wave a flag,
hear a cry.  It loathes negation, retreat, stillness.  And there
had been a kind of deliberate candour between them.  Old Pybus's
white eyebrows seemed to hang heavy.

Said Lance, loitering on the bridge, and looking at the water where
it lay a brownish green under the beeches:

"Richmond threw one of my tales back at me.  Should like you to
look at it.--I can't see much wrong with it--myself."

"Did he say why?"

"Said I could do better, and he wanted the best."

They passed on over the crown of the high and narrow old bridge,
and met the first batch of Sunday cars fuming up the road from
Abbey Mill.

"Let's get out of this."

"I'm with you, my lad."

He glanced at that restive, impatient head.

"How old is Richmond?"

To Lance the question appeared irrelevant.

"Oh, quite oldish; forty-five--I suppose."

"Just old enough.  I read somewhere the other day that a man is a
hog until he reaches forty."

"Isn't that a rather crude generalization--grandpater?  I say--
confound these cars!"

The Venerable gave him one of those blue glances.

"All under forty--I should say--my dear.  Cars and men in the force
of their years, in a hurry to get there or to get something.  After
forty a man's latent period lengthens."

"What's that?"

"The little interval or pause between the stimulus and the
response.  A divine pause, selection, choice, restraint.  You don't
hog it; you give yourself and the other fellow a chance.  We get
off the main road here."

The Venerable's taking of the "Marions" lane may have had
premeditation, or it may not.  But on this blue, June day, with the
smell of rain in the west, and the green of the year still vivid,
he had a feeling of sensitive aliveness.  It was a vivid day.  He
saw the high woods, and the clouds, and his grandson's face, as a
man sees them when there is no haste behind his eyes, with a
tenderness and a deep delight.  Troubled he might be, but there is
a tang in trouble; it has a pungency.  Heavy midsummer is for the
material mood.  The plaintiveness of Spring, and the sharp, sweet
sadness of Autumn are for those who have wept inward tears.

Said the Venerable as they passed along by the hedge of "Marions":

"A blind man lives in there."

"Does he," said Lance absently.

He was both blind and deaf to all poignancies save his own, and yet
when the sudden sound of a piano being played came to them as they
passed the gate he could not but heed it, for it was music that had
to be heard.  It was Debussy's "L'aprs Midi"--and Lance loitered.

"Who's that playing?  Rather unexpected here."

"Young Merris.--You remember his sister?"


"You changed a wheel for her."

"Oh--that girl."

"Her brother is blind."

"He can play.  Was it the war?"

"No--a motor smash.  Rather hard on the girl.  She gave up her job
to look after him."

They moved along beside the hedge.  It was like a high green wall
shutting in those two young people, but if the Venerable's sympathy
could leap over the hedge, his grandson's could not.  Sympathy is
not youth's strong point; though it may have a facility for
discovering a grievance.  It did not occur to Lance to wonder what
the Merris girl's job had been; her present occupations were
breeding chickens and looking after a derelict brother.  A quite
reasonable occupation for a woman.  Lance did not say so.  It is
probable that he was too self-absorbed at the present to register
impressions as expressing other people's troubles.

"I want you to read that tale, grandpater."

"Richmond's rejected?"

"Peevish people, editors."

The Venerable's eyebrows seemed to bush out.

"Richmond may be right, you know.  I'll tell you if I agree with

"Of course--"

"Like those five chapters, my son.  They don't please me."

He was aware of the swift lift of Lance's head.


"There is a smell of cheap scent."

Lance was startled and compelled to take notice, not so much by the
blunt impact of his grandfather's words upon his young self-love as
by a something in old Pybus's voice.  Almost--the Venerable's voice
had sounded impatient and angry.

"Cheap scent?  I don't quite get you."

"If one is shut up in a fuggy room, Lance, one gets accustomed.
One doesn't notice the atmosphere."

"I say--grandpater, that's rather--severe."

"Sorry--my son; I can't help it.  If I were you I should put those
chapters aside, and read them at seven o'clock in the morning some
time next month."


Lance had been hurt, but he was not going to show that he had been
hurt, and he met the Woolshot beech woods with a face of
constrained cheerfulness.  He was quite sure that he was right, and
that Richmond and the Venerable were wrong.  It was a question of
three generations, and his grandfather might be a wonderful man,
but it was asking too much of him to expect him to understand
London in 1927.  Whereas Lance had a feeling that in those five
chapters he had reduced London 1927 to paper as no other fellow had
done it.

"You think it rather too vivid, grandpater."

Old Pybus had a set face.  It seemed that he was treading on those
five chapters as he had trodden upon Sarah the cat--but this was
deliberate, and he hated doing it.

"Whom the Lord loveth He chasteneth.  But I haven't that sort of
meddlesome mind that loves rubbing things in."

"But just how and where--do you quarrel with me?"

"That's the difficulty.  The work's damned clever, too damned
clever.  Supposing I say that you had set out to paint an
impression of Piccadilly, and that what you produced turned out to
be the Marylebone Road."

Lance's head went up.

"Good lord!"

After that he was silent for quite a long while, and in the silence
of the beech-woods old Pybus experienced a personal breathlessness.
It may be easier to quarrel with a young man's virility than to
quarrel with his work.  The Venerable had fired a shot at the
craftsman's self-esteem.  He was conscious of a moody and
disquieted face drifting beside him in the greenish light under the
great trees.  Youth can be so sympathetic to itself, yet down there
at "Marions" a girl was cleaning out chicken-houses, while little
tubes of colour remained untouched.

"You'll have to try and forgive me, my son."


There was a swift change.  Lance's right hand got hold of the
Venerable's left arm.  His mouth winced.

"You--of course.--I'm a cub."

Old Pybus's right hand came across and pressed his grandson's

"No--that's great of you, my dear.  No humbug, no humbug."


Returning by the same way, after going as far as King's Standing,
they sat down on a dry bank under the Woolshot park fence.  Castle
Craven looked at them across the valley.  The blueness of the
landscape was changing to grey, and the occasional stirring of the
tops of the beech trees gave to the day those rustlings of sadness
and unrest that come with the west wind and its rain.  The mood of
the weather was very English, and so, too, was the figure moving
about the chicken runs in the meadow between the beech wood and the
"Marions" orchard.

The Venerable had his eyes and his thoughts on Mary Merris.  He saw
her in her tawny-coloured jumper and rust-coloured skirt moving in
and about the little brown houses, and he had a feeling that she
was affected by a blurred sky, and wet windows, and English sludge,
and that if she accepted those grey days and their sadness she
accepted them because life was sad.  They blended.  The Venerable
accepted them because age sits down in its chair to confront the
inevitable.  But youth--?

He glanced at his grandson.  "What of the pastoral age?"

Lance smiled, emerged from his meditation to reply, and relapsed
into meditation.

"Arcady is dead--grandpater."

The Arcady of the moment was the music of Debussy.  Lance had seen
the Russian dancers, the faun and the nymphs, translate that music
into a movement that was queer and archaic, and yet supremely
modern.  If he happened to be aware of Mary Merris in her tawny and
russet, she was no part of the picture.  She would have seemed too
prosaic, too practical, too cumbered with her affairs.  She
belonged to the stodginess of England--not to Arcady.  Something
more artificial and Sohoish was needed, a pair of febrile legs, and
a young woman who knew not mud, performing a pseudo-classic dance
in a frock of vine leaves.  Lance, like the rest of his generation,
had no eyes for Barbizon, and turnip fields, and cloddy peasants
leaning upon rakes in the centre of flat, melancholy spaces.  His
estimate of beauty had changed, but no estimate is permanent,
especially at four and twenty.

"Ever indulge in whimsies--grandpater?"

"How and when?"

"An idea--a vast glass roof over England, and orange trees growing
instead of turnips."

"Try it--my dear.  You would want to blow the roof off in six
months.  England gives us contrasts."

He pulled at his old silver watch.

"Time to trudge."

As they passed along the "Marions" hedge they heard a man's voice
plaintive and aggrieved.

"Mary--I've lost my pipe."

The Venerable's bushy eyebrows twitched expressively.

"The pain of losing is the joy of finding."

Said Lance--"That practical young woman ought to tie it round his


Lance walked from Paddington station, carrying his brown leather
suit-case, glad of London because he himself was London, and
especially so on this summer evening when even the smoky foliage of
Parham Crescent was sensuously sufficient.  He had a window looking
down upon this world of splashed legs and artificial silk, and on
all the hurry and vast impatience, the huge, anonymous, greedy,
thundering streets.  As an artist he would not have had it altered.
He saw it as the eternal scramble between the Haves and the Have-
Nots, inevitable and ironical, hiding itself behind pomps and
ceremonies and religions and associations of this and that.  Even
the modern "Red" had his uses; he was something to be scorned and
roasted.  Moreover, there is a pungency in unlikeness; ugliness can
be exquisite.  The pimply face shows up the face with the glowing
skin.  Supposing faces were all the same, like the faces of
millions of identical children scrubbed and polished for some smug
civic occasion?

Lance had the ruthlessness of the young observer, but unlike most
youths he had no wish to tear the clothes off civilization.  He
liked the contrasts as they were, the clean old boys in Pall Mall,
and the sweating fellow--complacently unclean--whom you edged away
from in the "Tube."  No doubt the whole business was a huge and
ironical mess, but it was an interesting mess.  Like a child beside
a dubious pond, he rather delighted in stirring it up with a stick.

Moreover, if he had a window overlooking the show, he also looked
up at a particular window, for at half-past six on a Monday evening
beauty should have ceased to pander to the beast.

The lower sash of her window was up.  He had said to her before
going away--"See you on Monday.  Make it my evening."  He let
himself into No. 17, and met Mrs. Carver carrying up the "first-
floors'" dinner-tea, a chop, fried tomatoes, two wedges of jam
sandwich--shop produced--and the teapot and its accessories.

"Evening, Mrs. Carver.  Anybody called?"

She blinked at him.  The china jiggled on the tray.  She was never
anything else but agitated.

"Oh, my pore nerves!  A young lady left a note for you.  Will you
be ready for your dinner at seven, sir?"

"I shall."

He hurried upstairs to find the note lying on his desk.  He opened
it and read--

"BOY--So sorry.  Puss has got to be good and sociable to-night.
The dibs.  Dancing with old elephas--another elephas.  Dance and
dine for fifteen and six.  Fizz-bang!  Put on paper caps.  What
fools they do look in caps!  Jumbo wearing a pink paper crown!

"Oh, my poor toes!  But I'll be all aboard with Boy on Tuesday.
Let's be Hyde Parkers.

                                             "Thine, OLIVE."

He felt baulked and angry, and he looked it.  Of course she had to
go out with these old fools who paid her to dance with them at
"Clubs" and night-shows.  But what right had some bald-headed
idiot, whose business should be domesticity at Surbiton or Woking,
to get in youth's way?  It was youth's way and its right of way.
He stuffed the letter into his pocket.

And at midnight, with his back to the garden railings, he
confronted a full moon which was contriving to shine on him between
smoky clouds.  If it was raining at Castle Craven it was not yet
raining in London, though rain did not matter in London as it did
in the country.  He was the tempestuous lover.  He waited there,
not so much for a woman as for a mouth.  He was in the savage
stage.  He craved without the sacred compassion or the playfulness
of an older and happier tendresse.

He waited till a quarter to one, with the iron bars digging into
his back.  A passing police constable crossed the road and
investigated his crucified stillness.

"What's your game, young fellah?"

Said Lance--"I'm not a young fellah.  I'm a gentleman.  Will that
do for you?"

It did.

At one o'clock he heard a taxi pull up at the end of the Crescent.
He heard the bang of a door and the tapping of her shoes.  He went
to meet her.  He saw her as a slim, sleek, sinuous streak of
blackness below the whiteness of her floating face.  Her very
movements were exotic, jaunty, feverish.  Country wenches did not
move like that.


"I had to wait--I--"

He felt both the silk of her cloak and the satin of her face.


At the top of the stairs Mrs. Gasson appeared in her night-dress,
large and white and properly solicitous.

"All right--dearie?"


"You do look a peach"--and Mrs. Gasson's very sophisticated blue
eyes touched her with a gloating and envious approval--"Pity it was
an old one.  But, then,--the old fools have the money."

Olive showed her teeth.

"But I've said goodnight to a young one."

Mrs. Gasson chuckled.

"That's better, dearie; that's something to go to bed on."



Lying in the hammock, slung between two old apple trees in a far
corner of the orchard, and looking up at the burrs of sunlight
shining through the foliage, Mary Merris would sometimes wonder at
life and at herself.  She would take a book with her to the
hammock, but there were days when the book would fail to hold her,
either because life was too unavoidable, or the book itself too
empty of life.

She insisted upon this hour in the hammock after lunch each day,
and even when it was raining she would put on a mackintosh, and
taking an old ground-sheet with her, snuggle up under the dripping
leaves.  It was her one hour of relaxation, of escape from the
interminable trifles of the day's routine.  It meant solitude, an
hour's relief from the pressure of that other personality, the one
hour when she was soft to herself and hard to her brother.  At
first he had refused to understand or to respect this withdrawal of
hers into that green corner.  He had complained that deliberately
she had eluded him, which was true.

For, with a little secret, guilty exultation she had realized that
he could not find his way to her among those orchard trees.

"I must have my one hour, Gil."

Twice he had come blundering and groping into the orchard, calling
to her like a peevish child.


She had raged, but in silence.  She had remained perfectly still,
and allowed him to exhaust his persuasive egotism.  For in this
hour she refused to pity him; she was hard for one hour; she knew
that she had to be hard.  She owed it to herself, to the sweetening
of her sanity, to the very patience of her pity.  She had given up
so much to him, and he would have taken that one hour from her had
she suffered him to do it.

He was such a child.

Lying there in an hour of sunlight after rain, she wondered at
herself.  Why did one do the things one did?  She had no religion
as her forbears had understood it; only urges, impulses,
prejudices, restraints which seemed part of her individual make up.
That her pity went out to this blind and exacting creature as it
did was a source of wonder to her.  It was as natural and
effortless as the gushing of water.  And yet--all the while--her
individual intimate self somehow stood apart; calm, austere, with
set face, conscious of the emotional moments and sometimes angry
with them.  She--Mary the artist--could be furiously impatient--
while Mary the mother spoke gently and felt gently.  She knew that
he played upon this gentleness.  He had a kind of innocent,
childish cunning.  Why did one do these things?  Was it due to some
age-old instinct, a habit of soul that woman--a woman such as she
was--could not eradicate?  Also--she had a feeling that these
things had to be done.  Compassion flows.  All the things that she
had loved to do she had ceased to do.  Her hands gave themselves to
pots and pans, and garden tools, and sheets and blankets, and
fluffy yellow chicks, and eggs, and whitewash brushes.  She loathed
the details, while kneeling before the inspiration.

So long as she could say--"It is worth while."

She had a book with her that day, but she was not reading it.  She
lay and looked at the leaves and at the background of blueness
beyond.  The grass of the orchard stood high about the tree trunks,
and it was full of red sorrel and white daisies, and when the wind
stirred it all those silver and purple panicles and plumes made
obeisance.  The track which her feet had trodden wound down from
the hammock to the lower gate of the orchard.

She lay in the hammock, but unrelaxed.  She took with her now into
this green retreat a secret fear, a doubting of the whole business,
for she had begun to doubt whether her devotion was worth while.
In the early days she had said to herself--"My poor paints and
brushes will be put away, but he will have his music;" and he had
had his music, but it had not satisfied him.  She had moments of
panic when she wondered whether anything would satisfy him, and
whether she might go on stripping herself of everything that was
hers in a hopeless effort to keep him even passably happy and

"Poor, blind, restless, temperamental child."

But if only he would refrain from being mean!  She could forgive
him a querulous unrest, the turning of the wheel in the cage of his
blindness; but this other thing, this kind of human dry-rot.

She had begun to suspect and to watch, and to hate her suspicions
and her watchings, feeling her sacrifice being cheapened, debased,
and twisted into a caricature of itself.  She was the suspicious
nurse observing the tricks of a perverted child.

Oh, and there was more than that--and in that green corner of the
orchard she would feel herself cowering under the foliage, alert,
listening, unable to lose herself in nature or in a book.  She
asked in that hour of solitude for impersonal things, and life had
become a face obtruding itself with a gluttonous gallantry through
the foliage.

Half-past two!  The clock of Castle Craven's tower sent down the
message from the hill.  She swung her legs out of the hammock, but
remained there for a minute, swaying gently to and fro like a girl
in a swing.  How long was it since she had been a girl, or had felt
like a girl?

But she had work to do.  The little wench who came in daily from a
cottage on the Castle Craven road to scrub and wash and polish had
arrived that morning wearing a pair of black silk stockings, and
Mary had set her to scrub the kitchen floor.

"Can't I do it to-morrow, Miss?"

"Because of the stockings, Nelly?--If you are such a little idiot
as to come to work in such things.--Go back and change them."

So Nelly would be in one of her sulky moods when she smeared
everything, and advertised a maddening and wilful incapacity,
because Rudolph Valentino was to be seen at the Castle Craven
picture-house that evening, and Nellie's urge towards romance and
sheikishness was symbolized by silk stockings.  Mary got out of the
hammock, and took the trodden path through the long grass, but half-
way through the orchard she paused.  She seemed to stand like Lot's

"Hallo, young fellah my lad--what about it?"

"Bob--old man!  Come in."

"I will."

"There's a deck-chair somewhere.  Can't find it for you.  Mary's
having her siesta."

"Lazy young woman.  Where?"

"Oh, in the orchard.  She's got a hammock."

"I'll go and wake her."

"Shouldn't, old man.  She's a bit touchy about it.  Where's that
girl?  Nelly--Nelly, we want another chair."

Nelly had ears for a man's voice.

"Yes, Mr. Gilbert.--I'll bring it out."

Mary, standing wide-eyed under the orchard trees, fled suddenly
through the long grass to the rough hedge separating the orchard
from the garden.  An old and unkempt elder tree straggled here, and
she pressed in and under the screen of branches.  She saw
Hargreaves come into the orchard and stand looking about him.  He
made her think of a dog sniffing the air.  He followed the trampled
path to the hammock and, finding it empty, came back towards the
garden gate.  He did not see her.  He disappeared.

"Bird's flown, young fellah."

"Oh don't bother about Mary; she's always got some job or other.
Nelly has brought out a chair."

"Try one of these?"

"What is it?"

"Cheroot.  Smell.  It's good."

"Thanks, old man.  I say--you know, it's fine to hear your voice.
One get's so sick of women's voices."

Mary had emerged from the droop of the elder branches.  Her face
looked pinched.  Something seemed to stifle in her, an angry
anguish, a passionate resentment.  Was nothing sacred to man?  Had
she no sure corner of her own that was not to be betrayed or
violated?  This shameful blindness of eyes and soul.

She fled along the hedge to the far corner.  There was a gate here
giving into the meadow, and she went through it, and up between the
wire runs.  Her face seemed to wince.  Oh, those two men, the blind
and exacting child, and that great tawny creature who seemed to
sniff at you like a complacent, confident mastiff.  They had her
alone here between them.  To them she was not a fastidious, self-
created, individual woman, but a thing in petticoats, a pair of
hands, a pair of legs.  She was full of a frozen and inarticulate
disgust.  She carried her fastidious shrinking self away with her
like a woman running away with a child at the breast.

She went up and into the Woolshot beech woods, into their solitude,
which was also the solitude of her sacrificial self.


The Venerable, having watered a bed of lobelia, rose petunias and
purple asters, and taken a look at the sunset which was trailing
like a double banner from the tower of Castle Craven church,
entered in and shut the door upon the world.  He had had a heavy
day, and he was tired after humping things up and humping things
down, with the strong lad away on a week's holiday, and Mr. Pounds
fussing politely and unpolitely--here--there--and everywhere.

Old Pybus was about to pull down the blind, but seeing a crimson
streak turning to smoky pink under an arch of jade-green and
primrose, he left the blind up and stood watching the sky.  It
occurred to him to wonder whether London was enjoying such a sky?
But did anyone in London ever look at the sky?  Also, how was it
that he knew that Lance's trouble was "woman"?--for know it he did.

Though not a word had been spoken, and that was the queer part of
it, that he should somehow have sensed that other presence in
Lance's life like a hot wind ruffling the surface of his grandson's
self-consciousness.  They had been just a little shy of each other,
but the shyness had not been due to the Venerable's literary
condemnations, or to anything that had been said, or that had not
been said.  It was as though John Pybus had been looking at his
grandson through a little cloud of steam, and so had seen the
familiar face and figure dimmed and slightly distorted.

The sky grew grey, and old Pybus pulled down the blind.  His own
marriage had been so unromantic an affair that he might have been
expected to have had views upon the interplay of the sexes, but he
was not a man of views.  When the light died out of the sky you
pulled down the blind.  You had to pull down the blind upon most
problems.  Views were no more than squinting through a hole in a
fence.  You observed human and earthly happenings for three score
years and ten, and at the end of that time you knew everything and
you knew nothing, which is to know everything.  You returned--
somewhat--to the mysticism of the child.  And in knowing the things
that you felt you knew--you yet did not know how you knew them.

John Pybus lit his lamp.  He got out the little black account-book
in which his financial position was recorded.  He glanced through
the figures, seventy-three pounds--five shillings and twopence in
his current account, fifty pounds on deposit, six hundred and sixty
pounds invested in New Zealand and Canadian Government stock.  Not
that he had any need to refresh his memory, but there are occasions
when the contemplation of figures is pleasant and soothing.  Those
written symbols did not tail off into fractions, but spread into

But--woman!  What sort of woman!  Which of Adam's wives?  And was
it an adventure, or was it the great occasion when Nature drapes
the beloved with that mystic veil?

The Venerable slapped to his book.

"Much too young.  He can't afford it--unless--.  Besides--if it
were--mysticism--I think he would have told me.  Yes--I think he
would have told me.  I suppose it is the other sort of savagery--
damn it."

There came a knocking at the door, and the Venerable, supposing
that he was wanted for something at the hotel, went resentfully to
open it.  He was tired and bothered, and, at half-past nine at
night excursions and alarums are an impertinence.  He opened the
door, and against the black panel of the night he saw a woman's

"Miss Merris--"

Her voice seemed to come to him like a whisper.

"Mr. Pybus--may I come in--a moment?"

He held the door open, and she stepped in.  Her face had a strange,
still look, the eyes very wide, the nostrils faintly quivering.  He
got the impression that she had been running, and that she had come
to his door breathless, and that she was smothering the tumult of
her heart beats.  She was a woman who would resent panic, disorder,
fear, and try to conceal them.

He pushed a chair forward.

"Sit down."

"May I?"

She was carrying a wooden egg-box.  She placed it on his table, and
he noticed that her movements had a kind of rigidity.  She managed
to smile.

"I was short of eggs this morning.--I promised to make up the
number, but some things--hens--won't be hurried."

He had closed the door.  He was very careful not to look at her too
closely, for he seemed to know that the soul of her was raw and
asked to be shielded.  He went and unfastened the clasp of the box,
raised the lid, looked in, and reclosed the box.  Three of the eggs
in the upper tray were broken.

"Supposing--I take these up?"

"Will you?"

He allowed himself a glance at her white, set face.

"It's a longish way to come--at this hour.  You stay there.  I make
myself a cup of tea--sometimes.  You'll have one?"

"I--think I will."

It seemed to him that her air of breathlessness was eased.  He
nodded his big white head at her, and picking up the box, went out
into the broad passage.  It was dark here with the darkness of a
summer night, and screened from the Saracen windows by out-jutting
roofs and buildings.  He closed the door, and stood a moment to
listen.  He had a feeling that someone was there against the wall,
and deliberately he walked close to it, nor had he taken four steps
when he was aware of a vague shape sheering off into the darkness
towards the gate of the Castle Field.  The Venerable trembled like
a dog; his hair was bristling.

"Get out--you swine."

There was no reply to those soft, swift words.  He stood, staring
into the darkness, gripping the handle of that box with its broken
eggs.  He went quickly up the passage and across the yard and,
leaving the box inside the kitchen door, hurried back to the

But he showed no haste when he closed the door.  She was still
sitting there, but she had taken off her hat, and her eyes had a
narrowed softness.  She made him think of a woman glad to sit still
after the passing of a spasm of pain.  He smiled at her.

"Contract kept--all right.--You and I--feel the same about that
sort of thing."

Her eyelids seemed to flicker under his smile.

"How kind--of you.  I--"

"What's that--my dear!  Kind--and at seventy odd!  That's the only
success worth having at my age.  Now then, what about that tea?"

She offered to help him make the tea, but old Pybus would not hear
of it; she was to sit there or to look at his books, and when he
came back from lighting the oil stove and putting the kettle on it,
she was standing by his book-case.  Hitherto their intimacy had not
extended beyond the little friendlinesses of the Saracen yard, but
on this summer evening when she had fled to him like some big-eyed,
panting thing, he thought of her as Mary, and not as Miss Mary
Merris.  He joined her in front of the book-case.  He took out a

"Read that?"

She took it from him, and looking at her clear, strong profile he
was made to realize that it would not be easy to make her afraid.
Obviously, she had very good reasons for her breathlessness, and,
old man though he was, he felt a generous rage in him.  That sort
of swinishness!  Almost one forgot that life produced such

"No.  What a queer title."

"Shepherd's Bane.  Take it back with you.  You'll like it."

She turned the pages.  He was giving her time to get her breath,
and she wondered if he knew just how grateful she was to him for
his gentle and prosaic quietism.  A little, old hotel porter!  Yes;
but he was more than that, unquestionably much more than that.

"It's about the country?"

"Yes.  You'll understand.  Some books don't make one feel worse--
about life.  I ask for a philosophy or some sort of mystical act of
living.--When a book gives me that--"

She let him see her eyes.

"I buy it--if I can afford it.  You see--I used to make my living
by selling books, and now--I buy--well--perhaps about six a year.
I had better go and look at that kettle."

When he returned with the teapot, milk, sugar, and two cups, she
was sitting in his chair with the book lying in her lap.  A kind of
instant smile came into her eyes directly he entered the room, as
though he was one of those rare and mystical persons to whom she
could hold up a mirror.  She did not think of it in that way; she
was not thinking at all.  She may not have known that her face
opened itself to him as it did, or that this old fellow with a tea-
tray felt to her as she looked.

"Disgraceful habit--tea drinking.  Is it milk and sugar for you?"


She noticed how clean the hand was which held the sugar-tongs.  So--
he had been a bookseller.

She said--"Do you ever walk as far as our cottage?"

"Often.--Every other Sunday, perhaps.  From the high beech woods
over your way Castle Craven looks like an old wood-cut."

"Just.  An illustration for Albrecht Drer.  Next time--won't you
have tea with us?"

He made her a little bow.

"With very great pleasure."

She drank her tea, and he foraged out a tin of biscuits--Bath
Olivers--a luxury he kept for Lance, and she took one and broke it
almost as though she were breaking a sacramental wafer.  His white
head shining in the lamplight surprised her sense of the beauty and
the dignity of things.  She felt soothed and reassured in this
little room of his.  She thought and was sure that she had never
met anyone quite like him.  He was unique.

She finished her tea.  He had finished his before her, and she saw
him go to the door and open it, and stand looking up and out.

"Stars shining now.--Lovely night.--When you are ready I'll get my

She put her cup down on the table.

"Oh, please--you mustn't."

"I often go for a walk before turning in.  I'm going for one now.
The honeysuckle will be smelling in the hedges."

"It's nearly two miles," she said.

"I can take the short way home.  Know every inch of it.  Supposing
we go by the town?"

He took his hat from a peg behind the door, and turned to find her
standing and looking at him with full wide eyes.

"I had better turn the lamp out, and leave a candle here.  I'm a
man of method.  Now--my dear."

Her lips quivered.  How droll to be called "my dear" by him, and
yet how right and natural!  She moved to the door so that he could
turn out the light.

"I've got the book," she said.

"That's right.  Come in here and choose one any time you want to."
She was out under the stars, and the Venerable was locking the


In the darkness she felt herself nearer to him.  In the empty High
Street he took the outside of the narrow pavement, and though he
was an old man, and two inches shorter than she was, he gave her
the impression of being as big and solid as the tower of the
church.  But "solid" was not the inspired word.  She was thinking
of his clean old hands, and those very blue eyes, and his air of
infinite and wise kindness.  She had that exquisite sense of being
understood, of being able to lay her hand in his, and that anything
that she wished to say could be said.

"How empty!" she said as they descended the steep darkness of the
old street.

"It's the town's hour.--I always have a feeling that the churches
and the houses and the inns stroll about and talk to each other
when people have gone to bed."

"What a fancy!  You see things like that?"


"So do I."

At the end of Bridge Street she paused on the crown of the bridge
and looked over and down at the water.  The river was very still on
this summer night, with the stars blinking in it, and the piers of
the bridge and the passing water making a soft, wet whispering.

She said--"Mr. Pybus, have you ever thought what it means to be

He--too--was looking at the water.

"Have I?  Yes.  But can one think oneself--into that?  Like living
in a black tunnel that roars and whispers.  Every sound

She was very still.

"Oh--a kind of purgatory, in which you blunder against things."

"And people."

"Yes, and people."

"And hurt them."

She made a little sound as of drawing in her breath.

"And hurt them!  How do you understand that?"

"I don't quite know, but I do.  Also, my dear, living with a soul
that is blind."

"Soul or eyes?"

"Both.  There's a likeness, isn't there?  Both sorts of blindness
blunder against you and hurt."

"I wonder how you know these things?"

"I have lived a long time.  Besides--how does one know things?  How
is it one can feel quite sure about something you've never seen?"

"And that something?"

"What we used to call--God."

Her stillness was like a silent reaching out to the realities that
are divined but not seen.

"Tell me."

He had taken off his hat.

"Why does one do things and go on doing them--things against
oneself.  I mean--what are supposed to be unselfish things.  Is
there unselfishness?  Say there's a splinter, and you push your
finger against it, knowing that it will hurt.  And you go on doing
this--not because you want to--but because there seems to be
something in you--"

"They used to say it was God in you."

"Yes--yes; but now--in these days--when people are decently selfish
and selfishly decent--some of them."

"Most of them.  Fact is--we are looking round for a new word, a
nice, scientific, high-brow word to paste over the obsolete divine.
Why does anything happen?"

"I don't know."

"Does anybody know?"

"We know a great deal."

"Know!  We observe.  We see and feel things happening.  When a tree
falls you explain it.  When the milk boils over--you explain it.
You allow for these things.  But when you feel some beautiful
mystical urge towards beauty of thought or behaviour--when you feel
lifted up--immediately you say:  'This can't be so.  It doesn't
happen.  It's self-suggestion--or something.  Let's look in the
psychology book.'  But--it does happen.  It's a reality.  It's the
one reality that's worth while.  But we are all shy and self-
conscious these days in the presence of the thing we used to call
our soul.  We are afraid of the people in spectacles, of the horn-
eyed highbrows.  Talking of walking with God, well--I've walked
with Him.  I don't know how or why--but I have."

She said:

"Perhaps you have walked with yourself.  I'm glad you have talked
like this."


He went with her as far as the white gate in the "Marions" hedge,
and there she gave him her hand.  The stillness of the summer night
had descended upon her; she felt soothed and reassured.

"Thank you--ever so much.  I'm afraid you will be very tired."

He held her hand.

"I was tired--when you came, but not now.  Whenever you are in
Castle Craven--and feel that you want to rest or to get away from
the world--"

She seemed to be thinking; her glance was upward.

"If I brought my brother, would you--would you talk to him--?  I
mean--I could bring him in the car with me, and leave him in it.
You might have time.  He's so shut up inside himself."

"Yes, bring him."

"That's good of you, Mr. Pybus.  Good night."

"Good night, my dear."

She went up the path to the cottage, and he saw a slip of light as
the door opened.  Also, he heard a voice.

"That you, Mary?"


"What a time you've been.  Where's Bob?"

Then the door closed, leaving the Venerable standing by the white
gate, and thinking how strange it was that neither of them should
have spoken of the thing that had brought her to his door.  But he
knew, and he was sure that she knew that he knew, and that she had
been grateful to him.  Hers was a fine and a fastidious reticence.

"Yes," thought the Venerable, "some of us don't want to talk about
such things when they happen to us, not like the Maria woman in
'Mrs. Cheyney.'  I wonder how much of the world is Maria and how
much is not?  Of course, it's the fashion to regard all women as
Marias--more or less.  But I wonder--"

He walked home.



Said Mrs. Gasson of No. 17 when she heard of the river expedition:
"Well, if the young things haven't some cheek these days!"  And
going on to argue the case, with a loaf of bread against her
immense bosom, so that it resembled the head of some monstrous
infant taking sustenance:  "No morals.  Not as I'm criticizing.
They do just what they want to do.  Course, people always did that--
in a sense, but more sneaky like."

For Lance Pybus's world had much to say of him during those six
months, and undoubtedly he deserved it.  He had arrived suddenly at
one of those periods of youthful inflation when everything youthful
in him was emphasized and exaggerated--his trousers, his ties, his
cigarette-holder, his adjectives, his appreciation of woman as

John Richmond, having read two more of Lance's short stories, and
laid one of them aside for rejection, reminded himself that he had
responsibilities, and asked Lance to lunch.  They met at the
"Reform," Lance wearing a hat very broad in the brim, and a floppy
tie.  Richmond, dressed much as everybody dresses at the "Reform,"
noted these exuberances.

Swelled head!

They went into lunch.  Richmond had reserved a little table for two
at the end of the dining-room, and while he was scribbling down the
dishes on the yellow slip, Lance observed his neighbours.  He did
not look at the plane trees in the Carlton Terrace gardens; six
months ago they would have been very noticeable to his eyes.

"Well, that's that.  What will you drink?  Draught ale, or some
white wine?"

"I think--white wine."

His inflation was not literary but amatory, yet how was Richmond to
know that?  Having settled the wine, he fired at Lance point blank
across the table.

"Say, my lad, those tales of yours are damned clever; also--they
are damned cheap."

Lance's eyes seemed to widen.  He accepted bread from the bread-
basket proffered by the waiter.

"Is that so?  I'm sorry.  You've got a really--exquisite crowd
here, Richmond.  They may be very eminent men, but--my Harry--their

Richmond's curt eyes gleamed.

"Quits," he said.  "All square.  I suppose you thought I was rude
to you."

"Not a bit.  Those tales may be a little fresh."

The soup arrived, and with his eyes on his plate, Richmond went

"Two points of view, Pybus.  Mine--at forty-five, yours at four and
twenty.  You may be a brilliant young beggar.  My feeling is--
you've lost your sense of landscape.  I asked you here to tell you
so.  It's an opinion; that's all."

Lance smiled at him.

"Thanks, sir.  I'm sorry.  I don't think I'm a landscape man--any
longer.  I can't help it."

Richmond looked up at him over his soup spoon.

"Tell me, lad, haven't you young things any reverence?"

Lance appeared to reflect.

"I suppose--that has always seemed so.  There are things.  But
don't you remember, sir, being full of red blood?"

"Red bunkum!  Oh, I know the phase.  I had it, and I came to the
conclusion that it was a pity.  Take Conrad.  As a writer--he
escaped that phase--perhaps, because he picked up the pen rather
late.  There's reverence in Conrad.  There must be--"

"Quite.  But one sees--what one has to see."

"Your little totties, and your fat stockbrokers, and your people
with squashed faces!  Oh, come now!  A year ago--you were seeing
quite different things.  I want you to see those things again.  I'm
not a city father."

There was a slight flush on Lance's face.  He swallowed a rather
large piece of bread.

"Yes, those other things.  I know.  You're quite right, and I'm
quite right.  All the same, it's awfully decent of you to take the
trouble.  Oh, yes--I mean it."

After that there was peace, or rather--a truce between them, and
over coffee and cigars in the smoking-room, Richmond extended a
big, inward hand.

"Finished the novel--yet?"

"Another ten chapters or so."

"Don't forget--the end of September.  If it's what I have every
right to hope it.--Spring publication."

Lance's eyes lit up.

"It's awfully decent of you, sir."

Meanwhile, at Windover, Dolly Pybus was worrying her husband.
Hadn't he observed that Lance was "funny?"  Had he appreciated the
fact that their son had not been to Windover for quite six weeks?--
while she happened to know that Lance had been absent from Parham
Crescent for three week-ends.  And where did he spend those week-
ends?  As for Parham Crescent, didn't Probyn know his way about the
world--and if Parham Crescent wasn't full of little totties--?

Probyn squinted.

"Same for everybody--no use in fussing a lad like Lance.  Better
leave him alone."

"Why--only six months ago--!  You never did know your own mind,
Byn, for three months together."

"Adaptation, my dear."

"And what about his allowance?"

"Well, what about it?"

"You're not going to cut it?"


"That's mean."

"He can come to me if he wants to.  I told him so.  I'm not so sure
I don't respect the lad all the more for wanting his own way."

"I never knew any man so inconsistent.  You started off with the

"I did.  Adaptation, Dolly.  I haven't more than half a foot left
in the business.  I took a man's tip.  He said to me:  'Pybus,
don't you put a penny into any concern that's dependent on British
labour.  The British working-man's an awkward beast, and he's going
to stay awkward for years.'  I came to the conclusion that that man
was right."

"After the last strike?"


"Who was the man?"

"An American."

"Don't they have strikes in America?"

"Plenty.  But they work in between.  Half my money's over the other
side of the water, old girl."

"So you've changed your mind about Lance and the business?"

"That's about it."

"Surely you're not going to back him up in his scribbling."

Probyn twiddled a waistcoat button.

"If he shows he has the guts for it."

"Don't be so vulgar."

"Sorry, old girl.  But if the lad's got it in him to make a name--
like some of these other fellows--Bennett--and that Galsworthy chap--
and the fellow who writes plays--what's his name--Noel Coward--why
not?  That chap Richmond's taken him up.  He's got a big pull.  If
Lance makes a hit over here, and spills over into America, I'd like
to see him get some of those dollars."

His wife breathed heavily.

"Well, you men are funny!  Why don't you let the allowance go on?"

Said Probyn:

"I'm not quite a fool, Doll.  Most men have to be driven.  I guess
Lance is one of the other sort.  Got his own engine inside him."


It so happened that the Berkshire Pybus was visiting the
Buckinghamshire Pybus on the very Saturday when Lance and Olive
allowed themselves the adventure upon the river that shocked Mrs.
Gasson to admiration.  In tact Conrad drove his car over Marlow
bridge five minutes after the adventurous punt had passed beneath
it, equipped with green canvas cover, cooking-stove, camp bedding,
and a hamper.  Parham Crescent had gone on the river for the week-
end.  Lance had arranged for the punt and the outfit with a boat-
house keeper who supplied camping equipment.  At the boat-house
Olive Gadsden, addressed as "M'am," had rippled over with mischief.

"Don't put the hamper there, dear.  Aren't husbands terrors?"

That they were quite irresponsible goes without saying; yet had
Conrad Pybus been able to look down into that punt as it glided
under Marlow bridge he would not, with his usual facility, have
thought of his nephew as "That damned young fool."  Mr. Conrad
would have been considerably piqued and annoyed.  There are varying
hierarchies of fools, and follies of graded dimensions.  Always
Conrad had been cautious; he was no buccaneer, and no Jason; nor--
on that July day--did Lance remember the mythical Argo and the
black billows of the Euxine.

It was the climax of Lance's obsession.  The gliding water, the
Bisham beech woods, heavily green in the July heat, the willows,
that fervent blue sky, were but tapestries hung upon the walls of
his consciousness.  To begin with they reclined at opposite ends of
the punt, with their gear piled between them, lazily paddling.  The
mood of the day was youth's--"I will," a challenge to all the
pedagogic, "Thou shalt nots."

Said she--sleek as a cat on her orange and blue cushions:

"How are you liking it--boy?"

With the paddle laid across the punt he looked at her and continued
to look.

"The Golden Apples of the Hesperides!  The sun on your skin is
wonderful--a kind of glow--"

She made a little grimace.

"What about a sunshade?  But I don't freckle or scorch."

They made tea under the flickering shade of a big poplar.  The
Primus stove showed itself possessed of a sense of humour, and in
persuading it to burn, their hands touched.  Her short dark hair,
crisp and scented, brushed his forehead.  He kissed one of her


"Dear old thing."

She ran the tip of a first finger down his cheek.

"You've got a skin like a girl's."

"I haven't.  Try my chin."

"Lordy--you'll have to shave to-morrow morning.  Won't it be funny?
Can you manage with Thames water?"

He rubbed his cheek against her hair.

"Hot water--all right.  The place I know of where we can lay to for
the night--fits you out with eggs and hot water.  All the
advantages of civilization."

"What's it like?"

"An ex-officer man and his wife run a bungalow and a garden.  Give
teas and lunches.  There is a little backwater where they let you
tie up."

"Won't there be a crowd?"

"Plenty of room.  I've arranged--"

"And can I go in and powder my nose?"

"Once an hour--if you want to."

It was as he said.  That accommodating rest-house stood on a little
island separated from the mainland by a narrow backwater that was
like a green and silent tunnel.  You could land; you could take a
walk across the fields to a village and buy cigarettes and picture
postcards.  The day was full of good fortune, but bad for trade.
Lance pushed the punt in the backwater under an alder tree.  He
went ashore and had a few friendly words with the ex-officer man,
who was a little depressed over the solitude of the surroundings.
Lance was not.

"We can rig you out with a little dinner in the garden.  Quite
simple--you know--but Chinese lanterns.  I suppose you've brought
your own cellar?"

"Splendid," said Lance.

"If your lady wants anything, my wife--"

"I'll go and tell her."

Later, three more punts arrived, but they contained people of
discretion who showed a nice delicacy in mooring themselves at a
considerable distance from their fellows, and the only offence was
that one of them carried a young man who played very badly upon the
ukulele.  There was to be a moon.  Lance, preparing to spread the
green canvas cover, told Olive that he had arranged specially for
that moon; also, that they were to dine by the light of Chinese

"Boy," said she--busy with a suit-case, "did you think to bring any

He had forgotten the candles.

"A man would."

"Well--make allowances.  Our great grandfathers--who were poetical
jossers, would have sworn that beauty's eyes would be sufficient."

"Thanks so much.  What candle-power are my eyes?  Also, what are we
to do?"

"I'll buy a candle.  The ex-warrior up above is sure to stock them.
Or we'll borrow a Chinese lantern.  Give me a hand, my love, with
this contraption, will you.  Did you ever read 'Three Men in a

"No.  Never heard of it, darling.  How very dull!  It must have
been written years and years ago."

"It was.  But it had a dog in it."

"And no petticoat?"

"Not one--if I remember."

"Or they didn't mention it.  That's much more likely."

They dined in the garden of the bungalow under what appeared to be
a very young and precocious apple tree which had gone all to leg,
with two Chinese lanterns dangling up above in a haze of green
gloom.  There was a table-cloth, but they had to drink the red wine
which Lance had brought with him, out of sixpenny tumblers.  As the
ex-officer had prophesied, the dinner was simple: the savoury being
sardines on toast, and the sweet, tinned apricots with dabs of
cream.  But they finished the bottle of wine between them, and
laughed, and looked at each other consentingly, and became aware of
the moon unfurling a silver ribbon across the blackness of the

Coffee was provided.  They lit cigarettes from the same match.

A white footbridge spanned the backwater, and they took their
cigarettes with them, and wandered along a field path, with the
moon looking impertinently over the hedge-top.  They had achieved
the unusual; they had escaped from the crowd, from the splurge of

Said Lance:

"Has it occurred to you that this is about the first occasion on
which we have managed to be alone?"

"Seems so.  What's your arm doing?"

"But isn't it a tragedy!  Ever been to Newlands Corner, or
Runnymede, or a place like that--on a bank holiday?"

"Can't say I have."

"Humanity like flies crawling on meat."

"But they like it."

"Think so?"

"Of course they like it.  Take the crowd away from modern life--my
dear--and where are you?"

"That's true.  Our culture's a crowd culture."

"Say, we are getting pompous."

At ten o'clock they prepared to turn in.  Lance had procured a
candle from the ex-officer, and he attached it to the top of a tin
on the hamper in the centre of the punt.  The young gentleman in
one of the other punts was still playing the ukulele.  There were
little bursts of laughter, and scufflings, and an unravelling of
rugs and cushions.  The queer little mattresses provided by the
boat-house keeper emitted creakings which suggested straw.

"What's yours like, boy?"

"A little bit--intolerant."

"Oh, I say, you must hold up something."

"All right.  You get settled first."

He spread a towel over the handle of a paddle, and smoked a
cigarette behind this screen.  He heard rustlings; the punt rocked

"All right, boy."

He lowered the towel, and saw her sitting there on her rugs in a
pair of cerise-coloured pyjamas, her black hair fluffed out, her
eyes very bright.

"Your turn.  Shall I hold up something?"

He looked at her steadily.

"That's some colour.  I shan't be a second.  The thing is to make
sure of your collar-studs."

She held up a rug.

"Get busy."

"I say, is that bold fellow going to scratch at that little boy's
thing all night?"

"Slow music--darling."

"Collar-studs in one's pocket; that's it."

"Got everything?"


"Quite sure?"

"Quite.  All serene."

She lowered the rug.

"Who's going to blow out the candle?"

"I will."

"If you like--you can come across and tuck me up."



In a whimsical moment Mary Merris had referred to her little old
car as "Jude the Obscure," though whether she thought of the book
and the chariot as being equally pathetic and dusty were not points
that she elaborated.  But on those crowded August days she
insinuated her decrepit two-seater into the broad passage leading
from the Saracen's yard to the Venerable's cottage.  She brought
her brother with her.  He remained in the car while she disposed of
her produce and did her shopping.  Wearing no hat, and dressed in
an old black and gold blazer, a boating sweater and grey flannel
trousers, he sat there with a peculiar rigidity of head and

"Gil, this is Mr. Pybus."

On that first occasion the Venerable was conscious of feeling the
distinct shock of Gilbert Merris's strangeness.  The closed eyelids
were the eyelids of a man asleep, and yet the face had a peculiar
and attentive wakefulness.  It was a handsome head and a weak head,
the upper lip and chin covered with a dark dapple of soft hair like
the virgin hair on the face of a Greek youth in marble.  The closed
eyelids produced an effect that was curious and slightly sinister.
Sometimes a supercilious smirk seemed to hover over the still face.
It had both a placidity and a mobile peevishness.

The stillness of him as he sat there was his most noticeable
feature--that and the droop of his closed eyelids.  No part of him
moved.  He suggested a statue listening attentively, and with a
slightly sardonic expression.  At times there would be a twitching
of the nostrils or a tremor of the lips.  He sat with his arms
tightly pressed to his body, the closed hands resting on his
thighs.  The figure had an extraordinary stillness, but it was the
stillness of tension.

When old Pybus spoke to him the change was instant and vivid.  The
head turned with a little jerk, and the eyelids confronted the
voice and its owner.

"Oh, you're the porter here.  Quite a bookish person--I hear."

His voice was affected, his animation strangely lacking the light
of his eyes.  He gave the Venerable the impression of being shaken
by his own breathing.

Mr. Pybus rested his arms on the side of the car.

"Not quite a bookish person."

His voice was gentle, for he was conscious of pity; but, also, he
was conscious of a slight feeling of repulsion.  He tried to get
the impression of what that face would be like with the eyes alive
in it.  He thought the sensuous mouth above the little dark
Assyrian beard too much like soft red fruit.

The Saracen yard was full of cars and chauffeurs, and of people who
were packing luggage away, and the Venerable--between his comings
and goings--remained beside Mary Merris's car.

"Very busy to-day, sir."

Said her brother, with a curious little twisted smile:

"You don't know how silly--all that sounds to me."


"Silly and interesting.  I suppose most things are silly and

"The voices?"


"I suppose your sense of hearing is very quick--sir?"

"Oh, too much so; too much so."

His self-pity betrayed itself in a kind of whisper.

"Most modern sounds are ugly."

"Are they?"

"Your culture--Mr. Pybus, is that of a boy kicking an empty tin
along the street.  Horrid disharmonies."

There were white pigeons on the roof above, and old Pybus gave a
characteristic whistle and the birds--poised on white wings--came
floating down.

"Can you hear them?"

"Wings.  I can feel the wind of them."

The Venerable had a bird perched on either wrist.

"If you are gentle, sir, they'll let you stroke them."

But when Merris put out a hand the birds flew away, leaving behind
them on his blind face a look of vacancy and of annoyance.  His
fingers came into contact with the Venerable's right arm.


"You put out your hand too quickly."

"Just like humans.  They run away from you--if you are deaf or

The tragedy of his blindness was also the tragedy of his self-pity.
Theoretically his music should have sufficed him, filling his dark
world with luminous sound; but he was not sufficiently the
impersonal artist to lose himself in the rendering and the giving.
He was older than his sister, yet, when they were together, she was
the mother and he the child.  Coming down through the crowded yard
she would look anxiously at his somnolent face.  Even her smiling
glance at old Mr. Pybus was an appeal to one who understood.

"Have I been a long time, Gil?"

"I'm used to sitting."

His manner to her could be shallow and casual.  She took it as she
took his blindness.  She was amazing, and yet she made mistakes.
She would bring him sweets, or a new brand of tobacco, and his
acceptance of her little presents was tacit--and slightly sullen.

Old Pybus, watching them from day to day, and having perhaps more
understanding of the unregenerate male in every man, began to
wonder and to doubt.  Wasn't the whole devotional business a
mistake?  Was she not giving too much, and he--in his blindness--
sick and satiated with her giving?  The relationship was too
exacting.  Both of them were growing irritable under the strain of
it--though while she was able to repress her ego, the man--her
brother--could not.

Often she would go into the Venerable's cottage to borrow a book,
and if he happened to be free he would follow her.  He began to
question her taste in books, not openly, but to himself.  It seemed
that she asked to discover in a book those sad disharmonies which
were her own, perhaps without realising that her appetite was
tending towards bitter fruit.  She did not crave for and seek out
the conventional contrasts.

Now, there is in life a necessary and a wholesome grossness, a
hearty animalism which some women--and the most sensitive and
fastidious of women--may fail to understand.  Old Pybus would
wonder whether Mary understood it.  She had accepted self-
repression.  She was like a woman who, when a natural hunger
clamoured in her, ate less and less in order to chasten her inward
self.  She was making a cult of devotion, scourging herself to it,
like some wilful saint in a nunnery; and the pity of it was that
she was not made for such celibacies.  That was the Venerable's
impression.  She had put away her colours.  As for the brother, he
made old Pybus think of the child who was tired of being good.


The Venerable had some understanding of the child who is tired of
being good, and of the sudden tantrums which shock those people
who, having locked life up in a dark cupboard, are indignant and a
little frightened when they hear the hammering of its fists.

On a very hot day in August, with chauffeurs trying to find shade
for their cars and hanging rugs over the mudguards to screen the
tyres, old Pybus saw Merris struggling with the hood of his
sister's car.  He was kneeling on the seat and trying to raise the
hood, but it was one of those cussed contraptions which might be
expected to play tricks on a blind man.  It would come so far and
no farther.  At the critical moment it collapsed with a kind of
wooden laugh; and Merris, overbalancing, lay doubled up over the
back of the car.

Someone guffawed, someone who may not have realised the other man's
blindness.  The sprawling figure regained its knees.  Merris had
heard that laugh, and his face flamed to it.

"It's easy to laugh--you swine."

He got on his feet, holding to the screen of the car and the man
who had laughed was laughing no longer.

"Who's a swine?"

"That cackling fool--"

"Am I?  I'm not taking lip from a bloody toff in a broken-down

The Venerable intervened.

"Can't you see the man's blind?  You might have helped him--instead

There was peace.  He who had laughed--a little chauffeur in a smart
green livery--fell over himself with that inherent English decency.

"Sorry--sir.  I wasn't meaning--"

The Venerable patted his shoulder.

"That's all right, my lad.  Let's get that hood up."

They got it up over a figure which had relapsed into the shabby
seat, and was sitting there tense and rigid with its arms pressed
to its sides.  The man in green was awkwardly and regretfully

"It is hot, and no mistake.  I had the sun in my eyes, or I
shouldn't have mugged it."

He looked appeasingly at Merris, who sat there like a man in a
stark trance, and took no notice of either of them.

He continued in that state, while the little chauffeur with a quirk
of the head and a "Well, I suppose he's funny" glance at the
Venerable, sheered off.  Pybus remained by the car, under whose
patched brown hood that blind face seemed to hang like a bubble
that was about to burst.

Should he speak, or should he leave Merris alone?  There was
something in that explosive yet rigid quietude.  He was about to
slip away when he saw a kind of spasm pass up Gilbert Merris's


"I'm here."

"Mr. Pybus.  He--he called me--a bloody toff in a broken-down

"He was sorry--afterwards."

Merris's fists began to drum upon his knees.

"A bloody kid in a pram!  That's it.  A silly, squalling, helpless
brute.  By God--he's about right.  Get me something to drink, will

"A glass of water?"

"No, get me my bottle, the babe's bloody bottle.  Here--something
to drink--something stiff."

He stuffed a hand into a trouser pocket.

"I'm allowed five bob a week.  What's this--a shilling or a

"A shilling."

"Get me something stiff, yes, for the pity of God.  I've got to
have something stiff."

And the Venerable went for it.  There are times when the stormy
child in a man has to be humoured--but as he returned with that
glass of grog he wondered how far such a child should be humoured.

A week later, on another such August day, John Pybus observed
further happenings.  He had been helping an owner-driver to fasten
his luggage on the luggage grid, and had pocketed a two-shilling
piece, when a voice hailed him in passing.

"Well, Pybus, plucking the pigeons?"

The Venerable followed him with his eyes.  Much raw spirit may come
from Glasgow, and also a raw sense of humour which is essentially
Scotch, a kind of dry and blurting rudeness which resembles the
gruffness of a little terrier, but Hargreaves was not Scotch.  The
brown bigness of him held on towards the Merris car.

"Hallo, my lad."

"That you, old chap?"

"Come in and have a drink."

Merris fumbled his way out of the car with a smile on his blind
face, and Hargreaves, taking him by the arm, piloted him across the
yard and in by the Saracen's side door, the surreptitious door that
was used by the gay fellows of the town.

Old Pybus followed them in, and watched them into the lounge.  He
stood by his brass gong, able to see and to hear.

"Couple of double whiskies, George."

"Right, sir.  Very hot to-day, sir."

Ten minutes later the Venerable was listening to the brother's
facile and foolish laughter, while he waited for his sister.  Now,
just how would she appear?  He had his own picture of her coming in
that side door and up the rather dark passage, inwardly flinching,
but refusing to let herself flinch.  And it happened as he had
foreseen.  She came in with a kind of swiftness, her face asking to
be left unlooked at.  She passed the door of the private bar, and
the office window.

"Mr. Pybus--"

He inclined his head slightly in the direction of the lounge.  She
passed on.  He saw her go straight towards the two men in the far
corner.  She looked at her brother; never once did she look at

"Gil, I'm ready."

Hargreaves stood up.  He stared at her.  There was a kind of brutal
playfulness in his full eyes.  Merris remained in his chair.

"I'm coming back with Bob."

She stood a moment, looking down at her brother.

"Are you coming with me, dear?"

"No," he said.  "I'm not," and his defiance ended in a kind of
foolish giggle.

She turned and walked straight out of the lounge.  She was very
white.  She paused for a moment by old Pybus.

"I'm leaving him.  You will be here?"

"I shall," said he.


At "Mirabeau's" on idle occasions, Olive Gadsden and the other
young women dealt with life as though they were disposing of French
pastry in a tea-shop.

"Oh, my dear, he's a nice kid, quite a nice kid, but a bit

In the affair between Lance Pybus and Olive Gadsden, there were no
suppositions and no arrogations.  Youth is very wise these days,
yet however modern you may be, there is always the danger of your
reverting to the archaic outlook of your parents.  But Olive had
put on and off a series of these affairs, as she put on and took
off the frocks at Chalfont Street.  Marriage was the sort of dress
you had to wear until it was shabby, and marriage--according to her
own observations--wears very badly in the nineteen-twenties.  She
was quite without cynicism, for cynicism is an obsolete negation.
She was just a sophisticated, practical, and hard-eyed young woman,
who handled life's affairs as she would have handled bargains at a
sales counter.  She had a fallacious softness, a perfect
complexion, and she was as hard as nails.  She desired certain
things, and if they were to be got she got them.

But is there a woman living who is completely unconventional?

Mrs. Gasson asked that question, though she did not use those very

"Don't we all come to hanker after the smell of the orange blossom,

She could have pointed out that even the oldest of the professions
has its code.  If your skirt is knee high, and your stockings of a
particular colour, you are still one of a crowd.  A crowd must have
its conventions.  And Olive had her own peculiar conventions.  She
had an open mind as to a possible marriage with Lance, but she
intended him to suggest marriage.  In the minds of all women that
little gold circle retains its symbolism.

But as yet Lance had not produced that conventional and gentlemanly
gesture.  He was absorbed in the sex of her, and she knew it.  It
might be said that he was behaving as the Victorian cad was
supposed to behave; but the margin between caddishness and
naturalism is a very narrow one, and Lance was being ruthlessly yet
impulsively natural.  That is modernity, and Olive understood it.

Because there was in their relationship none of that mysticism,
that over-mastering and beautiful tenderness which raises woman
above the leopardess.  Moreover, the leopardess is justified by her
instinct.  They were not lovers as lovers should be, and she knew
it.  She knew it, because, once in her life--and in spite of her
hardness, she had experienced that tenderness, and it had turned to
bitterness in her mouth.  It may be that she knew that every woman--
somehow and at some time--has been ready to give of herself
utterly and completely, consumed by that ridiculous and saving
compassion which is the blood in the body of her love.

But then every woman--as a woman--has a kind of professional pride.

Again, Mrs. Gasson could describe it.

"We do like to be asked, dearie, don't we?  I must say as I do like
a gentleman to take off his hat.  It mayn't mean much, you know,
but it's manners--manners!"


Lance was not happy.

He was smoking too much, and his work was indifferently done.
Also, he was conscious of its indifference, and was both bothered
and baffled by it, yet nothing he could do seemed able to mend it.
He had lost both his touch and his vision.

Also, in six weeks' time, Richmond was expecting to read the novel.

Also, he was beginning to wonder whether the Venerable had not been
right in misliking those five chapters.  Also, at the end of
September, the cheques from Windover would cease to arrive.

Problems, and very serious problems, but the essential problem was
his own intimate self and its sex escapade, and its merging into
sense-impressions that were symbolized by Olive Gadsden's mouth.
He was not happy about Olive, and he was not happy about himself.
If words only conceal the truth, then romanticism and realism are
but terms invented for the justification of a phase or of a
physical tendency.  There is no romance and no realism, nothing but
our own reactions and the sublimation of our own sensations.

Yet, during those August days, Lance was made to remember his
grandfather's mysticism.  It hung there like the light beyond the
hills; it was the other world, that eternally other world, the
bourne of our inmost urges, the home of the thing which is somehow
better than the thing of the moment.  There was nothing mystical
about Olive Gadsden.  He had reclined with her at a little pagan
feast; they had halved the apple, and emptied the same cup.
Curious--that now there should be no apple and no wine!

Unable to write, afraid of the pen and the paper, he would sit at
his window at night with the lights out, thinking.  His thoughts
seemed to go groping down those restless streets.  Had this city
infected him with its infernal restlessness?  The faces seemed to
have changed, or was it that he saw them differently?  The
strained, set faces of some of the 'bus drivers, the faces of
hurrying and worried women!  What was the matter with him?  Why the
devil couldn't he get life down on paper as he had been getting it
three months ago?

Olive?  Yes, but he and Olive had done only what thousands of
people did, the supremely natural thing.  Was he becoming
emotionally self-conscious, sexually diffident?  He knew lots of
men who were boastful and exultant in the successful swelling of
their youth.  They told a tale, laughed, and passed on.

What was the matter with him?

Rushing out on one of these evenings of ineffectual restlessness he
felt that he must talk to somebody, a man, a man of his own age.
There was Sorrell; he had not seen Kit Sorrell for some months.
The urge was instant.  He climbed on to a 'bus and went eastwards,
and getting off at King's Cross, cut into Bloomsbury.  He found
himself on Sorrell's doorstep, looking at the London greenness of
the Bloomsbury Square, and hearing voices.  Girls were playing

Into his head--suddenly--came the word--"Marriage."  It shocked
him; it brought with it a kind of frightened silence.  Unless you
were a cad, a mere animal, you married a girl when she had given
you intimate and unforgettable moments.

The door opened.  He was aware of a face, plain and tired.

"Is Mr. Sorrell in?"

Yes, Mr. Sorrell was in.

He found Kit at work, sitting at a table by the window, the same
old Kit, but a little slower at speech, and more observant of men
and of things.

"Hallo, old chap--clear me out if I'm in the way."

"No, sit down.  I'm always a little ahead."

"You old devil--you always were.  No distractions."

"Oh, I don't know," said Kit, going to the mantelpiece for a pipe.

"Seen anything of Pentreath?"

Young Sorrell opened a tobacco tin.

"Yes, some.  He's had rather a rotten time, poor old thing.  Got
married.  The girl turned out--oh--well--you know what."


"Yes, the very last chap you'd expect--"

"Poor old Pent.  What on earth!  You are not out on the marriage
market, boy?"

"A mug's game at my age," said Sorrell, applying a match to the
tobacco in his pipe.

Lance sat and stared.  If he had come to Kit for inward counsel he
could not have obtained it more aptly and without less prejudice,
for Christopher had always been such a sound beggar, even in his
rowing.  There was nothing of the "sugarer" about young Sorrell.
But just how did Kit manage--?  And then Lance happened to notice
that the lower sash of the window was closed, and that a muslin
blind screened it.

"You work with your window down, old thing."


"I like mine up."

"Oh, I dare say.  Distractions--you know.  Girls playing tennis out
there.  Should find myself watching them."

Lance got up, and lifting the edge of the muslin blind, looked out
of the window.

"M'yes.  Your job keeps you bolted down.  Oh, damn sex, my lad,
damn it.  I sometimes wish--"

"I've wished that too, Pybie, but one's got to put up with it.
Apparently--the trouble is--that nice women don't or won't
understand.  So, the alternative--"

"I don't believe it," said Lance with sudden passion, "the
alternative isn't always a totty--surely?"

"No, that's true.  But--for me--old lad, nothing or everything.  Oh
yes, there are women who make you feel humble."



Lance was Sir Yea and Nay for a week, and then, because his
indecision vexed him, he rushed headlong upon finality.  Olive and
he set out to spend a second week-end on the river, but the pagan
naturalism had gone from the adventure, and two young moderns
looked at each other with sophisticated self-consciousness.

Moreover, the weather was English and threatening, and Lance had
packed five chapters of "Rust" into his suit-case, and he took with
him to the Thames the reborn spirit of mysticism.

"How deeply do you see into me?  Beyond the skin, the mere glass of
the eye, and the redness of the lips?  What am I--the man--to you?"

Conversely, what was she to him, eyes, lips, a body whose tricks
had inflamed him?  Could he see more in her than that, or was she
but the product of Chalfont Street and Parham Crescent, a displayer
of dresses, a dancer, a pretty piece of physical expression?

The sky was leaden; so was the water; and from the other end of the
punt he was aware of her eyes watching him.  They made him think of
two eyes looking at him through the slits in a mask.  The beech
woods on the hills had a heavy melancholy, like the foreheads of
solemn city fathers frowning over a forward generation.

She was teasing and flippant.

"Don't look so bored, dearie."

"I'm not bored, Olive.  And I'm not dearie."

"My landlady calls everybody dearie."

"Let her--by all means.  It's going to rain like blazes."

"What fun!  A little green tent for two.  I wonder if the ukulele
boy will be there?  Chinese lanterns should be a washout."

She jangled.  He found himself looking at her critically, as he
might have looked at a stranger, and realising as he looked at her
that in spite of their intimacy--they were strangers.  It struck
him as being rather deplorable, though the fault was as much his as
hers; for had he desired to see more in her than the mannequin, or
a dancing girl on a stage appealing to him with legs and arms?
They had lost themselves in the physical, and in emerging from
things physical he seemed to become aware of her meretricious
smartness, the thinness of her, both physically and spiritually.
Yet, could she help it?  Had he asked her to be anything else?
Could she be anything else?

They sighted their Island of the Hesperides.  The white bungalow
looked rather soiled and shabby on this grey August day.  Almost it
was as shabby and unmystical as an anonymous room in some anonymous
back street hotel.  Lance conceived distaste for the place as he
looked at it, and he was moved to wonder whether it affected Olive
in the same way.

She gave a sudden little laugh.

"Dearie, he's taking down the lanterns!"

The owner of the bungalow, looking swollen in a white sweater and
flannel trousers, was standing on a garden chair, unfastening the
Chinese lanterns.  A few heavy rain-drops were making little
circles on the dead surface of the river.

"Poor devil!" said Lance.

She jerked a sudden glance at him.  Was her lover feeling like
that?  Or just how was he feeling?"

"I don't see the 'poor devil.'  He's a careful old thing."

Lance's face was strangely overcast.

"He's a symbolist, the eternal symbolist."

Inevitably the rain came down.  They had to pole hurriedly into the
backwater, and spread the canvas cover, and make tea, with the rain
dripping from the willows and the alders.  English weather, river
weather, reality and not romance.  After tea, Lance lit a pipe and,
with a preoccupied expression, explored the interior of his suit-
case.  He had brought with him those five chapters that the
Venerable had disapproved of; it was his intention to re-read them.

"What's that, boy?"

"Manuscript.  Care to read some?"

He got the impression that her attitude was full of watchfulness
and suspicion.

"We're quite domesticated--aren't we?  I ought to have brought some

"Not a bad idea."

He passed her the last of the five chapters.

"Read it.  You can give me an opinion."

She asked him for a cigarette, and having lit it, she sat
considering him.  The pages of MS. lay in her lap.

"Think my opinion's worth anything?"

"It might be.  What do you read?"

"Not much, Edgar Garland--and Isaac Gildenstein."

"Edgar Garland," said Lance, "good Lord!"

She made a face at him.

"You--do--take yourself seriously.  Who's going to wash up the tea

"Woman's department."

"Thanks.  We'll do it presently, together.  Meanwhile--I'll go and
visit Clara."

"Who's Clara?"

"The lady of the bungalow.  She's rather amusing.  No dinner under
the lanterns, dearie, to-night."

He gave her the enigma of a smile.

"Smelly paraffin lamp--probably.  Tomato soup, tongue and salad,
prunes and tinned milk."


"Well--go and see."

She lifted up the flap of the canvas, and uncovered the wet grass
bank, and the slimy black stem of an alder.  The rain was coming
down.  She looked a little pathetic.

"Oh--boy--I'll get wet."

He glanced at her flimsy shoes and silk stockings, and suddenly he
realised the pathos of her, but not as she would have wished him to
realize it.  He was aware of her pretty flimsiness, of all her
little expedients and ingenuities, her oneness against the world,
the finality of her appeal.  She had just that face, and that
mouth, and her mannerisms, and a kind of cheap defiance.  He felt

"Stay here--I'll go--presently."

She looked at him for a moment, and her eyes puzzled him.  He did
not know how quick a woman can be picking out the threads of a
man's mood towards her.

"Thanks--awfully--dear Edgar."

She was out of the punt and up the bank like a cat with wet fur,
and he sat and pulled at his pipe, and looked at the grass bank,
and tried to sort out the situation.  Was it that she suspected?
Or could a woman be jealous of a few pieces of paper pinned
together with brass clips?  Vaguely irritated, he settled himself
to read those five chapters.


At the end of ten minutes he was relighting a pipe that had gone
out.  His face was very serious.  He was thinking "How did I come
to write this stuff?"

He was feeling disturbed and perplexed, for a few weeks ago he
had been so sure that he had written something that was both vivid
and very clever, but on this wet August evening he saw his
impressionisms hanging like chunks of red meat in a butcher's shop.
It was all glare and crude flesh, a butcherly business, and he was
conscious of being shocked by it because it was his.  The stuff was
unpleasant--yes, and more than unpleasant, and vividly was he
reminded of the Venerable's simile of the Marylebone Road.  Yes,
but it was far more unfragrantly suggestive than the Marylebone
Road.  His imagination, pushed suddenly into the glare of a
Saturday night street, seemed to see and to smell its surroundings.
Life was uncovered, that part of life which is vulgar and cheap and
unclean, the stale sweat in the clothes, the grossness beneath the
skin, feet that would not bear looking at when the stockings were
peeled off.  What had he been doing?  For somehow, he had a
suspicion that the lapse had been in himself, and in his manner of
seeing things.  A fact is a fact; butcher's meat is butcher's meat--
but--in this work of his he saw a hand turning over odds and ends
of flesh and offals in a tray.

But how was it that he had written the stuff, and thought it good?
Had he been obsessed?  Had he been seeing too many painted faces,
and sploshed faces?  It was not that the work was sinister; you can
be fastidious and very sinister--but these chapters were vulgar,
and vulgarity is a personal product.  The thing in itself need not
be vulgar; it is the way in which you treat it.  And he had given
those chapters to the Venerable.

He felt hot.

But was it all bad, mere cayenne and tripe?  He read on.  He was
able to assure himself that the rest of it was almost as
unpardonable, and that it produced in him a sense of anger and of
heat.  What muck!  Though there was nothing moral--so called--in
his gesture of scorn, but the impatience of the craftsman who has
caught himself perpetrating baseness.  Away with it!  The stuff
might just as well go into the river.

But he held his hand.  Olive came slithering down the bank and into
the punt, and she returned with the happy animation of a woman who
has thought things over.  She sat down among her cushions at the
far end, and made a whimsical face at him.

"Oh, boy, why didn't we bring gum-boots?  Clara, poor dear, won't
be able to cook us any dinner."

"Oh, how?"

"Pain in her poor tummy.  I'm going to be cook.  Say, I want to
read some of boy's story."

"You do?"


His glance was deliberate and thoughtful.  He tossed the chapters
across to her.

"Right, you shall.  My writing's pretty awful."

"Why don't you have it typed?"

"Economy--and caution.  I'm not going to have it photographed until
the picture is complete.  The critic in the punt.  You can say just
what you jolly well think."

"And supposing--?"

"Call it tripe.  I've only got three cigarettes left; forgot to
fill my case.  Shall put on a mac and stroll up to the village."

"Leave me one of the three.  Thanks, old thing.  Now I'm going to
be awful studious."

After slipping off her shoes, she curled up among the cushions, and
Lance, getting into his mackintosh, scrambled out and up the bank.

In crossing those wet fields under the grey sky and the dripping
elms he seemed to be walking with a lost self that had been
recovered; and the fierce chagrin of the craftsman became a
sadness.  Yes, bad work hurt; it hurt you more than did bad living;
for bad work, unless you were ruthless in destruction, remained
like some cast mistress exacting blackmail.  And the virtue went
out of you.  The fine mirror of your consciousness became blurred
and tarnished; the girdle of your restraint was loosened.  Pausing
by a field gate under an old beech tree, he listened to the
drippings from the leaves, while the soul of him reached out
to life's essential mysticism.  He began to feel things
understandingly, for mysticism is knowing by feeling, and life is
recreated and carried on by every man feeling things afresh.  The
great simplicities recur and are eternal.

Lance felt cooled and calmed by the rain.  The grey landscape
regained its beauty.  He looked up into the green heart of the tree
under which he was sheltering, and seemed to absorb its strength
and its steadfastness.  You had to root yourself like this tree in
order to spread your branches.  Flounderings among the flesh-pots
made you assume the likeness of a human flesh-pot, big-bellied,
gross, and heavy.  To pull your weight in a boat you trained and
chastened your body; for the greater and more exacting crafts you
had to train and chasten your soul.  Had not your craftsman to be
something of the ascetic?

He walked on to the village, bought his cigarettes, and returned to
the island with a wet head and a secret serenity.  He felt
strangely gentle towards life, and to that piece of life under the
green canopy of the punt.  Poor Olive!  He had become conscious of
the futile crudeness of the affair, and of the damage such an
affair inflicted.  It cut away your ideals, it blurred your vision;
it tricked you into accepting easy, casual things.  Was it not true
that his splurgings into a false realism had begun with this sex

He hesitated for a moment on the top of the bank.  The ending of
such an intimacy was no easy matter, and with this sudden feeling
of gentleness possessing him he even doubted for a moment how you
ended such an affair.  Or did it end itself?  Yet there was a
ruthlessness in him which cried out that it would have to be ended.
He wanted to get back to work, the real work.  He was in a growing
fever to efface that butcherly phase.  The mood of his gentleness
would change into impatience and haste.  It cost him an effort to
slither down the bank and raise the canvas flap.

She met him with her actress's smile.

"Oh, boy, you--are--clever."

She waved a white flag that was his manuscript.

"Wet--and clever.  What a mop of a head!  But I say--this is one of
the funniest things I've ever read.  It's a yell."

He climbed in with a very serious and unsmiling face.

"Like it?"

"It's lovely.  But you're cruel.  You do take people off.  I'm
really--awful--scared of you."

Extracting the box of cigarettes from a mackintosh pocket, he
tossed it to her, but without looking at her face.

"So--it strikes you--as good?"

"Topping.  Of course--it's a bit so-so--but that's just what people
like.  Even the old ladies love being shocked, the old humbugs.
But where did you learn it all?"

"How do you mean?"

"Why, how do you know about such things?  If you had asked me I
should have said that some priceless person of forty had written
it.  Some raffish old blighter."

He was searching in his suit-case for a towel, and having found it,
he enveloped his wet head in it and began to rub.

"Yes, a seedy old blighter with all the paint worn off him.  I get
you, my dear.  But--the seedy old blighters are apt to be
sentimental.  Some young thing of three and twenty.  Very young
stuff.  Gemini--but the rain has got right down my back."


On that Sunday morning Lance woke very early.  The rain had not
ceased, for he could hear the drip of it on the canvas from the
boughs of the alder tree, and for a while he lay and listened to
it.  But presently, being full of the wakefulness of a new
inspiration, he slipped a hand under the canvas and raising it
until it was clear of the punt's gunwale, he looked at the river.
He saw it as a sheet of grey water spreading beyond the green
opening of the backwater, with dim beech woods rising beyond it.
Everything was smirched by rain.  And yet, as he lay on his side
and looked long and steadily at the water and the woods, he knew
that--somehow--his old way of seeing things had come back to him.

Meanwhile, he was observed, and was unconscious of it.  Olive had
raised her head.  She was watching his silent contemplation of the
river, but when at last he made a movement, she let her head drop
back upon the cushion.  Her eyes were closed.


By mutual consent they returned to town by an afternoon train.
They sat at opposite ends of the carriage and looked out of
opposite windows, for there was a constraint between them, and the
grey chill of the river dawn seemed to linger.  They were alone
together, yet not alone, while very conscious of each other.  If he
appeared absorbed in the wet landscape and his own thoughts, she--
from her corner--threw an occasional chafed glance at his half-
averted profile and his wilful preoccupation.

She was angry.  Men were so much of a muchness, so fickle, so
inconsistent, and though she was vaguely aware of him as a winged
Mercury poised for an upward flight, she still wished to hold him
because--in a way--he had been hers.  Cold, clean, ruthless,
soaring youth!  For somehow he reminded her of the poised figure in
Piccadilly Circus, so alive though so motionless above the chaotic

But as the train neared Paddington she slipped across to him, and
put her chin upon his shoulder.

"Boy, what's the matter?"

She felt his irresponsive rigidity.

"Nothing.  I was thinking something out."

"Awful serious fellah!  What about--to-night?"

His reply was abrupt.

"Work, my dear, much work.  It is boiling up in me.  I have got
just five weeks."

"What for?"

"Oh, for the book.  I've promised it--for the end of September.  It
will have to be done."

She withdrew herself.

"That's the sort of thing, my dear, a man says to his wife."

At No. 7 Parham Crescent a sympathetic and inquisitive Mrs. Gasson
brought Olive up her tea.  She placed the tray on the table by the
window and turned to the girl who, seated on the edge of her bed,
was changing her stockings.  Olive had come in with a thin, peeved
face, and eyes of defiance.  Obviously the weather had not been
kind to the lovers, but Mrs. Gasson could recall days in her own
youth when hailstones and hurricanes would not have mattered.

"Now, you drink your tea, dearie."

Olive tossed the discarded stockings into a corner.

"Filthy weather--I'm not a pair of stockings--either."

"There, dearie, you've been quarrelling.  You drink a cup of nice
hot tea.  Nothin' like it.  A cup of tea's saved me from sooicide
many a time."

She went to pour it out, added two lumps of sugar, and carried the
cup to the girl.

"Such weather!  Enough to damp a bloomin' Venus.  Wasn't he loving,
dearie?  Men get such moods."

Said the girl on the bed, sulkily stirring the sugar in the cup:

"I'm not going to let him off."

"Feeling like that, are you, dearie?"

"He's got me cussed."

Mrs. Gasson stood with her red hands folded over her bosom.

"That's to say--you'll marry him, dearie?"

"I shall.  Perhaps you know what it is to feel cussed about a man?"

"Well," said the lady, "I do and I don't.  But I wouldn't spite
myself for a man, dearie.  Specially--a boy gent like 'im.  If I
was out for the white satin and the orange blossom I'd take someone
older and with a bit of money.  Now, you try and eat a piece of
plum cake, dearie.  I wouldn't get cussed if I were you.  Men ain't
worth it."

Meanwhile, at No. 17, Lance was writing a letter.

"I have torn up those five chapters, grandpater.  I shall be with
you next week-end."

He went out to post the letter and, returning to his room, took the
first twenty chapters of the manuscript of "Rust" from the drawer
in his desk, and sat down to read them.  He began with a feeling of
curiosity and of distrust, but as he read on the feeling of
distrust vanished.  His face softened.  He smiled, but there was
nothing of the smirk in that smile.  He was recovering the
craftman's sense of rightness and of happy exultation, the
consciousness of being able to interpret life with an understanding
that was somehow greater than his smaller self.  And when he had
finished reading the chapters he sat looking out of the window.
The rain had ceased.  The cool wet sky was clearing.  It was as
though Spring had returned with all its tenderness and mystery.


Lance, carrying his suit-case across the Saracen yard, whistled to
the pigeons on the red roofs.  It was tea-time, and he supposed
that he would find his grandfather at the cottage, and feeling in a
playful mood he walked softly.  The green door was open a few
inches, and giving it a noiseless push, he stood looking into the
familiar room.

But it contained an unfamiliar spirit, the figure of a girl, who,
standing by his grandfather's window with her back towards him,
seemed to droop like a tall flower at the end of a sultry day.  She
had her hands on the window-sill, and her dark head was on a level
with the purple and gold heads of the Venerable's dahlias.

Something arrested him and held him still, the poise of the figure,
the faint perfume of its sadness, the curve of the neck, the droop
of the head.  He stared.  He was met by a sense of mystery, though
the figure was just that of a young woman surprised in a moment of
self-revealing anguish.

Suddenly, as though made conscious of his presence by the
intentness of his gazing, she turned and faced him, and he saw what
he had not been able to see before.  He lowered his eyes.  He could
tell that she wished herself veiled.

"I'm sorry.  I thought my grandfather was here."

She answered him in a very still voice.

"Yes; he will be here.  He--"

Placing his suit-case on a chair, and his hat on the table, he
turned away.

"I'll go and find him.  It's all right.  I didn't know."

And very gently he closed the green door.



Lance went in search of his grandfather, and as he recrossed the
Saracen yard it occurred to him that this was the first occasion
upon which he had seen a woman in tears.  He still was very
conscious of a pair of wet, brown eyes, surprised and resenting the
surprise.  But how sentimental!  He had seen young women weep on
the "films," and he had wanted to smack them; he had felt uneasy in
the presence of those hysterical "close ups" when a young woman
goes in for exaggerated emotion, and looks--as he had put it--like
"A wet gooseberry."  Did anyone weep these days?  Surely the
lachrimatory glands were superfluous, save as the providers of a
physiological eyewash?  He had rather believed that tears were an
exhibition of temper or of childishness; but the tears of Mary
Merris, wept in the Venerable's little room, had fallen before him
otherwise.  She had resented their discovery.  They had stirred in
him--somehow--little tremors of tenderness, a mysterious tenderness
which was like the trembling of leaves in the rain.  So must other
women have wept, the women of his dream world, the Isoults, The
Medeas, the Beatrice Cencis.

Besides, what was she doing there in the Venerable's room?  He
pushed in through the Saracen's side door, and discovered his
grandfather standing at his post by the brass gong where the
passage joined the hall.  The Venerable's head was all whiteness,
which meant that his grandfather's eyes were turned away towards
the Saracen's lounge.  He was looking at something or somebody, and
as Lance walked up the passage he saw two men coming out of the
lounge.  The taller man had the other by the arm, and the shorter
one was laughing, like a man in his sleep.  He was a figure of
somnolence that cackled.

They passed from view into the hall, and Lance walked on to speak
to his grandfather, but old Pybus's blue eyes had a fixity.  The
grandson now saw him in profile.  The Venerable was watching those
two pass out into Castle Craven market-square, the man of the broad
nostrils and the man who laughed with his eyes shut.  Lance paused
for a moment, arrested by the look upon his grandfather's face.  It
had a grimness.

Lance approached him silently.

"Hallo, grandpater."

There was a quick movement of old Pybus's head.  The blue stare
went out of his eyes.

"Hallo, my son.  Shan't be five minutes.  Go and make tea."

"For two?"

The Venerable looked at his grandson, and then he turned and looked
at the clock.

"I may as well come now.  The lad's about.  Well, well--"

They went down the passage together and out into the yard, and
Lance knew that his grandfather had something to think about, and
perhaps something to say.  You could allow the Venerable the use of
all his faculties, and assume that if there was a thing to be seen,
he would see it, nor would he look grim without provocation.  And
in Lance's consciousness those two figures had come together, that
of the man with the blind eyes, and that of the girl with the wet
ones, and there is always a reason for things, even for secret
tears and silly laughter.

Said the Venerable, when they were half-way across the yard:

"You went down to the cottage?"

Yes, Lance had been to the cottage, and had left his hat and suit-
case there.

"Found you had a visitor, grandpater."

"Still there--was she?"

"Yes.  I thought I'd come up and find you."

His grandfather's blue eyes asked a question.

"She looked--rather--as if she wanted to be left alone, grandpater."

And old Pybus said nothing.

To say nothing and to suggest everything is a great art, and the
Venerable was the poet of silence.  Lance knew these pauses and
reticences, and the little, understanding, observant glance that
his grandfather would throw at a person or a pipe.  Sometimes old
Pybus's eyes would seem to change colour; he would look
mischievous, or proud, or thoughtful, but always his silence was
like the seeming silence of a deep wood.  There were little secret
sounds to be heard if you kept very still and listened for them,
and Lance felt that something was going on inside his grandfather's
head.  He was conscious of feeling curious as to what his
grandfather would do and say.

The Venerable paused on the doorstep and, looking round and up,
pointed to the waiting pigeons.

"Same as ever, my son."

"Same as ever--grandpater."

"Like your letter.  Great stuff in it, my dear."

Then, having made known their coming to anyone who might be waiting
in the cottage, he opened the door, and Lance understood the
inwardness of that considerate loitering.  The room was empty; yet
neither of them remarked upon its emptiness.

The Venerable closed the door.

"Nearly a month, isn't it?  I'm glad to see you.  I'll go and get

"I'm glad to be here."

"I do believe you are."

They looked into each other's eyes, and then Lance's right hand
went out, and rested on the Venerable's shoulder.

"Seems that I come to you only when I want you, grandpater.  No.
It isn't quite like that.  It's good to be here."

The muscles of old Pybus's face quivered.

"That's good for me to know, my dear.  A little old fellow."

"No, not that, grandpater.  You're as big as the earth."

"Oh, come now!  Tea, my lad, tea."

"I'll make it.  You sit down, grandpater, please sit down.  I have
something to ask you."

Old Pybus sat down.

Lance went into the kitchen and lit the oil stove under the kettle,
and saw that the tray was all ready, the milk in the jug, and the
bread and butter cut.  The very simplicity of these details seemed
part and parcel of the situation, and typical of that simplicity
which characterized both the head and the heart of this old Roman.
You could not be a neo-this or a neo-that in the presence of the
Venerable; there was no pose that was adequate, no sort of
cleverness that would carry you past the shoulder of a crisis.  You
had to stand up square and straight, rather like a frank and
fearless child, a creature of sheer simplicity, because the
ultimate and serene simplicity is childlike, and all circuitous
things squirm at its feet.


"My son."

"Which matters most to a man--his job--or a woman?"

The Venerable sat in silence for some seconds.

"Doesn't that depend on two qualities?"


"The quality of the job, and the quality of the woman?"

The kettle was on the point of boiling, and Lance reached for the

"You mean--that the two qualities--should be alike?"

"Gentleness, my dear, understanding."

"In both?"

"Is not great writing--gentle and compassionate?"

"And woman?"

"The same.  How we have gone astray with all our little hardnesses,
and this freedom complex.  Freedom--indeed!  What freedom has a

"The old idea, slave to husband and children."

"The slavery of giving, the slavery of loving, the slavery of being
loved!  Oh, my lad, what shallow water we paddle in!  Unless you
can see that something in your woman, that holy glamour, that
gentleness which makes you feel on your knees, avoid her, run from
her.  A man must work, and so must woman, but so much of woman's
work is for the man."

Lance filled the teapot.

"Grandpater--you stand--against everything--the tendencies--the

"What is newness?  I stand where I stand."

"Like the Angel of the Lord."

"Like an old man who has looked at life.  See--the mystical in
woman--the sacred flame burning within the body of her flesh.  It
is there, it is there."

Lance appeared in the other room, carrying the tray with its white
cloth.  His face had an inward radiance, a tranquillity.

"Grandpater, it is good to be here."

And for a while there was silence between them, but Lance was
thinking that--perhaps--Mary Merris had found it good to shed tears
in this little, funny old room, wherein an old man who had looked
on life had brought into being a beautiful faith in the essential
somewhereness of God.  Yes, and without dogmatism and without a
contorted gruffness, but just as though he had grown to it by
feeling and seeing and thinking.

Lance looked out of the window.

"I wonder if I ought to tell you, grandpater."

"Something about yourself, my dear?"

Lance's eyes smiled.

"No, that's told and finished.  I think you understood that, didn't
you?  Yes.  I have been a cad, but I am not going to be more of a
cad by being weak.  No; it's about the Merris girl."

"Mary.  Why, not Mary?"

"Mary.  I found her--crying in here.  I couldn't help it.  I got
out as quickly as I could."

"Ah," said the Venerable.  "I'm glad."

His grandson's eyes were wide and a little questioning.

"You see, my dear, a woman like Mary must have a room to weep in
once or twice in a lifetime.  And it happened in here.  I'm glad."

Said Lance, reaching for the Venerable's cup to refill it:

"Something's wrong with her life?"

"Just pearls and swine, my dear.  We may have more words in our
language than the Jews did in the time of Christ, all sorts of isms
and exes and ologies and tivities, but the earth and we are made of
the same stuff."


Lance went back to work on the Monday with the creative impatience
big in him, and some fifteen chapters demanding to be written in
the course of the next thirty-five days.

His promise to John Richmond had no margin left to it, but Lance
was not asking for a margin.  After scramblings and flounderings he
had climbed back to the craftsman's little isolated hill, and the
whole urge in him was to write and to write furiously, and to
forget everything but those vivid inward pictures that had to be
made to flow into the molten metal.  He began work that very Monday
night.  He had walked past and under the window of No. 7 Parham
Crescent, with a small part of himself digressing for a moment like
a straggler falling out on the march.  Oh, yes, Olive!  But Olive
could wait.  She was no mystical woman, but a creature of that
other world in which people had ceased to matter as they mattered
in the world of his imagination.

He had walked past Mrs. Carver and her apologetic announcements.

"Her ladyship called on Saturday, sir.  And a young lady left a

"Let me have dinner sharp at seven, please."

He had opened Olive's note, and replying to it inwardly as he had
read it, had torn it up.  No, no distractions.  He had unpacked; he
had got out his papers.  The power of concentration had returned to
him.  When he had passed across to that other creative world,
people could bang doors and taxis could hoot, but these noises
would not be heard by him.  He was able to put external things
beyond or below the threshold of sense-consciousness.

About nine o'clock Mrs. Carver crept up the stairs, and stood on
the landing outside his door.  He had warned her that he was not to
be disturbed, but the young woman who had rung the bell of No. 17,
and who was waiting in Mrs. Carver's hall, had assured her that Mr.
Pybus expected to be disturbed.  Mrs. Carver approached his door,
listened, and then rapped gently with her knuckles.

There was no response, and she stood there looking bothered.  Her
fear of offending people had become a pitiful and ever-present
dread.  She shook like an aspen leaf if the first floor front
complained of the tea, or rang the bell with unusual emphasis.

"Oh, dear, what ought I to do?"

Her diffident knuckles dared to rap a second time.


"There's someone asking for you, sir."


"A young lady, the one who left the note.  I'm so sorry to disturb
you, sir, but I thought--"

"Will you please tell her I'm working."

"Yes, sir."

"Thank you."


Lance's absorption in his work was characteristic and inevitable,
but a woman of Olive Gadsden's temperament could not be expected to
understand its inevitableness.  Your artist may be a fanatic when
the urge is upon him, and to the observer he may appear the
ruthless and impossible egoist, though, because of the fascination
of the work in which he is absorbed, he may be absolutely selfless.
Women have been jealous of a man's craft, sensing in it an alien
and impersonal force which will neither bend nor be persuaded; but
Olive was jealous without understanding just what Lance's work was
to him.  To her it was the enemy.  It was an affront.  It had "got
her cussed."  It made of her a hanger-on to the coat-tails of his
casual leisure, an accessory, a shadow.

She did not see Lance for three days, and she made no attempt to
see him, but her obstinancy hardened.

"Oh, very well, my dear; we'll wait."

She could boast to Mrs. Gasson of knowing something about men.
They were quite childish creatures.  When a man was golf-mad or
horse-mad, you had to humour the obsession, and wait for him to
emerge from it.  Men did emerge.  They became hungry.  They craved
a meal or a drink, or money or woman.  However angrily patient you
might have to be, when the man emerged, you had him by the sleeve.

It was Olive's first experience of the author, artist, poet
creature--the creative man in contrast to the mule man.  It was not
likely that she would be able to foresee the permanence and the
steadfastness of the urge to write, or to understand that if she
tried to interfere with it she would be pushed aside.  Were she to
display herself as the wild cat, probably he would pick the
creature up and deposit it--gently or ungently--outside his door.
The more fuss she might make, the less likely he would be to
emerge, and when he did emerge, it would not be according to her

Meanwhile, she remained upon the fringe of Lance's consciousness,
not focused, but there, and between periods of fierce and exultant
writing his attention was turned to her.  She cast a shadow.  He
could not but feel a little astonished at the way in which the
sensuous glamour of her had decreased; the desired of yesterday had
become the faded exotic of to-day.  Even her mouth had lost its
appeal; he was ready to be irritated by her little physical

But the problem of her remained.

He would say to himself:  "This sort of thing can't go on."  Having
regained his inward vision, he acknowledged the futility of the
affair, while realizing that, however modern and tolerant and
natural you may be, the instinct of responsibility still functions.
He could say to Olive:  "We have had our play, my dear.  And now--
to work.  Good luck to you."  He could smile and raise his hat, and
do the thing in a gentlemanly way, and yet there was a something in
him which would not be satisfied.

For he was not the sort of cur that slinks off round a corner.
Also, there is a quality in creative work which--when it is being
well done--makes a man better than himself.  He is drinking the
wine of the gods.  Also, self-expression is most subtly associated
with the particular atmospheres of people and of places.  The
renewal of Lance's mysticism was associated with the Venerable, and
the Venerable's little room, and with that other incident of Mary
Merris and her tears.  Always, a little memory picture was rising
before him of a woman surprised in the midst of her weeping.  He
could not call it sentimentalism; he did not call it anything.  He
just was conscious of it as he might have been conscious of an
effect of sunlight and of shadow, or of perfume; it seemed to
permeate life; it permeated his work.  It seemed to associate
itself with a new note of tenderness which had been lacking.

Also, it had a positive and a practical effect.  It made him see in
Olive something of that other woman, something that a man should
see in every woman.  It moved him to a sensitive gentleness.  It
was as though that glimpse of a woman's tears had softened his
young ruthlessness.

So, one afternoon, with a pipe smoked after tea, and two pages of
manuscript left serenely behind him, he went out and along the
Crescent to No. 7, and calmly rang the bell.  Mrs. Gasson opened
the door.  He looked into her large, red, accommodating face.

"Is Miss Gadsden in?"

Mrs. Gasson smiled over him and at him.

"She won't be in till after six, sir."

"Can I leave a message?"

"You can, sir."

"Will you please tell Miss Gadsden that I'll call for her at half-
past six."

"I will, sir."

Mrs. Gasson smirked and closed the door on him, and was ready with
her message.  "He's been round, dearie.  He's coming round to call
for you at half-past six.  You won't be feeling cussed, will you?"

Olive loitered on the dark stairs.

"That's his affair."


Her upward glance at him was both challenging and whimsical.

"Been working awful hard, boy?"

He said that he had.  He walked beside her with an air of
detachment, approaching the conclusion that no piece of work could
be more intricate and harrassing than the persuading of a woman
that her femininities have become superfluous.  How did you begin
so ungallant a business?  Did you blurt out the confession, and
then hasten to apply the necessary and bland unguents?  And what if
Chloe refused to regard the affair as a poetical incident, a mere
fte galante, though there had been a tacit acceptance of its
incidental nature.

He said:  "What about a little dinner?  Suppose we taxi down to

He was all profile to her for the moment.

"Why not!"

"You're free?"


They had crossed into Baker Street, linked no longer like young
things in quest of life, he--a little in front, and hurrying and
looking as though he expected her to hurry.  He paused on the edge
of the pavement, raised head expressing swiftness and impatience.
He seemed to have the wind in his eyes.  His impatience was
personal; he was being abrupt and casual when his purpose had
arrived at a reasoned gentleness.  His first glance at her in Mrs.
Gasson's doorway had been sudden and revealing, as though he had
not seen her for many months, and had returned to realize her as a
stranger.  He had been aware of her hard flimsiness.  Also, he had
begun to be horribly afraid of talking down to her, and all the
more so because he was horribly sure that there was nothing in her
that could be talked up to.

"There's a chap.  Hi, taxi, taxi!"

When the cab swung round to the pavement he opened the door for her
to enter.  Almost his impulse was to push her in, and to get
himself and her and their mutual involvement hidden inside the cab.

"Fleur de Lys restaurant, Soho.  Know it?"

"Yes, sir."


He got in and sat down beside her.

"How will the Fleur de Lys do for you?"


The word jarred on him.  He was thinking how strange it was that he
could find nothing to say to her.  He was feeling as awkward as an
overgrown boy, while she sat there in her corner with an air of
sleek rightness, watching him.  Fleur de Lys!  White lilies on a
blue shield!  And the trees of Portman Square, and the traffic, and
a pair of black glac shoes below two slim, flesh-coloured legs!
And what an extraordinary thing it was that she could have lost all
her lure for him, and that he should feel cold and rigid and mute,
unwilling to touch her or to be touched by her.

And what were impressions?  He stole an oblique look at her, and
was caught in the act.  He had to blurt out something.

"How's 'Mirabeau's'?"

"Oh, continuing," said she.

They were held up by a traffic block in Oxford Street, and leaning
forward, he appeared absorbed in watching the rear wheels of the
vehicle in front of them.  The silence--like Mirabeau's--continued.
But from her eyes and from the corners of her mouth a little acrid
smile began to trickle.

"You are bored with me, boy, aren't you?"

The traffic and their cab moved on.

"My dear," said he, "you and I are strangers.  We should never be
anything else."


Sitting opposite her in a corner of the Fleur de Lys, he ordered a
bottle of red wine.  The name of it did not matter; the wine-
waiter's grubby finger had indicated a Chteau Something or Other
on a page that was spotted.  The place was both pretentious and
second-rate; the Frenchwoman who waited on them was scented to the
eyebrows; three asters in a cracked vase looked--poor things--
shabbily ashamed and tired of life.

Olive had produced the inevitable mirror from the inevitable bag,
and it occurred to Lance to wonder how many times in a day she
peered at herself in that piece of glass.  Or was it just part of
her restlessness, or the counterpart of a Georgian woman's flirting
with a fan?  There was too much of the mirror and the shop-window.
But, poor little devil, she had had to scrap for her living, and
even her flimsies were little flutterings of courage.

He said--with a deliberate gentleness: "You look a bit tired.  I
wanted to talk."

She glanced at him over her mirror.  Her face had a frozen and
bright friendliness.

"You're just like the rest of them, my dear."

"Am I?"

"A cad--though you want to be a sort of high-brow cad."

The soup and the wine arrived.  He picked up his soup spoon, and
passing the bowl of it to and fro through the brown fluid, found
himself wondering how she knew.  And the phrase had an aptness.  A
high-brow cad!

He smiled, but it was a wincing smile.

"Causes and effects.  Supposing I married you--?"

"Thanks," said she.  "That would be a nice gesture, wouldn't it?
You needn't explain."

He paused with poised spoon.

"Then--haven't we both been cads?--I mean--it was supposed--"

"Was it?"

He tried to hold her glance, to compel her to look at him.


"Did you?"

"I didn't think--I felt.  Don't be manire, my dear.  We were just
hard and greedy young people.  I grant you now that one ought not
to be like that.  I suppose London makes one like that.  It's all

"Oh, yes, afterwards," said she; "when you have had what you
wanted.  But there's a difference."


"Between man and woman."

"But--is there?  Wasn't there anything in me--?"

She gave him a malicious look.

"Oh, that!  Aren't you rather a beast--to hint?  Because one
happens to be human."

Their soup plates were removed by the waitress, who observed them
with cynical but impartial curiosity.

He said:  "I'm sorry.  I suppose we are not going to have a row
here.  But since we are down to bed-rock, I'll tell you the truth.
I'm ashamed of this business."

"Thank you."

"It has taught me one thing, that a man has to choose between a
woman and his work.  That's the ultimate caddishness, I suppose,
but it's a fact."

She did not flinch, but her face gave him the impression of having
received a blow.  And it hurt him.  The memory of it was to hurt
him a little for the rest of his life.

She became flippantly calm.

"That's priceless of you.  You use the knife quite nicely.  Right-o;
I'm excised."



At that period of the year, when his Michaelmas daisies and his
early chrysanthemums were coming into bloom, old Pybus had two
matters on his mind--what the potent John Richmond would think of
Lance's novel, and how long and thoroughly a woman would sacrifice
herself to the blind hunger of things and of men?

The Venerable would not admit worry.  He differed from George, the
Saracen's head-waiter, who, in spite of a flat and sophisticated
blue eye, suffered from fantastic nauseas and inhibitions.  George
spent a great part of each day in watching overfed people
overeating themselves, until to George the very act of eating
became an offence.  He would be attacked by a kind of surfeit of
disgust, especially during August and its holiday atmosphere, the
"Month of the Guzzlers," as he called it, and he would lose weight,
and maintain himself on apples and toast and water.

"Munching and sucking, John; nothing but munching and sucking.  In
this hot weather it makes me feel all upset inside.  Nothing but
mouths, mouths.  Now--if they were children it would be sort of
natural--but all these fat people."

"Does it worry you, George?"

"Why, just look at the waste of it.  I tell you--that by the end of
August I don't want to see--ever--another tomato, or a round of
beef, or a veal and ham pie.  They look like rounds of beef and
chunks of pie, John.  Some day I shall blow up and go round
swishing at 'em with a table-napkin:  'Get out--you pigs.'"

The Venerable had to pacify George, holding George's attacks of
nausea to be symptomatic of a wholesome mind and not of a
disordered liver.

"You want a week on the east coast, George."

"I'm going.  Just bread and cheese and a glass of beer for me,
John.  And if anybody offers me a second helping of boiled beef and
dumplings--there'll be murder."

Cabbages are gross feeders, and continue to be cabbages, but the
Venerable's mysticism fed on apples.  Someone had discovered this,
and from the "Marions" orchard a little basket travelled twice a
week in the dicky of Mary Merris's car.  Old Pybus liked a good red
apple, and she brought him the choicest.

"Very good of you, my dear."

"Just one little thing I can do."

"Tush," said he; "it's fruit from the Hesperides.  How's life to-

She would go to his bookcase and stand and gaze.

"I survive.  Oh, books!  Choose me a book."

"With a laugh in it?"

"No, a book with courage in it.  Do the makers of books realize how
some of us need courage?  We, who happen to struggle with sordid
things, do not ask for dust-bins."

"I'll choose you a book, my dear.  But I do not question your

Who, in these days, speaks of a man or a woman as nailed to a
cross?--and yet that was how the Venerable thought of Mary Merris.
He approved and he disapproved.  If there was one person upon earth
whom he mistrusted, it was the good woman--so called, for the
mother of his sons had been of that sort of goodness, unripe fruit
smothered in sugar.  And Mary was sacrificing herself--and for
what?  He did not ask her whether it was worth her while, but he
asked himself that question, and the answer to it varied as the
mood of his response to the woman in her varied.  Was sottishness
worth saving?  Should the unfit and the futile be cherished at the
expense of the fit and the free?  He saw her as a rather tragic
figure fiercely absorbed in helping to perpetuate a tragedy.  Young
Merris was no good.  He was not even logically and understandably
bad.  He was an egotistical young rotter with a temperament, and
the very worst sort of temperament.  There were moments when old
Pybus would have suggested that wise circumstances might make a
useful end of the situation by pushing young Merris off the crown
of Castle Craven bridge.

But you could not say that to his sister.  She was one of these
women who persist in following sacrificial courses, because
sentiment in them has a fanatical urge.  She would have thrust her
hand into the fire just to prove that certain things have to be
done against the flinchings of the flesh.  And the Blond Beast of
Woolshot stood and watched and mocked her.


Mary might have echoed the words of Mrs. Gasson, who, when
challenged by some priestess of progress on the subject of
matrimony, had exclaimed:  "What's the alternative, dearie, what's
the alternative?"

On this September afternoon Mary straightened her back, and looked
about her from among the brown chicken houses, and if she saw
beauty of woodland and of hill she saw it with a conscious and
tense watchfulness.  She had the air of a woman who was listening,
not for some pleasant sound, but for movements of stealthiness and
deceit.  Suspicion, most horrible and humiliating of comrades to a
nature essentially generous!  To have to listen and to watch, and
to steal about like a shadow on the edge of another person's
consciousness, while knowing that you yourself were watched and
listened for!

She opened one of the wire doors and went slowly down towards the
orchard.  She looked across the valley towards Castle Craven, and
seeing it solidly grey and remote upon its hill, she paused as
though the old town had some message for her.  "Here I stand, my
dear.  I too have stood a siege, and though they battered at me I
did not surrender."  She recovered a moment of romance in
remembering how a young man on a white charger had ridden up the
valley at the head of two thousand "horse," and how the Parliament
men had marched away, and Castle Craven had rung its bells and
fired off its cannon.  A romantic occasion for those gaillard
cavaliers prancing up Castle Hill with a flicker of swords in the
sunlight, and over yonder eight hundred godly fellows sullenly
trailing their pikes eastwards.  Yes, such memories stirred her;
she had eyes for the colour of them.  Her inwardness was
irrevocably romantic, in spite of chickens and a motor-car that was
all rust, and the deplorable disharmonies, and the starving of her
powers of self-expression.  Or was it that her essential
romanticism expressed itself in the carrying of a flag?  And would
she, like Castle Craven, desire the coming of a young paladin upon
a milk-white horse, and ring her bells and throw flowers?  But how
old-fashioned!  Surely you should lean casually against a gun, and
with cigarette in mouth, drawl to your paladin:  "Hallo, old thing,
bit late--aren't you?  That's rather a topping tin hat you've got
on.  Sorry I can't stay.  I'm out of face powder, but now I shall
be able to get it.  Cheer-i-o."

She walked on, and then another memory arrested her and brought her
to a pause by the orchard gate.  Had it happened, and only
yesterday?  Had she surprised Gilbert rummaging at her bureau for
the petty cash that she had been compelled to hide?  And the sick
facility of the smile on his blind face!  She had felt a horrible
coldness, a humiliation that was both his and her own.

"What is it, Gil?"

"Bob's coming down.  You might realize--"

She had been shocked by the stillness of her own voice.

"How much do you owe him?"

Oh, the beastliness of it, the sneaking, shameful surreptitious
game that she was being compelled to play with this poor blind
thing!  And the beastliness of that other man, his almost
incredible meanness!  Because she would not play that other sort of
game!  Because his vanity had been slapped!

She went on and down through the orchard.  She found the front door
open, and an untenanted deck-chair standing on the little lawn.
She hesitated in front of that open door, for the very doorway of
her own home had become like a dark cupboard full of childish
terrors.  She heard the clinking of crockery.  The girl Nelly was
getting tea ready.

She called to the girl.


"Yes, Miss?"

"Where is Mr. Gilbert?"

"Don't know, Miss."

"Haven't you seen him?"

"I saw him go out of the gate, Miss."


"Maybe--half an hour ago."

She stood a moment, considering, one hand laid along her cheek.

"You had better keep tea back."

"Yes, Miss."

Going down to the white gate she followed her flair, and her
following of it was an act of courage.  The lane climbed gradually
to the Woolshot park gates, and a blind man tapping with a stick
could track his way along the grass bank and the oak fence.  That
was her conclusion, and confronting it she went on up the winding
lane under the shade of the beeches, conscious of an anger which
carried her against the tide of circumstance.


"Woolshot" had one of those Georgian porticos which suggest the
conventional setting for a "shooting party" as the unelect may see
it reproduced in a magazine of sport and of fashion.  Woolshot was
all grey.  The portico and its six steps were flanked on either
side by a terrace, and upon the terrace wall round box-trees in
stone vases punctuated the horizontal scheme like a row of gigantic
green plum-puddings.  In summer weather Woolshot took its tea here
outside the long windows of the gun-room and the library, for the
atmosphere of Woolshot was dominantly male.  And on this September
day Mr. Hargreaves had guests, three hard-bitten men and two women
with efficient, weather-beaten faces.  They had been shooting over
one of the Woolshot farms.

To them--Symes, the Woolshot butler, had brought a blind man,
leading him by the arm.

"Mind the step, sir."

"Hullo, young fellah my lad!  Run away again from your good sister,
have you?--This is Mr. Gilbert Merris.  Merris, you can't see my
crowd, but there are five of 'em.  Sit down, here's a pew."

Merris sat where he was placed, and took what was given him.  Very
sensitive to sounds and more especially to voices, he had no choice
but to listen to these strangers who talked of things of which he
knew nothing.  He sat and smiled that little sinister smile, and
held a tea-cup balanced on his knees.  He was ignored, and child
that he was, he resented it, and felt moved to push his weak voice
in among those wooden voices.  He was sure that these people had
faces of wood.  Their talk was all of the killing of things, and of
old Somebody's bad shooting and bad temper, and of a poaching
scuffle down at Burnt Barn, and of the domestic misadventure of
some neighbour.  He had a woman beside him, but she smelt of Harris
tweed like a man.  Hargreaves, straddling a chair, with his arms
resting on the back of it, smoked a cigar, and looked at nothing
with blue eyes that were sensual and sleepy.  The other voices were

Young Merris heard Hargreaves speaking to him.

"You ought to be pretty good at blind-man's buff, young fellah."

There was a tremor of the closed eyelids.

"That's a game I could play."

"Here, fill up; or will you have a cigarette?"

"I've left my pipe at home."

"Wild lad.  Catch hold.  Ha--!"

And suddenly Hargreaves was silent, staring with those blue eyes of
his over the stone coping of the terrace wall.  He had in view a
loop of the park road where it curved between two groups of old
trees.  He saw the tawny slip of a girl's figure, her brown skirt
and dove-coloured legs.  She had paused there.  She was looking up
towards the house.

He smiled.

"Supposing your sister comes to fetch you, young fellah?"

"But she won't.  Tell me if I'm in the way here."

"Don't be foolish.  You'll stay and have some dinner with me.  Oh,
yes, you will.  I'll see you home.  This crowd is pushing off
before long."

Meanwhile he watched the figure down yonder.  It seemed to
hesitate, and its hesitation interested him as the falterings of
some rather timid creature might interest a big tawny beast
couchant upon a rock.  Would she have the cheek or the courage to
come up to the house?  Were his playful pawings of her cub of a
brother exercising powers of persuasion?  Probably it was only a
question of time, for women are temperamental creatures.

He saw her turn back.  She retreated down the loop of the road and
disappeared behind the trees.  So, she had not the courage, or
perhaps her courage failed her in the daylight.  Yes, women--like
cats--were discreet and remote during the day, but when the
surreptitious night arrived they behaved differently.  He would
teach her a thing or two.  Meanwhile his people were getting up out
of their chairs and preparing to go.  Colonel Carstairs and his
wife had a forty-mile drive before them.

He laid a hand on Merris's shoulder.

"You stay there."


She waited at the gate.  It was one of those very still September
nights, with a moon coming up to hang poised over the Brent valley.
There were the lights of Castle Craven on the hill weaving upwards
in a kind of spiral, and a faint glare in the hollow below from the
headlights of an occasional car.  She heard the clocks striking in
Castle Craven, and a murmuring that was like the murmuring heard in
a hollow shell, the remote rush of the water over the weir at Abbey
Mill.  There were other sounds, the hooting of an owl in the
Woolshot woods, a taint rustling of some creature in the hedge
bottom, the soft thud of an apple falling upon the grass in the
orchard.  She listened, particularly, to the falling of the apples,
because there was a something in the sound that had for her a vague
and groping significance.  She counted seven such falls, and on
this windless night the parting of the fruit and branch seemed
strange.  So things happened.  So your tired heart went on beating.
So you stood waiting upon life, and wondering why you waited, when
one swift, ruthless act might set you free.

But these sounds were impersonal, and so was the beauty of the
September night, with the moonlight splashing upon the tops of the
beech trees, and Castle Craven glimmering like some dream town.
She stretched out her hands in the moonlight, and pointing her
fingers at the moon, looked along them.  This was mysticism.  This
was the passionless, cool, dew-drenched calm of a world purged of
its greeds.  Oh, to be impersonal; to hear nothing but the birds
singing in the woods and the wind in the trees; to hear not the
voices of men; to be able to reach up and draw down a spray of
apple blossom and inhale the clean pale scent of it; to sit in the
sun; to watch the wind stirring the grasses.  Peace, that peace
within yourself, the delight of innocent seeing and hearing and
smelling, and recording.  To be able to take colour and play with
it like an intent and happy child.

Oh, childishness, dreams, soft breathing!

Leaning upon the gate with her chin on her crossed wrists, she both
listened and tried not to listen.  Why should she have to listen?
Why should she have to wait for the sound of stumbling feet, and
for men's flushed voices?  How she hated the voices of men!

Why could she not be herself?

If she were old, fiftyish, serenely through with things, the futile
and restless things, like old John Pybus.  But was one ever through
with things?  To be purely impersonal is to cease to live.  Life's
fingers play upon red strings.  Your mood may be moonlight, but
moonlight passes.

Courage!  Was not courage the greatest virtue of them all?  Courage
in the face of the beast and before the feet of the fool, courage
when your heart faltered and your very gentleness stood still.

Another apple fell, but there were other sounds and she raised her
head.  She seemed to shrink away from the white gate; she went up
the path and into the house, and closing the door, locked it.  She
stood there feeling breathless.

One of the voices was singing.  At the gate there seemed to be some
sort of altercation.

"In you go, my lad."

"Don't want t'go in, Bob.--I want the moon."

"Oh, no you don't; you want to go to bed.  Easy over the stones."

"I'm skidding--Bob.--I want the moon; I want Nelly--I want--"

"Shut up--you ass."

"I'm not an ass.--Won't be called an ass."

"Right, my lad--you're a dear good fellah."

There were scufflings outside the door--thumpings.

"I'm locked out--Bob.--Mary--hallo--Mary!"

She waited with her hand on the key.

"Sit down there on the porch seat, my lad.  I'll ring the bell like
a gentleman and leave you to it.  Good night--young fellah my lad."

"Here--stay a bit--she'll be in a hell of--"

"Why, nothing's wrong; no harm done.  See you to-morrow."

She heard Hargreaves go down the path, and the thud of the gate as
he closed it.  So this was his "That's that," his gesture of
ironical playfulness!  A nice, gentlemanly gesture, the leaving of
her brother drunk upon her doorstep!  Had such an incident been
described to her she would have declared it inconclusive, and quite
unlikely.  Meanwhile her brother was fumbling at the door handle,
and beginning to swear foolishly.


She unlocked and opened the door, and he blundered forward against

"What--locking a man out!  I'm--all--right--"

She pushed him past her into the passage, and closed and relocked
the door.



Lance went down to Windover for that week-end, but before going he
wrote to John Richmond a letter that had become inevitable, "Rust"
would not be finished by the end of September, and Lance asked for
another fourteen days.  He made no excuses.

"I could rush it--but that would be no compliment to you.  I think
you were right when you lashed me a little at the 'Reform' that
day.  My sense of landscape is returning."

Richmond's reply was as inevitable as the tone of Lance's letter:


"By all means take your fourteen days.  A date can be relative.

"As to your reference to my 'lashings'--I am a little touched by
it.  Does any man love criticism?  Only fools offer criticism--
without self-searchings.  I am glad of the landscape.  Let there be
a little of that blueness before rain.

                              "Ever yours sincerely,


But at Windover Lance experienced a sensation of change.  True, it
was indefinite and misty, like the stealing on of autumn outside
the windows of a house which had grown quieter.  He found his
mother and father alone, and in looking at his mother he was made
to wonder, for it seemed to him that she too had undergone a
change, a transmutation that he might have described as a softening
and a fading of her colours.  She talked less loudly.

So--too--with his father.  Probyn had grown more silent, a little
more wooden in his movements, less sententious in his son's
presence, and yet there was in his silence a something that his
civic urbanity had lacked.  And there were details in and about the
house that Lance should have noticed, and did notice so far as
youth pays attention to such things; his rooms kept just as they
had been in the old days, the flowers on his writing-table, a kind
of tacit acceptance of him and his temperament and his work.
Windover was Windover, old brick and freestone, and tile and lead;
his father's hands had refrained from daubing a too prosperous
newness over the house's face.

Lance wondered.  The change made him feel faintly self-conscious
and uneasy.  At meals he had the impression of two elderly people
entertaining a stranger, but a stranger whom they wished to know
more intimately.  They listened to him.  Their attentiveness was
just a little pathetic and strained.  It was as though a door had
been left open and two oldish people were sitting waiting for
someone to enter.

On the Sunday Lance and his father wandered out to look at a new
plantation.  They went up through the beech woods, Probyn stiffly
twirling a stick.  His very squint had a preoccupied vagueness.

"How's the book, Lance?"

"Nearly finished."

"That's good.--This man Richmond--"

"He's reading it next month."

They paused on the brow of the hill, standing side by side, but a
little apart.  Lance appeared absorbed in the view.

"Have you got an agreement?"

"Oh--nothing on paper--yet."

"Better let me read it--before it is signed.  These publisher chaps--
some of them--"

Lance's head went up.  His voice was curt, more curt than he

"Richmond's a gentleman."

He did not see the little, wincing look on his father's face.

For Probyn was trying to talk to his son, and to talk to him in a
new way, yet now--as always--somehow making a mess of it.  But
there was a difference, in that Probyn was very conscious of his
fumblings, and of the dear and difficult stranger in his son.
Though trying to be kind and unsententious, how was it that he
managed to say the wrong thing, a thing which should have been
right for most men, but seemed wrong for Lance?  Was it that his
son was more difficult than other sons?  Or were all sons
difficult?  Was the relationship inherently impossible?  And what
of his own father?  Had old John found in him the stranger that he
was finding in his son?  Yes, it was probable.--And Probyn,
inwardly unhappy, fell back upon a vague and impersonal kindness.

After dinner he did make a second and tentative attack upon Lance's
quiet and unconscious aloofness.

"Book coming out in the spring, is it?"

"If Richmond approves."

"I was going to say--that if you find it difficult to manage--
feeling a bit poor--"

"Thanks, pater, very good of you, but I shall manage."

To his father, his manner appeared over-confident and a little
aggressive.  It was final.  It seemed to close a door upon which
was painted the word--"Private."  But there was one remark of his
father's--made during the day--that did arrest Lance's attention
and remain with him.  It referred to his Uncle Conrad, Lance's
"Perfect Swine."  Sir Probyn had said:  "Ah, Conrad doesn't know
how to grow old decently," a very apposite and significant remark,
and one with which Lance was in cordial sympathy.

As for his mother, she sat and watched, and talked, but not at him
as of old.  She was both talkative and dumb, or like a woman
suddenly careful of her aspirates; and the interrogating puzzlement
in her eyes caused him to feel vaguely disturbed.

But if Probyn and his wife could not talk to their son, they could
talk to each other, and with a sympathy which sometimes comes when
two people realise that they are growing old.  Moreover, Dolly was
not well and Probyn was worried.  He might think of her as "Poor
old Dolly," because there were many moments when he thought of
himself as "Poor old Probyn," and because he was not a bad sort of
man, and mellowing fast now that the business part of him was

The conversations carried on through the dressing-room doorway were
more human and friendly.

"He just won't talk to me--Byn.  He makes me feel a stupid old

Probyn was unbuttoning his braces.

"Funny period, old lady.  Suppose there always is.  Suppose we had
our funny periods.--Maybe we've got to wait."

"Yes, p'raps so.  Seems rather hard, though.  And then--he'll be
getting married.  Children do hurt."

Her husband hung his braces over the back of a chair.  Something in
him winced.

"Hope you'll sleep better to-night, Doll.  If you get much more of
that pain--I'd like you to see--someone in town.  Don't like you
being in pain."


Mrs. Gasson of No. 7, calling upon Mrs. Carver of No. 17, not only
delivered a note, but left the impress of a fat and ingenious hand
behind her.  So, the young gentleman was away, but he would be back
on the Monday, and no doubt it would be good and right for him to
know that one of Mrs. Gasson's lodgers had been hurried off to a

"Yes, poor dear.  The pain came on in the middle of the night.  I
tried a hot bottle, and some turps on flannel, but it took her
something cruel.  'Pendicitis, so the doctor said, and in she went
to a nursing-home, toot-sweet.  She wouldn't go to a hospital, and
I don't blame her--butchers' shops I call 'em; though 'ow she's
going to pay's more than I know.  Robbers--they are.  But before
she was taken off she wrote this letter and asked me to see that
your young gentleman got it."

So, on the Monday afternoon, Lance stood by the open window and
read Olive's letter:

"BOY--I'm in such pain, but I'd like to say good-bye to you before
they take me off to this nursing place.  The doctor seems to think
it will mean an operation.  I'm frightened, but I suppose
everybody's frightened sometimes.  Good luck to the book.


He was touched, and touched to self-reproach, as no doubt she had
expected he would be, and he went straightway to No. 7, and was met
by Mrs. Gasson.

"No, poor dear; she was took away on Saturday.  No. 7 Blount
Street.  Maybe you're a brother of hers, sir."

"No--just a friend."

Mrs. Gasson, with serious and stout movements, inveigled him inside
the doorway.

"Well--that's a pity.  I wanted her to wire to her mother, but
would she?  Not she.  Said her mother 'ad quite enough worry.
She's got pluck.  I know, sir, when I 'ad my operation--I was all
of a dither.  An' then there's the expense.  They do charge you
something awful at these nursin' 'omes.  Coal--sixpence a lump.
I'm that upset about it.--I've known Miss Gadsden three years."

Lance listened patiently.

"No. 7 Blount Street?"

"Yes, sir.  Down Wigmore Street way."

"Thank you; I'll go and inquire."

He went, discovering Blount Street as two rows of flat-faced houses
all most respectably alike.  No. 7 had a green door, white window
sashes, and pale-rose-coloured curtains.  Its door furniture was
well polished, and its step immaculate.  Lance rang the bell.  A
very tall nurse with straw-coloured hair and a supremely impartial
face opened the door to him.  He raised his hat.

"Excuse me--but Miss Gadsden's a patient here?"


"I've come to inquire.  I believe she has had an operation."

The nurse was deliberate and careful.

"No--no operation--yet.  We are not quite sure.  Do you wish to
leave your name?"

"Yes.  Will you say Mr. Pybus called."

"Mr. Pybus?"

"Mr. Lance Pybus.  I suppose I couldn't see Miss Gadsden?"

"I'm afraid not.  Not to-day.  But I'll give your name."

"Thank you."

He raised his hat.  The nurse smiled faintly, and the door was
closed, and Lance walked up the length of Blount Street feeling
bothered and responsible.  It occurred to him--and very forcibly so--
that the expenses of an operation and of a nursing-home could not
be budgeted for in the financial estimates of a girl who displayed
dresses and taught dancing.  Poor Olive!  Why hadn't she chosen to
go into a hospital?  But surely that was a rather graceless
thought!  When you were ill and in pain you allowed yourself to be
hustled into any place where you might expect to find skill and
kindness.  But a nursing-home, and "coal at sixpence a lump," and
an operation fee!  That slim, feverish body in pain, and cut about!
Supposing?  Yes, supposing that he and Olive had been pledged in
some other way, he would have felt responsible, fiercely

He arrived--somehow--in Portman Square, and he walked round it
twice as though his physical activity corresponded to his mental
circling of a problem.  Ought he to do something, or try to do
something?  But what?  Help her with money?  But how?  He might
rake up ten pounds; he might ask his father, without giving any
reason.  No, damn it; he couldn't do that!  For one moment a far
more serious solution did suggest itself, but after considering it
with set brows, he thrust it aside.  Marriage?  Good heavens!
Could anything be more fatal than to marry out of pity, on impulse,
because you felt in a way--that you had taken something without
giving?  What an alternative!  He knew now--as some young men know
things--intuitively and ruthlessly--that marriage with a girl like
Olive would be a sin against self, against two selves.  His work?
A frittering away of everything that was difficult and big and
splendid in a relationship that would be hopeless and cheap and

He returned to No. 17, but he was unable to work.  The problem of
Olive lay like a blot upon the page, and in the end he went out and
walked and, turning towards Bloomsbury, he sought out Kit Sorrell;
but Sorrell was away at Winstonbury, spending a week with his
father.  The absence of his friend seemed to throw him back upon
his own deciding--though it was more a feeling than a reckoning.
He ought at least to stretch out a friendly hand to Olive, and with
a kind of inevitableness his thoughts went to his grandfather.  He
could manage ten pounds in cash, and he would write and ask the
Venerable to lend him money.  And that was what he did.  He sat
down and wrote the letter that same evening.


"This is the first letter of its kind that I have written to you.
I am asking you to lend me fifty pounds.  The money is not for
myself, but for someone I want to help.  I will give you a receipt,
and repay you by degrees.

"I suppose I ought to say that I hate asking you to do this, but
somehow--I don't.  If you refuse, I shan't ask you why, or feel

"The book is going well.  Richmond has given me another fortnight.
I shall be with you towards the end of the month, and I shall bring
the last part of 'Rust' with me.  I want you to read it before
Richmond sees it."

He posted the letter, and feeling calmed now that he had made this
decision, he wandered about the streets for an hour.


A part of the irony of language arises from the uses to which words
are put, for No. 7 Blount Street was neither home nor a place where
you were nursed, as nursing is understood by those upon whom it is
practised.  Olive had a little back room on the top floor.  Its
window overlooked the backs of other houses and the Blount Street
Mews, where the vigorous children of an aggressive proletariat
shouted and played games and kicked tins.  Cars returning to the
Mews at all hours of the night made pleasant and consoling noises.
The kitchen was in the basement, the water piped no higher than the
second floor.  There were no gas or electric stoves in the
bedrooms.  Nearly everything had to be carried up and down stairs,
and when a bell was rung a nurse had to climb from the ground
level.  But No. 7 Blount Street did not encourage the ringing of
bells, and Olive could not reach hers without getting out of bed,
which--in her case--was forbidden.  Moreover, the food was flat and
indifferent and messily served, and for the privilege of being
marooned in this room, with the proletariat noises provided below,
the fee was fifteen guineas weekly.

Isolated, and in bed at the top of the house, Olive had leisure to
think and to feel, and her thoughts were various and eloquent.
Life seemed a topsy-turvy business, and as ironical as the nursing
and the home where everything was arranged so that people were in
the worst of tempers.  Olive herself was frightened and worried and
on edge, and in a mood to review life as it had happened to her
during the last few years.  Life was certainly a precarious
business.  You scratched about for your seed like a hen.  It might
all seem very adventurous to begin with, but when you realized the
limitations of your own particular "run," conventionalism--a nicely
decorated conventionalism--had its advantages.

On that particular morning, not having seen a nurse for an hour and
a half, and not being supposed to get up and ring the bell, she lay
and fumed.  They had been so energetic at six in the morning,
washing her like an unwilling cat, and with water which had been
none too warm, and at eight something that was called breakfast had
arrived.  Certainly she had flowers on the table beside her bed,
but they had not been provided by the management of the "home."
Also, she was in something of a predicament, both financially and
emotionally, and desirous of snatching at one possibility while not
losing her chance of selecting the alternative.  For emotionally
she was somewhere at the end of things.  That is to say--she was a
little desperate.

Her wrist-watch on the table told her that the hour was half-past
ten, and not being tolerant of any further isolation she scuffled
out of bed and rang the bell.

The nurse found her looking flushed and defiant.

"You got up--against orders."

"Well, no one's been near me for an hour and a half.  I want--"

Her want was attended to, and the nurse's face was as cold as the
china.  There were dissemblings.  Your woman of no means must
always dissemble.

"Nurse--I'm afraid I'm a lot of trouble."

She appealed against that scolding face and those perfunctory

"I'm so sorry.--You are being so very good to me.  What time does
the doctor come?"

"About eleven--usually."

"May I see visitors?"

"That will depend."

"Yes--I suppose so.  But if Mr. Pybus calls."

The nurse, with lowered eyes, moved towards the door.

"Which Mr. Pybus?"

"The young one.  I want to see him--particularly."

"Not the old one?"

"He won't be here to-day."

The nurse left a cold reply trailing behind her as she closed the
door, and Olive, sitting up in bed and clutching the bed-clothes,
uttered under her breath the one word--"Beast."


The nurse preceded Lance up the stairs, and arriving outside Olive
Gadsden's door, opened it, and without entering the room, announced
her visitor.

"Mr. Pybus to see you."

She looked at Lance consideringly as he walked past her into the
room, and closing the door, remained for a moment or two on the
landing.  She heard Lance say:  "Olive--this is bad luck.  I'm

He was standing in the middle of the room looking at her, and
thinking that she looked quite different in bed, with her dark hair
hidden under a lace cap, and her eyes curiously watchful and not
too welcoming.  She was wearing a rose-coloured jacket.  The
flowers beside the bed were bronze and gold chrysanthemums.

"Sit down, boy."

He felt awkward and self-conscious.  When he went for a chair he
was aware of her eyes following him across the room.  He placed the
chair beside the table, so that he was slightly behind her as she
lay there on her back.

"Well--what do they say?"

She moved her head.

"I can't see you, boy."

"Do you want to see me?"


He moved his chair, and found a smile, but her face was quite

"Well--what do they say about you?"


"And that means--?"

"Yes, to-morrow."

"Poor Olive.--Frightened?"

"Oh, not much--one gets hard, you know."

She watched his eyes.  They avoided hers, and avoided them
consciously.  He looked at the floor, and the flowers, and out of
the window, and she could see him moistening his lips and frowning.

"They said I might stay ten minutes.  Look here, Olive, I've got
something to say.  We are friends still, aren't we?  This is rotten
luck for you.  I want you to let me do a friendly thing."

Her eyes narrowed.

"Oh, how?"

He looked at her two hands lying on the quilt.

"Well, as it might be--man to man.  We both have to scrap for a
living.  And these places must be--pretty ruinous.  I can manage
something now, and I may be able to manage something more in a few

Her eyelids quivered.

"Just what do you mean?"

He slipped a hand into a pocket, and bringing out an envelope, laid
it on the bed.

"A couple of fivers, my dear.  The best I can do for the moment,
but I have asked someone to lend me fifty.  You'll take it as a

She drew in her arms and with one swift movement sat up in bed.
Her lips were retracted.  He saw the white teeth.

"Cash on delivery!  No--thanks.  I don't want your beastly money.
Here--take it."

She flicked the envelope off the bed.

"And get out, get out quickly, or I'll throw things, you high-
minded, magnanimous beast.  Get out--"

She was as white as the pillow, and trembling, supporting herself
on her arms.  And Lance was standing, looking as white as she was,
and a little shocked and bewildered.

"My dear girl--I--"

"Get out!"

Her voice had a shrillness.

"And pick up that envelope.  You had better get out or they'll hear
me telling you things."

He bent down and picked up the envelope, and facing her backed to
the door.  His colour had come back with a rush.

"I'm sorry.  I thought--"

"Get out of my room."

He fumbled his way out of the door, and closing it gently, went
slowly down the stairs.


Afterwards she wept, and tried to dry her eyes with the frill of
her lace cap.  It was an emotional storm, compounded of anger and
the pain of a mauled self-love, and of mortification born of the
consciousness that as a woman somehow she had failed.  She was
angry with herself, and she was angry with him.  She had had no
retort save that anger.  She had been hurt, and she wanted to hurt
back.  She told herself that--somehow--she would be even with him.
His work--indeed!  Swollen-headed, and superior young cad!  She
refused to reason.  She would not allow that the relationship had
been an experiment in naturalism, irresponsibly begun, and more
responsibly ended.

The nurse found her with red eyelids.

"I want to write a letter.  There's a writing-pad in my suit-case."

Said the nurse:  "You've got a temperature."

"I'm in a damned bad temper, my dear, if that's what you mean.  Be
a dear and get me the paper."

She wrote her letter, using a pencil:


"Poor little Olive is to be cut up to-morrow.  But, dear man, I'm
so comfy here, and so full of purrings over somebody's kindness.
I's tryin' hard not to be frightened.  Do come and sit downstairs
while it's going on.  I shall feel that dear old Wog-wog is there,
and it'll help--just lots.

"You're not to worry.  I shall come up smiling.  I've got your
flowers beside me.




Lance met Mrs. Carver on the stairs.

"Any letters for me?"

"No, sir."

He went up and past her as she stood back against the wall.  The
Mrs. Carvers of the world were mere shadows to him, while he walked
in the sunlight of his young selfishness, but on this September day
his self had begun to cast a shadow.  He had been made aware of it
as of a thing surreptitious and sly, a something mean which smirked
up into his face, and followed close, and stood beside him as he
closed the door of his room.  Two neat white piles of manuscript
lay side by side on the blue cloth of the table.  Before starting
out on that visit to Olive he had been reading through the first
twenty chapters.

He sat down and looked out of the window.  He had brought away with
him from No. 7 Blount Street the memory of a girl propped up in bed
on two quivering arms.  She had screamed at him.  Angry?  Yes, she
had been more than angry.  You might have called it hysteria, and
with that redness still lingering about his ears, he had proposed
to call it hysteria.  Olive had gone in off the deep end--because--?
Yes, just why?  And when he had assured himself that he was
doing the generous thing.

But had he been generous?  Outside in the street, and walking fast,
he had been conscious of a feeling of relief, yes--almost of
exultation.  The business was done with; he could get back to work;
and he had felt himself gloating a little, youth with the apples in
its pocket, and the gardener fooled.  But in that moment of
meanness he had--as it were--turned suddenly about and discovered
the face of that other and smirking self, the male thing naked and

Shocked?  Yes, he had been shocked.  He sat at the window and
stared, and remembered that she had called him a cad.  He had not
been aware of his caddishness, but in the open street, with that
smirking and cynical self walking daintily beside him, he had
discovered it.  He was a cad.  And perhaps for the first time in
his life he realized the underworld within himself, those shameful
crowd faces, the blatant complacency of satisfied sex, the many
meannesses which walk at a man's elbow.  And he was staggered.
While believing himself generous he had behaved like a commercialist;
he had gone to her in her moment of blackness, and coolly had closed
the account.

But what was to be done?  It was she who had closed the account,
and given him his dismissal.  She had presented him with one of
those human records that are put away, but not forgotten, and
which, when recurring, as they do recur, reproduce beauty or
ugliness, a secret joy or a secret shame.

For, in after years, when confessing to this adventure and
describing its anti-climax, he asked a particular woman a question.
"What should I have done?"

And as a woman she had answered his question.

"I think you should have thanked her.  You should have said:
'Dear, you have given me a beautiful time, and a beautiful memory.
I shall not forget it.  You could not have given me more.'"

"But would she have been satisfied?"

"Yes, and no.  It would have depended upon how you did it, and upon
how you felt when you did it.  There are different ways of
presenting a bouquet.  You should leave the woman the right to feel
that the bouquet was not made of artificial flowers.  Leave her a
perfume.  Do you understand me?"

"Now--I think I do."


In the morning came the Venerable's letter, and a cheque for fifty

"MY DEAR--I'm glad you asked me.  Take it and use it as you

That letter roused in Lance deeper self-searchings, and also a more
subtle feeling of humiliation.  He had gone to this one man in the
world, and had borrowed money from him in order to salve his
conscience after a sexual escapade.  But how had it happened?  How
was it that the eyes of to-day were so different from the eyes of
yesterday?  Had he not been sorry for Olive; had he not felt
compassion, and the desire to help her?  But his compassion had
been self-centred, sublimated egotism; it had not spilled itself
over into an understanding of that other human self.  He had
imposed his pity upon her; he had treated her as the Olive of his
own wilful conceiving and not as Olive as she was.

But what was to be done?

Should he write her a letter, and ask her to take the money, but
ask her differently?  Or should he go and place the money in the
hands of the doctor or the matron, and ask one of them to use it
without letting Olive know?  He wanted to do something.  He wanted
to make amends, while dimly realizing that there are some things
that cannot be amended.

He remembered that Olive's operation was to be performed at eleven
o'clock, and being urged on by the thought of it, he went out and
took a taxi to his bank.  He presented the Venerable's cheque, and
asked for cash.  The manager, consulted by the clerk, and seeing a
Pybus signature on the cheque, came forward and was gracious to
Lance across the counter.

"A family cheque, Mr. Pybus?"

"My grandfather's signature."

"Of course--we shall be very glad to cash it for you.  Some names
are sufficient security.  How will you take it, sir?"

So, Lance walked on to Blount Street with a wad of five-pound notes
in his breast pocket, and in his head an idea that was neither
quite Quixotic nor quite practical.  If he could persuade the
matron in charge of the home to take the money on Olive's behalf,
and to give him a receipt for it, he would at least have succeeded
in freeing her from a part of her dilemma.  As for the surgeon's
fee it would either be humanely nominal, and so, capable of being
dealt with, or the blood money of the commercialized expert--and
therefore to be whistled for.  That was Lance's summing up of the

In Blount Street he felt far less sure of himself and his
inspiration.  He walked down it on the side of the even numbers,
glancing across at the green door of No. 7 as he passed.  At the
end of the street he was in the act of facing about when a car
swung in from a side turning, a big blue saloon with a chauffeur at
the wheel and a man in the back seat.  Lance had a momentary
glimpse of the man's profile.  The car went on up Blount Street,
and drawing over, stopped outside No. 7.  The man got out, and
standing with his back to the street, and his face to the green
door, rang the bell.

Lance stood and stared, for the car was his Uncle Conrad's car, and
it was Conrad himself standing on the doorstep of No. 7.  What the
devil was he doing in Blount Street?  Lance saw the green door
opened by a nurse, and Conrad's stout figure entering immediately
as though he had been expected, and had the right of entry.  But
what an extraordinary coincidence!  Obviously, Conrad must be
interested in one of No. 7's patients.

Lance strolled back up the street, but stopped before he came
opposite the windows of No. 7.  He looked at the car's rear number-
plate.  Yes, there was no doubt about it; the car was Conrad's, and
Conrad's chauffeur knew him, and he did not think that he wished to
be seen by Conrad's chauffeur.  He turned.  He was perplexed.  He
decided to go for a stroll, and to return in a quarter of an hour,
but at the lower end of Blount Street the coincidence of Conrad and
his car linked itself to two other facts and became associated with
them.  Lance suddenly remembered Conrad's passion for dancing, and
those fat legs of his absurdly wobbling in the throes of the
Charleston.  And Conrad had been accustomed to talk boastfully of
his dancing lessons.

Lance stopped dead.  Good Lord!  Was it possible?  Could Conrad be
Olive's elephas, one of the fat fellows who trod upon her toes?
Was he interested in Olive?  Had he turned up to hear the result of
the operation?

Lance glanced back up Blount Street.  The blue car was still there,
and French--Conrad's chauffeur--had left his seat, and was standing
beside the car, smoking a cigarette.  Obviously his uncle's visit
was not a flying one.  Conrad had gone in to wait.

The coincidence seemed almost too significant, and Lance turned
into a side street, digesting that most unpleasant supposition, and
conscious of a kind of emotional chilliness.  It was not unlike the
feeling of physical chilliness before an attack of nausea.  He was
on the edge of seeing life coloured green and yellow.

After twenty minutes of idling in other streets he returned to the
lower end of Blount Street, only to find that his Uncle Conrad's
car was still in possession of the frontage of No. 7.  French was
chatting to a maid who had appeared on the steps of No. 9's area.
Lance swung round and went off upon another beat.  How long did an
operation for the removal of an appendix last, and if Conrad was
interested in this particular operation, was he staying to hear the
result?  A rather intimate situation!  For, if his Uncle Conrad was
interested, it would be interest of a particular kind; for Lance
could not visualize Mr. Conrad Pybus as the fatherly altruist and
friend.  And Lance was beginning to chafe not a little, and to feel
that his compassion had flown too high, and might come tumbling.
But Conrad!

Once again he looked into Blount Street.  The blue car remained,
and he went off again with a fiercer action, and a tightness of the
lips.  Damn Conrad and his car!  He must have been hanging about
for an hour and a half.  But on the next occasion he became the
witness of a piece of interplay which added colour to his
conjectures.  Conrad, minus a hat, was standing on the doorstep of
No. 7, and French, half in and half out of the car, was reaching
for something, and that something proved to be a big bouquet of red
and gold chrysanthemums.  French handed the flowers to his master,
and Conrad re-entered the house.

Chrysanthemums!  Of course!

Lance's head was up, his nostrils looking a little pinched.  So--
this was the position!


But his youth blew cold in him, and his eyes were like the eyes of
his grandfather.  Assuredly he was going to see this thing through,
and so he hung about the end of Blount Street until Conrad's car
had disappeared.  He waited for another ten minutes.  He was
feeling fierce, largely because of the unpleasant qualms that were
active within him.  He walked very rapidly up Blount Street and
rang the bell of No. 7.

A maid opened the door.

Said Lance--looking her straight in the eyes:  "My name's Pybus.  I
want to see the matron, please.  If she is busy for the moment I'll
come in and wait."

He walked in past the girl and laid his hat down on a table in the
narrow hall.  The maid had given him a perplexed and protesting
look, but when a visitor was in he was in, and Lance made her think
of Valentino.  She closed the street door.

"Will you go into that room, please."

"This one?"

"Yes.  I'll tell Miss Saxby.  Mr. Pybus--you said?"

"Yes.  Mr. Pybus."

Lance entered the front room, which was the matron's sitting-room
and office, and was met by his Uncle Conrad's chrysanthemums
standing in a big Doulton vase.  He walked to the window, and
looked out into Blount Street.  He heard voices on the stairs.

"I told you--no more visitors to-day, Kate."

"Yes, but he walked right in, Miss.  And he said that if you were
busy he would wait."

"Mr. Pybus--?  But--Mr. Pybus?"

"It's a young one, Miss."

Lance stood prepared.  Hearing someone enter the room, he faced
about and smiled at Miss Saxby, but the smile was not returned.
She was a woman with limp grey hair, very cold eyes, and a mouth
that had no lips.  It was like a little sharp slit in her watchful,
smooth face.

"Good morning," said Lance.  "I'm very sorry to trouble you, but
will you tell me how Miss Gadsden has borne her operation?"

There was a pause.

"Are you a relative?"

"No, a friend."

"I see.  The operation has been completely successful."

"I'm very glad."

There was a second pause.  It was obvious to Lance that Miss Saxby
regarded his presence as an intrusion, and, perhaps, as an
impertinent intrusion.  He had no status.  For Miss Saxby had the
official mind, and her efficiency extended to the making and
observing of social adjustments, and less than twenty minutes ago
she had been officially interviewed by Mr. Conrad Pybus.  Conrad
had status.

She did not ask Lance to sit down.  She left the door open, and
stood by it, and with folded hands and set shoulders, waited for
him to go.

Lance had his moment of audacity.

"You will excuse me, but may I ask you to take charge of a sum of
money on Miss Gadsden's behalf.  May I assume that you would be

She stared.



"Do you mean to say that you owe Miss Gadsden money?"

"No.  I wish to be of some assistance."

His impression was that he had never seen a pair of eyes so cold
and unfriendly.

"On no account.  Besides, Miss Gadsden's stay here has been
arranged for by the gentleman to whom she is engaged."

Lance made a little movement of the head and body.

"I see.  Thank you for telling me.  Of course--it would be quite


"If her fianc has made himself responsible."

He walked to the door, Miss Saxby revolving like a movable figure
on a pedestal, but remaining exquisitely rigid.

"Thank you.  Good morning.  I am sorry to have troubled you.  But--
by the way--you had better regard my visit as unofficial."

He gathered up his hat from the hall table.

"Neither Miss Gadsden nor Mr. Conrad Pybus need know of my visit."


Lance's closing of the door of No. 7 Blount Street might have been
taken by most male creatures for a sober "Well--I'm damned!"

But he was neither damned nor saved, though in the course of a
couple of hours he had passed through moods of extreme innocence
and of complete sophistication.  There was nothing more to be said.
He had been pushed over the edge of himself into icy water.  He had
gulped it.  He had emerged with a fierce, cold glow, and a blending
of the emotional colours into hard white light.  He was neither
angry nor ashamed, nor sorry, nor disgusted.  True--he had suffered
momentarily from an intense nausea.  It was as though he had cast
off all his emotions, and was walking in spiritual nakedness up
Blount Street.

He felt supremely cold and amazingly clear-headed.  He viewed the
situation as he might have viewed a situation in his own novel,
without prejudice and without pity, merely as an interpreter.
Also, he seemed to have a complete and sudden understanding of the
affair's human necessities, its justifications, its pathos which
was not pathetic; though he was not quite sure whether he had the
laugh of Conrad, or whether Conrad had the right to chuckle.  But
did it matter?  Did one laugh on such an occasion?

His practical gesture took the form of a second visit to his bank,
and a handing back across the counter of those notes.

"Sorry.  I find that I shan't want this money till the week-end.
Can I leave it with you?"

"You'll have to pay it into your account, Mr. Pybus."

"Oh--all right.  I'm afraid I'm giving you a lot of trouble."

"Oh, not at all."

He went out, smiling, and returning to Parham Crescent, sat at his
open window, his widely open window, and felt that life had both
enlarged itself and grown more particular.  Pah, what a business!
And yet he was able to understand the pity of it, the jumble of
fleshly necessities and foolishnesses, the sordid little
strategies, the bargainings and deceptions.  Just because sex
should not be a business proposition.  Each of the three had been
out for sexual self-expression, and he had been eliminated.  Thank
the Lord!  And poor old Conrad was left to pay for and comfort poor
little Olive!  Oh--well--it had become their affair, and, after
all, the Perfect Swine had behaved rather decently.

But Lance felt that he needed clear air and that widely open
window.  The reaction was upon him, a turning towards the sea and
the sky, and music, and work.  His sophistication and his
simplicity had been ducked in the same pond, and he had some muddy
water to get rid of.  Poor little Olive, poor Uncle Conrad, but not
poor self.

And yet there was a man in him that cried out:  "I want to believe
in people.  I--must--believe in something.  I want to get back to

Yes, mystery!  But what was mystery?  Moonlight, and Spanish music,
and old trees, and eyes that could weep?  Was it romantic self-
foolery?  Had it an esoteric significance?  Were all seers and
poets fools, and the only wise men your chemistry professor and the
porter who opened to you the door of a night-club?  What rot!  His
thoughts flew out of the open window, and soaring like birds--or
like those pigeons of the Venerable's--winged their way to Castle


Lance went down to Castle Craven with the tang of September in his
blood.  The stale season was over, and the year and its enterprise
renewed.  He had the Venerable's money in his pocket, and "Rust"
complete, save for the last three chapters--neatly tied up in brown
paper and packed away at the bottom of his suit-case.  He walked up
through Castle Craven with the lightness of a young man who had
dropped a load of mischief from his shoulders, and to whom the day
was a renewal of the great adventure.  For sometimes youth is so
sure that the path goes straight forward over the hill, though the
path may prove itself to be a circle, and at its best an ascending
spiral.  Man's feet are prone to return to the same slough, the
same lotus pool, the same house in Queer Street.


"Hallo, my dear."

Lance put his suit-case on a chair.

"I've brought you all sorts of things."

Old Pybus smiled under his white eyebrows, seeing his grandson's
face as the face of three years ago.


"Well--there's the book.  It's good.  I believe it is better than I
thought.  And this--"

He had the money in his hand.

"I didn't need it--after all.  But your sending of it, grandpater--"

"Was nothing, my dear."

"I think it was everything."



Old Pybus sat up till midnight, his white head close to the green
shade of the lamp.  He had read his grandson's novel from Chapter 1
to Chapter 32, and when he put the book away and lit his candle,
his heart was glad in him.

"Good business!"

After turning out the lamp he went slowly up the little steep
staircase, the treads of its steps very white on either side of a
strip of brown coconut matting.  He trod softly, and pausing
outside his grandson's door, stood listening.  By all the
probabilities Lance should be asleep, but the Venerable, full of
his own wakefulness, divined a like wakefulness in Lance.  He
rapped gently at the door.

"Is that you, grandpater?"

"Yes, my dear.  Many happy returns of the inspiration."

"You like it?"

"Great stuff--at your age.  Had to stop and tell you.  Good night."

"Goodnight, grandpater.--I'm glad.--You've had a hand in it."


"Oh--yes--you have."

"A little stirring with a spoon--on one occasion.  Good night, and
God bless you."

In Lance's consciousness this little narrow stairway cut a cleft.
It was so clean and so steep, not to be taken at a rush either up
or down, and you had to be careful of your head or a beam would
smite you.  They were ascetic stairs, and yet so very intimate,
accompanying him up to that bedroom with the muslin curtains and
the pink and white wallpaper, where he had a table at the window.
The window itself was full of the spacious sky drawn taut across
the Brent valley, and the Castle and its ash trees marking the hour
in shadow upon the turf of the Castle Field.  And somehow the
smallness and the simplicity of the room helped him to concentrate.
It was very quiet; he was secure against disturbance.  It was like
a celibate's cell in the midst of the growing complexity of modern
life, and he could withdraw into it, and be saved from too much
subtlety, and from being too damned clever.

For, as the Venerable would have it--"There's nothing so damning,
my dear, as being too damned clever."

On the Sunday, Lance went up to his room directly after breakfast.
His craft had its ritual, its little personal predilections; the
window had to be open, but not too much so; a box of matches lay
handy; the ink-pot stood just where he could dip his pen into it
without being conscious of dipping.  He preferred an old-fashioned
pen.  The deal table provided by the Venerable was an eighth of an
inch short in one leg, and had to be underpinned with an old
envelope folded four times, and if you moved the table the padding
came adrift.

Lance sat down.  He allowed himself to look at the landscape while
he filled a pipe.  The Venerable had gone on duty, and from nine
o'clock till twelve the cottage would be a box of blessed silence,
and silence was to become more sacred to Lance with each year of
his living.  He would come in his time to marvel at the world's
waste of words, and at the vacuous, fool-chatter poured out
unceasingly by people who had nothing within them worthy of

At the top of a white page he inked in the heading--Chapter XXXIII.
He sat and looked at the Castle trees.  There were days when his
consciousness would seem too tense and alert, and ready to be
distracted by trivial happenings; a fly crawling on the window-
pane, a hair caught up in the nib and smudging the letters.  There
were mornings when your chair creaked, or your pipe refused to
draw.  He knew this feeling of tension, this fear of the pen, this
over-sensitiveness to the externals.  Often it preceded a rush of
inspiration.  But relaxation was necessary, that clairvoyant calm.
He would sit back in his chair, and looking at the sky and the tops
of the trees, say to himself--"Relax--relax.  Let things come."
That mysterious self which lies beneath the conscious self, had to
be persuaded to rise to the surface.

He was on the edge of what he described as "Getting off," when he
heard the closing of a door, and the sound of two voices, his
grandfather's and a woman's.  They were in the room below.  The
sitting-room window was open, and Lance could hear what the two
voices said.

"I feel--that--it can't go on much longer."

"Poor child."

"I must talk.  Sometimes one must talk."

"I'll shut the window, my dear.  My grandson's working upstairs.
Don't want to disturb him."

The window was closed, and the murmur of the two voices continued
for a couple of minutes, and then it ceased.  A door opened and
shut, while Lance sat stiffly attentive.  His personal consciousness
had come back to him.  The moment of inward illumination had passed.

Usually he would have felt some impatience, or like a man on the
edge of sleep jarred into sudden wakefulness, but on this Sunday
morning he accepted the two voices.  They were not fool-voices, and
his self had been appeased.  "I must talk.  Sometimes one must
talk."  Of course!  Moreover, the girl's voice had had an
inevitableness.  And that utterance had had for him the appeal of
the first few notes of a violin when some human movement opens.  He
ceased to feel impersonal.  He stood up and looked out of the
window, and saw the two figures pass along by the fence at the end
of the cottage garden.  Mary Merris and his grandfather.

He watched them across the Castle Field.  They disappeared behind a
grey wall, and he stood holding the curtain aside, very conscious
of the memory of a woman surprised in the midst of her weeping.
Why had she wept?  What was it that could not go on much longer?
What had she to say to his grandfather, and he to her?

Lance stood there to interpret, but the interpretation had a
sudden, personal significance.  It was within himself, and not to
be externalized.  He sat down in his chair, and smoked his pipe,
and watched.  He could picture those two standing in the oriel
window and looking out over the Brent valley, or sitting on one of
the green benches under the ash trees, but the girl's face was
misty to him.  In imagination he could not see it clearly--the eyes--
the mouth, and suddenly he was conscious of wishing to see it
clearly.  Her voice was not quite like any other voice.  But the
Venerable, he could see, that massive white head, and the kind and
incorruptible blue eyes.

He sat and waited, and presently he saw his grandfather come back
alone, and looking rather as he looked when he fed his pigeons.
His eyes and face had an upwardness.


Lance and his grandfather dined together at half-past twelve.  Old
Pybus carried the meal down on a tray from the Saracen kitchen,
roast beef and Yorkshire pudding, potatoes and kidney beans, and
two helpings of cold plum tart.  They sat down opposite each other,
and the silence between them was sensitive and expectant.  For the
Venerable had a feeling that Lance was going to ask him a question,
and Lance had that question waiting upon his lips.

"Hope we didn't disturb you, my dear?"

Lance, setting to upon that very English dinner, accepted his

"No.  I was just casting about.  Good of you to think about it,
grandpater.  Besides--"

Old Pybus, knife and fork in hand, cut a potato in half, and

"Some things are importunate."

"Things or people, my dear?"

"Both.  I'll confess, that before you shut that window--"

The Venerable gave him a quick look.

"You did."

"I couldn't help it.  And I don't know whether I wanted to help it.
Some things have a kind of inevitableness.  I suppose I could not
be allowed to know--?"

"Just what?"

"Yes, just what."

Old Pybus went on with his dinner, but with an air of being less
concerned with it than he was with the affairs of his head and
heart.  Lance had spoken of the importunity of certain things, but
the obviousness of them might be equally assertive.  Curiosity--as
mere curiosity--may be an idle virtue.  And yet the Venerable could
be influenced by little secret imaginings.  He was ending life as a
romanticist.  A man's outlook and his reactions seem largely a
matter of temperament, and dependent upon the heat of his mystical
blood.  His grandson had that blessed ardour which will persist in
discovering beauty where the eyes of the realist can see nothing
but dreariness and muck.

"There's an art of living, my dear, as well as an art of writing."

Lance considered the digression.  What had beauty of living to do
with a woman's tears?

"You mean, grandpater, that what I might try to put on paper--?"

"Beauty, my dear.  There's such a thing as beautiful living.  The
fine gesture, the compassionate gesture.  When you come to the end
of life such gestures seem worth while.  But most of our gestures
are muddled gestures.  That ought to be obvious, but it isn't."

Lance looked hard at his plate.

"So--you can't tell me--?"

"I'm not at liberty to tell you, my dear.  I don't gossip about
her, no, not even to you."

"Sorry, grandpater; I did not mean--"

"I know.  Physical things and spiritual things muddled up together.
And the spiritual--striving to be itself.  What's the balance, the
balance between body and spirit?  Oh--that's the art, the balancing
of those two."

Lance got up and changed the plates.  He had a feeling that his
grandfather was talking just to tantalize him, which--of course--
was absurd, for all this mystical stuff must have a human core to
it.  He placed the cold plum tart and a jug of cream on the table.

"You might be setting me a problem, grandpater."

The Venerable handled the cream jug.

"Perhaps.  There are live problems, my dear, as well as problems on
paper.  And the inevitable fly in the cream jug!  How to exclude
the fly.  Or to keep the wasp from gnawing a hole in the fruit!
But other people's problems--"

"She's asking you to help her solve it, grandpater."

The Venerable removed the fly with the handle of a spoon.

"Wish I could, my dear, as easily as that.  All sorts of ways of
solving a problem.  Cutting it out--is one of them.  Now, if I were
a young man!  The violence of youth!  Violence may be useful--"

He arose to rid himself of a cream-soaked fly.

"Putting certain things and people out of the window.  Wish I could
do it sometimes.  There's an old saying about silk purses and sow's
ears.  The old people were more downright.  We're so subtle, my
dear, that sometimes we can't cut an apple in half.  Take plenty of

Lance did so.  The cream and the plum juice were sensuously
pleasing.  But why was the Venerable making all this mystery about
Mary Merris?


Lance turned from the high-road into the lane which led up past
"Marions" to the Woolshot woods.  He had come down from Castle
Craven to stretch his legs and to do some thinking, for if Old
Pybus saw certain things as in a glass darkly, Lance saw them not
at all.  It may be as difficult to tell just when an apple will
fall as to say when curiosity merges into interest.

To begin with, the "Marions" lane might be no more to Lance than a
green lane in September, the shaggy hedges closing in a steepish
ascent, a green cleft which ended in the blue of the sky and the
massive foliage of the beech woods.  A robin was singing, and Lance
idled.  He said to himself that this was the lane in which Mary
Merris lived, that mysterious Mary Merris into whose wet eyes he
had looked for one short moment.  But was any woman mysterious?  It
was a mere sex illusion.  And yet, as he went on up the lane, she
seemed to be pressing more deeply into a stillness, a secrecy, a
sadness.  He was neither a Jefferies nor a Hudson.  Green branches
were green branches, and might be monotonously so; his attitude to
nature was very personal; to youth, nature must have an intimate
meaning, some association with a face or a figure or an event.

Lance came to the white gate, and looking over it saw the white
porch flanked by the two yew trees, the green door standing open,
and someone's brown raincoat hanging on a peg.  The little house
seemed to him as shut in by silence, as it was shut in by green
leaves.  It had for him a curious melancholy.

He went on.  He became possessed by a feeling that an essential
something which belonged to that cottage penetrated the hedges like
a drifting perfume, and filled the lane with a scented sadness.  A
melancholy place.  And suddenly he paused, becoming aware of a
movement on the other side of the "Marions" hedge.  There was a
rustling.  He saw an apple-bough shaken.

Someone began to sing, though the murmuring of the voice was almost
inward, suggesting a little moaning, a sound produced almost
unconsciously by someone who was solitarily busy, and in a lonely
mood.  But the words and the melody were recognizable.

"Bend down, bend down to the waters, Melisande."

The music was not of his generation nor of hers, and yet it
belonged to all time.  The prongs of a light ladder appeared in the
foliage of the tree.  A branch trembled.  A dark head appeared, and
then a hand reaching out for a red apple.

The hand plucked the apple, but even in the plucking of it seemed
to hesitate as though the owner of the hand had been made aware of
that other presence.  She turned her head, but very slowly.  She
saw beyond the hedge Lance's upturned face and watching eyes.

Neither of them spoke.  He gave her a quick and self-conscious lift
of the hat, and went on up the lane, while she remained motionless
for a moment, her bosom pressed against one of the rungs of the


Early in October, No. 7 Blount Street restored to No. 7 Parham
Crescent the person of Olive Gadsden.  She was able to walk
upstairs, and unhelped, though Conrad was there to encourage and
assist, and to close the door on a too officious Mrs. Gasson.

"Get me a cushion, Con."

His fat hands stuffed a cushion into her chair.  His largeness,
swathed in grey, undulated sympathetically, and a round-eyed survey
of her apartment left him puzzled but not displeased.

"Can't think why you wanted to come back here."

"Stuffy little place--but the old woman's rather a good sort.
Besides--I don't sponge."

He bent down and pressed his full lips to the back of her shingled
neck.  He was full of nascent uxoriousness.

"Well--that's all right.  There won't be much wrong with Chlois
Court, Kid.  And what about 'Monte' for the honeymoon?"

She allowed him his fondlings, for obviously they were to be part
of the business.  She was feeling scratchy, and not in the best of
tempers, much as a shop-girl may feel at the end of the January
sales.  She cherished a sense of bitterness against both her
lovers, for one had ceased too easily to care, and the other's
caring was too inanely amorous.  Infernal predicament!  She was not
afraid of being fastidiously shocked by his fat finality, but she
was afraid of being bored by it.

Mrs. Gasson entered soon after Conrad had left.

"Well, I do 'ope as you are 'appy, dearie.  I must say he's a reel
affable gent."

Olive's red mouth seemed to writhe.

"He's a fool!  A damned slobbering fool!  If there were enough
girls like me we'd scream the roof off this blasted world."

Mrs. Gasson made soothing noises.

"There--there, you look at the ring on your finger, and think of
the car you come here in."

"Like to look."

She twitched the ring from her finger, and tossed it to Mrs.
Gasson, who, with a face of alarm, caught it in a fold of her

"My, it's a marvel!  Dimonds and roobies.  But you're that
reckless, dearie; you always was.  Now don't you be for spiting
yourself.  Marridge is marridge.  If you're out for marridge--well--
I always says to a gal, do it comfortably."

"I shall.  But suppose I didn't?"

"'Mirabeau's,' dearie!"



"I've averaged it out.  Don't ask me any more silly questions.  I'm
feeling a bit raw."

"Not hankering after the young one, are you?"

"Oh, shut up!  I'm staying on here for a week or two.  He wants to
take a furnished flat for me till the orange blossom season

Mrs. Gasson, quite imperturbed, handed back the ring.

"I'll get you a cup o' tea, dearie.  A cup o' tea 'elps you to get
sophical about things.  I got sophical long ago.  So'll you,
dearie.  It's just like moosical comedy, only sometimes you get
caught laughin' on the wrong leg."

So Olive sat at her upper window, and realising life as an affair
of bargains, yet felt a grudge against it.  She was not fastidious;
always--she had been too hard up to allow herself the cult of the
fastidious.  But she was conscious of the vulgarity and the
cheapness of her surroundings, and of her involvement in them.
Gossipings with that common, cynical, if kind, old woman!  Always--
the acceptance of the third rate and the tarnished.  She had had
her dreams of little splendours, and now comfort tempted her, a
sort of kindness which was like a large white pillow, money,
display, the power to do things, to order other people about, to
walk into "Mirabeau's" and buy the dresses off the shoulders of
other women.  As for the other half of the bargain--there was--as
Mrs. Gasson had said--the philosophy of getting used to things.
She was quite sure that she could manage Conrad, for when a man who
was past fifty got silly about a woman he could be kept silly.  She
would have breakfast in bed.  She would insist on her own car.  The
possibilities were varied and intriguing.

And yet she was conscious of resentment, of a feeling of rawness.
She would have liked to have combined the properties of youth and
the virtues of property.  She had her grievance.  She might be very
old in her sophistications, but she had a youthfulness of appetite.

Hence this little red blur of resentment which would not cool--but
retained its heat.  She sat at her window, and looked along the
crescent at that other window where Lance sat at work.  She could
not see him at work, but she saw his goings out and his comings in.
He was the same Lance; he had the same swift and ardent walk, the
same carriage of the head, that slimness at the hips and breadth of
shoulder.  He was everything that Conrad was not.  He never looked
up at her window.  He was obviously and cheerfully active about his
own affairs.

The little red blur of anger in her was formed to a fiercer glow
whenever she saw him.  She wanted to be even with him, to
retaliate, to hurt him as he had hurt her.  Her resentment hovered.

She sat and watched.  She had books, flowers, chocolates, Conrad's
daily homage, the croonings of an assiduous and well-rewarded Mrs.
Gasson.  She was able to walk out on those slim legs of hers and
sit in Regent Park.  She sat there in the October sunshine, under
the yellowing trees, a sulky-faced young woman with eyes which
seemed to be searching for some particular face or figure.

Her inspiration came to her quite suddenly while she was walking
back one afternoon to Parham Crescent.  She flushed; her eyes gave
a gleam.  Of course!  Why hadn't she thought of it before?

She met Mrs. Gasson on the landing.

"My, dearie, you--do--look better!"

"I feel better!"

"You're the peach blossom--again, I can tell you."

Olive sat down in her chair by the window.  She was able to
recapitulate the movements of No. 17.  Lance appeared daily upon
the pavement at about half-past eleven and returned to No. 17 in
time for lunch.  He went out again about two, and was not seen
again till four.  He had his working hours and his walking hours,
and they did not appear to vary.

Conrad came to tea with her every day at half-past four.

Her inspiration arranged its time-table.



Mrs. Carver opened the door of No. 17.  Asked if Mr. Pybus was in,
she crinkled up her wizened and perpetually frightened little face
as though the persuasive sheen of that other face was too bright
for her.

"No, he's out.  Went out ten minutes ago, Miss."

"How annoying.  How long will he be?"

"I really can't say, Miss.  He usually comes back to tea."

Mrs. Carver was one of those women who do not open a door more than
nine inches; she had none of Mrs. Gasson's large, free, and
welcoming gestures; she looked at Olive with all the suspicion of
the plain and put-upon woman for that other sort of woman.  Yes,
the young person might smile.  But Mrs. Carver's caution could be
easily coerced; she was no more than a cobweb stretched across the

"How annoying!"

Olive's face had an animated friendliness.

"You see, he has asked me to meet his people to-night.  I'll just
run up to his room and write a note.  Third floor front--I think?"

The assurance of her attack appeared to press Mrs. Carver and the
door back against the wall.  She gave way even before Olive had
made a forward movement, the draught of the other's purpose seemed

"I don't know whether I ought to, Miss."

"It's quite all right."

She walked in and past the landlady, reassuring, confident.

"I shan't be three minutes."

Mrs. Carver saw her flying up the stairs like a long-legged girl of
fourteen.  She was opening Lance's door while the landlady was
still prevaricating with herself in the dark little hall.  Mouth
open and awry, and her breathing tumultuous after that dash up the
narrow stairs, she looked about her.  Yes, there was a key in the
door.  She turned it, and with her hand still on the key, she stood
with her back to the door, her eyes seeming to consume the room.  A
fire?  Yes, there was a fire.  And if she was lucky--?

She was lucky.  On Lance's table by the window two neat piles of
paper lay side by side, the manuscript and the typed copy of
"Rust," completed three days ago, and read through for the last
time that very morning.  She crossed the room with a swift, gliding
rush, and, with her two hands resting on the back of Lance's chair,
looked at the two piles of paper.


                           A Novel


                       Lancelot Pybus

Her nostrils dilated.  Yes, she was in luck, and able to command a
devastating gesture.  Her spite hovered and smiled; her fingers
curved themselves over the back of the chair like claws.  She had
no pity; she was telling herself that all this stuff would not be
consumed in three minutes.

Her teeth were uncovered, and almost with a little snarl she fell
upon the thing that he had created.  She carried both manuscript
and typescript to the fire, and kneeling down began to tear and to
burn.  She read never a word of it.  She wrenched away a dozen
pages at a time, and piling them on edge, saw the flames curl and

Someone tried the door.  Mrs. Carver's footsteps were as
surreptitious and as timid as her soul.

"Are you there, Miss?"

"It's all right."

"You've locked the door."

"It's all right."

She tore and tore with a kind of furious and animal haste, and as
though she knew and felt that she was tearing the very man himself.
Her face had impressed upon it a curious effect of laughter, but
her exultation was silent.

"You oughtn't to have locked the door."

"No need to worry."

"What are you doing?"

"Oh, tearing up a few old things."

Mrs. Carver's voice quavered into consternation.

"Open the door--at once.  What will he say?"

"Quite a lot, perhaps."

She tore and burnt.  The flames were half up the chimney, and the
fender full of flaming paper.  When the stuff caked she thrust at
it with the poker, heaving it up so that air and fire could
penetrate.  Her face shone in the glare.  And all the while she
breathed with a shallow quickness, as though she had a hill to
climb, and was breathless in her rage to reach the summit.

Mrs. Carver, after listening to that sound of rending paper, went
with a fluttering swiftness down the stairs.


A girl appeared frowsily from the depths.

"What's wrong?"

"There's a young woman in Mr. Pybus's room.  She's locked the door--


"Call the police.  Oh--my poor head!  No, I don't want any scandal.
What'll we do?  She's burning things."

Said the girl:  "I'd have the police in--if I was you."

But Mrs. Carver preferred to listen on the stairs, while in Lance's
room Olive sat back on her heels and contemplated a grate and
fender that were full of black and quaking ash.  Her face had a
malignant serenity.  She supposed that she had done the job pretty
completely.  But had she?  Might there not be another copy?  She
was up and searching, pulling out drawers, turning them out upon
the floor, and exploring his empty suit-case and attach cases.
She found no other copy--"Rust" was dead, a thing of smouldering
ash, an inspiration which had glowed and been extinguished.

Hunting up a pencil and a half-sheet of notepaper, and sitting down
in Lance's chair, she allowed herself a last impudence.  She drew
the profile of a face, and the outline of a hand with its thumb and
fingers spread, and scrawled below it:  "Quits, my lad!  Now go and
sneak to somebody."

On her way down the stairs she met Mrs. Carver re-ascending, and
passed by her with an urchin's swagger.

"You can tell Mr. Pybus that I called."

Mrs. Carver, mouth open and eyes blinking, remained irresolutely
mute.  She hurried on and up and into Mr. Pybus's room, and stood
regarding the disorder, and that mass of ash and charred paper.
Her face was like the face of a whimpering child.


Lance returned at four, and Mrs. Carver, who had been waiting for
the sound of his latch-key, dragged herself up the kitchen stairs
to meet him.  She shook.  Her tremulousness discovered a sudden

"Oh, sir, someone's been in your room; that young woman from No. 7.
She said as how you expected a message, and I let her in, not
thinking like.  She said she'd write a note."

Lance's eyes stared.


"I'm afraid she's--she's burnt something; all those papers that
were lying on your table."

She saw the sudden wincing of Lance's startled face.  "Just as
though I'd thrown vitriol at him, poor dear," as she said to the
girl afterwards.  He went from her with a silent swiftness; he
seemed to climb the stairs like a man swarming up a rope.  His door
banged, and then there was silence.

Mrs. Carver was terrified, but she found the courage--a kind of
mother courage--to impel her up the stairs.  There was not a sound
from the room, and she waited, her body bent towards the door, her
hand to her head.  After bearing that silence for fully two minutes
she knocked.

No one answered, and feeling still more frightened, she put her
hand to the handle and opened the door six inches.

She saw Lance sitting on a chair, holding the poker, and staring at
that mass of burnt paper.  He appeared to be unaware of the open
door or of Mrs. Carver's frightened face.  He just sat and stared.
And she closed the door very gently, and leaning against the
landing hand-rail began to whimper with a kind of surreptitious

"Oh, poor dear!  How could she have done it?"


For more than half an hour Mrs. Carver vacillated between the first-
floor landing and the kitchen.  She got Mr. Pybus's tea ready, and
then was afraid to carry up the tray.  She sent the girl up with
it, and waited at the foot of the stairs.

The girl returned with the tray.

"Says 'e don't want it."

"Oh, poor young gentleman!  What's he doing?"

"Packing 'is suit-case."

"Packing!  Why didn't I slam the door in that little slut's face?
There's bound to be trouble.  What'll I do, Annie?

"What can you do?" said the girl, who looked sobered and sorry.

But in a little while the two of them heard Lance coming down the
stairs.  He was carrying his suit-case.  His face had a haggard

"You're not leaving us, sir?"

"I'm going down to a friend, Mrs. Carver."

"Oh, sir--I can't say how sorry--"

He looked at her with a peculiar gentleness.

"Spilt milk.  No fault of yours.  I'll let you know."

He went towards the door, and she followed, remorseful,

"If I'd only known, sir--"

He glanced back at her as he opened the door.

"Who could have known?  Who would have thought?  That's about all
one can say."


The Venerable had received a parcel of books from London, and,
after looking through them by the light of his lamp, he arranged
them in that particular corner of his bookshelf where he kept
volumes that might be called acquaintances, but were not yet
friends.  It occurred to him to think that he would keep a very
particular niche for Lance's books, and especially for the first-
born, "Rust."  He stood with his white head slightly on one side,
in a mood of abstraction, until the rubbing of the cat against his
legs recalled him to other responsibilities.

He bent down to caress Sarah and, opening the door, watched the
black shape of her flit out into the darkness.  The Castle Craven
tower clock boomed nine.  A faint drizzle was falling, and the
October night had a soft and almost expectant sadness.  The stars
and the moon were washed out, and somewhere a leaky gutter dripped
rhythmically in the wet silence.

Old Pybus, having breathed in the damp savour of the autumn night,
was about to close the door, when he heard footsteps crossing the
cobbles of the Saracen yard.  They came quickly down the broad
passage leading to the cottage and the Castle Field.  Old Pybus's
white eyebrows expressed a surprised alertness.  He had been
thinking of Lance, and surely these footsteps--!

A figure shaped itself in the drizzling gloom.


"My dear!"

And then Old Pybus saw his grandson's face, lit by the lamplight
through the doorway.  It seemed to come out of the night like the
face of one suddenly and strangely sick.  It was the face of the
unexpected, abrupt and disturbing.

The Venerable reached for the suit-case.

"You're ill, my dear."

But Lance retained his hold of the suit-case.  He did not look into
his grandfather's face.  He seemed to flinch from the blue eyes; he
kept his head down.

"No, I'm all right.  But--I've been knocked out--"

"What's happened, my dear?"

"I'll tell you in a minute.  I'm rather done."

There was a strange, intimate, yet awkward silence between them,
while old Pybus closed the door with one hand and held Lance's arm
with the other.  His blue eyes saw things quickly, for Lance was in
the light now, looking strangely thin, and pinched about the

"Sit down, child."

He saw Lance lower the suit-case to the floor and sit down in one
of the Windsor chairs.  It was done with a kind of passivity, as
though the physical had been over-simulated and exhausted by the
mental.  Lance had burnt himself out.

His grandfather went straight to the little brown cupboard beside
the fireplace.

"Had anything to eat lately?"

"No--not since--"

"Put your head down, my dear.  Here--drink this.  I'll get you some

The glass went to Lance's lips, and as he raised his head to
swallow the brandy his eyes had a smudged and vacant look.

"I walked up the hill rather fast.  Be all right in a minute.  I
had to come to you, grandpater."

Inwardly old Pybus was seething, but he pottered off with outward
calmness into the kitchen and, feeling for the box of matches in
his right-hand pocket, lit a candle that was on the dresser.  What
had happened?  Why had Lance torn the heart out of himself in
walking up Castle Craven hill?  The Venerable, with a kind of
stoical deliberation, opened the kitchen cupboard, and began to lay
his hands on what was available, cheese, butter, a couple of eggs,
half a loaf of bread.

Suddenly he heard his grandson's voice.



"The book's gone west--my book."

Old Pybus stood still with the milk jug in his hand.  It occurred
to him to think how often he and Lance had talked to each other
through that doorway.

"Do you mean that Richmond has refused it?"

"No--it's been burnt--type and manuscript--every page."

The Venerable put the milk jug down upon the kitchen table, for his
hand was trembling a little.

"Burnt!  Good God, my dear!--Who?"

"I'll tell you.  I've been in a kind of hell these last few hours,
grandpater.  A girl burnt it."

"A girl?  By mistake?"

"No, on purpose.  You see, we had had an affair--and I was the
first to see--how futile.  I'll try and tell you about it sometime.
But she got into my room while I was out and made a bonfire--of my

There was anguish in his voice, a protest against the thing that
had happened.

"Nine months' work.  She might have done anything but that.  A
book's like a child; you've had birth pangs--and the joy.  She
couldn't have understood.  Just spite, a kind of jealousy.  It's as
though I had seen--"

His voice sank into nothingness, and old Pybus, with white eyebrows
twitching, picked up one of the eggs and with a sort of restrained
fierceness cracked the shell and emptied the contents into a china

"It's a damnable thing--a very damnable thing.  We have got to get
through with it--somehow.  You sit still, my dear.  I'll make you
an omelette.  I am rather good at omelettes."


The Venerable's white head was wet with the rain.  The choice had
been Lance's, the wet turf of the Castle Field at eleven o'clock on
an October night, and the smudged darkness drawn about them like a
curtain.  To and fro, to and fro.  And in the great stillness of
the stagnant night their voices went on and on like the Brent
quoting its endless self in the valley below the beeches.

"I can't face it, grandpater."

"You must, my dear."

They had talked for an hour before these particular words were
spoken.  They would pause and stand still, and Lance, with the rain
on his face, would be conscious of his grandfather's white head,
and of the wet and gentle darkness.  London seemed very far away,
and all that monkey world in which you snatched and tore and
swallowed at life in a rage of self gratification.

What a night for old Pybus, a night of exultation and of pain, and
of dear and exasperating moments, when the beloved child who had
fled to him behaved like a little wailing boy.  And the telling of
the tale!  It was blurted out with a jerky vividness, the phrases
snatched out of the darkness and made to flare for a moment.  His
description of Olive!  "All legs and lip-stick.  It was her mouth
that--somehow--made me mad--grandpater--"  He talked endlessly
about the burning of the book; for a time he could speak of nothing
else, having been appalled by the ruthless reaction of her spite.
"She might have done anything to me but that."  And sometimes old
Pybus would hold him fast by the arm, or let him walk a little
apart, wavering from side to side, and always varying his rhythm.
Youth in pain, youth writhing, youth burning its lips with the
sacred wine of suffering.

Yet something had to be smashed; that illusion of self-
satisfaction, that young and ruthless egotism.  For a while old
Pybus let him talk, for in listening he breathed the atmosphere of
the whole affair, and in the drizzle of that October night the
thing became so clear.  Lance had played the animal game and had
got himself clawed, though that other young animal had dug her
claws into the artist.  She had answered ruthlessness with
ruthlessness.  Lance must have hurt her; it was action and
reaction; few bad things are done out of sheer badness of heart.

"She clawed you, my dear.  And why?"

He might be Balaam's ass standing in the path of youth's passionate
protestings.  He, too, began to talk gently with a kind of naked
tenderness.  Let life be naked for the moment.  Let the precious
and bloody marks be seen and understood.  Things have a horrible
way of averaging themselves out.

"You broke with her, my lad.  Breaking may be a blow.  Perhaps she
didn't see it as you did.  She struck back.  Oh--I'm not saying it
wasn't damnable."

He, too, was ruthless, the old Roman.

"If you get into a cage, my dear, to play the sex game with naked
sex--yes--I know.  She clawed the soul of you.  What could you

He wrestled with youth.  Youth had to be brought down, made to
kneel with humility before man's justice--which might be God's
justice.  All the old rectitudes, the old wholesome chivalries, the
simple tendernesses.  Sex--as a mere mouth!  Even, he could use the

"You've been clawed, my dear--and if I've rubbed in the salt--it's

Something seemed to break in the wet stillness.


"My child."

Old Pybus somehow felt the weight of him, the wetness of him.

"Stand up to it.  When a flying-lad crashed in the war they sent
him up again next day--to conquer the sense of crash.  To-morrow,
yes--there's always a to-morrow."

"You can't repeat a thing."

"Oh, yes, you can; you've got to.  Meanwhile--old lad--it's nearly
twelve o'clock, and your coat's wet through, and I've got to put
you to bed.  No sheets aired.  You'll have to manage between

"I shan't sleep."

He held Lance firmly.

"You'll try to--anyway.  Come along."

Watching the kettle on the fire, before which he had hung Lance's
wet coat, and listening to Lance moving in the room above, old
Pybus realized how mixed are life's emotions.  "God forgive me, but
I'm glad."  Yes, it was possible to curse and to bless, and to see
beyond the tangle of such an affair.  He had a stone bottle ready
on a chair, and as he poured the hot water into it from the
kettle's mouth, he smiled and repeated one of his own apothegms--
"There's nothing so damning as being just damned clever."  Didn't
he know?  Oh--surely!  He screwed in the stopper, and after
wrapping the bottle in a piece of flannel, poured the rest of the
hot water into a glass containing three ounces of good whisky and a
lump of sugar.  He ascended the stairs, first with the hot bottle,
and then with the good toddy.

"Hallo, my dear, in bed?"


"Nothing like a night-cap.  I'm coming in."

The hot bottle wrapped in flannel was slipped into Lance's bed.

"Good for too much blood to the head.  You drink this down, child."

Lance lay and looked up at his grandfather almost as a child looks
at its nurse.  The man-child in him needed comforting.

"You're too good to me, grandpater.  I don't know why."

Old Pybus's face had a mischievous tenderness.

"Oh, you are going to find that out."


The Venerable sat down in front of the fire.  The hour was half-
past twelve, but he did not feel like going to bed.  Not he, when
the most human and wonderful thing that an old fellow could have
wished for had happened.

After all what was a burnt book at five and twenty?  Better a burnt
book at that age than a charred cleverness at five and forty.  For
if Lance was destined to write the great stuff that touches the
heart of the world--then he--Lance--must have the heart to do it.
No use being just damned clever.  "Rust" had been a little too
damned clever.

Old Pybus filled a pipe.

"Too good to him, am I?  Being good to someone other than yourself!
How very old and simple.  Oh, my child, you needed this wound."

He smiled, and leaning forward with his elbows on his knees, gently
poked the fire.  His old, wise, fearless face warmed to it.  His
philosophy of life spread its hands.  For old Pybus believed that
no great and good thing can come out of life without suffering.
Youth must have its blow over the heart.  It is good and necessary
for youth to be floored, and to get up sick and dizzy, and perhaps
with a little whimper of shame.

"Too much for self--too much for self."

He smiled.

Would it happen as he wished?  He trusted and believed so.  Lance
would pick himself up, and with a shake of the head, and with that
slow smile of his, look life squarely in the eyes.  "I have learnt
something, grandpater, because I have felt something."

Well, it was time for an old fellow to go to bed, and old Pybus
pulled off his slippers, and went softly up the stairs.  He paused
on the landing to listen.

"Poor old Probyn.--The boy came to me.--I shall have to see about
it--yes--see about it.  Full up to the brim--what?  Poor old Probyn
must be thirsty."


Lance was out somewhere in the country, walking--walking, and
seeing the world and life as an autumnal scene, for when youth
feels old, nothing can be more solemnly decrepit, and Lance was
feeling very old.  He was sore and stiff with the shedding of a
skin.  Life seemed a sad and shabby affair.  But he was awake to
the burning beauty of the beech woods, and in passing down the
"Marions" lane he could remember Mary's brother in his blindness,
and say within himself--"Poor devil."

Meanwhile, the Venerable was active and abroad in Castle Craven.
He called at the stationer's shop next the bank and made various
purchases.  He returned to the cottage with a brown paper parcel
and a bunch of bronze and white chrysanthemums.  He ascended the
narrow stairs.

Lance, returning about twelve o'clock, and mounting to his little
room under the tiles, found his table set by the window with ink
and a pile of unruled foolscap, and in one corner a vase of
flowers.  He crossed the room and stood by the table; he picked up
the pen that was laid ready and saw that the particular nib he used
had been provided.

And suddenly his eyes grew hot.  He found himself at the top of the
narrow stairs, and listening to his grandfather's footsteps in the
room below.  He was conscious of turbulent and swift emotion, a
rush of something that was creative and generous and splendid.



"I--I've found--that table.  I'll start work--tomorrow."

Old Pybus came to the foot of the stairs.

"No need to worry, my dear.  You'll do it again and you'll do it
better.  Oh, yes--you will.  I have got enough for both of us."

He saw Lance's face looking down.

"You mean--I can stay here, till--?"

"Of course.  It's an idea--isn't it?  Write and tell Richmond
what's happened, and that you'll have a new 'Rust' to show him in
six months."


Old Pybus's cup of life was brimming over.



Thus, so far as Lance was concerned, Parham Crescent ceased to be
Parham Crescent, but the problem of Windover remained.  Lance could
take from the Venerable that which he could not take from his own
father.  Mrs. Carver was paid, and Lance's belongings were packed
and sent down to Castle Craven, and Mrs. Carver, deprecating and
scared as ever, had wanted to know what Lance's address would be.

"In case of letters, sir."

"Forward them to Windover."

"I'd like to say again, sir--that I shall never forgive myself--
somehow--for letting that young wretch.  She's left the Crescent,

"It wasn't your fault, Mrs. Carver.  One doesn't expect such things
to happen."

"Aren't you going to do anything about it--sir, prosecute her?"

"No; nothing."

But the problem of Windover remained, in spite of a fortnight's
furious and triumphant work upon the new "Rust," and comings and
goings up those narrow stairs, and the applauding blue eyes of his
grandfather and a letter from John Richmond that was like the
stretching of a big and generous hand.

"If you can rewrite that book and make a better book of it--you
will be a great man, my lad.  Go to it."

Yes, what of Windover, and this long concealed and singular
comradeship?  Lance did sit down and write a brief and rather
casual letter to his father, in which he said that he had gone down
into the country to stay with a friend, and he had contrived to get
the letter posted in London so that the Castle Craven post-mark
should not appear.

Sir Probyn was posed.  Why this secrecy?  And nothing was said
about the book and of Richmond's yea or nay.  Probyn, with
spectacles on nose--the monocle was less in evidence--sat long over
that letter and was reproached by it.  His son's silences were
becoming more and more a matter of reproach; that they had never
understood each other was no reason for the continuation of a
misunderstanding which disturbed the elder man more and more.
Probyn had mellowed.  He was beginning to regard things as things
and not as mere possessions.

He sneaked up to town and called at No. 17 Parham Crescent.  Mrs.
Carver had on her scared and wincing face.  Oh, yes, Mr. Pybus had
left; she had had orders to send letters to Windover; and didn't
Sir Probyn know?

Probyn squinted.  He was feeling just a little humiliated even in
the presence of this deprecating little person.

"He told me he had gone into the country, but he gave me no

Mrs. Carver blinked.

"Must be only temporary, sir.  But didn't Mr. Pybus tell you about
his book?"

"No.  What about the book?"

"Then--I don't think it's any business of mine, sir.  I expect
you'll hear."

More mystery, more equivocations!  Probyn could not bring himself
to cross-question the lady; but to be cut off in this way, to be
left in the dark feeling rather like a superfluous old dotard!  He
went back to Windover, and as his car carried him up the avenue of
beeches under the flaming foliage, he felt towards Windover as he
had never felt before, as to a house that was pitying and gracious
and protective.  He was conscious of its beauty.  Also, he was
conscious of a sense of emptiness and of smarting bewilderment.
How much had he carried in his head all these years, too much in
his head, perhaps, and too little in his heart?

But there was Doll to be considered.  Should he tell his wife
anything, and, if so, how much?  After all, was he not exaggerating
the significance of Lance's silence?  The boy had given Windover as
his address, but as yet no letters for Lance had come to Windover.
Probyn decided to say nothing.  He was worried about poor old Doll;
in his good nature he refrained from passing on other worries to

But in front of old Pybus's fire, while smoking their pipes after
supper, Windover was approached, for the approach to Windover was
inevitable.  The Venerable could consider the magnanimous gesture,
for he was watching his beloved child picking himself up after
being given a pair of blooded knees; and perhaps those late October
days were the happiest days of old Pybus's life.  Somehow he had
felt himself sharing in Lance's act of courage.  He understood it
as few men would have understood it.  The rewriting of "Rust" was
an act of courage, the going up to recover and to repeat that which
had been written and lost; to make the second leap, for the
creative spirit is impatient of repetition.

"Read that, grandpater."

And he had been able to say to Lance--"Great stuff, my dear.
There's something in this second edition that wasn't in the other."

"You're not humbugging?"

"I'm not."

For, with strange suddenness, a something had come into Lance's
work which had not been there before, a sympathy, the beginnings of
a more complete tenderness, a little tremor that was half-tears,
half-laughter.  It had--perhaps--less veneer, less of the polished
alabaster.  It was more raw and more human.

As to Windover, it was the Venerable who made the first approach.

"They ought to know, my dear.  Now--that life has become a rather
serious business.--I'm feeling--"

Lance looked at his grandfather across the light of the fire.


"Just a little guilty."


"Well--yes.  Now, who's to tell them, you or I?"

Lance, with his pipe between folded hands and his elbows on his
knees, looked steadily at the flames.

"Just when I'm right on the top of the wave.  And a pensioner,
grandpater!  I was so damned touchy."

"No need to feel touchy, my dear.  But somehow I think the
responsibility's mine."

"Why should it be?"

"The beau geste, my dear."


"And something more."

Their eyes met, their eyes that were so alike.

"I've been rather a selfish young devil."

"Words of wisdom, child; but a selfish old devil is worse than a
young one."


It was with Lance's knowledge that the Venerable packed a bag and,
assigning to himself a two days' holiday, set out on that great
adventure, for a great adventure it was, and as singular as any in
which Sancho Panza shared.  Old Pybus left the train at Cheam
station.  A Ford taxi, with windows rattling and mudguards flapping
like broken wings, carried him to Windover, and up that soaring and
splendid avenue.  Old Pybus, sitting well forward on his seat, saw
most things that were to be seen, the afternoon sunlight aslant
through the autumn trees, the rolling grassland of Probyn's park,
the ornamental water and the swans, the soft red stateliness of the
old house.  So this was Probyn's house, the home of the city
father, the sonless fellow who had made a fortune in wool!

The Venerable got out of the taxi, leaving his bag inside it.  He
proposed to spend the night at the Golden Harp at Cheam.

"Better wait a minute."

The man-servant who came to the door, and who had instructions to
discourage the too many penurious persons who came to tout for
subscriptions or to sell books, eyed old Pybus, and not knowing him
from Adam, waited for the usual question.

"Is Sir Probyn Pybus in?"

All of them asked that question and, if the knight was not at home,
they inquired for his lady.

"Any appointment?"

The Venerable had a letter ready.

"No.  Take that in to your master.  I'll wait here."

The letter was taken in, and old Pybus stood with his back to the
door, and looked across the terrace and the gardens to the burning
beech woods, and thought of Lance at work in that little upper
room.  The pomp of life!  Certainly Probyn had provided himself
with beauty; purchased it, in fact, at that happy moment when the
previous possessors of it had been eliminated by the revenue
officials.  And how would Probyn receive that letter, and the
little old fellow who had come to tilt at Windover instead of at
Windmills?  The Venerable could picture Probyn screwing that
monocle into his eye, and squinting at that letter, that very
simple letter.  Poor old Probyn!  He had a very fine property here,
and a son who at the moment asked for nothing but to be shabby and
quiet while the urge of creation was upon him.  For your artist is
the eternal child; he will--if he is healthy--prefer to play with
the toys of his own creation to having all Gamage's unloaded at his

The servant returned, to find the Venerable surveying the landscape
as though it was his for the looking at, and the taxi-man smoking a

"Sir Probyn will see you, sir."

Old Pybus faced about with a curious smile.

When the man-servant opened the door of the library old Pybus saw
his elder son standing at the french window with his back to the
room, a long black silhouette against the gold of an old catalpa
which grew on the lower lawn.  The door was open, and Probyn must
have known that it was open--but he began his confrontation of that
awkward occasion with a flat and secret back.  It had come upon him
very suddenly.  Two minutes ago he had been sitting at his desk
reading the short and uncompromising letter that had made him
remember the blue stare of his father's eyes.

"The gentleman, sir."

Old Pybus walked in, and the man closed the door, and Probyn, as
though his shoes were glued to the parquet and the movement cost
him no inconsiderable effort, resolved to face his father.  He bent
slightly, and stiffly at the hips.  Old Pybus was a formidable

"Very surprising.--But--I'm glad."

The Venerable, standing very still in the middle of the room, and
observing his son's face, replied with a movement of the head.

"Astonishing to both of us--no doubt.  I came from Cheam.  I'm
staying the night there.  My taxi's waiting."

Probyn responded with a wooden movement of the right arm.

"Sit down--won't you."


"Care for a cigar?"

"Not in the middle of the afternoon, and not at my age.  Fine place--
this--of yours, Probyn."

"Yes; nice old place.--Still at Castle Craven?"

"Yes; still at Castle Craven."

And Probyn looked at his father, and went to pick up the letter
that lay on the desk.  His movements were slow and heavy, as though
the workings of his consciousness were weighted and delayed--and
most uncomfortably so--by that other presence.  What was its
significance?  What the devil did the old boy want?  And yet Probyn
was aware of a curious sort of throb.

"You said--here--that you had something to tell me."

Almost he had said "Father," and old Pybus, sitting erect in one of
the deep chairs and looking rather like a waiting eagle, blinked
his eyes momentarily.

"Yes--that's so.  About Lance."

Probyn's head seemed to give a jerk.


"Exactly.  Keeping a secret too long, Probyn, may sometimes come to
smell like a secret sin.  Perhaps you won't understand that,
perhaps you will.  Do you know where Lance is?"

Probyn seemed to draw his breath and hold it.

"No.  In the country somewhere.  But--what--?"

"Well, I'm here to tell you that he is with me."

"At Cheam?"

"No; Castle Craven--living with me.  The boy found me out nearly
five years ago," and then he added in a very gentle voice:  "He's
rather a fine lad, Probyn, finer--perhaps--in his way--than either
you or I.  You have got to take it--as it is."

Probyn appeared to compel himself to walk to the fire and to stand
there with a pretence of warming his hands.

"Don't quite take you.  Do you mean that you and the boy--?"

"Four or five years ago, Probyn--if you remember."

Probyn did remember.  His face looked hot.

"And after that?"

"Lance turned up one day.  He used to drive over; he had found out
who I was.  I did not know him for my grandson, and he kept his
secret for a while.  Since--then--"

"I see."

"No--you don't see--yet, Probyn.  It's not quite so easy.  You and
I have something to forgive each other--if we have any sense left
in us.  You see--in a way--I understood the lad."

Probyn's face seemed to be growing redder.  When he spoke his voice
had a thickness as though he had developed a sudden cold in the
head.  The stoop of his shoulders was awkward.

"Are you the friend in the country?"

"I suppose so."

"For years he has been going down to see you?"

"About once a month."

"Suppose you thought--that--you were getting back at me--through
the boy."

Old Pybus stood up.

"No; as a matter of fact, I didn't.  It just happened that way.
The boy came to me; he wanted to come.  Somehow we talked the same

"You backed him against me."

"No.  If you see it--as I see it, Probyn, it is history repeating
itself; fathers and sons, fathers and sons.  I made rather a mess
of being a father."

Watching his son's back the Venerable was moved to feel that Probyn
had sore shoulders.

"I think--on the whole--you did much better than I did, my lad.
Life's a queer business.  Youth has to blaze its trail.  I want to
say that I wasn't glad.  If it had been Conrad--"

"You say you have got him with you now?"

"He came to me.  I'll tell you why, and just why he is going to be
with me for six months."

Old Pybus had refused a cigar, but he did bring out one of his old
pipes and fill and smoke it.  He stood by the window, puffing
steadily, and looking out over the garden and the park, while
Probyn remained by the fire, leaning one elbow on the oak shelf.
He had a very tired look; his eyes watched the fire.  For he was
listening to the very human story of his son and his son's book and
a woman, and seeing the message beneath, a palimpsest, the mystic
inwardness and meaning of it all.  For Lance, when life had dealt
him that first wound, had gone to the old man--his grandfather, had
fled to him to be comforted and healed and to have his feet planted
once more upon the upward and creative path.  The father was aware
of a dull sense of humiliation and of failure.  The thing twinged
in him.

"Supposing you were in my place?"

Old Pybus appeared to consider that question.

"Suppose I was, Probyn, if a little differently.  Neither you nor I
appear to have understood our sons.  Isn't that common ground?
Can't we meet on it?  If Lance has children, I don't suppose I
shall see them, but you will.  Meanwhile--"

His pipe had gone out and he relit it.

"Let Lance alone.  Let him alone--and he'll come back.  I can see
him on the way to it.  If only people would not clutch.  He's as
proud as hell.  He wants to fight his own fight.  So did you.  Let
him alone, Probyn.  He's learning--learning fast."

And suddenly he crossed over and stood near his son.

"I'm only a finger-post, or an old fellow who is keeping a quiet
corner for him while he fights it out with himself.  He's the most
loveable creature.  Be wiser than I was.  Don't meddle.  He'll come
over to see you--"

He laid a hand on his son's arm.

"I'm a very old man, and you are not so young as you were.  We can
afford to be a little big.  That's all I have to say."


On the night when the Venerable was sleeping at Cheam, Lance had
drawn the curtains across the window of his upper room, and lit the
lamp.  He was in the mood for work; he had been working well all
day, and the urge was still on him.  He could not say why or how.
All that he could say was that he was seeing things very clearly,
and seeing life with more depth to it, as though the particular
pool into which he gazed was clearer than it had been.  The new
"Rust" was coming to him differently, it had more volume; and
already he was realising that in the earlier edition he had missed
his opportunities.  Previously the characters had been scored in
like clever caricatures in carbon, flat figures; but now they
seemed to separate themselves from the surface of the paper.  He
felt himself all round them.  They were more understandable, more

He had been working for twenty minutes when something occurred to
disturb him.  There was an impatient lifting of the head.  The hand
that held the pen rested tentatively on the edge of the table.

"Let them knock."

The stillness of the cottage seemed to resent the interruption as
much as he did.  It closed over the sound and smoothed itself out
like water.  The pen poised itself over the paper.

The knocking was repeated.


He pushed his chair back.  The picture that had been spread before
his inward eyes had furled itself up, and he knew by experience
that it might not unfurl itself again that night.  Baulked in your
leap, you had to crouch and steady yourself for the second effort.
And then it occurred to him that he had locked the cottage door,
and that the Venerable might have returned unexpectedly from

He got up and opened the bedroom door.  The stairs and the lower
part of the cottage were in darkness, but at the foot of the stairs
a candlestick was always kept on a little bracket, and Lance lit
this candle.  It was a still and windless night, and when he
unlocked and opened the cottage door, the flame of the candle
swayed slightly, but gave out its full light.

He saw the whiteness of a face, and the dark outline of a figure,
and the unexpectedness of both made him mute for the moment.  He
just stood there holding the candle.

It was she who spoke.

"I wanted to see--Mr. Pybus."

Her voice and its quality were as unexpected as her presence.
There was something about it that moved him to feel the presence of
her as something mysterious and strange and emotional.  He thought
of her most curiously as a bird blown against a window, and
crouching close to it.  That was to say--it was the spirit of her,
the personal--intimate--feminine essence of her.

"I'm sorry.  My grandfather's away--to-night."


He raised the candle.  The movement was unconscious, prompted no
doubt by the desire that was in him, the desire to see her face
more clearly.  He saw her eyes.  They appeared to be gazing
straight at the flame; the pupils were dilated--which should not
have been so.  The light seemed to blur itself on the dark and
swimming circles.  And those widely open eyes of hers affected him
most curiously.  He felt that never before had he looked into such
eyes, nor in the same way, nor seen in any human eyes such a
strangeness of an inarticulate and stricken something.

"I'm sorry.  Can I--?"

He lowered the candle.  She stood very still, but he had a sudden
fear that she was going away, that she would melt abruptly into the
darkness, and there was that in him which did not want her to go.
At least--not yet.  He moved back slightly into the room.

"Will you come in a moment?  I'll light the lamp."

Still looking towards the candle flame and not at his face, she
answered him with the same dull and inward voice.

"Please don't bother.  It's not worth while.  But if I might sit
down for a minute."

He made way.  He half-closed the door after her, and placing the
candlestick on the table, glanced at the fire.

"I'm afraid--it's nearly out."

Having entered the room, she remained standing by the table, giving
him a sort of impression that she was incapable of further
movement.  It was not that she was embarrassed.  He would have said
that she was almost unconscious of his presence, and that he was
without any significance for her, and yet he did not resent her
attitude.  In some curious way he felt that he understood it as he
understood the people in his book; but she was alive and capable of
making him feel navely shy and full of an exquisite and sudden
muteness.  He wanted her to come out of that strange, staring
stupor and speak to him--to tell him. . . .

"Won't you try this chair?  My grandfather will be back to-morrow.
If I can take any message."

She looked at the Venerable's arm-chair as though it was the first
thing of its kind she had seen, and then sank into it with a kind
of gliding movement.

"Thank you.  I'm sorry he's not here.  No--perhaps to-morrow."

She sat there, straight and unrelaxed, staring at the remnants of a
fire--and suddenly she shivered.  He had left the door half-open,
and yet that little shiver of hers was more spiritual than

"Sorry.  Silly of me."

He went and closed the door and, turning to look at her, was
confronted by the unknown woman in her, the mystery of her.  She
was sitting there perfectly motionless, and the very stillness of
her had mystery.  That she was feeling sick and dumb with some
inward torture he was sure.  Though the room was so still he could
feel a kind of stifled flutter of wings.

"Nothing that I can do?"

He watched her intently, almost appealingly.

"Nothing.  I wanted to ask your grandfather--"

"Yes, I see.  Would you care to write a letter?"

She put a hand to her forehead.

"A letter.  I might.  No.  Perhaps you will tell him."


"That I should like to see him--soon."

"I'll tell him directly he comes back."

"Thank you."

He did not sit down in her presence, but lit the lamp, standing on
one side of the fireplace and leaning against the mantelshelf,
watched her stealthily.  Her face had the charm of irregularity,
as though each feature had its own individual motive, a dark
irregularity, with the eyes set wide, and the nose short and broad,
and the mouth sensuous and expressive.  Ordinarily he would have
called it a mischievous face, full of the mystery of elusive moods.
But now--She had made him forget his work; he was more conscious of
her than he was of himself.  He stood there wondering.

"Wonderful old man--my grandfather."

She raised her head quickly; for the first time she appeared to
look at him as though she saw him as Lance the man.

"Yes.  There are some people--very rare--"

"A kind of sage."

She reflected.

"He has a strange effect.  Like some books.  Do you ever find--?"

"I have done."

"There are some books, Hudson--when he writes about birds--and
moors, and woods, or Tagore's prose, which makes me feel--a kind of
infinite calmness--something beautifully impersonal, the wind in
the trees, or bees among the flowers.  What is it?"

He was smiling down at her, but he was not conscious of his smile
or of its significance.

"The awareness of mystery.  The Venerable is a mystic."

"You call him the Venerable?"


"He is.  He's--"

And suddenly she rose with one quick movement, and glancing at the
clock on the mantelpiece, allowed herself to look at him
momentarily with a quiet fulness of the eyes.

"I must be going.  You'll tell him."

He did not answer her for a moment.  Something had happened.  He
closed his eyes for a second, and looked at her again, and then
went to open the door.

"I'll tell him.  I wish I could have been of use."

She went out like a woman passing up towards the altar of a church.

"Good night."

"Good night."

He stood at the door, and the darkness seemed to close about her
like a cloak.


But for him that was not the end of the night; he was thinking
suddenly of beginnings, not of endings.  Deliberately he watched
the hand of the clock mark out five minutes.  He turned out the
lamp, and locking the cottage door behind him, went after her.

But not to overtake her, only to shadow.  He had had that instant
impression of her as of a woman who was not to be followed with a
light curiosity, and as he passed down through Castle Craven and
out into the dark country she made the night mysterious for him.
Amazing reality, but he did not question it.  He had had a glimpse
of her crossing the Brent bridge, under the lamp on the bridge's
crown, and after that he went with a swift carefulness, ears and
eyes alert.

But just why was he following her?  Because he wanted to?  Yes, in
a way, for he belonged to a generation which follows the light of
its own torch--but his wanting was different from what it would
have been six months ago, for she was different.  Surely!  She did
not belong to the leg and the lip-stick brigade.  Good God, no!
And in him there was almost the exultation of silent laughter, but
not the laughter that the unmystical understand.  It was part of a
sudden tremor--lyrical, tender.

How the clouds smoked over the thin moon!  Had he indeed damned her--
the unknown--for knocking on the Venerable's door?  But what was
her tragedy?  Yes, he called it a tragedy to himself as he followed
between the dim hedges, keeping to the grass or the edge of the
path.  Those eyes of hers, and their look of desperate emptiness
when he had told her.  He could hear her footsteps now and again,
and realised that she was walking in the road and he wondered why,
for every little act of hers had become significant and absorbing.

The lane up to "Marions" showed as a grey gap in the southern
hedge, and he paused here a moment, and then went on in time to
hear the soft jarring of the gate as she closed it.  He found
himself standing outside the gate looking at a lighted window whose
brown blind was criss-crossed by the branches of a young fruit tree--
and suddenly the light went out, and everything was dark.

How undramatic, and how quiet!  That was his feeling for the
moment, though he would come to know that the poignant breaths of
life are drawn very quietly.  A hand pulls down a blind, or turns
out a light, and there is silence.

He stood there for a while, very conscious of the little house's
silence, and of a sense of stillness within himself, and presently
he saw an upper window lit up, and the momentary flicker of a
shadow upon the blind.  Her window.  And what was she thinking and
feeling, and what was the expression of her eyes?  And what was it
that troubled her so desperately--that poor blind devil of a

He was still there when that other window grew dark, and with a
little feeling of wonder at himself he turned back towards Castle



The Venerable, wearing a serenity that was like the laurel wreath
of an emperor, climbed Castle Craven hill, carrying his bag and the
"Pax Romana."

"It is peace, my child."

He sat down in his own arm-chair and in front of his own fire, and
Lance listened to him with his mind full of other matters, while
hiding his impatience, for Windover seemed far away, and "Marions"
so very near.  Lance's consciousness was full of Mary Merris and
her message, though his father held the stage.

"We shook hands.  Things are to go as they are.  I'm very glad, my

Looking up into Lance's face he was a little puzzled by its waiting
seriousness, as though its attention was focussed upon a point
beyond the rendezvous of sires and grand-sires.

"I made a promise for you."


"That you would go and see them regularly."

"Of course."

His glance was fixed on the crown of his grandfather's white head.

"I think someone wants you even more than I do.  Mary was here last

Old Pybus's blue eyes cocked themselves momentarily under their
white eyebrows.  Mary, indeed!  It was not Lance's calling of her
"Mary," but the manner of Lance's doing of it, that something in
the voice which made the Venerable take one long leap from Windover
to "Marions."  He said:  "Give me a spill, my dear, I'll smoke,"
and spent the next thirty seconds in filling a pipe and lighting
it.  Youth and its problems!  His two young things!  And Lance was
calling her Mary.

"Last night, was it?"

He felt rather than saw Lance go to the window, and stand there.

"I was working.  Someone knocked.  I thought it might be you.  She
wanted you."

"Did she say--?"

The little room seemed tense with Lance's self-consciousness.

"No.  I asked her in.  She sat in your chair for five minutes.
Grandfather, I want you to tell me--if you can tell me."

Old Pybus bit hard on the stem of his pipe.

"In trouble--was she?"

There was a pause, and a pause between these two could be eloquent.

"She looked as though--"

"Just how, my dear?"

"Difficult to describe.  At the end of herself.  At first she
didn't seem to see me.  It made me feel--.  So, you don't think you
can tell me?"

Old Pybus bent forward towards the fire.

"If you saw her--like that--I might."

"I saw her--like something I have never seen before.  She wants
you, grandpater--now."

"I'll go.  They'll have to do without me till to-morrow.  Care to
walk with me?"

"As far as her gate."

"No farther?"

He was aware of Lance as a figure that moved.

"No right to go farther--have I?  All right; I'll ask no more
questions.  It's not mere damned curiosity."

"It couldn't be, my dear."

They went down by way of the Brent under the flutter of falling
beech leaves, and across the valley the Woolshot woods were domes
of gold and of bronze.  The valley was a great green trough between
these autumn splendours, and on the crown of the bridge the
Venerable paused to gaze and to remember.  For in remembering we
realise both the past and the present, and with Lance beside him
leaning against the grey parapet he was conscious of the immanence
of youth and its urgencies.  What may seem an insoluble problem to
the old may appear as a destined adventure to the young, for some
problems give way to an inspired violence and to passion.  And the
Venerable was thinking:  "Most of my river has run under the bridge--
but his is in full flood.  What will be--will be."

Perhaps he was a little tired; he walked more slowly than usual,
and Lance noticed it.  To him the Venerable would never be a
troublesome old fellow.

"We ought to have had tea, grandpater."

"Not a bit of it, dear.  She'll give me tea.  But you."

"I can wait in the lane.  She'll want to talk to you."

"It will be tea for all of us--before we go."

They turned into the Woolshot lane, and here, too, the leaves were
falling, trickling down through the hedgerows.  The bracken,
turning gold, laced itself amid the stems and the shaggy branches
of thorn and oak and maple.  The brambles were loops of scarlet and
maroon.  Here and there a furze bush or a holly were darkly green
for contrast.

Lance opened the white gate for old Pybus.

"I'll hang about here."

And watching the Venerable passing up the brick path to the porch,
he felt rather like a dog left leashed to the gatepost.  He was
outside the affair, and wanting to be in the midst of it, and yet
he was nearer to his crisis than he knew.


Having nothing else to do, Lance walked up and down the lane,
but when he heard their two voices in the orchard he went farther
up towards Woolshot so that he could not accuse himself of
eavesdropping.  But what were they saying to each other--these two--?
He turned where the lane flung a curve, and standing on a bank
where two or three yards of chestnut fencing guarded a weak place
in the hedge, he found that he could look down into Mary's secret
orchard.  The leaves had thinned, and between two rows of apple
trees he could see Mary and the Venerable walking.  They went to
and fro together over the rough grass, the little, dark, solid
figure of his grandfather, and the slighter and taller figure of
the girl.  She was wearing a tawny-coloured woollen coat which
seemed to match the yellow in the apple trees.  And it occurred to
him to think that the Venerable's best black boots were rather too
thin for stodging about in that rank, wet grass.

But presently they disappeared from view.

"Do you mind if I sit, my dear?"

"There, you see how horribly self-absorbed one becomes."

They had diverged to an old, green bench under the hedge, and were
screened by an apple tree, and the Venerable bent down to turn up
the bottoms of his wet trousers.

"Something has got to be done about this."

She gave a little tragic laugh.

"Oh, yes; I'll put you in front of the fire and find you a pair of

His smile had a gentle drollness.

"I wasn't referring to--these.  You will have to break this vicious
circle.  The thing's killing you--the real essential you."

"But what can I do?"

"Come down off your cross."

Sitting there she let her shoulders droop, and her eyes had the
look of not focusing any definite object.

"I'm so tired.  And sometimes when one is tired one gets so
horribly impatient.  I have thought of all sorts of things.  Of
course--there is always the obvious solution.  One can give in."

He looked startled.

"My dear--" he said--"my dear!"

"You're shocked."

"Not shocked.  Only--for you--the thing's impossible somehow; that
sort of giving in, a throwing of yourself to the beasts.  Let's

She let her hands lie on her knees, and her thinking became a kind
of toneless monologue.

"It's the consciousness of failure--that--somehow--drives me on.
Day after day.  I tried everything.  I've tried to think myself
into his place, and to understand what the eternal blackness means,
the utter boredom of it.  But when people--are---poisoned---you
know, and nothing that you can do.  He--poisoned poor Gil.  It
seemed to him nothing but a sort of huge--animal jest--the retort
physical--because I--.  But would you believe such beastliness
possible, and the way he still gloats at me over it.  I've felt
like a creature in a cage; one gets bewildered, mesmerised by the
way things happen.  There seems to be a kind of horrible
inevitableness about them all.  You can't cry out or make an
effort.  You find yourself just standing and staring and trembling.
When he comes down here now I feel as though some big, strong
animal were looking at me gloatingly, knowing that I was becoming

She ceased, and old Pybus's white brows twitched.

"He still comes?"

"Nearly every day.  It seems so absurd and monstrous, doesn't it?
As though I couldn't put an end--"

"You are too tired."

"Yes, too tired--somehow--to make any effort.  Of course one could
appeal to people; but would they believe?"

"The doctor and the lawyers?  Rather useless people--sometimes--my
dear.  Throw up your lease--and get out.  Pack the boy into some--
'Home.'  Isn't that obvious?"

Obvious it was, but somehow not to her.  She was in that queer,
overstrung state when there are a dozen emotional protests against
the obvious.  It was as though she clung blindly to her cross, as
some women will.  She was still possessed by an overmastering and
elemental pity.  She fought against failure.

"But this can't go on, Mary."

"Some things do."

"But this thing can't and mustn't.  It's a little hell in an age of
reason, though reason doesn't carry us very far sometimes.  I've
got to think--if you're past thinking."

She stood up suddenly.

"Your poor wet feet!  Let's go in.  A good fire--and some tea.  And--
your grandson?"

"I'll call him in," said old Pybus.


So Lance was called in and, entering that house for the first time,
found the Venerable sitting in front of Mary's fire and taking off
his wet boots.  "Orders, my dear.  She has gone to get us tea."

It was a long, low room with two windows, and a larger room than
you would have expected to find in so small a house; its
floorboards stained and covered with rugs, and drawn up in front of
the fire a large old sofa upholstered in faded red damask.  The
Venerable was sitting on the sofa, but Lance went across to one of
the windows, and looking out into the garden, was aware of its sad
untidiness, though someone had made an attempt to tie up a row of

There were chrysanthemums, too, in a big brown jar on the table,
and mingling with the scent of them was a perfume of herbs.  A big
bundle of lavender hung from a beam, and the scent of it became
associated in Lance's mind with the girl who was away there in the
kitchen.  He turned and looked at his grandfather, who was toasting
a pair of grey socks in front of the fire.  The Venerable had an
air of preoccupation.

There were footsteps, and the man in Lance grew tense and vibrant.
She came in carrying a tray, and he looked at her and she at him.
It seemed just a look--and no more.

"Can I do anything?"

He made a movement as though to take the tray from her.

"Oh--I can manage, thank you.  We shall have to boil the kettle in

"Can I get the kettle?"

"The kitchen's down the passage on the right.  The black kettle,
not the enamelled one.  It's full."

He had reached the door, when there came a sound of knocking on the
floor of the room above, as though someone was rapping with the
heel of a boot or with a stick; and an impulse made him pause and
glance back.  He saw a hand poised holding a white tea-cup; it
seemed to hesitate for a second, and then the cup was placed
quietly upon its destined saucer.  Also he had observed a movement
of the Venerable's head, but a moment later old Pybus had resumed
his meditations over the fire.

Lance went down the passage and into the kitchen, and as he went he
heard these two speaking to each other, but he could not catch what
was said.

"He's awake now."

"Better leave him alone--Mary."

"But he may--You would understand--but Lance?  Sometimes he's so

"Let Lance hear it--if it has to be."

She stood erect, with an air of breathlessness.

"Have you told him?"


"I'd rather--"

"Just as you please."

"I'd rather he knew."

When Lance returned with the kettle Mary took it from him and,
placing it on the fire, she seated herself on an old velvet tuffet
at one end of the brass curb, leaving the sofa to the men.  But
Lance was still on his feet, with a "Let me sit on that thing,"
while she--stretching out her hands to the fire, was not to be
shifted.  "No, it's my favourite perch, except when I have my feet
up, which isn't often."  So Lance had to join the Venerable, with
his grandfather's grey-socked feet to be looked at as well as a
woman's profile, and feeling himself suspended between the intimate
and brooding silence of the other two.  The three of them watched
the kettle until a little cloud of vapour showed at the spout and
the lid began to chatter.

Mary bent forward, but Lance was before her.

"All right.  Let me--"

The handle was hot and he had to use his handkerchief, and while
Mary was holding the teapot for him to fill it, the knocking in the
room above was repeated with more urgency.  The hand holding the
teapot made a slight movement, and the pipe of boiling water from
the kettle's spout striking momentarily upon the glazed surface of
the pot, splashed a few hot drops upon her hand.

Lance winced.

"I say--I've scalded you.  I'm--"

But she did not flinch.

"Only a drop or two.  It was my fault."

"But I have.  You ought to--Let me take the thing."

"No, fill it; it's nearly full."

He did as she wished, but when she had placed the teapot on the
tray he wanted to see her hand, and when he would not be denied,
she showed it to him though there was nothing to be seen.  Both
their heads were bent and rather close together, and the Venerable
on his sofa watched them over a motionless shoulder.

"You ought to put something on it--some cream."

But she wouldn't, though a kind of softness had touched her face.
She drew up a chair and sat down, and began to put sugar into the
three cups, and then remembered; that she did not know whether
Lance took sugar.  He was hovering; his glance seemed to envelop
without touching.  Yes, he took sugar.  But where was she going to
sit?  Not on that chair away from the fire while he and the
Venerable occupied the sofa.  No, it could not be allowed.  And she
looked up at him for a moment, and eyes held eyes, he bending to
her, she with upturned face vaguely questioning and gently grave.

"No; but I--"

She was aware of the sudden smile in his eyes.

"Let's appeal to Csar.  Grandfather--who's to sit with you on the

"Mary," said a voice.

And she rose, and without looking at him, went to sit on the sofa;
but not before she had filled the three cups.

"I'm outvoted."

The Venerable, drawing in his grey socks and tucking them away as
though gently repressing two furry little creatures which had
presumed too freely upon the rights of the hearthrug, looked up at
Lance who had come to the sofa with a cup in either hand.

"Are we counting heads or cups, my dear?  And like those altruists--
the socialists--are we with noble gestures--voting to ourselves--
other people's money?"

Lance just smiled at him.

"I am offering Mary--her rights as a woman, to sit and be served."

"Ah, just so," said old Pybus, "when she has done most of the
serving.  That's our nice male gesture, but it is better than
nothing.  And what does Mary say?"

Neither of them looked at her.  There are moments when a woman is
felt--and not looked at.

"Isn't it the drop of sugar in the cup?"

"Ah," said the Venerable again, "that little piece of sugar, the
celestial--something!  Without it--!  My dear, pass me the bread
and butter.  I'm getting too much like a pontiff."


But out in the lane, with the dusk coming down, and the sere
foliage of the hedgerows dimly yellow above the grey blue gloom,
both Lance and his grandfather fell into a conscious silence, a
silence that would be broken deliberately by one of them.  And
probably it was old Pybus's wish that Lance should break it, which
he did, and before they had reached the Castle Craven high-road.

"Was that the brother--upstairs?"

The Venerable, walking with a kind of solid straightness down the
middle of the lane, and looking neither to the right hand nor the
left, nodded his big head.

"It was."

"Laid up?"

"In a manner of speaking."

Lance had no more questions to ask for the moment.

His impressions were eating into a black surface like sparks into
tinder.  That fellow upstairs knocking on the floor, and Mary's
flinching, and her remaining below with them in spite of the
summons?  The various impressions merged, and he was ready with
another question.

"What's the matter with him?"

The Venerable answered with one word, and Lance's head seemed to
swing up and round.

"That!  Good God!--I felt--"

They were on the high road now, old Pybus on the path, and Lance on
the crown of the road, head up, eyes at gaze.

"I'm glad you have told me, grandpater."

His voice had a quick resonance.

"Anything more?"

"Oh, much more, my dear."

"Is there!  I should have thought that that was enough.  How did it
start with him?"

"Boredom, poor lad.  But someone else set it alight.  It's an
extraordinary piece of--sex psychology."


"Another man."

"I see.  Some stupid sot."

"Not at all.  Wilfully."

"Wilfully?  But--why?"

Old Pybus stopped dead for a moment, stared at the path, and then
walked on.

"So damnable--that you would say--Incredible.  Yes, almost
incredible.  Shear, filthy, sexual spite.  And pressure, a kind of
brutal, chuckling persuasion."

He was aware of Lance swinging nearer to him across the road.

"What the devil do you mean, grandpater?  Not?"

"Just a kind of lust, my dear, which being repulsed--turned to this
filthy retort."

"What, with Mary?"

"Yes, with Mary."

Lance stopped as his grandfather had stopped a moment ago.

"Do you mean to tell me, grandpater, that some--some--deliberately
set out to turn that poor blind devil into a drunkard--because--

"I do."

"But it's unthinkable; it's too damnable to credit."

"My dear," said the Venerable, "did nothing ever happen to you?  A
month ago, didn't sex scorch you?  Doesn't the beast sometimes
breathe in the faces of all of us?"

But for a while Lance was unable to believe it.  The thing seemed
too monstrous and too ugly to be real.  It sounded like the worst
sort of melodrama; it was a horrible smudge across the surface of
the night.  Yet he had only to look at his grandfather's face and
the set of those blue eyes to know that the thing was a reality.
And when he did realize it, it was with a silence, a feeling of
mute, tense fierceness that was like the setting of ice.

"Who is the fellow?"

He was told, and his disgust deepened.  He had nothing to say.


The Venerable lit the lamp.  Lance had left him at the door of the
cottage, and he had turned back into the darkness, and old Pybus,
after rubbing his chin with the back of his hand, observed that the
fire was in extremis.  He went for some wood and, kneeling down,
busied himself in resuscitating the blaze, poking in pieces of
firewood and piling small coal about the young, crackling flames.
His face had a silent and deliberate gravity, for the rekindling of
the fire was to him mystical and significant, an act which had been
sacred and symbolical ever since man had ceased to be a raw-fleshed
beast.  For a fire suggested the immortality of effort, an eternal
cleansing, a warmth in the bosom of life, youth, age renewing
itself.  He could understand the guarding and renewing of fire upon
the altars of old time, and see in it an upward act, the burning
flower of mystery.  Yes, even this cottage fire had its mystery,
and when it was well ablaze, he drew his chair close, and warmed
his hands at it.  The clock ticked on.  And he sat and wondered
whether he had lit a blaze in the heart of youth, and if so--
whether it would burn with that fine, mystical meaning.  He
believed that it would; he hoped that it would.

And presently he heard the door open and close.  He did not look
round or change his attitude, but remained very still in front of
the fire.  Lance drew up a chair and sat down beside him.  They
shared the fire and the silence.



In some of the little London coteries Lance had heard books and the
makers of books discussed.  "So and so was so subtle," or perhaps
the word was "intimate," or some other precious adjective which
suited the high-brow pose of the moment.  Women seemed to love the
word "subtlety," and Lance had known a phase when consciously and
cleverly he had tried to be very subtle until the Venerable had let
off one of his squibs.  "What is this subtlety they talk about?"
Nor had Lance been able to convince his grandfather that some forms
of subtlety were anything but the self-conscious cultivation of the
obscure.  "You want people to say, my dear--'Oh, that Pybus fellow--
is a deep young devil--damned clever.'"  They had argued, and the
Venerable had produced W. H. Hudson's "Far Away and Long Ago" and
had made Lance read pages 34 to 38, and then had asked him to say
whether the picture of death and the child was not completely
convincing and wonderful.  "Where's your so-called subtlety there?
I see nothing but a beautiful naturalness, interpretation--or
recording--without affectation."  Lance had replied that the
child's mind was not the man's, and that the weavings of
consciousness became much more intricate; and the Venerable had
agreed.  "But still there is a naturalness, my dear, a simplicity,
more notes--no doubt--in the sound pattern.  If you--get--all the
notes and in the right order.  Things may only seem obscure when we
fail to see them clearly.  Obviously.  Don't be a fog-master."

Old Pybus may have been verging on the prosy, and his preaching of
naturalness not wholly in accord with his mysticism, but when the
strange, romantic occasion came to Lance he found it compounded of
naturalism and mysticism.  It had the eternal duality, body of
matter and body of soul, physiology or any sort of ology you please
and that mystical essential which still eludes all the ologies.
Also, it was all so absurdly simple.  You felt the urge and you
behaved with a kind of inevitableness, but not quite as the
behaviourists allow.  From the moment of his sitting before the
Venerable's fire he seemed to become a most unsubtle and yet
sensitive creature, and all that happened to him and in him,
appeared as natural as the reaction of Hudson the child to the
presence and the prospect of death.

When Mary drove her decrepit old two-seater into the Saracen yard
the car's decrepitude touched him.  That Lance was not there by
accident but by design was obvious to both of them, yet without any
suggestion of flagrancy.  He just happened to be there.  He made it
appear natural that he should be there.  He did not offer to help
her in any way, but his challenge was direct.

"May I wander over--some afternoon?"

And she, with a box of eggs in her hands, was supremely wise as to
his appeal, though she did not visualize all that lay behind it.
She looked at him for a moment with one of those upward and
discerning glances, and if she divined a kind of young ruthlessness
in him she may have felt that towards some people and things it
would be tempered always with the artist's tenderness.  He would
not be ruthless to a dog or a tree or to one particular woman.  His
ruthlessness had discernment.

She accepted his naturalness and returned it.

"If you happen to find me rather busy--"

"That's understood.  I want to meet your brother."

Again she gave him that upward look.  Was he quite sure?  Or did he
assume that she would understand?

"Yes, come and see him."

She went away upon her affairs, conscious of having divined behind
his quiet and unsmiling seriousness a romantic fierceness; nor did
she quarrel with the impression.  It might be a kind of fierceness
that appeals to a woman.  It would have the quality of a flash of
light.  It would cleave the obscure and the ugly.  And somehow
there came to her in Castle Craven High Street a memory of the
young man on the white horse with his thundering troopers behind
him.  And she consented.  She accepted that vision of youth in its
panoply and in all its martial passion.  It had a primitive

But when, with an air of serene casualness, youth told age that it
was going to "Marions," age foresaw things, or felt very sure that
it foresaw them.  For it seemed to old Pybus that certain
happenings would become inevitable, and he, too, consented.  Youth
must cut with the sword.  In its shining harness there must be at
such a season no crack or crevice of humour.  It must have the
stark, white face that would be laughed at in the pages of Punch; a
smile for the gently effete, people who have finished, and have
little left in them but a clown's half-amiable and half-acid

"Can I borrow a stick, grandpater?"

The Venerable, who was smoking an after-dinner pipe, looked up from
the book he happened to be reading.

"I should think so.  You'll find 'em behind the kitchen door, such
as they are."

Certainly, old Pybus's sticks were without pretensions.  There was
the old malacca cane without a ferrule, and the cherrywood that had
a kink in it, and the plain ash that was still very much ash, and
unusually heavy.  Lance chose the ash stick, and the Venerable made
a note of it.

"You like 'em heavy, my dear."

Lance had nothing to add to the simple act of choosing.

"May have tea over there."

"All right."

He went out and across the Castle Field, and old Pybus got up to
watch him.  Lance prodded the grass with the ash stick, and to old
Pybus it was not a stick, but a cavalryman's thrusting sword, and
for a moment his grandfather felt both anxious and exultant.  Age
is apt to shrink from violence and to avoid it, for with the
falling of the leaf and the passing of the year--the old wise
consciousness asks for gentler happenings.  But the Venerable was
still the old Roman who, in the force of his youth, had sometimes
stabbed at life with the sword.  He watched his grandson disappear
round the angle of the Castle's wall, and then resumed his book and
his chair by the fire.  But he did not read his book.  He fell into
a stare of thought, and so long did it last with him that he was
ten minutes late in posting himself in his usual place in front of
the brass gong.


Lance opened and closed the gate of "Marions," and walking up to
the porch, stood for half a minute before ringing the bell.  The
door was open and in the passage hall he saw an old blue cloak and
a brown mackintosh of Mary's hanging on the pegs, and a couple of
sticks, an umbrella and three old golf clubs thrust into a brown
drain-pipe.  He was very much aware of these things as her things,
the properties of her stage.  That strip of brown linoleum was
trodden by her feet, and no doubt she sometimes polished the round
brass card-tray on that little oak table.

He was conscious of a stillness that belonged not only to the
heavy, grey November day, but to his own self-consciousness.  He
turned about to look at the garden, seeing the two little lawns
grey with moisture and stippled with worm casts and fallen leaves.
The brick path needed weeding.  A bed of snapdragons still bloomed
spasmodically.  Beyond the hedges the Brent valley showed as a dim
and bluish void, all vague as to detail.

His feeling was that the house must be empty.  Looking along the
passage he could see the door of the sitting-room ajar, and when he
put his hand to the brass bell-handle and pulled it, he expected to
hear no more than a little clangour somewhere in the distance, a
summons that would be unanswered.  He heard the straining of the
bell wire and the distant tinkling of the bell, and then a voice--
sudden and a little querulous:

"Who's that?"

The voice came from the sitting-room, and before Lance had begun to
explain himself, it was heard again.

"Is it you, Bob, old man?  She's--out somewhere."

Lance stepped into the passage.  He felt that he had to make an
immediate reply to that unexpected challenge.

"Is Miss Merris in?  I've walked over from Castle Craven."

Then followed a little silence as of surprise, but Lance fancied
that he could hear a chair pushed back.

"My sister's out somewhere.  Who is it?"

"Lance Pybus.  Is that Mr. Merris?"

The initiative was his and he took it.  He walked up the passage
and pushed open the door, to see a man in bagged and creased grey
flannel trousers and a blue coat with brass buttons looking towards
him and the open door.  Merris was sitting in front of the fire,
his chair half-turned away from it, and in the attitude of a man
surprised and about to rise to his feet.  His blind face, with its
drooping eyelids and little black beard, had a curious and
slumbering uneasiness.

"Forgive me for coming in.  You know my grandfather--I think."

The man in the chair remained silent and unsure.  His thin face was
half in the shadow, and it had the sinister elusiveness of a face
that is unfriendly and not clearly seen.  His attitude was a little
furtive, and unwelcoming.

"Old Pybus, the porter at the Saracen?"

"Yes," said Lance quite gently, "Old Pybus, the porter.  Do you
think I shall find your sister--out there?"

Merris's blind eyelids seemed to stare like shuttered windows.  He
put a hand and fingered his beard, a strange and half-senile
gesture, hesitant, almost surreptitious.  And Lance was conscious
both of repulsion and pity.  He noticed that the thin hand had a
slight tremor.

"Afraid I'm worrying you.  I'll go out and try and find your

The lips made a movement in the midst of the black hair, but no
sound came, and feeling like a man oppressed by the faint and
stuffy smell of a sick room, Lance turned about and escaped into
the garden.  But no sooner was he out in the open air, and in quest
of Mary, than that feeling of disrelish vanished.  He did not
understand why or how.  His impression of the brother as a poor
frowsy thing from which his own clean aliveness shrank a little as
from an unpleasant and decadent sottishness, did not pass over in
any way to the sister.  He might and did exclaim--"Poor devil!" but
he did not think of the sister as "Poor Mary."  And somehow his
reaction to the brother's tragedy--for tragedy it was--quickened
that other impulse until it ceased to be a mere impulse and became
a seeing and a feeling and an understanding.  He saw the woman in
Mary as he had not seen her before.  He saw her in a way that he
would never forget, so that his seeing of her became one of those
associated memories which would never fail to produce in after
years a tremor of tenderness.

She was not in the garden, and he tried the orchard with its rank,
green grass and alleyways of old trees.  Nor was she in the
orchard, but through the thinning lacework of one of the hedges he
saw her in the little sloping field below the beech woods.  And he
stood still for a moment, watching her with a quick and sensitive
curiosity, and a feeling of strange inevitableness.

But he did not see her merely as a bare-headed girl in a tawny
yellow jumper moving about among the chicken houses, and shutting
up the birds for the night.  Already--and almost insensibly--he had
come to visualize her with more fullness, much as an older man sees
a woman when looking for that which is woman in her and not mere
sex.  She had courage; she was fastidious; she could loathe a job
and yet stick to it, and yet at the same time she possessed that
rare flexibility which makes for understanding.  And Lance,
standing there among the old trees, felt that he knew quite a lot
about Mary, and yet that she retained her mystery, an exquisite
unexpectedness which never becomes familiar.  She was one of those
immortals who would retain their wonder at life, just as the
Venerable had retained it.  You would go on loving that wonder in
her, those eyes behind the eyes.  You would not regard her as a
mere body, and so--in time--cease to regard her--because mere
bodies become nothing more than bodies.

Going to the gate in the hedge he passed through it.  He wanted to
call to her as he felt towards her.


The naturalness of it slipped out of him.  She was about twenty
yards away, fastening the gate of one of the wire runs.  She turned
and faced him, and his claiming of her as Mary.  His impression was
that she smiled.

He moved forward a few steps and paused.

"I have seen your brother.  He told me I might find you out here."

She slipped the key of a padlock into a pocket of her jumper.  And
from her manner of looking at him he got the impression that she
knew that he knew.  He was conscious of a feeling of expectancy.

"I have just finished.  We'll go in and have tea."

Her voice had a quietness, and as she came down the grass slope
towards him, he felt that the Mary in her consented.  It was not a
self-conscious mechanism that joined him, but the intimate, live,
mysterious creature who was flower and fruit and perfume.  He stood
still, waiting.

The strange thing was that he had nothing to say to her, nor did
she look as though she expected him to say anything.  They drifted
down through the gate and into the orchard, each conscious of the
other's consciousness, and mutely and gently accepting it.

But in the porch she paused, and her glance touched his face, and
he divined in her a little tremor of something, distress or

"Do you mind locking the door.  I'll go and see to the kettle."

He was startled, but in a moment he understood, and he lingered
behind her with a deep look in his eyes.  He closed and locked the
door, and hanging his hat on a peg, and slipping the ash stick into
the brown drain-pipe, he entered the sitting-room.

"I found Mary.  She was shutting up the chickens."

The brother's blind eyelids flickered.  He moved uneasily in his

"Better put something on the fire, hadn't we?"

"I'll do it.  Mary has gone to get tea."

And Lance established himself on the hearthrug close to her blind


Lance talked.  He realized during the first half-minute that it was
one of those occasions when you had to talk, for the blind face at
the other end of the hearthrug had neither the will nor the wish to
help him.  It was both vacant and mistrustful.  It suggested the
face of an eavesdropper.  It had a curious and embarrassing

When Mary came into the room with the tray she looked at both men a
little anxiously.  She was struck by the contrast of those two
profiles as seen against the light of the fire; the one was alive;
the other had a sulky deadness.  She knew her brother so well by
now, his dissemblings, his suspiciousness, his air of listening
like a man outside a door.  For months they had been playing this
horrible and surreptitious game, and if she had not grown to hate
him it was because he was so helpless even in his cravings.

Lance turned to her, smiling.

"You've a piano here."

She looked at her brother.


And then her eyes met Lance's, and he understood.

"I say, Merris, do play to us--afterwards."

The eyelids quivered.

"I'm not in the mood.  Sorry."

Lance did not look at Mary, but he leant forward and took the
kettle from the fire, and held out his other hand for the teapot.

"Let me do it."

She surrendered it silently, and went to the window that looked
towards the orchard.  The vista of grass and old trees had a
dimness, though twilight was not yet.  She pulled down the blind,
and Lance noticed that act of hers, and seeing her turn towards the
other window he was struck by a something in her eyes, a look of

"Tea by firelight--is that the idea?"

She answered that she disliked the November twilight, and pulled
down the other blind, and he wondered whether she was shutting
things out, other possibilities, incursions.  He felt sure that it
was so and in him that inevitable tenderness towards her seemed to
leap and glow.  He put the kettle down in the fender, and went to
place the brown teapot on the tray.  She was standing there now,
with the tip of her fingers resting on the edge of the table, her
face very grave and thoughtful.

"I'll do the waiting, Mary."

Her eyes looked quickly up at him, and then glanced aside at her

"Gil has that little table."

"Right.  I'll get it."

During tea Lance tried to draw Merris out by talking to him about
music and the tendencies of modern music, for he had a young man's
prejudices and enthusiasms, and was ready to confess that Beethoven
was to him no more than Czerny's Hundred and One Exercises
pompously elaborated.  He abominated the eighteenth century school.
It was like Pope's poetry, sententious, artificial, insincere.  But
Merris was still unaccountably suspicious, and seemed to hang those
swollen white eyelids of his superciliously in front of the fire.
And did Lance include Bach in his condemnations?--and Lance had to
allow Bach a rolling solemnity.  He tried the moderns, and asked
Merris what he thought of Albeniz and such pieces as Cordova,
Seguidillas and Cadiz, and Merris was rude.

"Never heard of the chap.  Some new pose--I gather."

Lance said that Albeniz had extraordinary colour, a flamboyant and
gaillard sumptuousness; but Merris was not interested, and Lance
gave it up.  He stayed on for half an hour, smoking a pipe with
Mary's permission.  He had offered Merris his pouch, and the fellow
had refused it.  "Thanks, I'll smoke some of my own stuff
presently, if you don't mind."  He appeared to make a point of not
smoking with Lance, sitting there with an air of sulky patience,
and waiting for this chatterer to go.

When his pipe was finished Lance pulled out his watch, and said
that he had work to do.  He stood over Merris for a moment as
though waiting for a hand.

"Good night."

"Good night," and the blind man began to feel for his pipe.

Mary went with him to the porch door, and closing it after them,
wandered down with him to the gate.

"I'm glad you came.  You musn't mind--"

"I'm afraid I bored him."

She was looking into the distance, her hands resting on the gate.

"Everything bores him--poor Gil, everything and nothing."

"Doesn't he touch that piano--now?"


"We must get him back to it."

She swung the gate gently to her as he passed out, and turned to

"If one could--"

"May I try, Mary?"

"If you will.  He used to extemporize.  He had real genius--of a

"I'll try."

And though she did not thank him, he knew somehow that he had more
than her thanks.

For a few seconds she listened to his footsteps in the lane, and
then went back and locked the door, and with a feeling of self-
compulsion re-entered the room.  Her brother was leaning forward,
holding a piece of flaring paper to the bowl of his pipe, and the
glare of it lit up the black and white sullenness of his face.  He
turned sharply, throwing the burning spill into the fender.

"What's that chap want?"

She stood by the fire, looking down at it and at him.

"To be friends."

"I don't like him.  He puts on airs.  Talking to me about music.
An old hotel porter's grandson."

Her stillness was the stillness of self-control.

"You must have noticed his voice, Gil.  Don't you know the voice--
of a man--when you hear it?"

He flared up.  Why hadn't she used the word gentleman?  Yes, he
could recognize the amateur gentleman all right, the half-educated
fellow who could talk with vulgar niceness.  And who was the chap,
anyway?  And what did he do?  Sponge on his old grandfather?

She turned aside, and began to clear away the tea-things.  She
stifled a hot resentment.  His poor, sottish selfishness hurt her,
but she would not allow herself to be hurt.  She answered him
quietly, and with an air of finality.

"You are quite wrong, Gil.  Why shouldn't we have a friend?  I have
asked Lance to come again."

He muttered something, something that was crassly offensive, but
though she looked with sudden hurt contempt at him, she let it

"Very well."

"If he comes here again--I shall go up to my room."

"As you please."


The Venerable happened to be in when Lance came back from "Marions"
and he saw his grandson return the ash stick to its place behind
the kitchen door.  Nor was Lance particularly communicative.  He
sat down in front of the fire for five minutes, but his silence was
neither self-conscious nor deliberate; it concealed nothing; it was
just a part of his mood.  And old Pybus went on reading his book
until Lance had found something that had to be said.

"Pretty stiff problem--that brother of hers."

Old Pybus laid his book down on his knees, and for fully half a
minute nothing more was said.  They sat and watched the fire.  Had
cross-word puzzles been popular in the cottage you might have
concluded that they were hunting some particularly elusive word.
But Lance was thinking how words changed their temper, and that the
crude application of a word to a situation or a person became
inadequate when your vision ceased to be a cocksure stare.  Not so
very long ago he would have applied the word "swine" to Mary's
brother; but when your crude impatience was checked you saw in all
creatures of Gadara the presence of a devil, not the old-fashioned,
anthropomorphic devil, but obsession, an hypertrophied appetite,
some pitiful disharmony.

"I tried to talk music to him.  Supposing, grandpater, one--got
such a chap back to his piano?"

The Venerable reflected.

"Yes, and the keeping him there, my dear, with such a gap in the
consciousness?  I don't know.  But it ought to be tried."

Lance's head went up.

"I am going to try--that and other things."



For some days old Pybus was just a little sad.  Possibly he felt
himself to be a spectator, the old fellow in the chair at his
cottage door watching the lusty young things at play.  For the
moment he had no tale to tell to his children, and one of them went
in and out with a face of fierce dreaminess; and yet the
Venerable's philosophy was capable of quietism; you sat and watched
and waited for your bird to perch, and because of your stillness
the thing would happen.

Perhaps, in the Venerable's case, it was bound to happen, for the
Lance who went to "Marions" and the Lance who came back from it
were not one and the same creature, and the Venerable would wonder
how matters were between Mary and his grandson, and what they said
to each other, and how they looked when they said it.  Probably the
brother was making things more than difficult, but then a love
affair should not be too easy.  For in the falling of the leaf and
before the last leaf should have fallen, old Pybus felt moved to
preach a sermon upon matrimony, though it would begin with "My
Children," and end with a blessing.  Oh, old-fashioned fellow,
damning marriage as an adventure, and hailing it as a sacrament,
the growth of an exquisite comradeship; and seeing in "progress"
nothing but a return to a point on the opposite curve of the

Did the Venerable wish to see Lance and Mary consummate that
comradeship?  Undoubtedly he did; yes, and in spite of the world's
tendencies towards adventurous singleness, and that top-heaviness
that used to be called the artistic temperament.  Artistic fudge!
Old Pybus would argue that your creative artist is not a juggler
behind the footlights, but a quietist, and the greater the
craftsman--the greater the quietist; a man who looks through a
window, a housed creature, a thing to be protected and planned for,
and encompassed with serenity.  Of all men the artist needs a mate,
but a very particular mate, and the Venerable--having pondered upon
life, wanted Lance to marry.  He wanted him to marry Mary, for he
divined in Mary that particular woman.  So, during those November
days, he went about with an air of sage attentiveness.  He had left
the core of the problem to youth, for the very passion of youth is
a solvent of problems, and, though it was November, old Pybus felt
thunder in the air, emotional thunder, and some time the clap of it
would be heard.  It would break over the muddled head of that poor
blind devil, and over the head of Mary, and over the head of
someone else.  Were ash sticks carried without a purpose?  But if
Lance got hurt--?

While Lance, prodding the turf of Mary's field with that self-same
stick, and devotedly probing the problem, and finding himself
prodding the air as well as the more solid turf, would fall back
upon the seemingly obvious protest.

"You can't go on like this--Mary.  You can't chuck your life away."

And looking over his head she would reply that--somehow or other--
you couldn't drop certain burdens.  They were fastened to your
shoulders--and you would not be happy if you let the cords be cut,
and then sneaked off into the future.

She perplexed him.  So quickly had their intimacy ripened that he
felt that he could say anything to her--and she to him, but the
saying of things can be like throwing a stone into still water.
She was still water.  She gave him the impression of the
inexpressible, of the subtlety of feeling that cannot be rendered
into words.  He felt resistances that were not calculable.  And
sometimes when she spoke--and gave him back words after he had
pressed words upon her, he was made to think of little drops of
blood escaping.  She tantalized his increasing tenderness, all that
strove for her--and with her.

He would try to fasten to a promise.

"Look here--if we can't get Gil back to the piano--away from that
other thing--will you agree--?"

But she would not agree to anything.  She would look both
frightened and obstinate.  She was being assailed on three sides,
and she had her moods of bewilderment.  The whole emotional scheme
was a little blurred.  She had endured for so long that any
movement of revolt seemed difficult.  She was female, and he male.

Obviously the first and urgent move was his, but when he hinted at
it and its necessity, she seemed to flinch.

"No, not that way.  I'd prefer--"

Always he felt himself growing reticent when she flinched, not
because he was surrendering his inspiration, but because he hated
to see her eyes grow big and troubled.  With all her endurance and
her courage she was amazingly gentle; she seemed to have a horror
of the violently physical.

And he would prevaricate.

"Oh--all right.  But that is what ought to be done.  You are too

"You'd like to call me cowardly."

"Heavens, no.  I'm not such a crude beast.  But I have my view."

So for a week or more the affair fluctuated, though Lance's efforts
to break down the brother's blind hostility, and to push, lead, or
flatter him back to his piano had little result.  It was as though
Merris resented Lance's aliveness, his power to see, the very
patronage of his coming and going.  Caged up in his perpetual
darkness Merris's psychic perceptions were unpleasantly acute.  He
felt in Lance a rival, a male personality impinging upon his own
orbit; he was jealous of him, furiously and sullenly jealous.  Of
course, the fellow came to see Mary; he wanted Mary, and all this
pretence about pianos and persuasion was humbug, and offensive

"The chap thinks I'm a fool."

Such was the reaction of the romance upon Merris.  He glowered
sightlessly upon fortunate, masterful youth; he behaved as though
Lance bored him; he would blunder out and grope his way up to his
room.  And his mental and emotional reactions were as awkward and
recalcitrant as his movements.  He was conscious of being preached
at--though the harangues were disguised in the language of

He would sit up there and brood.  He would show these two!  They
were preaching a sort of decency to him, while amusing themselves,
and giving expression to their romantic energy by combining against
him and shutting him up.  He was not to be allowed.  Damn them--
both!  His crave, and the ironic malevolence of that crave, had an
inevitableness.  Idiots!

Mary might keep the doors locked and the windows fastened after
dusk, but that good friend, that fellow with a sly yet robust sense
of humour, was not to be discouraged.

"Gil--old lad."

"That you, Bob?"

"Have a drink?"

A piece of string was let down from an upper window, and incredible
though it may seem, that was how it happened.


Snow had fallen.  It lay on the hills and on the hedgerows, and
crusted the branches of the trees; it had covered the fallen
leaves; but the clouds that had spread this whiteness had passed,
and the blue of the sky was cold and serene and still.

Lance, from the hollow of the "Marions" lane, saw the great red
winter sun hanging in the black branches of the Woolshot beeches.
It was like the blaze of a beacon, and the branches of the trees
were trails of smoke, and behind him Castle Craven--faintly blue
upon its white hill--glimmered its windows at the sunset.  He was
conscious of a great stillness, but it was a stillness as of
suspense.  In staring at that great red circle he, too, seemed to
reflect its redness.  The cold, still air felt strained.

There were tracks in the snow: footprints, the arrowheads of birds'
feet, the marks of a rabbit.  He noticed them, and the red berries
on the thorns and briars, and the way the snow hung pocketed in the
hedges.  Coming to the white gate he paused there with old Pybus's
ash stick sloped like a sword over his shoulder.  It was both less
and more than a sword.  The very face of him had a kind of fierce
alertness, a young pallor.  He looked at the window, at her window.
He went in and through the orchard, and in and out among the old,
gnarled trees which seemed to make quaint gestures as he passed
under them, his head cocked, his eyes frosty, as though looking to
meet his enemy there.  Youth under arms!  In the upland field he
saw the patterning of Mary's footprints linking the wire doors of
the runs and the brown houses, and he noticed that there were no
footmarks but hers.

He went back through the orchard towards the cottage, and at the
window looking towards the orchard he saw her face, a white oval
behind the glass.  She was standing there watching him, with glints
of firelight in the room behind her.  He raised that stick of his.


Her lips moved.  She disappeared.  She had gone to meet him, to
unlock the door and let him in.  He stood in the porch kicking the
snow from his boots.

"Anything happened?"


"I'll come in.  May I?"

"Gil's upstairs."



They did not look directly at each other, and with apparent
casualness he moved past her, and she closed the door.  But he
seemed to be aware of her eyes and their expression, and of the
elusive shadowiness of her face.  She was not flesh, but a complex
of emotions, a mysterious creature reminding him of a woman in one
of those old pre-Raphaelite pictures, large-eyed, full-throated,
strange.  She seemed to shrink and draw back into the dark passage
as though eluding the instant issue.  His masterful, young passion
was so much less subtle than her reaction to it and its

"I'm sorry about Gil.  It's damnable."

She made a movement with her hands.

"Yes.  Go in.  I'll see to the fire."

He gave her a quick and searching look as he turned to the door.

"No need--Mary.  I mean--the other thing.  I know."

Almost she was the victim of a dramatic indecision.  She was
agonised with hesitations.  She let him go into the sitting-room,
and while pretending to be busy in the kitchen, she stood
motionless by the fire, staring at it.  She had a horror of
violence.  She had so schooled herself to surrender and to the
patient suffering of things, that she trembled a little when this
young, dramatic chivalry of his came striding and clanging.  She
shrank from the wrench, while divining its necessity and its
romantic ruthlessness.  So this was romance!  Of course--And to
steady herself she began collecting the tea-things, cup by cup, and
saucer by saucer, and with the sugar-bowl in her hand she seemed to
be counting the number of white cubes in it.  Was there no other
way?  And supposing--?  But how absurd, these tremors and
tendernesses and vacillations, these primitive qualms!  She would
go in and tell him, reason with him.

The kettle was steaming, and the tray ready, and she had no excuse
for further loiterings.  She picked up the tray and carried it out
into the passage.  The door of the sitting-room was half-closed,
and she pushed it open with her foot, to see Lance at the orchard
window.  His figure had a dark and poised intentness; it looked
very black against the afterglow and the snow.

He turned sharply, and with a jerk of the arm pulled down the
blind, but not before she had seen something moving in the distance
between the trunks of the fruit trees.

"All right--Mary.  Don't worry."

The tea-cups jiggled on the tray as she placed it on the table.
She was aware of Lance moving towards the door.

"It's all right.  Tea in five minutes."

She made a swift glide as though to intercept him.

"Oh, please.  Not that way--"

He stood holding the door.  His face had a masterful but quiet
fierceness, and on this most dramatic moment in their lives she
realized him and his maleness, and all that they would mean now and
in the future.  She seemed to see as in a dream, with time effaced,
and a life's happenings crowded into one swift picture.  She
stood mute, motionless, staring at him, and her face became
like a child's, plaintive and consenting.  She felt a kind of
inevitableness and accepted it.  She found herself supposing that
things of the heart happened in this way, like a high tower
falling, and that afterwards you had to sort out and replace the
pieces.  Yes, the afterwards--and so often the afterwards--was the

She had the feeling of clasping something to her, some thing that
scorched and hurt, and yet had a quiver of exultation.

"Oh, my dear--"

She saw his eyes as he closed the door.

"Stay there--Mary.  Don't look."

She heard him go quickly down the passage and out into the snow.


She heard voices, voices which had the sharp crack of branches
snapping under the weight of snow.  She could not hear what was
said, which was well, for such words were like fierce blows, and
not for her.

"Keep off--you young--"


There were other sounds, like a stirring of nature, a vague
movement as of wind and chafing branches, and she stood with her
hands to her bosom, fearfully attentive, trembling.  She knew--she
could imagine.  She was conscious of a kind of age-old primeval
fear, the fear of the woman shut up, crouching, hidden, while men
tore at each other.  And she--she the civilized--soft-thinking
woman--was involved in it, and so furiously involved that she felt
her fingers curving to clutch.  Her lover was fighting; he was
being hurt.  How would things go?  That great tawny beast of a
man--!  Oh, horrible, the horror of humiliation, of his being
thrashed, of his coming back to her beaten, ashamed, her young rider
on the white horse.  She could not bear to think of him being
smashed and mauled.  She must look.

Stooping she raised a corner of the blind.  The sky was a suffused
redness, and against it the fruit trees were sharp and black; the
snow appeared tinged with the sky's redness.  She saw the two
figures half-way up one of the orchard aisles, knotted together,
striking, twisting, jerking from side to side.  She closed her eyes
and dropped the blind.

But a moment later she had to look again, and it seemed to her that
in the passing of those few seconds the sky had grown pale, and
that the orchard was full of the dusk.  The two figures had broken
apart, one lying prone on the snow, the other standing, and with a
little catching of the breath she realized that the standing figure
was Lance's.  Oh, thank God!  The figure on the snow moved; it rose
on its hands and knees; it made an effort to crawl.  She saw Lance--

Again she dropped the blind.  She became aware of her heart
beating, and its contractions were so strong and rapid that she
felt shaken by them; she seemed to quiver like a piano when
powerful chords were struck.  She sat down on a chair behind the
door.  She felt strangely stifled, but strangely exultant.  Oh!
romance, violence, the old rage of chivalry, the beast trampled
upon, the white knight triumphant!  So, things sometimes did happen
that way.  But how dark it was!  The room was growing dim.  She
must have lights, lights for him, not the lamp, but candles,
firelight.  There were candles on the mantelpiece, and she hurried
to light them, only to find her hand so shaky that the match flame
and the wick seemed to be playing hide and seek.  She had to steady
that right hand, holding the wrist with her left hand.  But how
absurd, how dearly and splendidly absurd!  She felt herself swept
by a gust of tenderness.  The candle flames seemed to waver.  She
knelt down and stirred the fire to a blaze.

A moment later she heard the porch door open.  She rose with one
swift movement.  The light was dim in the passage, but she could
see his face.

"Oh, my dear, you're bleeding."

He laughed, or she had the impression that he laughed.

"Oh, probably.  It's nothing."

His voice had the hard breathlessness of a man who had run a race.
He was all torn about, collarless, shirt ripped open.  There were
red blurs on chin and forehead.

"He'll never come here again.  I could have killed him."

"Oh, my dear."

She caught his right arm, pressing it between her hands.  Her face
winced for him.

"You're bleeding.  I'll get water.  Come, come and sit down, by the
fire here--"

His red mouth seemed to smile at her.

"Am I a very horrible object, Mary?  Well--he was worse.  I'll go
into the kitchen--and clean up."

"Oh, my dear, no.  You're--you're--No one but me--will ever have
seen you like this--It's my part."

She compelled him towards the chair by the fire, and he looked down
at her with an amused, devoted fierceness.  So, it was her part,
and all this violence and blood--


He let himself relax into the chair.  A cushion was under his head.
He watched her go out of the room, and the very air seemed stirred
by her solicitous, sweet haste.  He lay back and smiled; his bloody
face lost its grimness.


The Venerable had forewarnings.  Was it because the white breasts
of his pigeons appeared to have a redness when he fed them, or
because that flaming winter sun went down in a whorl of fire behind
the ash trees and the Castle?  But he remained off duty--he was
remaining off duty more and more these days, and his world humoured
him; he sat by the fire; he let his thoughts go back to the days of
his own romance.  Oh, yes, there had been a romance: a girl in a
white muslin frock sitting under the old thorns on Hampstead Heath,
a pale, fragile, fey-eyed thing; but old Pybus's romance had never
gone beyond the May flower.  He had wondered often what he and Miss
White Muslin would have made of marriage, and now he was wondering
what these two children of a later generation would make of it,
were they to marry.

He was knocking his pipe out on the bars of the grate when Lance
came in.  The lamp was lit, and when old Pybus saw his grandson's
face, he turned again to the fire and waited.

"It's all right, grandpater."

"All right.  Good lad.  You--"

Lance came to lean on the back of the Venerable's chair.

"Oh,--I got him.  He had the best of it for the first half minute.
He must weigh two stone more than I do.  But it was just rough and
tumble.  By God!  He hurt me, and though he hurt me I felt I had
him.  He couldn't last.  Fat, and too sodden.  Besides--I was

Old Pybus, with his empty pipe stuck between his teeth, nodded a
big white head.

"You got him."

"He could just about crawl when I'd done with him.  I made him
crawl into the lane.  Oh, he's finished--all right.  He got the
knock from me.  He'll never go near the place again."

His grandfather sat and smiled.

"How's Mary?  Was she much--?"

"Oh--a little.  But she was splendid.  She washed my face for me.
It needed it.  But, grandpater, I have never felt so good before,
knocking that beast into grovelling pulp."

"You beloved savage!  But that's just what was wanted.  You can
kiss the top of my head, my dear."

It was kissed.



This thunderclap had other reverberations.  It had both closed and
opened doors, and to a blind man it uncovered a vision of a young
Zeus holding the lightning.

To Mary it was an opening of windows, deep breaths of clean, free
air, the death of an evil thing, the beginnings of that most
difficult and delightful experiment in self expression, a duet
between two young moderns.

To Lance this romantic storm ushered in blue water and a curious
awareness of a something in himself which was both sacred and
immortal, though a man cannot judge of that which is immortal in
himself until he has come to the season when he faces his own
mortality.  He loved, but he was at the very beginnings of the
great sacrament.  All that he knew was that the image of woman had
two lamps burning before it, wonder and compassion.  Nor could the
Venerable help him here.  There was no one to tell him that Mary
would gather to herself memories of poignant and beautiful appeal--
that she would be the one creature to whom he would turn always
with an uprising of infinite tenderness.  That she would be--just
Mary.  That she would be something more than mother, wife, or
child.  That--always--she would have a little veil of dear and
exquisite mystery.  Youth does not foresee or fore-feel these
things; it cannot do so.  Life grows.  Nor could Lance tell that
before the face of Mary--seen or conjured up--the violences and
ruthlessness and angers of a forceful maleness would pause and
stand still.  He would feel that tremor of tenderness and
compassion, a going out to her of all that was strong and fine and
gentle.  Because she was gentle, because her eyes and hands drew
him when, like a hurt or angry child, he was ready to stamp and to
rage.  Because she was just Mary, a creature immortally wise and
gentle and courageous, exquisitely imperfect, and therefore
sensitive to her beloved's imperfections.

For--in the beginning of things he saw her both vividly and
vaguely.  She was May to his April, a little older, a little more
mature, in the fullness of the setting of the fruit of suffering.
She could look at him attentively; she could show a brave

"Don't be so infallible, dear man.  We are still--groping."

She could tease him gently, and when the Venerable listened to her
teasing he would have the air of smothering a sly and exquisite

"Good girl.  Don't let him grow a solemn face.  Make him forget
that he is too damned clever."

But at the moment the White Knight appeared dominant, and rode his
horse magnanimously, and saw the issue before him as clear as a
white shield.  Woolshot had been tumbled out of the saddle.  It had
been trodden on and mired.  It had effaced itself, gone upon a
holiday, caught the Orient Express, and rumour had it that the
Tawny Beast was hunting other tawny beasts somewhere in Africa.

Meanwhile the other half of the problem remained, and to the young
handler of lightning it could not appear insoluble.  Merris had to
be got back to his piano.  Obviously.  Also, a little ruthlessness
might be necessary.  Splashes of cold water interspersed with
little bursts of applause.

Lance used a quite modern frankness.

"Look here, sit down and play that thing of Ravels' to me."

He had Merris out of his chair and by both elbows.

"Come along--there's a good chap.  I want that piece of music."

That Mary's brother had surrounded himself with a fog of hostility
was but the mere skin of the problem.  Lance thought that he could
unravel the business, or peel off that sullen husk.  Merris needed
stimulating.  He needed lifting out of that sordid self-absorption
in which he sat like a flabby and spoilt child stubbornly glowering
in its pram.  It was not that Lance was unimaginative towards the
other's blindness and his cravings, but he looked at them, so to
speak, over Mary's shoulder.

He had talked to the Venerable.

"It's a case for a cold tub at six in the morning."

"Frightfulness, my dear?"

"One quarter of frightfulness to three-quarters of persuasion.  I
want to get him to realise--"

"You do."


The Venerable was moved to suggest that if Merris had not realized
Mary and her fundamentalism--it was rather late in the day to
attempt it.  Self-expression was the only thing.  His music.

Lance said:  "Exactly," but the word was inadequate.  Merris had to
be put back to his piano, and to be persuaded that there was
nothing in heaven or earth more potent and precious than his piano.
He would have to improvise himself back into a world of clean
sounds and feelings.

"Don't you see it in that way, grandpater?"

"And the appreciation, my dear?"

"We can give him it--but not too much of it.  Can't he be made to
realize that the world is still full of ears?"

"Beginning with his own."

Lance walked over from Castle Craven each afternoon.  He was
working in the morning and at night, and in spite of these
distractions his work had moved forward.  Or perhaps it was because
of them.  All that he could say was that the working of his inner
consciousness was changing; it seemed to be losing a dreadfully
facile cleverness; it cost him more effort; it was as though the
well of his inspiration had deepened and the bucket had to go
deeper.  But he was getting that deeper water.  The thing on paper
had a rightness, an inevitableness.  It astonished him; it seemed
to come up out of the dark, and from mere vapoury nothingness
change to light.

Usually, during those December days, he would open the white gate
of "Marions" about dusk.  He would see the various December
twilights: a sky that was grey or opalescent or steel blue, and the
winter blackness of the beeches, and the wet bronze of the leaf
carpet and the rusty bracken.  On the hillside, Mary would be
putting those unromantic fowls to bed, but the wire runs and the
brown houses had an air of impermanence.  If there still was work
to do he would help her.

"How is the piano to-day?"

"Two hours this morning."


Her face looked smoothed out.  Going down through the orchard they
would loiter and hold hands, and pretend to look at the sky or the
stars or the old trees.  Some things were so very near, other
things still very remote and problematical.  There was a tacit
understanding between them, an open mindedness.  He had said to
her--"I'm just nothing yet; what the world calls:  'A fellow who
writes,' but I am going to be something.  So--you see."  And she
had answered: "Not quite clearly--yet."  Which was understandable,
and he understood it, and bore with it because of the gentleness
that was his for her sake.  You could not rush and overwhelm her
loyalties.  Possibly he had begun to suspect that some things are
worth waiting for.

"Next year--you'll get out your colours and brushes."

"No time."

With his arm over her shoulders he looked down at her serious,
sweet head.

"There must be--yes--later on.  It isn't as though we both
scribbled.  I'm not going to be a little Jack Horner.  I'm learning
about the duality of things."

"What's that?"

He smiled, and digressed.

"Just the way the hair grows on your forehead."

"I can't help it."

"Thank God!  There are such lots of things you can't help, Mary,
and so I can't help them either.  You make me just stand and

Yes, Merris was the problem, his as well as Mary's; though Lance
could never quite overcome his feeling of distaste, of physical
shrinking, his dislike of that blind, flaccid and sallow face, with
its beard and its air of nervous, sneering boredom.  The fellow was
both tragic and unwholesome, and Lance had a wish to put him out in
the rain to be rained upon, or to let the north wind blow through
him.  Heavens, how it blew and rained that winter!  Even when there
was some blueness in the sky the north wind seemed to be trying to
push Castle Craven over the edge of the hill into the Brent valley.
Lance had to sit with his oil-stove close to his chair, and to rub
his hands over it, and the Venerable was paying for the oil.


But between them, with some assistance from old Pybus, they did
contrive to persuade Merris back to his piano.  On Sundays the
three of them plotted a little musical causerie; nor was it all
artifice, for Merris had hands and a temperament, and he could
smother the sound of the wind in the trees.  He had a preference
for northern music, that of the Scandinavians and the Poles.  He
liked to play by firelight, for he had that peculiar appreciation
of atmosphere which survives the loss of vision, and may be
exaggerated by it.  Also, he had a dislike of being watched, and an
uncanny instinct for knowing when backs were not turned.  Mary and
the Venerable on the sofa, and Lance on a couple of old cushions,
watched the fire, and listened.

It was sufficient to say--"Play this" or "Play that," and to remain
silent.  He knew better than any of them the how and the why of it,
and like all interpreters of sound and colour, was apt to resent
polite chatter.  He was more approachable when nothing was said
about his music, and it was listened to and appreciated in silence.
He would just go on playing, and if the darkness had the silence of
sympathy, he was satisfied.

Lance came quickly to understand this passion for silence, and its
sensitive significance.  It was as though Merris resented any sort
of interference.  He had snapped Lance up on one occasion.

"That thing makes you hear the Vistula running, and the wind in the

Merris had turned on his stool.

"The wind in the rain-pipes--if you like.  Music isn't pictorial.
Damn all Village Blacksmiths."

So Lance learnt to be silent, and it was this delicate silence of
his that began--as it were--to surround the darkness between them
and to create a nascent intimacy.  Lance explained it to the
Venerable by saying--"The chap likes to be listened to.  Naturally.
It's his method of self-expression.  We'll get him by listening."
But, as a matter of fact, the reactions were much more subtle and
obscure, and not so easily rationalized.  For Lance had a peculiar
effect upon Mary's brother; he was both a stimulus and a
provocation.  He had appeared as an interloper, a vigorous young
male thing setting the darkness vibrating.  He might sit there
silently, but Merris seemed to see his silence as a self-assured,
attentive, critical face.  There were many moments when he hated
Lance.  He seemed to divine in Lance a compassionate arrogance, a
tolerance that referred to him as a "Poor devil."  His very playing
was an attack or a retort, a passionate and bitter challenge, to
that silent, unseen youth.  The very intimacy that began to grow up
between them had a curiously acid sparkle.

Also, he was jealous of Lance.  His very helplessness had made him
very dependent upon his sister.  He was possessive.  His blindness
had cramped and narrowed his nature.  He would suddenly behave like
a peevish and spiteful child.

"It isn't my music, Pybus--I'm not quite such a fool."

Mary had left them alone together by the fire.  She was busy in the
kitchen and Gil--moodily aggressive--had refused to play.

"Not wholly your music.  I agree."

"Well--don't forget it."

Lance smiled, and was astonished to find that Merris seemed to
divine the fact that he was smiling.

"Don't grin."

Lance looked hard at the blind face.  He had begun to discover that
an impartial frankness was the best counter to Merris when he was
in one of his irritable moods.

"Well--do you grudge Mary a friend?"

He thought that he detected a sneer quivering under the curves of
those thin nostrils.

"You are an exacting beggar--you know.  Mary has a life of her own.
She's not your slave."

And then--of course--the brother looked plaintive.

"Yes, rub it in.  I'm a parasite, a damned nuisance.  You'd like me
out of it."

Lance picked up the poker and prodded the fire.

"Shut up, Merris.  Don't talk like that--about her."

Nevertheless, Merris did respond to the stimulus.  Here was this
fellow who was writing a book and bringing over chapters for Mary
to read.  In the evenings Merris could hear her turning over the

"What's that you're reading?"

"Lance's novel."

He did not ask her to read it aloud.  He was just a little afraid
of Lance's novel, just as he was more than a little afraid of
Lance.  And like a child he was moved to insist upon his own
particular trick.  His pride sat itself down at the piano.
Moreover, there were other indications of a quickened self-regard.
He became less of a sloven.  He was driven into Castle Craven to
have his hair cut and his beard trimmed.  He indulged in two new
suits.  He would sit in front of the fire, cleaning and polishing
his nails as though those hands of his were master-hands and worthy
of deference.


The Venerable, observing the three of them, and loving the two of
them, while pitying the third, felt himself fumbling with a Chinese
puzzle that fooled his old fingers.

He wanted Mary for Lance; but would Mary be obtainable without her
brother?  And did either Mary or Lance understand the ruthlessness
of marriage: its sacred exclusiveness, its intolerance?

But he was soon made to realise that Lance understood it.  They
were walking back to Castle Craven in the wet darkness, with a
north-west wind making a bluster in the hedges.  Old Pybus, in
black oilskins and sou'wester, looked like a large-sized boy of
fourteen bobbing along beside his grandson.  Lance was head-in-air,
in spite of the wind and the rain.

"What do you think of Merris, grandpater?"

There had been times when the Venerable had thought of Merris as
better dead, but he did not say so to Lance; some solutions are too
obvious and too easy.

"More grip, my dear."

"Yes, he's cleaner.  But you can't assimilate him.  What I mean

He took off his hat and shook the rain out of the brim, and the
gesture was prophetic.

"I'm sorry for the poor beggar--but, you see--he's hostile.  I
suppose it's natural.  He has had Mary all these years."

The Venerable trudged along the path with his hands stuffed into
his pockets.

"Just so.--If you want Mary--"

Lance's silence implied that he wanted Mary, and meant to have her,
not only for his own sake, but for hers.  Also she had to be
persuaded that one husband was more precious than twenty blind
brothers.  It was nature.  But, then, Mary's trouble was the very
fact that she was Mary.

"I can't see her--leaving him in a corner of his own.  But that is
what must happen, grandpater.  I won't have anything else.  Of
course, I accept responsibility.  It's up to me to help to put him
in a comfortable corner.  That's the situation."

Old Pybus grunted.

"It is."

They arrived at the high bridge over the Brent, and the light from
the bridge lamp glistened upon the Venerable's black and polished
figure.  The Brent was in flood, adding its moist roar to the sound
of the wind in the beeches, and on the crown of the bridge it
occurred to old Pybus that life and youth were like the river.
Flood water, not to be denied, tearing to the sea.  Life solves its
own problems either with a gentle gliding or with violent haste.
Some things--or perhaps all things--are inevitable.

"Have you said anything to Mary."

"Not yet."

Old Pybus appeared to shake the rain out of his eyes.

"Try to be gentle.--But it's inevitable--of course.  You two

The Venerable hated meddlesome people, but he did feel curious as
to Mary's inward tendencies.  She belonged to a world that was
still dominated by the idea of sacrifice, by the vision of a figure
hanging upon a cross, and old Pybus had come to doubt the soundness
of the sacrament of sacrifice.  It had begun with a bloody offering
to a god, and had become the mystery of god sacrificed.  But how
often was the sacrifice nothing more than a pathetic surrender to
some other creature's egotism.  It was a sacrament which had
appealed to women, or perhaps it had been forced upon them by the
maleness of all orthodox creeds.  Or perhaps it was a natural,
emotional urge in woman, the bearer of children, the nurturer of
children?  That Mary had this sacrificial passion in her was fairly
obvious, and old Pybus wanted it for Lance and not for the other
fellow; and here was another problem.  Mary might obstinately
refuse to come down from her cross.

Going over to "Marions" one Sunday, with Lance left at home in the
throes of a "situation," old Pybus stumbled innocently upon a
scene.  It was frosty and clear and very cold, and getting no
response from the cottage, the Venerable was setting out upon a
exploration, when he heard the two voices.  And there, in the
orchard, was Merris sitting on the green seat, and looking as
though he was glued to it.  He was without an overcoat.  He had the
air of a thoroughly sulky and rebellious child, clutching its
perch, and refusing to be carried indoors.

But the very absurdity of the scene was suggestive, the defiance of
that blind figure, its air of stubborn and rebellious malignity.

"I'm going to stay here.--I shan't be wanted in there.  I'm

The Venerable's eyebrows bristled.  His inclination was towards a
good leather slipper well and truly applied to that incorrigible
manchild's spiritual posterior.  But he went softly back to the
porch, and waited.  Poor, jealous, cunning child!  Were two or
perhaps three lives to be denied completeness because of a
blindness that lacked grace?

A robin, shrilling in the cold sunlight, fixed a black eye upon old
Pybus, and the Venerable, whistling a response to the bird on the
bough, found other eyes upon him.


He smiled upon her, perhaps because she was not smiling.  She had
the air of a patient nurse pushed beyond her forbearance.

"Lance is in the throes.  My opportunity--"

She looked through and beyond him.

"And my child's rebellious."

He stood aside to let her pass, while he absorbed the significance
of that word "child."  A child was so final.  And was that her

"Tantrums?  Supposing--"

She went past him, and turning in the passage, looked at the sky
through the bare branches of the apple trees.

"You see--he's jealous.--What would you say?"

"I'm prejudiced, my dear."


"In your favour--and in Lance's."

It was as though he had stripped the problem of its veil of
sacrificial sentiment, and had done it wilfully.  He saw her face
stiffen.  She understood.

"You men are greedy.--What could you say?"

"Not greedy--always.  Not in that way.  Besides--one has a right."


Old Pybus nodded.

"Surely?  But only--if--.  Well, I'm meddling, my dear.  But only
you can tell."

She stood very still, and her eyes had a like stillness.

"How could I do it?  He has no one.  He's so pathetic, even when
he's--impossible.  And yet--you must know.--He's in the orchard."

Said old Pybus--"I'll go and fetch him in.  You'll catch cold
there.  Go in."

But though he had spoken softly to her he felt less gentle towards
the brother.  Blind, petulant, grudging whimperer!  Insane egotist!
He walked on into the orchard in a Roman rage, and paused to
observe that figure on the seat.  He was shocked, for the fellow
was weeping, exuding tears from under those drooping eyelids,
sitting there gripping the edge of the seat, his blind face wet and
plaintive and futile.

Old Pybus gave a toss of the head.  Damn the fellow!  Damn his
weakness, his egotism!  Prometheus set on a garden seat, and
tearing his own vitals!  But was not this sort of weakness the most
exasperating and frustrating of vices?

He walked across the grass, feeling it brittle and frozen under his
feet, and laid a square white hand on the brother's shoulder.

"We're waiting for you.  Come in."

The blind face winced.

"But I don't want to come in."

The Venerable's hand transferred itself to the coat collar.

"Get up.  You're no better than a baby.  You want slapping and
putting to bed."


That is where a man may differ from a child.  A child may forgive
and forget, and a man may not, especially if he is vain, and a
weakling.  Merris was led by the Venerable through the orchard and
into the house, with a back and a neck that were as stiff as a
steel rod, and a face that was frozen.  He moved his feet with a
kind of careful shuffle.  He guided himself to his chair and sat
down in it, his hands on his knees, the whole of him expressing a
rigid sulkiness.

Mary was in the kitchen, and old Pybus, after a glance or two at
that sullen face, and gauging the depth of the room's silence, felt
moved to apply the slipper once again.

"Does it ever occur to you to think of your sister?"

Merris's hands gripped his knees.  He seemed to stiffen himself.

"Is it any business of yours?"

Old Pybus's white eyebrows bristled.

"It's what I choose to make it.  The trouble is--that you are too
sorry for yourself.  We're sorry, but you are sorrier.  It ought to
be the other way about.  Supposing you reflect on the fact that
your sister has some right to a life of her own."

After that there was silence, a congealed stillness, until Mary
came into the room with the tea-tray and was met by that chilly
atmosphere.  She looked at the fire and at the two figures.  She
put down the tray, and kneeling between old Pybus and her brother,
reached for the coal tongs.

"You are letting the fire down."

The Venerable bent forward to take the tongs from her.

"Apologies, my dear.  Let me."

Trudging homewards later under a frosty sky, with the stars
ashiver, he still felt a little inward warmth over the using
of the slipper.  Life should be nine-tenths persuasion, and
one-tenth frightfulness.  Certainly.  And Mary had not exercised
frightfulness.  Merris had the temperament of a child, of a little,
strutting, sulky boy, and if the devotion of ministering hands could
not move him, well--a cut with a cane might cause him to take notice
and reflect.  The Venerable held canings to be inevitable.  You
chose the rare and particular occasion.  You switched a forgetful
pride. You found the raw place, and when you had stimulated it you
applied the ungent of a wise sympathy.

So old Pybus thought, and prophesied a possible reaction; but the
effect of those few simple and curt words was to be other than he
imagined.  The quality of a reaction is a question of blood, breed,
texture, temperament.  He had switched Lance on occasions, and the
quick blood had answered generously.  But Gilbert Merris was not

"May do him good," thought the Venerable.  "Whom the Lord loveth--"

The stars blinked above the Venerable's head.  He had mixed
mysticism and pedagogy.  "May do him good."  But our psychology is
still apt to be unexpected.  We are like boys playing with
chemicals, mixing things in a test tube.  There may be a boiling
over, or a surprising colour change.

"May do the beggar good."

Later, the Venerable would be caught wondering whether he would
have done the thing--had he known or foreseen.



At Christmas Lance went to Windover.  One of Probyn's cars came for
him, and with it a letter to the father of all the Pybi, who read
it with an air of benignity, and then put it away in his pocket.

"Good of Probyn.  No, I'm not coming.  You two ought to be

So Lance dispossessed the chauffeur and drove the big blue car over
the winter roads, and knew that he had never felt so comradely
towards his father as on this day of winter sunlight and blue-black
distances.  They had exchanged simple and gracious gestures, and
were to come together not as father and son, but as two men of the
world, ready to respect each other's reticences.  For Lance had
been to the wars and could boast of trophies.  Also, he went to
Windover as a lover and son, and as a young man who had set himself
to do this difficult thing and was accomplishing it.  Above all, he
carried in his breast pocket that glorious letter from John
Richmond, a letter such as a man either writes or receives perhaps
twice in a life time.  It was epic.  It referred to the first half
of the recreated "Rust"; also it pinned upon Lance's coat the red
badge of courage.

"Your book--and your pluck balance each other.  I'll publish you in
the autumn.  Go ahead."

When they were within five miles of Windover, Lance pulled up and
resigned the wheel to the chauffeur.  "I want to look at the
country.  Don't make a smudge of it."  And leaning back in a corner
he recalled a phrase of his own in the second chapter of "Rust."
"The speed-smudge of modern life," and as the big car glided
graciously along the undulations of the road it gave him a sense of
restrained power.  He watched the country, the grey-green hills
burnished by the sinking sun, and the black woods, and the ploughed
fields which showed a tinge of purple.  The landscape had a
beautiful strangeness while remaining gently familiar.  Or was it
that he saw things differently, because he himself was both the
same and different?  He watched for the old house.  In the avenue
of beeches a red sun flashed and vanished behind the rhythmical
grey trunks of the trees, and when he saw the house it seemed to
stand in a blur of gold mist.  It satisfied him.

His father, hatless, and wearing a rough tweed overcoat, came along
the terrace from the library window.  They shook hands with an
inarticulate but smiling shyness.  The chauffeur dealt with Lance's
suit-case, while father and son walked back towards the library

"I thought--the Venerable--might be with you."

His father's voice had a note of diffidence.

"Yes.  He was pleased, pater--but he thought--"

"I see.  You and I."


As they turned to enter the french window, Probyn's hand rested
lightly on his son's shoulder.  His face had a shy radiance.

"Well, here we are.  Have tea in here.  Go in."

But Lance stood back and, with a little courteous hesitancy, waited
for his father to enter.

"How's the mater?"

"Not so well--as I should like.  Had to rest in the afternoon."

"Oh," said Lance, with a twinge of conscious self-reproach--"I
hadn't heard.  I'm sorry."

"She will be down in five minutes."

Probyn closed the window, and Lance stood on the hearthrug, staring
at the fire.  He had become suddenly aware of his father and of his
father's room, and of his father as a man who felt and could be
hurt, a very human creature.  There had been a something in his
father's voice when he had spoken of his wife.  And Lance felt the
warmth of the fire on his face.


"Yes, old chap."

"I want to say something.--I think I have learnt a good deal--

Probyn stood stiffly by his desk.

"Never too old.  Same with me, Lance."

"I've been a bit of a prig to you--sometimes.  I'm sorry."

Probyn was having trouble with his eyeglass.  He cleared his
throat, and then appeared to remember that he was still wearing his

"That's all right.--Suppose I may have been something of a city
father.  Think I'll take this thing off."

"I'll put it in the hall for you."

"No, don't you trouble.  That's all right, old chap.  Hallo, here's
your mother."

They were both holding the coat and looking at each other with a
kind of affectionate shyness when Lance's mother came into the


He went to her quickly and kissed her.  And in that moment, and
with an inward catching of his consciousness, he had realised her
difference.  It was his mother, and yet not his mother.  She was
thinner, less vivid, more spiritualized.  There were little lines
as of pain between her eyebrows and at the angles of the eyes, and
the eyes themselves had a look as of apprehension.


He kissed her again on the forehead.

"I'm glad to be here, mater.  I'm sorry--such a long time.
Oughtn't you to sit down?"

She seemed to cling to his hand, and hers was moist and hot.

"I'm getting an old woman--my dear."

He pushed one of the big brown arm-chairs towards the fire, and
Probyn placed a cushion in it.

"There you are, old girl."

Lance with a queer, glowing, and infinitely grave face, stood
looking down at his mother.

"Anything else I can get you?"

She looked up at him with those apprehensive, asking eyes.

"No--just sit down, Lance.  Take a cushion on the floor--like you
used to.  Remember the old nursery?  And making toffee?"

Lance sat down on a cushion, and then turned to glance up at his

"Where are you coming, pater."

"Oh, here--just here," said Probyn clearing his throat.


The most remarkable thing about that Christmas reunion was the fact
that money was not mentioned.  The Golden Fleece appeared to have
been put away in a cupboard, and its effulgence ceased to cast a
glare.  Though, on Christmas morning, while lighting their pipes
and discussing a walk through the woods, Probyn produced an
envelope, and with an air of casualness while squinting at the bowl
of his pipe, placed the envelope on a corner of the desk.

"Might be useful.  Token of good will."

He was a little flushed, and a little apologetic, and Lance taking
the envelope and examining the contents, unfolded a cheque for five
hundred pounds.


"Just a sign of good will, old chap.  Hope you'll accept it--in the
spirit in which it is given.  Not a bribe, you know."

Lance put the cheque in his pocket, and struck a match.

"It's very good of you, very generous.  I didn't come here--pater,
you know--"

"That's just it," said his father, "that's just it."

No more was said, but Lance produced John Richmond's letter and
handed it to his father, and pretended to read the Times while
Probyn shared his son's panache.  Because Lance supposed that his
father would be pleased, perhaps he watched Probyn screwing the
monocle into his eye, and taking the letter to one of the french
windows where the light was better.  Nor was there any strutting of
Lance's self-love, no petty notion of rubbing the thing in.  He
wanted his father to feel pleased.

"Rather a decent letter, pater?"

Probyn removed his eye-glass.

"Yes--by Jove--yes.  Congratulations.  Splendid."

He glowed.  He looked at the winter landscape and thought; "Well,
if this fellow Richmond wants to do the big thing--I'm in with him.
Supposing I put down a thousand for advertising?  Have to do it--
gracefully--of course.  Nothing blatant."

He stood fingering his tie, and then turned to scrutinize his son
with a mingling of curiosity and secret satisfaction.  So this was
the kid to whom he used to bowl a shilling composition cricket-
ball, with a gravel path for a pitch, and the wicket chalked on a
very new brick wall.  Extraordinary!  Hadn't everything been rather
extraordinary, the Golden Fleece, knighthood, Windover, the
resurrection of the Venerable?  But Lance and Lance's book were
more extraordinary than anything else.  Life seemed to be both
amazing and simple.  Amazing, because suddenly a fog seemed to
lift, just as the mist cleared on an autumn morning, and you saw
the world serene and sunlit and somehow--strangely clarified.

"One of the most--gratifying letters--I have read.  I'm delighted."

Unconsciously he made one of his little, stiff, civic bows.

"May I keep it and show it to your mother?"

"Of course."

They went out and walked.  It was clear and frosty, and the beech
leaves were crisp under their feet, and beyond the fretwork of
black boughs were great gouts of blue.  The very air had a quiet
candour.  And treading among the dead bracken, or following the
grass tracks between the green furze banks, with the sun aslant
upon the heave of the hillside, they seemed to walk into a new
awareness of each other.  It was not expressed.  Largely it was
inexpressible.  Lance did not arrive at the conclusion that his
father had come by a philosophy of life, but he was aware of his
father looking at things, a tree, or a piece of greensward, or at a
cushion of bronze-brown leaves caught between two old massive
roots, as though he took a pleasure in looking.  That is to say, he
was beginning to look at beauty with eyes that discerned and loved.

"I always like that bit of blue hill over there--"

Lance followed his father's pointing stick, thought of a
craftsman's phrase, but did not exploit it.

"Yes--very good."

"I'm rather worried about your mother--Lance."

There were questions and answers.  They talked almost casually, as
Englishmen will, but it was the casualness of concealed feeling.
Diabetes, insulin.  Oh--yes, the doctor men were quite encouraging--
but then--of course--one did worry.  And the man in Lance was old
enough to understand that at his father's age--there were worries--
suspenses--deep-rooted associations which felt the tremor.  And he
conceived towards his father a gentleness, a feeling that was
almost protective.  He had not quite understood his father.  He
began to see something of the Venerable in Probyn.

Happening, after tea, to pick up a book from his father's desk he
found it to be an anthology of old flowers and gardens--"The Old
World Pleasance."  His father had inserted several slips of paper
to mark particular passages, and had scribbled pencil notes upon
the slips.  Lance read:

    "Bring hether the Pinke and Purple Cullambine
     With gelliflowers,
     Bring Corronations, and Sops in wine,
     Worne of Paramoures;
     Strow me the ground with Daffadowndillies
     And Cowslips and Kingcups and loved Lillies,
     The pretty Pawnce
     And the Chevisaunce
     Shall match with the fayre flowre Delice."

Lance read his father's notes.  "Thought the gelliflower was a
wallflower.  What are Sops in Wine?  Also, the Pawnce and the
Chevisaunce.  Memo, make inquiries for an old herbal.  N.B.  Thomas
Hyll says that the marigold follows the sun, turning its face.
Observe--some time--if this is so."

"Ranunculus.  This flower is one of a very unsociable Nature, and
will not thrive mixed with or standing near any other sort."  John
Lawrence, 1726.  Mem.  Try them by themselves in a pot or stone

Lance smiled.  From this little book of his father's drifted a
faint perfume; a smell as of old herbs and of happy associations.
How very simple and pleasant and childlike to watch a marigold
flower turning with the sun, or to attempt to persuade that very
unsociable plant--the ranunculus--to be socialistic and tolerant of
crowds.  Better than sticking postage-stamps into an album, and
squinting at them through a magnifying glass!  Probyn in his "Old
World Pleasance" had become a humanist.


Old Pybus, feeding his pigeons on Christmas Eve, saw Mary and her
grey car arrive in the Saracen yard.  He had a bird perched on the
crown of his hard felt hat, and one on either shoulder, and Mary
was reminded of a mystical figure of the Trinity.

"What, shopping?"

"Yes, Christmas."

"Have tea with me.  I can give you a better tea than they do at the
cake shop."

"I know.  Well, may I?  In half an hour?"

The pigeons were round his feet, and above the roofs the winter sky
glowed red.  Her face had a faint flush.  She appeared happier, as
though some of her confidence in life had been restored.  The
Venerable, looking at her as she looked at the sky, was made to
think of the shepherd's jingle upon red sunsets and red dawns.

Yes, undoubtedly things were better at "Marions."  There appeared
to have been a definite reaction, and that application of the
slipper had stimulated a blind pride.

"How's the brother?"

She smiled.

"I left him improvising a carol, a kind of 'Good King Wenceslas' as
one of the moderns might have rendered it."

"Splendid," said old Pybus.  "You might have brought him with you."

"He was quite happy.  The girl is getting his tea.  I have a few
things to buy."

The Venerable nodded his head, and the white pigeon rose from his

"Hallo, there goes my panache!  I'll have the kettle boiling in
half an hour."

The kettle was old Pybus's affair.  He watched it taking its time
to boil on the sitting-room fire, but he was in no hurry, and he
was thinking of Merris and the seeming finality of Merris's
blindness.  To feel the fire and not to see it, to smell a rose and
to know that the darkness conceals a flower!  But was it not
possible for a man to create or collect about himself a world of
sound, and to make of himself so sensitive an instrument that the
sense of sound might satisfy him?  Could Merris do it, or was he
better dead?--for there was no other alternative worth choosing.
But take a man's natural vanity; you might feed it and clip it as
you fed a young yew hedge and then use the shears.  But who was
going to handle the shears?  And if your green stuff grew rank and
pulpy, and no one troubled to clip it, the result might prove

"That's it," thought Old Pybus; "one would like to be a sort of
little peripatetic deity.  But you might take yourself too damned

He glanced at the clock.


Merris also was sitting in front of the fire, and with an air of
unusual sleekness, a well-brushed head and a trimmed beard.  From
somewhere he had routed out a black velvet coat, and his tie was a
little profuse and the colour of amber.  A lamp stood on the table,
throwing the shadow of his head and shoulders upon the strip of
wall beside the fireplace.  He was leaning forward slightly,
listening, and now and again he would rub the palms of his hands
together like a man rolling tobacco.  He was not conscious of the
gesture.  It was expressive, part of his anticipatory mood, or as
though he were stroking a pleasant thought.

Sounds of activity came from the kitchen, a girl's going to and fro
over the tiled floor, the clink of a cup, the clatter of a knife
dropped upon a wooden table, and to Merris these sounds had the
quality of music.  They were part of his sensuous aliveness.  When
the girl broke into an indifferent whistling of the winter's most
popular dance tune, his lips mimicked the notes.

She came down the passage.

"Shall I make you some buttered toast, Mr. Gilbert?"

He turned head and shoulders towards the door.

"Please, Nelly.  What's that you're whistling?"

She looked at him round the edge of the door.  She was a plain
young woman with a broad face, and coarse black hair, but her voice
was not unpleasant.  She was smiling, and the smile was both
sensual and sentimental.  She had a very large mouth.

"'Pansy Eyes'--Everybody's playing it.  It's rather nice."


"We Charleston to it, Mr. Gilbert, up at the Rec."

"The Rec!  What's that?"

"The Recreation room--up at Castle Craven."

"Oh--I see."

They laughed; but the girl's laughter was more like a titter.

"Wonder if I could play it on the piano?"

"You do play--so lovely, Mr. Gilbert--"

"Look here, Nelly, you shall whistle it after tea, and I'll try and
vamp it on the piano--I used to dance."

"Did you, Mr. Gilbert?"

"Believe I could dance now.  There's the old gramophone and one or
two jazz records."

"Oh, Mr. Gilbert--"

"We'll push back the furniture and try.  Hurry up with the tea,

He might have added:  "Before Miss Mary comes back," but the
conspiracy was suggested and understood.  The girl gave a little
wriggle of the shoulders and hurried off to the kitchen.  She had
no lover; no lover had come her way, and she wanted a lover.
Merris, blind though he was, and perhaps because of his blindness,
had for her a strong enticement.

Merris stretched out his hands to the fire.  He felt the warmth of
it, and that other warmth--the nearness and the consent of a woman.
He divined it, felt the little snuggling, secret thrill of it in
the warm darkness.  He moistened his lips.  There is a sort of
physical pride in man that exults and swells itself out in the
presence of such an adventure, and Merris's pride had been
wandering alone like a street-walker.  Mary had cut him off from
that other crave, and his very blindness was a crave, a dark void
asking to be filled.

The girl brought in his tea and placed the tray on an oak stool
beside his chair.

"I haven't made you any toast, Mr. Gilbert.  I thought--"

"Take too much time.  Had your tea, Nelly?"

"No, sir."

"Have some with me.  Get another cup."

His voice caressed her.  He could not see her face, but he imagined
it as smiling and confused and flushing with consent.  He heard her
slip out of the room, and when she returned he was aware of her
moving about in the darkness.  The curtain rings jingled.  He
understood.  She was making sure that the curtains covered the

"Got your cup?"

"Yes, Mr. Gilbert."

"You had better pour out for both of us.  You can sit on the
tuffet, can't you?"

He felt her close to him, her arm almost touching his knee.

"That's lovely.  We shall have to keep our ears open."

Said the girl:

"Miss Merris has the car.  It's a noisy old car--too--isn't it?"


Mary locked the blue doors of the little old coach-house, and
crossed the brick-paved yard to the rustic gate which opened into
the garden.  The sky was powdered with stars, and a little, brittle
breeze moved the apple branches across those points of silver.  A
shutter creaked, but the unrest of the winter night was to her a
quiet breathing, and in front of the porch she lowered her heavy
basket to the ground, and stood at gaze.  She could see Castle
Craven as a crown of lights upon its hill, and each light was like
a little friendly eye.  She could say to herself that she was
happy, if to feel smooth and cared for is to be happy.  She could
say:  "I have endured.  I have striven to help, and help has come
to me.  And here is music."

She could hear her brother playing.  He had struck a few tentative
notes, and then three full sonorous chords, just when she had
paused to look at the lights of Castle Craven.  In putting down her
basket she had felt herself discarding a burden.

Poor old Gil!  He had seemed so much more of a man during the last
three weeks.  And what a relief it was to be able to come home
without having to hold your breath--and to wonder!  Was anything
more sordid and soul-rotting than suspicion, that almost
surreptitious stealing in upon his blindness?  And she had Lance.

She stooped for the basket.  In it--among other things--she had
Gil's Christmas present, a new pipe and half a pound of his
favourite tobacco.  Blessed stars--blessed simplicity.

She turned and tried the door, and found it locked.  She had raised
her hand to the brass knocker when she heard the girl's footsteps.

"That you, Miss?"

"Yes, Nelly."

"I thought I'd lock the door, Miss."

"Quite right."

"Shall I take the basket, Miss?"

"Thanks, Nelly.  You can be getting home now--if you want to.  I
have a little present for you here.  It's Christmas Eve."



Probyn's car turned into the Saracen yard and came to rest with its
long blue bonnet within six feet of the inn's side door.  This door
was painted white, and Lance and his father were in the act of
putting the fur rug from their knees when the white door opened and
showed them the Venerable carrying a little black tray.  On it were
two plates surmounted by two tin covers, the Venerable's dinner, or
his two silvers caps of maintenance.

It was a singular occasion.  The chauffeur got down to open the
near door, and Probyn, being next to that door, was the first to
leave the car.  Both Lance and the chauffeur saw that particular
act, Probyn's simple and quaint beau geste.  It embodied a ritual.
Probyn, in his long coffee-coloured overcoat, stood at the bottom
of the two steps, and holding out his hands, claimed the privilege
of carrying his father's dinner-tray.

And the Venerable consented.  He recognised and surrendered to an
act of grace.  Probyn, carrying the tray with something of the air
of a knight bearing his lord's sword and spurs on a black cushion,
walked down and across the Saracen yard with his father.  It was
the most silent of ceremonies.  Neither of them had uttered a word,
and Lance, who had remained in the car, knew that he had witnessed
a notable act.

He got out, folded up the rug, and placed it on the seat.  The
chauffeur, a pleasant person with very English eyes in a rosy face,
stood solemnly staring.

"You had better get some dinner, Payne."

"Yes, sir.  What about your suit-case, sir?"

"You might carry it down to my grandfather's, the cottage at the
bottom of the passage."

"Yes, sir.  The way the gentlemen have gone, sir?"

"That's it."

But Lance had seen more than an old fellow in a black coat and
striped trousers standing in a doorway, holding a tray.  He had
been absent at Windover less than a week, and he had returned to
see the Venerable as he had not seen him before, as a very old man.
Just those few days, an insignificant lapse of time, and yet the
thing had happened.  Or he had returned with eyes that could be
startled by the change, though the change must have been there.
The little sturdy figure had appeared to him indefinably old and
shrunken.  The white head had seemed less massive and vigorous.

He walked slowly down to the cottage.  His heart was open to both
those other men.  He was aware of a little spasm of sadness, a
beautiful, wise sadness.  He saw his father stretching out his
hands for that tray.


Pausing outside the door to glance up at the Venerable's white
pigeons on the red and grey roofs, he was moved to a gentle
wondering.  Mystery of wings, and mystery of blue sky, and mystery
of spirit!  O, most splendid of mysteries, redescending upon the
earth with the sound of wings invisible!  Was man mere clay, man--
the mystic, man the magnanimous and compassionate?  A little, old,
black dinner-tray, and his father's hands!

He heard voices.

"Your dinner will be getting cold."

"You are going to join me, Probyn."

"Of course."

"Then--I'll go up and order--"

"No, no; on no account.  I'll go myself.  We'll have what you are

Probyn came out of the cottage and met his son.  They looked at
each other.  They were son and father.  They smiled.


It began to rain after Probyn's car had left.  Old Pybus had gone
on duty, and Lance, after unpacking his suit-case and looking at
the landscape through a wet window felt most strangely like a small
boy in need of comfort.  The little room struck raw, and his mood
was penetrated by a like feeling of rawness.  He and his father had
talked for a while before the fire, and Lance had raised the
question of money.

"Do you mind how I use that cheque, pater?"

"Just as you please, old chap.  It's just a bit of paper."

And Lance had said:  "Did you notice how old he looks?  I hadn't
realised it before.  It shocked me."

Probyn, leaning forward to warm his hands, had answered very

"He is a very old man.  Of course--both of us--would rather--But
he's the sort that likes to die in harness."

Looking at the wet landscape Lance felt strangely sore.  He was
thinking of that little old man standing where the brass gong hung
like a halo.  And for three months this little old man had given
him bed, bread, and meat and, how much more than these, the courage
to endure, an inward vision.  The old Roman at his post!  But in
Lance there had arisen a sudden passion to succour, to protect, to
cherish.  He felt it towards four people, Mary, his mother, Probyn,
the Venerable; but at the moment its strongest urge was towards the

"He's the sort that likes to die in harness!"

The ardour of youth in arms confronted the shadow of the
inevitable.  A very old man!  And suddenly he realised death and
its physical finality as a blotting out of beauty, even as that
rain was blotting out sky and hill.  He had never seen death.  He
was as a child, and he stood there remembering those poignant pages
of Hudson's book which the Venerable had put into his hands.  The
thing touched him now as it touches all of us--though our lips may
remain sealed, and we stand inarticulate, incredulous, questioning.
Absurd emotion!  How crassly obvious.  Had he, then, been so full
of his own affairs that he had not realised the obvious, or
suffered himself to see that figure of Old Mortality?  And what did
it mean to him?

Lance put on a raincoat and an old cap and went out into the rain.
He knew quite well where he was going.  He was going to Mary.  He
was running to her in this moment of almost childish bewilderment
and pain as he would run to her through life, to his beloved, his
mother-woman, the one creature from whom he would unthinkingly
exact tenderness, soft touches, understanding.  There was that in
him which seemed to know without knowing, as a child knows.  He
wanted this sense of elemental soreness touched and soothed.  He
wanted to express something.  He wanted her and self-expression.

He noticed neither the mud nor the rain.  He sought her cottage
like a scared small boy making for home.  His problem was hers; she
had no riddles of her own, or he had forgotten them.  He found
himself at her door, knocking.

It opened.  She was there in the dim, wet, winter light.  He saw
her eyes, and did not translate their expression into any selfless


She looked at him, and somehow her hands went out.  She had for him
that strange, indefinable something.  His tremblings were hers, his
angers, his bewilderments.  There were things that she set aside.

"Oh, my dear--"

He put his head down on her shoulder.

"Oh, what a kid I am!  I want to tell you--"


She had taken him into the kitchen and there they had sat side by
side on a couple of wooden chairs, with the kitchen range showing
its black teeth at them like an idol with a head full of live
coals.  She had listened.  She was sufficiently unpractical to
understand him and his moods.  She knew that she would never ask
him to be Young Logic, and that she would love him the better for
his sensitive outbursts for there was a part of her that was made
of moonlight.  Common sense, with her fat arms in the wash-tub
cheerfully bids the man-child not to be a fool.  Oh, those stupidly
cheerful people!  With one hand pressing his head against her
cheek, she suffered him to express his self-realisations.

"But don't you think that his last few years will have been rather
happy years?"

"But one takes so much for granted.  One gets so absorbed."

She smiled over him, one of those half-whimsical--half-tender
smiles, which are to a woman's face what the genius of the artist
is to the portrait.  Of course he took things for granted.  He was
taking her for granted.  He was absorbed at that very moment in
intimate and personal emotion.  She was his one and complete Mary:
a mirror, a voice, his own individual conception of her as Mary.
But she could say of him:  "You dear, funny, lovable old child."
She could forgive him for failing to feel that she had a particular
and poignant problem of her own.

"I expect we look at things rather differently."

"But do we?"

"When you are old.  I think old people feel the chill of the
unknown.  They want to feel warm and human and sociable, and near
to those they love.  They ask for kindness.  Wouldn't one?"

"I suppose so.  But then--the Venerable has done all the giving."

"Oh, no, my dear.  Besides--I'll tell you how I came to understand.
Gil had to go to one of the leading oculists, and when the doctor
found out that we were rather poor he would not take any fees from
me.  He was an old man.  And I was rather young, and uncomfortable,
and I tried to persuade him to let me pay.  I remember a look--
almost of pain and of appeal on his face.  He said:  'Young lady, I
am an old man.  May I not be allowed to do something for the love
of the thing?  What is money to me?'"

"Yes, that's rather fine.  It touches one."

"Besides, it's so natural."

But she had Gil in the other room, and her thoughts passed from
lover to brother.  She was troubled about Gil, without being able
to decide what it was that troubled her.  Her eyes were fixed upon
the black bars of the range and the red glow behind them, and she
was made to think of faces in the fire, monstrous faces, fantastic
masks.  Gil puzzled her.  He had the air of being much better
friends with himself, and she should have been glad; but her
gladness was clouded.  She had divined a something in the house, as
though she was meeting drifts of elusive perfume, or as though a
face smiled at her, and then smiled differently when her back was
turned.  She had caught glimpses of her brother in a mirror.

She made a movement.

"Are you coming to see Gil?"

"Of course!  How's the music?"

She rose and stood looking at the black bars and the live fire
behind them.

"He seems much more cheerful."

A sprawling figure in an armchair, that was Lance's first
impression of Merris.  He was struck by the length of the fellow's
legs, and the feet in light blue socks cocked on a footstool.  Mary
was saying:  "Here's Lance," and Lance saw a head turned on a
cushion, and that blind face looking curiously sleek and

"Full of plum pudding?"

Yes, a kind of sleek smirk, a languor which somehow suggested
arrogance, a stillness that condescended.  It was a complex of
impressions.  And that facetiously--"Full of plum pudding?"

Lance moved to the fire.  His responses were casual.

"I prefer mince pies."

"Find 'em inspiring?  Mary tells me you always write on a full

"I suppose that's so."

"How do you manage the blood to the brain?"

Mary had left them alone together, and Lance sat down with an air
of deliberation.  He looked attentively for a moment at the velvet
jacket and the amber tie, and the little clipped beard, and those
blue socks complacently solacing themselves.  And then he turned
his eyes to the fire.  He was embarrassed by a sudden quickening of
the dislike he had always felt for Merris.  He did not want to look
at him.  He did not want to be very near to him.  Physically--the
reaction might be described as a distaste for a man who did not
wash.  But why this facetiousness, this almost smug lounging in
front of the fire, a suspicion of something swollen?  Mary had used
the word: "cheerful," but it struck Lance as being inadequate,
perhaps consciously so.  A one-word atmosphere is like a picture
that is all blue or all red, and Merris might be the colour of raw
flesh, but he was clothed.  Lance wondered.

Was it Merris's music?  Was this velvet coat pose?  Had the fellow
conceived a "soul child," and was he swaggering like a young
mother?  If so--he--Lance supposed that it was all to the good, and
the beard could not be helped, and the amber tie was a coloured
gesture.  He said:  "How's the piano, Merris?" and saw Merris's
long fingers go up to caress his beard.

"The piano is very well, Pybus, thank you.  And how is the pen?
Does it fountain as it should?"

"I use a steel nib.  Ladies--medium point."

From Merris came a kind of chuckle, a dry sound, like leaves blown

"Symbolical of sex--I suppose!"

There was silence.  Lance had travelled beyond the "Damn the
fellow" mood, the Englishman's natural reaction.  Irony implies a
subtle self-conceit.  To condescend is to provoke an echo.  And
Lance, frowning at the fire, did suppose that he had condescended
to Merris, and that the fellow was sufficiently sensitive to feel
and to resent it.  But that did not explain Merris's transfiguration,
the suggestion of a sleek chuckle.

"You ought to do something with your music."

"Think so?"

"I do."

"Then--there cannot be any doubt about it."

When a man attempts irony he challenges you to rag him, but Lance
heard Mary enter the room, and with her she seemed to bring the
muteness of a smothered question.  Lance felt self-conscious.  It
would be little help to her to find them like a couple of pert and
squabbling children.  He stood up, and looking at his watch by the
light of the fire, remembered his grandfather.


"Yes.  I'm expected--there."

His eyes said more, and turning in the doorway, he looked back at
her brother.

"Good night, Gil.  I meant what I said about your music.  I know
you think me a confounded prig."

He saw Merris's profile against the fire.

"Same to you, Pybus.  Good luck to the steel nib."

Mary followed Lance out into the passage, and taking from a peg the
old raincoat she wore when at work in bad weather, she held it up
to him.  Saying nothing--he helped her on with the coat.  It was
she who opened the door, and let in the raw wet night.


His hand touched hers.  He felt the droop of her, a sudden
tiredness, a questioning of life.  She looked into the wet, dark
drizzle with wide eyes.

"I'm coming a little way."

"No hat?"

"Does it matter?"

He slipped an arm round her.  She had comforted him, and he in his
turn felt that she asked for comfort; that she was discouraged, and
troubled.  They went through the gate into the lane, and his sense
of her nearness was poignant and very precious.  Never had she
seemed so near, or so ready to lean.

"What did you think of Gil?"

He was aware of her looking up into his face.

"Seems more pleased with life, doesn't he?  I suppose it is the
piano, and self-expression."

"I wish I knew."

The note of distress and of doubt in her voice shocked him.

"Don't you know?"


"He isn't getting that stuff--?"

"I've wondered.  But how--?  Oh, my dear, it makes me feel so
sordid.  This eternal watching and suspecting."

He held her closer.

"Look here, Mary--this can't go on.  I want you to let me do
something about it.  You have given too much of yourself.  It is
time someone else did the giving."

"But what can one do?"

"Be intelligently selfish.  There are places where Gil could be
cared for.  I could arrange it.  I know someone who would help."

He felt her stiffen.

"One of those anonymous places!  I couldn't.  You see--I promised

He paused, and standing still, he felt the rain on his face.  He
was conscious of a sense of a struggle, of the wilful lover in him
urging a claim.  He was conscious, also, of her leaning against him
with a kind of pathetic rigidity, and it seemed to him that two men
in him held her.  His mouth touched her hair.  It was all wet with
the rain.  And there ran through him an instant, infinite

"Mary, I'll do just what you wish.  But, my dear, I want you to be

She pressed her wet head against his face.

"It's so hard.  Be patient with me, oh--be patient.  There's a
something that pulls me.  I can't help it, Lance.  I'm made that

He said:  "I know.  It's just because you are Mary."


When man has become civilized he is a gentle opener and closer of
doors, and Lance found the Venerable asleep in his arm-chair in
front of the fire.

Lance did not wake his grandfather, and stepping softly to look at
him he seemed to see a little old, tired child curled up in the
chair.  His sleep was very soundless and still, and his breathing
so shallow that for a moment Lance wondered which sleep it was--the
sleep of to-day or that of the great to-morrow.

Slipping out of his wet mackintosh, and kneeling first on one knee
and then on the other to take off his shoes, he sat down on an old
green plush footstool close to his grandfather's feet.  The
Venerable's head, reposing on a red cushion, had a mystical
whiteness.  His hands were crossed over the lower button of his
black alpaca coat.  And Lance looked at his grandfather's hands;
always meticulously clean, and with a skin that had none of the
branny harshness of old age; they had--or seemed to have--on this
last night of the old year--a tenuous pallor.  They were typical,
the hands of a very clean and proud old man; but to Lance they were
much more than that.  They were the hands of a worker, hands which
had bestowed upon him a worker's benediction, and the blessing of
human understanding.  "Great old man--even in his sleep," thought
Lance, and felt in his pocket for that cheque of his father's.  He
unfolded it, and holding it with both hands, seemed to consider it,
as though the words and figures were mystic symbols.  His father's
signature, too, "Probyn Pybus"--with a flourish of the two Y's and
a looped line drawn beneath it--was a sign in the heavens.  Lance
smiled; he was smiling at the Lance of yesterday, and looking with
a ruthless self-knowledge at the Lance of to-morrow.  "Till he took
me in hand," he reflected, "I was just damned clever, a precious
young highbrow.  I suppose he taught me to feel."

And then the Venerable woke up without Lance being aware of the
opening of those very blue eyes.  Old Pybus looked at his grandson,
and at the piece of paper held by his grandson's fingers.  He too

"I think I have been asleep, my dear."

Lance did not move, nor did he attempt to conceal his father's

"So you have, grandpater.  And now you have mentioned it--I want
you to do more sleeping.  Getting up at six on a winter morning
isn't necessary."

Old Pybus drew up his feet and sat erect in his chair.

"Probyn gave you that, my dear?"

"Yes, he's a Pybus, grandpater.  And I took it."


"Yes--in a way.  And because--I think I had a glimpse of what was
at the back of his mind.  I suppose one learns to take things--
though I seem to have been doing nothing but taking.  Mary gave me
a hint."


"Partly.  But--grandpater--don't you think you could retire?  What
I mean is--I feel--that it's my turn--our turn.  You see--"

Old Pybus laid a hand on his grandson's shoulder.

"My dear--I understand you.  But I like doing things.  Old people
do, you know.  They treat me very gently here.  I'd like to go on
doing things.  I shall like it all the better for knowing--"

Lance--slowly and softly folded up his father's cheque.

"You're an old war-horse, grandpater.  But--I wish--"

"Well, my dear, the wish is the thing that matters."



When a north-east wind blew over Castle Craven it blew bitterly,
and the old town would turn up a grey collar and huddle itself
under the hurrying sky.  The halliards of the flagstaff on the
church tower kept up a monotonous clapping.  The roar of the wind
joined the roar of the river.  The Venerable's pigeons sought out
sheltered corners, the warm side of chimney stacks, the angles of
dormer windows.  In the Brent valley and on the hills, landscape
and sky gave the impression of movement, the trees blown all one
way, and looking as though they were trying to run from that bitter
blast, but were rooted to the ground by terror.  Lance, at work in
his upper room, kept the oil stove very near; paper and pen were
cold, and now and again he had to hold his hands over the stove.

As usual, old Pybus got out of bed at six.  He had an alarum clock
on the table beside him, and Lance would hear the clock's
reverberations, and tumble out into the raw gloom to light a
candle, and hurry downstairs in trousers and shirt to forestall his
grandfather and put a match to the fire.  The Venerable felt the
cold.  On these mornings his face had a grey, pinched look, and he
would rub his hands to get the blood moving in his fingers.

"I wish you would stay in bed, grandpater, until the room is warm."

But the Venerable was obstinate.  For ten years or so he had gone
on duty at half-past seven, and the Saracen Inn was his ship.  He
had to see what that lubber of a lad was doing, whether the
doorstep was as white as it should be, and the hall and lounge
clean and tidy.  He examined every ash-tray, sorted out the letters
and tucked them under the tapes on the green board, gave the brass
gong a polish, and kept an eye on the fires.  As he had confessed
to Lance, he liked doing these simple things, and though he had no
fear of death, he loved the day's rhythm, the realities of its
routine.  His mysticism did not lack hands.

At half-past seven he would walk off up the yard, wrapped up in a
black overcoat.  Lance insisted upon the overcoat, for the yard had
a draughtiness on these winter mornings, and as likely as not the
Venerable would loiter to whistle to the pigeons.  He began the day
by throwing out the crusts and two handfuls of seed to them.  And
at night Lance would carry the oil stove into his grandfather's
bedroom half an hour before the Venerable went up to bed.  Until
this winter old Pybus had scorned a hot bottle, but he had been
persuaded to allow that it warmed your feet and helped you to fall


That north-easter was not blowing on the night when Mary came up to
Castle Craven to share a little festa with Lance and the Venerable.
It was the Venerable's birthday.  Probyn had been over in the
morning with his conception of what a birthday present should be,
Probyn the practical, the wool merchant, whose fleece was turning
to goblin gold.  He had brought a fur-lined overcoat, six flannel
shirts, the same number of thick pants and vests, and a precious
copy of Gerard's Herbal.  He had swallowed a glass of sherry and
some emotion.  Even in the late nineteen-twenties England and a
Pybus could be old England and old Pybus.  Cars might blow their
trumpets, but there were some walls that had not fallen.

Lance had ordered the dinner, and had tipped the Saracen cook.
Also, he had managed to procure flowers, a posy for the Venerable,
and violets for Mary.  Also propped against old Pybus's glass was
the dedication of "Rust," lettered in old-English type by Mary.--
"To the Venerable."

Old Pybus was wearing his famous made-to-measure suit, and the
tortoiseshell glass with the black silk ribbon.

"In honour of you, my dear.  This is how we did things at Trinity
when Lance and I were up.  Hallo--what's this?"

He had been manoeuvred into his own chair and kept there with his
back to the table until George, the head-waiter, appeared in person
with the soup-tureen.

"It's a little previous, grandpater.  Mary worked it in ivory

Lance was referring to the dedication and not to the soup, but his
grandfather took the half-sheet of vellum-paper into his hand, and
the paper trembled just a little.

"Thank you, my dear.  The more one wants to say--the less there is
to be said.  But it's a great gesture."

He looked across at Mary.

"So your colour-box is out at last.  Ivory black instead of rose-
madder or vermilion.  You must keep the rose-madder for Lance."

He laughed.

"Moods and a colour-box.  But at my age!  Now--just how old am I?
Ought I to tell?"

"Does it matter, Venerable?"

"Unless I want to boast about it, my dear.  But I think not.
Supposing we wish 'Rust' as many editions as I have had birthdays."

"How the highbrows would hate me.  Seventy shameful editions!"

"Offer them the chance, my dear, and see them jump."

He was in great spirits, for here were these two young things
sitting down with an old fellow on his seventy somethingth
birthday, and looking at him lovingly.  They were gentle to him,
not with the patronage of youth, but with a fine and delicate
courtesy, because that old body of his was growing frail.  And he
had nothing but a few hundreds to leave to either of them.  His
amber had no such fly in it.  He was the Venerable, the head of the
house, their ancient of days.

And certainly he was not dull.  He shared and enjoyed their
glances.  He sat there like a benedictine, with a little twinkle of
tender teasing in his blue eyes.  Here was romance, the romance of
reality, the quintessence of human mysticism, a marriage of mind
and emotion.

They drank red wine.  George had warmed it, and it was bland and
mellow, and the Venerable felt that red wine was sacramental.  When
Lance poured him out a second glass, old Pybus appeared to reflect
for a moment before raising the glass.  He made a little bow to
Mary, and a little bow to Lance.

"Your health, my dears."

They touched glasses.

"Sanctus simplicitas!  I wish you both something better than

He did not wish them the absence of any shadow, for shadows have
their uses, nor was he thinking of their particular shadow.  The
man with the blind eyes had been left at home with his piano,
though Lance had suggested his joining the party.  There need be no
ungraciousness in a refusal, but Merris had been ungracious.  "No,
thanks.  I'm not part of the celebration."  He had refused with a
little smirk of irony, but without spleen.  But there may have been
some significance in their forgetting of Merris on that particular
evening.  He was less than a shadow.  If they thought of him at
all, they thought of him at his piano, absorbed in the sounds of
his own creating, a human disharmony which would have clashed with
the leit motif of this particular occasion.

Lance had left his chair to pour out the Venerable a glass of port
when there came a knocking at the door.  He stood with the decanter
poised, and with a downward smile at his grandfather.

"I can guess what that is."

"George in a hurry?"

"I divine a deputation.  The staff of the Saracen presents its
compliments and congratulations to Mr. Pybus."

The Venerable made a movement as of sitting erect and ready in his

"Better see, my dear."

Lance passed the decanter to Mary, and went to the door.  He had a
smile ready, but the smile was not needed.  He saw a girl standing
there, and on her face was something indescribable, a kind of
sullen, wet horror.

"I want to see Miss Mary."

Lance held the door open.

"You had better come in."

The girl's eyes were fixed in a stare upon his collar.

"No--I won't.  I want to see her out here.  Something's happened."


Lance had brought the little aluminium saucepan from the kitchen
and placed it on the hob of the sitting-room fire.  It contained
their coffee, but they were not to drink that coffee.  He turned to
look at the Venerable, who was sitting very erect in his chair with
an air of almost grim attentiveness.  They could hear the two
voices out there in the darkness.  Mary had closed the door.

Old Pybus's eyes met his grandson's.


Lance nodded.  He felt that there was nothing to be said while
those moments of tension lasted.  Something--yes--something!  It
was the girl who was doing most of the talking; her voice,
hysterical and slightly shrill, seemed to hammer at the room's
silence with a couple of emotional fists.  Her words came in
snatches between sharp spasms of breathing.

"He just wanted to enjoy himself--that's all.--Don't look at me
like that.--Yes--I can feel you looking.  How was I to think of
such a thing happening?  You shut him up--you did.  He never had
any fun.  Oh--dear--oh--dear!  I just wanted him to have a little
fun.  Oh, my God!  He's lying down there.  No--they didn't stop--
blast them.  When I saw--I just ran.--Yes--up here.--I'm about

Old Pybus, as though some blind instinct was groping in him, felt
in his pocket for his pipe.  He looked up as Lance made a sudden
movement towards the door.  He held up a hand.

"No--my dear."

"Grandpater, did you hear?  She said--"

"Yes--I heard.  We snap like dogs when we are in pain.  Be still."

The wailing voice began again.

"He was just merry--he was.  'Nelly, I'll race you,' he said, just
like that.  How was I to know that he was going to do such a thing?
I saw the lights of the car coming--and I shouted to him and ran
after him down the road.--He didn't seem to hear the car."

Said that other voice, Mary's voice--"You say he didn't seem to
hear.  Yet he could run.  You must tell me--how bad he was.--It's

"Oh, Miss, it's cruel."

"No, no,--don't you see?  Did he know that car was coming?"

"I don't think he knowed--Miss.  He wouldn't have done it, would he--
on purpose?"

The door opened and Mary came in.  She did not look at either of
them, but at the chair on which she had left her hat and coat.  Her
eyes were like two dark hollows in her white face.  She stood there
as though bewildered.

Lance went to her.

"We heard.  We couldn't help it.--I'll go, dear."

She pointed to her coat.

"No--I must go.--Could you send people--a doctor?"

Old Pybus got out of his chair.


"Of course--"

"I'll see to the other things."

Lance held Mary's coat.

"I'm coming--dear.  I must.  Where did the girl say?"

She seemed to set and stiffen her throat and shoulders.

"Between the bridge and our lane.  On the main road."

They went out together past the dim, half-defiant, half-cringing
figure of the girl.

"Nelly, you must come."

"Oh--I couldn't, Miss--It's too horrible--him lying there--on the

"You must.  You must show us.  Hold my hand."


They took the path by the Castle Field and down through the hanging
beech woods, Lance first going to the Saracen yard to borrow a
hurricane lamp which was used in windy weather.  Returning, he met
his grandfather, buttoning up his coat, and ready with the matches
that Lance had forgotten.

"What a night, grandpater."

Old Pybus's face was strangely impassive.

"Some things--are better--as they are.  Have they gone on?"


"I'll send the other people to you."

Lance found the two women waiting for him where the path turned by
the old sally-port of the Castle and a wind-blown ash spread its
branches like a sheltering hand.  The lamp threw a pool of light,
and Lance held it so that their faces were in the shadow.  The
girl, huddled against the wall beside Mary's erect and waiting
figure, was crying into a crumpled handkerchief.

"I'll go first--and light the path for you."

He was aware of the stillness of the trees.  There was a smell of
moist and rotting leaves, and here and there a root writhed like a
snake across the path.  The branches of the beeches lost themselves
in the blackness above, and he had a curious feeling of being
closed up in a little shell of darkness with those two following
figures.  He had things to say to Mary, tender, reassuring things,
and he could not utter them because of that snivelling girl.  She
had not the virtue of silence.  The river below them was full of
the winter's hurry, and superimposed upon its chant were the
blurtings of tragedy.

"He only had two glasses.--I'll swear it, Miss.  We just turned in--
so to speak."

Lance winced.  He heard Mary's sharply agonised:  "Oh, be quiet."
Yes, why couldn't the fool be quiet; or did tragedy demand a
pitiful, blubbering clown?  But what a culmination!  The girl's
blurtings had painted the crude picture, those two going off
together in the darkness, the common pub below the bridge, Merris's
red mouth and blind eyes, the fever in him, the hurried--greedy
gulpings.  He had come out from the place, playful, inflamed, like
any hobbledehoy, to stagger about the dark road, to dare the girl
to an absurd race.  What a picture!  The very word "pub," public-
house, smelling of that vulgarity that is so English or Nordic,
beer, sweat, a steamy--stuffy room, mouths adhering to cheap
glasses, gin, sawdust, silly laughter, silly voices!

He heard Mary say:  "I don't blame you, Nelly.  Try to be quiet."
And suddenly the situation was saved, and snatched away from that
smell of beer and of beastliness.  He understood that in Mary there
was pity, some strange and compassionate mercy shown to this other
woman.  Something quivered in his throat.  Oh, thank God!  And
again he heard the river running, and smelt the fragrance of those
autumn leaves, and somehow the night was clean.  Ah, Mary!  He
wanted to face about and touch her, gather something that was hers
and put his lips to it.  She was greatness; she was woman.

They came down to the bridge over the river, and the bracket lamp
on the parapet showed an empty curve.  Lance paused.  He had the
calmness of pity.  He was inspired.

"Nelly--how far down the road--was it?"

Her voice came back to him with a dull gentleness.  She too was
absorbing Mary.

"About a quarter of a mile, sir, I should say.  Just where there's
an oak tree in the hedge."

"I'll go on ahead."

He looked at Mary, and Mary was silent, but her silence thanked
him.  He went on.

Holding the lamp shoulder high he came to the place where Merris
lay where the car had flung him.  The road was empty.  There were
the hedgerows and the dim shape of the oak tree, and a curve of
green grass.  Merris lay on his back with his arms spread.  His
face was untouched; it expressed sleep, a strange tranquillity.

Lance put the lamp on the grass and knelt down.  It was the first
time that he had seen death, but even in his innocence he seemed to
know that death was here.


He put out the lamp, and Mary, marking from a little distance the
sudden vanishing of the light, divined it to be a signal.  She
stood still; she closed her eyes for a moment, so that the inward
darkness of realization matched the outer darkness.  She spoke to
the girl.

"Nelly, you can go home."

The girl stood and shivered.

"Did you see the light go out, Miss?"

"Yes.  You can go home.  You need not come with me any farther."

She went on alone, and Lance, hearing her footsteps, stood
wondering whether she had seen and understood.  His impulse was to
go and meet her, and yet he remained motionless, holding the lamp.
She was very near.


She was just a dim shape in the darkness, and he was surprised at
the stillness of everything, at the strange and almost secret way
things happened.


"You put out the light?"

"Yes, you saw."

"Oh, my dear, how I have failed!"

Her cry of distress went through him.  He put the lamp down on the
grass.  She did not resist his arms; she let herself be taken and
held; she gave herself up.

"Beloved, what are you saying?  You gave everything."

"He's dead.  Did you hear what she said to me?  That I shut him up,
that he was dull, that he wanted to enjoy things."

"Oh, my dear, and you were gentle to her.  It wasn't so.  You're
not to think of it in that way."

"Oh, poor Gil!"

He took her face between his hands.

"Mary, my Mary, it's not true.  You were perfectly wonderful to
him.  You're wonderful to me now.  You always will be.  What more
could you have given?  Oh, don't tremble like this."

Her eyes were closed.

"Hold me, Lance, hold me; don't let me go.  It's all dark."

"I'll hold you, Mary, always.  Put your head down, dear."

She did not weep; she made a kind of broken murmuring, and all the
while his lips were pressed against her hair.  He just held her and
loved her.


In a little while she grew calm.  She looked up into his face, and
stood off, but with her hands upon his shoulders.

"I'd like him taken home."

"I'll bring him home.  They'll be here--very soon.  But you?"

"I'm going home."

"But, Mary, can you--alone?  I can't let you--"

"I can," she said.  "I wish to."

"Dear, you're brave."

She made a little movement of the head.

"Oh, one has to be.  It's all rather dim and strange at present.  I
feel as though something had hit me, and dulled me.  I'd rather

He was loth to let her go.


"I want to do things.  It helps, to do things.  Stay here--for me--
Lance--my dearest, and bring him back."

"It's as you wish.  I'll run on after you when they come."

Holding his hand, she turned and looked at something that was like
a shadow on the dim grass.

"Poor Gil.  I'm going now, dear.  You'll wait."


Later, Lance was glad that Mary had gone, for hard upon the heels
of Law and Medicine came a little rabble from the river alleys of
Castle Craven, intrigued by the rumour that someone had been
smashed up.  A grey-headed sergeant of police, pushing two women
aside whose heads strained forward into the little circle of light
with looks of greedy curiosity, joined the doctor and a constable.
"Stand back, will you."  There were three or four children poking
about among the legs of their elders.  Headlights glared.  The
driver of the ambulance, who had left his engine running, remarked
to someone, and that someone happened to be Lance:  "They do like
the smell of blood."

Lance looked fierce.  He saw these pushing, peering figures as
cattle round a feeding-pen.  He went and stood beside old Pybus,
who had come down with the doctor.  The Venerable was as muffled up
in silence as he was in his big, black coat.

"I'm glad she didn't stay.  I'm going on, Venerable."

His grandfather nodded.

"What does she wish?"

"She asked to have him there."

"Better tell them."

The doctor was drawing aside, and Lance took his place, and spoke
to the sergeant.  He said what he had to say, and the sergeant,
looking up over a big shoulder, observed that there would be an
inquest, and that the Castle Craven mortuary was more useful than a
private house.  Lance did not argue.  "It's Miss Merris's wish,
sergeant.  I promised," and the sergeant--with an air of
philosophic and official tolerance--replied with an "All right,
sir."  Lance was feeling restive.  He shouldered somebody aside,
and stood by his grandfather.

"I'm going on.  Will you see that they--do what she wishes,

Old Pybus touched his grandson's shoulder.

"I will, my dear."

Lance ran.  He was glad of the darkness and of the raw night air in
his face, and glad to lose those glaring headlights and the little
swarm of surreptitious, craning figures.  The smell of blood!  A
thrill!  Someone smashed up!  Just like Brooklands, with a rushing
and a jostling round the circus rails.  Did a crowd ever think?
And yet people could be so extraordinarily decent.  But when he
came to the "Marions" lane he dropped to a walk, feeling somehow
that he must tread softly up this little path of many memories.
His consciousness was Mary's.  His restiveness, his resentments and
his scorns died away in his consciousness of her tragedy.  "Oh, my
dear, how I have failed!"  He would never forget that cry of hers
and the way it had moved him.  As if she could fail a man!  Why,
she was as unique as the Venerable.

He came to the gate and paused.  He saw the winter hedges, hazel
and thorn and holly, the bare fruit trees, the two old yews, and
set behind and among them four lighted windows.  She had lit her
lamps and her candles, and he was made to think of torches, a pyre,
the whimsies of her tragic tenderness.  No house, dark and dubious
and secretive.  She asked for light.  She had willed light, and the
sensitive man-child in him applauded her.  He went through the
white gate with a swelling of the throat.

The door under the porch was open.  He went in.  He seemed to know
instinctively where he would find her.  She was sitting in front of
the fire, elbows on knees, her face between her hands.  She looked
round and up at him with a dark silence of the eyes.

"They are coming."

Her eyes went back to the fire, and kneeling beside her he, too,
looked into the heart of the fire.


All was over.  The lane was empty, and old Pybus stood in the
porch, buttoning up his coat.

"I shall stay here to-night, grandpater."

"Quite right, my dear.  She ought not to be left alone."

"She says that she is going to sit by him all night.  She thinks
she's failed.  As if she could fail?  If she can keep awake, so can

Old Pybus realised that he had forgotten his hat.  His big head was
so very full of other matters.

"My hat, my dear.  Left it in the sitting-room.  Yes, you keep your
vigil.  I think I'll be getting back now."

Lance went for his grandfather's hat.  Their voices had been
hushed, and so were his footsteps, for death was lying under a
white sheet, but Mary had ears.

"Grandpater--I forgot; you'll have to walk.  You ought to have gone
back with the ambulance."

"Walking won't kill me, my dear."

"I wish I'd thought.  I'll come with you as far as the end of the

And at the end of the lane they parted, Lance turning back to his
vigil.  Old Pybus loitered for a moment, looking at the lights of
Castle Craven and seeing the old hill town as a fantastic birthday
cake upon which life had stuck some seventy candles.  And life and
death had conspired to give him a present.

"I'm not sorry.  No--I'm damned if I'm sorry."

Suddenly he heard his grandson's voice coming to him from the
darkness of the lane.



"I'm sorry your day ended like this.--But many happy returns of
other days."

Old Pybus raised his hat.

"The same to you, my dear; the same to both of you."

He went upon his way with great content.



Like the disciples in the garden of Gethsemane, Lance Pybus slept,
though he had watched with his invisible Mary through the first
watches of the night.  The fire was grey ash, and the lamp had
burnt itself out when he woke in his chair to find Mary standing
beside him.  A little light was sifting through the curtains, and
her figure was wraithlike.

"Mary!--I'm sorry.--I've been asleep."

She touched his cheek with her hand, and her fingers were very

"Why not?  You were here, and I felt you here.  And now we begin
the day."

He took and held her hand as he rose.

"Dear--you're very cold, and I have let the fires out.  I'm quite
an expert at fires.  Where shall I find things?"

"I'll show you."

She pulled back the curtains from the window looking on the
orchard, and they saw the trees like ghost trees between a dim grey
sky and the frosted grass.  The day was coming up, a beginning of
things and an ending of things, and they stood to watch the orchard
coming to life and the trees ceasing to be ghosts.  And in the
chill of the winter dawn they drew together with a calm and quiet
consciousness of new horizons.

She was the first to move.

"Come.--We'll light the fires, and I'll get you some breakfast."

He kissed her softly on the forehead, a salute of honour.

"Always--and for ever, Mary."


When Lance went out into the lane a winter sun was shining upon
glistening hedgerows and frosted grass.  A thin blue sky covered
the zenith.  The earth felt firm and clean and ringing under his

He lit a pipe and looked across at Castle Craven.  What a day!  It
was one of those live and vivid mornings in the midst of winter,
and he walked fast, full of himself and of those other selves.  The
day was both to-day and to-morrow; it envisaged many morrows; it
had sunlight and blue sky.

He took the path up through the beeches to the Castle Field.  The
clock in the church tower struck nine.  He saw the Venerable's
pigeons flashing white wings, and lining the roof tops.  Dear old
Venerable!  He entered the cottage and saw the fire alight and
cheerful, and his grandfather's breakfast things still on the
table.  Old Pybus had gone on duty; and Lance, with a glance at the
fire, closed the door on that familiar and quiet room, and walked
up through the Saracen yard to the white door in the red wall.

He opened it; he walked half-way along the passage, and stood
still.  He saw a figure lying on the floor below the big brass
gong.  A woman was kneeling; a waiter and a boy were bending

The kneeling woman looked up into Lance's face.  He was gazing at
his grandfather and not at her--though he was aware of a sound of

"He'd just been upstairs to carry down a bag.  He came and stood
here--just as he always did.--I heard something fall."

Lance was staring.

"He must have struck the gong as he fell.  It was flashing and
swinging when I rushed out.  But doesn't he look grand and

Lance knelt down.  He saw nothing but the Venerable's face,
tranquil, vaguely smiling.


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