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Title:      The Old Ladies (1924)
Author:     Hugh Walpole

"The old ladies were soon forgotten in the pursuit of more exciting
personal ties. . . .  They sat in a row deserted."

--Henry Galleon.



The Old Ladies is the only novel that I have ever written without
taking thought first.  The manner of it was in this wise.  I had
already worked at several chapters of a long and complicated novel
and my mind was entirely absorbed by it.  I went to stay with my
parents in Switzerland.  At the pension we were all greatly
interested in a lady who, quite plainly, disliked her fellow human
beings.  She was tall, stout, slow in movement, with a pale face
and black hair.  She spoke to no one.  She had her meals at a table
alone and, once and again, would look up and stare, fixedly and
accusingly, at her fellow-pensioners.  We thought that she must
have some secret sorrow.  One day, towards the end of a meal, she
rose suddenly from the table as though to leave the room but
stopped beside a pretty girl sitting near to us.  She said
something and smiled, then bent forward and touched the beads of a
very fine amber necklace which the girl was wearing.

She continued to speak, she continued to smile, but her eyes were
fixed, with a hungry desire, on the amber beads.  For a moment I
thought that she would tear them from the young lady's neck.  All
the while she smiled politely.  Then with a little bow she released
the necklace and went out.  At that moment The Old Ladies was born
in my brain.  I began it that night and for six weeks after wrote
in a kind of frenzy.

I have myself been always a passionate lover of THINGS, a
collector, a kind of greedy magpie.  I have been ashamed of this
weakness in myself and admired those to whom possessions mean
nothing.  I tell myself that I could lose, or give away, my books
and pictures to-morrow and not miss them.  In a fashion I think I
could, for I realise by now how infinitely more precious people are
than things: I know too that I was as happy when I possessed fifty
books as I am now when I have seven thousand, and I am sure that in
an ideal state everything should be in common.  But that things
have an active, breathing life of their own experience has taught
me.  Henry James wrote a wonderful novel, The Spoils of Poynton, on
this subject, and I think that I had it in mind when I was
feverishly trying to catch up with my old ladies.  But I had very
soon forgotten everything in their reality.  Every novelist knows
more about his characters than he has any room, or indeed any
right, to tell, but I have never known so much about any of mine as
I did about May Beringer and Agatha Payne--Agatha Payne led me into
strange places.  Her earlier life in London, for instance, would
make a remarkable book had one the courage to write it.  I have
been told, during my writing life, two exactly opposite things--one
that my attitude to life is that of a good-natured family nurse,
the other that I have a passion for crime, sadism, and eccentric
behaviour!  Perhaps both criticisms are true, but one does not
choose one's characters--I remember that Meredith said that the
Egoist was himself and everybody else.  So, I suppose, it is true
that every character that a novelist creates has his or her origin
in the novelist's own individuality.  According to the fashion of
the time I should, I suppose, be prouder of my evil characters than
of my good.  At least I have noticed that they are always more
critically applauded.  I have no hesitation in saying that I am
proud of Agatha Payne.  She is true, she is real, she is alive--so
alive that, as I am writing this little foreword now, I am not sure
that she is not standing near the window, her eyes greedily fixed
upon the piece of red amber on my table . . .  She has wanted it
for a very long time. . . .

H. W.

















Quite a number of years ago there was an old rickety building on
the rock above Seatown in Polchester, and it was one of a number in
an old grass-grown square known as Pontippy Square.

In this house at one time or another lived three old ladies, Mrs.
Amorest, Miss May Beringer, and Mrs. Agatha Payne.  They were
really old ladies, because at the time of these events Mrs. Amorest
was seventy-one, Miss Beringer seventy-three, and Mrs. Payne
seventy.  Mrs. Amorest and Mrs. Payne were wonderfully strong women
for their age, but Miss Beringer felt her back a good deal.

It was a windy, creaky, rain-bitten dwelling-place for three old
ladies.  Mrs. Payne lived in it always; although she had fine
health her legs were weak and would suddenly desert her.  What she
hated above anything else in life was that she should be ludicrous
to people, and the thought that one day she might tumble down in
Polchester High Street, there in front of everybody, determined her
seclusion.  She was a proud and severe woman was Mrs. Payne.

Mrs. Amorest and Mrs. Payne had lived in these rooms for some time.
Miss Beringer was quite a newcomer--so new a comer in fact that the
other two ladies had not as yet seen her.  The lodgers on that top
floor of the house had the same charwoman, Mrs. Bloxam, and she
came in at eight in the morning, cooked the three breakfasts,
stayed until ten and tidied the rooms.  After ten o'clock the three
old ladies were alone on their floor of the house, very nearly
alone indeed in the whole building, because the second floor had
been a store for furniture but was now deserted, and the ground
floor was the offices of a strange religious sect known as the
"Fortified Christians."  The only "Fortified Christian" ever seen
was a pale dirty young man with a blue chin who sometimes unlocked
a grimy door, sat down at a grimier table, and wrote letters.  Mrs.
Amorest had once met him in the ground-floor passage, and it had
been like meeting a ghost.

Mrs. Amorest herself stayed indoors a good deal, because three pair
of stairs were a great number for an old lady, however strong she
might be.

She looked an old lady of course with her snow-white hair, her
charming wrinkled face, and her neat compact little body.  She had
also eyes as bright as the sea with the sun on it, and a smile both
radiant and confiding.  But she was like many other English old
ladies, I suppose.  I suppose so, because she never attracted the
least attention in Polchester when she walked about.  Nobody said,
"Why, there goes a charming old lady!"

She had never known a day's illness in her life.  When she had
borne her son, Brand, she had been up and about within a week of
his birth.  And yet she had none of that aggressive good health
that is so customary with physically triumphant people.  She never
thought about it as indeed she very seldom thought about herself at

Another thing that one must tell about Mrs. Amorest is that she was
very poor.  Very poor indeed, and of course she would not have
lived in that draughty uncomfortable room at the top of the old
house had it not been so.

She liked comfort and pretty things, and she had been well
acquainted with both when her husband had been alive.  Her husband,
Ambrose Amorest, had been a poet, a poet-dramatist ("Tintagel," A
Drama in Five Acts, Elden Foster, 1880; and "The Slandered Queen,"
A Drama in Five Acts, Elden Foster, 1883, were his two best-known
plays).  For a while things had gone well with them.  Amorest had
inherited from his father.  Then quite suddenly he had died from
double pneumonia, and it had been found that he had left nothing at
all behind him save manuscripts and debts.  A common affair.  Every
novel dealing with poets tells the same story.  Brand, the only
child, had at the age of eighteen gone off to seek his fortune in
America.  For a while things had gone well with him, then silence.
It was now three years since Mrs. Amorest had heard from him.

Indeed, the old lady was now very thoroughly alone in the world.
Her only relation living was her cousin Francis Bulling, who also
lived in Polchester.  It was because of him, in the first place,
that she had come to Polchester; she thought that it would be like
home to be near a relation, the only one she had.  But it had not
been very much like home.  Mrs. Bulling had not liked her; and even
after Mrs. Bulling's death, when Cousin Francis had been a grim old
man, sixty-eight years of age, tortured with gout and all alone in
his grim old house, he had not wanted to see her.

He was rich, but he had never given her a penny; and then, one day,
when she came to see him (she never thought of the money but felt
it her duty occasionally to do so), he had laughed and asked her
what she would do with twenty thousand pounds a year.

She had said that she did not know what she would do, and he had
said that he might as well leave it to her as to any one else.  She
had tried not to think of this, but money was the one power that
forced her sometimes to think of herself.  She had so very little,
and it was dwindling and dwindling because, kind Mr. Agnew her
solicitor explained to her, her investments weren't paying as well
as they did.  She knew very little about investments.  Her view of
money in general was that one must never get into debt.  She paid
for everything as she got it, and if she couldn't afford something
there and then, she didn't get it.  From quarter to quarter the sum
had to stretch itself out, and kind Mr. Neilson at the Bank wanted
it to stretch, she was sure, as far as it could, but, powerful man
though he was, he couldn't work miracles.

Although she thought every one kind and most people nice she was
not a fool.  She was not blind to people's faults, but she selected
their virtues instead.  She felt that she was an old woman with
nothing interesting, amusing, or unusual about her, and therefore
did feel it very obliging of any one to take an interest in her.
It could not truthfully be said that many people did.  She had her
pride, and she did not like her friends to see her poverty, and so
she did not ask them to her room.  On the other hand, she did not
wish to accept hospitality without returning it.

Then, even though you are very strong, if you are over seventy and
a woman, you have only a limited store of energy.  Mrs. Amorest was
often weary, and sometimes felt that she COULD not face THOSE

In her dreams at night the stairs figured, long-toothed, dragon-
scaled, fiery to the foot--her demons!

But when she had reached her room, then all was well.  In these
years she had grown fond of that room.  Once, when investments had
behaved more nobly and she could ask her friends to visit her, it
had been a very gay room indeed.  She had always liked pretty
things, and had inherited from her earlier, more prosperous married
life certain fine pieces of furniture.  In the right-hand corner of
the room was her bed, and in front of the bed a screen of old rose-
coloured silk.  There were three old chairs also fashioned in rose
colour, a rug of a rich red brown, a little gate-legged table, and
on her wash-hand stand her jug and basin were of glass, and the
little water jug had around it a wreath of briar-rose.  She had,
too, a bookcase with twelve volumes of Macmillan's Magazine, some
stories by Grace Aguilar and Mrs. Craik, and Tennyson's complete
works in eight volumes; also the four books published by her
husband, one of poems and three of plays.

Her chiefest treasures were on her mantelpiece, a faded photograph
of Brand aged twelve in football clothes--"such a sturdy little
chap" was the phrase she had used in the old days when there had
been visitors--and a drawing of her husband, a thin figure with
hair flowing, a cape flung over his right shoulder and a book held
prominently in the hand.  "A rather weak face" that same visitor
might have thought, but to Mrs. Amorest, rich in intimate memories,
perfection; perfect in physical beauty, in spiritual significance,
in human sympathy.

The room was a large one, and might seem to the superficial
observer chill and spare.  The chest of drawers and the cupboard
where Mrs. Amorest kept her clothes could not cover sufficiently
the farther wall space.  The windows were not large.  Mrs. Payne
had the view right over the Pol and the country beyond.  Mrs.
Amorest had chimney-pots and not a glimpse of the Cathedral.  Miss
Beringer had the Cathedral, but her room was a pound a year more
than Mrs. Amorest's.

Mrs. Amorest would not have a fire until the winter had really
closed in, and the difficult days were such as these in November
when it could be so cold and so wet and so wild and yet it was not
truly winter.  To-day was not a bad day; a pale ghostly light was
over the world, the sky was scattered with tatters of white cloud
as though for a celestial paper-chase, and the smoke from all the
chimneys blew wildly in the wind.

Mrs. Amorest noticed these things as she prepared to go out.  The
Cathedral had struck (very faintly heard from here) two o'clock,
the sun suddenly made a struggle and threw a faint primrose glow
upon the remains of Mrs. Amorest's little luncheon--a coffee cup, a
tumbler, a plate with crumbled biscuit, and a half-empty sardine
tin.  Three water biscuits, one sardine, and a cup of coffee, and
Mrs. Amorest felt fortified for the rather difficult visit to her
Cousin Francis that she was about to pay.

As she arranged her bonnet over her beautiful white hair in front
of the misted looking-glass she was suddenly aware that she was
going to like this visit to her cousin less than any that she had
ever paid him.  She would like it less for two reasons; one that he
was very ill, and that she would therefore be in the hands of his
housekeeper, Miss Greenacre, who both disliked and despised her;
the other that kind Mr. Neilson had written to her to tell her that
there were only Ten Pounds Four Shillings and Fivepence to her
credit in the bank, and Quarter Day was yet far distant, and that
therefore the thought of Cousin Francis's money was more dominant
in her brain than it had ever been before.

She didn't wish it to be so.  As she stood there, twisting the
purple strings of her bonnet in her thin beautiful fingers, she
thought how wicked she must be to have this in her mind!

But as you grew older you seemed to have less and less power to
keep things out of your mind.  You were being punished perhaps for
looseness of thought in your earlier days.  You had been too happy
and careless then and must pay now.  It was the one remnant of Mrs.
Amorest's strict puritan upbringing that she felt that God did not
intend His servants to be too consciously happy.  And yet with her,
all her life, happiness would keep breaking in.  Probably she must
pay for that now.

She gave a little sigh as she turned away from the window.  She
was still wickedly hungry.  That was the punishment for being
physically so blooming, that you had always so healthy an appetite.
She looked for a moment covetously at the sardine tin.  One more
sardine, one more biscuit?  Then resolutely shook her head, and as
was her way often when she was alone her face broke into smiles.
How ridiculous to have such an appetite with her small body!  Now
if she had been Mrs. Payne . . . !

And perhaps if she were in a kindly mood Miss Greenacre would offer
her some tea with some of those nice sponge fingers that Cousin
Francis had.  She was not really greedy, but she liked sponge

Before she went out she listened for a moment, her head cocked on
one side like an enquiring bird.  How silent the house was!  Like a
dead-house.  The wind was playing through it like a musician
plucking a note from a board there, a stair here, an ill-fitting
window somewhere else.  But the house itself gave no sound.

Mrs. Payne too--how silent she was!  There in her room day after
day, thinking, thinking--of what?  Of her past, one must suppose.
After seventy the past was of so much more importance than the
present.  And the new tenant, Miss Beringer, how quiet she was!
She had been there for three days now and Mrs. Amorest had not yet
seen her.  "A nice-spoken lady," Mrs. Bloxam had said, "and fond of
talking."  Tall and thin and dressed in pale green, a strange
costume for one of her years.  And having decided this with a
thought of cheerful approbation for her own grey silk, Mrs. Amorest
started down the stairs.

Cousin Francis lived in a large stone house on the other side of
the river.  It was shortest if you dropped down into Seatown,
crossed the wooden bridge by the mill and walked through the
fields, but Mrs. Amorest avoided Seatown when she could.  She hated
to see the distress and poverty that she could do nothing to
improve; and although a stout optimistic lady had once told her
confidently that "the poor were always happy.  They had none of the
troubles that weighed on the rich," she couldn't altogether believe
it.  They had none of the SAME troubles certainly, but she herself
had known for too long what it was to worry about every penny, and
deny yourself everything comfortable and easy, to believe eagerly
in poverty.

So to avoid Seatown she crossed the Market-place and the bottom of
the High Street and turned to the left over Tontine Bridge, skirted
the river for a little way and then climbed the wooded path to
Cousin Francis's large white gates.

She was tired and weary and anxious to-day.  Do what she would she
could not beat down her anxiety.  Passing through the streets as
unobtrusively as possible, she would nevertheless have rejoiced had
there been only somebody to raise a hat or smile a smile.  There
was nobody at all; she mattered to nobody.  In that whole town
there was not a soul who cared whether she lived or died, and
realising that in the sharp November wind she gave a little shiver.
Her legs ached to-day and her brain ached.  That particular ache in
the brain came directly from her effort to keep her thoughts in
order and to bring them into some sort of consecutive discipline.
Her thoughts to-day were like mice behind the wainscoting--tap tap,
scratch scratch--there for a moment and then gone.  Some stockings
that must be mended; a discoloration of Mrs. Bloxam's eye that,
said Mrs. Bloxam, had been caused by tripping over a coalscuttle,
but was derived, Mrs. Amorest feared, straight from Mr. Bloxam's
fist; strange Mrs. Payne with her old discoloured purple velvet and
her bushy eyebrows; and there go Mrs. Combermere and Miss Ellen
Stiles!  How strong and self-confident they look!  Mrs. Amorest had
not been always a shy woman.  In those days in Cheltenham when Mr.
Harland and Mr. Crackanthorpe had come to stay over Sunday, she had
acted hostess bravely, although she could never like the things
that they liked, thought the books that they read and wrote quite
horrible if the truth be known.  Her husband had never been able to
change her artistic tastes.  But she had not shrunk from Mr.
Harland, had indeed chaffed him a little, but now were Mrs.
Combermere to stay and speak to her she would tremble all over and
stammer most-like, and have no words of her own!  And yet how happy
she would have been!  What an event in her day!  Once, at a party
at the Dean's, she had been introduced to Mrs. Combermere.  But
that seemed long ago.  The time for parties at the Dean's was past
and gone; for one thing she had no clothes, for another some one
might one day call on her and spy out the nakedness of the land,
for another. . . .

She shivered again as she crossed the Tontine Bridge.

Then she beat up her spirits.  What was happening to her?  How
unlike her to lose her courage!  It must be that tiresome Ten
Pounds Four Shillings and Fivepence that was worrying her.  Never
mind that.  She had been in worse troubles than that ere now and
God the Father had always come to her aid.  He would come to her
aid again.  As she looked up to the cloud-streaked sky, a sky into
which a faint orange glow was slowly stealing, she felt, as on so
many thousands of occasions she had felt before, the presence of a
large protecting friend Who put His arm out towards her and drew
her up, and smiling said, "How could you ever have doubted . . . ?"

Nevertheless she doubted once again as she walked up Cousin
Francis's grim and desolate drive.  Cousin Francis had that
property, peculiar to certain natures, of bestowing the colour of
his personality on everything and everybody close to him.  His
garden, the rooms of his house, his housekeeper, his secretary, his
Irish terrier, his two gardeners, all of them were wind-bitten and
desolate.  With all his money he did not know what comfort was, nor
colour, nor gentleness, nor the "laughter and the love of friends."
His own gaunt and rocky body with its high cold forehead, its naked
eyes and projecting teeth, its long legs and iron-grey hands, held
no comfort for any human soul.  Even his dog did not care for him.

The house was like a gaol with its barricaded windows and cold ugly
walls.  Mrs. Amorest pealed the iron bell and then waited, her
heart beating beneath her thin grey silk.  There was a fine view of
Polchester from here, the Cathedral riding triumphantly on high,
the houses and fields piled up at its feet, and now suddenly the
sun burst its bonds and great swaths of golden glory enwrapped the
scene.  Mrs. Amorest stood entranced and did not hear the door open
and the voice of the maid.

She turned and, blushing, said, "Oh, I beg your pardon.  How is Mr.
Bulling to-day?"

"A little better, mum."

"Oh, I'm glad of that!  I wonder if I might see him for a moment?"

"If you'll step in, mum, I'll enquire."

Mrs. Amorest stepped in and was left alone in the large stone hall
with its empty fireplace, its grim portrait of Mr. Bulling as Mayor
of Drymouth, and its shining wooden chairs.

She looked very small in that high cold place, and Miss Greenacre,
Mr. Bulling's housekeeper, might be forgiven perhaps for looking
all about her for quite a while before she saw that there was
anybody there.  Miss Greenacre was long and thin and white and
ribbed like a stick of asparagus.  She had the air of one who has
so many important things in mind that personal contact with her
must be always three times removed.  And especially for Mrs.
Amorest she was removed into almost disappearing distance.

Having found her, she only said "Good afternoon," biting her words
as she offered them as though to see whether they rang true or no.

"I came to enquire after Mr. Bulling," said Mrs. Amorest.  She was
often timid with Miss Greenacre.  How fervently she wished that she
was not, and the more fervently she wished it the more timid she

"I wonder whether I might see him for a moment?"

"Well now, that depends," said Miss Greenacre, looking down upon
Mrs. Amorest with a considering air as though she were a colour
waiting to be matched.

"He wasn't so well this morning, but since he's had his dinner--
well, he's brightened up considerable."

Mrs. Amorest might be timid, but she refused to be patronised by
any one.

"I wonder whether you would mind," she said quite sharply, "letting
him know that I am here?"

Miss Greenacre entered into the game with steely zest.

"Do you know, I believe he's just dropped off--about five minutes
back.  It wouldn't be well to wake him, would it?"

"I think he would like to see me," said Mrs. Amorest.  "If you
wouldn't mind making sure whether he's asleep or not."

"Well now . . . I wonder. . . ."

She stood there biting her finger and considering.  Mrs. Amorest
had a sudden burning ambition to pick up a large bronze of Neptune
near the door and hurl it at her.  Would she then snap in two or
bend?  The thought of her surprise made a little smile hover about
Mrs. Amorest's lips.  She got up.

"Would you mind," she said very firmly indeed, "asking whether Mr.
Bulling will see me?"

And to her great surprise Miss Greenacre suddenly turned and went.

Alone once more, Mrs. Amorest abruptly sat down again.  She was
more weary than she had known.  Her legs now really were NOT
strong.  That walk had exhausted her more than it had ever done
before, and a sudden fear, confronting her not for the first time,
whispered to her that the day was coming when she would be like
Mrs. Payne--alone up there at the top of that silent house
forgotten by all the world, slowly more helpless, more lonely,

She bit her lip because her chin trembled.  Her chin was always
giving her away.  It seemed the least stable part of all her

"Miss Greenacre shan't see that I'm worried," was her thought, and
Miss Greenacre did not, returning just then to say that Mr. Bulling
was awake and would see Mrs. Amorest.

Up the heavy oak staircase the two women went, through passages
that glimmered under the guttering gas with bad oil paintings of
heavy seas and buttercup meadows, and so into the long high
bedroom, dark and close and smelling of medicine.

Mrs. Amorest had often visited her cousin in bed before, and was
accustomed to the shining forehead, the long cold nose, the pale
bony hands.  Propped up against his pillows, he peered out at her
like a large malevolent bird.  His bed was canopied with heavy dark
red curtains.  On the table beside the bed was a lamp with a green
shade and a row of medicine bottles.  Mrs. Amorest, coming forward,
noticed none of these things in her sudden discovery that he had
changed terribly for the worse since her last sight of him.

Her heart was touched: the maternal was roused in her.  He was
suffering, and there was no one really to care for him.  That
horrible Miss Greenacre could not be called anything.  How
uncomfortable he looked!  She longed to turn the pillows, to
smooth the sheets, to turn the shade so that the light was not
in his eyes!  But even with that impulse she realised that Miss
Greenacre, watching her, would say to herself, "Ah, there goes
another after his money!"  And was it not true?  Only on her way
to this house . . .  So the impulse was checked and she stood there
in her purple bonnet and grey silk, smiling a little, and at last
timidly saying:

"And how are you, Cousin Francis, to-day?"

"Worse; that's the way I am," he growled from the bed; then raising
his voice, "All right, Greenacre.  You can leave us.  I know you'd
like to overhear every word we're going to say, but you can listen
behind the keyhole and you won't hear a thing."

How terrible, thought Mrs. Amorest, to treat any one like that and
to call her "Greenacre."  Could I ever endure it, she wondered, if
I were in that position?  No, indeed, I could not.  But the lady
did not appear discomforted.  She gave Mrs. Amorest one haughty
glance and departed.

"Sit down, sit down, Cousin Lucy.  And take off your bonnet.  I
like to see your hair."  This last remark was in a softer tone.  It
encouraged Mrs. Amorest, who took off her bonnet and laid it on the
table near the medicine bottles, then brought a chair and sat down
close to the bed.

"Come to see how the poor old man's getting along?  To see how fast
he's dying and when his money's going to be divided?"

Mrs. Amorest's pale cheeks flushed.  "It wouldn't be true, Cousin
Francis," she said, "to say that I haven't thought about your
money, because I have, and reproached myself for doing so.  But I
haven't thought greatly about it, and I would have come to visit
you if you hadn't a penny in the world.  I would have come indeed
more often than I have done."

"Well, that's honest," he answered.  "More honest than most of
them.  I'm glad you've come to-day.  It's probably the last time
you'll see me."

"I hope indeed not."

"But indeed it is.  I'm dying, and I'm frightened of it.  I've been
a man all my life that's never needed anybody.  I never needed a
woman or a friend.  My mind was given to the making of money and I
made it, and now it seems a shame that I can't take any of it with
me.  Sometimes, when the pain's bad, I want it all to end as
quickly as may be, but when the pain goes, there I am again
thinking of the money and wondering how I can make the most of it
in the little time that's left.  But I'm lonely, Cousin Lucy,
mighty lonely.  All my life I never thought to be, but that is the
truth now I'm here.  I'm lonely and naked at the last."

Mrs. Amorest said what she could, but her mind was fixed on the
desire to arrange his pillow, to smooth his hair from his forehead,
to do something that would make him comfortable.  His long cold
fingers kept plucking at the sheets, his eyes were never still.
But she would not do anything lest he should think that she wanted
his money.

"What would you say to it if I were to leave you a thousand pounds
a year?" he asked her.

"I should be thankful to you," she answered him.  "I have not many
years to live, but I would find out my boy and we could live
together again."

"Where is your boy?"

"I don't know."  Against her will tears gathered in her eyes.  "I
haven't heard now for a considerable time."

"Aye, he's forgotten you, I've no doubt.  So you're all alone?"

"Yes, I'm quite alone."

"It must have tired you coming up here to see me?"

"Yes, it was tiring."

"How old are you now?"

"I was seventy-one last March."

"Were you now?  We're both old dodderers.  Are you afraid of

"No, Cousin Francis."

"And why not?"

"My Heavenly Father will care for me in that as He has cared for me
in everything else."

"Cared for you, you say, when He has left you all alone in your old

"I am not alone while He is with me."

"Well, I don't understand all that religious nonsense.  But what if
it should be true, after all?  Who can tell?  Nobody knows."

There was a silence between them, a long silence.  Then the man

"You're a good woman, Cousin Lucy--the best of all of them that
come here.  I'll give you a thousand pounds a year.  On my oath, I
will.  I'll see Agnew about it to-morrow."

Mrs. Amorest turned very pale.  Then she said faintly:  "Thank you,
Cousin Francis."

"Is that all you've got to say?  I like that too.  You're not a
false one like the others.  Let me feel your hair."

She came closer to the bed, and he put his hand on her white hair
and very slowly stroked it.  They sat for a long time, he stroking
her hair.  Then suddenly his hand fell away and she saw that he was

She gently put on her bonnet and stole out of the room.



Darkness gathers swiftly in November, and below the rock the lights
of the Seatown slum gaily flickered.  There came up to the black
walls of the houses some shadow of the last pale afterglow of the
sunset, and motion was sent spinning through the evening air by the
shrill, discordant notes of a cornet that some one in Seatown was

In Pontippy Square there was no life.  The tides of Polchester had
passed it by.  The old houses once, in eighteenth-century years,
fashionable and alive, had sunk their chins into their breasts and
so slept.  Used largely once for warehouses, they were now, like
No. 19, where lived the old ladies, let out in pieces to occasional
lodgers.  It was the shabbiest inch of all the genteel districts of
the town.

In the Square there were only two lamps, and these at opposite
corners, so that the space before No. 19 was unlighted.  The
pavement here, too, was broken and grass-grown, so that it made a
splendid trap for the unwary.  After dusk, to navigate the holes
and broken stones, then to find the door, to turn the round iron
knob, to discover the stair-rail, and then successfully to start
upwards into the forbidding dark, was no mean feat of seamanship,
and, for an old lady, it was dangerous indeed.

Some years before an old lodger had been discovered by the milkman
in the morning at the bottom of the 27 stairs with her neck and
many bones broken.  She had fallen a full flight.  She haunted,
poor old wispy-haired crumpled lady, the Square after dusk.  She
always had with her a little sniffing dog.  You could feel him
sniffing at your trousers or skirts.

The silence of Pontippy Square was another matter of note.  The
sniffing of a ghostly little dog could indeed be heard miles away
if you chose to listen for the sound.  But silent though the Square
might be, once within the house with the heavy old door closed
behind you, you sank deep, deep into a well of oblivion.  You might
climb the stair with the hope perhaps of discovering it livelier if
you went higher.  But the silence follows you.  When, out of
breath, on the third floor now, you pause and listen, it is only
the hammering of your heart that you hear.  Silence everywhere.

Mrs. Payne's room was the first on the right of the stairs.  If you
opened the door and looked in after dusk (a liberty very rarely
taken by any one), the first things that you noticed were the two
big red candlesticks and a large piece of faded orange silk hanging
over a cupboard opposite the door.  It was a large room and
curiously jumbled with odds and ends.  On the round table there was
a sewing basket of pink silk, a china dish with oranges, a black-
haired doll in a green dress, and two packs of cards scattered on
the shabby red table-cloth.  The candles in the red candlesticks
gave but a faint light, and you must look well before you saw in
addition to a bed a chest of drawers and the cupboard with the
orange silk across it, a large black rocking-chair, a cuckoo clock,
and a big oil painting of an aquarium scene--a very large picture
this, with green shining water and large fish with open mouths.
There was also a stuffed bird with crimson wings in a glass case.

After these things, your eyes now accustomed to the uncertain
light, you perceived their mistress.  Mrs. Payne was a large,
stout, and shapeless woman.  She had hair of a deep black and her
cheeks were highly coloured.  She had fine dark eyes.  She looked
an old gipsy woman, and perhaps she had gipsy blood in her--foreign
blood, for sure.  She would be rocking herself in her chair, lying
back in it wearing her soiled red wrapper and her shabby crimson
shoes.  She was not a cleanly old woman.  Her splendid hair, as
black now as forty years ago, was tumbled about her head
carelessly, and stuck into it, askew, was a cheap black comb
studded with glass diamonds.  Her colour was swarthy, brown under
the deep red of her cheeks, and there was a faint moustache on her
upper lip.  But she must have been handsome once, a fine bold girl
in those years long ago.  Quite shapeless now, her fat dirty arms
naked under the wrapper, her body as it lolled back in the chair
boneless.  Once and again she yawned, then felt in a dirty paper
bag on the table near to her for a thick slab of nougat that she
crumbled idly in the bag, then ate fragments, licking slowly her
fingers.  Her face was expressionless.  Her large black eyes stared
out into the room vacantly.

As she licked her fingers she kicked one foot idly in the air.  But
she was not vacant.  She knew what she was about.  When the cuckoo
burst his little door and cried that it was seven o'clock she would
rise, totter across to the cupboard, produce a plate, a cup, a loaf
of bread, butter, jam.  She would make herself a cup of thick rich
cocoa (the kettle had been long on the fire), and she would eat
many pieces of thick bread and raspberry jam, and then a hunk of
black dark plum-cake.

She would eat sitting up at the table, staring in front of her, her
lips making a large smacking sound of satisfaction.  Then once
again she would lick her fingers slowly, elaborately.  Then once
again totter back to her chair, lie on it and rock, tossing her
shabby red shoes in air.

Totter!  Yes, because the only sign of age was in those legs of
hers.  They alone had deserted her.  They would betray her in a
moment, the knees failing, and she must cling to the table to save
herself from falling.  She hated her legs--they had betrayed her--
and in the dark recesses of her mind she would imagine how she
might punish them, punish them without hurting herself, just as
though they were separate personalities.

But on the whole she was not ill-contented, nor did she bear
humanity a grudge.  She did not dislike this life of hers.  She had
always been lazy, taking what came nonchalantly.  She had taken
Wilfred Payne and his miserable mother; she had taken a lover and
his brutal desertion of her; she had taken a child that had not
been her husband's (and he had never known); she had taken its
death; she had taken the Roman Catholic religion for the lights and
the incense; she had taken her husband's death and her own
subsequent poverty; she had taken the job of companion to an old
fool widow of a Polchester merchant; she had taken the widow's
decease (without leaving her a farthing) and her own subsequent
penury; she had taken Pontippy Square and the cold and silent room
there; she had taken her absolute loneliness and isolation--
everything she had taken with a luxurious sensual indifference.
Her two passions--and they were in their basis one--were for food
and bright colours.

For food her longing was both active and indolent.  Active because
she would take trouble that Mrs. Bloxam should keep her well
supplied in cake and jam and nougat.  She spent all that she had on
these foods, and in her slothful brain there was a kind of wonder
that she could purchase so much of this for so little.  Her
digestion did not apparently suffer.

Her passion for bright colours was a deeper longing.  It had always
been so.  As a tiny child she had cried after a reel of coloured
thread and had begged for a shining marble.  And this had gathered
strength perhaps because her husband and mother-in-law had sternly
forbidden it.  Theirs was the Nonconformist mind and vision: grey
stone, drab clothes, uncoloured minds.  She had hated her husband
for many reasons, but chiefly because he had thrown a gay hat of
hers into the fire.  She would lie in bed beside him devising
tortures for his soft and rounded limbs.  But that was many years
ago.  She had long forgotten him.  The past appeared to her a
succession of bright and shining images.  Her husband was not one
of these.  She did not think connectedly of her past at all.  Old
people do not.  To the old the past comes in a series of pictures,
not of necessity connected, here intensely vivid, there dim and
blurred--a green field, a quiet evening, an angry quarrel, some
loving face, some sharp disappointment--and all, vivid or blurred,
dispassionately removed.  No call for action any more.  Quiescence.
And then a strange wonder that to those about them these scenes so
real, so actual, mean nothing, stir no reaction.

But Mrs. Payne did not wonder.  She had no audience for her
memories; only Mrs. Amorest who seemed to her a silly old thing,
incredibly old, stupidly active, an egoist in her sense of her

With this matter of activity Agatha Payne was always intending to
be "on the move" one day soon.  Nothing forced her to stir.  Her
monthly allowance was paid to her by a lawyer in Birmingham.  He
paid her rental for her room.  The rest was in Mrs. Bloxam's hands,
and Mrs. Bloxam might cheat her if she willed, so long as she
brought her what she desired.

But Mrs. Bloxam did not cheat her.  She had a strange tenderness
towards her two old ladies.  When, before the arrival of Miss
Beringer, there had been two old ladies and one old gentleman, she
had been yet more tender towards the old gentleman, and were there
now three old gentlemen her tenderness would have known no bounds.
She DID prefer the other sex and always had.  But, as she said to
Mr. Bloxam, you couldn't help but be sorry for the two old things.
She liked Mrs. Amorest the better of the two; there was something
in Mrs. Payne's lazy indifference that frightened her, and then
"her liking sweet things the way she did."  Like a child.  But then
if it hadn't been sweet things it would have been drink, and THAT,
as Mrs. Bloxam only too absolutely knew, was "another kettle of
fish."  Mrs. Bloxam, too, was honoured by Mrs. Payne's trust in
her, and would take real trouble over the commissions she gave her,
going "quite a way" up the High Street to find the raspberry jam
that she preferred.  But whereas Mrs. Amorest was a "real sweet old
lady," and should have been "a Duchess in her own right if all had
their proper due," Mrs. Payne was "not quite. . . .  Well, you
know.  Shouldn't wonder if she went queer in the 'ead any day."

Mr. Bloxam, when he was sober enough to realise things, couldn't
see what Mrs. Bloxam was about wasting her time with those old
women.  It wasn't as though she got anything for it--but Mrs.
Bloxam felt like a mother to them, twenty years younger though she
was.  She felt, too, a certain power.  She liked to see Mrs.
Amorest's eager smile when she called her in the morning, and to
feel Mrs. Payne's dependence on her.  "If they 'adn't got me surely
to goodness I don't know who they would 'ave and that's the truth.
Poor old dears."

About Miss Beringer she had not as yet made up her mind.  Miss
Beringer had been there but a week.  And then there was the fox-
terrier.  "Pip."  A silly name for a dog.

It was not to be expected that Mrs. Payne considered Mrs. Bloxam as
a separate identity.  Had Mrs. Bloxam been a stick of nougat or a
piece of brightly coloured silk then Mrs. Payne would have desired
to possess her, and her sluggish brain would have suddenly awakened
to the INTENTION of possessing her, and from that, coil after coil
unwinding, she would have entered on the campaign of possessing her
with the pertinacity and determination of Napoleon advancing upon

It was fortunate indeed for her that she did not leave her room.
The sight of a gay vase or a jewelled trinket in a shop window
might have drawn her into committal of some crime.

I have said that physically she was still a strong woman, and the
weakness in her knees was more imagined than real.  But she did
occasionally suffer from a strange pain in the head.  This was not
exactly a headache; it was rather a kind of limiting of her
consciousness, a constriction of the brain, as though cords were
tightening over her brows and forbidding her to think.  When this
came upon her she was scarcely aware of what she did, moving,
apparently, under the orders of some commanding personality.

It was as though some one whispered to her "Go and do this," and
she then moved hypnotically.  It must be repeated that she was not
essentially an unkindly woman.  Now that she was old and alone
strange thoughts and desires possessed her.  She wished ill to no
one, but she moved in a world that had been largely created out of
her own lingering and possessing imagination.

The picture of the fish in the green tank of water that had been
her father's, that she had known ever since, as a little child, she
had gazed up at it hanging in the Birmingham dining-room, had
become part of her real and active world.  She moved inside it as
truly as she moved about the room, and the fish, especially the
large one with the silver scales and the long swinging tail, left
their watery confines and swam about her room slowly opening and
shutting their jaws lazily swerving in their upward or downward

So, too, the black-haired doll with the green dress, Miranda.
Miranda had three dresses--this green one, one of ruby colour, and
one of dark purple.  Mrs. Payne would change the dresses from time
to time and, with the change, the whole room would seem to alter.
When the ruby dress was worn sunlight seemed to strike the room.
The very fish were glad and Miranda, perched up against the red
candlesticks, smirked her satisfaction.

There were also the cards.  With these Mrs. Payne played a game of
her own, a kind of Patience maybe, but also a kind of fortune-
telling; so that as she gazed at the king and queen of hearts and
then lying beside them found the black, rich, thick ten of clubs,
her heart beat strongly and awful destinies seemed to close about
the room, and her eyes would stare far beyond those confining
walls, and dynasties would rock, and the very stars would shake and

Then she would smile darkly to herself, knowing so much more of
fate than the people about her.

On the evening of Mrs. Amorest's visit to her cousin she was thus
playing at her cards when the door opened and the old lady entered.
Mrs. Amorest had had her evening meal and had felt then an
irresistible desire to talk to some one.  Endeavour to control it
as she might, the promise of her cousin that afternoon excited her
so deeply that she was shaken through and through.  One thousand
pounds a year!  To find her boy again, to spend the little time on
this earth remaining to her with him!  To see him with her own eyes
happy!  And it was only with this sudden wonderful promise that she
realised how hard things had of late been and how, deep in her
subconsciousness, the fear of some tragedy, the cessation of her
money, or the running into debt and the consequent disgrace, had
played upon her.  But now!  One thousand pounds a year!  And he had
meant it! she could still feel the touch of his hand upon her hair.
How good he was, how kind!  How many people had misjudged him!

She did not want to bother poor old Agatha Payne--she always
thought of her as at least twenty years older than herself--with
all her private affairs, but she must see somebody, be kind to
somebody too, because tonight she wished well to all the world.

She knocked on the door, then timidly stepped forward.  The cards
had just come out badly, meaning nothing, pretending nothing, and
Agatha Payne was therefore glad to see a friend.

In a way she liked Lucy Amorest although she despised her.  Poor
old thing, so lonely and deserted!

She gazed up confusedly, staring through the dim light and seeing a
large green fish swerve just above Mrs. Amorest's head and

"Ah, my dear!  Come along!" she said.

Her voice was bass and masculine.  She rose very slowly from the
table, leaving the cards upon the cloth.  She moved to the rocking-
chair, slowly sinking down into it.  A very small fire flickered in
the grate.  On the other side of this there was a shabby red arm-
chair from which the stuffing burst, now here, now there, like a
pale disease.

Mrs. Amorest sat down in this as on many occasions she had done
before.  She seemed very small and very slight beside the large fat
woman, rocking, one heel in air, opposite to her.

Agatha Payne gazed at her with sombre eyes.

"You have not been out, I suppose?" said Mrs. Amorest.  This was a
genteel fiction always maintained between them, that to-day it was
true that Mrs. Payne had not gone out, that yesterday also she had
remained within, but that to-morrow, all being well, would
certainly see her in the open air.

"No," said Mrs. Payne, "I have not been out.  It was in no way the
kind of day for me.  Cold and dark.  Mrs. Bloxam has kindly done my
shopping for me."

"I went and paid a visit to my cousin," said Mrs. Amorest, smiling,
as though she would intimate that there was far more in that visit
than she could expressly say.

But Agatha Payne was a bad one for secrets.  She was occupied too
deeply in pursuing the strange perplexing windings of her own brain
to follow closely the possibilities of another.

One thing she always did--she overlooked Mrs. Amorest and was
discontented that she refused to have anywhere about her a bright
spot of colour.  That grey dress and plain hair and quiet little
face irritated her.  Poor little old thing, she would think, how
old and shrivelled up she is.  SHE'S not long for this world!

And the sense to-night that Lucy Amorest was pleased about
something--it mattered not what--irritated her still more.  What
right had SHE to be pleased with her poverty and mean way of
dressing?  So, very soon, she was in an irritable temper, muttering
to herself and kicking in air her red-heeled shoe.

"And so you've begun a fire!" said Mrs. Amorest brightly.  "Well,
I'm sure it's time, and yet I can't make up my mind to it.  I said
to Mrs. Bloxam this morning that I thought to-morrow I really would
start one.  And yet I don't know.  The winter hasn't truly come,
has it?  And we may get quite a number of warm days yet."

Mrs. Payne, lying back shapeless in her chair, began:

"I'm sorry for you, Lucy.  There's that cousin of yours, rich as he
is, does nothing for you, and your boy been gone for years, no one
knows where.  I'm glad my child died.  She would only have been a
grief to me."

"He'll come back, Brand, I mean."  Mrs. Amorest spoke confidently.
"I feel to-night as though everything is going to turn out well.
Don't you feel that way sometimes?"

"Brand?  Is that your boy's name?  Queer name."

"It was my husband who wished it.  I think it's a nice name."

"Well, I don't think much of your Brand.  Why doesn't he write and
tell you what he is doing?  Perhaps he's dead."

Mrs. Amorest knew well that Agatha Payne was doing her best to be
provoking.  She had on many occasions been through just this same
conversation before, and when she had been tired, hungry, and
lonely it had been difficult not to burst into tears.  But she was
accustomed now, and to-night she was too truly happy to care.

"I know that he's not dead," she answered.  "Brand was the kind of
boy who would never own that he was beaten.  It was always the
same, in cricket and in football.  He'll tell me where he is when
he's made his fortune.  I'm expecting to hear any day now."

"You've been expecting to hear any day ever since I've known you,"
said Agatha Payne.  "You're a patient woman."

Slowly, from the sluggish levels of her mind curiosity was arising.
What was making Lucy Amorest so happy to-night?  What news had she
received?  Had some fortune come to her?

The fish swam slowly back into their deep green tank; she sat up in
her chair, and with her hands on the arms and her heavy breast
bulging beneath her wrapper she looked attentively at her

"What's the matter with you, Lucy?" she asked.  "You've had some
good news."

"Well, in a way I have," Mrs. Amorest confessed.  "And yet it's not
news exactly.  My cousin spoke to me in a very kindly way this

"Did he say he'd leave you something in his will?" asked Mrs.
Payne, her interest growing very sharply.

"He did say something," answered Mrs. Amorest, smiling a little.
"Of course he may have meant nothing by it.  I certainly mustn't
rely on it."

"Nonsense!" said Mrs. Payne, leaning now eagerly forward.  "What
did he say he'd leave you?"

"Well, he SAID a thousand pounds a year!"

Mrs. Payne sank back into the chair.

"A thousand pounds!  A thousand pounds a year!"  Her large black
eyes widened and extended.  "Why, Lucy, that's a fortune!"

"Yes," said Mrs. Amorest faintly, "it is.  And that's why I don't
want to rely on it.  It's only what he SAID, of course."

"And was there any one else there when he said it?"

"No, there wasn't.  We were quite alone, and he was very kind
indeed.  I have never known him so nice."

Agatha Payne stared.  A thousand pounds a year!  And to be given to
that poor little mouse who had only a few years to live at the
best.  What would SHE do with a thousand pounds a year?  Whereas
the things that Agatha Payne might do . . . the gay, glorious,
coloured, glittering things that she might buy!  And there suddenly
came into her head the idea that she herself would have some of
this money that was coming to Lucy Amorest.  She was a weak, good-
natured, little creature was Lucy Amorest.  She would give anything
away.  She would do anything for anybody.

Her heart beat.  It was strange, perhaps, that with her passion for
gay things she had not, long ago, spent more than she had and
encumbered herself with debt.  But an odd laziness held her
captive, and perhaps also the old house had thrown some spell over
her.  It had forbidden her perhaps to leave it.  Old houses can do
such things.  They can impregnate human souls with their own subtle
poison and with bricks and beams of wood and flakes of mortar wall
in the human body as surely as in the cruel past errant wives and
sinning nuns were confined.

Here was something beneath her hand.  She smiled, and a grim
forbidding smile it was.

"That's right, Lucy.  Don't you count on it.  You come to me and
we'll talk it over.  There's nothing like a little plan.  Nothing."

Mrs. Amorest was frightened.  She did not know why.  It had been
foolish of her to say anything at all about the money.  It had
been, in a way, betraying the confidence of her cousin.

She was tired, and needed the security of her own room.

"I think I'll go to bed now," she said.  "It's late."

Mrs. Payne smiled once more.  "You come in again and we'll talk it
over," she said.

Mrs. Amorest said good-night and went.

She hurried into her room, lit her lamp, and began to undress.  She
took the photograph of her boy from the mantelpiece and kissed it.
Then she knelt down and said her prayers.



Miss May Beringer was poorer than either Mrs. Amorest or Mrs.
Payne.  She was not only very poor, but she had to confront the
possibility of having, in some six months or so, no money whatever.
Literally no money.  Nothing.

She was as absolutely alone in the world as it was possible for any
one to be--at least she would have been so had it not been for her
dog Pip.

People talk of poverty and they talk of loneliness, and in a
majority of cases do not understand the true meaning of either
word.  People also talk of "the working classes" and their
hardships.  Very seldom do you hear anything about the "poor
gentlewoman classes" and THEIR hardships.  The poor gentlewomen of
this world do, in every civilised country, by their unselfish and
heroic lives, constitute a large proportion of the future citizens
of the Kingdom of Heaven.  Verily, they need that Paradisal

Miss Beringer was one of those unfortunate women who have never
been wanted by anybody.  Neither her father nor mother, none of her
numerous brothers and sisters, no relation near or distant--none of
these wanted her.

She was the daughter of a doctor of Exeter City.  She had been
always, with her heavy hooked nose, faint eyebrows, pale pasty
complexion and long lanky body, very homely.  Nor were the defects
of her person excused by the brilliance of her accomplishments.
She was born and bred into a period when the daughters of Great
Britain were expected neither to spin nor to sew but only to wait,
in patient eagerness, for the day when a gentleman would ask them
in marriage.

It was obvious from the very first that it was unlikely that any
one would beg for May's hand, because she was plain and awkward and
also because she had three sisters older than herself.  Her
unfortunate father and mother killed themselves in the attempt to
win that unceasing battle that great progeny and small incomes
force upon so many virtuous and upright citizens.  Two of May's
sisters married, one died, two brothers went to the Colonies, one
was killed in China and one vanished into the depths of America.
May, at the age of forty, found herself with an income of one
hundred and fifty pounds a year, alone in the world.  That was
thirty years ago--thirty years of being wanted by nobody, thirty
years of finding that ends were never quite meeting, thirty years
of absurdities, hopes, enthusiasms, disappointments, confusions.
Confusions most of all.

May Beringer was unfortunately a stupid woman.  A stupid woman with
a kind and generous heart, than that there is nothing more
aggravating, exasperating, touching, and pathetic to be found in
the human kingdom.  Her stupidity was not altogether her own fault.
In the first place she had never had any education.  Her mother and
father had not wished that "their girls" should go to a rough day-
school where they would assuredly learn rude habits from rough day-
girls.  A governess had therefore been supplied, and because
finances were so low only the poorest kind of governess could be
afforded, and because the family was so large even the finest kind
of governess would have been unable to deal with the situation
adequately.  May Beringer, therefore, had learnt nothing save that
Oliver Cromwell executed Charles I. and that the Amazon was a river
in America, and of these two facts she was not very certain.
Moreover, she was quite unaware that she was ill-educated.  Facts
in the days when she was a girl were divided into divisions of the
Improper, the Masculine, and the Unnecessary.  With the first of
these she must, of course, have nothing to do, the second she left
to the men, the third were waste of time.  She was therefore never
challenged as to her ignorance.  She was not in the least a modern
girl of her time.  She read only the idlest fictions, played all
games very badly, and when she found that her ideas refused to
clarify sufficiently for coherent conversation, took refuge in
giggling silence.

Beneath all this her heart was warm, eager, and sentimental.  She
longed to be good and kind and generous.  She did not care whether
people liked her or no, all that she wished was to be allowed to
like them.  She adored her father and mother, loved her brothers
and sisters indiscriminately, and felt romantic passions for every
man who came to their house.  She did not expect a proposal of
marriage.  She had been told very often by her frank and careless
brothers and sisters that she was plain, awkward, and stupid.  She
had from the very earliest age developed a terror of almost
everything and everybody.  Her very shyness and gaucherie made her
timid, and then as she was conscious of her mistakes her shyness

She felt that she might be very brilliant and amusing could she
only arrange her ideas in order, but always something unfortunate
came in the way--she sat down when she ought to stand up, spoke
when she should be silent, smiled when she should have frowned.

Then her body was clumsy, untidy.  Do what she would her clothes
were for ever in disorder.

She lived alone in Exeter from the years of forty to sixty.  She
occupied the upper part of a little house near the Cathedral, and
it was there that she spent the happiest part of her life.  She
managed on her tiny income because her father's solicitor saw that
she received it in moderation, a little at a time; he paid her
rent; he also let it be understood in the principal shops of the
town that she was not to be permitted to run up accounts.  She had
at first a gay and fanciful fashion of going into a shop, looking
around her happily, and then saying, "Oh, I'll have that!  Would
you kindly send it this afternoon?"  The shopmen kindly agreed, but
it was not sent, and by the following day she had quite forgotten
that she had ever ordered it.

She was happy during this time in her two rooms, in her few
friends, and, latterly, in the friend whom she adored, Jane Betts.
It was essential to her nature that she should adore some one, and
if there was no one positively close at hand then she would choose
some one out of the illustrated papers or one of the Royal Family.

Jane Betts was younger than she, daughter of a retired Colonel, a
bright jolly woman of thirty or so, to whom life was a joke and
everything a cause for wonder.  She accepted the affection of May
Beringer with amused acquiescence, and then suddenly, on a day,
perceived something touching and even beautiful in this plain
elderly woman's devotion.  Where another would have been wearied or
bored Jane was moved and grateful.  Something serious entered into
her life that had never been there before.

There followed for May Beringer the six glorious months of her
life, the only truly happy time that she was ever to know.  It is
for ever marvellous what happy love can do for the divine soul and
the awkward human body.  Had fate willed it and the friendship
lasted, May Beringer might have known transformation.  Already,
guided by the gentle hints of her friend, awkwardness was leaving
her, comeliness was approaching her, a novel orderliness was
mastering her poor confused brains, happiness shone from her eyes,
people were beginning to say that "she wasn't so bad after all."

It was during the Christmas of that happy six months that Jane gave
her friend that piece of red amber that was afterwards to play so
important a part in May's life.  It became, of course, her most
cherished possession.

Then, alas, a large red-faced Colonel arrived from India on leave,
saw Jane, fell instantly in love with her in spite of her thirty
years, proposed and was accepted.  That was a terrible day when
Jane told her friend of what had occurred, and May Beringer showed
in the fashion with which she received the news the stuff of which
she was beginning to be made.  She said that all that she wished
was that Jane should be happy: she was sorry indeed that Jane was
going so far, but that, of course, neither seas nor the passing of
the years should ever divide them.  Unfortunately, seas and long
absences are more powerful separators than friends and lovers in
the full flood of their romantic ideals will honestly realise.
Moreover, the red-faced Colonel did not appreciate his darling
Jane's friend.  It was the one thing in his darling Jane that he
could not understand, that she should care for that "old giggling
scarecrow."  And then, unfortunately, May perceived that he did not
like her, and forgetting her hard-won control only a few nights
before Jane's departure lost her temper and called the Colonel
names.  After that followed floods of tears, urgent agonising
demands for forgiveness, touching reconciliations.  But it may be
that Jane left Exeter feeling that her good old May might in the
passing of the years have become something of a good old nuisance.

It was after Jane's departure that May Beringer "took to dogs."
She suddenly discovered, as many other human beings have discovered
both before and since, that dogs are marvellously unaware of faults
and deficiencies only too obvious to all one's friends and
acquaintances, that they bear one no grudges, that when you have
lost your temper and behaved abominably they take your sins upon
them and ask for your forgiveness, that they have no irony nor
cynicism, that they are not pessimistic, and the sight of a bone or
a cat or a pat on the head is enough to make them believe that all
is well with the world, and that do you but treat them kindly they
will prefer you to all other human beings whatever and will exhibit
that same preference in a most flattering and self-justifying

To a woman of May Beringer's sentiment a dog was the perfect
solution.  She was not, however, by nature adapted to look after
dogs successfully.  For some years dogs inevitably died under her
hand, and she passed through a series of soul-searching griefs
swearing that she would never have another, that Gyp or Tray or
Fido was surely the very last.  But dog succeeded dog, and
apartment succeeded apartment, landladies invariably liking the
Fido or the Gyp of the moment less than did their adoring mistress.

Then, finding Exeter difficult, expensive, and the perpetual echo
of Jane's dear voice, she moved into the country.  She went to St.
Lennan, a small seaside resort on the coast of North Glebeshire.
At first it seemed that here she had met good fortune.  She was now
sixty years of age but was strong and healthy.  She took two rooms
on the sea-front from a kindly widow who had no objections at all
to dogs and indeed preferred them.  The winter months in North
Glebeshire are bleak and wild indeed, but May Beringer threw
herself into the clerical work of the parish with eager enthusiasm.
She adored the clergyman and slaved for him.  The clergyman was at
first grateful, but soon it became apparent that Miss Beringer was
a breeder of disputes and a begetter of quarrels.  She wanted
things her own way, and, in spite of her timidity, was touchy and
sensitive to a fault.  Moreover, she could not be relied on to
carry anything forward to completeness.  Her eagerness was not
balanced by forethought nor her devotion by clear thinking.

So, after a year or two, May Beringer found herself isolated once
more, and abandoned to the company of a few old maids like herself,
her landlady and her dog.  She did not complain.  She was always
only too ready to admit that everything was her own fault.

She had acquired a passion for St. Lennan.  There was something
about its wind-swept sandy shore, about the fashion in which the
hard green breakers split suddenly into jade and foam, slipping
down into silky splendour, something in the naked line of houses,
the low bare hill, the circling arm of the dim white shore that won
her heart.  It was cold, it was chill, but it was her own.

In the summer it was not hers.  Never at any time a popular resort,
there were nevertheless during the summer months families
sufficient for her to feel that she was old and ugly and unwanted.
Then the dog of the moment was always in trouble at that time,
lured by little girls, tempted by little boys, above all excited
and bemused by the presence of other dogs.

Every morning about mid-day, weather foul or fair, May Beringer
might be seen robed in a long green jacket and wearing a large hard
hat stuck through with a large sharp pin, striding along the shore,
a small dog tethered to her with a chain.  She liked small dogs,
but not too small, and fox terriers were her favourites.  She had,
ere this, by sheer force of necessity learnt something of their
proper care.  They were not, as a rule, very healthy animals, and
wore a strange air of bewilderment, fostered, one may imagine, by
the puzzling moods to which their mistress was subject, slapping
them one moment and hugging them the next.

It was when she was sixty-five and had been at St. Lennan some five
years that she received the dog, Pip.  She received him as a puppy
from the landlady, who felt that she had not been, in the past,
altogether kind to the queer and lonely old woman.  Pip seemed from
the beginning to understand better than any of his predecessors the
purposes for which he was born into this world.  He was not a
handsome dog, and one coal-black ear, the rest of his body being
white, gave him rather a ludicrous appearance.  Nor was he
intelligent.  His mind was, strangely like his mistress's, compact
of fear and confusion.  They say that animals resemble very
frequently their masters, or, maybe, masters their animals.  There
was, as Pip developed into maturer years, a quite ludicrous
resemblance to his mistress.  His body was lanky and ill-controlled
like hers, his mind, as I have said, confused and panic-stricken,
and he had exactly the same loving and eager heart.  He was more
fortunate than his mistress in this, that there was no question as
to the true altar of his devotion.  He loved one and one alone, he
saw in her no absurdities, no oddities, no stupidities.  It is true
that he must often have been puzzled by her moods, but just as Mrs.
Amorest was always assured that God's actions, whatever they might
be, were for the best, so felt Pip about his mistress.

He was, during the years at St. Lennan, a happy dog.  Except for
those few weeks in the summer he might run riotously along that
unending beach pursuing imaginary cats, sticks, and bones, barking
at the breakers as they rolled towards him, confident in his own
fine security, returning to those warm rooms where his beloved
mistress awaited him, where there was food and warmth and unfailing

In her sixty-eighth year May Beringer met upon the sands a wise old
gentleman with silvery hair and a benevolent cape who talked with
her in the kindest fashion.  They spoke together day after day.  He
was, it appeared, a professor of Oxford University.  He liked her
very much and discovered her to be most intelligent and far-seeing.
It was the month of June and the days were warm.

She told him everything of her life, speaking even to him of her
beloved Jane.  He became, after a short interval, so warm a friend
that he begged to know whether her money were properly invested.
The old solicitor friend of her family was dead.  The son, who had
succeeded to his father's position, took in the old lady less
personal an interest, and it was not long before the kind old
professor with the silvery hair had invested her money so carefully
for her that she was never to see any of it again.  Most of it--
luckily not all.  There remained to her some hundred and fifty

The shock to her when she discovered what had occurred added to the
confusion of her already confused brain.  She could not understand
how so charming an old man could have done anything so cruel.  She
wrote to him again and again, but, of course, received no reply.
The thing that hurt her the most was not the loss of her money, but
that she had confided to him so many intimacies about her
friendship with dear Jane.

She cried about that in the dark silences of the over-long night.

Something had to be done.  She collected what remained of her
fortune and had the confused idea of going to Polchester and
finding there some work.  What work?  Governess, perhaps.  It was
true that she was now seventy, but she was strong and active.  At
least in St. Lennan there was no work to be found.  Her heart
failed her did she positively visualise to herself what work, any
work at her age, would mean, so she did not visualise it; she
simply ordered her few pieces of furniture to be packed and sent to
a Polchester depository, said farewell to her kind landlady, and
departed, Pip chained to her side.

Arrived in Polchester she stayed for a while in rooms at the top of
Orange Street, but these were expensive; she had her own bits of
furniture; where was the cheapest place?

The cheapest place was Pontippy Square.

The first vision of the bare room at the top of that old tumbling
house frightened her, but the rent was so small that she felt that
it would be wicked to refuse it.  She would be here, too, her own
mistress--no one could interfere with her.  She was told that two
other ladies were tenants on this same floor.  She would have
company if she wished.  Real ladies like herself.

Only she said nothing about dogs.  Were dogs allowed?  She did not
enquire.  Here surely no one would interfere with her, but on the
whole it was safer not to enquire.  So she settled in.  The
depository sent up her possessions--her old dark blue carpet with
the large ink spot in one corner and showing the threads in another
corner where a youthful Pip had gnawed it, her bed, her round
mahogany table, her four mahogany chairs, her two dark blue arm-
chairs, her bookcase, her two oil paintings "after Cuyp," and her
chest of drawers.  She had also her photographs of her father, her
mother, a family group, Jane Betts, and Pip.  She had her two
Venetian vases--AND her piece of red amber.

This was a very fine piece.  It stood in the middle of the
mantelpiece, shining and gleaming.  Jane Betts had seen it, that
famous Christmas, in the shop windows of an Exeter antiquarian and,
feeling very tender towards her "dear silly old May," had gone in
and bought it.  "It will warm you, my dear," she said when she gave
it to her, "always keep you warm like my affection.  Never lose it
or sell it.  My heart is inside it!"

You know how sentimental people can be!  Jane Betts was, in her
nature, something of a cynic, and her marriage with the red-faced
Colonel made her in after life yet more cynical, but those months
of friendship with May Beringer touched, for a moment, her truest,
sincerest affection.  She did not know it, but she was never again
to care for any one so deeply as she did for that ugly, awkward,
lanky old woman.

So did this chunk of amber enshrine both their affections.  It was
shaped square like a little block of wood, and this block was
surmounted with a carved red amber dragon.  It had in it the most
lovely lights and colours, that flashed and trembled from the
deepest Venetian red to the fairest honey gold.

When the shimmer of the fire or the light of the lamp caught it, it
did indeed seem to be stirring with the fire of its own heart.  The
dragon raised its head, his eyes shot flame.

For May Beringer it was simply the heart of her life.  There,
enshrined in that lovely thing, was all the happiness of her days.
So long as that remained to her she could not, as dear Jane had
said, be altogether cold and chill.

Pip settled into the new room very easily.  He had his cushion in
the corner near the fire; he gave his mistress one look to see
whether she really intended that it was here that they were going
to live, and then when he saw that that was so, behaved as though
he had never known any other home.

May Beringer knew not a single soul in Polchester.  Never before in
her life had she been in a place where she knew nobody.  She missed
the kind landlady of St. Lennan very badly, but guarded herself
against talking to strangers, being warned by her experience with
the silver-haired gentleman.

But she liked the town greatly.  It reminded her of Exeter, and yet
there were not associations with dear Jane at every step.  She was
soon a familiar figure up and down the High Street and at the
Cathedral services.  She was remarkably straight-backed and tall
for her years, and people called her "the old Grenadier."

There was something comic about her, with her sallow face, her
hooked nose, her old-fashioned garments, and the fox terrier
trotting at her side.  People always noticed her and wondered who
she was.  A little cracked, they thought she must be.

"Grenadier" was in fact the very last thing to call her.  I said in
my first account of her that she had always been frightened of
everything; now, with her old age, her fears had accumulated upon
her.  Alone in this strange town, with no friend in the world, it
was natural enough that she should know fear.  There is a fear that
comes upon lonely old people that is like no other fear.  It is a
fear bred of loneliness--the sight and sound of all these hurrying
multitudes pressing in upon you, hurrying past you, looking with
hard, careless eyes into yours.  You are near the end of your days,
you have lived all your life upon the earth, and this is what it
has come to, that there is not a living soul who needs you or
thinks of you.  Death is approaching, and there will be no one to
be with you at the last.  It were surely better that you had never
been born.

In May Beringer's case there was this to be added, that soon--in
six months' time or so--she would have no money.  Unless she
obtained some work what would happen to her?  Work!  As she looked
at the crowds that passed her in the High Street and the Market-
place she did not know how she would ever begin to ask for work.
Had she been a peasant there would be things that she would have
learnt to do.  Like Mrs. Bloxam, she might have gone out charing.
But because she was born a lady she could do nothing.  Nothing.

Mrs. Bloxam was her one comfort.  That kindly woman, after the
first day or two and her natural reaction against a "messy dog"--
when she had observed too that Pip, the animal, was not a bad dog
at all, very clean in his habits and devoted to his mistress--
decided that the poor old maid needed her services quite as badly
as did the other two old women--more, indeed, because Mrs. Amorest
had a quiet, assured courage of her own, and Mrs. Payne, although
she was "that queer you never would believe unless you saw her,"
nevertheless had her own private sources of satisfaction.  No,
"that poor old Miss Bellringer" needed her the most.

Mrs. Bloxam spent more than her fair share of time in that house,
as her husband was for ever telling her.  She had plenty of other
work to be busy over, and more paying work too, but her "old
ladies" were her chiefest charge.  "Poor old sillies," she called
them--"living all alone top of that shaking old house--shouldn't
like--" she half-apologised to her husband.  He when sober admired
her and when drunk abused her, whatever she did, so that his
opinion was of no very great value.

But her furrowed crimson face, her large round features, her
charwoman straw hat stuck askew on one side of her head, her queer
hoarse laugh as though she had a tankard of ale in front of her
mouth, her way of standing, her thick legs spread, her head back,
her hands on her ample hips--all these things were soon jewels
beyond price to May Beringer, who, in no time at all, was telling
her everything about her life even to the intimacies of her
friendship with dear Jane.

At this point she always cried a little, and even Mrs. Bloxam
rubbed one eye with the back of her hand, that was of the texture
of alligator skin.

"To see that poor old dear sitting up in bed with her grey hair all
about her face, with her old green muffler round her throat--poor
worm!--you can't but pity her."

"You'm too soft-'earted--that's what's the matter with you,
Jennifer," said Mr. Bloxam, sober for the moment.  But Mrs. Bloxam
was no angel, and to see her in one of her tempers was to be
reminded of the Homeric ages.  But May Beringer saw her at her best--
for the time being, at any rate.



It was not until the second Sunday after her arrival in Pontippy
Square that May Beringer met Mrs. Amorest and Mrs. Payne.

It was a cold Sunday morning.  From her bed May Beringer could see
the sun like a red orange above the grey roofs of the houses.  The
houses were threaded with white frost, the smoke rose against the
grey sky a greyer shadow, and the limbs of the one tree were silver-

Did she move her head the sun appeared also to move and to rock in
friendly greeting, and because the glass of the window was rough
and coarse-grained the sun swelled as though with sudden ribaldry
and then ran thin and tight like a drawn string.

It was warm in bed and cosy and faintly the bells could be heard.
Two sparrows came hopping to the window and then a robin.  Very
soon her breakfast would come in and she could give them something.
She had told Mrs. Bloxam that she would always have a boiled egg on
Sunday as an extra to the toast and potted meat that was her
customary fare.

At the thought of the egg she smiled and sat up in bed, bending
over to the chair for her green sweater; she tied the arms of this
tightly round her neck, allowing the body of it to fall over her
breast, then she looked for the piece of amber and saw that it was
there secure although scarcely visible in the dim light.  Then she
looked through the window again and saw the faintest thread of pale
blue break the grey.  So it would be a fine day.  A fine clear
frosty Sunday!  Could anything be nicer?

A moment later Pip was at the door welcoming Mrs. Bloxam, who
arrived carrying pressed against her mountainous bosom a tray, and
her black bonnet with black bugles (her Sunday wear) was pushed to
the back of her head and her face was all smiles.

"Now, here's a nice Sunday sirprise, my dear," she shouted (she
always shouted at her old ladies although they were none of them
deaf).  "There's that kind woman giving you one of her sausages
this morning."

"What woman?" asked Miss Beringer.

"Why, to be sure, Mrs. Hamorest of course.  I'd 'ardly been in 'er
room two minutes when she says, 'Mrs. Bloxam,' she says, 'there's a
sausage more than I can manage,' she says.  'I've been wondering
whether Miss Bellringer' (Mrs. Bloxam's perversions were always of
kindly intention) 'would like one,' she says.  'Of course, I
'aven't exactly called on 'er, but we're all friends in this
'ouse,' she says, 'or I'm sure we ought to be.  You just ask 'er,
Mrs. Bloxam.  I know Mrs. Payne don't care for sausages,' she says:
'it's just waste giving them to 'er.'  'Why, mum,' I says to 'er,
'Miss Bellringer looks just the sort of lady to relish a sausage,
and it's a friendly feeling in you, mum,' I says, 'and if Sunday
isn't a day to be friendly on, where WILL we all be?' I says.  Poor
worm! and 'er looking so pretty sitting up in bed with 'er kind
thoughts and 'er snow-white 'air and 'er pretty little ways.  So I
just brought it along, miss, feelin' sure you'd relish it, and I've
cooked it to a turn in Mrs. Hamorest's frying-pan--you just wait,
my pretty, your turn's coming.  Almost 'uman, miss, isn't 'e?  More
'uman than some, I'm thinking."  During this time Mrs. Bloxam was
arranging Miss Beringer's bed, patting and pushing the pillows,
smoothing the sheets, and setting the tray so that it sat evenly
over Miss Beringer's lap.  When that lady saw the tea, the egg, the
buttered toast, the crisp and bursting sausage, her pale face
flushed.  Not a bad beginning to a pleasant Sunday.  And she must
go in and thank Mrs. Amorest.  She was longing for a friend.  She
ached to love somebody again.  Mrs. Bloxam entertained her with
gossip, giving her detailed horrors out of the Sunday News with
infinite relish and gusto, lit the fire, tidied the room, took away
the tray again, and departed.

Then May Beringer sank back into slumber again, the easy slumber of
the old, and lying there, the green muffler yet tied about her
neck, so pale she was and still that it might have been death that
held her.

The clock ticked on, the dog also slept, there was not a sound in
the house.  Then when it was nearly two o'clock, a coal fell out of
the dying fire and crashed upon the grate, Pip woke and barked, up
Miss Beringer started thinking the house on fire.  She looked at
the clock, and seeing how late it was, was soon out of bed.  She
washed in water icy cold, put on the warmest underclothing she had,
and that was not warm enough.  But she had been given by the
landlady at St. Lennan a grey knitted woollen waistcoat, and this
was a great comfort to her now.  Her best clothes were her dark red
jacket and skirt.  The skirt was short both for the period and her
age, but they were not yet faded and they were warm.  She stared at
herself in the little looking-glass over the wash-hand stand and
was pleased.  She looked young for her age, she thought.  She was
strong and healthy.  It was not so absurd that she should find work
as governess and companion.

For a moment her fears left her.  She was brave and optimistic and
happy.  Full of this spirit she went out, Pip closely at her heel,
crossed the passage, and knocked on Mrs. Amorest's door.

"Come in," said a little faint voice, and, entering, she was at
once charmed--charmed with the neatness and tidiness of the room,
some red-brown chrysanthemums in a thin silver vase, the old rose-
coloured chairs, the blue and silver scene beyond the window, the
orange fire faint like paper beneath the winter sun that flooded
the place, and then the little woman with her snow-white hair, her
beautiful hands, and the smile that shone in her eyes as, turning,
she saw her visitor.

"It must be Miss Beringer," she said, coming forward.

"Yes, it is," said May Beringer, her long body trembling with
interest and excitement.  "I had to come in and just thank you for
being so generous, as I am sure indeed you have been, to a perfect
stranger and one whom you've never seen in your life before and
have no reason at all to be kind to."

Miss Beringer always said everything twice or three times.  It
seemed to make her statement more definite.

"You WILL sit down, won't you?" Mrs. Amorest asked, drawing one of
the armchairs near to the fire.  "Because we are such very near
neighbours we must know one another a little."

"I'm sure that's very kind of you," said May Beringer breathlessly.
"I sound as though I'd been running up a whole flight of stairs,
don't I? but I haven't really.  It's only my nervousness.  I'm
always shy at meeting any one for the first time.  I've always been
so ever since a child, and indeed I can't remember a time when I
wasn't nervous.  As quite a little girl I was as shy as anything."

"You mustn't be shy with me," said Mrs. Amorest gently.  "I'm a
very unalarming person.  What a delightful dog!"

"Yes, isn't he?  I've always been partial to dogs.  I've had dogs
as companions for years and years.  In fact, I'm never without a
dog.  His name's Pip!"

"Pip!  What a nice name!  Come here, Pip!  Come and make friends."

Pip came, seeing that his mistress wished him to do so, but no one
was very real to him save his mistress.  However, he licked Mrs.
Amorest's hand and then lay down, his head on his paws, waiting
until his mistress should wish to move.

The two ladies considered one another.  While talking amiably they
were taking in one another's points.  Each was thinking the other
really old and pitying a little, but each needed a friend.

It was nevertheless very soon evident that May Beringer would be
clay in the hands of Mrs. Amorest, and when that old lady realised
that it was so there came into her heart not contempt (she felt
contempt for no human being) but a little sigh, perhaps of regret.
What she wanted was some one stronger than herself, some one on
whose opinion she could rely, some one who would give her true and
wise advice.  It was very soon evident that May Beringer would be
no projector of wise advice!

They talked a little, keeping their own confidences, and soon a
silence fell.  It was then that Mrs. Amorest said, "Now, I wonder.
I had been thinking of going to the Cathedral service this
afternoon.  Would you care to come too?"

As soon as she said it she wished that she had not, for reasons
that were, for her, weak and snobbish.  Poor Miss Beringer would
attract attention walking into the Cathedral: her face was odd, her
clothes were odd, and Mrs. Amorest was sure that her walk would be
odd.  Mrs. Amorest, absolutely courageous though she was, hated to
attract attention by any eccentricity.  She hoped that Miss
Beringer would decline, but at once, when she saw the light in Miss
Beringer's eyes and heard the happiness in her voice as she said,
"Thank you.  I'll most certainly come.  I'll go with you with
pleasure," she was glad that she had suggested it.  She thought to
herself, "Poor old thing, she must be terribly lonely," and at that
very same moment May Beringer was thinking to HERSELF, "Poor old
thing, I'm sure she's as lonely as anything.  It must be wonderful
to have some one to go with."

So they went very happily together, slowly down the stairs because
the stairs were dark although it was early afternoon, and then
slowly through the streets because it was a cold and frosty
afternoon.  That at any rate was the reason that they gave to one
another.  The real reason was that their limbs were not so strong
nor so active as they had been.

They still did not give one another any confidences, May Beringer
having in her mind always the old man with the silvery hair, and
Mrs. Amorest because, in spite of her recent rashness with Agatha
Payne, she was very good at keeping her own counsel.

Nevertheless, by the time that they had reached the high Cathedral
door they were very good friends: May Beringer because she wanted
some one to love willy-nilly, and Mrs. Amorest because she was
touched by May Beringer's apparent helplessness.  Within the quiet
of the Cathedral they were happy indeed.  They sat in the back of
the nave unnoticed by anybody, and although the seats might have
been more comfortable (and why, indeed, are they not more
comfortable?) they were very glad to sit down and rest.

Mrs. Amorest knew the Cathedral by heart.  She liked always to have
the same place in the nave, almost the place where she was now
sitting; thence she could see to her right framed between two
pillars the window that had the pictures of the boy Christ, Christ
with His mother, Christ playing with the boys by the river-side,
Christ in the workshop, and the others.

She loved the colours, mistily purple and green and olive, but she
loved it also for its subject, thinking of her own son, as she
loved to do, when he had been small and helpless and divinely in
need of her.  Those days seemed to her but of yesterday, and
closing her eyes she could see the bright blue Glebeshire skies and
the sharp jagged teeth of the rocks, the valley running to the very
lap of the sand, the white cottage set like a determined foot on
the brow of the patient hill; Ambrose working at his poetry in the
upstairs room with the slanting roof, and Brand in the garden
crawling across the tiny plot of green to pull the cat's tail. . . .

All that she would see, and much more, as the organ wandered from
pillar to pillar as though it were searching for her, and suddenly
the clergyman's voice rose cutting the dimness and calling her to
her prayers.  She was never so near to her son as in that church,
and while she stayed, her eyes closed, a hand seemed to be laid
upon her brow and a voice to whisper to her that all was well with
her and that she must be at peace.

She did not fear; she feared nor man nor woman nor life nor death--
only God.  But to-day instinctively as she sat there she realised
that the woman next to her was compact of fear.  She did not know
how she had realised it, but this was true, and once again, as in
her room, a little tremor of irritation shook her.  She did not
care for helpless people.  Never in her life had she done so.  She
admired nothing so much as independence and courage, and perhaps
that was the one lesson that life still had to teach her--
tenderness for the weak.  There was nothing she had admired so much
in her son as his independence.  She admired it also in old Agatha

But here was a woman who would, she foresaw, in no time at all, be
depending upon her, wanting her advice, her assistance, her
authority.  Poor old thing!  Mrs. Amorest, as they rose together to
listen to the anthem, felt kindly indeed, and, because the anthem
was Wesley's "Wilderness," her whole maternal being rose up in poor
Miss Beringer's service.  So much can familiar music do!

Miss Beringer, for her part, was not thinking overmuch of her
companion.  She was thinking of the comfort that it was to sit
down, but the seats were hard, and there was a nice cosy light over
everything--pretty place--pretty place--sleepy, sleepy--strangely
sleepy . . . and then jerked awake to hear, far far away, the
reading of the First Lesson.

No, she did not consider Mrs. Amorest very deeply, save that she
wanted to love her.  She wanted to love somebody, quickly,
immediately, somebody of her own class with whom she could go for
walks, and somebody, too, whom one could depend upon, somebody who
would find work for her and advise her, and also somebody who would
allow her to have her own way when she wanted it.

This old lady seemed really what she needed--old, of course, poor
old dear, but then that was so pleasant for Miss Beringer to be of
use to some one who needed her.

"The Wilderness and the Solitary Place . . ." sang the choir.  At
once May Beringer saw the long white stretch of the St. Lennan
sands, the gulls wheeling with discordant cries through the grey

     The Wilderness and the Solitary Place
     Shall be glad--glad--glad--

Her legs were aching.  Just below the knee there was a strange
grinding pain.  She looked about her to see whether any one were
sitting down.  No one immediately close to her, and Mrs. Amorest as
straight as a stick, her little head up like a bird's--a stick and
a bird!  A stick and a bird!

"The Wilderness and the Solitary Place."  Truly the pain that had
crept up now into her knees was too bad to be borne.  She sat down.
Mrs. Amorest did not turn her head, but May Beringer would like to
have whispered, "It is not because I am truly tired, but I have to-
day a pain in my knee.  I can stand as well as you, but to-day I
have a pain.  Any one might have it."

And then she fell asleep, quite suddenly, and dreamt of Jane Betts.
The general murmur of prayer which seemed to her in her dream to be
the rustle of mice in the straw--she was about to call out to Jane
"Take care, dear!  Look out for the mice!"--aroused her.  She
slipped down upon her knees.  They hurt her badly, and the wooden
prayer-stool cut into her very bone.  She could not think of her
prayers because of the pain, but vaguely behind the pain ran the
mice scampering about in her head.  Afraid of what?  Of the cat
perhaps.  A large dark cat with green eyes.  She shuddered, and
fear came down upon her like a large grasping hand, and she was
glad that she could feel Mrs. Amorest's shoulder against her.

They walked home through the velvet-frosted dark.  The dark,
studded with stars and lights on the hills like the eyes of
innumerable animals watching.  Not cats, because they were not
green, but tigers and lions, lions and tigers.

She explained this to Mrs. Amorest.  They were walking very slowly
because they were both extremely tired, but they would not mention

"They are like the eyes of lions and tigers," May Beringer said.

But Mrs. Amorest was thinking of the money that her cousin was
going to leave her, and she did not hear.  One thousand pounds!
One thousand pounds!  What might she not do?  She and Brand
together. . . .

"Yes," she said, "don't they sing beautifully?  Especially that
boy. . . .  There's something about a boy's voice that always makes
me want to cry.  Silly, of course. . . ."

Poor old thing!  She was deaf then as well as old!  Poor old thing!
When May Beringer spoke next she shouted, but still Mrs. Amorest's
mind was distant, and they arrived in Pontippy Square in silence,
two very very weary old women.

Slowly, slowly they mounted the stairs, stopping on every landing
for breath; and it was as though when they stood there they were
listening for some one or something.  They could hear only the
beating of their hearts.

Arrived on their own floor May Beringer, breathless, gasped, "I
always make a cup of tea about this time.  I wonder whether you
would come and drink it with me?"

Mrs. Amorest said that she would be delighted.  "A minute to take
my hat off."

When, later, she came into May Beringer's room she exclaimed with
pleasure, "What nice things you have!"  May Beringer's heart went
out, bursting with love, to the dear old thing looking so charming
there in the middle of the floor, with her neat little figure, her
beautiful hair, her sparkling eyes.  Here WAS some one to love

Mrs. Amorest admired everything,--the blue carpet, the round
mahogany table, the four mahogany chairs, the arm-chairs, the
bookcase, the pictures after Cuyp,--especially the bookcase.

"I do love reading, don't you, Miss Beringer?  What have you got
here?  Mrs. Henry Wood!  She writes GOOD stories, I think.  And
those volumes of Good Words.  I shall ask you to lend me one some
day.  And Sir Walter Scott.  My husband always used to say that Sir
Walter Scott had the true romantic spirit, although a little old-
fashioned of course.  But then my husband was more modern than I
was.  As of course he would be, being a writer.  He wrote plays and
poetry, and was very well known in his time.  Very well known
indeed.  Ah!  I see you have Tennyson.  Don't you love 'The Idylls
of the King'?  I do.  That one about Guinevere is such a beautiful
tale, I think, but sad, of course.  Terribly sad.  But then they
did wrong, poor things, and it was right that they should be
punished.  Still, I can never help but be sorry for them a little.
Tennyson was such a NOBLE poet, I think.  Perhaps a little TOO
noble sometimes.  Don't you think people can be TOO noble, Miss
Beringer, just now and again?"

Mrs. Amorest's eyes twinkled as she straightened herself after
looking at the bookcase.  That was what her husband used to call
"her wicked, sarcastic side"--the side of her that he had never
understood, so that she had been forced to drive it under during
their married life, but even now, after all these years, it would
on occasion break out.

She moved around admiring everything, while May Beringer saw to the
kettle.  She saw then the piece of red amber.  She stopped where
she was, lost in wonder.

"Oh dear!  What a beautiful thing!"

"Yes," said May Beringer, her voice awed and reverent, "that was
given me by my dearest friend."

"How wonderful!  I really never have seen anything so beautiful.
May I pick it up for a moment?"

"Certainly.  Do look at it."  May Beringer's voice shook with

When Mrs. Amorest had it in her hand she was pleased indeed.  She
loved beautiful things, but beautiful things were always so remote,
behind shop windows, in museums or picture-galleries, always
ticketed and catalogued, and above your head a notice that said
"Don't touch."

When her hands closed about this and she felt its coldness and its
strength, when she held it up to the light and saw the shaft of
gold strike through to its very heart, when she saw the liquid
bubbles of rich ruby red that danced in the cleft of thick, honey-
coloured, misted fibre, when she saw the dragon with his flaming
head and gold-flashing claws, when she felt its sturdiness and
independence and form, she could only say and exclaim, as she
replaced it reverently on the mantelpiece:

"You ARE fortunate to have it!  It lights up all the room."

May Beringer WAS pleased!  To praise her red amber was to praise
her Jane Betts, and to bring straight back there into the room all
that warm friendship and love, all those happy days.  The kettle
was boiling.  The biscuits were spread upon the blue plate, the
bread and butter was cut.  They sat down happily to the round
mahogany table.

"I have had a strange pain in my knee to-day," said May Beringer.
"I think it must be the frost.  I wonder whether the frost can have
given me a pain in my knee.  I really never have anything the
matter with me.  As a rule there's nothing the matter with me at

"Well," said Mrs. Amorest, "I don't wonder.  This sudden cold
weather can give any one anything.  Now have you any Elliman's?
Because I've always found that rubbing in a little Elliman's last
thing at night is quite wonderful.  Now if you haven't any I'd be
only too glad--"

There was a knock on the door.  Both ladies were startled.  "Come
in," said Miss Beringer.

The door slowly opened, then there was an interval during which
nothing happened save that Pip drew back towards his mistress,
growling.  Then Mrs. Payne came forward.  To Miss Beringer,
unprepared for her, she must have been amazing enough.  She was
wearing her old red wrapper and her crimson shoes.  Through her
hair was stuck the black comb with the glass diamonds.  Her
shapeless body, her large heavy bosom, her high colour--one of the
raggle-taggle gipsies indeed, hemispheres apart from the two
Englishwomen who sat there looking at her.

She had been going to speak, her mouth had opened, a smile had been
preparing, but at the instant of entering she had been transfixed,
even as Lot's wife on looking back to the accursed cities of the
Plains.  She stared, her eyes, large and black and piercing, were
held as though by the glory of the Lord; she put her hand up to her
breast and, breathing deeply, seeing neither of the women in front
of her nor anything in the room save the mantelpiece and its
contents, gazed.

It had been unusual enough for her to leave her room.  The cause
had been the enthralling excitement of Mrs. Amorest's money.  For
days now she had considered it, and with every day and with every
hour of every day the thing had grown more dominating.

If that old woman was going to be left one thousand pounds a year
she would have some of it--a lot of it, half of it, more than half
of it.  The old woman was without a friend in the world, nor would
she have a relation when her cousin died--you could not count that
son of hers who, sure enough, had abandoned her for ever.

No; all that Agatha Payne had to do was to increase her influence,
to make the old woman fond of her.  Already she was fond of her;
that was proved by the many occasions on which she came to visit
her, but Agatha Payne must make her more fond of her.  She must be
very friendly and agreeable and neighbourly. . . .  All day she had
been forcing herself to be neighbourly, but her laziness was
difficult to subdue.  It was a cold day, although the sun was
shining, and bed was very agreeable.  As you went on through life,
bed became more and more agreeable.  But at last, around four in
the afternoon, Agatha Payne had forced herself out slowly; as she
washed and lazily put on a few clothes her brain crept round and
round the thought of Lucy Amorest's money like a cat around a
bird's cage.

She thought neither easily nor readily.  Did she begin to think
deeply, that pain bound itself about her head.  She would sit
before the old red tablecloth letting the cards slip through her
fingers--knave of diamonds, four of hearts, queen of clubs, seven
of hearts, three of clubs--and the fish would come swimming out of
the green tank and would circle lazily about her head.  Always she
saw Lucy Amorest's money, like a fish larger than all the others
and with dazzling scales of gold swimming just in front of her.
She would put out her hand to touch it, but with a swerve of its
tail it would be away, out of her reach, just above her head.

At last she became active enough to determine on a visit.  She
would go and see Lucy Amorest.  So with a flick of her eye sending
the fish back into the tank again and leaving the cards loose on
the table under the guardianship of Miranda, she opened the door,
shuffled across the hall, and knocked.

There was no answer from Mrs. Amorest's room.  She knocked again.
Still no answer.  Where could the old woman be?  She opened the
door and looked in.  No one there.  She closed it and stood,
licking her finger, considering.  She would not be out, it was late
now and dark.  Ah, the other old lady, the new tenant!  And
suddenly the fear struck her that perhaps this new tenant, this
Miss Bellringer or whatever Mrs. Bloxam said her name was, might
also have her designs on Lucy Amorest's money.

Lucy Amorest had told her--why then should she not also tell Miss
Bellringer?  Agatha Payne's face grew angry and troubled.  Let them
just try, those two!  She'd show them!  Already it seemed to her
that she had a right to Lucy Amorest's money, to part of it at any
rate.  Let any one come in and deprive her of what was truly hers
and she would show them!

It was with the sudden determination that they were at this very
moment plotting together in there that she moved towards the third
door farther down the passage (the one that had until lately
concealed the life, hopes, and last torments of old red-faced Mr.
Hopper, dead of double pneumonia) and knocked.  Some one said "Come
in," and she entered.  It was immediately after that that the
critical moment of her life came to her.  She had been expecting to
see nothing but two old women gossiping together; rather than that
she saw, straight before her, as though it had been placed there
for her especial glory, the heart and centre of all the colour of
the world.  The lamplight, the leaping fire illumined it.  Ruby and
crimson and amber, blood red and honey gold, threaded with flame
and clouded with smoky bronze, the pedestal and the dragon came to
her.  From that instant of their mutual greeting they were one.
Far back, deep set in her gipsy ancestry, she had been arrayed as a
queen and colour of flame and fire, and running splendour had been
her rightful dower.

Now she clutched her soiled wrapper about her breasts and lusted
for possession as never in her lazy, sensuous, imaginative life she
had lusted before.

Mrs. Amorest, looking upwards, felt something strange in her gaze.
It was strange that she should be here at all.  But she did the
honours.  "Miss Beringer," she said, "this is Mrs. Payne who lives
with us on this floor."

Agatha Payne came forward.  Miss Beringer awkwardly rose, and, as
she always did when she was nervous, giggled.  Agatha Payne spoke
in her deep thick voice:

"I am glad to meet you."

"You'll have some tea, won't you?" said Miss Beringer.  "I'll fetch
another cup.  You must want some tea, I'm sure.  I'll get a cup in
a moment."  She went to the cupboard and Agatha Payne settled down
into the vacant chair, her eyes still on the mantelpiece.

"We've been to the Cathedral," said Mrs. Amorest amiably, "and
we've enjoyed it so much.  They had that anthem about the
Wilderness that I always like.  A boy sang so well.  Have you been
out, Mrs. Payne?"

"No, I have not."  Mrs. Payne smiled and did her best to look
amiable.  "Now don't you go out overtiring yourself.  It would
never do for you to be knocked up.  We can't have you ill."

"Oh, really," said Mrs. Amorest, laughing, "I am very well indeed.
I never was better.  I did feel a little bit tired when I first
came in, but I'm quite rested now.  Miss Beringer's tea has done me
a world of good."

Miss Beringer had brought another cup and Mrs. Payne had her tea.
Her chair was too small for her.  She billowed around it.  Her eyes
never left the mantelpiece.

"That's a beautiful thing you have there," she said at last.

"Oh, my piece of amber," said Miss Beringer nervously.  "Yes,
that's my piece of amber, my most precious possession.  It was
given me years ago by my dearest friend.  I'm so glad you like it."

"I do like it," said Mrs. Payne, breathing deeply and staring at it
so fixedly that you might think that she hoped to draw it to her,
magnet-wise.  "I do like it."

"I'm so glad you do," said Miss Beringer.  "It's been much admired.
Every one likes it.  They say I could get a great deal of money for
it if I wished to sell it.  It's worth a lot of money, I believe."

"Do you think you would sell it if you were offered a large sum?"
asked Agatha Payne.

"Oh dear no!" said Miss Beringer.  "Nothing would induce me.  It
was a present from my dearest friend.  The greatest friend of my
life gave it to me.  I would never sell it.  Nothing would induce

Agatha Payne slowly rose.  Her knees were trembling with
excitement.  "May I look at it closer?" she asked.

"Why, certainly," said Miss Beringer.  "Please do."

Agatha Payne went close to the mantelpiece.

"May I have it in my hands a moment?" she asked.

"Yes, certainly," said May Beringer.

She took it, held it in both hands and stood there brooding over
it, exactly as though she had been an old gipsy vagrant telling
fortunes.  The cool texture of it, so different from its warm
burning colour, stole through into the secret places of her heart.
She felt, as she held it, that it was hers, that it had always been
hers for ever and for ever and for ever.

She put it back, very tenderly, and her lips moved as though she
had been bidding it a momentary farewell.  Slowly she came back to
the other two women.  She sat down again and finished her tea.
They talked a little, Pip slept, snapping at imaginary flies in his
dreams.  A silence fell and the old ladies sat, staring in front of
them, lost also in their dreams.

Then Agatha Payne departed.  She turned for a moment at the door
and looked back at the mantelpiece.

When she was gone Miss Beringer broke out:

"Oh, I don't like her at all!  Mrs. Amorest, do you like her?
Don't you think there's something queer?  There's something very
odd about her indeed!"

Mrs. Amorest said, "Poor old thing!  She lives so much alone.
She's old and all by herself.  We ought to be kind to her."

"Oh, I don't know," said Miss Beringer in great agitation, "I don't
think I can be kind to her.  I don't like her at all, I really
don't.  Did you see the queer way she looked at me?"

"She always looks a little strange," said Mrs. Amorest.  "She has
those big black eyes."

"It wasn't only those eyes," said Miss Beringer.  "No, it certainly
wasn't only those eyes.  I'm sure she's going to do me a mischief.
I know she is.  And did you see the way she held my piece of amber?
Just as though it was hers.  I'm sure she'll steal it from me."

"Dear Miss Beringer," said Mrs. Amorest, "please don't disturb
yourself.  Mrs. Payne is a good woman.  I know she is.  I've known
her for a long time.  There's nothing to be afraid of."

"Oh, I don't know, I'm sure," said Miss Beringer.  "I'm sure I
don't know.  It's very kind of you to say so, but I'm sure I don't
know.  I've always been afraid of something all my life.  It seems
to be my destiny.  It's my fate to have something to be afraid of.
I'm sure I don't like being under the same roof with her.  She'll
do something to me in my sleep."

Mrs. Amorest consoled her as best she could, but in her heart was a
little scorn for this silly, frightened woman, and a foreboding
that she herself would have a tire sometime with such a companion.
She said goodnight kindly and, moved by her own good heart, bent
forward and kissed the other's withered cheek.

"Don't you worry, dear," she said.  "Have a good sleep and you'll
find you won't be thinking of it in the morning."

But Miss Beringer did think of it.  After Mrs. Amorest's departure
she went to her door and locked it.  Then she called Pip to her and
sat with the dog straddled upon her lap, staring wide-eyed into the
fading fire and every once and again giving a little shiver.



It was a seasonable Christmas that year.  Enough snow fell, then
enough frost came, and then the sun shone.  If it did not shine, at
least it rode a circle of crimson fire through the heavens and,
before the frost but after the slime of preparatory fogs, fragments
of its fire splashed the High Street and spread in pools across the
Precincts floor.

As I have intimated in other chronicles, Polchester of the old days
was an enclosed town.  The Riviera was unknown to it and the Garden
of Allah a dream with Omar.  Though London might call to the richer
citizens on one occasion or another, at Christmas time every one
stayed at home and, more wonderful yet to our modern disillusion,
enjoyed family parties with Christmas trees, plum puddings,
stockings, and the waits invited into the hall.  It is not true,
however, that the weather was any more romantic then than it is to-
day; there were just as many rainy and muggy and foggy and dirty
and dismal skies, and Glebeshire, warmer than any other part of the
British Isles, has never had an intimate acquaintance with crisp
and shining snow.  About once in twenty years there are snowfalls,
frosts, and blue skies, and how happy then every one is and how
eagerly every one hands down the year to an envious posterity!

This was such a year, and ten days before Christmas the frost came
and held, the powdered snow remained jewelled and resplendent, the
sun looked down from a sky as delicately blue as an egg-shell and
laughed to see the fun.  And fun there was!

Magnet's toy-shop in the Market Cloisters had a Father Christmas, a
true and veritable Father Christmas to be seen with two crimson
cheeks and long snow-white beard any afternoon between two and
four.  Jeremy Cole so beheld him, and his sisters Mary and Helen,
and the Dean's son Ernest, and the Fisher girls, and little Tommy
Chawner.  He did not say much, but he moved between the dolls and
the trains, the balls and the soldiers, as only Santa Claus could
move, with an authority, a benignity, a ripe wisdom that no
impostor could have been clever enough to feign!

Every one did their best.  In the Market-place there was a Punch
and Judy with a thick-set jolly-faced man in charge, and he might
have been that very same Garrick, friend of Maradick, whose history
has been elsewhere narrated.  I don't say he was, and I don't say
he wasn't.  Half-way up the High Street, Gummridge's the stationers
had a whole Christmas tree in their window.  Here was a stumbling-
block to the whole High Street traffic.  It was quite impossible to
get any child--any perambulator baby indeed--past that window.  It
was a tree frosted, coloured, and shining, hung about with every
glittering bauble, shaped to a perfect pinnacle of exquisite
symmetry.  But best of all was the window of Hunt & Griffin, the
General Store, for here, for the first time in Polchester history,
was a whole front window given over to pageantry, to none other
than the scene in the life of Cinderella when, despondent beside
the fire, she is amazed by the sudden apparition of her peaked-
hatted Godmother.  There is the fire and there Cinderella, there
the pots and pans, the brick floor, and the huge kitchen rafters,
there the Godmother, and there beyond the snow-lined window-pane
the vision of the gold coach and the snow-white ponies.  So great
was the confusion outside this window that had this occurred in
these traffic-haunted times the show must have been forbidden, but
in those lucky days nobody minded, nobody cared.  Let the children
have a good time, Christmas comes but once a year, and even Mrs.
Sampson, although her neuralgia was at its height, could not but
admit that the window made a happy display.

The town rang during those days with laughter.  Propter Hill outside
the town had just enough snow on it to allow of tobogganing, and Pol
Fields, having been flooded, gave for a whole wonderful fortnight
the most marvellous skating.  The town rang with laughter and the
ringing of bells.  The Cathedral let itself go and burst into
perpetual peals of merriment to the great annoyance of late
sleepers, dyspeptics, and ruminating essayists.  There was fun
everywhere, apples and oranges in the Market-place, and carols up
and down the streets after dark.

It was the best Christmas that Polchester had known for many a day
past or would know for many a day to come.

Mrs. Amorest was one who had always enjoyed a seasonable Christmas.
To her as to every old person Christmas was filled with sad
memories, but she had a wonderful gift of enjoying fun at the
moment of its occurrence, and being aware that she was so enjoying
it, and because the fun in her life had been neither frequent nor
extravagant very small occurrences amused and excited her.

This was the happiest Christmas known to her for many a day.
Struggle as she might not to think of the money coming to her, she
could not keep it out of her consciousness.  She told herself again
and again (and when she was alone in her room she repeated the
words aloud sometimes) that she must not place too strong a
reliance on her cousin's promise.  "He may have altered his mind
the next moment.  It's silly to believe him."  Nevertheless the
solemnity of his words, the caress of his hand as it rested on her
head--these things were difficult to dismiss.

And the happiness that came from the promise was also difficult to
dismiss.  She was naturally happy.  Give her the least excuse and
she must be happy.  Although she believed that God did not intend
that human beings should be very happy because they were in this
world for the training of their souls, and souls were better
trained by sorrow than by joy, nevertheless an imp of happiness
would continue to jump in her heart and stir her little world with
his discordant cries of joy.  Joy at what?  A kindly action, a
splash of sun across the street, a barrel-organ round the corner, a
stained-glass window, an apple, and a piece of cheese.  She COULD
not keep down her spirits as, being a penniless, lonely old widow
of over seventy, she should.

And, this Christmas, she lost completely her self-control.  She
adored above everything else in the world the spending of money,
perhaps for the very reason that she never had very much to spend.
She had never been able to believe that statement often written in
the papers that millionaires did not know what to do with their
money.  Did not know!  Why, she could spend a million pounds quite
easily at Gummridge's alone!  But there!  The newspapers were never
to be trusted.  She liked greatly to be given things, but still
better was it herself to make presents.  The excitement of giving
some one something he or she wanted was intense, to watch the
opening of the parcel, to see the stare of pleasure and surprise,
to hear the exclamation, to feel the affection flowing out--was
there any luxury in life like it?

And it was a luxury that, of late, she had been compelled to deny
herself.  Last Christmas she had given Agatha Payne half a dozen
pocket-handkerchiefs, Mrs. Bloxam a piece of ribbon, and her cousin
a pocket-book.  Worst sorrow of all, it was impossible to send
Brand anything.  No use to throw parcels out into the void.  The
best she could do was to write two letters, one a month in advance,
and this she sent to the only address she had, something in
California, and then one on Christmas Eve, such as she had always
written to him at Christmas time.  This she also sent out to
California, but she wrote it because for a moment it brought him
closer to her--she felt, with his photograph up there in front of
her, as though she had him with her in the room.  These were all
but poor substitutes for reality, and, cheat ourselves as we may,
our subconscious selves refuse to be deceived.  Mrs. Amorest knew
nothing about her subconscious self, but she did know that after
last Christmas she had a miserable sense of inadequacy and
frustrated purpose.  She had made nobody happy.  Even Mrs. Bloxam
had disappeared into the intimacies of her family to emerge two
days later with a black eye and a bruised cheek.  This year she
would fling her cap over the mill.  She had prospects.  She did not
face them finally, those prospects, did not take them, hold them in
front of her, look them in the eyes and say to them as one always
ought to do to prospects, "Now, are you sound and healthy?  Have
you got heart and lungs and legs and arms and a good stiff back?"
No, she merely reported on them--she heard that they were good and
healthy and promised very well indeed!  Then she went ahead.

The plan came to her in the middle of the night, or rather in one
of those early morning hours when the first cock crows and the
hidden despair raises its abominable head.  Lying there in the
early morning she drove her despairs away and considered Miss
Beringer.  Poor Miss Beringer!  What a frightened, nervous,
trembling creature she was!  She would like to do something for
her!  She would like well to give her a happy Christmas!  And
Agatha Payne, too.  It was then that the idea came to her.

At first she was frightened of it.  It would demand energy and
persistence.  And HAD she money enough?  Money in the future would
not do.  She examined her purse and found that she had sufficient
did she use part of next quarter's rent.  She trembled at that, but
she was sure that kind Mr. Agnew, when he knew of the promise that
her cousin had made to her, would not hesitate to advance her. . . .

She trembled.  Her heart warned her.  Her cheeks were flushed and
she had a guilty air.  But she held to her purpose, and once she
had begun she did not look back.  Once she had begun she COULD not
look back.  She moved, during those frosty coloured days, about the
town, the very spirit of adventure.  She found that she must go
quietly.  The excitement tired her, and sometimes she would, in a
moment, feel so weary that she COULD not get to the top of the High
Street, and on one occasion when she was at the top she could not
go down again and had to take refuge in the shop of Mr. Bennett,
the grand bookseller.  There she sat, greatly alarmed, on a chair
in the very middle of the shop with busts of Byron and Walter Scott
looking down on her and a grand smell of Russia leather and old
vellum in her nostrils, and the complete works of George Eliot at
her elbow.  Old Mr. Bennett was very kind to her although she told
him at once that she was not there to buy anything, and who should
come in at that very moment but Archdeacon Brandon himself,
magnificent, handsome, superb, ordering somebody "on the Psalms"
with the air of a king and a conqueror.  She looked around her with
the hope of seeing some of her husband's plays, and when she did
not would have liked to ask Mr. Bennett whether he kept them in
stock, but her courage failed her and she could only thank him very
much and slip out of the shop as quietly as possible.  Fortunately
she did not hear the Archdeacon's question:  "And who was that
shabby little woman?"  He asked out of all kindness, feeling it his
duty as the father of the flock to keep his eye upon all the
inhabitants of the town.

She tried to keep her head about her purchases.  She found, as many
another has found before and after her, that the best things were
always the most expensive.  And then when it came to the central
purchase of all, to the core, the heart, the kernel, the pinnacle,
the pice de rsistance, the raison d'tre, and any other foreign
phrase that you prefer, she found that HERE expense was inevitable.
Try as you would, it must cost more than you had supposed.  Of
course she only wanted a small one, but even the small ones. . . .
And then at the last, two days before Christmas, she found in the
Market-place, in a corner behind the old woman under the green
umbrella, the very thing, a darling, a perfect specimen, a miracle,
and, when she enquired of the nice round-faced man whose possession
it was, she found that it was only . . . well, less than the
experience of the last two days had led her to believe possible,
although more, a good deal more, than she had originally intended.
She bought it, and ordered that it should be sent to her room,
blushing a little in spite of herself as she named the address.
She gave her name very carefully, begging him to be watchful that
it should not be sent to any other room by mistake, and he promised
her, saying that he would himself bring it.

He did in fact arrive with it when she was there, and she liked him
very much, holding him in conversation for quite a while, and then
giving him an orange for the baby.  After that she guarded her room
like a dragoness and would not allow May Beringer, who was already
forming a too constant habit of "dropping in," to cross her

Christmas Eve arrived, and Mrs. Amorest, awaking to the inspiring
voice of Mrs. Bloxam, was delighted when she discovered how fine
and clear it was; no wind, the smoke rising from the chimneys
elephant grey against the blue, the thin rind of frost, the
sparrows already chattering at her window for their crumbs.

After her little mid-day meal she sat down to the table, found her
paper and envelopes, and wrote to Brand.

Her letter was as follows:

MY DEAREST, DARLING BOY--I must write to you as I always do,
although I sadly fear that it will be a long time before you get
this letter.  The one that I wrote to you a month ago may reach you
before Christmas, and I hope it will.  This I am writing because it
seems as though I am talking to you, and I don't wish to allow
Christmas to pass by without having a word with my dear boy.

Perhaps you have been writing to me and still to the old address.
I told them in Cheltenham to forward anything on, but they are so
stupid at the post-office, although, as a matter of fact, I always
think it wonderful, considering the sort of postmen one sees
walking about, that they don't lose more letters than they do--
quite boys some of them are, and they none of them have very
intelligent faces, although I daresay they are good men.

Well, dearest boy, I try to imagine to myself the kind of Christmas
you are having, but it is really difficult for me, because you told
me in the last letter I had from you that it was quite hot at
Christmas time.  That seems to me very strange and not very nice, I
think.  Of course it is often warm here for Christmas.  Both last
year and the year before that we had rain and muggy weather, but
this year it is delightful, with a hard frost and the sun shining,
cold and seasonable.  It's so pleasant for the children and more
healthy for everybody, I am sure.

I am very well in health.  That cough I had when I wrote to you
last has quite gone away and I am sure it's those lozenges that I
found at Cubitt's (he's our best chemist here in the High Street).
If only I could hear that you are quite well and will come home
soon for a visit I would be quite happy.  You know, dear boy, I am
an old woman now and can't expect to live for ever, so that I do
hope you'll be able to come home soon.  It's very nice here and I'm
very comfortable.  There's something else I'd like to tell you
about, but I suppose that I must not just yet because it isn't
quite settled.  I think of you so much and pray for you night and
morning.  At this time of the year when God came down to earth and
took upon Him our flesh and was a little baby in a manger, I think
we should all make Him feel how thankful we are.  I know that He is
looking after you and so I don't worry about you.  At least I know
that you are warm.  You used to be so careless about your
underclothing when you were a little boy.

My dearest boy, you are always in my thoughts.--Your loving


She sat for a long time after she had written the letter with his
photograph in front of her.  She thought of him in all the ways
that she had known him--as a baby at her breast, as a small boy in
his first trousers, as a boy going to his first day-school and
forgetting her so quickly in the new excitements of other boys and
games and masters, as all right and proper boys must do, of course.
And then, as he grew, her interest in the strange new personality
that developed, as flower from the bud--a personality that was so
strange because it was like neither herself nor his father,
somebody quite new.  And then his growing independence, his chafing
at the literary and artistic interests of his father, his desire
for the open-air life and complete independence.  Then her own
strange sympathy with him; and although she loved him so dearly she
understood that he should want to get away and be free.  She had
felt it herself in her married life, and she realised that he WAS
her own son, not by right of the quiet and domestic character that
was most obvious in her, but by right of that secret independence
and sharpness of judgement that her married life had subdued in
her.  He left her and at intervals returned to her.  She had been a
woman of forty when she had borne him, and he had been only twenty-
seven when she had last seen him, still a boy although so strong
and independent!  She looked at the photograph until she seemed to
draw him out of the frame and he came to her and put his arms round
her and teased her in the old laughing way that he had always had.
But she was not simply a sentimental woman; she was in fact
scornful of emotion that led to nothing, and so she put the
photograph back upon the mantelpiece, put on her bonnet and her
coat, and, because it was already three o'clock and would soon be
dusk, hurried off to take her present to her cousin.

This year she was giving him a picture, a photogravure in a nice
black frame of Holman Hunt's "Carpenter's Shop."  She had not been
quite lately to visit him lest she should seem to be reminding him
of his promise.  She had not heard how his health was, but she
hoped that this bright weather had helped him, and that he would
perhaps see her.  Nevertheless as she crossed the bridge and
climbed the hill a little chilling wind, whence she knew not,
breathed upon her heart.  Rising out of the dark purple-hued river
appeared the figure of Agatha Payne.

She saw, quite unexpectedly, reasons for May Beringer's terrors.
There WAS something alarming about Agatha, something not quite
normal and healthy, something odd and twisted.  It came, perhaps,
because the poor old thing lived so much alone, but Mrs. Amorest
gave a little shiver and thought to herself that she would move
from that house in the spring to somewhere brighter and more
companionable.  She could not drive the company of Agatha from her
mind.  All up the hill it kept pace with her, and then, in another
flash of memory, she saw a picture of her childhood, something that
had not come to her for many a year.  It was a picture that used to
hang in the dining-room, of a witch weaving her spells in a dark
and lonely wood.  Before her was a large iron pot into which she
flung toads and snakes and strange purple-tinted leaves.  From
the cauldron came a blue thick smoke.  It was true that the witch
did not physically resemble Agatha.  She was old and skinny,
with a back bent double and long groping fingers, but there was
something . . . something. . . .

And then, pausing for breath before she entered her cousin's gate,
she smiled at her folly.  Her practical mind drove her fancies like
mist into the frosty air.

The house, always ugly and forbidding, seemed simply not to belong
to the fresh and wonderful day.  The woods that fringed the hill
were marvellous in their mystery, the fragments of the river that
gleamed among the brown folds of the sloping fields glittered like
shreds of broken glass faintly amethyst, the powdered frost shone
and twinkled in the sharp and friendly air, but the house was
untouched by this beauty; aloof and hostile it seemed to deride and
despise any spirit that could wish goodwill to men and friendship
to all the world.  To Mrs. Amorest especially, as she approached
it, it seemed to say:  "You aren't truly so sentimental as to
believe that the human race is loving and kind.  Rid yourself of
your illusions.  You should be ashamed of yourself at your age that
you have any."

As she rang the bell and heard it clang defiantly through the house
she felt again a dim and unhappy foreboding.  She always disliked
her meeting with the housekeeper.  She felt that that woman
despised and patronised her, and now to-day she wished that she
might encounter no one who raised hostility in her heart.  But one
could only pass to her cousin over the housekeeper's body.  There
was no other way for it.

The woman herself opened the door and was more forbidding than she
had ever been.  Mrs. Amorest suspected that in some way she had
learnt about her cousin's promise.  Always before there had been a
tacit recognition, however reluctant, that Mrs. Amorest had some
right there.  To-day she blocked the doorway with her peevish ill-
natured body and showed no sign at all of moving.  Mrs. Amorest
felt a sudden, almost affectionate, pity for her gift.  It had
cost, as it seemed to her, a large sum, but in the eyes of this
woman it would be simply another wheedling attempt on her part to
exhort more money from her cousin.  She summoned her courage and
smiled her friendliest smile.

"Good afternoon.  How is my cousin to-day?"

"Not at all well, I'm afraid."

"Oh dear, I am sorry to hear that.  I thought that this fine
weather might have done him some good."

There was no answer to this, so after a little pause Mrs. Amorest,
feeling the chill of the afternoon air, said:  "Of course it IS
cold, isn't it, but I thought that, being in bed, he might not
notice it.  Has the doctor been to-day?"

"Yes, the doctor has been."

Well, she might ask me into the hall, thought Mrs. Amorest.  "Could
I see him for a moment, do you think?"

"I'm afraid not, Mrs. Amorest.  It was the doctor's orders that he
was not to be disturbed."

"Not for a moment?  I really would not bother him.  Just to wish
him a happy Christmas."

"I'm afraid not.  Those were the doctor's orders."

"Would you not ask him whether he would not see me for a moment?"

"I'm sorry, but he is not to be disturbed by anybody."

There was a pause, and then Mrs. Amorest said cheerfully:  "Oh,
well, I'm sure that's quite right if the doctor says so.  I only
wanted to wish him a happy Christmas.  I have a little gift."  She
produced it from under her arm.  "I have written a little note in
case I should not be able to see him.  Would you kindly give it to


She took the parcel, looking neither at it nor at Mrs. Amorest,
but forward into the brown and naked garden with a frown of
determination as though she were forewarning some plant that was
whispering hopefully about the spring that she was not going to
stand any of that sort of nonsense.

There was another little pause, then Mrs. Amorest said:  "Would you
most kindly wish him a very happy Christmas for me?  Of course I
know that it can't be a VERY happy Christmas for him as ill as he
is, but I always think it makes a difference if one knows that
people are thinking of one, don't you?"

"I will certainly tell him."

"And I hope you'll have a happy Christmas too," said Mrs. Amorest,
trembling with the cold, and wishing altogether in spite of her
better feelings that the woman should herself know what it was to
be kept out of a warm house on a cold day.

"Thank you very much, Mrs. Amorest.  I wish you the same, I'm

That was all.  There was nothing more to be done.  The door closed
with a horrible final clang, and in some strange flash of vision
she knew that she was never to enter that house again.

She walked down the hill, and, in spite of all her courage,
forebodings now crowded upon her.  It was true that it was not her
cousin's fault that he had not seen her.  He had not known that she
was there.  But surely she had been foolish to build upon his idle
word!  And that woman.  She had designs.  She certainly had
designs.  She had looked at Mrs. Amorest with a hostility that
could mean only one thing.  And a sick man was so helpless, the
worse his sickness the weaker he was. . . .  As she crossed the
bridge over the Pol it seemed to her that in another moment her
courage would desert her.  Because if that money did not come to

She summoned all her pluck, standing for a moment on the bridge and
watching the river take on its evening colour, softly purple under
the dark shadow of the rising hills.

Then, thinking of the evening that was coming and the fun that it
would be, she smiled.  Things always turned out better than you
expected.  The stars that were now breaking into the sky above her
head were the eyes of God.  She was watched over and cared for and
protected.  She had no need to fear.

The town as she passed up through the High Street was bubbling with
merriment and gaiety.  The shops blazed with lights; the street was
crowded; every one was laughing and happy, hurrying along loaded
with parcels, stopping to speak, it seemed, to any one who was near
that they might wish them good luck.  This was the world that Mrs.
Amorest loved.  Why might it not always be like this?  She stopped
at the Cinderella window.  How pretty and touching!  She turned
round to a stout man beside her and said, "Isn't it pretty?"

"Indeed it is, mum," he answered her, smiling.  "My little girl
wants to take it home.  Don't you, Pansy?" and a diminutive child
squeaked out "Yes."

"What a pretty little girl!" said Mrs. Amorest.

"Thank you, mum," answered the fat man.  "A merry Christmas, I'm

"And the same to you," said Mrs. Amorest.

The rest of the way home seemed easy.

Arrived in her room, she set about the development of her plan.
She had asked Agatha Payne and May Beringer to come and visit her
at eight o'clock.  She had two hours for her preparations.  The
time flashed by and in a moment it was a quarter to eight.  She
hurriedly put on her silk dress, hung around her neck her thin gold
chain with the locket that held Brand's portrait, brushed her
lovely white hair, put on her lace cap fresh and crisp from the
laundry, then her stiff white cuffs.  Finished.  Completed.  She
sat down to survey her work.  A smile played about her lips.  It
was the most beautiful thing that she had ever seen in her life.

At five minutes past eight there was a knock on her door, and then
another knock.  Agatha Payne and May Beringer entered.  They stood
bewildered on the threshold.

It was indeed a pretty sight.  The curtains were drawn and the far
end of the room was duskily shadowed, but at the fireplace end
stood--THE TREE!

And what a tree!  Of just the right size for the room, it had a
shape and symmetry that surely no other tree in all Christmasdom
could equal.  It tapered gradually with exquisite shape and form to
a point that quivered and flickered like a green flame.  On the
flame sturdily triumphed Father Christmas, diminutive in body, but
alive in his smile, his stolidity, his gallant colour.  It was the
colour that entranced the eye.  Mrs. Amorest had worked with the
soul of an artist.  She had not overburdened the slender branches.
The thin chains of frosted silver that hung from bough to bough
seemed of themselves to dance in patterned rhythm.  Balls of fire,
emerald and ruby, amethyst and crystal, shone in the light of the
candles.  And at every place colour blended with colour.  The tree
was always the tree.  The light that flashed from its boughs was
not foreign to it, but seemed to be, integrally, part of its life
and history.  It had been placed on a long and broad looking-glass,
into which it looked down as though into a lake of crystal water.
The candles seemed to be the voices of the tree; it was vocal in
its pleasure, its sense of fun at its own splendour, its grand
surprise that after all it had come off so well.

In proportion, in blending of colour, in grandeur of spirit, it was
the finest tree in England that night.  On either side of the tree
were two tables spread with white cloths.  On one table were some
parcels beautifully tied with coloured ribbons, and on the other
sandwiches, a plum-cake with white icing, some saffron buns, and a
dish of sweets and chocolates.

The two ladies stood amazed.  So pretty was the room with its soft
pink colours, its light dim save for the aureole of golden
splendour shed by the tree, so utterly unexpected the display, that
words would not come; only at last May Beringer cried, "Oh dear!
Dear me!  Dear me!"

Both ladies had dressed in their party best: May in her orange
silk, that suited her, I fear, not too well, and Agatha in her dark
purple, a dress of a fashion now forgotten, too small for her, but
that nevertheless with her black hair finely brushed, her dark eyes
flashing, gave her the air of older days, the air that had made Mr.
Payne, thirty-five years ago, call her his "Gipsy Queen."

"Oh, I do hope you won't both think me too silly," said Mrs.
Amorest, coming forward, "but I simply had to do something this
Christmas.  We've just done nothing the last two Christmases and it
did seem too bad.  Don't you think so?  I do hope you don't mind?"

"Mind?" said May Beringer, coming towards the tree and gazing at it
with her mouth open like a school-girl.  "Why, Mrs. Amorest, it's
lovely!  It's the loveliest thing!  Why, I can't speak.  I can't,
indeed.  Words won't come.  I can't say anything at all."

Agatha Payne was moved more deeply still.  The colour possessed her
as colour always possessed her, coming towards her like a living
breathing person, holding out its arms to her, whispering to her,
"You and I!  We are the only ones here who understand.  I have been
waiting for you, and you alone."

Indeed it seemed to her that the tree belonged to her and was hers
absolutely.  The two other women vanished from her consciousness;
she could see only the pale golden flame of the candles, so steady,
so pure, so dignified, the balls of amethyst and ruby and crystal
as they swung and turned and gleamed so slightly and yet always
with a secret life and purpose of their own.

And the deep green of the tree, richly velvet under the light of
the candles!  She stood absorbed, entranced, waves of sensuous
pleasure running through her body.

So silent were they both that after a minute had passed Mrs.
Amorest was alarmed.

"I'm so glad you like it," she said almost timidly.  "Shan't we sit
down and look at it?  I like to think of all the other trees there
are to-night in everybody's homes and the children dancing round
them and the presents--"

She broke off because a longing for Brand came to her so urgently
that it was all she could do not to call out his name.  For a
moment it seemed to her foolish humbug, sham, and ridiculous
sentiment, that the three of them, old, forgotten, not wanted by
anybody, should indulge in this display.  But looking up at the
tree she was comforted.  Anything so beautiful had its own purpose.
She had made a beautiful thing.  She felt the joy of the creator in
her handiwork.

They sat in a row looking at the tree.  May Beringer was, all in a
moment, voluble.  She had so much to tell them,--of the trees that
she had known, the trees that she had had in her own house, the
trees that she and Jane Betts had decorated together, the Christmas
festivities that they had had in Exeter (you would think to hear
her that Exeter was the centre of all the splendour and gaiety of
the world).  Oh! she talked and laughed and was so wildly excited
that she nearly cried.

Agatha Payne said very little.  She only stared and stared at the

The next part of the entertainment arrived.  Mrs. Amorest picked up
the parcels in their lovely white paper and coloured ribbon and,
blushing a little (shell pink faintly colouring the ivory of her
cheeks), said:

"These are little tiny things that I got.  You mustn't laugh at me,
please, for getting them.  I think the chief part of a present is
that it should be wrapped up in paper, don't you?  But I hope
you'll like them."

And they did like them.  At least May Beringer liked hers.  She had
a case with three pairs of scissors and a book in a purple cover,
The Light of Asia, by Sir Edwin Arnold.  Agatha Payne said little
about hers--only "Thank you, Lucy," in a deep hoarse-throated
murmur.  She had a box of coloured cottons and a purple blotter.
She could not take her eyes away from the tree.

Then they cut the cake and ate the sandwiches, and Mrs. Amorest
made tea and listened happily, cosily to May Beringer's

How happy it was with the blazing tree, the dim room, the bells
pealing beyond the window, the crackling fire!

Each old lady forgot the other.  They were lost in their own world
of remembered and recaptured life,--past joys, past sorrows, past
desires, past regrets.  The clock ticked on, the candles burnt with
steady flame, the bells rang out.

Gradually Lucy Amorest closed her eyes.  She heard May Beringer's
voice from a vast distance.  Then her own faintly replying, "How
curious!  Indeed . . .  In . . . deed."

Her head sank upon her breast.  May Beringer also, bathed in the
warmth of the room, comforted with tea and happiness, closed her
eyes.  Her head nodded--once and twice and thrice.  She pulled
herself up.  Stared sharply at Mrs. Amorest.  Saw two Mrs.
Amorests, then three.  Her head fell.  She also slept.

Only Agatha Payne, her dark eyes fixed, sat, without moving,
staring at the tree.



On the following evening Agatha Payne entered Mrs. Amorest's room
and asked her whether she would light the tree again.  She did so,
but the candles were now very low.  They flickered up in wild and
despairing flares.  One caught a branch and must at once be
extinguished.  The two ladies sat there watching the death of the
tree.  It was Christmas night and very silent.  The ladies said
very little to one another, and at last Agatha Payne with a husky
"Good-night" vanished.

Agatha's soul was like a house of many stories.  In youth she had
lived in the top story, attic in shape but with a truly fine view
from the windows.  Here there had been light, air, and fine
prospects.  Then as the years passed she moved down on to the
middle floor, where she was exercised about the furniture of the
bedroom and held elegant receptions in the drawing-room.  After the
middle years she moved definitely on to the ground floor, and lived
during a great part of her time in the dining-room nibbling at the
crystallised cherries, squeezing the pears on their china dish, and
slipping into her mouth the chocolate almonds.  There was no view
from the dining-room windows.

But the first time she stumbled down over the dark stone steps into
the cellars was one day after her husband's death, when her sister-
in-law came to visit her.  She hated her sister-in-law because her
sister-in-law was afraid of her.  She hated and despised her, so
she pushed her down the cellar steps in front of her, made her
scream, showed her the dank, dark place, and hauled her up again.
For herself, she saw that there were things in the cellar that
interested her--rows of dusty wine-bottles, spiders' webs, and
broken furniture.  She came to live down there almost entirely.  Of
course, here there was no view at all.

This was her own house and nobody else lived in it at all, but in
the house in Pontippy Square there were several other lodgers.

Living deep in her own cellar with her fish and her coloured cards,
she had not been until now aware of the life beyond her.  Lucy
Amorest a shade, and behind that shadow others yet more shadowy.

She was vaguely conscious of desires, but deep down in her cellar
she had grown unaccustomed to the full light.  She was uncertain of
the division between reality and unreality.  Nor did she greatly

Old people, when they are happy and contented, are the spectators
of life.  They sit and watch with smiles on their faces, and hands
happily folded.  But let them feel that they have not had enough
out of life, that life has treated them ill, that there is still
time to snatch a valuable or two, and they will plunge into the
mle, cap awry, hair disordered, and will, as likely as not, make
a pretty scene of terror and dismay before Death with his bony
fingers leads them out of the battle.

Agatha Payne had for many a day now been a spectator only of her
own emotions and atmosphere; now in a flash the thin bony body of
May Beringer and her piece of red amber were in front of her,
tugging at her, dragging her out of her lethargy and idleness,
possessing all that was left of her imagination and lustful

It was after that Christmas Eve and the lighting of the tree that
the whole forces of her spirit began once again to move.  She
thirsted for a continuation of that pleasure that was so sharp in
its apprehension that it was a lust.  She wanted something; she
must have it; she must have that piece of red amber.  She must have
it not only because she wished that her eyes should be able to rest
on it whenever they desired to do so, but also because she wished
that it should be hers, hers body and soul; she wanted that
response from it that you only get when you are master.  She wished
that when she put her hands about its cold smooth surface she could
feel that its heart was beating at her touch, and that it knew that
it belonged to her and to her alone.

She must have it, and she would get it, because Mrs. Amorest (who
was coming into money and would be very rich) would buy it for her
from May Beringer.

And if May Beringer would not sell it?  Here began the second
impulse of her excitement.  She had, at the first view, not
disliked the woman.  She had had no very active feelings concerning
her.  Then she had perceived that the woman was afraid of her.

As the rabbit is to the snake, as the sparrow is to the hawk, as
the mouse is to the cat, so was timidity to Agatha Payne.  She was
not, take her life from first to last, a cruel woman.  She had, in
the first periods of it, done kindly actions.  She could admire,
she understood loyalty, she remembered brave deeds.  But did any
one cringe to her, did she detect fear in the eyes raised to her,
then a savage satisfaction warmed her heart and the stir of
persecution crept into her eyes.  Even then she did not actually
intend cruelty.  She felt a scorn for any coward, and when, added
to the scorn, there was irritation, it was natural enough that it
should be sharp and contemptuous.  After that curiosity had led her
forward.  Was anybody so true a coward as that?  Could their fear
lead them to such subterfuges?  If she did this, would their action
be that?  Of what stuff COULD they be made?

That was in her younger days.  For a number of years now she had
not moved sufficiently into the outer world to encounter new
personalities--neither Mrs. Amorest nor Mrs. Bloxam feared her.

She was also moving in her cellar ever deeper and deeper into the
dusk.  It was hard for her to see now because of the shadows.  Her
curiosity was less active than her desire to satisfy her thirsts
and hungers.  When she lusted for the red amber it was because she
wished to draw it into herself.  She sat like a spider lazily in
the centre of a web that had grown up around her rather than been
actually created by her.  She would draw May Beringer into the
centre of it and eat her up did she not let her have that piece of
red amber.

But she bore May Beringer no ill-will.  She only lazily despised

Then as the days passed her consciousness was aroused more actively
and she began to hate her.  She hated her for the noise that her
slippers made, for the way that she sniffed and would not use her
handkerchief, but especially for her nervous "Bye-bye" with which
she always ended their meetings.

"Bye-bye," "Bye-bye," "Bye-bye," bleating like a sheep.  And what a
thing for a lady to say, and, if say it she must, why not bravely
and with spirit instead of that timid, unctuous eagerness?

Agatha, back in her room after a visit, would stand looking at her
fish, at Miranda, and the cards, would stamp her foot and mutter
"Bye-bye--Bye-bye.  Bye-bye.  Idiot!"

She hated, too, May Beringer's dog, as crawling and sycophantic as
its mistress.  She stood glowering at it, casting spells over it,
wishing it evil; and the dog knew standing there, with its head
down, shivering, giving her once and again a supplicating glance.

So during these wet, muggy January days she made it her habit to
pay May Beringer visits.  She went because the red amber
irresistibly drew her.  She must see it every day, and if possible
twice a day.  And soon she went because she wished to see that
terrified glance flash into May Beringer's eyes.  She liked to see
it there.  It should be there permanently before she had done with

Old Mrs. Payne was looking, Mrs. Bloxam declared, ten years

On the other hand, she did not forget Lucy Amorest; or perhaps, to
speak truly, Lucy Amorest's money.  She was vague about Mrs.
Amorest's money as she was about everything in the outside world.
Some one must die before it became Mrs. Amorest's, but somebody
would die very soon.  She had only to look at the cards, to allow
them to trickle through her fingers, to rattle on to the table, to
perceive clearly how soon somebody would die. . . .

And then there was the old woman with more money than she could

She would appear at Mrs. Amorest's door, tall and shapeless and
silent.  Staring.  It was generally in the early dusk of the winter
afternoon, and often in these days the rain tickled the window-
panes and rustled about the coals.  Mrs. Amorest would be reading
her book.  She would look up and see the tall old woman there.

She was not afraid of Mrs. Payne, but since she had realised May
Beringer's alarm she had been aware of a sort of uncertainty, a
discomfort, a hesitation.  She felt now a purpose in Agatha Payne's
visits.  The woman was after something.  But what?  There was
nothing that Mrs. Amorest had that COULD attract her.  And yet
there she was, wanting something.

She wished, too, to be friendly.  When Mrs. Amorest looked up she
saw her leaning against the post of the door, smiling in a grim,
strange way.

"Come and sit down, dear," Mrs. Amorest would say, laying her book
on the table, and in her lumping, clumsy fashion Agatha Payne would
shift to a chair and overflow into it.  On a certain January
afternoon of storm and rain, it seemed that she had made up her
mind to something.  She stared with her motionless black eyes for
some while before speaking, then at last she broke out:

"How's your cousin, Lucy?"

Mrs. Amorest, startled, raised her snow-white head.  "My cousin?"

"Yes.  The one who's dying and leaving you his money."

"Oh, Agatha, I don't know whether he's really leaving me his money.
I oughtn't to have said anything about it."

"Nonsense," Agatha's voice rumbled out.  "Why shouldn't you say
something?  If he promised it to you, he promised it to you."

"But he didn't promise it.  He was only being kind for the moment.
And I've never seen him since.  I am afraid that he is very ill
indeed.  I do wish that I could see him.  He has a housekeeper who
doesn't like me, I'm afraid."

"Oh, doesn't she?"  Agatha's eyes stared.  "Why doesn't she?"

"I don't know.  I don't think I like her either."

"But he did promise it to you?"


"He said that when he died--?"

Mrs. Amorest broke in:  "Agatha, don't you think there's something
rather dreadful in our talking about money like this, when we're
both so old?  You know we're both over seventy, and although we
don't talk of it often, nor think of it either perhaps, yet some
time one must remember that one can only have a few more years to
live.  Aren't you ever afraid of death, Agatha?"

Agatha Payne raised her head as though she were trying to see more
distinctly through the dusk of a darkening room.

"We can have twenty years yet," she said hoarsely.  "You're strong
and I'm strong.  Mrs. Bloxam had a little girl who died when she
was five.  What's the good of thinking about it?"

"We ought to think of it, I'm sure," said Mrs. Amorest vigorously.
"Not in an unwholesome way, of course, but as though we were going
from one country into another.  And we must give an account of
ourselves.  God will know all, and if it were not for His infinite
mercy our danger would be great indeed.  His love--I like to think
of His love."

There was a long silence between them.  The coals clicked in the
grate.  The rain stroked the windows.  At last Agatha Payne said,
"What would you do with the money, Lucy, if you did get it?"

"Do with it?"  Mrs. Amorest started.  She had been dreaming.  "I
should find my boy and make him comfortable."

"Oh, your boy!"  Mrs. Payne snorted.  "Would you lend me some of

"Lend you some?  Why, of course."

Mrs. Payne smiled.  "You're a good creature, Lucy.  But I'd do the
same for you.  Have you seen Miss Beringer's fine coloured piece on
the mantelpiece?"

"That pretty thing!  Yes, I told her how greatly I admired it."

"I don't know what an old woman like her is doing with it.  She
can't appreciate it."

"She likes it," said Mrs. Amorest, "because her greatest friend
gave it to her, and that's a very good reason."

Agatha Payne got up.  She yawned.  Then she shuffled to the door.
She seemed already to have forgotten her companion.  She went
without speaking.

But that night she asked May Beringer to come in and drink a cup of
tea with her.  May Beringer came, although dearly would she have
liked to refuse.

For one thing, she hated old Mrs. Payne's room.  It smelt to her
"graveyardy."  She was sure that the windows were never opened.
For another, Pip would not pass that threshold.  Not that Mrs.
Payne wanted him to do so; she hated the dog, and quite frankly
said so.  But the dog would not have gone had all the bones and
biscuits from the dogs' Paradise been held in front of his nose.
His terror of Mrs. Payne was something curious to witness and
dreadfully distressing to his mistress, who had never seen him like
that with any one before.  Long before the old woman's tall figure
appeared in the doorway he knew that she was coming.  He would
raise his head.  His eyes would sharpen, his gaze would be fixed on
the door.  When she entered he would crawl under the chair.  His
spirit would be broken by her presence.

All this did not cause May Beringer herself to like the lady the
better.  But she was in any case a weak creature, and when she was
afraid, she was pitiful.

We are so largely the playthings of Fate in our fears.  To one,
fear of the dark, to another of physical pain, to a third of public
ridicule, to a fourth of poverty, to a fifth of loneliness--for all
of us our own particular creature lurks in ambush.  Nor is it our
choice of place or creature.

There was nothing in the world that May Beringer did not fear, but
behind all her terrors there was a strange determined obstinacy.
As a girl at school it had been discovered by other girls that you
could terrify, torture, have all the fun of your life by resolved
and calculated persecution, and then, in a moment when you least
expected it, up would come this obstinacy, this martyr determination.
Often enough some tiny thing called it forth.  She would yield with
shrieks of terror to demand after demand, and then at the last, over
a pin, a cloud in the sky, a falling leaf, she would stand up and
act Joan the Martyr to the end of time.

It depends, after all, on what you have in your eye.  For one it is
a seat in the House of Parliament, for another a lop-eared rabbit,
for another a ship at sea, for another a shadow on a green field,
for another quails in aspic, for few the welcoming light in a
friend's eye, for fewer yet the resting of God's hand upon the
shoulder . . . for May Beringer it was the memory of Jane Betts.

Here her brain moved curiously, because in some odd way she
connected Agatha Payne with Jane.  Because she never analysed
anything she did not track this down, but dimly in her distressed
mind it came to this, that Agatha Payne wanted to take Jane away
from her.  But that was absurd, because Agatha scarcely knew that
Jane had ever existed.  And yet there it was.  That was the way
that May felt about it.

She realised that Agatha Payne was paying her visits twice daily,
and that there was some reason for these.  She did not as yet
connect them with the piece of red amber.

She had been twice to Mrs. Payne's room and against her will.  She
had felt quite faint there, as though some one were trying to
strangle her.  She had hated the gloom, the half light, the green
picture with the fish.

She never knew what to say to Mrs. Payne.  She trickled a
conversation on ordinary occasions, but here words deserted her.
She always felt at her worst here and overwhelmed with apprehension.
Apprehension of everything, but especially of being without any
money at all, quite alone in the world, dying of starvation,
forgotten, in the room in Pontippy Square.  Sitting in Mrs. Payne's
room she would see this vision and twist her bony hands together on
her lap, struggling with the agony of it.

She could not think why this old woman asked her to come when she
disliked her as she did.  Disliked her!  There was never any
question of that; the malevolent look that she caught sometimes in
Mrs. Payne's eye was witness enough.

To-night Mrs. Payne showed more plainly than ever she had done
before her intentions.  She brewed the tea, very strong and dark,
laid out the two plates with the sweet biscuits, and then, sitting
up at the table and letting the cards fall through her fingers,

"I don't want to be impertinent, Miss Beringer, but do tell me of
your plans."

"Oh, I don't know," said May Beringer, cracking and uncracking her
fingers, "I really don't know.  It's so difficult to say, isn't it?
How can one truly know?  I hope to find some work very shortly."

"What kind of work?" asked Mrs. Payne.

"Companion to some lady, perhaps.  Some old lady, you know, who
can't look after herself.  Some one too old to really care for

"These old women," thought Agatha Payne.  "Strange creatures.
Never realise they are old.  Lucy Amorest just the same.  Think
they'll go on for ever."  She looked at May Beringer in her faded
green dress and cheap string of coral beads, with her untidy hair
and large nose, and was, at that glance, so strangely irritated
that two of the fish came out of the tank and swam slowly, lazily
about the room.  She would like to do that silly old woman a
mischief, apart altogether from the piece of red amber.  Yes, she
would.  She would like to put her rough strong hands about that
skinny neck and squeeze it.  Oh, she would!  She offered May
Beringer another sweet biscuit and said, kicking her heel in the

"But those jobs are rather hard to find, you know--and you're not
as strong as you were."

May Beringer, at the bare mention of the words, felt a shoot of
pain through her limbs, and said:

"No, that's quite true.  But I'm very hale and hearty still.  Still
quite strong.  If the work were not too arduous. . . ."

"Would you sell that piece of red amber you have, if things went

"Oh no.  I shouldn't like to sell that.  I shall never sell it.  It
was given to me by my best friend.  My best friend gave it to me."

"But if you had to sell it. . . ."

"I would rather starve.  I would indeed.  I would rather die of

"It is certainly a beautiful piece."

"Yes, isn't it?  But it is because my great friend gave it me that
I value it.  If she hadn't given it me I shouldn't value it so

"No.  I daresay not.  You lived in Exeter, didn't you, in your

"Yes."  May Beringer sighed as though she were relieved at being in
safety again.  "I was very fond of Exeter."

"I wouldn't like to live in Exeter," said Agatha vigorously; "too

"Oh, it wasn't sleepy in my time, I assure you," said May Beringer.
"Not sleepy at all.  No indeed.  There was so much going on.  All
sorts of things were always happening."

"Really," said Agatha ironically, "I wouldn't have thought it.
What kind of things?"

"Oh, I don't know," said May Beringer vaguely.  "Meeting one's
friends and concerts, and in the summer we had picnics--"

"Picnics!" said Agatha scornfully.

"Yes, beautiful picnics they were too.  We used to have the moors
so close to us and on a fine day--"

She had a strange sense while they were talking all about nothing
that she would fall asleep were she not careful.  Her head was
already nodding.  It was because Agatha Payne's eyes were fixed
upon her so persistently.  The room went round and round.  Then
Agatha said something that woke her very sufficiently.  "Do you
know when you're going to die?"

May Beringer's eyes stared.

"To die?  Oh no!"

"Do you want to know?"

"No, I don't.  I don't want to think about it."

"Ah, you're a coward."  Agatha was slipping the cards swiftly
through her fingers, so that they were like live things.

"No, I'm not."  May Beringer was close to tears.  "But I don't want
to think of it.  It's not a thing you want to think of."

"Why not?  It's coming some time.  That's certain.  It's better for
many.  Take yourself now.  If your money gives out and you don't
get a job, what are you going to do?"

"I don't want to think of it.  Indeed I don't."

"But you ought to think of it.  You ought to make provision.  Who
will you leave your things to?"

"My things?"

"Yes.  Your odds and ends.  That piece of amber, for instance."

"I hadn't thought of it."  Poor May Beringer.  All those
forebodings that so resolutely she kept away from her were now
crowding in.

"Haven't you made a will?" Agatha asked, rattling her cards like

"No.  It didn't seem worth while."

"Well, I should make a will at once.  You never know what will

There was a little pause, then Agatha said again:

"You'd better know when you're going to die.  Try the cards.
They'll tell you."

"Oh no."  May Beringer shrank back in her chair.  "I shouldn't like
that at all.  I shouldn't approve of that.  I don't think we're
meant to know."

"Oh yes, we are."  Agatha's black eyes never left May Beringer's
face.  "Here, draw your chair up to the table.  I'll show you."

"I'd really rather not, thank you.  I have rather a headache.  If
you'll excuse me--"

"Nonsense.  It will interest you.  Come and have a look.  You've
never seen cards done the way I do them."

"I'd really rather not. . . ."

"Come along now."

In another moment May Beringer was sitting up, straight and stiff,
beside the table.  Opposite her, propped up against the wall,
Miranda with unblinking eyes watched them.

Agatha Payne dealt out the cards.  They lay in rows of six on the

"Nothing there," she said, swept them up, shuffled, and dealt

May Beringer stared with agonised intensity.

"There they are.  Six of clubs.  Queen of clubs, four of diamonds.
Ah!  This is you!  Just as I thought.  Eight of spades. . . ."

"Why am I the eight of spades?" May Beringer asked.

"It isn't you who are the eight of spades.  It is the combination
with the other cards.  You're in danger--"

"In danger?" May echoed feebly.

"Yes.  They show it quite distinctly.  I'll deal some more.  Four
of hearts.  Five of diamonds.  Knave of clubs--yes, there you are--
don't you see?  Ten of spades--the ten with the knave of clubs and
five of diamonds.  You're threatened by something very serious

"Oh dear," said May Beringer, drawing back from the table as though
she were afraid that she would contaminate herself by touching the
cards.  "This isn't right.  Really it isn't.  I think I'll go to
bed if you don't mind."

Agatha put her hand on her arm.  "Wait a minute.  Let's see some
more.  We're just coming to the exciting part."  She made a little
pile of cards, a dozen on top of one another.  Then she dealt
another row of six.

"There you are," she said, as the eight of spades appeared.  "Isn't
it extraordinary?  You're in luck tonight.  They are coming out
well.  Now let's see."

She took a card--the king of clubs--from the pile, then another--
the three of spades--yet another--the six of spades.  "All black,"
she said, stroking her lip.  "That settles it."

"Settles what?" asked May Beringer.

"According to the cards you have about a month to live.  Of course
there may be nothing in it.  Still, it's an odd thing."

"It's wicked!" May Beringer cried, trembling all over as she rose
from the table.  "It's absolutely wicked.  You should not do such
things, Mrs. Payne!  They aren't right.  They are against

Mrs. Payne grimly smiled.  "I haven't much use for religion, if you
ask me," she said.  "You should make your will, you should indeed."

But May Beringer had, on occasion, courage.  She pulled herself
together, drew herself up, and said with great dignity:

"Good-night, Mrs. Payne--and thank you for a very pleasant

But in her own room, when her door was closed, she caught Pip to
her breast, and, holding him tightly, burst into a flood of
agitated tears.



On the 3rd of February, in the morning, Lucy Amorest's cousin died.
She had made in January two attempts to see him, but had been no
more successful than on her Christmas visit.

She had been, herself, needing all the courage that she could
muster.  She had not been very well.  She had caught a cold in this
wintry weather, and then there was the house.  What exactly was the
matter with the house she could not be sure, but six months ago it
had been tolerable; now she disliked it so actively that soon she
must leave it even, if needs must, for the highways and hedges.  At
the thought of the highways and hedges she smiled.  She had an odd
sense of humour, all her own, something detached and cynical and
ironic.  Ironic about herself.  She would chuckle sometimes without
a moment's notice in the middle of her undressing or lying awake at
chilly morning hours or reading the Standard, and the chuckle meant
that she was seeing herself from the outside as something very
ludicrous--ludicrous in its own importance about itself, in its
little assumptions of dignity and eagerness and desire.  When she
saw herself in that way she lost all her anxieties and perturbations
of spirit.  So unimportant was she in the general scheme of things
that it was absurd indeed to see how the little creature worried and
fussed.  Fuss and worry! worry and fuss!  Every one at it, every one
trying to get their money's worth, and the one thing that
mattered--the love of God--scarcely entering their heads.

On such detached occasions she felt a human intimate relationship
with Jesus Christ.  That He had a sense of humour she well knew; if
He had not, He would never be able to endure the eternal conceit
and self-absorption of human beings.  It was because He could laugh
a little, seeing with His tenderness and understanding what
children these humans were, that He could be so patient.  She would
never be so patient--and sometimes she was exasperated so keenly
with herself that she could shake herself.  During this month of
January she felt just this half-ironical, half-kindly exasperation
about herself.  She COULD not put the thought of this money out of
her head, and she COULD not feel a proper patience with May
Beringer, and she COULD not have the kindly feelings that she ought
to have towards old Agatha Payne.

Moreover, she had dreadful dark suspicions that she was a good deal
of a snob.  She didn't want to spend the rest of her days with
women like May Beringer and Agatha Payne.  She liked good talk and
laughter and fun.  No one enjoyed a really SILLY time more than she
did.  It was too bad that she must always have her laugh to
herself.  Never mind, when the money came she would go--She pulled
herself up.  There she was again.  Counting her chickens.  She was
ashamed of herself.

She caught her cold on her second visit to her cousin's house.  It
was a biting windy day, and once more the housekeeper talked to her
in the doorway and refused to step aside.  Horrible woman!  Mrs.
Amorest indulged in a nice, warm, consoling, comforting luxury of
dislike on the way home.  She could not abide the woman, and she
was glad that she could not.  She would like to give her a piece of
her mind, and then she chuckled again because she was always such a
failure at giving people pieces of her mind.  She could never
remain indignant for more than two minutes together.  It never
seemed worth while; she saw the ludicrous side of bad temper so
quickly.  Her husband used to say that it was very irritating of
her.  It was never worth while to lose one's temper with her.

She would never have heard of her cousin's death had it not been
for her visit to the grocer's.  Mrs. Conduit, the kind wife of the
grocer, told her.  He had died that morning in his sleep, and was
to be buried on Thursday--service at St. John's--in the May Lane

The news threw her into a terrible agitation.  She did not now
think of the money, but only of the way that he had stroked her
hair, falling asleep.  Poor Cousin Francis!  He had looked at her
so kindly on that last visit.  He had meant always to be kind, but
it had been so wretched and gloomy for him in that large ugly
house, always ill, always suffering.  She shed tears in her room,
sitting in front of the tiny fire thinking of him.

There was another thought waiting for her, but she kept it back.
Her own loneliness.  Her last relation was gone.  She had no
relations now and no friends in the whole world, save only her boy.
The last of the family was gone.  There were others perhaps
somewhere, but she had long lost sight of them and they of her.
The world was a large place to be alone in, but she prevented that
thought from reaching her, keeping it behind her.  Nevertheless, it
was there with her in the room.  She could not drive it out.  She
did not sleep at all that night, lying there during the hours that
crept one by one to her bedside, nodded at her and stole off again.
She read her Bible and her Prayer Book, but she could not bring
them close to her.  The house with its silent mutterings was all
alive around her.  Strange doors closed and opened, steps were on
the stair, walls whispered.  Her candle guttered, flamed upwards,
died, and she had not another.  Her room was very cold, and the
dawn would never come.  Mrs. Bloxam found her wide-eyed and
shivering at eight o'clock.

Nevertheless, with the morning her spirit returned.  Francis was
happier now in Paradise, away from that unfriendly dwelling-place
and his sufferings over.  She liked to think of him in Paradise,
his surprise at what he found there, his wide-eyed astonishment at
the kindliness and the fun, the laughter and the flowers.

He would be young again, and instead of the grasping and acidulated
Greenacre there would be St. Michael and all the angels.  He would
be no longer naked and alone.  He would worry no more about his
money, he would have finer things to think about.  He would not be
suspicious and imagine that people were making a fuss of him simply
for what they could get out of him.

He would be learning, too, the beauties of service.  He would be
doing things for others.  The angels would soon be setting him to
jobs that would be new for him indeed.  He would not like them at
first.  He would feel that he was wasting his time, and then, as
happiness came flooding in, he would see that that was the only way
TO be happy.  When he saw that, what a change it would make in him!
He simply would not be the same man.

She amused herself with these thoughts, and saw it all so truly
that any unhappiness she might have had about his fate left her--he
was far better off than he had ever been.

The next thing was--what should she do about the funeral?  Go, of
course, although no card had been sent her; no word even of his
death had yet come to her.  She did not mind that.  They were too
busy to think of her.  But--what should she wear?  She had a black
dress, but it was so shabby, so faded that it would never do.  Her
grey silk was all that she had, and that would seem too gay at a
funeral.  But there was a black silk scarf given her many years ago
by a friend; and her bonnet of dark purple; and her black gloves.

She would like to send some flowers, but the thought that this
might seem ostentatious and pushing restrained her.  She bought on
the Thursday morning a bunch of early snowdrops, and thought that
she would have an opportunity of putting them on the grave.

Thursday was a lovely day, one of those February days that come in
Glebeshire and seem to promise an immediate bountiful spring.  The
sky was clear-washed to a blue that was almost white; clouds,
fragments of faintest lawn, floated so lightly that they seemed to
be blown, as in a children's game, from place to place.  The woods
that fringed the hills were shadowed the most delicate rose, and
behind the shadows were softly dark, like velvet.  The air was
clear and still, so that the shouts of children and the barking of
dogs and the rattle of wheels could be distinctly heard.

She found the walk up to St. John's a climb.  This was a dark
stuffy church with heavy green windows, stony-faced cherubs, and a
shining cold floor.  She slipped in at the back, unnoticed.  She
was surprised at the number of people present.  She had thought of
him always as a lonely man with no friends, but the church was
quite full.  There was a subdued murmur of voices and much moving
of heads to see who was who.

At first she knew no one, and then she saw Mr. Neilson, her banker,
and then Mr. Agnew, the kind little solicitor, with his bald shiny
head and broad resolute back.  In spite of herself, at the sight of
him, her heart beat.  He, in all probability, knew the contents of
Cousin Francis's will, and he seemed to her for the moment to be
the arbiter of all the fates and destinies of the world.

Then she saw Miss Greenacre, darkened with a thick black veil, come
slowly up the aisle.  The coffin was in front of the altar covered
with flowers.  The organ began to play and the choir filed in.  The
sun seemed to blow in gusts through the green windows and to run in
patterns up and down the floor.  It was very cold, and smelt as
though the church were always closed.

She could not attend to the service.  Her confidence about Cousin
Francis's happiness was gone.  It was so lonely for him.  She could
not drive from her consciousness the feeling that it was he who was
there in that coffin.  She knew, of course, that it was not so.  It
was only the worthless clay; but the chilliness and the green light
and all the casual black heads of the indifferent people depressed
her so that soon she was crying between the fingers of her worn
black gloves.  A stout man next her pushed and heaved as though he
were wishing for release, and the organ went on wailing like a
peevish child.

Outside, when they started to walk to the cemetery, it was better.
Although they moved slowly they were soon in the lanes above Orange
Street, and here it was very beautiful.  The trees were bare, but
you could feel their happiness at the consciousness of the strong
sap that was pouring through their veins.  The sky was as clear as
egg-shell china, and once and again there was a break in the hedge
showing fields as fresh as watered silk.  How incongruous that
black, slow, silent procession!  The carriages crawled reluctantly;
in subdued voices the mourners spoke.  Lucy Amorest walked nearly
at the last.  No one had addressed a word to her that day.

When they turned into the cemetery they were on the hillside, and
all the valley of the Pol lay below them.  On the side of the hill
opposite to them was the grim stone house, a speck in the distance,
that had been Cousin Francis's home.  It looked so unimportant now
beside the gay shining beauty of the town that sprawled on the
hillside, and over all the Cathedral sailed, in the clear light,
away, away, away, so lightly set that it seemed that another tug of
the wind would release it and send it flying to heaven.

They crowded about the open grave.  The clergyman, thin and peaked,
his surplice blowing in the breeze, said the last words.  The
coffin was lowered.  Words were indistinct, and human beings
unimportant.  Mrs. Amorest could not see the grave; she caught
fragments of the white surplice, and, clutching in her glove the
snowdrops, felt that she had not courage to step forward and throw
them down on to the coffin.  No one regarded her.  She was as
though she had never existed.  They did not know that he had
stroked her hair and said that she was better than all the others.
Well, it did not matter.  He knew and she knew.  He was aware now
that she had tried to see him and had been prevented.  There was
now an understanding between them as there had never been when he
was alive.  Miss Greenacre was of no further importance; she could
not come between them any more.

She walked back very slowly as the afternoon light gathered in, but
she was not unhappy.  She was very glad that she had been able to
go, and she gave the snowdrops to a little street child who stared
at her with wide-open eyes, too deeply astonished to thank her.

Four days later she received this letter from the little bald-
headed solicitor:

DEAR MRS. AMOREST--I wonder whether you will be passing one morning
and could look in and see me for a moment.  I have something that I
should like to discuss with you if you have time to give me.--I beg
to remain, yours sincerely,

                                                JOHN H. AGNEW.

Time to give him!  The letter shook in her hand.  Time to give him!
The crisis of all her life had come.  The breakfast things on the
table were dim, the rose-coloured furniture, the shadowed, misty
air.  Only, through the haze, looking up, she saw distinctly Agatha
Payne in the doorway staring at her.

It was so obvious that important news had come to her that she did
not attempt to disguise it.  But faintly behind her agitation she
felt an anger that had been piling up in her breast for days at the
way that Agatha Payne had now of coming into her room uninvited and
unheralded.  Whether the woman made a pretence of knocking or no
she could not tell, but look up and there she would be in her old
dirty purple gown leaning against the wall.  She had apparently now
a great purpose of showing herself friendly, but active
friendliness did not come easily from her.  What was the old woman
about?  This morning she was direct enough.  She said at once,
coming to the table and pointing with her thick, shapeless finger:

"You've had a letter about the money?"

Then, as Mrs. Amorest said nothing, she went on in her thick,
guttural voice, "I know he died nearly a week ago.  You went to the
funeral.  So you needn't try to hide it from me."

"Hide it from you," Lucy Amorest said, looking up.  "I wasn't
trying to do that.  Why should I?"

Indeed her excitement was so great that she did not, at the moment,
mind Agatha Payne knowing anything she pleased.  Nevertheless she
would not have her coming into the room like that without so much
as a knock.

"Would you mind, dear," she said, smiling, but speaking with
firmness, "knocking before you come in?  It is pleasanter, don't
you think, for both of us?"

But Agatha Payne had not heard.  She had one hand pressed to her
bosom and with the other she was still pointing.

"What does he say in the letter?  Does he say that you've got the

"He says I'm to go and see him," Mrs. Amorest answered.  "It may
not be about the money at all."

"Of course it is.  What else should he want to see you about?
Aren't you in luck?  Well, I never!  Whatever will you do with it

Then, after a little pause, she added, "When are you going to see

"I shall go this morning, I think.  I may as well."

"I should think you'd better.  I couldn't wait a minute if it was
me."  She stared at Mrs. Amorest as though she would devour her.
She slowly sucked her fingers, one after another.  Then she
withdrew to the door.

"I shall like to know," she said, "what he says to you."

"Oh, I daresay," answered Mrs. Amorest brightly, "that it won't be
anything at all."

But in her heart she knew that, were that so, she would suffer
great disappointment.  Her knees trembled as she felt her way down
the dark old stairs of the house.  Her heart thumped as though it
would hammer her body to pieces.  All the scene was dark before

Mr. Agnew the solicitor lived in Hampden Street near the Market-
place and to the left of Orange Street.  It was a dark, poky little
street, but it debouched on to a twist of the Pol which, in the
unexpected way that it had, sauntered into the city and then
hurried out to the hills and fields again.  Mr. Agnew's number was
nine, and his office was on the third floor.  At the bottom of the
stairs she rested.  Did her heart not beat less wildly she thought
that she would never reach the top.  It was amazing that ordinary
life should push so tumultuously around her.  A boy passed the
door, whistling.  A man with a cart cried out that he had
vegetables to sell.  The Cathedral bells began to ring.  A donkey
hee-hawed, a child cried, and the sun flickered in pools about the
stairs.  All this as though nothing tremendous were happening to
her at all.  She laughed at herself then and the laugh helped her
forward.  How absurd of her to imagine that her affairs mattered to
anybody!  After all these years even that simple lesson was not yet

She climbed the stairs and knocked on the door that had "Agnew &
Pace, Solicitors," upon its glass.

"Come in," said some one.

She went in, and a young boy wearing a bright blue tie, a large
horseshoe pin, and a very confident air asked her what she wanted.

"Mr. Agnew wrote to me," she said timidly, "and asked me to come
and see him."

"Would you mind giving me your name, ma'am?" said the bright young

"Mrs. Amorest is my name."

"I'll tell Mr. Agnew.  He's engaged at the moment.  Would you take
a seat, please?"

Mrs. Amorest sat down, but it was terribly hard to wait.  To be so
near and yet to be kept without information.  The room was so cold
and so hard, with a map of England on one shining wall and a
photograph of Polchester Cathedral on the other, and the young man
working so earnestly at the table.  All so quiet that the clock on
the mantelpiece seemed the only live thing there.

At last the bell rang, and the young man said very politely, "Will
you go in now, ma'am, if you please?"

For a horrible moment she was afraid lest her knees should refuse
to support her.  She did tremble for an instant when she stood,
then bravely she moved forward.  She was reassured when she saw the
kindly smiling face of Mr. Agnew.  He surely could have nothing but
good news for her when he smiled at her like that.  He came forward
to meet her, shook her by the hand, set out a chair for her.  He
was a short stumpy man with a broad back.  His broad back and
round, shining bald head were the two features that, on every
occasion, freshly astonished Mrs. Amorest.

"Well, that is good of you," he said in his warm friendly voice--
but his words were always a little measured, as though he had to
pay for each one and was determined not to be extravagant.  "I do
hope that it has been no trouble for you to come in and see me?"

"No trouble, thank you," said Mrs. Amorest, trembling in spite of

"Really, the weather is very pleasant," he went on, rubbing his
hands cheerfully together.  "Very pleasant, indeed."

"Yes," said Mrs. Amorest, smiling faintly.

"And one's always taken in afresh," he went on.  "That's the
curious thing.  Always believes spring's arriving, although of
course it can't be so early in the year.  And then back the frost
comes and all the buds are nipped and the flowers ruined."

"Yes.  It is strange," Mrs. Amorest admitted.

"What I say is," went on Mr. Agnew, smiling broadly and showing two
splendid rows of white teeth, "that the climate's changing.  To my
mind there can be no doubt of it--no doubt at all.  Permanently, I
mean.  They say it's the icebergs--and I shouldn't wonder.  Tricky
things, icebergs.  Ever been to America, Mrs. Amorest?"

"No, never."

"Well, I remember a voyage I took over there to see about some
client's affairs--when was it?  Let me see, in '82, I think--or was
it '83?  Never mind. . . .  Whenever it was, we got into the thick
of those beastly things.  Pretty they were.  Green like glass.  But
dangerous!  My word!  The Captain didn't have his clothes off for
three days and nights.  Lucky we were to come through as we did."

"You must have been alarmed," said Mrs. Amorest.

"Yes, we were.  Icebergs and fogs.  Those are the things you have
to look out for at sea.  All the same we had a good Captain.
That's the principal thing.  Queer place, America.  Well, well . . ."

He stood there smiling, rubbing his hands together, and Mrs.
Amorest sat in her chair, also smiling and rubbing HER hands
together.  In spite of herself she felt faint.  She could not see
the room clearly and she was very cold.

"I do really hope it's been no trouble to you coming to see me."

"Oh, none at all, Mr. Agnew."

"Well, that's good.  That's fine.  Let me see--where were we?  Oh
yes!  Quite so.  Quite so."

He stood over his table fingering papers.  He picked them up and
put them down.  "Oh yes!"  He drew himself up and looked towards
her.  "What I asked you to come and see me about, Mrs. Amorest, was
just this.  Your cousin Francis Bulling's death was very sad.  Very
sad, indeed.  But he'd been ailing for a long time.  You were not
at the funeral, I think?"

"I was there."

"Oh, you were!  Indeed!  I call that wonderful of you, such a climb
as it is up to that cemetery.  A terrible business for catching a
cold, a funeral, especially in the winter-time.  I would hardly
have expected you to be present.  I always say that one funeral
means a dozen."  He looked up, smiling broadly.  "But I'm glad
you're none the worse.  I am, indeed."

She waited, her hands folded on her lap.

"Where were we?  Oh yes, it was about his will that I asked you to
drop in.  The fact is that he's left you something expressly by

"That was very good of him," said Mrs. Amorest.

"Yes, he was a good-natured man, Francis Bulling, at heart.  He
didn't like to show his feelings.  That's a British trait to hide
our feelings.  Most of us are the same that way, and I must say I
think it's a pity.  Many of us are not given credit for the
feelings we have got.  Now the French are supposed to be all
feeling, but I assure you that at heart I'd back an Englishman
every time.  Very superficial, the French."

"Yes," said Mrs. Amorest.

"Now to come to the point.  I'll read you what he says--'To my
cousin, Lucy Amorest, I would wish to leave some personal
possession of mine that she may choose, that she may keep it and
remember me by it.'  There you are.  That's exactly what the will
says.  He's done the same to several others, his housekeeper Miss
Greenacre and one or two more.  It shows that he had more feeling
than appeared at first sight."

Mrs. Amorest said nothing.

"The executors selected a few things, and to save you trouble I
have one or two here in the office.  If none of them strike you as
very inviting, then you might like to go up to the house and choose
something there.  But they seemed to me very serviceable--very
serviceable, indeed.  There's an especially fine ink-pot and . . .
but you shall see for yourself."

He rang his bell.  The smart boy appeared in the doorway.

"Just bring in those things of Mr. Bulling's, Charlie.  They are in
that farther cupboard.  Carefully now.  Carefully.  We don't want
anything broken."

Charlie reappeared, his arms loaded.  He placed the things, very
reverently, on the table in front of Mr. Agnew.  There was a large
and very heavy inkstand, a blue leather writing-case, an ivory
paper-knife with a silver handle, a small silver match-box, and a
glass paper-weight stamped with red and blue flowers.

"Now, Mrs. Amorest," said Mr. Agnew cheerfully, "here they are.
And do tell us quite honestly if none of these strike your fancy.
There are plenty of other things up at the house, but I thought we
might save you the trouble of a journey.  The point after all is to
have something to remember him by--something you'll have on the
table in front of you."

"I think," said Mrs. Amorest quietly, "I should like the match-

"Would you, indeed?" said Mr. Agnew heartily.  "Well, I must say
that seems to me a very wise choice.  I agree with you.  It's small--
takes up very little room, and it's altogether a handsome affair.
Francis Bulling used it himself thousands of times, I've no doubt
at all."  He rang the bell again.

"Charlie, just wrap this up in paper for Mrs. Amorest, will you?
She'll take it along with her."

There was silence while Charlie wrapped up the match-box.  Mrs.
Amorest said nothing, but sat there, without moving, her hands
folded.  Mr. Agnew was uncomfortable.  He did not know why.  He,
who was never at a loss, had nothing to say.  He had expected
that the old lady would be pleased that her cousin should have
remembered her.  But she was always quiet; never showed what she
was feeling.  Nice old lady.  One of the old kind that were getting
rarer.  Like the climate, people were changing.  Every one
levelling up.  He couldn't say that he liked it.  Much harder to
get good clerks now than it used to be.  Ah, there was Charlie with
the parcel.

"That's right.  That's right.  Sure you've got everything?  Mind
you come in and see me if there's ever anything I can do for you.
Only too delighted.  Good-day.  That's the door.  Then down three
flights.  Do hope it hasn't tired you."

After she was gone he stood at his window looking out upon the sun-
dappled Pol, the shining field, the houses with their red-brown
flanks rejoicing in the unexpected warmth.  She was old.  Hard on
one to be as alone in the world as that at her age.  Nice old lady,
too.  He felt the bulging muscle of his arm, smiled, and went to
his work.



Deep down in her cellar Agatha Payne was working.  She was working
with an energy, an enthusiasm, a fidelity to her new ambition that
she had not known for years.  She had now a purpose.  She saw,
glittering through the thick and misted cellar light, the sheen
and splendour of the most beautiful treasure of the world--HER
treasure, her gold and ruby amber, hers, always hers, stolen from
her by that long, thin, ridiculous old maid whom she could frighten
by a whisper, terrify with a chuckle.

She liked so to terrify.  It gave her hot and sensuous pleasure
when she saw the cheeks of that foolish old woman blanch; her heart
beat thick when she saw tears tremble on those red-rimmed weak
eyelids.  Ah! she would make them fall before she had done!

And so her two pleasures went arm in arm together!  She could lead
them both by the hand--her lust for power and her lust for that
piece of liquid ruby, that stout-set, bold, and scornful dragon
standing so firmly on his amber pedestal.

She was awake as she had not been for years.  All her energies were
active.  No more lazy lying in her old chair tossing her scarlet
slipper in the air, no more crumbling of nougat out of its paper
packet, no more half-dreamy watching the silver-finned fish as they
sailed with gaping jaws about the room.  She had work to do, and
work that must not wait.

The first thing that must be ascertained was the time when old Lucy
Amorest would receive her money.  Everything depended on that.
Once the old fool was in command of it, very little further effort
would be needed.  She would ask for a loan of twenty, thirty,
fifty, a hundred pounds.  The old thing would not refuse it; she
was a foolish old woman always wanting to give something away.

There was a trouble, then, that that long stick of a Beringer would
not wish to sell.  A present from a friend, she had said--her
dearest friend.  She could soon be frightened into changing her
mind.  The time would come when she would promise anything in order
to be free.  To be free of what?  Of terror and dismay.  That she
and her wretched dog might go to sleep at nights without a sudden
waking.  There was only a thin wall between the one room and the
other.  So much could be done with a thin wall at midnight!

But she did not, as yet, plan anything very terrible.  Only a
little fun, entering into it with something of the spirit with
which one boy bullies another, even with a sort of good humour.
But she must have the red amber.  It was hers, had been hers long
before the Beringer woman had seen it.  Centuries ago her fingers
had closed around its firm cold sides, felt its beating strength,
watched the light slip and coil and unfurl about its heart.  It had
been hers since the beginning of time, and It knew it.

Her impatience on the morning after Mrs. Amorest's visit to her
solicitor was urgent.  She could not keep quiet, but was dressed
before Mrs. Bloxam came in with her breakfast.

"Poor Mrs. Hamorest!" said Mrs. Bloxam.  "She's 'ad a bad night.
Couldn't sleep a wink, she tells me."  Then she looked at Mrs.
Payne with mild surprise:  "You're up early, ma'am."

Although she was not naturally very sharp, her interest in the old
ladies quickened her observation, and afterwards, when events
forced her to look back, she recorded to interested friends her
distinct impression that "things had been going on.  She looked
different, all sharp like, and as though she was listenin' for
something.  She was a queer one, that old Mrs. Payne.  Not quite
right in 'er 'ead, a long way back, if you ask me."

Mrs. Payne indeed was very sharp this morning, and it was not long
before she was fumbling with the handle of Mrs. Amorest's door.  On
entering, she suffered quite a shock of surprise at that old lady's
appearance.  She was not given to thinking of others, especially
when, as now, she was herself driven by one dominating desire, but
even her almost crazy egotism was pierced by the forlorn, sick
appearance that Mrs. Amorest presented.

She had not been expecting a visitor, and she sat listlessly at her
table, her hands in front of her, her eyes fixed on some distant

She had always, when Mrs. Payne had seen her, presented a brave
front to the world, and something deeply hidden in Mrs. Payne's
better part had subconsciously admired that.  She was not, however,
now moved to any kindness or pity.  Her only thought was of the

"Good morning," she said huskily.

Mrs. Amorest looked up, and, seeing her, passed her hand over her
eyes as though she would drive from them some unwanted vision.

"Good morning, Agatha," she said gently.

"I came in," Agatha said huskily, moving towards the table, "to ask
you about the money.  Is it all right?"

"The money?"

"Yes--the money your cousin left you."

"I was wrong about that.  He hasn't left me any money."

"He hasn't--?"

"No.  He didn't do what he said he would.  I was silly to believe
in it."

"He's left you nothing?"

"Something of his to remember him by.  I chose a little thing of
his--his match-box."

"And that's all?"

"Yes.  Why should he?  I was only his cousin.  It was very kind of
him to think of me."

"Then he cheated you."

"Oh, no.  I cheated myself.  It was only one day he was feeling
kindly.  I happened to be there.  He would have said it to any one
else who was kind to him."

"I say he cheated you."  Agatha Payne's voice was hoarse with
anger.  "He said he'd give it to you.  He made a solemn promise.
May he rot in hell, I say."

Mrs. Amorest was frightened.  She had known for a long time that
the woman was queer, but there was something about that tall, fat,
shapeless figure standing now right over her, something in those
staring black eyes and that deep reverberating voice that filled
her with a new alarm.  The woman was mad.  Mrs. Amorest wanted to
be alone.  What had any one else to do with her affairs?  She must
think things out.  She was face to face with the sharpest crisis of
her life.  But it was her crisis.  No one else had anything to do
with it.  Why should it be of importance to Agatha Payne whether
she had her money or no?  She felt, too, in the last fierce words
that the woman had used, some sudden obtrusion from another world
of experience that had not been, and never could be, her own.  She
had called her Agatha and had been called by her Lucy, but she had
been always aware that there could be no real contact between them.
And now she seemed to see, in a flash of revelation, that Agatha
Payne's past had been worlds away from her most esoteric
imagination.  There were twists of a life that was as strange to
her as the manners and customs of the natives of Central Africa.

"It's kind of you to be interested, Agatha," she said; "but there's
nothing more to be said about it.  It was only an idea that I had
that he might leave me something.  I shouldn't have spoken to you
about it."

"No, you should not."  The other woman turned savagely upon her.
"Making me believe things that were not true.  It's wicked--a
wicked shame.  And you'll pay for it.  No one's deceived me yet and
not paid for it.  You just wait."

She threw up her head as though she would spit upon her, then half-
lurched, half-stumbled from the room.  Back in her own place she
cursed and swore like the old gipsy that she was.  That mild, milk-
faced old woman had taken her in, pretending this and pretending
that.  Just to make herself more important.  She had always known
that no money was coming to her.  Talked like that to amuse
herself.  Amuse herself!  She'd amuse her before she was finished
with her!  Her knees were trembling and she flopped into her chair.
The fish came out of the tank and swam, circling about her head.
Miranda, like some familiar spirit, sat and watched her, her beady
eyes fixed in some sort of grim satisfaction upon her plight.  The
sharp pain constricted about her head, binding it ever and ever
more tightly.  Then, slowly, it withdrew.  Thoughts moved clearly
and steadily once more through the air that was now cooler and the
light that was now stronger.  Mrs. Amorest faded into dim
background.  But more powerfully than ever before the piece of red
amber shone before her eyes.  What is this lust of possession, this
ache and longing for the absolute power of dominion?  Napoleon
moving towards Moscow, Philip II. stretching his fingers over the
Netherlands, the vineyard of Naboth, Marie Antoinette and her fatal
necklace, Piemente and the box of moidores, Agatha Payne and her
piece of red amber--the soul alone knoweth its secret tyrannies.

She sat there all day until evening.

She sprawled back in her chair and saw it gleaming there on her
mantelpiece in front of her.  Surely it was there!  She knew now
its every shade and glitter and trembling light.  Well, if there
was to be no money there was the other way.  The Beringer woman
should give it to her whether she wanted or no--yes, if she must
wring that scraggy old neck to get it.

She got up at last and made herself some cocoa, then moved out
towards May Beringer's room.

She stayed outside the door and gave two knocks, one loud and
abrupt, the other soft, an echo of the first.  While she stood
there, a smile was on her lips.  That will make her jump.  THAT
will make her jump.  She's frightened now.  She knows it's me.  And
her dog is frightened.  He knows too.  He's under the bed.  On her
side of the door she fancied that she could hear the other woman's
frightened breathing, sharp and hurried.  She's standing there with
her head on one side, waiting.  She hopes I'll go away.  She's
praying that I will.

Then she knocked again, loudly.

"Come in," said the whisper of a voice.

She pushed open the door and went in with jollity, laughing.
"Well, Miss Beringer, and how are you finding yourself?  I thought
I'd pay you a little call.  I've just drunk my cup of cocoa, and
half an hour's talk with you before going to bed will do me good."

She moved across the room as though she owned it, and pulling out
the roomiest chair plumped down in it.  She sat in her accustomed
attitude, one knee over the other.  Her eyes were fixed on the red
amber that now was in shadow and glowed a smouldering ruby.  That
was the pedestal; the dragon stood translucent gold.

May Beringer, untidy, confused, stood like an owl bewildered by
unexpected light.  Her hand was at her thin bony breast.

"I'm not so well, thank you," she said.  She looked indeed to-day
infinitely old and worn.  "I haven't been sleeping too well."  She
broke then, with a kind of hurried speech as though she had but
little time, into a most eager appeal.  "Mrs. Payne, tell me--why
are you persecuting me like this?  Why do you come to my room?  Why
did you knock on my wall last night?  I haven't done anything to
harm you.  I haven't hurt you in any way.  I never saw you before I
came here.  I never interfered with you.  I know it's silly of me
to go on like this, but I haven't been sleeping--" she broke off.
She had been struggling with her tears.  They came now trickling
through her hands that she pressed to her face.  She collapsed on
to a chair and sat there, her head forward.

Mrs. Payne said nothing.  The dog appeared from under the bed.
After hesitating a moment he came forward slowly and pressed
himself, all huddled up, against his mistress's foot.  She looked
up and went on slowly, jabbing a rather dirty handkerchief against
her nose:

"I know it's silly of me to go on like this.  It's foolish of me
and weak, I know.  But I'm really not well.  If I don't get my
sleep my health always suffers.  You must excuse me.  I'm not so
young as I used to be.  I've been feeling much older this winter.
But won't you leave me alone?  I've done you no harm."

Agatha Payne was savouring an exquisite and delicious pleasure as
she watched her.  It was not a pleasure of cruelty nor of passion,
but rather of power, and also of a deep consciousness of sensation.
She almost liked May Beringer as she sat there snivelling; a very
little more, and she could have gone and put her arms around her
and comforted her.  But she had not known many sensations in the
last year or two--only her cards and her food and her cup of cocoa.

She was happy now as she had not been for many a day.

At last she spoke in her strange bass voice, deep like a man's.

"You are imagining things," she said.  "You are ill.  The cards
said you were going to be."

"That's it," May Beringer broke out.  "Why did you show them to me?
What made you?  I know I'm silly if you put things into my head.  I
always was as a girl.  I've been like that ever since I was a
child.  I'm not going to die.  I'm not going to die.  I'm not going
to die!"

Her voice was almost a scream.

"The cards said so," Agatha Payne answered slowly.  "I didn't make
them come as they did."

Miss Beringer turned and looked at the other woman with a
considering gaze as though she were seeing her for the first time.
"Why do you hate me?  I've never done you any harm.  You came here.
I didn't ask you to come."

"I came because I wanted to be kind to you, because I thought you
were lonely."

"I'm not lonely," May Beringer broke out desperately.  "I'm not at
all.  I don't want anybody.  I can get on by myself."

"I like you," said Agatha Payne, smiling.  "I like to be with you.
I enjoy our little talks.  Perhaps I'm the lonely one."

"No, you're not," said May Beringer excitedly.  "You're not lonely
at all.  But you want to tease me and frighten me.  And you want
something else.  You want my piece of amber."

Mrs. Payne said nothing.

"That's what you want.  You can't deny it.  But you won't have it,
however much you want it.  I'll put the police after you if you
take it.  I'll have you put in prison.  Yes, I will.  I'll have you
put in prison."

She was in a state of terrible excitement.

"Who says that I want it?" said Agatha Payne quietly.  "You have
strange ideas in your head.  You are ill.  You should see a

May Beringer made a great effort at control.  She sat, staring in
front of her, as though she were summoning all her forces to her
aid.  At last more quietly she said:

"Yes, I am ill--at least not well.  My back is very painful."  Then
she added with real dignity:  "I think we can't be friends.  We are
too unlike one another.  I am an old woman now, and it's too late
to change myself.  And I'm easily frightened.  Perhaps at nothing.
I don't know.  But I do ask you not to come and visit me any more."

"When you're ill," said Mrs. Payne, "in bed and can't move, you'll
want somebody.  You'll be glad to see me, perhaps."

"I'm not going to be ill.  Do you hear?  I'm not going to be ill.
I know you want me to be ill.  You're wishing me to be ill now.
But I won't be ill.  You want me to die, and then you can have the
piece of amber; but I'm not going to die.  It's only my back.  That
will be better tomorrow, and I'm going to sleep even though you do
knock on the wall."

"Knock on the wall!" repeated Agatha Payne scornfully.  "Who says I
knock on the wall?"

"You do!  You know you do!" May Beringer cried, rising to her feet.
She pointed to the door.  "I don't want you in here.  You are not
to come again.  It's my room.  I can have whom I like.  I forbid
you to come any more."

Agatha Payne nodded her head.  "I shall come when I like," she
said.  "You can't stop me."  Then she added slowly:  "But if you'll
give me that piece of amber I won't come any more."

May Beringer snatched it from the mantelpiece as though she feared
that it would vanish from before her face.  "Nobody shall have it,"
she said.  "It's the only thing I've got."

Agatha Payne rose slowly and went to the door.  "We'll see," she
said.  "We'll see."

There was no knocking on the wall that night, and May Beringer fell
into a strange, heavy, confused sleep in which dreams were for ever
forming a tapestry of illusion near her, showing her their sombre
and kindling colour but always distant and indistinct.  The piece
of amber was there, and Jane Betts and Pip, and behind these a dark
lowering sense of danger.

She did not wake when Mrs. Bloxam brought her her tea, and it was
midday when that kind woman finally roused her with a shake on the
shoulder, telling her that the sun was shining and that she had
brought her a fresh cup, not wishing to disturb her earlier, she
seemed so "proper drowsy."

She awoke with a great start, sitting up in bed with a consciousness
that something terrible had happened to her.  What was it?  Ah,
of course she knew.  She must escape from here.  Dreadful danger
was hanging over her head.  She must be away. . . .  But how? when?
where?  While Mrs. Bloxam was scattering about the room, making
things a little brighter and more comfortable, she was endeavouring
to compose her brain.  She sat up in bed, her hands to her head.
Her brain worked so slowly now.  She could not see clearly.  Things
would not hang together.  But one fact was plain.  She must leave
this house, and at once.  She could not be another night under
the same roof with that terrible wicked woman.  And she must escape
secretly.  No one must know.  Otherwise that woman would find out
where she had gone and would follow her.  She must return to St.
Lennan, the place that she ought never to have left, to her old
friend with whom she had lodged for so long.  She would find work
there.  There must be something that she could do, even though it
were only to sweep the floor.  Were her back not so painful there
were many things that she could do.  She seemed filled with energy
under the impulse of her terror.  If only she might escape from this
house never to see its walls again!  She was now in a fever of
agitation.  She seemed to be in a moment practical and far-seeing.
When did the trains go to St. Lennan?  The day was moving on.  The
afternoons at this time of the year were very short.  She must be
away before dusk.  She was out of bed and moving rapidly about the
room, a strange figure, with her long sloping body, her loosened
grey hair, moving restlessly from spot to spot in her grey flannel
nightdress and her old bedroom slippers.

"Why, miss, whatever is the matter?" Mrs. Bloxam asked, realising
her agitation.

"Mrs. Bloxam," Miss Beringer said, catching the other's stout arm,
"have you got such a thing as a timetable about you?"

"About me, miss?" said Mrs. Bloxam, slapping her dirty apron.  "No,
miss, I can't say as I 'ave."

"Do you think you could get one for me?"

"A time-table, miss?"  Mrs. Bloxam was all eyes.  "Why, you'll
catch your death o' cold wandering about like that, miss.  'Ere,
let me get you your woolly waistcoat.  A time-table?  Well, I'm
sure I don't know.  A local, miss?"

"Yes.  A Glebeshire one."

"Well, I'm sure I don't know.  Mrs. Carstairs next door might 'ave

"Do go and see.  Won't you?  Please.  Do go and see whether you can
get one.  A Glebeshire one.  All the trains in Glebeshire.  It's so
important.  At once.  Now.  Please.  Please."

"At once, miss?  And your fire ain't lit and you 'aven't drunk a
drop of your tea."

"Oh, never mind about that.  Please don't bother about that.  If
you'd only go at once."

"Well, I'm sure.  Why?  Are you going away, miss?"

"Yes I am.  I must.  I'm not well here.  I must go away at once.
And, Mrs. Bloxam, I'll pay you your wages up to the end of the
week.  I'm so sorry to leave you.  You've been so kind to me.  But
I have to go away--at once.  Without losing a minute."

"Well, miss, I'm sure--It don't matter about the bit of wages, but
going out on an afternoon like this, and you as delicate as you are--
I shouldn't like--"

"It's all right.  It is, really.  It's perfectly all right.  I'm
going to friends."

"But whatever will you do about your things?  You can't take them
all with you sudden-like."

"I'll send for them.  I'll give you an address to send them to.
But please, please get me a time-table.  And don't say a word to
anybody.  Not a word.  I do beg you not to say a word to anybody."

Miss Beringer had been pouring all this forth in an agitated
whisper, looking at every instant towards the door as though
expecting it to open and reveal the hated figure.

Mrs. Bloxam patted her on the shoulder.  "There, there.  Don't you
worry.  I'll get you the time-table."

After she was gone May Beringer dressed, pulling on her clothes as
though she had but a moment to escape, and talking, as was her
habit, in the same agitated whisper to Pip, who followed her every
movement with nervous, anxious eyes.

"We mustn't stay, Pip.  We mustn't, indeed.  She'll do us some harm
if we do.  She'll do us both harm.  You know you're as afraid of
her as I am.  She hates us both, Pip, and she wants to steal our
things.  She's a bad woman, Pip.  She'd be a thief if she could.
She's a bad, wicked woman.  But she's not going to get what she
wants.  We'll get out of her way and go back to our friends, who'll
be so glad to see us, and you'll be able to have exercise as you
ought to and run on the sands again.  You'll like that, won't you,
Pip--and we won't be frightened any more.  If only my back didn't
hurt, Pip, we could have such a good time.  Perhaps it will be
better when we are beside the sea again.  The sea air always did us
good, didn't it, Pip?"

When Mrs. Bloxam returned, May Beringer was wearing her hat and was
quite ready to go out.

"Have you got it, Mrs. Bloxam?" she asked in a whisper.

"Yes, miss, I've got it.  It's an old one.  Last November.  But I
daresay the trains are the same."

"I expect they are."  She clutched at the little green flimsy time-
table and began eagerly to turn the pages.

"Here we are."  She read down the page.  "Yes, there's a train at
3.30.  There are very few trains.  I mustn't miss that one.  It
seems to be the last.  Three-thirty, and it's now quarter past two.
That will do very nicely."

"What will you be doing about your bag, miss?  You can't carry it
all that way by yourself."

"Oh no, Mrs. Bloxam.  I shall only take this small bag, and I'll
catch the omnibus at the corner of Malpas Street.  That will be
quite easy.  And now, Mrs. Bloxam, I do beg of you not to say a
word to anybody--in any case not to-day.  Will you promise me

"Yes, miss, I promise."

"And I'll write to you from where I'm going, so that you can send
the other things on.  And here's your money."

She opened her old faded green purse and counted out the money.
Then followed a very touching little scene, Mrs. Bloxam begging her
to keep it until she could afford to pay her, or at least until the
end of her journey, but May Beringer was firm.  Mrs. Bloxam must be
paid.  They then shook hands.

"I'm sure, miss, I wish you every kind of good fortune," Mrs.
Bloxam said.

"Thank you, Mrs. Bloxam, you've been a very kind friend."

Left alone she paused and listened, her hard ugly black straw hat a
little askew on her head, Pip's chain in her hand.  There was no
sound.  No one was moving through the house.  The woman had left
her alone for that time at least.

She had pushed things into her shabby black handbag helter-skelter,
then feverishly pressed its gaping lips together and insisted on
their closing.  With the same excitement she affixed the chain to
Pip's collar while he stood by, little shivers of excitement
shuddering along his body.  Then very softly she opened the door,
peered out, saw nobody, and on tiptoe started down the stairs.

Arrived in the Square, the sun round and orange above the crooked
roofs, she looked for a moment back at the house, grim and grey
above her, the windows blind-eyed in its ancient corpse-like body.
Oh! might she never see it again!  That was her prayer.  Never,
never!  She would like to have said good-bye to Mrs. Amorest, who
had been kind to her, but she would write to her from St. Lennan
when, safe and secure, she could snap her fingers at her recent
terrors.  She heard the Cathedral clock ringing out the hour, and
in a panic scurried down the Square dragging Pip after her.  The
bag was heavy; her back seemed to have a red-hot needle thrust
through its spine, but the thought of her escape heartened her to
the forgetting of all ills.  She stood at the corner of Malpas
Street breathing heavily, waiting for the omnibus.  A new alarm
beset her.  Perhaps they did not allow dogs in omnibuses?  Whatever
then should she do?  She had not money for a cab.  There would not
be time to walk.  Tears filled her eyes, and, as though he realised
that he was the cause of the trouble, Pip gazed up at her with
beseeching gaze.

The omnibus came lolloping up, and she was glad to see that there
were but two passengers inside it, and the conductor was a fresh-
faced kindly-looking young man.

"Oh, I do hope you don't mind a dog," she panted at him.  "It's
only as far as the station."

"Well, it's not strictly allowed," he said, trying to look severely
at her, but pulling the string to send the omnibus farther in its
journey; "but it's for the other passengers to say.  If they

"I do hope that you don't object," said Miss Beringer, jerked down
on to her seat (they were now crossing the cobbles of the Market-
place); "I am only going as far as the station, and he's a very
well-behaved little dog.  You can see how well-behaved he is."

The two passengers were a stout man with a red face, who simply
nodded his head in a dignified manner but said nothing, and a young
woman with a face like an apple and a hearty smile.  She said that
she liked dogs, and that her husband had several, and that he was a
dear little fellow, and he reminded her of a dog that her father
had had once who had also been a dear little fellow and had been
run over by a butcher's cart, which was the worst of keeping pets
because something dreadful always happened to them, watch them as
you might.

The friendliness of the omnibus cheered Miss Beringer considerably,
and with every jerk she was taking a farther step from the enemy.
It was the hour before the winter dusk, and all the town was bathed
in a yellow opalescent shadow.  Houses and doors and windows were
transfigured.  As the omnibus climbed the hill to the station, the
hills and fields beyond Seatown came into view, swimming in golden
air.  The river flashed like a bar of music heard unexpectedly.
The houses darkened even as they passed them.

"We're a long way over the shortest day," said the amiable young
woman, "but it doesn't seem to make much difference."

Up on the hill where the station was, there was a blowing hearty
air.  The station platform was exposed, and you could see from it
low levels of green fields, a wood now purple dark, and a cottage
silver in the early dusk.  There was no one about.  She sank down
on to the hard platform seat, gathering Pip into her skirt.  Every
bone in her body was aching, and she seemed to have so many bones--
more than the average number, she was sure.  She would not buy her
ticket for a moment; there was plenty of time.  She liked to look
across to the quiet fields and the masts of trees black and silver
against the orange sky.  So peaceful and so quiet after the last
days and nights.  It was past three o'clock, but there was plenty
of time.  There was no movement about the station.

A train against a side platform whistled and jolted away.  A porter
passed, looked at her for a moment, and then walked on.

She sat in a sort of blissful dream.  The thought of returning to
St. Lennan was wonderful to her.  Indeed, she should never have
left it.  The fear that she might not be able to earn her living
seemed to disturb her no longer.  She had not, in any case, she
suspected, very long to live.  This afternoon, tired out, bathed in
the fading sunshine, the pains in her back and at her heart
gradually receding, she did not seem to care.  If she had not long
to live at least she would die then among friends, with Pip and her
bit of amber and the long seashore and the rumble of the waves. . . .

She sank into a kind of doze, her head nodding forward on her
breast, then woke with a start.  What if she should have missed her
train?  She hastened up, dragging Pip after her.  She hurried into
the ticket office and, fumbling in her purse, said sharply through
the little window:

"A third single to St. Lennan and a dog ticket, please."

There was a pause, and then a very abstracted voice answered her:

"Where did you say, madam?"

"St. Lennan, please--and a dog ticket."

The abstracted voice answered her, "No train to St. Lennan to-day.
Last left ten minutes ago--3.5."

She had not heard.  His words meant nothing.

"Third single to St. Lennan, please," she repeated.

A bearded, spectacled face appeared then at the window.

"No further train to St. Lennan to-day, madam.  Last went ten
minutes ago--3.5."

Fear surged down upon her.  "Oh, but there must be.  I looked at
the time-table.  It said 3.30.  Truly it did."

"Changed 1st of January.  There WAS a 3.30.  Changed to 3.5."

Terror had her by the throat.  She stammered.

"Sorry, madam.  No further trains to St. Lennan to-day."

The bearded face withdrew.

She turned round.  A porter was passing.  She stopped him.  "Oh,
porter, please, surely it can't be true.  There MUST be a train to
St. Lennan at 3.30."

He was a kindly man.  He smiled at her genially.  "Sorry, mum,
changed 1st of January."

"Oh, what shall I do?  What shall I do?  It's dreadfully important
I get there to-day.  What CAN I do?"

"Well, mum, you could . . . let me see."  He consulted the page of
train times on the board.  "Difficult place to get at, St. Lennan.
You could take the 6 o'clock to Pentecost and catch the St. Borlase
4.30.  No.  You couldn't neither.  That 'ud be too late.  You
could . . .  I'm blowed if I see what you can do to-day, mum.
There's the 6.30 to-morrow morning."

The 6.30 to-morrow morning!  The 6.30 to-morrow morning!  What
could she do?  Sit in the station all day and all night?  She had
not money for an hotel.  She had no friends.  No one.  The only
thing was to go back.

She stood looking out on to the station square now quite deserted.
Through the silence a summons as it were of fate came to her.

She bowed her head, and slowly, Pip close to her side, she crossed
the square.



Mrs. Amorest had recognised, as she walked up the High Street after
leaving Mr. Agnew's office, that the hardest crisis of her life had
come upon her.  She met it almost as an old friend because she had
been for so long expecting it.  Like many other brave and spirited
women it had always been the little things in life that had shown
her weaknesses--to the big crises she had always risen as the
swimmer braces himself for the crest of the green-towering wave.
During the walk home she was dazed.  Though she might have
suspected the actual splendour of the annual thousand pounds, she
had not in her heart doubted but that there would be a hundred or
two--and a hundred or two would make all the difference.

And now there was nothing save a silver match-box!

Back in her own room, she seemed to be standing, precipitately, on
the edge of a dark and bottomless oubliette.  What lay down there?
How deep was the fall?  She realised with a flash of surprise that
for years now she had expected that "one day her cousin would do
something for her."  Although she had never uttered the thought in
outspoken words, she had always, when funds were creeping so low as
to be almost invisible, known that at any rate there was Cousin
Francis.  Now there was Cousin Francis no longer.

It was fit and proper punishment for her.  She recognised that.
The thought hurt her now that her visits to her cousin had been
frequent only because she "had expectations."  But she was no
sentimentalist.  She did not allow herself the luxury of self-
chastisement without justification.  She had gone to see him
because she was fond of him, because she was sorry for him, and
because he was the only relation left to her in the world save
Brand.  The only relation!  She could not have believed that his
death--when she had seen him so seldom--would make her now so
lonely.  She wondered at her own loneliness.  Why had she, when she
was by nature gregarious, loving her fellow beings, made no real
friends in the town?  It was, she supposed, her pride, her dislike
of revealing her poverty, her hesitation at being unable to return
hospitality.  But what would she give to have a true friend near
her now!

After her conversation with Agatha Payne her courage for a moment
failed her.  She felt old and worn and desolate, and all that day
she must clench her teeth and refuse to look either to the right or
to the left.  Beasts in the jungle on either side of her!  Then,
next morning at breakfast time, a marvellous thing occurred.

"There's a letter for you, mum," said Mrs. Bloxam, coming in with
her hat askew and her accustomed air of bustling energy; "and that
poor Miss Bellringer is terrible bad this morning.  Suffering
something cruel--and all because she would go to the station
yesterday, against my advising her too!--there! and I shouldn't
'ave said nothing about it."

Mrs. Amorest took the letter and trembled through all her body.
She did not hear Mrs. Bloxam's voice nor see the room nor the rain-
driven day beyond the window pane.  The letter was from her son.

The envelope was covered with stamps, addresses, inks blue and red
and green, and that strangely mysterious and yet intimate hand-
writing conveying the information "not known here.  Try Chester

She gazed at the envelope for a long time and, swimming up from
beneath deep waters, murmured to her companion, "It's from my son,
Mrs. Bloxam.  At last, after two years."

Mrs. Bloxam paused, her arms akimbo.  Her cheeks were suffused with
generous pleasure.

"Is it really, mum?  Well I never!"

At last, after gazing at the envelope for a long time, she had the
courage to tear it apart.  It was not a very long letter, but she
caught it up and kissed it, then held it against her cheek.

The address was "Monterey, California," and then the date!  She
looked at it again and again to make certain that she was correct,
pushing her reading spectacles up and down her nose.  At last she
said, "You look at that, Mrs. Bloxam.  I make it out January 4,
1895.  And this is February 1896.  It must be wrong.  The letter
can't have been a whole year coming."

She would not allow the letter out of her hand, so Mrs. Bloxam
leaned over her and studied it very carefully.

"I'm not a great 'and at reading, mum, if the truth be known, but
that is certingly a 5--"

"A whole year!" Mrs. Amorest repeated.  "Where can the letter have

She read it then, and it was as follows:

DEAR OLD LADY--I can't pretend to have been much of a letter-writer
during the last year, and I'm ashamed of myself.  The truth is that
I'd made an oath to myself not to let you know anything until I'd
brought a deal off here.  What I wanted to do was to make my pile,
turn up unexpectedly in Cheltenham, give you the fright of your
young life, and then make you a duchess, as you ought to be--but
I've had the worst of bad luck over and over again.  Tantalising
isn't the word for it.  If things hadn't at times gone so
astonishingly well I'd have given it up and come home to England
long ago, but I've so nearly brought it off once or twice that I
can't make up my mind to leave it.  I was on to a wonderful thing
three months ago, and then what did I do but tumble down with
diphtheria here in San Francisco, and another fellow got the

I'm all right now, and there's some land prospecting down South,
near a little place, Los Angeles (get out the map and look for it),
that promises fine.  Hold on for a while yet and I'll astonish you
still one fine morning.  I don't like to be beaten.  I'm enclosing
a photo I've had taken here.  You'd hardly recognise your promising
son, would you?  I'm fit as anything now, and it may be it won't be
long before you see me.

I was pleased to see from your last letter that you are keeping
well and are happy.  The address on your paper is Polchester.
Don't know the place, but gather you are still living in
Cheltenham.  Isn't Polchester the place where there are some
cousins of ours?  Perhaps you're staying with them.  You don't say.
Glad you're stopping on at Cheltenham, where you've got plenty of
company.  Don't be lonely, old lady.

So long for the present, and look out for me any day.--Your loving


She sighed deeply as she finished it.  Then she read it all through

"You see, Mrs. Bloxam," she said, as though that lady had read the
letter, "I didn't want him to think I'd left Cheltenham.  It might
have fussed him.  And I was thinking then I might return there at
any time.  I left them this address in the post office there.  I
don't know where-ever this letter can have been."  She spelt out
the envelope again.  "It's because he's written the address so
badly.  Careless boy.  'Try Chippenham.  Not known here.'  I should
think not.  It must have been lying in the post office for months.
Isn't that too bad?"

Then she gazed and gazed at the photograph.  She would, of course,
have known him anywhere.  But how he had filled out!  How he had
broadened and thickened and strengthened!  He looked well.  He was
the handsomest man on earth.

"He may come any minute, Mrs. Bloxam.  I knew he hadn't forgotten
me, whatever they might say.  He's coming back a rich man."

"Is he indeed, mum?" said Mrs. Bloxam.  "And here's your tea, mum,
and it'll all get cold if you don't drink it."

She lay back bathed in a luxury of happiness.  She could think at
first of nothing but her joy in being in touch with him once again.
She lay there smiling, lost in happy dreams.

But when she had dressed, new thoughts came to her.  That letter
had been written a year ago.  He had had diphtheria.  What might
not have happened in the intervening year?  A whole year, and there
had not been a line from him!  That sense of fear she had had ever
since her meeting with Mr. Agnew--a sense that some danger was
tracking her and was drawing like a furtive but determined animal
ever nearer and nearer--came close to her now.  She was to be
tantalised with the letter.  It was to be a sign to her that she
was never to see him again--his last farewell letter to her!

"What is the matter with me now?" she said to herself.  "I was
never like this before.  Something new has come into this house.  I
never doubted but that he was coming back to me, and now, when I
have his letter, at last after so long waiting, it seems to tell me
I shall never see him again."  She gazed and gazed at the
photograph.  "Oh, God!  Give him back to me!" she prayed.  "I don't
think I can go on alone much longer.  I'm so tired of being alone.
Give him back to me!" and then, struggling against her stronger,
more rebellious spirit, added, "Thy will be done."

Mrs. Bloxam came in very greatly disturbed.  "There's that poor
Miss Bellringer," she said, "crying something pitiful.  She says
she's frightened of something.  Mrs. Payne 'as been in and upset
'er.  She says it's 'er 'eart, and 'er back's 'urting something
shameful.  Poor worm!  She's not long for this world, if you're
asking my opinion."

Mrs. Amorest was not herself feeling her strongest.  All the
excitement of the last two days and the lack of sleep had made her,
as she used chaffingly to confess to her friends, "a little weak in
the knee."  But the sight of Mrs. Bloxam's good-natured face so
truly disturbed touched her deeply.  She went at once, crossing the
passage, into May Beringer's room.

Entering, she was aware sharply once more of a sense of danger.
She was not an imaginative woman nor one given to nervous fears;
she had pluck and courage fortified by utter belief in powers that
could put all the battalions of evil to ignominious flight, but she
was weary and unstrung.  She stopped on the threshold.  Her eyes
went instinctively, as though they were guided, to the mantelpiece.
The red amber was not there.  She looked then at the bed.  Miss
Beringer, propped with pillows, was sitting up, her woollen
waistcoat tied by the sleeves around her thin and bony neck.  Her
long, flushed face was yellow and drawn.  One arm was thrown over
the dog, which, lying full length on the bed, was crouched close to
her side; in the other she held the red amber.

Mrs. Bloxam, standing beside the bed, was uttering consoling words
and offering some beef-tea on the little battered black-japanned
tray.  The fire was not lit.  The room was very cold and dark.
"Now do, my dear," Mrs. Bloxam was saying, "drink this nice beef-
tea.  You'll feel a different woman when you've drunk it.  I'll
take the dog for a run."

"No," said Miss Beringer, holding the dog closer to her.  "You've
taken him out once this morning, thank you.  I don't wish him to go
again.  Thank you very much."  She drank the beef-tea as though she
were thinking of something else.

"Well, if you don't mind me saying so, miss," continued Mrs.
Bloxam, "it really isn't 'ealthy to 'ave that dog on the bed with
you.  It isn't really, miss.  Not that it isn't a clean little dog,
but dogs is dogs."

"No, thank you, Mrs. Bloxam."

"And 'ere's Mrs. Hamorest come to cheer you up.  Why, bless you,
you'll be right as tuppence to-morrow, you see if you ain't.  Don't
you let yourself get down-'earted.  Keep up your spirits.  The sun
will be shining to-morrer mornin'."

"Thank you, Mrs. Bloxam, I'm sure it will," answered Miss Beringer

"Is there anything else I can do for you while I'm at it?  I'll
just be getting Bloxam's dinner and I'll be back in a jiffy."

"Thank you, Mrs. Bloxam.  There's nothing else I want, thank you."
Mrs. Bloxam departed.  Mrs. Amorest came then and, drawing a chair,
sat down beside the bed.

"Do you mind my coming in for a little?" she asked.  "You needn't
talk if you don't want to.  I always think a little company's
pleasant when you are not feeling well."

"But I do want to talk," May Beringer said.  She put the piece of
amber on the bed beside her and caught Mrs. Amorest's hand.  "Do
you mind my holding your hand?  Do say if you mind."

"Why, of course not," Mrs. Amorest said gently.  "Now tell me
what's the matter.  Don't you think you ought to see a doctor?"

"A doctor can't do anything."  Her hand shook in Mrs. Amorest's
grasp.  "It's that woman next door who's killing me."

"What woman?  Mrs. Payne?"

"Yes."  May Beringer's voice sank to a whisper.  "Speak softly.
She can hear what we say."

"But of course she can't," Mrs. Amorest reassured her.  "There's a
thick wall between."

"No, but she can.  Walls are nothing to her.  It's fate.  She's
going to finish me.  She made me miss that train yesterday."

"What train?"

"I was going away and I got to the station and I missed the train.
She knew I'd come back."

But this was not at all the kind of talk with which Mrs. Amorest's
clear, cool brain could have patience.  "Now that's really
nonsense," she said, smiling and patting May Beringer's hand;
"you're ill or you wouldn't have ideas like that in your head.
You've had ideas about Mrs. Payne since the first moment you saw
her.  Of course Mrs. Payne is a little odd.  She's not quite like
other women, but she doesn't mean any harm.  Why, I've lived in
this house for months and months with her, and she's never done any
one any harm."

"That's because," May Beringer whispered feverishly, "you haven't
got anything that she wants."

"What do you mean?" asked Mrs. Amorest, feeling in spite of herself
the darkness of the room and a kind of foggy chill that seemed to
hang like a mist about the bed.

"It's my piece of amber she wants," May Beringer went on, "and
she's not going to have it.  Never, never, never!  Not if I die to
prevent her."

Mrs. Amorest leaned forward and stroked her friend's forehead.
"Dear Miss Beringer, you mustn't imagine things like that.  Truly,
it's only because you're not well.  Now let me arrange your pillows
and make you more comfortable."

May Beringer began to cry, a weak helpless sobbing.  "You don't
understand," she said, as the tears trickled down her cheeks.  "You
think it's absurd because you don't know how people can want
things.  You're good, and you wouldn't take anything that belongs
to somebody else.  But she's bad and she isn't right in her head
either.  She was in here, and said if I gave it her she would leave
me alone."

"She was in here?  When was that?"

"The night before last.  That's why I meant to go away.  She
frightened me so!  Oh! you don't know how frightening she can be
when she looks at you with her black eyebrows and smiles.  She is
going to kill me if she can't get it!"

Mrs. Amorest looked about the room, her small lined face wrinkled
with surprise.  "She said that?  That she would leave you alone if
you gave her that piece of amber?"

"Yes, she did indeed.  She's quite crazy to have it.  She says it
belonged to her before it belonged to me--as though dear Jane
didn't give it to me after buying it herself from Mr. Faithorner in

"Then she must be mad--mad, and wicked too."  Mrs. Amorest was
trembling with indignation.  "Why, that's as bad as being a thief!"

"She IS a thief," said May Beringer.  "She'd take it at once if I
were alone in the house.  But she knows that Mrs. Bloxam and you
know it's mine.  She IS a thief."

"I can't understand it," Lucy Amorest went on, "any one wanting
anything like that.  Of course I like to have nice things, but I
wouldn't TAKE anybody's. . . .  Why, it's truly wicked!  And that's
only a bit of stone or something.  It isn't as though it were
alive.  What is it made of really?"

"I don't know," said May Beringer, looking at it tenderly as it lay
there on the counterpane.  "I think the Chinese find it on the
seashore or something.  But I'm not certain about its not being
alive.  You will think me very silly, Mrs. Amorest, but I'm an old
woman and have lived a long time, and I sometimes think that things
are more alive than people.  When you've put a lot of feeling into
something, don't you give it a sort of life?  It may be grateful,
you know, for your being so fond of it.

"Of course that's very fanciful, and perhaps it isn't very
religious, but one gets queer fancies when one's old.  Jane (she
was my dear friend, you know) said when she gave it me that it had
some of her heart in it, and I think perhaps it has.  I know that
wicked woman can kill me first before she gets it from me."

She was trembling all over, and Lucy Amorest, touched with pity,
put her arm about the thin bony body.

"Now you're not going to feel frightened any more.  I'm here, and I
won't let her touch you.  I'm going to speak to her and give her a
piece of my mind."

"Oh no, you mustn't do that."  May Beringer sat straight up in bed.
"You don't know what she will do to you.  You mustn't, indeed you

Lucy Amorest smiled.

"She can't hurt me, dear.  There is Some One will protect us both,
stronger than Agatha Payne.  Now how do you feel in general?  Is
your back hurting you?"

"It isn't my back so much as my heart.  Put your hand here and just
feel how it jumps."  Mrs. Amorest placed her hand against May
Beringer's breast and felt the strange irregular beat--it seemed to
jump like an animal imprisoned and then altogether to die away.

"Well, I think you ought to see a doctor," she said, nodding her
head decisively.  "I know a very nice one, let me tell him to come
in this afternoon."

But May Beringer shook her head vigorously.

"No, no," she said; "I had a doctor once in Exeter and he said I
must wear spectacles, and so I did for two years, and there wasn't
anything the matter with my eyes at all.  I don't believe doctors
know a thing more than we do ourselves.  They are all humbugs, if
you ask me."

She was energetic; there was some colour now in her cheeks; Lucy
Amorest's visit had done her good.

"I must leave you now for a little.  I'll come back in the

"Oh, you will, won't you?"  May Beringer's eyes were beseeching.
"You are so good to me.  I'm sure I don't know why."

"Nonsense."  Lucy Amorest bent down and kissed her.  "You sleep for
a little and you'll feel ever so much better."

"I don't want to sleep.  I have such dreams."

"You won't this time.  You try and see."

She went back to her room and thought it out.  Her principal
feeling was one of anger and indignation with Agatha Payne.  She
had never heard anything so wicked and so cruel.  To frighten and
bully that poor old thing simply because she wanted that toy!

The fact that May Beringer had really been to the station and tried
to escape by the train brought it all home to her most vividly.
Never would she have embarked on such an adventure had she not been
most truly frightened--frightened by that wicked old woman!

Lucy Amorest ate her frugal luncheon, then knocked on Agatha
Payne's door.  There was no answer, so she waited for a little,
then knocked again.  Now there was some sound from within, and she

The atmosphere was so close that she stayed for a moment by the
door.  A very large fire was burning.  The room was exceedingly
hot.  Agatha Payne was sitting at the table playing cards.  She
gazed intensely.  She did not look up.  Her lips moved.  She sat
hunched, her dress pulled up to her knees.  Her hands, holding a
card, hung hovering over the table.  Mrs. Amorest was frightened.
For some unaccountable reason she wanted to turn and go straight
back to her room again.  She had never been frightened in Mrs.
Payne's room before.  It was perhaps the heat and absence of any

"Excuse me, Agatha," she said, "I want to speak to you a moment."

Mrs. Payne did not look up.  She bent forward, touching the cards
as they lay on the table.  This angered Mrs. Amorest.  She forgot
her fear.  She came forward, close to the table.

"Excuse me," she said again, "but I MUST speak to you.  It is
something of importance."

Mrs. Payne laid the card in her hand carefully on the table, then
looked up.

"What is it?" she asked.

How strange she looks! Mrs. Amorest thought.  Her large black eyes,
dull like pools of ink, were expressionless.  Her big heavy body
was lurched together as though with a slight push it would tumble
forward and lie, like a heap of clothes, on the floor.  She had the
air of some one who had been drinking.

"I have been seeing Miss Beringer," Mrs. Amorest said.  "She is
very ill--very seriously ill."

"What have I to do with her?" asked Mrs. Payne.  Her body was
galvanised into energy.  She turned round in her chair and her eyes
filled with a strange brooding expectancy; life had struck there as
light strikes a pool.

"You have this to do with her," said Mrs. Amorest indignantly,
"that you have been in there and something you have said to her has
frightened her.  She is easily frightened, and her heart is bad.
You must leave her alone or I will have a doctor here who will make

"Indeed!" said Agatha Payne, looking at the little woman with a
deep and slow contempt.  "Who says that I have frightened her?"

"She says so herself.  She has an idea in her head that you want to
steal something of hers.  I can't believe that of you, but sick
women have strange fancies.  She has done you no harm.  Why won't
you leave her alone?"

"Leave her alone!"  Mrs. Payne laughed.  "The silly old fool!
Silly old fools both of you.  A pair of sentimental old women.  You
with your precious boy and she with her dog!"  She turned
contemptuously back to her cards.

Mrs. Amorest flushed angrily.

"You leave my son alone," she answered.  "And you leave Miss
Beringer alone too.  From what she tells me, you're no better than
a thief."

"Thief, is it?" said Agatha Payne, looking at the cards.  "Now you
leave me alone, Lucy Amorest, and mind your own business, or it
will be the worse for you."

"It IS my own business!" Mrs. Amorest answered.  "The woman is sick
and has no one to care for her.  If you go near her room again I'll--
I'll call for the police!"

"You will, will you?"  Mrs. Payne laughed.  "And what have the
police to do with it?  You'd look fine and silly with the police
coming in.  You'd have them arrest me, I suppose?  And for what?
For going into that idiot's room to see whether she wanted
anything!  That's all I get for my kindness!"

She got up slowly from the table and moved over to the fire.  Her
thick heavy body seemed to tower over the rest of the room.

"Now, look here, Lucy Amorest," she said, "you mind your own
business.  I've stood you long enough--poking your nose in here
where you are not wanted.  I've not interfered with you, have I?
Well then, leave me to myself."

"You may say what you like to me," Mrs. Amorest answered.  "I'm not
afraid of you, but that poor woman's life is in danger.  Give her
another fright and with her heart as it is anything can happen, and
then you will be a murderess as well as a thief . . . !"

She paused, her breast heaving with indignation.

Agatha Payne seemed to quieten.  She stared beyond Mrs. Amorest to
the far spaces of the room.  "She is so bad as that, is she?" she
said gruffly.  "Well--what does it matter?  You are sentimental,
Lucy, as always.  She is old; she is sick; she is penniless.  We
are all old and sick and penniless.  Three old, sick, penniless
women.  Do you know that?  There are other old women, thousands of
them, who have homes and friends and money.  Perhaps they are
happier than us, perhaps they are not.  Perhaps, although they have
all those things, there are others who are waiting for them to die,
waiting for their places.  They are tiresome; they have memories
only of a time that others do not know.  They admire things that
all the others think absurd.  With old age it is always the same.
After seventy the sooner you go the better.  With every one it is
so, but with us!  How sentimental to pretend that we should live!
We are not happy; we make no one else happy.  This old woman in the
next room, she is always complaining and crying and suffering.  It
would be a kindness if I were to go now, put my hand around her
neck and choke her.  You believe in another life where she will be
happy and play on a harp, and yet you hinder her from going there.
It is your sentiment.  But in the end you are more cruel than I."

"You speak like that," said Lucy Amorest, "and yet, although you
are old like her, you would give everything to have something of
hers, a piece of coloured stone that is nothing--nothing at all."

"Speak of what you understand," Agatha answered almost amiably.
"What do you know of lust or desire for anything?  You have never
felt passion with your milk-and-water religion and your
sentimentality.  If I were to know that I had only half an hour
more to live, I would want the sensation of owning that beautiful
thing.  Beauty!  You don't know the meaning of the word."

She slumped down into the rocking-chair and with her back to Mrs.
Amorest rocked there, kicking her shoe in the air.

To that broad back bulging between the bars of the chair, Lucy
delivered her last words:  "You must leave her alone.  Whether I am
sentimental or not, I will see to that."  Then she left the room.

She felt the cool, even chilly air of the passage refreshing after
that close heat.  She would not think of herself.  There was
something in that woman's words that had struck deep into her
heart, but that she kept away from her.  She was tired, worn out.
She went into her room and, lying down, slept.  It was evening when
she woke.  Her room was dark.  She stared about her at first, not
remembering where she was.  Then recollecting, she started up,
blaming herself that she had neglected that poor woman.  She lit
her candles, brushed her hair and washed her face.  She took a
story of Grace Aguilar's from the shelf, then hurried into the
other room.

May Beringer was lying down, the piece of amber in her hand, Pip
beside her.  The room was cold and had a faint thin light.

"Oh, I am so sorry," Mrs. Amorest cried, "I have been so long away.
How are you now?  Better?"

"I tried to get up but my back hurt so," Miss Beringer's tearful
voice answered her.  "I thought you were never coming."

Soon Mrs. Amorest had made the room bright again.  The fire was
lit.  The candles shone.  The kettle boiled and there was a hot cup
of tea.  But May Beringer's face did not change.  She seemed for
ever to be listening for something.  She drank the tea, suffered
her pillows to be shaken and her sheets smoothed.

Then Mrs. Amorest sat down beside the bed.  "Now," she said,
"that's better.  I have brought a book I thought you might like.
Such a pretty story.  Do you like to be read to?"

"Yes," said May Beringer.

"Shall I read a little of it?"

"Yes, please.  You don't hear anything, do you?"

"Hear anything?  No, of course not.  Now I'll begin.  Are you quite

"Yes, thank you."

"Chapter one. . . ."



The firelight made patterns on the wall.  Lucy Amorest's voice rose
and fell.  May Beringer lay without moving, staring in front of

The words began to swim before the reader's eyes.  The print in
patterns of grey and black and ivory thickened like swarms of flies
across the light.  The head nodded.  The book crashed to the floor.

"Oh!  I beg your pardon," Mrs. Amorest cried.  "Reading aloud
always after a time makes me sleepy.  And I expect that it is
making you sleepy too.  You've had enough of it, I'm sure."

May Beringer did not reply.  She was striving to be brave enough to
utter certain words.  What she wanted to say was:  "Please, Mrs.
Amorest, don't leave me to-night.  I'm sure you could make yourself
comfortable with the armchair and the other chair.  I will never
forget it if you stay.  Only for to-night.  Please, please don't
leave me alone."

That was what she wanted to say.  For the last hour she had not
been listening to the words that were read, but had been forming
these words in her brain.  "Oh, please, Mrs. Amorest . . ."

But she had not the courage to utter them.  She was frightened
about this, as she was frightened about everything else in her
life.  She had detected in Mrs. Amorest something, not precisely
hard, but rather restrained and critical.  Mrs. Amorest would think
May Beringer a fool for her fears, and although she did not mind
that she should be thought a fool could she only get her way, the
immediate moment when she would make her suggestion and then see
that look in Mrs. Amorest's eyes was too difficult for her.  She
rehearsed the words to herself again and again, but the pushing
them from silence into sound was too difficult for her.

And yet that awful moment when she should be left alone with all
the long night in front of her was terrible for her too.  Every way
there was fear.  That woman was waiting for her on the other side
of the wall.  She could see her standing there, listening, waiting
until Mrs. Amorest should be gone.  Oh! if only Mrs. Amorest would,
herself, propose that she should stay.

She read on and on until May Beringer could have screamed from
irritation.  It wasn't that silly book that she wanted to hear, but
rather those blessed words, "Wouldn't you like me to stay here to-
night?  I could make myself quite comfortable on that chair . . ."
The book fell to the floor; the moment of departure had arrived.

Mrs. Amorest rose from her chair and gave a little yawn.  "Why, how
late it is!  I've been reading a long time.  Don't you think that's
a very pretty story?"


"I like the way she writes, don't you?"

"Yes, I do."

"We'll have some more to-morrow.  I've quite forgotten how the
story goes.  It must be a long long time since I read it."

And May Beringer was saying, "Oh, do say you'll stop with me.  Stop
with me at least until I have fallen asleep."  She struggled to
have the courage to force out the words:

"Don't you think . . . ?"

"What is it, dear?"

". . . you could make up the fire a little before you go?"

"Why, of course I will."

Mrs. Amorest made up the fire, patted the pillows a little, then
kissed May Beringer.  "Now are you sure you are comfortable?  Your
heart isn't troubling you so much, is it?"

"No, oh no!"  She put out her hand and drew Mrs. Amorest to the

"Do stay with me a moment longer.  I don't want you to go."

"Why, of course I will, dear."

"You don't think me foolish, do you?"

"Of course not."

"I am foolish and frightened.  A silly old woman.  But you've been
so kind to me.  There's one thing I'd like you to do."

"What is it, dear?"

"Would you mind, before you go, saying a prayer, a prayer about the
dangers of the night and being kept safe?"

Mrs. Amorest nodded her head.  "I know," she said.  She knelt down
beside the bed and closed her eyes.  Still holding May Beringer's
hand, she prayed:

"Dear Lord Jesus, we are Thy children and Thou knowest what is best
for us.  We pray Thee now when the night comes down over our heads
and there is darkness everywhere that Thy might may be ever before
our eyes, and that whether we are waking or sleeping we may know no
fear.  The powers of darkness are obedient to Thy command.  Our
trust is in Thee, and because Thou lovest Thy children Thou wilt
give them nothing that can do them harm.  So trusting, we fall
asleep in Thy arms, dear Jesus.  Amen."

"What a nice prayer," May Beringer said with a sigh.  "I have never
heard it before."

"Yes, it is a nice one," said Mrs. Amorest.  "Our nurse used to say
it to us when we were children."

"Where did you live when you were a child?" asked May Beringer,
holding Mrs. Amorest's hand very tightly.

"We lived in the Lake District," said Mrs. Amorest, smiling.  "Near

"Were you happy as a child?"

"Very happy.  My father was a clergyman.  We had very little money,
but we didn't want much.  There were three of us and we lived all
day on the hills.  We used to walk for ever and ever.  We knew all
the hills and all the lakes.  Scawfell and Great Gable and Cat
Bells and Crummock and Buttermere and St. John's Vale and Wastdale
Head and Grasmere."  She said the names over slowly, tasting them
on her tongue.  "And I have never been back there.  If I could once
more see Thirlmere from Helvellyn--"  She broke off, laughing.  "I
forget I'm an old woman.  I couldn't climb even Helvellyn now.
I've loved Glebeshire and Cornwall and Devonshire since, but not as
I loved those hills."

"Doesn't it always rain up there?" May Beringer asked.  "I've heard
it does."  And behind these words the others were following:  "Oh,
please stay here with me to-night!  Please stay here with me to-
night."  But she could not force them.  They would not come.

"No, of course it does not.  That's only the silly nonsense that
people talk.  There is a lot of rain in all parts of England, but
we used to love when we were children to see the storms come up
over the hills, hiding them, and then breaking like paper and
letting the light come through.  And the Lake--Derwentwater--you
should see the colour run over it like some one dancing.  I wrote
poetry about it when I was a girl, and then I married a poet, which
was better than writing poetry."

May Beringer stared desperately about her.  Was there nothing that
would put it into Mrs. Amorest's head to stay?

"Well," said Mrs. Amorest, gently withdrawing her hand, "I must go
now.  You must have a long sleep and then you'll see how much
better you'll be in the morning."

"Won't you stay a little?"

"No.  You must go to sleep now."  She bent down and kissed her.
"Go to sleep and have beautiful dreams."

"Oh, please stay a little while."  But Mrs. Amorest was gone.

Mrs. Amorest was gone, and in the silence that followed her
departure there came a new sound that May had never heard in that
house before.  It was the dripping of a tap.  It must be out there
on the landing.  How clearly it came through the closed door.  Like
some one counting time.  One, two, three, four--then a pause--then
several drips together.  Like an old man querulously complaining,
and then in the steady drip, drip again something stern and
remorseless.  Some one counting as though he said, "Now when I've
reached thirty . . ."

May began to count.  She counted to ten, and after that so many
came together that she could count no longer.  She would never
sleep with that horrible thing at her door.  The fantastic idea
came to her--and one's ideas are fantastic when one is sick and has
been lying in bed with so many idle thoughts hovering about one--
that that horrible woman had started the noise.  It would be like
her.  There would be other noises also in the house that would be
of her agency.  Oh!  I must escape from this!  I must!  I will go
into Mrs. Amorest's room and never mind if she thinks me a fool.  I
will tell her that I must stay with her, that I won't be alone. . . .

She moved, got half out of bed; but her head was swimming.  The
room danced round and round her.  Pip climbed off the bed, gave her
one beseeching look, and crawled away out of sight.

That frightened her.  He had been so strange during these last two
days, as though he also was sick, nervous, and frightened, refusing
his food.  Even Mrs. Bloxam had noticed it.

She sank back upon the pillows again, and thence weakly cried,
"Pip!  Pip!  Come back.  Come here.  Good dog!  Good dog!"  But Pip
did not reappear.

A curious lethargy slipped upon her.  It was as though something
had seized her limbs and she would never be able to move again.
She was almost asleep and fancied through her half-closed eyes that
figures moved dimly about the room.  She was in her childhood once
more; all the family were round her with their noise and their
selfishness and their jokes, in which, for some reason, she was
never able to share.  There was Gertrude, her eldest sister, with
her large fishy eyes, her thin frizzled hair; always trying to
marry Somebody.  May hated Gertrude and Gertrude hated May.
Gertrude was for ever putting her in her place, telling her not to
do this, not to go there, not to be such a silly.  May could hear
her voice very plainly, that shrill high voice saying, "Don't be
such a silly, May.  Isn't May a silly?"  And she was a silly--for
ever doing the wrong thing.  Had Gertrude been kind to her and
shown her how to do things it would have been different.  If
Gertrude had been kind to her as Jane Betts (afterwards) was, what
a bright happy woman May would have become.  But they were always
laughing at her, so that, although May was in any case a clumsy and
awkward girl, she was yet more clumsy and awkward.  Well, Gertrude
was dead now.  Dead.  May had beaten her there.  But was she dead?
Was she not standing there by the fireplace in just that lilac-
coloured dress she used to wear, with just that same affected
smile?  And there was Rupert, fat and red-faced.  How anxious
Rupert had been about his figure!  But it was difficult because he
loved food, and he would starve himself for a week and then break
down and eat more than ever.  But he had been kind to her when he
remembered, only he did not remember very often.  He was kind to
her, but he despised her.  May tried all things to make him despise
her less.  She wanted some one to be proud of her.  Some one.  Any
one.  Their stupid ignorant governesses.  Miss Marchmont.  Miss
LeFevre.  Miss Albany.  May remembered them all although it was so
long ago.  But it was not so long ago after all.  It was only the
other day.  Was not that Miss Marchmont there now, standing in the
corner near the door?

Miss Marchmont was the thin bony one with the flat bit on the end
of her nose which somebody said was like the portraits of
Rembrandt, so that after that they always called her "Miss
Rembrandt," and didn't she hate it!  Surely it was only yesterday
that Miss Marchmont had been seen coming into the house at five in
the morning and had been compelled to leave that very day!  How
excited they had all been and how curious!  What had she been doing
that she should stay out all night?  The girls had talked among
themselves, and even May had been admitted into the family
councils.  The boys had known more than the girls did, and hinted
at what they knew but wouldn't tell . . .  And there was May's
mother--there just beyond the railings of the bed.  How May had
adored her, and how she had longed to be adored in return!  But it
was always the other girls who were petted and praised and shown
off in company.  May had done things that she was sure her mother
would like, and her mother would have liked them too had only
Gertrude or Clara or Isabella done them, but because it was May . . .

Her mother had not been happy.  May saw that now.  She had found
her once crying in her bedroom and had longed to put her arm around
her and console her, but she had not known how to do it nor what to
say.  She had failed in that, as she had failed in everything else
in her life.  The shadows moved and moved again.  The fire leapt
and fell.  May slept.  She dreamed.  She was hurrying along a windy
road.  It was night, and on one side of her was a dark wood.  She
was frightened, of course, and she knew that when she came to a
cross-roads some one would be there waiting for her.  Some one
terrible.  She did not want to go on.  She tried to stop, but the
wind drove her along.  Had she more courage she would run into the
wood and hide there, but no, she must go on faster and faster.  The
cross-roads were there, and standing clearly to be seen in the pale
light was some one waiting for her.  She was flung onwards crying
for mercy.  She tried to turn back, and then as she saw the hands
stretched out to grasp her she woke.  She lay, the sweat on her
forehead, her body trembling, her heart running and jumping and
missing, and missing and jumping and running.  She could see quite
clearly.  There were no longer any shadows in the room.  She heard,
so plainly that it seemed that it must be with her now beside her
bed, the running tap.  One, two, three, four. . . .  She lay,
trying to remember Mrs. Amorest's prayer.  "Lord Jesus, Lord Jesus,
Lord Jesus," she repeated.

She closed her eyes, but a sound forced her to open them again.
She cried, "Who's there?"  The handle of the door was turning.
Very carefully and quietly, closing the door behind her, Agatha
Payne came in.

"Good evening, Miss Beringer," she said.  "I came in to see whether
you wanted anything."

"I want nothing."  With a great effort, breaking the restraint that
held her, she turned and lay with her face towards the wall.

Agatha Payne sat down on the chair beside the bed.  "But I want us
to have a little talk.  If you are sleepy, I can wait.  I am not at
all sleepy myself."

May neither answered nor moved.  A long silence followed, and for
May it was filled with an agonising determination not to show her
fear.  She would not move; she would not speak.  She was biting her
lips, her hands were fiercely clenched, one holding tightly the red
amber.  That woman might kill her, but she would not move.  Then
her heart ceased to beat.  It ceased absolutely.  She began to
suffocate.  Some one seemed to be pushing her up to the wall so
that her face was pressed against the faded wall-paper.  She could
not endure her suffering and she turned in the bed.

That woman was sitting quietly on the chair.  She was wearing a
loose wrapper of a dirty yellow; one end of the wrapper had slipped
off her shoulder, revealing it of a curious copper brown colour,
and part of her breast.  She sat leaning forward a little, staring
at the counterpane.

On seeing Miss Beringer turn she asked, smiling:

"Why do you complain about me?"

"I haven't complained."

"Yes.  To Mrs. Amorest.  She came into my room and was very
insulting.  I'm sure I've been very kind to you.  There are not
many who would bother about a miserable sick old woman like

"Oh, go away.  Please, please go away!" May Beringer whispered.

"Go away?  Oh no!  I am very comfortable here.  I shall stay for
half an hour or an hour, or perhaps two.  Perhaps all night."

"I know.  You have come to steal my amber from me."

"Steal?  Oh no--certainly not.  I have come to make you more
comfortable.  To smooth your pillows!"

She leant over the bed.

May Beringer gave a little cry half-strangled by her fear and
shuddered to the wall.  "Don't touch me!  Don't touch me!  I'll
scream.  I'll rouse everybody.  Don't touch me!"

Agatha Payne, holding her wrapper about her brown neck with one
hand, leaned over her.  Her hair, raven black in the firelight, had
loosened and some of it hung untidily about her face.

"Your screams won't be heard.  There's only old Lucy Amorest.
She's fast asleep by this time, and there's the passage between.
Besides, you can't scream.  You're too frightened.  Try and see.
But I have not come to hurt you.  Only to spend an hour or two.
You go to sleep.  I shan't touch you.  What do you think I am, a

"Yes, you would murder me to have my amber."

"Murder!  That's a nasty word.  Why don't you take things more
quietly?  See!  I'm sitting down.  I'm kind enough if you know how
to deal with me, but when you tremble like that it gives me
pleasure.  Can't you understand?  The more you tremble the more I
like to tease you.  I lift my hand, and see!--you shake all over!"

"Can't you see that I'm sick?" May Beringer whispered.  "I'm not
young any more.  My heart's bad, and my back.  It's true that you
frighten me.  Everything always has.  You did from the first moment
I saw you."

"Well, well," said Agatha Payne, moving her hand slowly up and down
the counterpane.  "Fancy that!  I wonder why.  Of course I'm not
very handsome, and sometimes I think I'm not quite right in the
head.  I've had a good deal to try me at times.  But you shouldn't
tempt me.  I'd have been quiet enough if you hadn't shaken and
quivered at the mere sight of me.  That would excite anybody."

She looked at her, huddled up beneath the clothes, crouching as
though fearing a blow.  "You're a miserable old woman, aren't you?
We aren't much, the three of us up here at the top of this house.
Birds of a feather!

"But at least Lucy Amorest's got some spirit.  You haven't the
spirit of a flea.  Why, if I were to drag you out of your bed,
strip you naked, and beat you round the room, you wouldn't object."

"That's what you want," said May Beringer, panting.  "You want my
piece of amber.  You'll have to kill me to get it."

Agatha Payne shrugged her shoulders.  "I'll have it some day, never
you fear.  Now, why don't you give it me quietly?  It's only a toy
when all's said.  Or suppose we share it?  I have it a month and
you have it a month.  Let's look at it."

"No, no, no!"

"All right, then.  I can wait."

She sat in silence for a little and then she went on:  "What do you
cling to life for?  You're sick and always in pain.  You've got no
money.  You haven't a friend in the world.  I've at least got my
passions, and Lucy Amorest's got her pluck.  But you!  You'll be
happier dead--far happier."

May Beringer began to cry.  "You're cruel to me--dreadfully cruel.
What have I ever done to you?  You are the cruellest woman I have
ever known.  To-morrow morning I'll have you turned out of the
house.  I'll tell them all what you are doing to me."

"And what am I doing, pray?  Having a little chat.  Looking after
you a little.  Crying?  What do you do that for?  Don't you know it
excites me?  Crying?  I've never cried in my life, not when my
lover left me because he was tired of me.  You've never had a
lover, not with that face of yours.  But I had--plenty once.  I was
handsome, and I didn't care what I did.  You!  You snivelling old
scarecrow!  It would be a fine sort of man that would make love to

May Beringer sat up, a strange sight with the tears drying on her
cheeks and her grey hair hanging about her face.  She kept her
hands beneath the sheets.

"I beg you to leave me just for to-night," she said.  "You can do
what you like in the morning--I won't tell any one--but for to-
night . . ."

"Yes," said Agatha Payne, "give me that piece of amber and I'll

"No.  Never.  Jane gave it me."

"Very well, then.  I'll wait a little.  I don't care.  I can sit up
all night if need be."

She gave a little shiver.  "It's cold in here.  You've let the fire
almost out.  I'll have a blaze in a minute."

She went over to the fire, shovelled on the coal from the scuttle,
found a piece of newspaper which she held up, going down on her
knees.  The room was for a moment dark, then a golden light sprang
up behind the newspaper, there was a roaring chuckle and the fire
was ablaze.  Agatha stayed there on her knees before the glow.

She liked the heat, she knelt there, her hands spread out fan-wise.
The fire, brilliant now and leaping, changed the room.  Great
shadows were thrown on the walls--Agatha's hand was gigantic like a
flat moving fish.  The only candle was near its end, and leapt also
as though it were emulating the fire, throwing its own shadows in
silly rivalry.  Agatha knelt without speaking, and in the silence
May Beringer heard very clearly the dripping, drunken voice of the
tap:  "One . . . two . . . five . . . I sh . . . hate . . . I . . .
shall . . . get . . . it . . . for being . . . late one--two--three--
four. . . ."

She had her idea.  While that woman had her back toward her she
would slip from the bed, run across the passage, and escape into
Mrs. Amorest's room.  It was as though she were attempting the most
dangerous feat of her life.  She half rose, drew her knees
together, slid to the other side of the bed, had her feet on the

Instantly Agatha Payne turned.  "Hullo!  What are you about?"

May Beringer stayed frozen, her body limply attached to the bed.
She had even now her chance.  The door was not far.  Once in the
passage she could at least cry out so that Mrs. Amorest would wake
and hear her.  But she could not move.  For one thing her legs were
trembling so pitifully that they would not support her body and she
was almost slipping to the floor.  She could only gaze miserably
upon that woman, still kneeling but turning her great shapeless
body towards her, the blazing fire giving her black hair a
glittering sheen.

"I was going for a moment," May Beringer whispered, "into the

"No, I think not."  Agatha Payne slowly rose, looking steadily at
her.  "If you want anything I can get it for you."  Then her
expression changed.  "Ah!  So you have it in your hand.  I wondered
where it was."

May Beringer put the hand that clutched the amber behind her back.
"Ah! let me go!  Please let me go!" she whispered.

"I should think not."  She took a step towards her.  "You'll catch
your death all naked.  You get back into bed.  I'm mistress here
now.  You want looking after, I can see."  She made another slow
lurching step towards her.  May Beringer could not take her eyes
from that face, nor that shining hair, nor that shapeless body.
She crept back into bed and crouched there, her grey hair now all
about her eyes, staring through her hair, the bed-clothes huddled
about her.

Agatha Payne came over and sat down in the chair once more.

"So that's what you were up to, was it?  Escaping into the passage
ill as you are.  I can see you're not safe to be left.  A nice
report I must give to the doctor to-morrow when I've let you wander
all over the house."

May could only stare and stare; her breathing came in pants.  Her
body gave little jerks from time to time as though it were trying
to shake from itself some dreadful weight.  Her face was of a grey
ivory shadow.  Only her eyes, terrified, peered out like some one
staring into the dark.

The candle gave a leap and went out.

"So you're holding it there under the bed-clothes, are you?" Agatha
Payne went on.  "That's a childish thing.  Like a schoolgirl.  Give
it me for a moment.  I'll return it to you."

"No," came a small dry voice as though from an infinite distance,
"I won't."

"Oh, you won't, won't you?"  Agatha sucked her finger reflectively.
"Perhaps I shall have to make you.  In spite of my affection for
you, I don't think I CAN sit here all night.  You'd much better
give it me and have done with it.  You'll have to tell them in the
morning that you've given it me, or I'll come in to-morrow night
too--and the night after that and the night after that until you DO
give it me.  What a fuss to make about a little thing!  I'm a
determined woman.  I always have my way in the end.  You'd much
better give it me and go to sleep quietly."

The voice came again dry and distant, "Jane gave it me."

"Oh, she did, did she?  You've told me that before.  You haven't
seen your Jane for years, and I'm sure she's forgotten all about
you long ago.  Do you know that when you're dead there's not a
single soul will be sorry?  That's a nice thought, isn't it?  But I
don't want to be unkind.  If you weren't such a poor miserable
creature I wouldn't bother with you, but you excite me.  I like to
see you cry.  I like to see you tremble.  Now, you'd better give it
me or I shall have to take it."

The voice came again, "I won't.  Jane gave it me."

"Now, come on.  Give it up."  Agatha leant over the bed.  May
Beringer with a little strangled cry moved towards the wall.

Agatha Payne moved her hand, and, quite gently, touched May
Beringer's shoulder.  "I'm not going to hurt you, but I'm going to
have that piece of amber--just because I said I would.  Come now."

Great shivers shook May Beringer's body.  Two tears welled into her
eyes and then slowly trickled on to her dry cheeks.

"Come, give it me."

Still gently she shook the other's shoulder.  Then something moved
in her, some sudden passion or fury.  She leaned right over the
bed, her wrapper slipping, her hair loose and wild.

"You silly fool, don't aggravate me.  I SHALL hurt you if you don't
take care.  Give it up now.  Give it up."  May Beringer was pressed
against the wall but her head was turned, staring up into Agatha's.

"Are you going to let me have it?  I shan't ask you again."  There
was no reply, only a long-drawn heaving sigh.

Agatha Payne stretched her arm across the other's body, reached
down below the clothes, and pulled at the hand.  May Beringer drew
herself up over the pillow against the iron bars of the bed.  Her
body shook.  Her lips were drawn back.  Between her set teeth came
little shuddering sobs.

"Now, then, don't be a fool any longer.  You see I mean what I
say."  Their faces now were almost touching.  Agatha's hand pulled
at the clenched fist.  She felt the cool of the amber.  With a
rough, strong movement she pushed up May Beringer's arm.

At the same moment it was as though some sudden shock galvanised
May's body.  She rose straight up against the wall, stiffly like a
rod, her eyes staring out over the fire-shadowed room.  A
convulsive movement shuddered through her.  She whispered, "Oh,
Jesus!  Jesus!" then with a sigh collapsed against Agatha Payne's
bare breast.

The hand was still tightly clenched.  Agatha took the amber, then,
drawing back, saw the body slide under the bed-clothes huddled in a
heap, but the head, with staring eyes, rested on the pillow.

May Beringer was dead.  There was no doubt of it.

Agatha drew back, holding the amber in one hand, folding the
wrapper over her with the other.

"I didn't mean that!" she whispered huskily.  "I didn't mean that!"
There was a sound at her feet.  The dog crept from under the bed
and looked up at her.  She looked down on him, then stood stroking
the amber with her hand.  She went back to the bed, smoothed the
counterpane.  The body lay now as though it were asleep, only the
eyes were wide.  She stood thinking.  She went to the mantelpiece,
placed the amber upon it, then very quietly stole from the room.



It was of course Mrs. Bloxam who in the morning first learnt of
poor Miss Beringer's death.  She came tumbling into Mrs. Amorest's
room:  "Oh, mum!  Poor Miss Bellringer!  It's 'appened just as I
thought.  Lyin' as though she'd just dropped off in 'er sleep, pore
worm, and nobody by 'er.  A peaceful death that's certain--pore
dear lady."

Mrs. Amorest, wakened from sleep, was at first unaware of the facts
behind Mrs. Bloxam's cries.  Then she put on her red flannel
dressing-gown and hastened with Mrs. Bloxam into the other room.

"I closed 'er eyes, mum.  They were starin' open.  Pore lamb.  She
wasn't 'appy and she was a lonely soul.  I daresay it's best for
'er that she's gone."

Mrs. Bloxam then standing there in her shabby black hat shed tears.
Miss Beringer had, after all, two true mourners.

"I wish now," said Mrs. Amorest, looking down at the poor, tired,
worn face, "that I had stayed here last night.  I think that she
wished me to.  When I'd gone to my room I nearly came back.  There
was something in her eyes that seemed to ask me.  At least it was a
peaceful way to die, in her sleep, without pain."

Then she saw the dog crouching at the foot of the bed.  "Oh, Pip!
Poor Pip!  What will he do now without his mistress?"

She went up and stroked him.  He shivered beneath her hand, looked
at her with miserable eyes, but did not move.

Mrs. Amorest looked about the room.  "There is that piece of amber
on the mantelpiece that she was so fond of.  She had it in her hand
when I left her.  She must have got out of bed to put it up there."

They stood together in silence.  At last Mrs. Amorest said, "We
must lock the door and send for a doctor.  There might have to be
an inquest--"

Mrs. Bloxam looked frightened.  "Oh lor', mum.  And me give

"It might be, when there's a sudden death like this.  Do you know a
good doctor near here?"

"Yes, mum.  Dr. Bluett.  A very nice gentleman."

"You'd better get him at once, Mrs. Bloxam."

"Yes, mum, I will."

They locked Miss Beringer in.  Pip refused to leave the room and he
was locked in also.

Back in her own place Mrs. Amorest hurriedly dressed, and as she
dressed she blamed herself.  She had been hard on poor May
Beringer.  Had she shown her more sympathy she would have made her
happier.  Her scorn for weakness and sentimentality in others was
her fault, her grievous fault, and all her life it had been so.
She could look back over the many years and see occasion after
occasion when she had been hard and stern.  So she thought.  She
had been selfish too, filled with alarm about her own little
unimportant affairs when this poor woman had been lonely and
longing for affection.

But when she was dressed and stood looking from her window at the
grey roofs, the creamy sky flecked with shreds of blue, there stole
upon her, in spite of herself, a strong apprehension.  She was
alone now in this house with old Agatha Payne.  So sharp was this
realisation that she had the impulse to pack her bag instantly and
go somewhere else.  But where?  She would find nowhere else so
cheap, and in a boarding-house or lodging-house her liberty and
freedom would be threatened, her privacy spied upon, her poverty
laughed at.  With this came realisation number two--that at this
moment she had not a friend in all the world, and that were she to
drop down dead as May Beringer had done, with the exception of Mrs.
Bloxam's ready tear not a sigh would be breathed, nor a heart show

The sight of May Beringer's pinched white face stranded there, like
a derelict boat, on that desolate shore--the picture of that room
with its shabby furniture, the grey ashes of the fire, the chill of
the air, these things drove at her very heart.  She would need her
pluck to-day, must stiffen her back, hold up her head as she had
never done in all her life before.

The doctor arrived, and after five minutes in May Beringer's room
he paid a visit on Mrs. Amorest.  He was a little round fat man,
pale, and bald like a billiard ball, neat in a grey suit, a little
pompous but kindly.

"Excuse me, madam, but your name is Mrs. Amorest, I think, and you
are a tenant in this same building."

Mrs. Amorest said that she was, and asked him to sit down.  He
seemed to like the gentle little lady, was surprised, perhaps, to
find such a lady in such a place.

"You were a friend, I think, of the lady who has just died?"

Mrs. Amorest said that she was; not a close friend, Miss Beringer
had only recently taken the room.

"Quite so.  Quite.  And I understand that she was in bed all
yesterday.  You were with her in the evening?"

"I was," said Mrs. Amorest.

"Did she complain of anything?"

"Yes, of her back and of her heart.  She had complained of these to
me before."

"Oh yes.  Quite so.  Had she any trouble, anything to disturb her
in any way?"

Mrs. Amorest hesitated.  "She was a very nervous woman, easily
frightened.  She was worried about her money affairs, I think, and
her health."

"Exactly.  Thank you very much.  That's what I supposed."

He got up and made a stiff ceremonial bow, but he smiled and looked

"Will there have to be an inquest?" Mrs. Amorest asked.

"Well, there may be," Dr. Bluett answered.  "It seems a clear case
of heart failure.  She had been seriously ill for a long time.  The
slightest worry would be bad for her.  She might have dropped down
dead any moment in the last ten years, I should say.  Had she any
relations or friends who ought to be told?"

"Really I don't think there was any one," Mrs. Amorest said.  She
had a strange feeling that she would like to keep this little
billiard ball of a man for a while in her room.  He was so
friendly.  It might be only his professional attitude, of course,
but she thought not.  She thought that if they pulled their chairs
up in front of the fire and had a chat they would become good
friends.  Strange how long it was since she had had any one to pull
up a chair with!

"No one at all?"

"I don't think so.  She had one great friend, but she has not heard
from her for many years."

"Poor woman.  A lonely life."  Dr. Bluett gave a little sigh that
was as though he were blowing very faintly on a penny whistle.  "No
one ever came and saw her?"

"I think nobody."

"Dear me.  How lonely she must have been."  He looked at Mrs.
Amorest then as though he were about to say something more
personal, but he checked himself.

"Any one else live up at the top here?"

"Yes, there's a Mrs. Payne--a widow."

"Was she a friend of Miss Beringer's?"

"Not really.  They met once or twice, I think."

"Well, I may have to disturb her.  I don't know.  I may not have to
bother you again.  Good morning."

Mrs. Amorest longed to say, "Oh, do bother me again!  Come and see
me.  I'll give you tea.  You don't know what a kindness you'd be
doing," but of course she said nothing of the kind.

He bowed beautifully at the door and rolled away down the stairs.
When he was gone the silence of the house was insupportable.  She
did not know what terrors and dismays might not surround her.  She
would go and buy poor May Beringer some flowers.

As she left the house she fancied that its forbidding dark windows
leered after her.  She was not given to "dreams and symbols," but
she had come to hate the place and felt that it also hated her.

When she arrived in the busy part of the town it was gay enough.
The sun was shining and the High Street bustling with people.
There was Canon Bentinck-Major talking on the very edge of the curb
to that pretty girl, Joan, daughter of Archdeacon Brandon.  Mrs.
Amorest adored to see pretty young things with plenty of health
about them.  What she always said was that she could not understand
why the Old Lady in the Shoe should be bothered.  She only wished
that she'd had her chance!  Then there was Canon Ryle, the
Precentor, smiling and polite to whomsoever.  Mrs. Amorest would
have liked a smile from him.  She admired so greatly the way that
he sang the services in the Cathedral, but of course he did not
know her so of course he could not smile!  Then here was Mrs.
Combermere with her dogs and walking-stick and mauve hat with a
bright red feather.  Now she was greeting the Precentor, and it
seemed for a moment that they changed sexes, so masculine and
downright was Mrs. Combermere, so smiling and attentive was Canon

And then (by this time Mrs. Amorest was almost at the bottom of the
High Street), who should turn up the hill from the river but the
great Archdeacon Brandon himself!  Oh, but Mrs. Amorest did admire
him!  Some said that he was vain and imperious, but Mrs. Amorest
did not think so.  She felt that when you were as large and as
handsome and as commanding as that, you had a right to be a little
vain!  He moved with such vitality, such energy, as though he knew
just what he intended to do at every step and no one should stop
him!  She admired him most as he passed from his stall to the
Lectern to read the Lesson.  How beautiful then he was with his
head up, his shoulders back like a general leading his forces into
battle!  Mrs. Amorest was not sentimental about men, she knew their
faults as well as another, but about Archdeacon Brandon she
permitted herself some indulgence.

She liked a man to BE a man, and whatever else Archdeacon Brandon
might be, no one could deny him his masculinity!

She had thought that she would buy the flowers from the gnarled old
woman in the market: thither she went.  But she had not realised
that it was Market Day.  The Square was filled with pigs and sheep,
dogs and cows.  Stout farmers were standing importantly in groups;
the booths were all set out with their wares; women were crying
their goods, boys shouting, horses neighing.  She had not been for
many a day in such a regardless multitude, and she stood bewildered
with people pushing her on every side, the sun dazzling her eyes.
All the world was so gay, and there behind her was that silent
house with May Beringer lying dead in it and half-crazy old Agatha
Payne mumbling over her fire.

She had a queer impulse to cry like a little girl lost and
terrified.  She felt again what she had been feeling so often of
late--but now with overwhelming force--that nobody wanted her.  No
one in the High Street had smiled at or recognised her, and now
they were jostling and disregarding her as though she were not
alive at all.  What would happen to her if her few investments
descended even lower than they had already gone?  She simply would
not be able to live at all.  She would starve slowly up there in
that horrible house and nobody would know and nobody would care.
What happened to old ladies when they had no money and no friends?
No one cared about old ladies.  They cared about old women of the
other class.  There were homes for them and clubs for them, and
societies, and people came and visited them and brought them food
and warm clothing.  The almshouses nowadays were comfortable and
friendly, and all the old women gossiped over the fire.  But old
ladies were not supposed to go into almshouses; it was not thought
that they needed them.

And old ladies were forced to maintain certain appearances.  They
were expected to look like ladies, to wear nice clothes, and if
they did not people laughed at them and thought them odd.  The very
last thing that Mrs. Amorest wanted was pity or charity, but she
did want friends and some one--any one--to care whether she lived
or died.

If Mr. Bloxam deceased and Mrs. Bloxam in the course of time grew
old there would be no appearances for her to keep up, and people
would visit her and her own cronies would come and sit by her fire
and gossip.  She thought, desolately, standing there, of Brand; but
that letter from him had been posted a year ago.  For the first
time in her history she admitted to herself that he might be dead.
It was probable indeed that he was.  Why did no one ever think of
ladies who were poor and lonely and ill?  Every one else in the
world was thought of, from the natives in the centre of Africa to
the slum children in Seatown.  It was true, as Agatha Payne had
said, that old people were tiresome and in the way.  It was men
like Archdeacon Brandon and pretty girls like his daughter Joan
whom the world wanted!

This was bad for Lucy Amorest, unlike her in every way.  She bit
her lips to keep the tears back, and then when a stout farmer
knocked past her anger took the place of tears.  How rude they
were!  She refused to be ill-treated by any of them.  She was not
dead yet, although they might think so.  She found her way to the
old flower-woman and spent the last penny in her pocket on a large
bunch of daffodils.  They cheered her a little.  They were bright
and gay and cheerful and, most certainly, no respecter of persons.
To them the rich and the poor, the young and the old, were all

She despised herself, as she went up the High Street again, for her
mood of pusillanimity and cowardice, and, as was her way, spoke to
herself inside herself:  "Now, Lucy Amorest, you're every bit as
good as anybody here.  If they look down on you you look down on
them.  The game isn't over yet, and there's a good time coming."
The daffodils promised her at least that spring was coming, and she
was always happy in the spring.  As she looked at the blue sky and
felt the breeze on her cheek she felt for a moment that she was
back again on her beloved northern hills, climbing Cat Bells to
turn and see Derwentwater like a silver platter at her feet,
looking down upon Thirlmere from Helvellyn, seeing the wind blow
the reeds like music on Rydal.

Nevertheless, she must positively beat herself back to Pontippy
Square.  It was as though something was warning her; never had she
found it so hard to cross the cobbles of the Square and pass on up
that cold, deserted pavement.  No life in any house.  The windows
dead and deserted.  Silence absolute.

She climbed the stairs, hating her cowardice, went to her room and
took off her hat, then, with the daffodils in her hand, crossed to
May Beringer's door.  She unlocked it.  The room was cold and
bleak.  She knelt down beside the bed and tried to pray but, to her
horror, no prayer would come.

The house--the stairs, the walls, the grey-faced windows--seemed to
push in between her and her prayer.  She could not realise God at
all; she could not think of May save as motionless there, passing
to corruption with her closed eyes and yellow face.  She could
think of no prayer at all.  She began, "Our Father," and could not
remember the words.

She opened her eyes and stared about the room.  She thought that
May Beringer's left eye opened, winked at her and solemnly closed
again.  The daffodils that she had laid on the bed looked already
faded and dead.  There was around her nothing but death and decay.

She got on her feet and stared about her, feeling that in another
moment she would surrender to some horrible blasphemy or impiety.

"Dear Jesus Christ," she said aloud, "do not leave me."

Something moved and she gave a little cry.  It was the dog.  He
came to her, crouched against her dress and looked beseechingly up
at her.  The relief at his company was so great that she knelt down
there on the floor, took him into her arms, and pressed his head
against her breast.  He did not move except that faintly he licked
her hand.  He seemed very feeble, and now when she moved towards
the door, carrying him, he did not protest.

With a sigh of relief she was back in her room.  The late morning
sun was pouring in, shining on the rose-coloured furniture, the
silver match-box, Brand's photograph.  She looked about her with
pleasure.  The air was different here; shabby old room as it was,
it was her own place, filled with her own personality.  It knew
her--it had witnessed her hopes and fears and disappointments.  It
recognised that she had tried to brighten it and give it colour and
life.  It was grateful.  She poked up the fire, put a cushion in
front of it, and laid Pip there.  Then she poured half the milk out
of the bottle into a deep saucer, crumbled up biscuit into it and
tried to persuade him to eat.  But he would not touch it.  Little
convulsive shudderings passed over his body.  Once and again he
raised his head and stared at the door in acute apprehension.  Mrs.
Amorest had the strange fancy as she looked at him that he was
oddly like his departed mistress.  The look in his eyes was the
same.  She had seen just that half-hypnotised stare of alarm in May
Beringer's eyes.  He would not touch the biscuit and milk, feebly
wagged his tail as though he appreciated her kindness, licked her
hand again, but would touch nothing.  Yet he had not eaten anything
since the preceding evening and must be very hungry.

She took her George Herbert and sat down near the fire and tried to
be caught into the poems that she so dearly loved.  But just as
before she could not pray, so now she could not attend to the
poetry.  She continued to look at the door, and when the dog raised
his head and gazed in terrified fashion at the door she also was
compelled to look.  The conviction slowly came to her that the dog
had been witness of something dreadful.  He was frightened in
reminiscence as well as in anticipation.  He had the look in his
eyes that she had seen once or twice with human beings, once in the
face of a little child who was terrified of her mother, once in a
woman who had a drunken husband.  What had happened last night?
Had May Beringer woken before she died and realised that death was
upon her?  Had she tried to call for assistance?  Why had she
placed the amber piece on the mantelpiece?  Had her heart attack
come upon her while she was out of bed?  No, she had been lying
peacefully there.  There was no sign of any physical distress.  But
how Lucy wished now that she had stayed there all night.  She knew--
she saw it all now so clearly--that May Beringer had longed for
her to stay, had not had courage to ask her.  Had she felt a little
more sympathy, shown a little more understanding, she would have
offered to remain and May Beringer would not, perhaps, have died.
She blamed herself bitterly and vowed that, for whatever years of
life might remain to her, she would never be scornful of others'
weaknesses nor hard in her judgements.  There was something very
humiliating to her in the thought that after all these years she
had not learnt human charity.  She heard the Cathedral clock dimly
strike one, and to change her thoughts she prepared her frugal
meal.  She sat at the table drinking her tea and eating her bread
and cheese.  She took from the bookshelf an old faded volume of the
Cornhill.  It was one that contained Anthony Trollope's "Small
House at Allington" with the Millais pictures, and as she turned
the pages she felt comfortable.  The old illustrations with the
quaint dresses, the leisurely, happy life, Lily Dale, who knew only
the stress of choosing between two lovers, the slow, long
afternoons, the quiet evenings, brought back her own youth, happy
days, multitudes of friends, eager anticipation of glorious life;
all that past seems in retrospect so safe and secure that one
wonders why one did not realise its blessings more fully.

She fell asleep in her chair with the volume on her knees; she woke
with a start to find the sun low, sinking behind the chimney-pots,
and Agatha Payne in the room.

"Agatha!" she cried, starting up, the volume dropping to the floor.
"I never heard you come in."

Agatha Payne said nothing.  She stood looking out of the window.

"What is it?  Do you want anything?"

She slowly turned round.  "Why didn't you tell me that May Beringer
was dead?" she asked.

Lucy Amorest answered, "Why should I have bothered you?  There was
nothing more to be done.  We had the doctor.  She died quietly in
her sleep."

"I knew," said Agatha, coming up to the fire.  "There was no need
to tell me."

"You knew?"

"Yes.  She came and told me herself."

Mrs. Amorest said, "What do you mean--she told you?"

"She came this morning and told me.  She's never going to leave me
again.  She's given me the amber, though.  She says she doesn't
want it any more."

Terror seized Mrs. Amorest.  She felt nothing save an urgent
passionate desire to escape.  She had had enough.  She could endure
no more.

"Oh, don't tell me!" she cried.  "You don't know what you're
saying.  She's dead.  She's gone."

"She hasn't gone," Agatha replied slowly and quietly.  "She's here
in this house.  I killed her body but I haven't got rid of her.
She is never going to leave me any more.  She says so."

"You killed her?"  Mrs. Amorest's voice was a low whisper of

"Yes.  I went in last evening and killed her.  I didn't mean to,
but I frightened her and she died.  However, it doesn't matter now,
except that I don't want to be left alone with her.  She might do
me some harm."

Mrs. Amorest rose from her chair and faced her.  "Stop that!  I
won't have it.  You don't know what you're saying.  You're mad.
You don't know what you're saying."

"I know very well what I'm saying.  It's true.  She came to me this
morning as I was sitting in my chair.  She stood as close to me as
I'm standing to you.  She said that I could have the amber and that
she would never leave me.  But I won't be alone with her.  I won't.
There's her dog.  He knows what I did."

Mrs. Amorest said, "You're ill, Agatha.  You must get out of this
house and I must too.  You don't know what you're saying.  Go and
lie down in your room.  You'll sleep, and when you wake these
fancies will have gone."

Agatha moved back to the window.  "You're a fool, Lucy.  You always
were.  It's true what I'm telling you.  And what's the good of my
leaving this house?  She'll come with me, I tell you.  If I died
she'd be with me just the same.  But she won't come while you're
there.  You can keep her away.  Well, I've tried you.  I'll go now,
but I'll come back."

She moved slowly, with her old lurching movement, out of the room.

Is it madness?  Is it delusion?  Where does this thing begin and
end?  The transition is so slight and when you are weary, hungry,
old, lonely, you are fitting prey for any wandering spirit.  Agatha
Payne--May Beringer's death--these things were real.  Real, too,
the isolation and the fear.  Lucy Amorest had never before in all
her life known what fear truly was.  She knew it now.  She knew it
so that it held her where she was; she stood where Agatha Payne had
left her as though a spell had been woven about her.  Her head was
up.  She was listening.  A tap was dripping in the hall.  One--two--
three--four and then a number together.  She had not known that
there WAS a tap in the hall, but now it was the only voice in all
that listening, waiting world.  Agatha Payne was mad, crazy, off
her head.  Was she imagining that she had gone into May Beringer's
room or had she in reality been there?  Had some horrible scene
occurred?  Poor May Beringer!  Oh, poor May Beringer!  But if the
woman had been there she had not taken the amber.  Perhaps it was
she who had placed it on the mantelpiece.  She had been afraid, it
might be, that she would be accused of theft or violence.  Had she
been sane enough to fear that?

Lucy Amorest's knees were trembling.  She sat down upon the bed,
leaning forward, her hands clasped, holding herself together.  Must
she spend another night alone in that place with that woman?  But
where to go?  To a hotel?  To Mrs. Bloxam?  She shrank from that.
There was cowardice in it and especially it seemed to her, in some
odd way, that she would be deserting May Beringer all alone there
in that chill room.  Moreover, she felt that she had no strength.
The room was so dark now and the fire so low that she could see
nothing, but it needed an immense determination to move to the
table and light the candles.  When she had lit them they seemed to
illuminate the room only in patches.  By the door there it was
quite dark.  It appeared to her now that it must be another woman
who must dare to move to the fire, place coal on it, draw her chair
to it, find a book.  That was what she SHOULD do, but she was
paralysed, standing in the circle of candle-light, listening and
counting mechanically to herself the drippings of the tap in the
hall.  Poor May Beringer!  Had she also heard that tap, lying there
in bed and counting?  Lucy had despised May's fears, but now she
herself had fears as terrible.

She had forgotten the dog.  He stirred.  He raised his head, then
let it fall.  That released her from her spell.  She went forward
and knelt down beside the cushion.  She put her arms around him.
She heard him sigh, a ghost of a little sigh.  He shivered, then
lay still.

She knelt for some time with him thus in her arms, then some
suspicion flew to her brain.  She stroked his head, felt his heart.
There was no beat there.  He was dead.

She laid him down and drew desperately to her feet.  He had died of
terror.  She knew it as clearly as though in his distress he had
whispered it to her before his going.  Panic came then crowding in
upon her.  She could not, she must not stay in this house another
moment.  She moved, stumbling across the room, found a small
handbag in the corner by the chest of drawers, began to pull out
handkerchiefs--anything that her hands touched--and to press them
into the bag, and at every moment she paused listening.  Panic grew
upon her.  She was afraid to stand in the dark and moved over to
the candle-light.  The sight of the dog lying so limply and
desolately there moved her to an agony of distress.  She knelt down
by him again, stroking him, speaking to him, doing she knew not
what.  "Oh, Pip!  I can't bear it.  I'm frightened, Pip.  I must
get away and I don't know where to go.  I'm so frightened.  I'm so
frightened!  I can't think.  I don't know what I'm to do, I'm all
alone and Agatha's coming back."

She ran to the door thinking that she would lock it.  There was no
key.  She remembered, as though it had been a hundred years ago,
that it had not fitted and had been sent to be mended.  She ran
back to the fire again.  She stood, squeezing her hands together,
saying over and over again:  "I don't know where to go!  I must get
away!  I don't know where to go!"

The door opened.  She cried out, "No!  No!  You can't come in!  You
can't come in!"

She saw a great figure that seemed to tower to the ceiling.  She
heard a strange voice.  The figure moved forward, and at that, as
though at last her endurance had snapped and she could bear no
more, she put out her hands as though to shield her face and sank
to the floor.



The man moved forward into the light.  He looked about him in
puzzled fashion.

"Is any one here?"  Then, as there was no answer, to himself aloud,
"There's not a soul about, but the candles are burning--"

He looked over the table and saw the old lady crumpled up on the
floor.  With a step he was across to her, had her in his arms, was
stroking her forehead and crying, "Mother!  Mother!  It's Brand!
Mother!  Mother!  Old lady--"

He gazed about him distractedly, then heard the dripping of the tap
clear through the door that he had left open behind him.  In
another moment he had a cup in his hand, was in the passage, had
filled it and returned.

He picked her up and laid her gently on the bed, took out his
handkerchief and damped her forehead, stroking her tiny hands with
his big ones, whispering to her.

She stirred; opened her eyes for a moment and closed them again.
He heard her murmur something.  Then she felt the strong warm
pressure of his arms about her, resisted a little, then, still
without opening her eyes, settled back against his chest with a
little sigh of contentment.

There was something very boyish in the look of distress and anxiety
and love that he bent upon her.  He was impulsive and forgetful,
warm-hearted and generous, but living for the immediate hour,
unsubtle, knowing nothing of analysis of character, loyal, quickly
angry, nothing mean nor small nor jealous.  A little of this you
might have guessed from his broad, ugly, good-natured face, his
large loose body, the kindliness of his eyes, and something proud
in his gaze as he looked down upon her.

He would do anything for her now that he had her in his arms, but
that did not mean that he had not gone on, carelessly, happily,
without worrying in any way about her for three years or more.

She opened her eyes again and, very slowly, realisation crept
into her heart.  She started away from him saying confusedly,
"What . . . ?  Who . . . ?  Where am I?"  The familiar things about
the room first assured her, then she saw the body of the dog.  "Oh!
I remember.  Some one came in!"

She looked up at him, his large, brown, rather chubby face, the
eyes startlingly blue, the hair receding, but fair and thick--she
broke into the full triumph of her discovery:

"It's Brand!  It's Brand!  It's Brand!"

She began to laugh hysterically, buried her head in his rough tweed
waistcoat, her hand feeling blindly about his neck, then pulled his
head down to hers, kissing his eyes, his mouth, his cheeks, his
ears, his forehead again and again, running her fingers through his

"It's Brand!  It's Brand!  It's Brand!"

"That's better!" He caught her in a great hug, lifting her right
off the bed.  Almost he might have done it with one hand as though
she had been a little grey sparrow.  "That's more like it!  I
frightened you coming in.  It was a silly thing to do, now I come
to think of it, but like most of the things I do, the thinking came
afterwards when it was too late.  Now, old lady, let's have a look
at you.  What have you been doing to yourself?  You've vanished to
nothing at all."

But she could pay no attention to his questions, she could only say
over and over, "It's Brand!  It's Brand!  It's my son!  It's my

"But here," he remonstrated at last, laughing, "we've got to begin
to be sensible.  What on earth are you doing here anyway?  What are
you doing in this miserable room, and you look half starved?"

But she could pay no attention to his questions.  She gazed into
his face as though she were quite crazy, her mouth open, her eyes
wide-staring, her hands moving ceaselessly about his body, his
hair, his face, his shoulders, his chest, his hands, her fingers
touching and holding, withdrawing and clutching again as though she
would never be sure of this new reality.  And he, looking at her,
discovered something of what he had done in leaving her for so long
without any word.  A passion of love caught him.  He put his arms
around her, held her close, whispering, "Darling Mother!  Darling
Mother!  I've been a bad neglectful son, but I've got you for keeps
now.  We will never be separated again."

So they stayed for a while, but Mrs. Amorest was no melting
sentimentalist.  She drew away from him at last and looking up at
him with the old sarcastic smile that he had known so well as a
small boy, and had been afraid of, too, said to him quite sharply,
"And so at last you've had time to think of your mother?  I fancy
you're just dropping in for five minutes on your journey somewhere
or another.  Well, we must be thankful for small mercies, I
suppose."  This opened the second stage of their proceedings.

"Now, Mother," Brand said, raising his long heavy body from the
little creaking bed, "it's about time we began our bit of talk.
You come along to this chair. . . .  Why, what's the dog?"  And
then more quickly "The dog's dead."

"Yes," she said, "he died ten minutes before you came in.  That's
one thing that had been upsetting me.  It's been an awful day."
She gave a little shudder.  "If you hadn't come--"

"Poor little beggar!  Was he your dog, Mother?  Had you had him a
long time?  Look here, we'll put him over there by the window."  He
picked up both the dog and the cushion and took them to the end of
the room.

He settled his mother in the arm-chair, tried one of the other
chairs for himself and found it impossibly small, pulled a pillow
finally off the bed and settled himself on the floor at her feet.

"Now," he said, looking up at her.  (Strange how quickly an old
familiar action can override the years; the touch of her fingers
upon his hair slew twenty years at one blow.)  "We've got to talk
seriously, madame.  And, first, I suppose you would like to know
why I came here, frightening you to death without a word

"Indeed I would," she said.  "I remember when you were a child of
five telling you that you never thought of others.  It's true now
as it was then."

"What a thing to tell a poor child!" he answered.  "But scold me.
I deserve it.  I deserve it horribly."  His voice fell to a graver
note:  "I've been a cad, Mother, in this--a perfect cad.  But
you'll understand it perhaps a little bit better--although there's
nothing to excuse it, mind--when I tell you that I have been
picturing you comfortably at Cheltenham with your friends and that
little house with the garden you told me about, and old Mr.
Somebody the parson, and young Mr. Somebody Else the banker.  I
thought you were having no end of a time."

"So I have been," she murmured, "having no end of a time."

"I haven't had a letter from you there for the last ever so long.
It's true that the last I had was from this town, but I fancied you
were here on a visit to your cousin or somebody.  Then I myself was
always expecting to come home.  Did you ever get a letter I wrote
from San Francisco just about a year ago?"

"Yes, I got it.  It was delayed a little, but I got it."

"That was before I went down to Los Angeles.  I'd had the world's
worst luck before that.  Things were always on the point of coming
right and just didn't, and then that illness in San Francisco
topped everything.  I ought to have been home a year and a half
ago.  Anyway down to Los Angeles I went, and the luck turned as I
hoped it would, right bang in my direction, has stayed there ever
since, and looks like staying!"

"What were you working at, dear?"

"Oil and land are the things there.  Of course, my little exploits
are pretty small at present, but if the place develops, as it seems
to me it's bound to, I stand to net a mighty pile.  Anyway I've
made enough, buying and selling, in the last six months, to settle
you comfortably for the rest of your days, old lady."

"It never occurred to you, I suppose," she asked, "that a letter or
a telegram to say that you were coming would have been natural and

"To tell you the truth, Mother," he burst out, kicking out his long
legs towards the fire, "I was all excited with the idea of bursting
in upon you.  You see, I saw you all set and cosy at Cheltenham,
having the vicar in to tea.  Many and many a time I pictured it to
myself, you sitting there, all cosy, with the curtains drawn and
the kettle humming and the cakes and bread and butter on the table
and the vicar telling you how good his last sermon was. . . .  Oh,
you know!  And me bursting in upon you like a bomb!  Why!  I meant
to give you the fright of your life--but I didn't think it would be
like this.  Whatever's been happening?  Where's your money gone?
You had plenty last time you wrote to me?"

"Plenty!" she smiled rather scornfully into the fire.  "That's not
exactly the word I'd use.  I don't suppose you ever gave a very
great deal of thought to the amount--you were never much for
details.  Don't ask me what has happened to it all.  Everything
just went down and down.  That's all I know.  That's all I ever
could understand from Mr. Agnew.  He used to try and explain
technical things to me.  I know some of it had to do with railways,
but the trains always seemed to me to be full whenever I went near
a railway station.  But stocks and shares are beyond me, and I've a
kind of idea they know I don't like them by the way they run away
from me."

He was serious enough by this time.  Behind her light tone he was
beginning to suspect something of what these last months had been
to her.

"How long have you been here?" he asked her sharply.  "In this
house?  These rooms?  I'm so late as I am because I missed the
train in London.  We got into Southampton early this morning.  I
went off to London the quickest possible, got some money and came
on to Cheltenham.  I wasn't there half an hour.  The post-office
told me where you were.  They had forwarded a letter, they told me,
only a week or so ago.  I was lucky enough to catch the train on--
and here I am!  But how long have you been in these horrible rooms?
Tell me."

"Oh, I don't know," she answered, smiling.  "Long enough to want to
get out of them!"

"Get out of them!" he cried, springing to his feet in a fury.  "You
shan't stay in them another hour!  By God, you shan't."

That was so like him she thought, looking up at him lovingly, and a
little sarcastically too.  To leave her for so long without inquiry
and then to be in a passion of rage at facts to which he had
himself contributed.  No imagination.  He never had had any, and
that was strange when his father had had so much.  Not like his
father at all, with his square thick-set head, his ugly nose, his
loose, big-limbed body.  She adored him so, as she looked at him,
that her hands moved with a little flutter of desire.  Then they
rested quietly on her lap, and, rather drily, she said:

"And suppose I don't want to move within the next hour?  I suppose
you've been ordering about people in America to such an extent that
you think you can do the same to me.  But you've never ordered your
mother about yet, and it's not likely that you'll begin now;
although I'm seventy and more, I'm not in my grave yet."

How quickly they were recovering their old relations!  He found
himself already beginning to defer to her, to fear, ever so
slightly but nevertheless sufficiently, the accuracy of her
sarcasm, and to adore in her, as he had always adored, her
independence and courage.  It had not been with him, at all, out of
sight and out of mind, but it WAS easier for him to realise things
and people when they were directly there in front of him.  He was
realising the old lady more strongly with every moment that passed,
and beginning already to wonder how it was that he had managed, for
so long, to get on without her.

He was walking about the room looking at the furniture, asking

"But tell me, Mother--you haven't really told me a thing--what made
you choose this place?  Is there any one else living here?  Was
that YOUR dog?  I must know everything."

"You must, must you?  I shall tell you only as much as is good for
you.  As a matter of fact there were three of us up at the top here--
two other old ladies beside myself, but poor Miss Beringer died
last night of heart failure.  And that's her dog."

Brand whistled.  "Died, did she?  That can't have made things any
more cheerful."  He looked down at the dog.  "Poor beggar--missed
his mistress."

"Yes."  Lucy Amorest's lip quivered.  "Poor May.  Oh! I wish she'd
lived just for a little while, and now that you're back, you and
I. . . ."  The tears filled her eyes.  She turned from him, bending
her head in her arm in a passion of sobbing.  At once he was with
her.  His arms were around her.  He held her close to him.  "Why,
Mother, what's the matter?  Here, old lady, bear up.  It's all
right now.  The trouble's all over.  We are going to have the most
glorious time.  It's all right.  It's all right."

"I know . . . I know," she sobbed.  "But May. . . .  It was my
fault. . . .  She died of fright, and I might have stayed with
her . . . and if you hadn't come I too . . .  I was so lonely, and
Agatha Payne coming in like that and the money going and no one
caring. . . .  Oh, Brand, if you hadn't come!"

"I know.  I know.  I've been a beast, a cad, a brute.  I'm so
selfish I deserve shooting.  I'll never forgive myself for this.
The trouble with me is that I never can realise anything unless I
see it, but I've learnt a lesson. . . ."

She pulled away from him, smiling, wiping her eyes.  "You'll be
just the same a month hence--you know you will.  But I gave birth
to you, so I suppose I'm responsible for you in a kind of a way.
I'm not going to think of these last months ever again.  Although I
am seventy-one I am going to begin life all over again."

"Indeed you are!" he cried.  "And you're going to begin it by
leaving this house within the next half-hour.  We'll go to the best
hotel in Polchester to-night, and to-morrow London!"

"And the first thing I do when I get to the hotel," she told him,
"will be to order a hot-water bottle.  I wouldn't like to tell you
how I've longed for one all this winter.  You can have a hot bath
when Mrs. Bloxam comes and lights the heater and all the rest of
it, but every night!  I should think not!"

"Mrs. Bloxam?  Who's she?" Brand asked.

And of all the miraculous and stupendous surprises who should come
in at that moment but Mrs. Bloxam herself!

"Oh, mum," she said, pausing in the doorway and becoming accustomed
to the candlelight after the deep dark of the stairway, "I couldn't
'elp coming to see 'ow you was getting on.  I was just giving
Bloxam 'is tea when I said to 'im, 'Bloxam,' I said, 'I'm not 'alf
comfortable in my mind about that poor Mrs. Hamorest with Miss
Bellringer dead beside 'er only a yard or two away'; and I put on
my shawl and come right acrost.  If it would make you easier, mum--"

Then she saw a man.  "Why, Lord bless us!" she cried.  "'Oo's

"Come in, Mrs. Bloxam, and meet my son.  He's come all the way from
America to look after me!"

"Why, what do you make of that!" cried Mrs. Bloxam.

"Brand, this is Mrs. Bloxam, who's been kinder to me than any one
else in the world.  If it hadn't been for her I don't believe you'd
have found your mother alive at all."

Brand gave Mrs. Bloxam so warm a greeting that she was more
confused than she had been for many a day.  She spoke breathlessly,
with deep sighs intermingled, as though she had been running for a
mile.  "Why, to think of that, and all the way from America; and I
always knew 'e was coming, didn't I, mum?  When you was losing
'eart I always thought different.  'Why, mum,' I said, 'of course
'e's coming!  Do you think a fine upstanding young man like that is
goin' to leave 'is very own mother without a word?'--with your
mother thinking all matter of dreadful things that you was dead and
buried and what all.  And only this very evening there was a
stranger in Bloxam's tea, which I pointed out to 'im as certain to
mean something good.  Well, glory be to God! and all the way from
America, and you're looking fine and 'ealthy, sir, if I may say so,
and the very spitting image of your mother too."

All this was very pleasant, and happiness reigned.

"There's a thing you can do for us, Mrs. Bloxam," Brand said, "and
that is get us a cab in about twenty minutes.  My mother isn't
going to stay in this horrible house another night."

"I'm sure you're right, sir," Mrs. Bloxam said, pulling herself up
a little.  "But as to 'orrible, I'm not so sure.  I've looked after
all my ladies to the best of my strength, and it's been none so
easy neither with Bloxam uncertain in 'is 'abits and three
children, which the youngest, Flossie, is always catching one thing
and another, poor worm.  I'm sure I've done my best and all them
stairs to climb, and two corpses within a six month.  Of course, it
ain't like a 'otel, and you couldn't expect it to be with one of
these old-fashioned 'ouses, and the water 'aving to be 'eated every
time there's a bath, which takes hours and hours.  All the same,
I'm sorry not to 'ave given satisfaction, and me workin' morning
and night as you may say, seein' that Bloxam is often not in of a
night till three in the mornin'--"

Mrs. Amorest put her arm around Mrs. Bloxam and kissed her on her
crimson cheek.  "You've been an angel to me, Mrs. Bloxam.  My son
meant that the house isn't very bright and cheerful, and you know
yourself you've often said so."

Happiness was restored.  Mrs. Bloxam departed to discover a cab.

"And now--what am I to take and what am I to leave?" Mrs. Amorest
cried, looking about the room.

"You're to take nothing but what you'll want for the night and for
a few days in London," Brand answered.  "We'll have the other
things sent on."

"And the silver match-box," said Mrs. Amorest.

"Hullo! who gave you that?"

"My cousin.  He left it me in his will."

"Is that all he left you?  Stingy beggar!"

"Oh no, Brand.  There was no reason why he should leave me

When she had placed her few things in her bag she knew that there
was something further that she must do.  She must go in and say
good-bye to Agatha Payne.  How she shrank from it!  That other
world!  She had abandoned it for ever--oh, surely for ever?  To
return, even for a moment, filled her with dismay.  But go she

"Wait here for me, Brand," she said, "I must go across the passage
and say good-bye to my neighbour."  She looked at him with longing:

"You won't be gone while I'm away, will you?"

He hugged her and kissed her.  "I won't move," he assured her.

"I don't trust you," she answered, nodding her head at him.  "If I
don't keep you in sight you may be in America."

She knocked on Agatha Payne's door and entered.

Within it was as though some spell had been removed.  Always in
that room with its close air, obscurity and old green picture, she
had been conscious of discomfort and apprehension.  Now because all
was at last well with her, and she had passed back again into her
own natural kingdom of light and air and happiness, she saw only an
old woman rocking herself before a fading fire, a shabby tablecloth
scattered with dirty playing-cards, a guttering candle.

But something had happened to Mrs. Payne.  As she turned at the
sound of the opening door Lucy Amorest could see that she was ill,
her cheeks flabby and grey, her eyes wandering and excited.
Something of her own fear was returning.  Oh, thank God! thank God!
that so soon she was escaping.

"Agatha," she said gently, "I've come to say goodbye."

Agatha Payne continued to rock herself as though she had not heard.

"I've come to say good-bye."

"Good-bye?  Where are you going?"

"My son's come.  Brand.  And you said he wouldn't."  (She could not
keep back that tiny triumph.)  "You see I was right after all.  He
came this evening.  We are leaving in a quarter of an hour."

"Don't bother me with your nonsense," Agatha said.  "I'll believe
in your son when I see him."

"No, but it's true," Lucy Amorest persisted.  "He's in my room now.
We are going to a hotel for to-night and to London to-morrow."

But the other woman was pursuing her own thoughts.

"Lucy," she said, "come here."

Mrs. Amorest went close to her.  Agatha Payne laid a hand on her
arm.  "Listen!  Do you hear anything?"

Lucy listened.  "No, nothing," she said.

"Don't you hear any one knocking on the wall?"


"But you must.  Listen again.  Do you hear now?"

"No, I don't."

"But it's quite clear.  There!  Now you can hear it.  She's mocking
me because I did it to her.  She'll be at it all night."

"It's the tap you hear, Agatha--the tap in the passage!"

"You were always a fool."  She gripped Mrs. Amorest's arm more
tightly.  "Now you can hear it.  One--two--one--two. . . .  I'll
beat her at that.  I'll beat her."

She lurched to her feet and, leaning forward, knocked on her wall
three or four times, pausing between the strokes.  She looked
round, a grim triumph on her sullen face.  "Ah!  Now she's stopped!
That will keep her quiet for a bit."

Lucy Amorest moved away.  "Agatha, there isn't any one.  Truly
there isn't.  You're imagining it."  She had a passionate desire
now to leave the room.  Brand, all the life he brought with him,
was receding.  He was less real.  Agatha Payne was real, and they
did not belong to the same worlds, Brand and she.  "Agatha, listen.
You must listen.  I'm going away--now, at once.  I must go away."

Agatha Payne turned upon her.  "Going away?  Oh no, you're not.
What! leave me in this house all alone with that Beringer woman!
Oh no!  You don't!  You try it, that's all!"

"But I am.  I must.  My boy's here."

Agatha moved to the door and set her back to it.

"You don't leave this house--not while I'm alive in it."

Mrs. Amorest felt panic, as she had felt it earlier in the
afternoon, slip over her.  Where was Brand?  Oh, why had she left
him?  If she called to him he would not hear.  What should she do?
And she was worn out with the troubles and the joys of that day.
No strength was left in her.

"I must go.  Please, Agatha.  My boy's waiting."

"Your boy!"  Agatha Payne answered scornfully.  "That's a trick.
I know you, Lucy Amorest.  You were always a little liar."

"No, but it's true.  Come with me into my room and see.  You'll
feel better in my room.  It's staying in here all day by yourself
that's so bad for you.  Come with me and meet him."

"I won't come," she answered sulkily.  "And you'll stay here.
We'll stay here all night, the two of us, and when SHE comes she'll
have two to deal with."

"But it isn't true, Agatha.  She can't touch you.  She's dead.  She
is indeed."

"Dead!  I know better than that!  You're a little liar, Lucy
Amorest.  That's what you are!"

"No.  Come with me into her room.  You can see.  Say a prayer with
me beside her bed.  You won't be frightened any more after that.
Come with me."

Her fear had left her.  Its place was taken by pity.  Something in
Agatha Payne's eyes--something lost, wandering, hopelessly lonely--
touched her very heart.

She went to her and kissed her.

Agatha Payne moved from the door.  "You can go if you like," she
said.  "I don't want you.  You can't help me.  She'd never be
afraid of you, you feeble little thing!"

"Tell me some way I can help you, something I can do."

"I don't want your help."  She went back to her rocking-chair and
sat down.  "You can't help me!  It's between US--and I'll beat her

She sat there, rocking, staring at the fire.  She did not look
round again, and so Lucy Amorest left her.

Brand was waiting.  "The cab's here!" he cried.  "Everything's
ready.  Now, old lady, step out and the sooner we leave THIS place
behind us the better!"

Mrs. Bloxam was downstairs, the cab was waiting.  Something that
Brand placed in Mrs. Bloxam's hand at parting gave her exceeding
joy.  She shed a number of her happy and facile tears.

The old cab stumbled off across the cobbles.  Brand put his arm
about his mother and drew her close to him.  She had, for a moment,
a vision of the house, dead, with blind eyes, and in that upstairs
room a woman alone, waiting and listening--no sound anywhere but
the dripping of the tap in the hall.

Then her own joy wrapt the rest of the world away from her.

"Oh dear," she murmured, sighing with contented peace.  "Is it
right, do you think, to be so happy?"


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