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Title:      Days Without End (1934)
Author:     Eugene O'Neill (1888-1953)
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Title:      Days Without End (1934)
Author:     Eugene O'Neill (1888-1953)





To CARLOTTA



CHARACTERS

(In the order in which they appear)

JOHN

LOVING

WILLIAM ELIOT

FATHER MATTHEW BAIRD

ELSA, John Loving's wife

MARGARET

LUCY HILLMAN

DR. HERBERT STILLWELL

NURSE




SCENES

ACT ONE

PLOT FOR A NOVEL

Scene--John Loving's office in the offices of Eliot and Company,
New York City--an afternoon in early Spring, 1932.

ACT TWO

PLOT FOR A NOVEL (CONTINUED)

Scene--Living-room of the Lovings' duplex apartment--later the same
afternoon.

ACT THREE

PLOT FOR A NOVEL (CONTINUED)

Scene One--The living-room again--evening of the same day.

Scene Two--John Loving's study--later that night.

ACT FOUR

THE END OF THE END

Scene One--The study and Elsa's bedroom--a little before dawn of a
day about a week later.

Scene Two--The interior of a church--a few minutes later.




Days Without End



ACT ONE

Plot for a Novel


SCENE--John Loving's private office in the offices of Eliot and
Company, New York City.  On the left, a window.  Before it, a
chair, its back to the window, and a table.  At rear of table, an
armchair, facing front.  A third chair is at right of table.  In
the rear wall, a door leading to the outer offices.  At center of
the room, toward right, another chair.

It is afternoon of a cloudy day in Spring, 1932.  The light from
the window is chill and gray.  At the rise of the curtain, this
light is concentrated around the two figures seated at the table.
As the action goes on, the light imperceptibly spreads until, at
the close of the opening scene between John and Loving, it has
penetrated to all parts of the room.

John is seated in the chair at left of desk.  He is forty, of
medium height.  His face is handsome, with the rather heavy,
conventional American type of good looks--a straight nose and a
square jaw, a wide mouth that has an incongruous feminine
sensitiveness, a broad forehead, blue eyes.  He is dressed in a
dark suit, white shirt and collar, a dark tie, black shoes and
socks.

Loving sits in the armchair at rear of table.  He is the same age,
of the same height and figure, is dressed in every detail exactly
the same.  His hair is the same--dark, streaked with gray.  In
contrast to this similarity between the two, there is an equally
strange dissimilarity.  For Loving's face is a mask whose features
reproduce exactly the features of John's face--the death mask of a
John who has died with a sneer of scornful mockery on his lips.
And this mocking scorn is repeated in the expression of the eyes
which stare bleakly from behind the mask.

John nervously writes a few words on a pad--then stops abruptly and
stares before him.  Loving watches him.


LOVING--(his voice singularly toneless and cold but at the same
time insistent)  Surely, you don't need to make any more notes for
the second part--your hero's manhood up to the time he (a sneer
comes into his voice) at last finds love.  I should think you could
remember that--only too well.

JOHN--(mechanically)  Yes.

LOVING--(sneeringly)  As for the third part, I know you have the
most vivid recollection of his terrible sin.

JOHN--Don't mock, damn you!

LOVING--So it's only in the last part that you will have to use
your imagination.  How are you going to end this interesting plot
of yours?  Given your hero's ridiculous conscience, what happens
then?

JOHN--He has the courage to confess--and she forgives.

LOVING--The wish is father to that thought, eh?  A pretty,
sentimental ending--but a bit too pointed, don't you think?  I'm
afraid she might begin to wonder--

JOHN--(apprehensively)  Yes.  That's true.

LOVING--I advise you to make the last part so obviously fictitious
that it will kill any suspicion which might be aroused by what has
gone before.

JOHN--How can I end it, then?

LOVING--(after a second's pause--in a voice he tries to make casual
but which is indefinably sinister)  Why not have the wife die?

JOHN--(starts--with a shudder)  Damn you!  What makes you think of
that?

LOVING--Why, nothing--except I thought you'd agreed that the
further removed from present actuality you make your ending, the
better it will be.

JOHN--Yes--but--

LOVING--(mockingly)  I hope you don't suspect some hidden, sinister
purpose behind my suggestion.

JOHN--I don't know.  I feel--(then as if desperately trying to
shake off his thoughts)  No!  I won't think of it!

LOVING--And I was thinking, too, that it would be interesting to
work out your hero's answer to his problem, if his wife died, and
imagine what he would do with his life then.

JOHN--No!  Damn you, stop making me think--!

LOVING--Afraid to face your ghosts--even by proxy?  Surely, even
you can have that much courage!

JOHN--It is dangerous--to call things.

LOVING--Still superstitious?  Well, I hope you realize I'm only
trying to encourage you to make something of this plot of yours
more significant--for your soul, shall I say?--than a cowardly
trick!

JOHN--You know it's more than that.  You know I'm doing it to try
and explain to myself, as well as to her.

LOVING--(sneeringly)  To excuse yourself to yourself, you mean!  To
lie and escape admitting the obvious natural reason for--

JOHN--You lie!  I want to get at the real truth and understand what
was behind--what evil spirit of hate possessed me to make me--

LOVING--(contemptuously--but as he goes on a strange defiant note
of exultance comes into his voice.)  So it's come back to that
again, eh?  Your old familiar nightmare!  You poor, damned
superstitious fool!  I tell you again what I have always told you:
There is nothing--nothing to hope for, nothing to fear--neither
devils nor gods--nothing at all!  (There is a knock on the door at
rear.  John immediately pretends to be writing.  At the same time
his features automatically assume the meaninglessly affable
expression which is the American business man's welcoming poker
face.  Loving sits motionlessly regarding him with scornful eyes.)

JOHN--(without looking up, calls)  Come in.  (The door in rear is
half opened and William Eliot, John Loving's partner, looks in.  He
is about forty, stout, with a prematurely bald head, a round face,
a humorous, good-natured mouth, small eyes behind horn-rimmed
spectacles.)

ELIOT--Hello, John.  Busy?

JOHN--Foolish question, Bill.

ELIOT--(His eyes pass over Loving without seeing him.  He does not
see him now or later.  He sees and hears only John, even when
Loving speaks.  And it will be so with all the characters.  They
are quite unaware of Loving's existence, although at times one or
another may subtly sense his presence.  Eliot comes forward.  He
says jokingly)  You sound downhearted, John.  Don't let our little
depression get you.  There's always the poorhouse.  Quite cozy,
too, they say.  Peace for the weary--

LOVING--(cuts in--mockingly)  There is much to be said for peace.

ELIOT--(as if it were John who had spoken)  Yes, John, there sure
is--these damned days.  (then giving John a glance of concern)
Look here.  I think our troubles are getting your nerve.  You've
seemed worn ragged lately.  Why not take a few days in the country?

JOHN--Nonsense!  I'm fine.  (forcing a humorous tone)  What,
besides the poorhouse, is on your mind, Bill?

ELIOT--Nothing but lunch.  Ate too much again, damn it.  What were
you doping out when I came in?  Got some new scheme for us?

JOHN--No.

LOVING--Merely trying to work out the answer to a puzzle--a human
puzzle.

JOHN--(hurriedly)  That is, I'm playing around with a plot for a
novel that's come into my mind lately.

ELIOT--(with amused surprise)  What?  Good God, don't tell me the
literary bug is biting you again?  I thought you'd got that out of
your system long ago when you got engaged to Elsa and decided to
come in with me and make some money.

JOHN--Well, I thought I might as well do something with all this
leisure.  Oh, I'll probably never write it, but it's amusing to
dope out.

ELIOT--Why shouldn't you write it?  You certainly showed you could
write in the old days--articles, anyway.  (then with a grin)  Why,
I can remember when I couldn't pick up an advanced-thinker organ
without running into a red-hot article of yours denouncing
Capitalism or religion or something.

JOHN--(smiling good-naturedly)  You always did have a mean memory,
Bill.

ELIOT--(laughs)  God, John, how you've changed!  What hymns of hate
you used to emit against poor old Christianity!  Why, I remember
one article where you actually tried to prove that no such figure
as Christ had ever existed.

LOVING--(his tone suddenly cold and hostile)  I still feel the same
on that subject.

ELIOT--(gives John a surprised glance)  Feel?  Can't understand any
one having feelings any more on such a dead issue as religion.

JOHN--(confused)  Well, to tell the truth, I haven't given it a
thought in years, but--(then hurriedly)  But, for Pete's sake,
let's not get started on religion.

ELIOT--(changes the subject tactfully)  Tell me about this novel of
yours, John.  What's it all about?

JOHN--Nothing to tell yet.  I haven't got it finally worked out.

LOVING--The most important part, that is--the end.

JOHN--(in a joking tone)  But when I have, Bill, I'll be only too
glad to get your esteemed criticism.

ELIOT--That's a promise, remember--(then getting up)  Well, I
suppose I better get back to my office.  (He starts for the door--
then turns back.)  Oh, I knew there was something I'd forgotten to
tell you.  Lucy Hillman called up while you were out.

JOHN--(carelessly)  Yes?  What did she want?

ELIOT--Wanted you.  Got my office by mistake.  She'll call up
later.  It was important, she said to tell you.

JOHN--Her idea of important!  Probably wants my advice on what to
give Walter for a birthday present.

ELIOT--What the devil's got into Walter lately, anyway?  Getting
drunk as a pastime may have its points, but as an exclusive
occupation--Not to mention all his affairs with women.  How does
Lucy stand it?  But I hear she's going to pieces, too.

JOHN--I don't believe it.  She isn't the kind to have affairs.

ELIOT--I don't mean that.  I mean booze.

JOHN--Oh.  Well, if it's true, you can hardly blame her.

ELIOT--There are children, aren't there?  Why hasn't she the guts
to divorce him?

JOHN--Don't ask me.  We haven't seen much of Lucy, either, for a
long time.  (He dismisses the subject by looking down at his pad,
as if he wanted to start writing.)

ELIOT--(taking the hint)  Well, I'll move along.

JOHN--See you later, Bill.  (Eliot goes out, rear.  After the door
closes behind him John speaks tensely.)  Why did she phone?
Important, she said.  What can have happened?

LOVING--(coldly)  Who knows?  But you know very well she can't be
trusted.  You'd better be prepared for any stupid folly.  And
better get the end of your novel decided upon, so you can tell your
plot--before it's too late.

JOHN--(tensely)  Yes.

LOVING--(the hidden sinister note again creeping into his coldly
casual tone)  There can be only one sensible, logical end for your
hero, after he has lost his wife forever--that is, provided he
loves her as much as he boasts to himself he does--and if he has
any honor or courage left!

JOHN--(gives a start--then bitterly)  Ah!  I see now what you're
driving at!  And you talk of courage and honor!  (defiantly)  No!
He must go on!  He must find a faith--somewhere!

LOVING--(an undercurrent of anger in his sneering)  Somewhere, eh?
Now I wonder what hides behind that somewhere?  Is it your old
secret weakness--the cowardly yearning to go back--?

JOHN--(defensively)  I don't know what you're thinking about.

LOVING--You lie!  I know you!  And I'll make you face it in the end
of your story--face it and kill it, finally and forever!  (There is
again a knock on the door and John's eyes go to his pad.  This time
Eliot comes in immediately, without waiting for an answer.)

JOHN--Hello, Bill.  What's up now?

ELIOT--(comes forward, a twinkle in his eye)  John, there's a
mysterious visitor outside demanding to see you.

JOHN--You mean--Lucy?

ELIOT--Lucy?  No.  This is a man.  He ran into me before he got to
Miss Sims and asked for you.  (grinning)  And as it's liable to be
a bitter blow, I thought I better break the news in person.

JOHN--What's the joke?  Who is it?

ELIOT--It's a priest.

JOHN--A priest?

LOVING--(harshly)  I don't know any priests!  Tell him to get out!

ELIOT--Now don't be disrespectful.  He claims he's your uncle.

JOHN--My uncle?  Did he give his name?

ELIOT--Yes.  Father Baird.  Said he'd just got in from the West.

JOHN--(dumbfounded--forcing a smile)  Well, I'll be damned.

ELIOT--(laughs)  My God, think of you having a priest for an uncle!
That's too rich!

JOHN--I haven't seen him since I was a boy.

ELIOT--Why so scared?  Afraid he's come to lecture you on your
sins?

LOVING--(angrily)  He may be a joke to you.  He's not to me, damn
him!

ELIOT--(gives John a surprised, disapproving glance)  Oh, come,
John.  Not as bad as that, is it?  He struck me as a nice old guy.

JOHN--(hurriedly)  He is.  I didn't mean that.  I always liked him.
He was very kind to me when I was a kid.  He acted as my guardian
for a while.  But I wish he'd given me warning.  (then picking up
the telephone)  Well, it's rotten to keep him cooling his heels.
Hello.  Send Father Baird in.

ELIOT--(turning to the door)  I'll get out.

JOHN--No, as a favor, stay around until the ice is broken.  (He has
gotten up and is going toward the door.  Loving remains in his
chair, his eyes fixed before him in a hostile stare, his body
tensed defensively.)

ELIOT--Sure.  (A knock comes on the door.  John opens it and Father
Matthew Baird enters.  He is seventy, about John and Loving's
height, erect, robust, with thick white hair, ruddy complexion.
There is a clear resemblance to John and Loving in the general cast
of his features and the color of his eyes.  His appearance and
personality radiate health and observant kindliness--also the
confident authority of one who is accustomed to obedience and
deference--and one gets immediately from him the sense of an
unshakable inner calm and certainty, the peace of one whose goal in
life is fixed by an end beyond life.)

JOHN--(constrained and at the same time affectionate)  Hello,
Uncle!  What in the world brings you--

FATHER BAIRD--(clasping John's hand in a strong grip)  Jack!  (His
manner is very much what it must have been when John was a boy and
he was the guardian.  Deeply moved, he puts his arm around John and
gives him an affectionate hug.)  My dear Jack!  This is--(He sees
Eliot and stops, a bit embarrassed.)

JOHN--(moved and embarrassed, getting away from his arm)  I want
you to meet my partner--Bill Eliot--my uncle, Father Baird.

ELIOT--It's a great pleasure, Father.

FATHER BAIRD--(shakes his hand--a formal, old-fashioned courtesy in
his manner)  The pleasure is mine, Mr. Eliot.  But I feel I've had
the privilege of your acquaintance already through Jack's letters.

JOHN--Sit down, Uncle.  (He indicates the chair at right of desk.
Father Baird sits down.  John sits in his chair at left.  Eliot
stands by the chair at right, center.)

ELIOT--Well, I'll leave you two alone and pretend to be busy.
That's the hardest job we have now, Father--keeping up the pretense
of work.

FATHER BAIRD--You have plenty of company, if that's any consolation.
I get the same tale of woe from every one in our part of the
country.

ELIOT--I'm afraid the company doesn't console a bit.  They're all
too darned whiney.

FATHER BAIRD--(a twinkle coming into his eye)  Ah, who can blame
you for whining when your omnipotent Golden Calf explodes into
sawdust before your adoring eyes right at the height of his
deification?  It's tragic, no other word--unless the word be comic.

LOVING--(his voice a mocking sneer)  And what salvation for us are
you preaching?  The Second Coming?

FATHER BAIRD--(startled, turns to stare at John.  Eliot also looks
at him, surprised and disapproving of this taunt.  Father Baird
says quietly, without any sign of taking offense)  The First Coming
is enough, Jack--for those who remember it.  (Then he turns to
Eliot--in a joking tone)  If you knew how familiar that note sounds
from him, Mr. Eliot.  Here I've been feeling strange, looking at
him and seeing what a big man of affairs he'd grown, and saying to
myself, can this be my old Jack?  And then he has to go and give
himself away with a strain of his old bold whistling in the dark,
and I see he's still only out of short pants a while, as I knew him
last!  (He gives a comic sigh of relief.)  Thank you, Jack.  I feel
quite at home with you now.

ELIOT--(immensely amused, especially at the expression of boyish
discomfiture on John's face--laughingly)  John, I begin to feel
sorry for you.  You've picked on some one out of your class.

FATHER BAIRD--(with a wink at Eliot)  Did you hear him throw the
word preaching in my face, Mr. Eliot--with a dirty sneer in his
voice?  There's injustice for you.  If you knew what a burden he
made my life for years with his preaching.  Letter upon letter--
each with a soap box inclosed, so to speak.  The plague began right
after I'd had to go West and leave him to his own devices.  He was
about to pass out of my guardianship and go to college with the bit
of money his parents had left for him when he reached eighteen.  So
I had to let him go his own way.  I'd learned it was no use
fighting him, anyway.  I'd done that and found it was a great
satisfaction to him and only made him worse.  And I had faith, if
let alone, he'd come back to his senses in the end.

LOVING--(sneeringly)  And how mistaken you were in that faith!

FATHER BAIRD--(without turning--quietly)  No.  The end isn't yet,
Jack.  (He goes on to Eliot with a renewal of his humorously
complaining tone.)  You wouldn't believe what a devil's advocate he
was in those days, Mr. Eliot.

ELIOT--You needn't tell me, Father.  I was his classmate.  He
organized an Atheists' Club--or tried to--and almost got fired for
it.

FATHER BAIRD--Yes, I remember his writing to boast about that.
Well, you can appreciate then what I went through, even if he
didn't write you letters.

ELIOT--But he delivered harangues, Father, when he could get
anybody to listen!

FATHER BAIRD--(pityingly)  Ah, that must have been cruel, too.  Mr.
Eliot, I feel drawn to you.  We've been through the same frightful
trials.

JOHN--(with a boyishly discomfited air)  I hope you're having a
good time, you two.

FATHER BAIRD--(ignoring him)  Not a moment's peace did he give me.
I was the heathen to him and he was bound he'd convert me to
something.  First it was Atheism unadorned.  Then it was Atheism
wedded to Socialism.  But Socialism proved too weak-kneed a mate,
and the next I heard Atheism was living in free love with
Anarchism, with a curse by Nietzsche to bless the union.  And then
came the Bolshevik dawn, and he greeted that with unholy howls of
glee and wrote me he'd found a congenial home at last in the bosom
of Karl Marx.  He was particularly delighted when he thought they'd
abolished love and marriage, and he couldn't contain himself when
the news came they'd turned naughty schoolboys and were throwing
spit-balls at Almighty God and had supplanted Him with the slave-
owning State--the most grotesque god that ever came out of Asia!

ELIOT--(chuckling)  I recognize all this, Father.  I used to read
his articles, as I was reminding him just before you came.

FATHER BAIRD--Don't I know them!  Didn't he send me every one with
blue pencil underlinings!  But to get back to my story:  Thinks I
at this juncture, well, he's run away as far as he can get in that
direction.  Where will he hide himself next?

LOVING--(stiffening in his chair--with angry resentment)  Run away?
You talk as if I were afraid of something.  Hide?  Hide from what?

FATHER BAIRD--(without turning--quietly)  Don't you know, Jack?
Well, if you don't yet, you will some day.  (again to Eliot)  I
knew Communism wouldn't hold him long--and it didn't.  Soon his
letters became full of pessimism, and disgust with all sociological
nostrums.  Then followed a long silence.  And what do you think was
his next hiding place?  Religion, no less--but as far away as he
could run from home--in the defeatist mysticism of the East.  First
it was China and Lao Tze that fascinated him, but afterwards he ran
on to Buddha, and his letters for a time extolled passionless
contemplation so passionately that I had a mental view of him
regarding his navel frenziedly by the hour and making nothing of
it!  (Eliot laughs and John chuckles sheepishly in spite of
himself.  Loving stares before him with a cold, angry disdain.)

ELIOT--Gosh, I'm sorry I missed that!  When was all this, Father?

FATHER BAIRD--In what I'd call his middle hide-and-go-seek period.
But the next I knew, he was through with the East.  It was not for
the Western soul, he decided, and he was running through Greek
philosophy and found a brief shelter in Pythagoras and numerology.
Then came a letter which revealed him bogged down in evolutionary
scientific truth again--a dyed-in-the-wool mechanist.  That was the
last I heard of his peregrinations--and, thank heaven, it was long
ago.  I enjoyed a long interval of peace from his missionary zeal,
until finally he wrote me he was married.  That letter was full of
more ardent hymns of praise for a mere living woman than he'd ever
written before about any of his great spiritual discoveries.  And
ever since then I've heard nothing but the praises of Elsa--in
which I know I'll be ready to join after I've met her.

JOHN--(his face lighting up)  You bet you will!  We can agree on
that, at least.

FATHER BAIRD--(with a wink at Eliot)  He seems to be fixed in his
last religion.  I hope so.  The only constant faith I've found in
him before was his proud belief in himself as a bold Antichrist.
(He gives John a side glance, half smiling and half reproachful.)
Ah well, it's a rocky road, full of twists and blind alleys, isn't
it, Jack--this running away from truth in order to find it?  I
mean, until the road finally turns back toward home.

LOVING--(with harsh defiance)  You believe I--?  (then sneeringly)
But, of course, you would read that into it.

JOHN--(bursts out irritably, as if be couldn't control his nerves)
But don't you think I'm about exhausted as a subject, Uncle?  I do.
(He gets up nervously and moves around and stands behind Loving's
chair, his hands on the back of the chair, his face directly above
Loving's masked one.)

ELIOT--(gives the priest an amused smile)  Well, I'll get back to
my office.  (Father Baird gets up and he shakes his hand heartily.)
I hope we'll meet again, Father.  Are you here for long?

FATHER BAIRD--Only a few days, I'm afraid.

JOHN--(coming around to them)  I'll fix up something with Elsa for
the four of us, Bill--as soon as she's feeling stronger.  We won't
let him run away in a few days, now we've got him here.

ELIOT--Fine!  See you again, then, Father.  (He goes toward the
door.)

FATHER BAIRD--I hope so, Mr. Eliot.  Good day to you.

ELIOT--(with the door open, turns back with a grin)  I feel it my
duty, Father, to warn you that John's got writer's itch again.
He's going to give us a novel.  (He laughs and closes the door
behind him.  John frowns and gives his uncle a quick uneasy
glance.)

JOHN--(indicating the chair at right, center)  Take that chair,
Uncle.  It's more comfortable.  (He sits down in the chair at right
of table where Father Baird had sat, while the priest sits in the
one at right, center.  Father Baird gives him a puzzled, concerned
look, as if he were trying to figure something out.  Then he speaks
casually.)

FATHER BAIRD--A novel?  Is that right, Jack?

JOHN--(without looking at him)  Thinking of it--to pass the time.

FATHER BAIRD--Then, judging from your letters, it ought to be a
love story.

JOHN--It is--a love story.

LOVING--(mockingly)  About God's love for us!

FATHER BAIRD--(quietly rebuking)  Jack!  (A pause of silence.
Father Baird gives John a quick glance again--then casually)  If
you've any appointments, don't stand on ceremony; just shoo me out.

JOHN--(turns to him shamefacedly)  Don't talk that way, Uncle.  You
know I wouldn't--(with a natural, boyishly affectionate smile)  You
know darned well how tickled I am to have you here.

FATHER BAIRD--I hope you're half as glad as I am to see you, Jack.
(He sighs.)  It has been a long time--too long.

JOHN--Yes.  (smiling)  But I'm still flabbergasted.  I never
dreamed you--Why didn't you wire me you were coming?

FATHER BAIRD--Oh, I thought I'd surprise you.  (He smiles.)  To
tell you the truth, I confess I had a sneaking Sherlock Holmes
desire to have a good look at you before you were expecting it.

JOHN--(frowning--uneasily)  Why?  Why should you?

FATHER BAIRD--Well, I suppose because, not having seen you, I'm
afraid that to me you were still the boy I'd known, and I was still
your suspicious guardian.

JOHN--(relieved--with a boyish grin)  Oh!  I see.

FATHER BAIRD--And now I have seen you, I still must admit that the
gray in your hair is lost on me, and I can't get it out of my head
you're the same old Jack.

JOHN--(grinning with a boyish discomfiture)  Yes, and the devil of
it is you make me feel that way, too.  It's an unfair advantage,
Uncle.  (Father Baird laughs and John joins in.)

FATHER BAIRD--Well, I never took unfair advantage of you in the old
days, did I?

JOHN--You certainly didn't.  When I look back, I'm amazed you could
have been so fair.  (quickly--changing the subject)  But you
haven't told me yet how you happened to come East.

FATHER BAIRD--(a bit evasively)  Oh, I decided a vacation was due
me.  And I've had a great longing for some time to see you again.

JOHN--I only wish I could have you stay with us, but there's no
room.  But you must have dinner with us to-night, and every night
you're here, of course.

FATHER BAIRD--Yes, I'd like to see all of you I can.  But there's
this, Jack.  You spoke to Mr. Eliot as if Elsa were ill.

JOHN--Oh, it's nothing serious.  She's just getting over the flu,
and still feels a bit low.

FATHER BAIRD--Then I'd better not come to-night.

JOHN--You better had or she'll never forgive you--or me!

FATHER BAIRD--Very well.  I'm only too happy.  (A pause.  He
glances at John again with a curious puzzled fixity.  John catches
his eyes, is held by them for a moment, then looks away almost
furtively.)

JOHN--(forcing a smile)  Is that the suspicious guardian look?
I've forgotten.

FATHER BAIRD--(as if to himself--slowly)  I feel--(then suddenly)
There's something I want to tell you, Jack.  (A stern note comes
into his voice.)  But first give me your word of honor there will
be no cheap sneering.

JOHN--(stares at him, taken aback--then quietly)  There won't be.

FATHER BAIRD--Well, it's often come to me in the past that I
shouldn't have let you get so far from me, that I might be in part
responsible for your continued estrangement from your Faith.

LOVING--(with mocking scorn)  My faith?

JOHN--You know that's nonsense, Uncle.

LOVING--You have always nobly done your duty.  You've never let a
letter pass without some pious reminder of my fall--with the calm
assurance that I would again see the light.  That never failed to
make me laugh--your complacent assumption that like the Prodigal of
His fairy tale, I--

FATHER BAIRD--(sharply)  Jack!  You promised!

JOHN--(confusedly)  I know.  I didn't mean--Go on with what you
started to tell me.

FATHER BAIRD--First answer me frankly one question.  Have you been
greatly troubled in spirit by anything lately?

JOHN--(startled)  I?  Why do you ask that?  Of course not.  (then
evasively)  Oh, well--yes, maybe, if you mean business worries.

FATHER BAIRD--Nothing else?

JOHN--No.  What could there be?

FATHER BAIRD--(unconvinced--looking away)  The reason I asked--
You'll see in what I'm going to tell you.  It happened one night
while I was praying for you in my church, as I have every day since
I left you.  A strange feeling of fear took possession of me--a
feeling you were unhappy, in some great spiritual danger.  I told
myself it was foolish.  I'd had a letter from you only that day,
reiterating how happy you were.  I tried to lose my dread in
prayer--and my guilt.  Yes, I felt stricken with guilt, too--that I
was to blame for whatever was happening to you.  Then, as I prayed,
suddenly as if by some will outside me, my eyes were drawn to the
Cross, to the face of Our Blessed Lord.  And it was like a miracle!
His face seemed alive as a living man's would be, but radiant with
eternal life, too, especially the sad, pitying eyes.  But there was
a sternness in His eyes, too, an accusation against me--a command
about you!  (He breaks off and gives John a quick glance, as if
afraid of finding him sneering.  Then, looking away, he adds
simply)  That's the real reason I decided to take my vacation in
the East, Jack.

JOHN--(stares at him fascinatedly)  You saw--?

LOVING--(in a bitter, sneering tone)  It could hardly have been any
concern for me you saw in His face--even if He did exist or ever
had existed!

FATHER BAIRD--(sternly)  Jack!  (then, after a pause, quietly)  Do
you know Francis Thompson's poem--The Hound of Heaven?

LOVING--I did once.  Why?

FATHER BAIRD--(quotes in a low voice but with deep feeling)


     "Ah, fondest, blindest, weakest,
      I am He Whom thou seekest!
      Thou dravest love from thee, who dravest Me."


LOVING--(in what is close to a snarl of scorn)  Love!

JOHN--(defensively)  I have love!

FATHER BAIRD--(as if he hadn't heard)  Why do you run and hide from
Him, as from an enemy?  Take care.  There comes a time in every
man's life when he must have his God for friend, or he has no
friend at all, not even himself.  Who knows?  Perhaps you are on
the threshold of that time now.

JOHN--(uneasily)  What do you mean?

FATHER BAIRD--I don't know.  It's for you to know that.  You say
you have love?

JOHN--You know I have.  Or, if you don't, you soon will after
you've met Elsa.

FATHER BAIRD--I'm not doubting your love for her nor hers for you.
It's exactly because I do not doubt.  I am thinking that such love
needs the hope and promise of eternity to fulfill itself--above
all, to feel itself secure.  Beyond the love for each other should
be the love of God, in Whose Love yours may find the triumph over
death.

LOVING--(sneeringly)  Old superstition, born of fear!  Beyond death
there is nothing.  That, at least, is certain--a certainty we
should be thankful for.  One life is boring enough.  Do not condemn
us to another.  Let us rest in peace at last!

FATHER BAIRD--(quietly)  Would you talk that way if Elsa should
die?

JOHN--(with a shudder)  For God's sake, don't speak about--

LOVING--Do you think I haven't imagined her death many times?

JOHN--The dread of it has haunted me ever since we were married.

FATHER BAIRD--Ah.

LOVING--You'll see that I face it--by proxy, at least--in my novel.
(a sneering taunt in his voice)  I think you'll be interested in
this novel, Uncle.

FATHER BAIRD--(staring at John, whose face is averted)  It's
autobiographical, then?

JOHN--(hastily)  No.  Of course not.  I only meant--Don't get that
idea in your head, for Pete's sake.  As I explained to Elsa, when I
told her about the first part, it's really the story of a man I
once knew.

LOVING--The first part will particularly interest you, Uncle.  I am
afraid you will be terribly shocked--especially in the light of
your recent mystic vision!

FATHER BAIRD--I'm very curious to hear it, Jack.  When will you
tell me?

LOVING--(defiantly)  Now!

JOHN--(uneasily)  But no.  I don't want to bore you.

FATHER BAIRD--You won't bore me.

JOHN--No--I--

LOVING--(with harsh insistence)  The first part concerns my hero's
boyhood here in New York, up to the age of fifteen.

JOHN--(Under Loving's compulsion, he picks up the thread of the
story.)  He was an only child.  His father was a fine man.  The boy
adored him.  And he adored his mother even more.  She was a
wonderful woman, a perfect type of our old beautiful ideal of wife
and mother.

LOVING--(sneeringly)  But there was one ridiculous weakness in her
character, an absurd obsession with religion.  In the father's,
too.  They were both devout Catholics.  (The priest gives a swift,
reproachful look at John, seems about to protest, thinks better of
it, and drops his eyes.)

JOHN--(quickly)  But not the ignorant, bigoted sort, please
understand.  No, their piety had a genuine, gentle, mystic quality
to it.  Their faith was the great comforting inspiration of their
lives.  And their God was One of Infinite Love--not a stern, self-
righteous Being Who condemned sinners to torment, but a very human,
lovable God Who became man for love of men and gave His life that
they might be saved from themselves.  And the boy had every reason
to believe in such a Divinity of Love as the Creator of Life.  His
home atmosphere was one of love.  Life WAS love for him then.  And
he was happy, happier than he ever afterward--(He checks himself
abruptly.)

FATHER BAIRD--(nods his head approvingly)  Yes.

JOHN--Later, at school, he learned of the God of Punishment, and he
wondered.  He couldn't reconcile Him with his parents' faith.  So
it didn't make much impression on him.

LOVING--(bitterly)  Then!  But afterward he had good reason to--

JOHN--But then he was too sure in his faith.  He grew up as devout
as his parents.  He even dreamed of becoming a priest.  He used to
love to kneel in the church before the Cross.

LOVING--Oh, he was a remarkably superstitious young fool!  (His
voice suddenly changes to hard bitterness.)  And then when he was
fifteen, all these pious illusions of his were destroyed forever!
Both his parents were killed!

JOHN--(hurriedly)  That is, they died during a flu epidemic in
which they contracted pneumonia--and he was left alone--without
love.  First, his father died.  The boy had prayed with perfect
faith that his father's life might be spared.

LOVING--But his father died!  And the poor simpleton's naïve faith
was a bit shaken, and a sinful doubt concerning the Divine Love
assailed him!

JOHN--Then his mother, worn out by nursing his father and by her
grief, was taken ill.  And the horrible fear came to him that she
might die, too.

LOVING--It drove the young idiot into a panic of superstitious
remorse.  He imagined her sickness was a terrible warning to him, a
punishment for the doubt inspired in him by his father's death.
(with harsh bitterness)  His God of Love was beginning to show
Himself as a God of Vengeance, you see!

JOHN--But he still trusted in His Love.  Surely He would not take
his mother from him, too.

LOVING--So the poor fool prayed and prayed and vowed his life to
piety and good works!  But he began to make a condition now--IF his
mother were spared to him!

JOHN--Finally he knew in his heart she was going to die.  But even
then he hoped and prayed for a miracle.

LOVING--He abased and humbled himself before the Cross--and, in
reward for his sickening humiliation, saw that no miracle would
happen.

JOHN--Something snapped in him then.

LOVING--(His voice suddenly takes on a tone of bitter hatred.)  He
saw his God as deaf and blind and merciless--a Deity Who returned
hate for love and revenged Himself upon those who trusted Him!

JOHN--His mother died.  And, in a frenzy of insane grief--

LOVING--No!  In his awakened pride he cursed his God and denied
Him, and, in revenge, promised his soul to the Devil--on his knees,
when every one thought he was praying!  (He laughs with malignant
bitterness.)

JOHN--(quickly--in a casual tone)  And that's the end of Part One,
as I've outlined it.

FATHER BAIRD--(horrified)  Jack!  I can't believe that you--

JOHN--(defensively)  I?  What have I to do with it?  You're
forgetting I explained to you--Oh, I admit there are certain points
of resemblance between some of his boyhood experiences and mine--
his parents' death, for example.  But that's only coincidence.

FATHER BAIRD--(recovered now--staring at him--quietly)  I see.

JOHN--(forcing a smile)  And please don't bring up those
coincidences before Elsa, Uncle.  She didn't notice them because
I've never bored her with boyhood reminiscences.  And I don't want
her to get the wrong angle on my plot.

FATHER BAIRD--I'll remember, Jack.  When will you tell me the rest
of it?

JOHN--Oh, some time while you're here, maybe.

FATHER BAIRD--Why not to-night at your home?

JOHN--Well, I might--

LOVING--That is, if I can decide on my end before then!

JOHN--It would give me a chance to get your and Elsa's criticisms
at the same time.  She's been wanting to hear the rest of it, too.

FATHER BAIRD--(regarding him--quietly)  Then, by all means.
(abruptly changing to a brisk casualness)  Well, I'll leave you and
attend to some errand I have to do.  (He gets to his feet.  He
takes John's hand.)

JOHN--Dinner is at seven-thirty.  But come as long before that as
you like.  I'll be home early.  (then with a genuine boyish
affection)  I want to tell you again, Uncle, how grand it is to
have you here--in spite of our arguments.

FATHER BAIRD--I'm not worried by our arguments.  But I am about
something about you that admits of no argument--to me.

JOHN--(forcing a smile)  You're wasting worry.  But what is it?

FATHER BAIRD--You've written me you were happy, and I believed you.
But, now I see you, I don't believe you.  You're not happy.  Why?
Perhaps if you had it out with me--

LOVING--(mockingly)  Confess, eh?

JOHN--Don't be foolish, Uncle.  I am happy, happier than I ever
dreamed I could be.  And, for heaven's sake, don't go telling Elsa
I'm unhappy!

FATHER BAIRD--(quietly)  Very well.  We'll say no more about it.
And now I'll be off.  Good-bye until this evening, Jack.

JOHN--So long, Uncle.  (Father Baird goes out.  John stands by the
door, looking after him--then he comes slowly back and sits down in
his chair and stares before him.  Loving's eyes are fastened on him
with a cold contempt.)

LOVING--Damned old fool with his bedtime tales for second childhood
about the love of God!  And you--you're worse--with your
hypocritical lies about your great happiness!  (The telephone on
the table rings.  John jumps nervously--then answers it in an
apprehensive voice.)

JOHN--Hello.  Who?  Tell her I'm out.

LOVING--You'd better find out what she wants.

JOHN--No, wait.  I'll take it.  (then, his voice becoming guarded
and pleasantly casual)  Hello, Lucy.  Bill told me you'd called.
What--?  (He listens--then anxiety creeping into his tone)  She
phoned again?  What about?  Oh.  I'm glad you called me.  Yes, she
has been wondering why she hasn't heard from you in so long.  Yes,
by all means, go.  Yes, she's sure to be in this afternoon.  Good-
bye.  (He hangs up mechanically.)

LOVING--(sneeringly)  Your terrible sin begins to close in on you,
eh?  But then, it wasn't you, was it?  It was some evil spirit that
possessed you!  (He gives a mocking laugh--then stops abruptly and
continues in his tone of cold, sinister insistence.)  But enough of
that nonsense.  Let's return to your plot.  The wife dies--of
influenza that turns into pneumonia, let's say.

JOHN--(starts violently--stammers)  What--God damn you--what makes
you choose that?


(Curtain)



ACT TWO

Plot for a Novel (Continued)


SCENE--The living-room of the Lovings' duplex apartment.  Venetian
blinds soften the light from a big window at right.  In front of
this window is a table with a lamp.  At left, front, an upholstered
chair.  At right of chair, a small table with a lamp.  At right of
table, in the center of the room, a sofa.  In front of sofa, a low
stand with cigarette box and ash trays.  Toward right, another
chair.  In the left wall is a door leading to the dining-room.  At
rear of door, a writing desk.  In the middle of the rear wall is a
doorway leading to the hall.

It is later the same afternoon.

Elsa enters from the hall at rear.  She is thirty-five but looks
much younger.  She is beautiful with that Indian Summer renewal of
physical charm which comes to a woman who loves and is loved,
particularly to one who has not found that love until comparatively
late in life.  This beauty is a trifle dimmed now by traces of
recent illness.  Her face is drawn and she fights against a
depressing lassitude.  She wears a simple negligée.

As she comes in, she presses a button by the door and a buzzer is
heard in the pantry.  She comes forward and sits on the sofa.  A
moment later Margaret, the maid, appears from the dining-room at
left.  She is a middle-aged Irishwoman with a kindly face.


MARGARET--Yes, Madame?

ELSA--Hasn't the afternoon paper come yet, Margaret?

MARGARET--No, Madame, not yet.  (then with kindly reproof)  Didn't
you take a nap like you promised you would?

ELSA--I couldn't get to sleep.  But I do feel rested, so don't
begin to scold me.  (She smiles and Margaret smiles back, a look of
devoted affection lighting up her face.)

MARGARET--You have to take care.  The flu's a bad thing the way it
leaves you weak after.  And you're only out of your bed two days.

ELSA--Oh, I'm really quite well again.  And I was too excited to
sleep.  I kept thinking of Mr. Loving's uncle.  (The telephone in
the hall rings and Margaret goes toward the door in rear to answer
it.)  Heavens, I hope that isn't he now.  Mr. Loving phoned me he
told him to come early.  But surely he wouldn't this early!

MARGARET--(disappears in the hall.  Her voice comes)  Just a moment
and I'll see if she's in.  (She appears again in the doorway.)
It's Mrs. Hillman calling to see you, Madame.

ELSA--Oh, I'm glad.  Tell her to come right up.  (Margaret
disappears and is heard relaying this instruction.  Then she
appears in the hall outside the doorway, waiting to answer the
door.  Elsa speaks to her.)  I wish I didn't look so like a sick
cat.  Why is it every one decides to turn up when you look your
worst?

MARGARET--Ah, you needn't worry, Madame.  You look fine.

ELSA--Well, anyway, I don't mind Lucy.  (Nevertheless, she goes to
the desk at left, rear, takes out a vanity case, powders her nose,
etc.  While she is doing this, Margaret moves to the entrance door
in the hall and is heard admitting Mrs. Hillman and exchanging
greetings with her, as she helps her off with her things.  Elsa
calls)  Hello, Stranger.

LUCY--(calls back in a voice whose breeziness rings a bit strained)
That's right, sit on me the minute I set foot in your house!  Well,
I know I deserve it.  (Elsa goes to the doorway and meets her as
she comes in, kissing her affectionately.  Lucy Hillman is about
the same age as Elsa.  She is still an extremely attractive woman
but, in contrast to Elsa, her age shows, in spite of a heavy make-
up.  There are wrinkles about her eyes, and her small, full, rather
weak mouth is drawn down by sharp lines at the corners.  She is
dressed expensively in clothes a bit too youthful and extreme in
style.  She responds to Elsa's greeting with a nervous constraint.)
Hello, Elsa.

ELSA--You're a nice one!  How long has it been--months!--not since
before I went to Boston in February.  (She sits on the sofa and
draws Lucy down beside her.)

LUCY--I know.  I'm in the dust at your feet.

ELSA--I've phoned you a dozen times, but you were always out.  Or
did you just tell them to say that?  I've completely lost faith in
you.

LUCY--But I was out, Elsa.  How can you think--

ELSA--(laughing--gives her a hug)  You're not taking me seriously,
are you?  I know you'd hardly do that with me, after all these
years.

LUCY--Of course, I wouldn't.

ELSA--But I did wonder a little at your sudden complete ignoring of
our existence.  So did John.

LUCY--(hurriedly)  If you know all the stupid engagements that pile
up--and all the idiotic parties Walter lets me in for.  (then
changing the subject abruptly)  May I have a cigarette?  (She takes
one from the box on the stand and lights it.)  Aren't you having
one?

ELSA--Not now.  (She gives Lucy a puzzled glance.  Lucy avoids her
eyes, nervously flipping her cigarette over the ash tray.  Elsa
asks)  How are the kids?

LUCY--Oh, fine, thanks.  At least, I think so, from the little I
get to see of them nowadays.  (Bitterness has crept into this last.
She again hurriedly changes the subject.)  But tell me all your
news.  What have you been doing with yourself?

ELSA--Oh, the same peaceful routine--going to a concert now and
then, reading a lot, keeping house, taking care of John.

LUCY--The old perfect marriage that's been the wonder of us all,
eh?  (again changing the subject)  What time does John usually get
home?  I don't want to run into him.

ELSA--Oh, not for an hour or so yet.  (smiling)  But why?  What
have you got against John?

LUCY--(smiling with a strange wryness)  Nothing--except myself.
(then hurriedly)  I mean, look at me, I look like hell.  I've had
the damndest insomnia lately.  And I'm vain enough not to crave any
male viewing the wreckage until I've spruced up on a bath and
cocktails.

ELSA--But that's silly.  You look wonderful.

LUCY--(dryly)  Thanks, liar!  (with a side glance of frank envy--
unable to keep resentment out of her voice)  I especially don't
care to be up for inspection beside you.  The contrast is too
glaring.

ELSA--But it's I who look like the devil, not you.  I'm just
getting over flu.

LUCY--Flu makes no never mind.  It doesn't affect--what I mean.
(then with a hard flippant air)  Pardon me if I seem to indulge in
the melancholy jitters.  I'm becoming the damndest whiner and self-
pitier.  It's really too boring.  (She lights another cigarette.
Her hands have a nervous tremor.  Elsa watches her with a worried,
affectionately pitying look.)

ELSA--What is it, Lucy?  Tell me.

LUCY--(stiffening defensively)  What is what?

ELSA--I want to know what's troubling you.  Now, there's no use
denying it.  I've known you too long.  I felt it the moment you
came in, that you were upset about something and trying to hide it.

LUCY--I don't know where you got that idea.  (defensively flippant)
Oh, really now, Elsa.  Don't you go psychic on us!

ELSA--All right, then.  Forgive my trying to pump you.  But you got
me into the bad habit yourself, you know, by always coming to me
with your troubles.  I only thought I might be able to help.

LUCY--You!  (She gives a hard little laugh.)

ELSA--(hurt)  You used to think I could.

LUCY--"Once, long ago--"  (then, suddenly with repentant
shamefacedness)  Forgive me, Elsa.  I'm rotten to be flip about
that.  You've been the most wonderful friend.  And I'm such an
ungrateful little slut!

ELSA--Lucy!  You mustn't say that.

LUCY--(hurries on with a simulation of frankness)  But honestly,
you're mistaken this time.  There's nothing wrong, except what
seems to be wrong with every one, the stupid lives we lead--and, of
course, the usual financial worries.  So please don't bother your
head about my troubles.

ELSA--All right, dear.  (then, after a slight pause--casually)  How
is Walter these days?

LUCY--(with a twisted smile)  I thought we weren't going to talk
about my troubles!  Oh, Walter is--Walter.  You know him, Elsa.
Why ask?  But do you know any one, I wonder?  Darned if I think you
ever see what people really are.  You somehow manage to live in
some lost world where human beings are still decent and honorable.
I don't see how you do it.  If you'd always been a little innocent,
protected from all ugly contacts--But, my God, your first marriage
must have slapped your face with about every filthy thing a man can
be--and that's plenty!  Yet you sit here, calm and beautiful and
unscarred--!

ELSA--(quietly)  I have my share of scars.  But the wounds are all
healed--completely healed.  John's love has done that for me.

LUCY--Yes--of course.  (Then, as if she couldn't control herself,
she bursts out)  Oh, you and your John!  You bring him up as the
answer to everything.

ELSA--(smiling)  Well, he is for me.

LUCY--Do you mean to tell me you're as much in love with him now as
when you married him?

ELSA--Oh, much more so, for he's become my child and father now, as
well as being a husband and--

LUCY--Lover.  Say it.  How incredibly Mid-Victorian you can be!
Don't you know that's all we married ladies discuss nowadays?  But
you're lucky.  Usually the men discussed aren't our husbands, and
aren't even good lovers.  But never say die.  We keep on hoping and
experimenting!

ELSA--(repelled)  Don't talk in that disgusting way.  I know you
don't mean a word of it.

LUCY--(stares at her resentfully for a second, then turns away,
reaching for another cigarette--dryly)  Oh, you're quite sure of
that, are you?

ELSA--(gently)  Lucy, what is it has made you so bitter?  I've
noticed it growing on you for the past few years, but now it's
completely got you.  I--honestly, I hardly know you this time,
you've changed so.

LUCY--(hurriedly)  Oh, it's nothing that happened lately.  You
mustn't get that idea.  (then letting herself go--with increasing
bitterness)  It's simply that I've grown sick of my life, sick of
all the lying and faking of it, sick of marriage and motherhood,
sick of myself!  Particularly sick of myself because I endure the
humiliation of Walter's open affairs with every damned floosie he
meets!  And I'm tired of pretending I don't mind, tired of really
minding underneath, tired of pretending to myself I have to go on
for the children's sakes, and that they make up to me for
everything, which they don't at all!

ELSA--(indignantly)  How can Walter be such a beast!

LUCY--(with a look at Elsa that is almost vindictive)  Oh, he's no
worse than a lot of others.  At least, he doesn't lie about it.

ELSA--But, for heaven's sake, why do you stand it?  Why don't you
leave him?

LUCY--Oh, don't be so superior and scornful, Elsa.  I'll bet you
wouldn't--(She checks herself abruptly.)

ELSA--What do you mean?  You know very well I left my first husband
the minute I found out--

LUCY--(hurriedly)  I know.  I didn't--Why don't I leave Walter?  I
guess because I'm too worn out to have the guts.  And then I did
try it once.  The first time I knew he'd been unfaithful I did the
correct thing and went home.  I intended to tell Father I was
through as Walter's wife.  Only Father was away.  Mother was there,
and I broke down and told her.  She took it quite philosophically--
said I was a fool to expect too much, men were like that, even my
father had--(She gives a little shiver of aversion.)  That sort of
squelched me.  So I went back to Walter and he doesn't know to this
day I ever left him.

ELSA--I'm so sorry, Lucy.

LUCY--(returning to her air of hard cynicism)  No pity, please.
After all, the situation has its compensations.  He has tried nobly
to be fair.  He said I could have equal liberty to indulge any of
my sexual whims.

ELSA--What a stupid fool!

LUCY--(bitterly)  Oh, he didn't really mean it, you know.  His
vanity couldn't admit I'd ever feel the slightest desire outside of
him.  It was only a silly gesture he felt safe in making because he
was so damned sure of me--because he knows, damn him, that in spite
of all he's done to kill it there's still a cowardly slavish
something in me, dating back to the happiness of our first married
days, which still--loves him!  (She starts to break down, but
fights this back and bursts out vindictively, a look of ugly
satisfaction coming into her face)  But I warned him he'd humiliate
me once too often--and he did!

ELSA--(shocked)  You mean you--

LUCY--(with a return of her flippant tone)  Yes, I went in for a
little fleeting adultery.  And I must say, as a love substitute or
even a pleasurable diversion, it's greatly overrated.  (She gives a
hard little laugh.)  How horribly shocked you look!  Are you going
to order me from your virtuous home?

ELSA--Lucy!  Don't talk like that!  It's only that I can't believe--
none of this is really you.  That's what makes it so--But please
don't think I'm condemning you.  You know how I love you, don't
you?

LUCY--(stares at her with a strange panic)  Don't, for God's sake!
I don't want you to love me!  I'd rather you hated me!  (But Elsa
pulls her to her and she breaks down finally, sobbing, her face
buried against Elsa's shoulder.)

ELSA--There, there.  You mustn't, dear.  (then as Lucy grows
calmer--quietly)  Don't think I don't understand, because I do.  I
felt exactly the same when I found out about Ned Howell.  Even
though I'd stopped caring for him and our marriage had always been
unhappy, my pride was so hurt I wanted to revenge myself and take
the first man I met for a lover.

LUCY--(looks up in amazement)  You went through that?  I never
dreamed--

ELSA--All that saved me from doing something stupid was the faith I
had that somewhere the man was waiting whom I could really love.  I
felt I owed it to him and to my own self-respect not to
deliberately disfigure myself out of wounded pride and spite.

LUCY--(with sad bitterness)  You hit it when you say disfigure.
That's how I've felt ever since.  Cheap!  Ugly!  As if I'D
deliberately disfigured MYSELF.  And not only myself--the man--and
others I wouldn't hurt for anything in the world--if I was in my
right mind.  But I wasn't!  You realize I wasn't, don't you, Elsa?
You must!  You above every one!

ELSA--I do, dear.  Of course I do.

LUCY--I've got to tell you just how it came to happen--so you'll
see.  It was one of Walter's parties.  You know the would-be
Bohemian gang he likes to have.  They were there in all their
vulgarity, their poisonous, envious tongues wisecracking at
everything with any decent human dignity and worth.  Oh, there were
a few others there, too--our own people--this man was one of them.
Walter was drunk, pawing over his latest female, and she got him to
go home with her.  Everybody watched me to see how I'd take it.  I
wanted to kill him and her, but I only laughed and had some more to
drink.  But I was in hell, I can tell you, and inside I kept
swearing to myself that I'd show Walter--And I picked out this man--
yes, deliberately!  It was all deliberate and crazy!  And I had to
do all the seducing--because he's quite happy.  I knew that, but I
was crazy.  His happiness filled me with rage--the thought that he
made others happy.  I wanted to take his happiness from him and
kill it as mine had been killed!

ELSA--Lucy!

LUCY--(with a hard laugh)  I told you I was in hell, didn't I?  You
can't live there without becoming like the rest of the crowd!
(hurrying on with her story)  I got him in my bedroom on some
excuse.  But he pushed me away, as if he were disgusted with
himself and me.  But I wouldn't let him go.  And then came the
strange part of it.  Suddenly, I don't know how to explain it,
you'll think I'm crazy, or being funny, but it was as if he were no
longer there.  It was another man, a stranger whose eyes were
hateful and frightening.  He seemed to look through me at some one
else, and I seemed for a moment to be watching some hidden place in
his mind where there was something as evil and revengeful as I was.
It frightened and fascinated me--and called to me too; that's the
hell of it!  (She forces a laugh.)  I suppose all this sounds too
preposterous.  Well, maybe it was the booze working.  I'd had a
lot.  (She reaches for a cigarette--returning to her hard
flippancy)  And then followed my little dip into adultery.

ELSA--(with a little shiver of repulsion)  Oh!

LUCY--But what a hideous bore this must be to you.  Why did I have
to tell you, I wonder.  It was the last thing I ever wanted--(turns
on her in a flash of resentful vindictiveness)  It makes me out
worse than you expected, eh?  But suppose John were unfaithful to
you--

ELSA--(startled--frightenedly)  Don't!  (then indignantly)  Lucy!
I won't have you say that, not even--

LUCY--I'm only asking you to suppose.

ELSA--I can't!  I won't!  And I won't let you!  It's too--!  (then
controlling herself--forcing a smile)  But I'm a bigger fool than
you are to get angry.  You simply don't know John, that's all.  You
don't know what an old-fashioned romantic idealist he is at heart
about love and marriage.  And I thank God he is!  You'll laugh at
me but I know he never had a single affair in his life before he
met me.

LUCY--Oh, come on, Elsa.  That's too much!

ELSA--Oh, please don't think I'm a naïve fool.  I was as cynical
about men in those days as you are now.  I wouldn't have believed
it of another man in the world, but with John I felt it was
absolutely true to what I knew he was like inside him.

LUCY--You loved him and you wanted to believe.

ELSA--No.  Even before I loved him, I felt that.  It was what made
me love him, more than anything else--the feeling that he would be
mine, only mine, that I wouldn't have to share him even with the
past.  If you only could realize how much that meant to me--
especially at that time, when I was still full of the disgust and
hurt of my first marriage.

LUCY--Well, that's all very fine, but it's not proving to me how
you can be so certain that never since then--

ELSA--(proudly)  I know he loves me.  I know he knows how much I
love him.  He knows what that would do to me.  It would kill
forever all my faith in life--all truth, all beauty, all love!  I
wouldn't want to live!

LUCY--You shouldn't let yourself be so completely at the mercy of
any man--not even John.

ELSA--I'm not afraid.  (She smiles.)  The trouble with you is, you
old cynic, you can't admit that our marriage is a real ideal
marriage.  But it is--and that's entirely John's work, not mine.

LUCY--His work?

ELSA--Yes.  When I first met him I thought I was through with
marriage for good.  Even after I fell in love with him, I didn't
want to marry.  I was afraid of marriage.  I proposed quite frankly
that we should simply live together and each keep entire freedom of
action.  (She laughs.)  Oh, I was quite ultra-modern about it!  And
it shocked John terribly, poor dear--in spite of all his old
radical ideas.  I'm sure it almost disillusioned him with me for
life!  He sternly scorned my offer.  He argued with me.  How he
argued--like a missionary converting a heathen!  He said he loathed
the ordinary marriage as much as I did, but that the ideal in back
of marriage was a beautiful one, and he knew we could realize that
ideal.

LUCY--Ah, yes, the ideal!  I heard a little talk about that once,
too!

ELSA--He said no matter if every other marriage on earth were
rotten and a lie, our love could make ours into a true sacrament--
sacrament was the word he used--a sacrament of faith in which each
of us would find the completest self-expression in making our union
a beautiful thing.  (She smiles lovingly.)  You see, all this was
what I had longed to hear the man I loved say about the spiritual
depth of his love for me--what every woman dreams of hearing her
lover say, I think.

LUCY--(stirring uneasily--mechanically)  Yes.  I know.

ELSA--And, of course, it blew my petty modern selfishness right out
the window.  I couldn't believe he meant it at first, but when I
saw he did, that finished me.  (She smiles--then with quiet pride)
And I think we've lived up to that ideal ever since.  I hope I
have.  I know he has.  It was his creation, you see.

LUCY--Of course he has.  Of course.

ELSA--And our marriage has meant for us, not slavery or boredom but
freedom and harmony within ourselves--and happiness.  So we must
have both lived true to it.  Happiness is proof, isn't it?

LUCY--(deeply moved--without looking at Elsa, takes her hand and
squeezes it--huskily)  Of course it is.  Please forget the stupid
rot I've said.  I was only trying to get a rise out of you.  We all
know how wonderfully happy you and John are.  Only remember, the
world is full of spiteful liars who would do anything to wreck your
happiness and drag you down to their level--what I was doing.  So
never listen--But of course you won't, will you?  You have faith.
(She turns and kisses her impulsively.)  God bless you--and
preserve your happiness!

ELSA--Thank you, Lucy.  That's dear of you.  (then puzzledly)  But
why should you be afraid that any one--

LUCY--(jumps to her feet nervously)  Only my morbidness.  I've been
accused of so many rotten things I never did that I suppose I'm
hipped on the subject.  (then abruptly)  Got to run now, Elsa--go
home and get on my armor for another of Walter's parties.  It's a
gay life.  The only hope is he'll be so broke before long no one
will call on us but our forgotten friends.  (She gives a bitter
little laugh and starts to go around the left of sofa--then, at a
noise of a door opening in the hall--nervously)  Isn't that some
one--?

ELSA--It must be John.  (She hurries around the right of sofa and
back toward the doorway.)

JOHN--(calls from the hall)  Hello.

ELSA--(going out, meets him as he appears in the hall just beyond
the doorway--kissing him)  Hello, darling.  You're early.  I'm so
glad.

JOHN--I thought, as I'd told Uncle to come early, I better--(He
kisses her.)  How do you feel, dear?  You look much better.

ELSA--Oh, I'm fine, John.  (Lucy has remained standing by the left
corner of the sofa, in a stiff, strained attitude, the expression
on her face that of one caught in a corner, steeling herself for an
ordeal.  Elsa and John come in, their arms around each other.  As
they do so, Lucy recovers her poise and calls to him)

LUCY--Hello, John.

JOHN--(coming to her, his face wearing its most cordial, poker-
faced smile)  Why, hello, Lucy.  I thought I heard a familiar voice
when I came in.  (They shake hands.)  A pleasant surprise.  Been a
long time since we've had this pleasure.  (Elsa has come forward
behind him.  The figure of the masked Loving appears in the
doorway.  During the next few speeches he moves silently to the
corner of the long table before the window, right-front, and stands
there, without looking at them, facing front, his eyes fixed in the
same cold stare, the expression of his masked face seeming to be
more than ever sneering and sinister.)

LUCY--Now, don't you begin on that!  Elsa has already given me
hell.

ELSA--(laughing)  And she's repented and been forgiven.

JOHN--Oh, that's all right, then.

LUCY--(nervously)  I was just leaving.  Sorry I've got to run,
John.

ELSA--Oh, you can't, now.  John will think he's driven you out.

LUCY--No, really, Elsa, I--

ELSA--You simply must keep John company for a few minutes.  Because
I've got to go to the kitchen.  I trust Emmy on ordinary occasions,
but when a long-lost uncle is coming to dinner, a little personal
supervision is in order.  (She moves toward the dining-room at
left.)

LUCY--(with a note of desperation)  Well--but I can't stay more
than a second.

ELSA--I'll be back right away.  (She disappears through the dining-
room door.  The moment she is gone, John's cordial smile vanishes
and his face takes on a tense, harried look.  He is now standing
behind the right end of sofa, Lucy behind the left end.  In the
pause while they wait for Elsa to get out of earshot, Loving moves
silently over until he is standing just behind John but a step
toward rear from him, facing half toward him, half toward front.)

JOHN--(lowering his voice--hurriedly)  I hope you've been careful
and not said anything that--

LUCY--Might give you away?  Of course, I didn't.  And even if I
were rotten enough to come right out and tell her, she'd never
believe me, she has such a touching faith in you.

JOHN--(wincing)  Don't!

LUCY--No.  You're perfectly safe.  There's only one thing I've got
to warn you about.  It's nothing, really, but--

JOHN--What?

LUCY--Walter has been telling people.  He has to, you see, to keep
up his pose of friendly understanding--

JOHN--But how does Walter know?

LUCY--Don't look so dismayed!  He doesn't know--who it was.  And
you'd be the last one he'd ever suspect.

JOHN--How is it he knows about you?

LUCY--(hesitates--then defiantly)  I told him.

JOHN--You told him?  In God's name, why?  But I know.  You couldn't
resist--watching him squirm!

LUCY--(stung)  Exactly, John.  Why do you suppose I ever did it,
except for his benefit--if you want the truth.

JOHN--Good God, don't you think I know that?  Do you imagine I ever
thought it was anything but revenge on your part?

LUCY--And whom were you revenging yourself on, John?--now we're
being frank.

LOVING--(with sinister mockery)  Who knows?  Perhaps on love.
Perhaps, in my soul, I hate love!

LUCY--(stares at John with frightened bewilderment)  John!  Now
you're like--that night!

JOHN--(confusedly)  I?  It wasn't I.  (angrily)  What do you mean
by saying I was revenging myself?  Why should I revenge myself on
her?

LUCY--I don't know, John.  That's a matter for your conscience.
I've got enough on my own, thank you.  I must say I resent your
attitude, John.  (with a flippant sneer)  Hardly the lover-like
tone, is it?

JOHN--(with disgust)  Lover!

LUCY--Oh, I know.  I feel the same way.  But why hate me?  Why not
hate yourself?

JOHN--As if I didn't!  Good God, if you knew!  (then bitterly)  And
how long do you think you'll be able to resist telling Walter it
was I, his old friend--so you can watch him squirm some more!

LUCY--John!

JOHN--And Walter will have to tell that to every one, too--to live
up to his pose!  And then--

LUCY--John!  You know I wouldn't, even if I hated you as you seem
to hate me.  I wouldn't for Elsa's sake.  Oh, I know you think I'm
a rotten liar, but I love Elsa!  (then brokenly)  Oh, it's such a
vile mess!  What fools we were!

JOHN--(dully)  Yes.  (bitterly again)  I'm sorry I can't trust you,
Lucy.  I can when you're yourself.  But full of booze--I see what
it will come to.  I'll have to tell her myself to save her the
humiliation of hearing it through dirty gossip!

LUCY--John!  Oh, please don't be such a fool!  Please!

JOHN--You think she couldn't forgive?

LUCY--I'm thinking of what it would do to her.  Can't you see--?

JOHN--(warningly, as he hears the pantry door opening)  Ssshh!
(quickly, raising his voice to a conversational tone)  Uncle is a
grand old fellow.  You'll have to meet him some time.  You'd like
him.

LUCY--I'm sure I would.  (then, as Elsa comes in from the dining-
room)  Ah, here you are.  Well, I've got to fly.  (She holds out
her hand to John.)  Good-bye, John.  Take care of Elsa.

JOHN--Good-bye, Lucy.  (Elsa puts an arm around her waist and they
go back to the hall doorway.)

ELSA--I'll get your things.  (They disappear in the hall.  As soon
as they have gone, John turns and, coming around the sofa, sits
down on it and stares before him with hunted eyes.  Loving moves
until he is standing directly behind him.  He bends over and
whispers mockingly.)

LOVING--I warned you it was closing in!  You had better make up
your mind now to tell the rest of your novel tonight--while there
is still time!

JOHN--(tensely)  Yes.  I must.

LOVING--But, first, it still remains to decide what is to be your
hero's end.  (He gives a little jeering laugh.)  Strange, isn't it,
what difficult problems your little dabble in fiction has brought
up which demand a final answer!  (He laughs again--then turns to
face the doorway as Elsa reënters the room.  His eyes remain fixed
on her as she comes forward.  She comes quietly to the right end of
the sofa.  John does not notice her coming.  Loving remains
standing at right, rear, of John.)

ELSA--A penny for your thoughts, John.  (He starts.  She sits down
beside him--with a smile)  Did I scare you?

JOHN--(forcing a smile)  Don't know what's the matter with me.  I
seem to have the nervous jumps lately.  (then carelessly)  Glad to
see Lucy again, were you?

ELSA--Yes--of course.  Only she's changed so.  Poor Lucy.

JOHN--Why poor?  Oh, you mean on account of Walter's antics?

ELSA--Then you know?

JOHN--Who doesn't?  He's been making as public an ass of himself as
possible.  But let's not talk about Walter.  What did you think of
the big event to-day: Uncle dropping out of the blue?

ELSA--It must have been a surprise for you.  I'm dying to meet him.
I'm so glad he could come to-night.

JOHN--Yes.  So am I.  (As if his conversation had run dry, he falls
into an uneasy silence.  Elsa looks at him worriedly.  Then she
nestles up close to him.)

ELSA--(tenderly)  Still love me, do you?

JOHN--(takes her in his arms and kisses her--with intense feeling)
You know I do!  There's nothing in life I give a damn about except
your love!  You know that, don't you?

ELSA--Yes, dear.

JOHN--(avoiding her eyes now)  And you'll always love me--no matter
what an unworthy fool I am?

ELSA--Ssshh!  You mustn't say things like that.  It's not true.
(then smiling teasingly)  Well, if you love me so much, prove it by
telling me.

JOHN--(controlling a start)  Telling you what?

ELSA--Now, don't pretend.  I know there's something that's been
troubling you for weeks--ever since I came back from Boston.

JOHN--No, honestly, Elsa.

ELSA--Something you're keeping back because you're afraid of
worrying me.  So you might as well confess.

JOHN--(forcing a smile)  Confess?  And will you promise--to
forgive?

ELSA--Forgive you for not wanting to worry me?  Foolish one!

JOHN--(hurriedly)  No, I was only joking.  There's nothing.

ELSA--Now!  But I think I can guess.  It's about business, isn't
it?

JOHN--(grasps at this)  Well--yes, if you must know.

ELSA--And you were afraid that would upset me?  Oh, John, you're
such a child at times you ought to be spanked.  You must think I've
become a poor, helpless doll!

JOHN--No, but--

ELSA--Just because you've pampered me so terribly the past few
years!  But remember, we had barely enough to get along on when we
were married--and I didn't appear so terribly unhappy then, did I?
And no matter how poor we become, do you think it would ever really
matter one bit to me as long as I had you?

JOHN--(stammers miserably)  Sweetheart!  You make me feel--so
damned ashamed!  God, I can't tell you!

ELSA--(kissing him)  But, darling, it's nothing!  And now promise
me you'll forget it and not worry any more?

JOHN--Yes.

ELSA--Good!  Let's talk of something else.  Tell me, have you been
doing anything more on the rest of your idea for a novel?

JOHN--Yes, I--I've got most of it thought out.

ELSA--(encouragingly)  That's splendid.  You just put your mind on
that and forget your silly worries.  But when am I going to hear
it?

JOHN--Well, I told Uncle the first part and he was curious, too.
So I threatened him I might give you both an outline of the rest
to-night.

ELSA--Oh, that's fine.  (Then she laughs.)  And I'll confess it
will be a great aid to me as a hostess.  I'll probably feel a bit
self-conscious, entertaining a strange priest-uncle for the first
time.

JOHN--Oh, you won't be with him a minute before you'll feel he's an
old friend.

ELSA--Well, that sounds encouraging.  But you tell your story just
the same.  (She gets up.)  It must be getting on.  I'd better go up
and start getting dressed.  (She goes around the left end of the
sofa and back toward the hall door.)  Are you going up to your
study for a while?

JOHN--Yes, in a minute.  I want to do a little more work on my
plot.  The end isn't clearly worked out yet.

LOVING--That is, my hero's end!

ELSA--(smiling at John encouragingly)  Then you get busy, by all
means, so you'll have no excuse!  (She goes out.  As soon as she is
gone, John's expression changes and becomes tense and hunted again.
Loving remains standing behind him, staring down at him with cold,
scornful eyes.  There is a pause of silence.)

JOHN--(suddenly--his face full of the bitterest, tortured self-
loathing--aloud to himself)  You God-damned rotten swine!

LOVING--(mockingly)  Yes, unfit to live.  Quite unfit for life, I
think.  But there is always death to wash one's sins away--sleep,
untroubled by Love's betraying dream!  (He gives a low, sinister
laugh.)  Merely a consoling reminder--in case you've forgotten!
(John listens fascinatedly, as if to an inner voice.  Then a look
of terror comes into his face and he shudders.)

JOHN--(torturedly)  For God's sake!  Leave me alone!


(Curtain)



ACT THREE

Plot for a Novel (Continued)


SCENE I


SCENE--The living-room again.  It is immediately after dinner.
Father Baird is sitting in the chair at left, front, Elsa on the
sofa, John beside her on her left, the masked Loving at right,
rear, of John, in the chair by the end of the table before the
window.  John and Loving are in dinner clothes of identical cut.
Elsa wears a white evening gown of extremely simple lines.  Father
Baird is the same as in Act One.

Margaret is serving them the after-dinner coffee.  She goes out
through the dining-room door.


JOHN--(puts an arm around Elsa's waist playfully)  Well, now you've
got to know her, what do you think of her, Uncle?  Weren't my
letters right?

FATHER BAIRD--(gallantly)  They were much too feeble.  You didn't
do her justice by half!

ELSA--Thank you, Father.  It's so kind of you to say that.

JOHN--Ah!  I told you that was one subject we'd agree on!  (then to
Elsa in a tenderly chiding tone)  But I've got a bone to pick with
you, my lady.  You ate hardly any dinner, do you know it?

ELSA--Oh, but I did, dear.

JOHN--No, you only went through the motions.  I was watching you.
That's no way to get back your strength.

FATHER BAIRD--Yes, you need all the nourishment you can take when
you're getting over the flu.

JOHN--(worriedly--grasping her hand)  Sure you're warm enough?
Want me to get you something to put over your shoulders?

ELSA--No, dear, thank you.

JOHN--Remember it's a rotten, chilly, rainy day out and even
indoors you can't be too careful.

ELSA--Oh, but I'm quite all right now, John.  Please don't worry
about me.

JOHN--Well, don't let yourself get tired now, you hear?  If you
find yourself feeling at all worn-out, you just send Uncle and me
off to my study.  He'll understand.  Won't you, Uncle?

FATHER BAIRD--Of course.  I hope Elsa will feel I'm one of the
family and treat me without ceremony.

ELSA--I do feel that, Father.  (then teasingly)  But do you know
what I think is behind all this solicitude of John's?  He's simply
looking for an excuse to get out of telling us the rest of his
novel.  But we won't let him back out, will we?

FATHER BAIRD--Indeed we won't.

ELSA--The first part is so unusual and interesting.  Don't you
think so, Father?

FATHER BAIRD--(quietly)  Yes.  Tragic and revealing to me.

ELSA--You see, John, it's no use.  We're simply going to insist.

LOVING--(coldly mocking)  You're sure--you insist?

ELSA--Of course I do.  So come on.

JOHN--(nervously)  Well--(He hesitates--gulps down the rest of his
coffee.)

ELSA--(smiling)  I never saw you so flustered before, John.  You'd
think you were going to address an audience of literary critics.

JOHN--(begins jerkily)  Well--But before I start, there's one thing
I want to impress on you both again.  My plot, up to the last part,
which is wholly imaginary, is taken from life.  It's the story of a
man I once knew.

LOVING--(mockingly)  Or thought I knew.

ELSA--May I be inquisitive?  Did I ever know the man?

LOVING--(a hostile, repellent note in his voice)  No.  I can swear
to that.  You have never known him.

ELSA--(taken aback, gives John a wondering look--then apologetically)
I'm sorry I butted in with a silly question.  Go on, dear.

JOHN--(nervously--forcing a laugh)  I--It's hard getting started.
(He turns and reaches for his coffee, forgetting he has drunk it--
sets the cup down again abruptly and goes on hurriedly.)  Well, you
will remember my first part ended when the boy's parents had died.

LOVING--And he had denied all his old superstitions!

JOHN--Well, as you can imagine, for a long while after their
deaths, he went through a terrific inner conflict.  He was seized
by fits of terror, in which he felt he really had given his soul to
some evil power.  He would feel a tortured longing to pray and beg
for forgiveness.  It seemed to him that he had forsworn all love
forever--and was cursed.  At these times he wanted only to die.
Once he even took his father's revolver--

LOVING--(sneeringly)  But he was afraid to face death.  He was
still too religious-minded, you see, to accept the one beautiful,
comforting truth of life: that death is final release, the warm,
dark peace of annihilation.

FATHER BAIRD--(quietly)  I cannot see the beauty and comfort.

LOVING--He often regretted afterwards he had not had the courage to
die then.  It would have saved him so much silly romantic pursuit
of meaningless illusions.

ELSA--(uneasily)  Oh, you mustn't talk that way, John.  It sounds
so bitter--and false--coming from you.

JOHN--(confusedly)  I--I didn't--You forget I'm simply following
what this man told me.  (hurrying on)  Well, finally, he came out
of this period of black despair.  He taught himself to take a
rationalistic attitude.  He read all sorts of scientific books.  He
ended up by becoming an atheist.  But his experience had left an
indelible scar on his spirit.  There always remained something in
him that felt itself damned by life, damned with distrust, cursed
with the inability ever to reach a lasting belief in any faith,
damned by a fear of the lie hiding behind the mask of truth.

FATHER BAIRD--Ah!

LOVING--(sneeringly)  So romantic, you see--to think of himself as
possessed by a damned soul!

JOHN--And in after years, even at the height of his rationalism, he
never could explain away a horror of death--and a strange
fascination it had for him.  And coupled with this was a dread of
life--as if he constantly sensed a malignant Spirit hiding behind
life, waiting to catch men at its mercy, in their hour of secure
happiness--Something that hated life!--Something that laughed with
mocking scorn!  (He stares before him with a fascinated dread, as
if he saw this Something before him.  Then, suddenly, as if in
reply, Loving gives a little mocking laugh, barely audible.  John
shudders.  Elsa and Father Baird start and stare at John uneasily,
but he is looking straight ahead and they turn away again.)

LOVING--A credulous, religious-minded fool, as I've pointed out!
And he carried his credulity into the next period of his life,
where he believed in one social or philosophical Ism after another,
always on the trail of Truth!  He was never courageous enough to
face what he really knew was true, that there is no truth for men,
that human life is unimportant and meaningless.  No.  He was always
grasping at some absurd new faith to find an excuse for going on!

JOHN--(proudly)  And he did go on!  And he found his truth at last--
in love, where he least expected he ever would find it.  For he
had always been afraid of love.  And when he met the woman who
afterwards became his wife and realized he was in love with her, it
threw him into a panic of fear.  He wanted to run away from her--
but found he couldn't.

LOVING--(scornfully)  So he weakly surrendered--and immediately
began building a new superstition of love around her.

JOHN--He was happy again for the first time since his parents'
death--to his bewildered joy.

LOVING--(mockingly)  And secret fear!

ELSA--(gives John a curious, uneasy glance)  Secret fear?

JOHN--Yes, he--he came to be afraid of his happiness.  His love
made him feel at the mercy of that mocking Something he dreaded.
And the more peace and security he found in his wife's love, the
more he was haunted by fits of horrible foreboding--the recurrent
dread that she might die and he would be left alone again, without
love.  So great was the force of this obsession at times that he
felt caught in a trap, desperate--

LOVING--And he often found himself regretting--

JOHN--(hastily)  Against his will--

LOVING--(inexorably)  That he had again let love put him at the
mercy of life!

JOHN--(hurriedly)  But, of course, he realized this was all morbid
and ridiculous--for wasn't he happier than he had ever dreamed he
could be again?

LOVING--(with gloating mockery)  And so he deliberately destroyed
that happiness!

ELSA--(startledly)  Destroyed his happiness?  How, John?

JOHN--(turns to her, forcing a smile)  I'm afraid you will find
this part of his story hard to believe, Elsa.  This damned fool,
who loved his wife more than anything else in life, was unfaithful
to her.  (Father Baird starts and stares at him with a shocked
expression.)

ELSA--(frightenedly)  It is--hard to believe.  But this part is all
the story of the man you knew, isn't it?

JOHN--Yes, of course, and you mustn't condemn him entirely until
you've heard how it came to happen.  (He turns away from her again--
jerkily)  His wife had gone away.  It was the first time.  He felt
lost without her--fearful, disintegrated.  His familiar dread
seized him.  He began imagining all sorts of catastrophes.
Horrible pictures formed in his mind.  She was run over by a car.
Or she had caught pneumonia and lay dying.  Every day these evil
visions possessed him.  He tried to escape them in work.  He
couldn't.  (He pauses for a second, nerving himself to go on.  Then
starts again.)  Then one night an old friend called--to drag him
off to a party.  He loathed such affairs usually, but this time he
thought it would help him to escape himself for a while.  So he
went.  He observed with disgust how his friend, who was drunk, was
pawing over some woman right under the nose of his wife.  He knew
that this friend was continually having affairs of this sort and
that his wife was aware of it.  He had often wondered if she cared,
and he was curious now to watch her reactions.  And very soon he
had an example of what her pride had to endure, for the husband
went off openly with his lady.  The man felt a great sympathy for
her--and, as if she guessed his thought, she came to him, and he
overdid himself in being kind.  (He gives a short bitter laugh.)  A
great mistake!  For she reacted to it in a way that at first
shocked him but ended up in arousing his curiosity.  He had known
her for years.  It wasn't like her.  It fascinated him, in a way,
that she should have become so corrupted.  He became interested to
see how far she would go with it--purely as an observer, he
thought--the poor idiot!  (He laughs again.  Father Baird has
remained motionless, his eyes on the floor.  Elsa's face is pale
and set, her eyes have a bewildered, stricken look.  John goes on.)
Remember, all this time he saw through her; he laughed to himself
at her crude vamping; he felt he was only playing a game.  Just as
he knew she was playing a game; that it was no desire for him but
hatred for her husband that inspired her.  (He gives a short
contemptuous laugh again.)  Oh, he had it all analyzed quite
correctly, considering the known elements.  It was the unknown--

FATHER BAIRD--(without raising his head)  Yes.  (He casts a quick
glance at Elsa, then looks as quickly away.  Her eyes are fastened
on the floor now.  Her face has frozen into a mask with the tense
effort she is making not to give herself away.)

JOHN--He had not the slightest desire for this woman.  When she
threw herself into his arms, he was repelled.  He determined to end
the game.  He thought of his wife--(He forces a laugh.)  But, as
I've said, there was the unknown to reckon with.  At the thought of
his wife, suddenly it was as if something outside him, a hidden
spirit of evil, took possession of him.

LOVING--(coldly vindictive now)  That is, he saw clearly that this
situation was the climax of a long death struggle between his wife
and him.  The woman with him counted only as a means.  He saw that
underneath all his hypocritical pretenses he really hated love.  He
wanted to deliver himself from its power and be free again.  He
wanted to kill it!

ELSA--(with horrified pain)  Oh!  (trying to control herself)  I--I
don't understand.  He hated love?  He wanted to kill it?  But
that's--too horrible!

JOHN--(stammers confusedly)  No--I--Don't you see it wasn't he?

LOVING--But, I'm afraid, Elsa, that my hero's silly idea that he
was possessed by a demon must strike you as an incredible
superstitious excuse to lie out of his responsibility.

FATHER BAIRD--(without lifting his eyes--quietly)  Quite credible
to me, Jack.  One may not give one's soul to a devil of hate--and
remain forever scatheless.

LOVING--(sneeringly)  As for the adultery itself, the truth is that
this poor fool was making a great fuss about nothing--an act as
meaningless as that of one fly with another, of equal importance to
life!

ELSA--(stares at John as if he had become a stranger--a look of
sick repulsion coming over her face)  John!  You're disgusting!
(She shrinks away from him to the end of the sofa near Father
Baird.)

JOHN--(stammers confusedly)  But I--I didn't mean--forgive me.  I
only said that--as a joke--to get a rise out of Uncle.

FATHER BAIRD--(gives a quick anxious look at Elsa--then quietly, an
undercurrent of sternness in his voice)  I don't think it's a joke.
But go on with your story, Jack.

JOHN--(forcing himself to go on)  Well I--I know you can imagine
the hell he went through from the moment he came to himself and
realized the vileness he had been guilty of.  He couldn't forgive
himself--and that's what his whole being now cried out for--
forgiveness!

FATHER BAIRD--(quietly)  I can well believe that, Jack.

JOHN--He wanted to tell his wife and beg for forgiveness--but he
was afraid of losing her love.  (He gives a quick glance at Elsa,
as if to catch her reaction to this, but she is staring straight
before her with a still, set face.  He forces a smile and adopts a
joking tone.)  And here's where I'd like to have your opinion,
Elsa.  The question doesn't come up in my story, as you'll see,
but--Could his wife have forgiven him, do you think?

ELSA--(starts--then tensely)  You want me to put myself in the
wife's place?

JOHN--Yes.  I want to see whether the man was a fool or not--in his
fear.

ELSA--(after a second's pause--tensely)  No.  She could never
forgive him.

JOHN--(desperately)  But it wasn't he!  Can't you see--

ELSA--No.  I'm afraid--I can't see.

JOHN--(dully now)  Yes.  That's what I thought you'd say.

ELSA--But what does it matter what I think?  You said the question
of her forgiving doesn't come up in your novel.

LOVING--(coldly)  Not while the wife is alive.

JOHN--(dully)  He never tells her.

LOVING--She becomes seriously ill.

ELSA--(with a start)  Oh.

LOVING--(in a cold voice, as if he were pronouncing a death
sentence)  Flu, which turns into pneumonia.  And she dies.

ELSA--(frightenedly now)  Dies?

LOVING--Yes.  I need her death for my end.  (then in a sinister,
jeering tone)  That is, to make my romantic hero come finally to a
rational conclusion about his life!

ELSA--(stares before her, not seeming to have heard this last--her
eyes full of a strange, horrified fascination--as if she were
talking aloud to herself)  So she dies.

FATHER BAIRD--(after a worried glance at her--an undercurrent of
warning in his quiet tone)  I think you've tired Elsa out with your
sensational imaginings, Jack.  I'd spare her, for the present, at
least, the fog of gloom your novel is plunging into.

ELSA--(grasps at this--tensely)  Yes, I'm afraid it has been too
exciting--I really don't feel up to--During dinner I began to get a
headache and it's splitting now.

JOHN--(gets up--worriedly)  But why didn't you tell me?  If I'd
known that, I'd never have bored you with my damned plot.

ELSA--I--I think I'll lie down here on the sofa--and take some
aspirin--and rest for a while.  You can go with your uncle up to
your study--and tell him the rest of your story there.

FATHER BAIRD--(gets up)  An excellent idea.  Come on, Jack, and
give your poor wife a respite from the horrors of authorship.  (He
goes to the doorway in rear.)

JOHN--(comes to Elsa.  As he does so, Loving comes and stands
behind her, at rear of sofa.)  I'm so darned sorry, Elsa, if I've--

ELSA--Oh, please!  It's only a headache.

JOHN--You--you don't feel really sick, do you, dearest?  (He puts a
hand to her forehead timidly.)

ELSA--(shrinks from his touch)  No, no, it's nothing.

LOVING--(slowly, in his cold tone with its undercurrent of sinister
hidden meaning)  You must be very careful, Elsa.  Remember it's
cold and raining out.

ELSA--(staring before her strangely--repeats fascinatedly)  It's
raining?

LOVING--Yes.

JOHN--(stammers confusedly)  Yes, you--you must be careful,
dearest.

FATHER BAIRD--(from the doorway in rear--sharply)  Come along,
Jack!  (John goes back to him and Loving follows John.  Father
Baird goes into the hall, turning left to go upstairs to the study.
John stops in the doorway and looks back for a moment at Elsa
frightenedly.  Loving comes to his side and also stops and looks at
her, his eyes cold and remorseless in his mask of sinister mockery.
They stand there for a moment side by side.  Then John turns and
disappears in the hall toward left, following Father Baird.  Loving
remains, his gaze concentrated on the back of Elsa's head with a
cruel, implacable intensity.  She is still staring before her with
the same strange fascinated dread.  Then, as if in obedience to his
will, she rises slowly to her feet and walks slowly and woodenly
back past him and disappears in the hall, turning right toward the
entrance door to the apartment.  For a second Loving remains
looking after her.  Then he turns and disappears in the hall toward
left, following Father Baird and John to the study.)


(Curtain)



SCENE II


SCENE--John Loving's study on the upper floor of the apartment.  At
left, front, is a door leading into Elsa's bedroom.  Bookcases
extend along the rear and right walls.  There is a door to the
upper hall at rear, right.  A long table with a lamp is at center,
front.  At left of table is a chair.  In front of table a similar
chair.  At right, front, is a chaise-longue, facing left.

Father Baird, John and Loving are discovered.  The priest is
sitting on the chaise-longue, John in the chair at front of table,
Loving in the chair at left of table.  Father Baird sits in the
same attitude as he had in the previous scene, his eyes on the
floor, his expression sad and a bit stern.  Loving's masked face
stares at John, his eyes cold and still.  John is talking in a
strained tone, monotonously, insistently.  It is as if he were
determinedly talking to keep himself from thinking.


JOHN--I listen to people talking about this universal breakdown we
are in and I marvel at their stupid cowardice.  It is so obvious
that they deliberately cheat themselves because their fear of
change won't let them face the truth.  They don't want to
understand what has happened to them.  All they want is to start
the merry-go-round of blind greed all over again.  They no longer
know what they want this country to be, what they want it to
become, where they want it to go.  It has lost all meaning for them
except as a pig-wallow.  And so their lives as citizens have no
beginnings, no ends.  They have lost the ideal of the Land of the
Free.  Freedom demands initiative, courage, the need to decide what
life must mean to oneself.  To them, that is terror.  They explain
away their spiritual cowardice by whining that the time for
individualism is past, when it is their courage to possess their
own souls which is dead--and stinking!  No, they don't want to be
free.  Slavery means security--of a kind, the only kind they have
courage for.  It means they need not think.  They have only to obey
orders from owners who are, in turn, their slaves!

LOVING--(breaks in--with bored scorn)  But I'm denouncing from my
old soap box again.  It's all silly twaddle, of course.  Freedom
was merely our romantic delusion.  We know better now.  We know we
are all the slaves of meaningless chance--electricity or something,
which whirls us--on to Hercules!

JOHN--(with a proud assertiveness)  But, in spite of that, I say:
Very well!  On to Hercules!  Let us face that!  Once we have
accepted it without evasion, we can begin to create new goals for
ourselves, ends for our days!  A new discipline for life will
spring into being, a new will and power to live, a new ideal to
measure the value of our lives by!

LOVING--(mockingly)  What?  Am I drooling on about my old social
ideals again?  Sorry to bore you, Uncle.

FATHER BAIRD--(quietly, without looking up)  You are not boring me,
Jack.

JOHN--(an idealistic exaltation coming into his voice)  We need a
new leader who will teach us that ideal, who by his life will
exemplify it and make it a living truth for us--a man who will
prove that man's fleeting life in time and space can be noble.  We
need, above all, to learn again to believe in the possibility of
nobility of spirit in ourselves!  A new savior must be born who
will reveal to us how we can be saved from ourselves, so that we
can be free of the past and inherit the future and not perish by
it!

LOVING--(mockingly)  Must sound like my old letters to you, Uncle.
It's more nonsense, of course.  But there are times of stress and
flight when one hides in any old empty barrel!

FATHER BAIRD--(ignoring this--quietly)  You are forgetting that men
have such a Savior, Jack.  All they need is to remember Him.

JOHN--(slowly)  Yes, perhaps if we could again have faith in--

LOVING--(harshly)  No!  We have passed beyond gods!  There can be
no going back!

FATHER BAIRD--Jack!  Take care!

LOVING--(mockingly again)  But, on the other hand, I'll grant you
the pseudo-Nietzschean savior I just evoked out of my past is an
equally futile ghost.  Even if he came, we'd only send him to the
insane asylum for teaching that we should have a nobler aim for our
lives than getting all four feet in a trough of swill!  (He laughs
sardonically.)  How could we consider such an unpatriotic idea as
anything but insane, eh?  (There is a pause.  Father Baird looks up
and studies John's face searchingly, hopefully.)

FATHER BAIRD--(finally speaks quietly)  Jack, ever since we came
upstairs, I've listened patiently while you've discussed every
subject under the sun except the one I know is really on your mind.

JOHN--I don't know what you mean.

FATHER BAIRD--The end of your story.

JOHN--Oh, forget that.  I'm sick of the damned thing--now, at any
rate.

FATHER BAIRD--Sick of the damned thing, yes.  That's why I feel
it's important you tell it--now.  This man's wife dies, you said.
(He stares fixedly at John now and adds slowly)  Of influenza which
turns into pneumonia.

JOHN--(uneasily)  Why do you stare like that?

FATHER BAIRD--(dropping his eyes--quietly)  Go on with your story.

JOHN--(hesitantly)  Well--I--You can imagine the anguish he feels
after his wife's death--the guilt which tortures him a thousandfold
now she is dead.

FATHER BAIRD--I can well imagine it, Jack.

LOVING--(sneeringly)  And under the influence of his ridiculous
guilty conscience, all the superstitions of his childhood, which he
had prided himself his reason had killed, return to plague him.  He
feels at times an absurd impulse to pray.  He fights this nonsense
back.  He analyzes it rationally.  He sees it clearly as a
throwback to boyhood experiences.  But, in spite of himself, that
cowardly something in him he despises as superstition seduces his
reason with the old pathetic lie of survival after death.  He
begins to believe his wife is alive in some mythical hereafter!

JOHN--(strangely)  He knows she knows of his sin now.  He can hear
her promising to forgive if he can only believe again in his old
God of Love, and seek her through Him.  She will be beside him in
spirit in this life, and at his death she will be waiting.  Death
will not be an end but a new beginning, a reunion with her in which
their love will go on forever within the eternal peace and love of
God!  (His voice has taken on a note of intense longing.)

FATHER BAIRD--Ah, then you do see, Jack!  Thank God!

JOHN--(as if he hadn't heard)  One night when he is hounded beyond
endurance he rushes out--in the hope that if he walks himself into
exhaustion he may be able to sleep for a while and forget.
(strangely, staring before him, as if he were visualizing the scene
he is describing)  Without his knowing how he got there, he finds
he has walked in a circle and is standing before the old church,
not far from where he now lives, in which he used to pray as a boy.

LOVING--(jeeringly)  And now we come to the great temptation scene,
in which he finally confronts his ghosts!  (with harsh defiance)
The church challenges him--and he accepts the challenge and goes
in!

JOHN--He finds himself kneeling at the foot of the Cross.  And he
feels he is forgiven, and the old comforting peace and security and
joy steal back into his heart!  (He hesitates, as if reluctant to
go on, as if this were the end.)

FATHER BAIRD--(deeply moved)  And that is your end?  Thank God!

LOVING--(jeeringly)  I'm afraid your rejoicing is a bit premature--
for this cowardly giving in to his weakness is not the end!  Even
while he is kneeling, there is a mocking rational something in him
that laughs with scorn--and at the last moment his will and pride
revive in him again!  He sees clearly by the light of reason the
degradation of his pitiable surrender to old ghostly comforts--and
he rejects them!  (His voice with surprising suddenness takes on a
savage vindictive quality.)  He curses his God again as he had when
a boy!  He defies Him finally!  He--!

FATHER BAIRD--(sternly)  Jack!  Take care!

JOHN--(protests confusedly)  No--that's not right--I--

LOVING--(strangely confused in his turn--hurriedly)  Pardon me,
Uncle.  Of course, that's wrong--afraid for a moment I let an
author's craving for a dramatic moment run away with my sane
judgment.  Naturally, he could never be so stupid as to curse what
he knew didn't exist!

JOHN--(despondently)  No.  He realizes he can never believe in his
lost faith again.  He walks out of the church--without love forever
now--but daring to face his eternal loss and hopelessness, to
accept it as his fate and go on with life.

LOVING--(mockingly)  A very, very heroic end, as you see!  But,
unfortunately, absolutely meaningless!

FATHER BAIRD--Yes.  Meaningless.  I'm glad you see that.

JOHN--(rousing a bit--defensively)  No--I take that back--it isn't
meaningless.  It is man's duty to life to go on!

LOVING--(jeeringly)  The romantic idealist again speaks!  On to
Hercules!  What an inspiring slogan!  (then a sinister note coming
into his voice)  But there is still another end to my story--the
one sensible happy end!

FATHER BAIRD--(as if he hadn't heard this last)  Jack!  Are you so
blind you cannot see what your imagining his finding peace in the
church reveals about the longing of your own soul--the salvation
from yourself it holds out to you?  Why, if you had any honesty
with yourself, you would get down on your knees now and--

LOVING--Rot!  How can you believe such childish superstition!

FATHER BAIRD--(angrily)  Jack!  I've endured all I can of your
blasphemous insults to--

JOHN--(confused--hurriedly)  I--I didn't mean--I'm sorry, Uncle.
But it's only a story.  Don't take it so seriously.

FATHER BAIRD--(has immediately controlled himself--quietly)  Only a
story, Jack?  You're sure you still want me to believe that?

JOHN--(defensively)  Why, what else could you believe?  Do you
think I--?  (then in an abrupt, angry tone)  But that's enough
about the damned story.  I don't want to talk any more about it!
(Father Baird stares at him but keeps silent.  John starts to pace
up and down with nervous restlessness--then stops abruptly.)  I--if
you'll excuse me--I think I'll go down and see how Elsa is.  (He
goes back toward the door.  Loving follows him.)  I'll be right
back.

FATHER BAIRD--(quietly)  Of course, Jack.  Don't bother about me.
I'll take a look at your library.  (He gets up.  John goes out.
Loving turns for a moment to Father Baird, his eyes full of a
mocking derision.  Then he turns and follows John.  Father Baird
goes to the bookcase at right and runs his eyes over the titles of
books.  But he only does this mechanically.  His mind is
preoccupied, his expression sad and troubled.  John's voice can be
heard from below calling "Elsa."  Father Baird starts and listens.
Then from Elsa's bedroom John's voice is heard, as he looks for her
there.  He calls anxiously "Elsa"--then evidently hurries out
again, closing the door behind him.  Father Baird's face grows more
worried.  He goes to the doorway in rear and stands listening to a
brief conversation from below.  A moment later John comes in from
rear.  He is making a great effort to conceal a feeling of dread.
He comes forward.  Loving follows silently but stops and remains
standing by the bookcase at left of doorway.)

JOHN--She's--gone out.

FATHER BAIRD--Gone out?  But it's still raining, isn't it?

JOHN--Pouring.  I--I can't understand.  It's a crazy thing for her
to do when she's just getting over--

FATHER BAIRD--(with an involuntary start)  Ah!

JOHN--What?

FATHER BAIRD--Nothing.

JOHN--(frightenedly)  I can't imagine--

FATHER BAIRD--How long has she been gone?

JOHN--I don't know.  Margaret says she heard some one go out right
after we came upstairs.

FATHER BAIRD--(with lowered voice to himself)  My fault, God
forgive me.  I had a feeling then I shouldn't leave her.  (John
sinks down in the chair by the table and waits tensely--then
suddenly he bursts out)

JOHN--I never should have told her the story!  I'm a God-damned
fool.

FATHER BAIRD--(sternly)  You would be more honest with yourself if
you said a self-damned fool!  (hearing a sound from below)  There.
Isn't that some one now?  (John stops for a second to listen, then
hurries to the door in rear.  Loving remains where he is, standing
motionlessly by the bookcase.)

JOHN--(calls)  Is that you, Elsa?

ELSA--(from downstairs--hurriedly)  Yes.  Don't come down.  I'm
coming up.  (A moment later she appears in the hallway.)

JOHN--Darling!  I've been so damned worried.  (He starts to take
her in his arms.)

ELSA--Please!  (She wards him off and steps past him into the
study.  She has taken off her coat and hat downstairs, but the
lower part of her skirt and her stockings and shoes are soaking
wet.  Her face is pinched and drawn and pale, with flushed spots
over the cheek bones, and her eyes are bright and hard.  Father
Baird stares at her searchingly, his face sad and pitying.)

FATHER BAIRD--(forcing a light tone--as she comes forward)  Well!
You have given us a scare, my lady.

ELSA--(tensely)  I'm sorry, Father.

FATHER BAIRD--Your husband was half out of his mind worrying what
had happened to you.  (She sits in the chair in front of table.
John stands at right of her.  Loving has come up and stands by the
right end of table, at right, rear, of John.  His eyes are fixed on
Elsa's face with an eager, sinister intentness.)

JOHN--(with increasing uneasiness)  Elsa!  You look sick.  Do you
feel--?

FATHER BAIRD--I'll get her some whisky.  And you make her go to bed
at once.  (He goes out the door in rear.)

JOHN--(grabbing her hands)  Your hands are like ice!

ELSA--(pulls them away from him--coldly, without looking at him)
It's chilly out.

JOHN--Look at your shoes!  They're soaked!

ELSA--It doesn't matter, does it?  (A chill runs through her body.)

JOHN--You've taken a chill.  (then forcing a tenderly bullying
tone)  You'll go right to bed, that's what.  And no nonsense about
it, you hear!

ELSA--Are you trying the bossy tender husband on me, John?  I'm
afraid that's no longer effective.

JOHN--(guiltily)  Why do you say that?

ELSA--Are you determined to act out this farce to the end?

JOHN--I--I don't know what you mean.  What makes you look at me--as
if you hated me?

ELSA--(bitterly)  Hate you?  No, I only hate myself for having been
such a fool!  (then with a hard, mocking tone)  Shall I tell you
where I went, and why?  But perhaps I'd better put it in the form
of a novel plot!

JOHN--I--I don't know what you're driving at.

ELSA--I went out because I thought I'd like to drop in on one of
Lucy's parties.  But it wasn't exciting--hardly any adultery going
on--I had no opportunity--even if I'd been seized by any peculiar
impulse of hatred and revenge on you.  So I came home.  (She forces
a hard, bitter laugh.)  There!  Are you satisfied?  It's all a lie,
of course.  I simply went for a walk.  But so is your story about
the novel a lie.

JOHN--(stunned--stammers)  Elsa, I--

ELSA--For God's sake, John, don't lie to me any more or I--I know,
I tell you!  Lucy told me all about it this afternoon.

JOHN--She told you?  The damned--

ELSA--Oh, she didn't tell me it was you.  But she gave me all the
sordid details and they were the same as those in your story.  So
it was you who told on yourself.  Rather a joke on you, isn't it?
(She laughs bitterly.)

JOHN--I--(He blurts out miserably)  Yes--it's true.

ELSA--And it was a fine joke on me, her coming here.  You would
appreciate it, if you had seen how I sympathized with her, how I
excused her to myself and pitied her.  And all the while, she was
pitying me!  She was gloating!  She's always envied us our
happiness.  Our happiness!

JOHN--(writhing)  Don't!

ELSA--She must have been laughing at me for a fool, sneering to
herself about my stupid faith in you.  And you gave her that
chance--you!  You made our love a smutty joke for her and every one
like her--you whom I loved so!  And all the time I was loving you,
you were only waiting for this chance to kill that love, you were
hating me underneath, hating our happiness, hating the ideal of our
marriage you had given me, which had become all the beauty and
truth of life to me!  (She springs to her feet--distractedly)  Oh,
I can't--I can't!  (She starts as if to run from the room.)

JOHN--(grabbing her--imploringly)  Elsa!  For God's sake!  Didn't
my story explain?  Can't you believe--it wasn't I?  Can't you
forgive?

ELSA--No!  I can't forgive!  How can I forgive--when all that time
I loved you so, you were wishing in your heart that I would die!

JOHN--(frantically)  Don't say that!  It's mad!  Elsa!  Good God,
how can you think--

ELSA--What else can I think?  (then wildly)  Oh, John, stop
talking!  What's the good of talk?  I only know I hate life!  It's
dirty and insulting--and evil!  I want my dream back--or I want to
be dead with it!  (She is shaken again by a wave of uncontrollable
chill, her teeth chatter--pitiably)  Oh, John, leave me alone!  I'm
cold, I'm sick.  I feel crazy!

FATHER BAIRD--(comes in through the doorway at rear--sharply)
Jack!  Why haven't you got her to bed?  Can't you see she's ill?
Phone for your doctor.  (John goes out.  Loving, his eyes remaining
fixed on Elsa with the same strange look, backs out of the doorway
after him.)

FATHER BAIRD--(coming to Elsa--with great compassion)  My dear
child, I can't tell you how deeply--

ELSA--(tensely)  Don't!  I can't bear--(She is shaken again by a
chill.)

FATHER BAIRD--(worriedly, but trying to pretend to treat it
lightly, reassuringly)  You've taken a bad chill.  You were very
foolhardy to--But a day or two in bed and you'll be fine again.

ELSA--(strangely serious and bitterly mocking at the same time)
But that would spoil John's story, don't you think?  That would be
very inconsiderate after he's worked out such a convenient end for
me.

FATHER BAIRD--Elsa!  For the love of God, don't tell me you took
his morbid nonsense seriously!  Is that why you--?

ELSA--(as if she hadn't heard him)  And when he reminded me it was
raining, it all seemed to fit in so perfectly--like the will of
God!  (She laughs with hysterical mockery, her eyes shining
feverishly.)

FATHER BAIRD--(sternly--more to break her mood than because he
takes her impiety seriously)  Elsa!  Stop that mockery!  It has no
part in you!

ELSA--(confusedly)  I'm sorry.  I forgot you were--(then suddenly
hectic again)  But I've never had any God, you see--until I met
John.  (She laughs hysterically--then suddenly forces control on
herself and gets shakily to her feet.)  I'm sorry.  I seem to be
talking nonsense.  My head has gone woolly.  I--(John enters from
the hall at rear.  As he comes forward, Loving appears in the
doorway behind him.)

JOHN--(coming to Elsa)  Stillwell says for you to--

ELSA--(distractedly)  No!  (then dully)  I'll go--to my room.  (She
sways weakly.  John starts toward her.)

JOHN--Elsa!  Sweetheart!

ELSA--No!  (By an effort of will, she overcomes her weakness and
walks woodenly into her bedroom and closes the door behind her.
John makes a movement as if to follow her.)

FATHER BAIRD--(sharply)  Leave her alone, Jack.  (John sinks down
hopelessly on the chaise-longue.  Loving stands behind him, his
cold eyes fixed with a sinister intensity on the door through which
Elsa has just disappeared.  Father Baird makes a movement as if he
were going to follow Elsa into her room.  Then he stops.  There is
an expression of sorrowful foreboding on his face.  He bows his
head with a simple dignity and begins to pray silently.)

LOVING--(his eyes now on John--with a gloating mockery)  She seems
to have taken her end in your story very seriously.  Let's hope she
doesn't carry that too far!  You have enough on your conscience
already--without murder!  You couldn't live, I know, if--

JOHN--(shuddering--clutches his head in both hands as if to crush
out his thoughts)  For God's sake!  (His eyes turn to the priest.
Then their gaze travels to a point in front of Father Baird, and
slowly his expression changes to one of fearful, fascinated awe, as
if he suddenly sensed a Presence there the priest is praying to.
His lips part and words come haltingly, as if they were forced out
of him, full of imploring fear.)  Thou wilt not--do that to me
again--wilt Thou?  Thou wilt not--take love from me again?

LOVING--(jeeringly)  Is it your old demon you are praying to for
mercy?  Then I hope you hear his laughter!  (then breaking into a
cold, vicious rage)  You cowardly fool!  I tell you there is
nothing--nothing!

JOHN--(starts back to himself--stammers with a confused air of
relief)  Yes--of course--what's the matter with me?  There's
nothing--nothing to fear!


(Curtain)




ACT FOUR

End of the End


SCENE I


SCENE--The study is shown as in preceding scene, but this scene
also reveals the interior of Elsa's bedroom at left of study.

At right of bedroom, front, is the door between the two rooms.  At
rear of this door, in the middle of the wall, is a dressing table,
mirror and chair.  In the left wall, rear, is the door to the
bathroom.  Before this door is a screen.  At left, front, is the
bed, its head against the left wall.  By the head of the bed is a
small stand on which is a reading lamp with a piece of cloth thrown
over it to dim its light.  An upholstered chair is beside the foot
of the bed.  Another chair is by the head of the bed at rear.  A
chaise-longue is at right, front, of the room.

It is nearing daybreak of a day about a week later.

In the bedroom, Elsa lies in the bed, her eyes closed, her face
pallid and wasted.  John sits in the chair toward the foot of the
bed, front.  He looks on the verge of complete mental and physical
collapse.  His unshaven cheeks are sunken and sallow.  His eyes,
bloodshot from sleeplessness, stare from black hollows with a
frozen anguish at Elsa's face.

Loving stands by the back of his chair, facing front.  The
sinister, mocking character of his mask is accentuated now, evilly
intensified.

Father Baird is standing by the middle of the bed, at rear.  His
face also bears obvious traces of sleepless strain.  He is
conferring in whispers with Doctor Stillwell, who is standing at
his right.  Both are watching Elsa with anxious eyes.  At rear of
Stillwell on his right, a trained nurse is standing.

Stillwell is in his early fifties, tall, with a sharp, angular face
and gray hair.  The nurse is a plump woman in her late thirties.

For a moment after the curtain rises the whispered pantomime
between Stillwell and the priest continues, the nurse watching and
listening.  Then Elsa stirs restlessly and moans.  She speaks
without opening her eyes, hardly above a whisper, in a tone of
despairing bitterness.


ELSA--John!  How could you?  Our dream!  (She moans.)

JOHN--(in anguish)  Elsa!  Forgive!

LOVING--(in a cold, inexorable tone)  She will never forgive.

STILLWELL--(frowning, makes a motion to John to be silent)  Ssshh!
(He whispers to Father Baird, his eyes on John.  The priest nods
and comes around the corner of the bed toward John.  Stillwell sits
in the chair by the head of the bed, rear, and feels Elsa's pulse.
The nurse moves close behind him.)

FATHER BAIRD--(bends over John's chair and speaks in a low
cautioning voice)  Jack.  You must be quiet.

JOHN--(His eyes are on Stillwell's face, desperately trying to read
some answer there.  He calls to him frightenedly)  Doctor!  What is
it?  Is she--?

STILLWELL--Ssshh!  (He gives John a furious look and motions Father
Baird to keep him quiet.)

FATHER BAIRD--Jack!  Don't you realize you're only harming her?

JOHN--(confusedly repentant--in a low voice)  I'm sorry.  I try not
to, but--I know it's crazy, but I can't help being afraid--

LOVING--That my prophecy is coming true--her end in my story.

JOHN--(with anguished appeal)  No!  Elsa!  Don't believe that!
(Elsa moans.)

FATHER BAIRD--You see!  You've disturbed her again!  (Stillwell
gets up and, after exchanging a whispered word with the nurse, who
nods and takes his place by the bedside, comes quickly around the
end of the bed to John.)

STILLWELL--What the devil is the matter with you?  I thought you
promised me if I let you stay in here you'd keep quiet.

JOHN--(dazedly now--suddenly overcome by a wave of drowsiness he
tries in vain to fight back)  I won't again.  (His head nods.)

STILLWELL--(gives him a searching look--to Father Baird)  We've got
to get him out of here.

JOHN--(rousing himself--desperately fighting back his drowsiness)
I won't sleep!  God, how can I sleep when--!

STILLWELL--(taking one arm and signaling Father Baird to take the
other--sharply but in a voice just above a whisper)  Loving, come
into your study.  I want to talk with you about your wife's
condition.

JOHN--(terrified)  Why?  What do you mean?  She isn't--?

STILLWELL--(hastily, in a forced tone of reassurance)  No, no, no!
What put that nonsense in your head?  (He flashes a signal to the
priest and they both lift John to his feet.)  Come along, that's a
good fellow.  (They lead John to the door to the study at right.
Loving follows them silently, moving backward, his eyes fixed with
sinister gloating intentness on Elsa's face.  Father Baird opens
the door and they pass through, Loving slipping after them.  Father
Baird closes the door.  They lead John to the chaise-longue at
right, front, of study, passing in front of the table.  Loving
keeps pace with them, passing to rear of table.)

JOHN--(starts to resist feebly)  Let me go!  I mustn't leave her!
I'm afraid!  (They get him seated on the chaise-longue, Loving
taking up a position directly behind him on the other side of the
chaise-longue.)  I feel there's something--

LOVING--(with a gloating mockery)  A demon who laughs, hiding
behind the end of my story!  (He gives a sinister laugh.  Father
Baird and even Stillwell, in spite of himself, are appalled by this
laughter.)

JOHN--(starts to his feet--in anguish)  No!

FATHER BAIRD--Jack!

STILLWELL--(recovering, angry at himself and furious with John--
seizes him by the arm and forces him down on the chaise-longue
again.)  Stop your damned nonsense!  Get a grip on yourself!  I've
warned you you'd go to pieces like this if you kept on refusing to
rest or take nourishment.  But that's got to stop, do you hear me?
You've got to get some sleep!

FATHER BAIRD--Yes, Jack.  You must!

STILLWELL--You've been a disturbing factor from the first and I've
been a fool to stand--But I've had enough!  You'll stay out of her
room--

JOHN--No!

STILLWELL--Don't you want her to get well?  By God, from the way
you've been acting--

JOHN--(wildly)  For God's sake, don't say that!

STILLWELL--Can't you see you're no help to her in this condition?
While if you'll sleep for a while--

JOHN--No!  (imploringly)  She's much better, isn't she?  For God's
sake, tell me you know she isn't going to--Tell me that and I'll do
anything you ask!

LOVING--And don't lie, please!  I want the truth!

STILLWELL--(forcing an easy tone)  What's all this talk?  She's
resting quietly.  There's no question of--(then quickly)  And now
I've satisfied you on that, lie down as you promised.  (John stares
at him uncertainly for a moment--then obediently lies down.)  Close
your eyes now.  (John closes his eyes.  Loving stands by his head,
staring down at his face.  John almost immediately drops off into a
drugged half-sleep, his breathing becomes heavy and exhausted.
Stillwell nods to Father Baird with satisfaction--then moves
quietly to the other side of the room, by the door to Elsa's
bedroom, beckoning Father Baird to follow him.  He speaks to him in
a low voice.)  We'll have to keep an eye on him.  He's headed
straight for a complete collapse.  But I think he'll sleep now, for
a while, anyway.  (He opens the door to the bedroom, looks in and
catches the eye of the nurse, who is still sitting in the chair by
the head of the bed, watching Elsa.  The nurse shakes her head,
answering his question.  He softly closes the door again.)

FATHER BAIRD--No change, Doctor?

STILLWELL--No.  But I'm not giving up hope!  She still has a
fighting chance!  (then in a tone of exasperated dejection)  If
she'd only fight!

FATHER BAIRD--(nods with sad understanding)  Yes.  That's it.

STILLWELL--Damn it, she seems to want to die.  (then angrily)  And,
by God, in spite of his apparent grief, I've suspected at times
that underneath he wants--

LOVING--(his eyes fixed on John's face, speaks in a cold implacable
tone)  She is going to die.

JOHN--(starts half-awake--mutters)  No!  Elsa!  Forgive!  (He sinks
into drugged sleep again.)

STILLWELL--You see.  He keeps insisting to himself--

FATHER BAIRD--(defensively)  That's a horrible charge for you to
make, Doctor.  Why, any one can see the poor boy is crazed with
fear and grief.

STILLWELL--(a bit ashamed)  Sorry.  But there have been times when
I've had the strongest sense of--well, as he said, Something--(then
curtly, feeling this makes him appear silly)  Afraid I've allowed
this case to get on my nerves.  Don't usually go in for psychic
nonsense.

FATHER BAIRD--Your feeling isn't nonsense, Doctor.

STILLWELL--She won't forgive him.  That's her trouble as well as
his.  (He sighs, giving way for a moment to his own physical
weariness.)  A strange case.  Too many undercurrents.  The
pneumonia has been more a means than a cause.  (with a trace of
condescension)  More in your line.  A little casting out of devils
would have been of benefit--might still be.

FATHER BAIRD--Might still be.  Yes.

STILLWELL--(exasperatedly)  Damn it, I've seen many worse cases
where the patient pulled through.  If I could only get her will to
live functioning again!  If she'd forgive him and get that off her
mind, I know she'd fight.  (He abruptly gets to his feet--curtly)
Well, talk won't help her, that's sure.  I'll get back.  (He goes
into the bedroom and closes the door silently behind him.  Father
Baird remains for a moment staring sadly at the floor.  In the
bedroom, Stillwell goes to the bedside.  The nurse gets up and he
speaks to her in a whisper, hears what she has to report, gives her
some quick instructions.  She goes to the bathroom.  He sits in the
chair by the bed and feels Elsa's pulse.  The nurse comes back and
hands him a hypodermic needle.  He administers this in Elsa's arm.
She moans and her body twitches for a second.  He sits, watching
her face worriedly, his fingers on her wrist.  In the study, Father
Baird starts to pace back and forth, frowning, his face tense,
feeling desperately that he is facing inevitable tragedy, that he
must do something to thwart it at once.  He stops at the foot of
the chaise-longue and stares down at the sleeping John.  Then he
prays)

FATHER BAIRD--Dear Jesus, grant me the grace to bring Jack back to
Thee.  Make him see that Thou, alone, hast the words of Eternal
Life, the power still to save--

LOVING--(his eyes fixed on John's face in the same stare--speaks as
if in answer to Father Baird's prayer)  Nothing can save her.

JOHN--(shuddering in his sleep)  No!

LOVING--Her end in your story is coming true.  It was a cunning
method of murder!

FATHER BAIRD--(horrified)  Jack!

JOHN--(with a tortured cry that starts him awake)  No!  It's a lie!
(He stares around him at the air, as if he were trying to see some
presence he feels there.)  Liar!  Murderer!  (Suddenly he seems to
see Father Baird for the first time--with a cry of appeal--
brokenly)  Uncle!  For God's sake, help me!  I--I feel I'm going
mad!

FATHER BAIRD--(eagerly)  If you would only let me help you, Jack!
If you would only be honest with yourself and admit the truth in
your own soul now, for Elsa's sake--while there is still time.

JOHN--(frightenedly)  Still time?  What do you mean?  Is she--
worse?

FATHER BAIRD--No.  You've only been sleeping a few minutes.  There
has been no change.

JOHN--Then why did you say--?

FATHER BAIRD--Because I have decided you must be told the truth
now, the truth you already know in your heart.

JOHN--What--truth?

FATHER BAIRD--It is the crisis.  Human science has done all it can
to save her.  Her life is in the hands of God now.

LOVING--There is no God!

FATHER BAIRD--(sternly)  Do you dare say that--now!

JOHN--(frightenedly)  No--I--I don't know what I'm saying--It isn't
I--

FATHER BAIRD--(recovering himself--quietly)  No.  I know you
couldn't blaspheme at such a time--not your true self.

LOVING--(angrily)  It is my true self--my only self!  And I see
through your stupid trick--to use the fear of death to--

FATHER BAIRD--It's the hatred you once gave your soul to which
speaks, not you!  (pleadingly)  I implore you to cast that evil
from your soul!  If you would only pray!

LOVING--(fiercely)  No!

JOHN--(stammers torturedly)  I--I don't know--I can't think!

FATHER BAIRD--(intensely)  Pray with me, Jack.  (He sinks to his
knees.)  Pray that Elsa's life may be spared to you!  It is only
God Who can open her heart to forgiveness and give her back the
will to live!  Pray for His forgiveness, and He will have
compassion on you!  Pray to Him Who is Love.  Who is Infinite
Tenderness and Pity!

JOHN--(half-slipping to his knees--longingly)  Who is Love!  If I
could only believe again!

FATHER BAIRD--Pray for your lost faith and it will be given you!

LOVING--(sneeringly)  You forget I once prayed to your God and His
answer was hatred and death--and a mocking laughter!

JOHN--(starts up from his half-kneeling position, under the
influence of this memory)  Yes, I prayed then.  No.  It's no good,
Uncle.  I can't believe.  (then suddenly--with eagerness)  Let Him
prove to me His Love exists!  Then I will believe in Him again!

FATHER BAIRD--You may not bargain with your God, Jack.  (He gets
wearily to his feet, his shoulders bowed, looking tragically old
and beaten--then with a last appeal)  But I beseech you still!  I
warn you!--before it's too late!--look into your soul and force
yourself to admit the truth you find there--the truth you have
yourself revealed in your story where the man, who is you, goes to
the church and, at the foot of the Cross is granted the grace of
faith again!

LOVING--In a moment of stupid madness!  But remember that is not
the end!

FATHER BAIRD--(ignoring this)  There is a fate in that story, Jack--
the fate of the will of God made manifest to you through the
secret longing of your own heart for faith!  Take care!  It has
come true so far, and I am afraid if you persist in your mad denial
of Him and your own soul, you will have willed for yourself the
accursed end of that man--and for Elsa, death!

JOHN--(terrified)  Stop!  Stop talking damned nonsense!
(distractedly)  Leave me alone!  I'm sick of your damned croaking!
You're lying!  Stillwell said there was no danger!  She's asleep!
She's getting better!  (then terrified again)  What made you say, a
fate in my story--the will of God?  Good God, that's--that's
nonsense!  I--(he starts for the bedroom door)  I'm going back to
her.  There's Something--

FATHER BAIRD--(tries to hold him back)  You can't go there now,
Jack.

JOHN--(pushing him roughly away)  Leave me alone!  (He opens the
bedroom door and lurches in.  Loving has come around behind the
table and slips in after him.  Father Baird, recovering from the
push which has sent him back against the table, front, comes
quickly to the doorway.

(As John comes in, Stillwell turns from where he sits beside the
bedside, a look of intense anger and exasperation on his face.
John, as soon as he enters, falls under the atmosphere of the sick-
room, his wildness drops from him and he looks at Stillwell with
pleading eyes.)

STILLWELL--(giving up getting him out again as hopeless, makes a
gesture for him to be silent)  Ssshh!  (The nurse looks at John
with shocked rebuke.  Stillwell motions John to sit down.  He does
so meekly, sinking into the chair at right, center.  Loving stands
behind the chair.  Father Baird, after a look into the room to see
if his help is needed, exchanges a helpless glance with Stillwell,
and then, turning back into the study but leaving the communicating
door ajar, goes back as far as the table.  There, after a moment's
pause, he bows his head and begins praying silently to himself.  In
the bedroom, Stillwell turns back to his patient.  There is a pause
of silent immobility in the room.  John's eyes are fixed on Elsa's
face with a growing terror.  Loving stares over his head with cold,
still eyes.)

JOHN--(in a low, tense voice--as if he were thinking aloud)  A fate
in my story--the will of God!  Something--(He shudders.)

LOVING--(in the same low tone, but with a cold, driving intensity)
She will soon be dead.

JOHN--No!

LOVING--What will you do then?  Love will be lost to you forever.
You will be alone again.  There will remain only the anguish of
endless memories, endless regrets--a torturing remorse for murdered
happiness!

JOHN--I know!  For God's sake, don't make me think--

LOVING--(coldly remorseless--sneeringly)  Do you think you can
choose your stupid end in your story now, when you have to live
it?--on to Hercules?  But if you love her, how can you desire to go
on--with all that was Elsa rotting in her grave behind you!

JOHN--(torturedly)  No!  I can't!  I'll kill myself!

ELSA--(suddenly moans frightenedly)  No, John!  No!

LOVING--(triumphantly)  Ah!  At last you accept the true end!  At
last you see the empty posing of your old ideal about man's duty to
go on for Life's sake, your meaningless gesture of braving fate--a
childish nose-thumbing at Nothingness at which Something laughs
with a weary scorn!  (He gives a low, scornful laugh.)  Shorn of
your boastful words, all it means is to go on like an animal in
dumb obedience to the law of the blind stupidity of life that it
must live at all costs!  But where will you go--except to death?
And why should you wait for an end you know when it is in your
power to grasp that end--now!

ELSA--(again moans frightenedly)  No, John--no!--please, John!

LOVING--Surely you cannot be afraid of death.  Death is not the
dying.  Dying is life, its last revenge upon itself.  But death is
what the dead know, the warm, dark womb of Nothingness--the Dream
in which you and Elsa may sleep as one forever, beyond fear of
separation!

JOHN--(longingly)  Elsa and I--forever beyond fear!

LOVING--Dust within dust to sleep!

JOHN--(mechanically)  Dust within dust.  (then frightenedly
questioning)  Dust?  (A shudder runs over him and he starts as if
awakening from sleep.)  Fool!  Can the dust love the dust?  No!
(desperately)  O God, have pity!  Show me the way!

LOVING--(furiously--as if he felt himself temporarily beaten)
Coward!

JOHN--If I could only pray!  If I could only believe again!

LOVING--You cannot!

JOHN--A fate in my story, Uncle said--the will of God!--I went to
the church--a fate in the church--(He suddenly gets to his feet as
if impelled by some force outside him.  He stares before him with
obsessed eyes.)  Where I used to believe, where I used to pray!

LOVING--You insane fool!  I tell you that's ended!

JOHN--If I could see the Cross again--

LOVING--(with a shudder)  No!  I don't want to see!  I remember too
well!--when Father and Mother--!

JOHN--Why are you so afraid of Him, if--

LOVING--(shaken--then with fierce defiance)  Afraid?  I who once
cursed Him, who would again if--(then hurriedly catching himself)
But what superstitious nonsense you make me remember.  He doesn't
exist!

JOHN--(takes a step toward the door)  I am going!

LOVING--(tries to bar his path)  No!

JOHN--(without touching him, makes a motion of pushing him aside)
I am going.  (He goes through the door to the study, moving like
one in a trance, his eyes fixed straight before him.  Loving
continues to try to bar his path, always without touching him.
Father Baird looks up as they pass the table.)

LOVING--(in impotent rage)  No!  You coward!  (John goes out the
door in rear of study and Loving is forced out before him.)

FATHER BAIRD--(starting after him)  Jack!  (But he turns back in
alarm as, in the bedroom, Elsa suddenly comes out of the half-coma
she is in with a cry of terror and, in spite of Stillwell, springs
up to a half-sitting position in bed, her staring eyes on the
doorway to the study.)

ELSA--John!  (then to Stillwell)  Oh, please!  Look after him!  He
might--John!  Come back!  I'll forgive!

STILLWELL--(soothingly)  There, don't be frightened.  He's only
gone to lie down for a while.  He's very tired.  (Father Baird has
come in from the study and is approaching the bed.  Stillwell, with
a significant look, calls on him for confirmation.)  Isn't that
right, Father?

FATHER BAIRD--Yes, Elsa.

ELSA--(relieved)  Oh.  (She smiles faintly.)  Poor John.  I'm so
sorry.  Tell him he mustn't worry.  I understand now.  I love--I
forgive.  (She sinks back and closes her eyes.  Stillwell reaches
for her wrist in alarm, but as he feels her pulse his expression
changes to one of excited surprise.)

FATHER BAIRD--(misreading his look--in a frightened whisper)
Merciful God!  She isn't--?

STILLWELL--No.  She's asleep.  (then with suppressed excitement)
That's done it!  She'll want to live now!

FATHER BAIRD--God be praised!  (Stillwell, his air curtly
professional again turns and whispers some orders to the nurse.)


(Curtain)



SCENE II


SCENE--A section of the interior of an old church.  A side wall
runs diagonally back from left, front, two-thirds of the width of
the stage, where it meets an end wall that extends back from right,
front.  The walls are old gray stone.  In the middle of the side
wall is a great cross, its base about five feet from the floor,
with a life-size figure of Christ, an exceptionally fine piece of
wood carving.  In the middle of the end wall is an arched doorway.
On either side of this door, but high up in the wall, their bases
above the level of the top of the doorway, are two narrow, stained-
glass windows.

It is a few minutes after the close of the preceding scene.  The
church is dim and empty and still.  The only light is the
reflection of the dawn, which, stained by the color in the windows,
falls on the wall on and around the Cross.

The outer doors beyond the arched doorway are suddenly pushed open
with a crash and John and Loving appear in the doorway.  Loving
comes first, retreating backward before John whom he desperately,
but always without touching him, endeavors to keep from entering
the church.  But John is the stronger now and, the same look of
obsessed resolution in his eyes, he forces Loving back.


LOVING--(as they enter--desperately, as if he were becoming
exhausted by the struggle)  You fool!  There is nothing here but
hatred!

JOHN--No!  There was love!  (His eyes fasten themselves on the
Cross and he gives a cry of hope.)  The Cross!

LOVING--The symbol of hate and derision!

JOHN--No!  Of love!  (Loving is forced back until the back of his
head is against the foot of the Cross.  John throws himself on his
knees before it and raises his hands up to the figure of Christ in
supplication.)  Mercy!  Forgive!

LOVING--(raging)  Fool!  Grovel on your knees!  It is useless!  To
pray, one must believe!

JOHN--I have come back to Thee!

LOVING--Words!  There is nothing!

JOHN--Let me believe in Thy love again!

LOVING--You cannot believe!

JOHN--(imploringly)  O God of Love, hear my prayer!

LOVING--There is no God!  There is only death!

JOHN--(more weakly now)  Have pity on me!  Let Elsa live!

LOVING--There is no pity!  There is only scorn!

JOHN--Hear me while there is still time!  (He waits, staring at the
Cross with anguished eyes, his arms outstretched.  There is a pause
of silence.)

LOVING--(with triumphant mockery)  Silence!  But behind it I hear
mocking laughter!

JOHN--(agonized)  No!  (He gives way, his head bowed, and sobs
heartbrokenly--then stops suddenly, and looking up at the Cross
again, speaks sobbingly in a strange humble tone of broken
reproach.)  O Son of Man, I am Thou and Thou art I!  Why hast Thou
forsaken me?  O Brother Who lived and loved and suffered and died
with us, Who knoweth the tortured hearts of men, canst Thou not
forgive--now--when I surrender all to Thee--when I have forgiven
Thee--the love that Thou once took from me!

LOVING--(with a cry of hatred)  No!  Liar!  I will never forgive!

JOHN--(his eyes fixed on the face of the Crucified suddenly
lighting up as if he now saw there the answer to his prayer--in a
voice trembling with awakening hope and joy)  Ah!  Thou hast heard
me at last!  Thou hast not forsaken me!  Thou hast always loved me!
I am forgiven!  I can forgive myself--through Thee!  I can believe!

LOVING--(stumbles weakly from beneath the Cross)  No!  I deny!  (He
turns to face the Cross with a last defiance.)  I defy Thee!  Thou
canst not conquer me!  I hate Thee!  I curse Thee!

JOHN--No!  I bless!  I love!

LOVING--(as if this were a mortal blow, seems to sag and collapse--
with a choking cry)  No!

JOHN--(with a laugh that is half sob)  Yes!  I see now!  At last I
see!  I have always loved!  O Lord of Love, forgive Thy poor blind
fool!

LOVING--No!  (His legs crumple under him, he slumps to his knees
beside John, as if some invisible force crushed him down.)

JOHN--(his voice rising exultantly, his eyes on the face of the
Crucified)  Thou art the Way--the Truth--the Resurrection and the
Life, and he that believeth in Thy Love, his love shall never die!

LOVING--(faintly, at last surrendering, addressing the Cross not
without a final touch of pride in his humility)  Thou hast
conquered, Lord.  Thou art--the End.  Forgive--the damned soul--of
John Loving!  (He slumps forward to the floor and rolls over on his
back, dead, his head beneath the foot of the Cross, his arms
outflung so that his body forms another cross.  John rises from his
knees and stands with arms stretched up and out, so that he, too,
is like cross.  While this is happening the light of the dawn on
the stained-glass windows swiftly rises to a brilliant intensity of
crimson and green and gold, as if the sun had risen.  The gray
walls of the church, particularly the wall where the Cross is, and
the face of the Christ shine with this radiance.

(John Loving--he, who had been only John--remains standing with his
arms stretched up to the Cross, an expression of mystic exaltation
on his face.  The corpse of Loving lies at the foot of the Cross,
like a cured cripple's testimonial offering in a shrine.

(Father Baird comes in hurriedly through the arched doorway.  He
stops on seeing John Loving, then comes quietly up beside him and
stares searchingly into his face.  At what he sees there he bows
his head and his lips move in grateful prayer.  John Loving is
oblivious to his presence.)

FATHER BAIRD--(finally taps him gently on the shoulder)  Jack.

JOHN LOVING--(still in his ecstatic mystic vision--strangely)  I am
John Loving.

FATHER BAIRD--(stares at him--gently)  It's all right now, Jack.
Elsa will live.

JOHN LOVING--(exaltedly)  I know!  Love lives forever!  Death is
dead!  Ssshh!  Listen!  Do you hear?

FATHER BAIRD--Hear what, Jack?

JOHN LOVING--Life laughs with God's love again!  Life laughs with
love!


(Curtain)



THE END




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