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Title:      Titanic and Other Ships
Author:     Charles Herbert Lightoller



Chapter 1  OFF TO SEA
Chapter 2  65 degrees SOUTH
Chapter 5  THE "HOLT HILL"
Chapter 7  SMALLPOX
Chapter 14 "SHARKS"
Chapter 15 I GET MY "TICKET"
Chapter 16 FIRE AT SEA
Chapter 18 DERELICTS
Chapter 19 'BULLY' WATERS
Chapter 21 TRAIL OF '98
Chapter 23 NO GAME...NO GOLD
Chapter 25 BACK TO SEA
Chapter 35 THE RESCUE
Chapter 36 THE WAR
Chapter 42 LOSS OF H.M.S. "FALCON"
Chapter 45 I "BURY THE ANCHOR"



I don't think my relatives ever knew how amazed I was when I obtained
their consent to go to sea. I chuckled at my good luck, as they no doubt
chuckled at their good riddance.

I had long since made up my mind (or what, at the mature age of
thirteen, I was pleased to call my mind) that I would go to sea. And to
sea I went, knowing little and caring less about those prospective first
few years of hellish servitude, during which experience must be gained--
experience that, like a corn, had to grow, become hardened, and most
damnably hurt.

My Dad didn't enter into it, as he was settled in New Zealand, having
seen the best days in cotton. In fact we had been "in cotton" for
generations, and I had fully expected that I should have to "follow in
father's footsteps."

For my part the "going to sea" was just a bluff, but it worked. I hear
some say, to my sorrow. Not a bit of it. The sea is a hard, unrelenting
mistress, always ready to whip up the fools (as I was soon to discover).
She tried to drown me several times, yet I beat her; she nearly broke my
neck on more than one occasion, but we still remain the best of friends,
and I never regret that my bluff was called.

I had a distant relative, a one hundred per cent sailor to the tips of
his stub-ended fingers, so I suppose it was only natural that my near
relatives should start me off in his footsteps. The fact remains that I
found myself a brass bound apprentice on board the famous PRIMROSE HILL,
a four-masted barque and three skysail-yarder.

It was not long before I learned exactly how to throw out my chest as I
described my ship as a "three skysail-yarder." There weren't many of
them about as most owners considered skysails more ornamental than

If you had been near the half-deck door when one of the Mates sang out,
"Now one of you youngsters, up and stop the main skysail buntlines,"
then you would have known just what we boys thought of them! The sole
reason for their existence, in our opinion, lay in the fact that they
formed a ready to hand punishment for first voyagers. But skysails
undoubtedly did give that finishing touch to a ship with her towering
piles of canvas rising, tier on tier, a full two hundred feet above the
deck. Courses--as the three big lower sails were called--lower and
upper topsails, lower and upper t'gallant sails, royals, and finally,
the boys' pet objection, those skysails. These were exactly forty-five
feet from yard-arm to yard-arm, just half the length of the main yard; a
perfect pocket handkerchief, but making for perfect symmetry, and taking
away that chopped off look that either stump t'gallant masts, or even
royals alone are apt to give. Our great objection to these sails was
there was no way of getting up the final fifteen feet to this yard
except by shinning up the back stays ( the mast being greased). As far
as the royal yard the going was not so bad; one had the rigging and
Jacob's Ladder. But swinging around on a wire backstay half way to
heaven, may have some attraction, but also has its drawbacks,
particularly when she was rolling heavily.

Having arrived at the summit of one's present ambition and standing
there on the footrope of the skysailyard, looking down two hundred odd
feet, always carried a thrill. To a first voyager it seemed
inconceivable that such an almighty spread of canvas, as then lay below
one, should not put that slight strip of deck on its beam ends.

In addition to the square sails, the PRIMROSE HILL carried fifteen fore
and aft sails, in the way of jibs, staysails, spanker and gaff topsail,
each with the definite set purpose of passing its drive to that long,
narrow hull. She was a great ship, and even in the days when a forest of
masts was a common sight in dockland, the tapering spars of the old
PRIMROSE HILL always stood out like one of the tea clippers of old.

I know the skipper was a mighty proud man, and we boys almost reverenced
him, pacing his lonely beat up and down that poop, lord of all he
surveyed. His slightest word was law absolute and immutable. We thought
that even such as we, might with luck, some day walk the poop with that
deep sea roll. But that was too far in the dim distant future for boys
of our age to consider seriously.

Fourteen years of age found me beating down the channel in the teeth of
a Westerly gale. My first voyage, horribly seasick--and sick of the
sea. That seemingly objectless and eternal beat from side to side of the
Channel, driving along with every stitch she would stand, trying to make
to the westward. Once in the fog, we almost succeeded in running down
the Royal Sovereign Lightship, and then on the other side, we got into a
jam with the notorious Race of Alderney.

At long last, clear of the Chops of the Channel, we squared away to a
fine Nor'-Nor'West breeze, and tore down through the Roaring Forties
towards good old "flying fish" weather. Shirt and pants the order of the
day, the ship heeling over with a bone in her teeth, ropes fore and aft
cracking like a machine gun as they surged round the green-heart
belaying pins. Day after day, and week after week, snoring along without
touching halyard or sheet; bending fine weather sails, holystoning
decks, scrubbing bright work and painting ship. Never a lazy moment
aboard any sailing ship in fine weather, and the man with the forenoon
or afternoon Trick at the wheel, is the man to be envied. At night it is
the other way about, as the watch on deck can always find the soft side
of a deck plank, for an hour's "caulk."

This was a new world to me, and the first time in my life that I had
seen real sunshine. Steadily the mercury rose as it grew hotter and
hotter, until the pitch boiled up out ot the seams in the deck, to stick
to and blister our still tender feet. It brought other things also; not
exactly out of the deck, but from below deck, in the shape of rats and
cockroaches. Where they all came from goodness knows. We used to kill
rats with belaying pins, and later even became expert in stamping on
them with our bare feet! At night in our bunks, the little beasts would
come and eat our toe-nails, and the hard flesh off the soles of our
feet, and this without awakening us. We knew nothing about it until we
got on deck and put our feet into some salt water. Then we knew!

Cockroaches near two inches long. These must have come aboard when she
was loading somewhere out East. They had the same happy habit of
browsing on our feet, although not quite to the same extent. For their
benefit we kept a tin of very strong caustic soda and a small brush with
a handle two feet long, and when they started to make themselves
objectionable a dab with the brush settled their hash.

We were soon out of the Forties and into the Trades and it was here we
were to see our first flying fish rising in shoals out of the water and
flying anything up to a quarter of a mile. Some have a spread of 14-16
inches from tip to tip, and to watch them bank and skim the surface of
the water makes it hard to believe they are fish at all. In fact, one
can sympathise with the old lady whose son, returnng from his first
voyage, was telling her yarns, true and stretched, and eventually told
her about flying fish. She replied, "John, there may be mountains of
sugar, and rivers of rum, but you can't tell me that fish fly!"

My life, in common with other first voyagers, was made a misery until I
knew, not only every sail, but every rope used in furling, setting or
trimming, and they average a round dozen per sail, in all well over five
hundred. Even on pitch dark nights and in blinding rain, you must be
able to put your hand on any individual rope, and the consequence of
letting go the wrong one may be pretty disastrous to both the ship and
the culprit.

The Third Mate is usually the boys' mentor, and hikes them away from
their sky-larking in the second dog-watch, to learn the ropes--whence
no doubt the saying originated. A second and third voyager, to say
nothing of the salt-horse A.B. knows his ropes, and that almost by the
feel. These are the men to rely upon when it comes to shortening down in
bad weather.

With fine weather sails bent, and decks like snow we drew down the Line
and into the region of Bonito, Dolphin, and Albacore. Always a keen
fisherman, I was sure of a call if there were fish under the bows, watch
on deck mustn't think of anything so frivolous, but someone always
managed to sneak into the half-deck and give me a shout in hopes of fish
for tea; a mighty welcome addition to the Liverpool pantiles and salt
junk, if there SHOULD be any left over from dinner. Beautiful ships, but
badly found.

With us boys, sneaking grub was no crime, it was a religion, and heaven
help the chap that let a chance go by. This led some of us into queer
scrapes, for cooks, and particularly stewards were all out to catch the
hungry hound and haul him before the Captain. On one occasion we located
some biscuits in a spare cabin, and I was told off for foraging. I got
into the cabin and got the biscuits all right, but when I came to open
the door which I had closed so that it couldn't slam with the roll of
the ship, I found I had landed into a trap. The handle turned, but not
the catch; that was the CATCH so to speak! I got the port open in hopes
of scrambling out on to the cro' jack braces (ropes that were used to
trim that yard) but when I did eventually get my head and one arm out, I
found that not only could I get no further out but I could not get back,
and I had horrible visions of them having to cut away part of my
anatomy, or part of the ship. Anyhow there was nothing for it but to
ignominiously call for help. I did get my head back, finally with the
loss of a bit of scalp,--and though I succeeded in convincing the Second
Mate, who rescued me, that I had walked in my sleep, it wouldn't go down
with the Skipper. Six solid weeks of the night watch on sentry go,
capstan bar on shoulder, and a six foot elm bar at that!

Another time we discovered a loose plank in the bulkhead of the
lazarette, and, after some nights of hard work, gained through. The chap
told off for the work, Austin, nicknamed Beaky on account of his nose,
was a bit deaf. What he had to do was to get the grub (in this case
onions, to put in our Cracker Hash) and climb up over the cargo until he
came to No. 4 Booby Hatch, the doors of which opened right facing the
half-deck door, inside which we were waiting. He came up all right, but
just as he started to shy the onions across the intervening four feet of
space between hatch and half deck, the Mate must come along, and, be it
known, they were Cabin onions. We sang out cave! when we heard the Mate
coming, but Beaky heard neither us nor the Mate, and continued to shy
the onions. The Mate was bound through the four foot passage, and, as he
turned the corner of the hatch, he stopped one! Stepping back, he viewed
the procedure, no doubt inwardly amused at our frantic efforts to put
Beaky wise. Beaky smiled serenely, and continued to shy the onions, all
of which had to be duly returned, and, in their place we, once again,
took what was coming to us.

However that was all in the day's work, and we would, and frequently
did, risk our necks crawling along cro' jack braces to pinch a bit of
pie or what not from the steward's pantry. Few boys that go to sea are
born to be drowned.



We crossed the Line, with the usual formalities, into the S.E. Trades,
and a long leg down to the Horn. Here a westerly gale drove us South and
further South; colder and colder it grew until we fetched in amongst the
Antarctic ice. I've seen plenty of it since, both down there and up on
the Banks, but one's first sight is always the most impressive. That
long ghostly outline of white, in places blue, and, of every conceivable
shape and size.

By this time we had bogies going--when the sea did not put them out.

Despite all our efforts we were steadily driven down south until we
eventually fetched the sixty-fifth parallel. The month was June, in
other words, mid-winter. The conditions men had to endure almost beggar
description. Ropes and blocks frozen up, and solid with ice. Sails iron
hard with frozen rain and spray, often ice an inch thick, requiring
belaying pins to break it. I have seen all hands on the topsail yard for
hours on end of a bitter night, blowing a living gale, fighting with
canvas like cast-iron, finger nails turned back and knuckles raw,
battling to get it gathered in and a gasket round. It is difficult to
realise how any human being could survive the days and weeks with never
a dry stitch. Don't think this applied merely to the clothes we wore; it
included both blankets and bedding.

Long before one reaches the latitude of the Horn all maindeck doors are
as near hermetically sealed as is possible. Usually with the close
application of a sheath knife and quantities of rag and paper. One gains
access to the different living quarters, to galley and so forth, by
means of a a skylight; watching one's chance, opening the skylight,
dropping down and closing it again. A breath of the atmosphere in these
close quarters becomes almost as good as a meal. Huge seas, scores of
tons in weight, come thundering on board over the bulwarks, sweeping
anything movable before them. It is often a case of days without a hot

Added to all this, there is always the intense anxiety as to whether one
is going to happen across an iceberg during the night. The only means of
detecting them, when there is no moon, is from the white foam at the
base of the berg. If there is a moon one can sometimes get a glint or
glimpse of what is called "ice blink." Ice down in these latitudes
becomes more in the nature of ice-fields, and may extend for miles, and
become a veritable island. There is one well-known case of a sailing
ship running into a huge bay with a fair wind, and, finding herself
unable to beat out. Back and forth she thrashed, trying to work her way
clear, till finally she missed stays and crashed on the ice, to be
battered to pieces and all hands lost. Boats are of little or no use in
these conditions, for men can hardly survive on board ship, let alone in
an open boat.

After six weeks battling with Cape Horn Greybeards, as those huge
rollers are called, at last we got our slant. With the wind backing well
to the south-west we crammed on every stitch she would carry in our
endeavour to get up to the north-west and weather that dreaded old Cape
Stiff. There was every indication that we should make it, and be able to
stretch away for fine weather. Lower t'gallant sails and t'gallant
staysails set. Steering full-and-by, with all sails drawing strong, her
nose pointing well up to windward, everyone's spirits rose with every
mile reeled off. Every man and boy counted the hours to when he would be
able to hang out his dunnage and have some dry clothing, though it was
still a bit too soon to be looking forward to real warmth, but that
would come later. All we longed for from the bottom of our hearts was
that the wind would hold and not head us off by hauling any more to the
westward. The very first question asked each time the watch was called
was "How's the wind?" and it was a cheery crowd that answered to the
names called over at each relief. Now another forty-eight or sixty hours
at the most would see us with old Stiff astern, and we would be safe.

That night we were still snoring along, dark as pitch but with every
stitch on her that she could possibly bear. There WAS the risk of
hitting an iceberg, yes, but one that we were all willing to take.
Still, with the sea that was running, there was every chance of seeing
it before hitting and in good time to either go about, or run her away.
However, it was not to be. Our luck was out, and a long way out. Soon
after the watch had been relieved at midnight, the wind to our great
disappointment started to fall light. Nothing too bad in that, so long
as it did not head us. Better much, than in blowing up one of those
seemingly eternal gales with which we were absolutely fed-up.

Lighter and lighter the wind fell, and to an extraordinary degree
baffling, a thing most uncommon in those latitutes. You expect, and do
get, baffling winds in the tropics but not down in the sixties. The cold
became intense, in fact piercing. Not a great deal of difference from
what we had had, yet somehow it was a distinctive cold and it seemed to
have a dry penetrating drive with it. We certainly connected the cold
with ice, but not seriously. It was the vagaries of the wind we couldn't
understand, and no wonder.

At four bells as the wheel and look-out was being relieved, the two
look-out men stood for a few minutes talking and discussing the rotten
luck in losing the wind. The man relieving was a real old-timer, and
presently he walked up to the weather rail of the foc's'tlehead, and
sort of stuck his nose up into the wind. Suddenly he whipped round and
bellowed out, "Ice right ahead sir." Instinctively the Second Mate, aft
on the poop, gave the order, "Put your helm down and shake her up," with
the idea of taking the wind out of the sails and the way off the ship
until he could get a clear grasp of the situation.

The vital question was, in what direction did the ice extend. Were we to
windward, or to leeward of the main body? As she ran up into the wind,
both lookout men saw the ice still coming into sight ahead, and on the
weather bow. Old Heron, with his vast experience, and knowing that
everything right ahead and to some distance on the bow was completely
blotted out by the sails from the Second Mate on the poop, now roared
out, "Put your helm up, sir. The ice is to windward."

On a sailing ship you get to know your man to the very fibre of his
being, and the Second Mate KNEW Heron and ordered the helm "Hard up." It
was a big risk to take, for if once she filled again and got way on her,
and the ice should chance to be leeward as well as windward then, we
should undoubtedly strike and sink. There being little wind, however,
she payed off slowly.

The Captain was now on deck and quickly rapped out his orders. "All
hands on deck. Stand by the braces." Sure enough, old Heron was right,
and by now we could all see the ghostly and threatening outline of a
massive berg extending as far as the eye could see. Furthermore, it was
this monstrous berg that had been taking the wind out of our sails. This
we realised and with the realisation the knowledge that it must be the
father of all bergs, if it was responsible for the extraordinary
baffling of the wind, which we had now experienced for over four hours,
and during which time we must, in the darkness have been sailing
parallel along this block of Antartic. (sic)

Quickly we rounded in the weather braces in the hopes of filling on her
and making an offing. We must take the chance as to whether we had run
into an ice bay in the dark, for it must be remembered we could not see
more than quarter of a mile, and the ice was less than HALF that
distance from us. At one time just before she commenced to gather way
and draw off we were no more than a hunded yards from that towering
cliff of ice which looked as if our yardarms were going to touch. Being
right under the lee, the wind was utterly unreliable, and kept catching
her aback and drifting her nearer and nearer those threatening white
walls of ice.

An added anxiety in our minds as to whether there were any protruding
ledges below the water which might hold us below the water line and sink
us. Goodness knows what the temperature was at this time. Fortunately
our anxiety blotted out all sense of the cold, except when we tried to
use our hands. Everything that carried or showed the slightest moisture,
was all just solid ice, clothing included.

Steadily, inch by inch, we clawed off and, at last gained sea room; then
we hove-to till daylight broke and we should be able to see where the
ice extended and what was the best hope of saving the ship. With the
first streak of dawn it was easy to see what a narrow shave it had been,
and, with the increasing daylight, the cliffs of ice just extended and
extended. As the light became better and better till with the full day
there was revealed an impenetrable wall of ice for close on fifteen
miles astern, and more than double that distance ahead. As it turned
out, we sailed the best part of two solid days before we could safely
round the end of that island of ice. But, what was worse, we were all
the time slowly but surely being forced off our course, and away to the
eastward; for ever lessening our chances of rounding the Horn on this

A magnificent sight, cruising slowly along those blue-black cliffs.
Pinnacles, bays, chasms and cathedral like structures, huge ravines and
bridges, bridges of ice, looking for all the world as if they had built
by some clever engineers, and would have done credit to them at that.
Unfortunately we were in no mood at that moment to appreciate these
beauties. Curses, deep, sincere, and universal were hurled at this one
insurmountable bar, which prevented us from stretching away with a fair
wind to fine weather.

At long last when we did finally get round the ice, it was too light to
weather the old Cape, so once again, we heard that well-known order,
"All hands wear ship," and commenced another long leg to the southward.

It might be proverbial amongst sailing-ship men of those days that one
was not entitled to the name of sailor until the Horn had been rounded
at least three or four times. I know I felt all of a sailor after
rounding it once. Six weeks to the day, from the time we first made the
Horn bound south, till we again brought it abeam bound north.

A good clean run up through Trades and Tropics soon removed all traces
of our trials down south, whilst with all the goodwill in the world we
said good-bye to those harbingers of high latitudes, albatrosses, Cape
pigeons, Molly hawks and Mother Carey's chickens.

Heavy weather-sails were sent down and fine weather canvas bent in
place. Running gear re-rove, and heavy weather spare spar-lashings
removed. All dunnage (Anglice, clothing and bedding) out on deck drying
and airing. Everyone revelling in the sun and even welcoming the
bubbling pitch, though it should stick to our toes.

The very ship herself seemed to spring into greater life as the flying
kites were once again hoisted and set; each adding the urge and drive
which a few weeks later carried us through the Golden Gates of San
Francisco, on to the broad, smooth waters of the Sacramento.



What a strange mixture we found in that city of mushroom growth.
Beautiful broad streets and magnificent buildings, but almost entirely
without law or order,--unless you could pay for it. One section of the
city, known as Chinatown, was literally a young China. Rarely, if ever
did any white man attempt this locality at night time. We boys cared
little about the reputation of the place; in fact we did not realise the
perfectly appalling reputation it bore, and we spent lots of our time
hunting up curios from John Chinaman. The great fire of San Francisco
has cleared away this well-known landmark, and the Chinese are scattered
to the four winds of heaven. Certainly one does not find them now in
'Frisco. Whether 'Frisco is any better off without her young Chinatown
than with, is an open question. For my part I much prefer John Chinaman
to many other races. At least his word is his bond, and you can rely on
it to the bitter end. Get him to give you his brief "Can do" and you
need no attorneys, stamps nor seals.

'Frisco at this time, had the honour of bearing the worst reputation of
any sea port in the world for lawlessness, not excepting New York. It
was bad enough for the landsman to be on the streets at night, if it was
even suspected that he was carrying more than a very few dollars. Even
in broad daylight it was no uncommon thing for a man to be sandbagged
and robbed. Judge then, what it was for a sailor coming out of the
shipping office, KNOWN to have his pay-day in his pocket. He was lucky
if he could get as far as the nearest Post Office, always allowing he
had the sense to go there, which was seldom.

The water front of 'Frisco was held and run by a lot of soulless crimps.
These human vultures didn't wait for a man to get as far as the Shipping
Office; in fact they were indifferent as to whether a man was even
paying off or not. All THEY wanted was his body, and they would fight
amongst themselves for possession. Red Jake for a long time held
unquestioned sway. He derived his name from his lurid complexion and
crimson nose; one might even include his language,--it suited his name.

A ship arriving within the Golden Gates (was there ever such a
misnomer?) was at once overrun by a horde of these wretched crimps'
runners. The men might be on the capstan heaving in the tow rope, and
the crimps would just join up and heave round also on the capstan bars,
hauling out of their pockets flasks of whisky, and once a man has
accepted a drink, he is theirs,--and it was more than another crimp's
life was worth to alienate that man's affections.

Red Jake would have perhaps half a dozen of the toughest runners to each
ship, and so held a monopoly. After the drink, the sailor chap is given
money. No receipt or anything, is asked in return, but NOW they have
bought him, and he must be slick indeed, to get out of their toils. He
goes ashore that night under the wing of the crimp's runner to have a
good time. He has everything he asks for, and eventually goes to the
boarding house that every crimp keeps.

If there is a ship ready to sail and short of a crew, he will be one of
them. Heavily doped, his body is delivered on board and a receipt taken,
which in turn, is cashed for a month's pay, deducted from the sailor
boy's pay sheet; having already sacrificed all his earnings of the
outward passage.

Who profits?

The crimp gets a month's pay. The shipowner gets the whole of the
outward passage's pay, and the Captain gets his crew, and, let it be
known, he will get them no other way.

Who should kick?

The skinflint shipowner, thousands of miles away, lining his pockets and
increasing his dividends?

Not he.

Furthermore, the skipper with a conscience, who manages to keep his crew
together, will get no bouquets when he arrives home and faces "ship's
expenses" at the office.

The 'Frisco police also got their rake off, according to a printed and
accepted schedule, agreed with the boarding house runners.

I am glad to say our Skipper was one with a conscience. I'll go further
and say, such men were not difficult to find in British ships. He gave
the crew to understand they would get money out of his own pocket the
moment the ship was fast, and if they deserted that night, well, he
would be the loser. He told them, "Go ashore, and have a good time. But
for God's sake men don't let those crimps get hold of you." We did lose
a couple of men before we left. Men we could afford to lose, as a matter
of fact, but of the real good crowd, we lost none.

Of course it was good to be ashore for a time. To stretch our legs, and
feed the inner man, and see the sights. What sights some of them were!!!
Old Dupont Street with its green shutters and painted hags.

The Underground rabbit warren that honeycombed Chinatown.

Beach Street on the river edge with its rows of Dives, where more men
went in than ever came out.

Hard, bitter hard, though ship life often was, yet we were glad to see
the Golden Gates, with all they stood for, fading away and finally
disappearing below the horizon. At least the sea was clean.

The only good thing about 'Frisco as far as I, a first voyager with an
eternal hunger, could see, was the biscuits. "'Frisco biscuits" are
known the world over. Big, crisp and eatable. A good six inches across,
and even the ship's margarine could not altogether spoil their flavour.
Why the food, supplied by the British shipowners should have been so
notoriously bad, barely sufficient to keep body and soul lashed
together, seems inconceivable. Ships were paying, and paying well, yet
they screw the old salt horse shellback down to the last ounce--and a
poor one at that. In fact, the outstanding feature of my first voyage
seems to have been the state of semi-starvation we boys lived in, until
we got the 'Frisco biscuits.

One of the squarest meals I ever remember enjoying was on an occasion,
in the port we had just left. Standing outside a restaurant, a very
small and very hungry boy, just thinking what I could do with a dollar
and some of the good things in front of me--if I had the chance. When a
voice with the broad, drawling Western accent spoke from away up above
me, "Say, Sonny, could you go a feed?" I looked up to see a man about
six feet five inches, and big in proportion, wearing the rough rig of a
miner or rancher, just up to town. Could I go a feed! when money was
doled out to all and sundry at the munificent rate of a dollar a week!
A.B.'s, apprentices, or petty officers, it was just the same, though why
on earth we should not have been allowed to have some of the money that
was already ours, heaven and the owners alone knew.

He took me in and gave me the meal of my young life. Lashings of ham and
eggs (a sailor's staple diet when ashore) cups of thick chocolate and
apple pie. He just grinned as it all disappeared, till, at last, despite
his earnest persuasion, I could eat no more.

Next day he was down on board with pockets full of apples, asking for
"that youngster with the gaff-topsail collar." Western generosity!



We left the Golden Gates behind us homeward bound, with a cargo of
grain. About half way down to the Horn we discovered that she had sprung
a leak somewhere. We could tell this by the frightful stink coming up
from below. Rotting grain has worse contemporaries, but they are not so
easy to find. Evidently there was water getting in somewhere on the
starboard side, for that was obviously where the stench came from.

There was nothing for it but to open up the hatches, and break down.
Fortunately we were still in fine weather so we could pile the decks
with sacks of grain and loose wet grain laid out drying. The leak was
located and found due to a bit of flint getting into the red lead
packing around one of the side ports!

Poor old Chips, he was for the carpet all right. A few thousand pounds
worth of damage done, all on account of a little stone! All the same, it
was lucky it happened where it did. Ships are known to have had their
sides burst out by the swelling grain, when the leak could not be got

It was shortly after we had the grain stowed again that Olsen, the Swede
got moonstruck, through sleeping out on deck in the full rays of the
tropic moon. He woke up, one middle watch, to muster with the rest, and
at the sight of him, with his face all twisted on one side, everyone
burst out laughing. Poor devil, he didn't know what was the matter. It
was full moon, and as light as day; one could easily see to read a book
by the light, yet old Olsen went stumbling about the decks, as if it
were pitch dark. As it turned out, he thought that it was dark, and that
gave us the first inkling that something had gone wrong. We heard him
say, half to himself, "GOSH! it's dark," and then someone asked him what
he meant, and it came out that not only was his face all twisted up, but
he could not see his hand in front of him. When daylight came he was all
right, but as soon as it got a bit dusk, he was finished. He got over it
to a certain extent before we arrived home, but he never fully recovered
his sight at night time.

Most sailors have a hobby of some sort--making mats, carving models out
of wood, with beautifully cut sails, thin as a wafer, and bellying out
in the most natural way. Olsen's strong point was making planes for
planing wood--Spoon planes, Jack planes, and all sorts of planes. It
was just marvellous to sit and watch him fashioning them out of pieces
of hard wood he brought away with him, fitting the irons and polishing
them off. Most Swedes are good carpenters, and, though an A.B. he was a
jolly good chippy man. After he got twisted up, he just moped, and would
do nothing. It was pitiful to see him feeling his way round the decks
when it was light enough for the rest of us to pick up a pin.

On a long sailing ship voyage, each man knows the other better than he
knows himself. Funny little characteristics develop. He tells a bit
here, and a bit there, until, whether he likes it or not, you can piece
his life story together, like fitting a jig-saw puzzle.

Knut, the Dane, had been a whaler in Nova Scotia, and had killed a man
with a harpoon. He never told us in so many words, and of course, his
secret was quite safe.

If it had happened in a Yankee whaler, he would not have had to bother--
always supposing no one else had caught him out. It would merely have
resolved into a matter of paying so many dollars in to the right
quarter, and nothing more would have been heard of it. But, as he came
under British law, it was a different matter, and he was lucky to change
over at sea, as he did, and eventually work his way back to Denmark.
Knut wasn't his name, we all knew that. He hadn't meant to kill the man;
in fact, the man went for Knut with the steering oar, just when Knut was
going to make his strike, and, as he turned suddenly away from the whale
to defend himself, the boat gave a lurch, and he drove the harpoon into
the steersman's stomach. It MIGHT have washed in a Court of Law, but for
the bad blood that was known to exist between the two. Wisely, or
unwisely, he took the chance when it was offered of getting right back

It wasn't until the passage home that we could get him to even take a
shot with the harpoon. He certainly was an artist with it, and three out
of four times he would hit a chip of wood thrown from the bowsprit end.
In fact, I saw him put the harpoon through a three-inch rope grummet,
three times in succession, and this with the ship laying over, and doing
a good seven knots. He could pick up a porpoise every time, and that is
not easy, for there is only one place where you can harpoon a porpoise
and be certain that it is going to hold.

Lying becalmed one day, a whole shoal of these greybellies came
thundering over the horizon; each one anything up to ten feet long, all
leaping straight up and flinging themselves sideways, landing flat on to
the surface, with a report like a 4.7 gun. There were thousands and tens
of thousands of them. Thunder was mild compared with the row. They
covered, at a rough guess, a rectangle, about half a mile long, and five
hundred yards wide. The sea was like glass, and when they were first
sighted, we could just see a patch of foam, growing rapidly bigger and
bigger: then bodies shooting up in the air, the roar growing louder and
louder, until we couldn't hear each other speak.

The average weight must have been well over a ton and a half. The one
Knut nailed was purposely a small one, otherwise the line would not have
held him. Of course it would have been a different matter if Knut had
been in a small boat and so could have let the porpoise tow him before
the line ran out. As it was, the 2 1/2 inch rope was taxed pretty
severly when hauling it up by sheer brute force, tail first, to the

I was told the wind always came from the direction where a shoal of
porpoises was heading. But first voyagers are fair game for all sorts of
yarns; one remembers some, and if wise, believes about half of what one
remembers. All the same, sailors do believe the wind will come from the
direction indicated by porpoises. Personally I think they gather
together from far and wide at certain times, simply to migrate; going
thousands of miles to fresh hunting grounds.

They jump out of the water and drop smack on to it again partly for
sheer sport, and partly in an endeavour to knock off suckers, Anyhow,
they're good eating, and a mighty welcome change from sailing-ship salt
horse where the fat is often going, or gone, green--and that's no

The CROFTON HALL had cholera break out through eating some such junk and
lost half her crew before she could get back to Calcutta. Admittedly the
stuff had been slowly going rotten lying in the harness cask for two
months under a tropical sun. Still, they had the usual sailor's choice;
eat it or leave it.

Fish hung up in the light of the moon will go the same way and must on
no account be touched. If the moon does get at it you see the whole
fish, or what may be left of it, become phosphorescent. That is the
danger signal, and I've never seen enyone hardy enough, even amongst
sailing-ship men, to tackle it after that.

Neither will sailors touch a fish that has come out of what is called
"Blood Water." This is a case when the sea turns deep red, often
crimson, in the sun. Really it's nothing but countless millions of
animalculae like cochineal. You will be slipping though beautifully blue
water (never seen within two hundred miles of our English coast) when
suddenly you will run into this Blood Water (it does look just like
blood) and may so continue for a couple of days.

As for the yarn about never eating fish out of it; well I've never seen
fish in it, and that's a pretty sound reason to my mind.

Sailing ship life, even on one's first voyage is cram full of incidents,
but they are irrelevant, and would fill a good sized book in themselves.

At long last we arrived in Liverpool, just a few days short of a year
from the time we left; and such was my first voyage in sail.



For some reason I changed over to the HOLT HILL, sister ship to the
PRIMROSE HILL, and of the same Line. My cousin was Third Mate; I was
then second voyage apprentice, and beginning to feel my feet. We were
bound for Rio, and proud to sail under Captain "Jock" Sutherland, one of
the greatest crackers-on out of Liverpool; in fact, he made a boast that
he never allowed a ship to pass him with any of his sails furled. He
certainly was a sailor to his finger tips; and it was great to see him
lying that ship over in half a gale of wind, with scupper holes and
wash-ports well under water, the water even swirling through the
sheave-holes half way up the bulwarks; this used to thrill us boys to
the bone.

 He knew exactly, to the last ounce, what she would carry, and woe
betide anyone who voiced a thought that sail might be shortened. To
first voyagers it was pretty terrifying I'll admit, for many a time and
aften it seemed as though nothing could save the ship from going over
on her beam ends, or, alternatively, the masts being taken out of her.

On one occasion old Jock heard some of the crew cursing at the way he
was carrying on. He just went down below, and arrived back on deck, with
a camp chair and a revolver, and dared any man to even whisper about
shortening sail, much less touch a halyard. He followed this up with a
threat that, unless they went about their work and stopped their
grousing, he would "put the helm up and sail the whole damn lot of you
to hell." And, knowing the man, I wouldn't have put it past him. It was
not exactly that he was altogether a daredevil in his cracking-on, it
was just sheer knowledge of his ship, and confidence in what she could

Beyond minor incidents that will happen to any good cracker-on, old Jock
had, up to that time, run free of any serious smash up, but this voyage
proved to be his undoing. The first bad break (and, as it turned out
afterwards, there were to be three) was off the Western Isles, one
filthy dirty night; carrying on as usual to the last ounce, under six
t'gallant sails, when really she should have been under six topsails--
backstays like harpstrings, and every rope straining to its limit.
Suddenly a man got washed overboard from the lee braces. In response to
old Jock's whip crack orders, we dropped the upper t'gallant yards with
a run and let fly the lower t'gallant sheets, as he flung the ship up in
the wind, nearly taking the masts out of her, but the case was utterly

We even got a boat away, by sheer good luck, but in the pitch darkness,
and in that sea, it was a wonder we didn't lose both boat and boat's
crew as well.

It was no fault of old Sutherland's that the man went overboard, except
that the ship had far too much canvas on her--but who would blame him
for that: All sailors know the danger in shipping a lee sea. Each man
must look out for himself. On the other hand, to be dubbed a cracker-on
would be the ambition of every skipper worth his salt. We lost our man,
but he was the first and last to lose his life, from being washed
overboard whilst under Sutherland's command.

The second misfortune came about just outside Rio, off Cape Frio, at
eight o'clock one morning, driving hard as usual, every stitch of canvas
set. A sudden squall sent the ship heeling over, ropes and chains
cracking, yard parrels groaning, till she was ripping it up like the
proverbial Flying Dutchman.

Whether what happened was due to a sudden shift of wind, or to the
skipper giving the order to luff, and the man at the wheel giving her
too much helm, was never known--(Sutherland would never explain, nor
make any attempt to justify himself)--but the fact remains without a
moment's warning, we were caught back and then a moment later, the sails
suddenly filled again and twisted the fore and main t'gallant masts
clean out of her.

That meant both fore and main t'gallant, royal and skysail masts with
all their attendant yards and gear, came crashing down on or near the
desk. No one was hurt, marvellous to relate, though the main skysail
yard dropped and hung within a few feet of a bunch of us boys, who,
despite the fact that it was our watch below, had turned out to see the
fun, and to be perfectly frank, in the hopes that something WOULD

It did, and no one had another meal, or spell for twenty-four hours. The
gale, which had been brewing, and of which the squall was the fore
runner, came down on us, and did its best to put us under altogether.
Nothing but the superhuman efforts of Mates and crew saved the ship (as
it turned out, only for a later fate). It was in emergencies like this,
that one appreciated a British crowd. As a rule they are the greatest
grumblers on earth, but you can always rely on them when the time comes
and you are in a tight corner; which you can't on Dutchmen--the broad
term applied to all Continental foreigners.

On one ship of which I was Second Mate, the Mate was a Dutchman
(actually a Swede) and had a watch of his own kidney. Down round the
Horn one night, with the Skipper laid up, the Mate had to "wear ship"
himself, an "all hands" job. I had to take his Watch at the Main Braces,
and the Third Mate take mine at the Cro'jack Braces. Wearing Ship is a
ticklish job at the best of times, particularly the bracing up when she
comes to. At the crucial moment, the whole Watch got a dose of sheer
funk and cowered at the braces, and when I got amongst them with hands
and feet, cursing them to all eternity, they simply vanished, and hid in
what they considered safety.

We saved her, but only because half the British Watch broke off and did
the "Dutchmen's" job at the Main, whilst the other half of the Watch
carried on at the Mizzen.

Having, at last, cleared the wreckage of masts, yards, and sails, cut
away the last wire back stay, saved what we could, and let the remainder
go by the board, we squared away the remaining yards, and limped into



Rio is a marvellous harbour, second only to Sydney, and at that time
full of sailing ships, though many of them were swinging to an anchor
without a soul on board. Cholera and smallpox were at their worst, with
little facilities and less energy on the part of the natives to hold the
disease in check. Deaths were averaging about two hundred a day ashore,
whilst "Dead boats" continually patrolled the harbour with their
gruesome cargoes collected from the various ships. Still, there was
plenty of enjoyment to be got out of life, and with the usual youthful
indifference, one paid little heed to the horrors around.

I cannot say the British were ever favourites in Rio, and little blame
can be attached to the natives, for the ill-concealed hate with which
they regarded us. "Incidents" happened pretty frequently, important and
unimportant; many of them were just skylarks. One night we had been
ashore on duty, and returning without the Captain we were chased by a
police boat; owing to the revolution the inhabitants were indulging at
the time no one was allowed on the water after sunset.

Ours was a six-oared mahogany gig, very light and very fast, and we led
that police boat a dance round that harbour they were not likely to
forget. All they wanted was to know which ship we belonged to, so that
they could drop on the Skipper, and that was the very thing we were
determined they should not find out. They tried a few shots with their
revolvers, but we knew they didn't mean to hit us. The result was, they
pulled and we pulled, but their crew had not got their muscles and
sinews developed in the hard school of a British sailing ship. After a
couple of hours they had to give it up, absolutely exhausted, and next
morning yet another complaint was carefully noted--and filed--by that
tactful warden of British prestige: the good old British Consul.

On another occasion a British Man-o'-Warsman had a knife stuck into him,
and, as a result, died on his ship. The British Fleet out there at that
time, consisted of two comparatively small ships, but what it lacked in
size, the Admiral certainly made up for in grit and determination.
Having ineffectually demanded the surrender of the murderer, after
forty-eight hours he stood over, opposite the town, cleared for action,
and landed an armed party. We boys were in at the steps, in our own
ship's boats at the time, and nothing would please us but we must
abandon our boats, and follow the naval party up to the town to see the
fun. No resistance at all was made to the Bluejackets, who marched right
up to the jail, extracted the murderer, put him on board the cruiser,
and sailed out of the harbour, to return a few hours later with his
remains swinging at the yard arm! Later the body was lowered, and landed
at the steps, and left for the authorities to collect.

Pretty high handed, I'll admit, but the British were both feared and
respected in those days.

Another time, the Port Authorities refused, for some reason to give the
THETIS, a full rigged British ship, her papers, and after delaying her
for a week, the Captain threatened to take her out without papers. The
authorities ashore told him that they would blow her out of the water,
if he attempted to pass the forts. He threatened to go and fetch the
British Fleet (consisting of these two small cruisers) and turn them
loose. Their reply was that they would blow the British Fleet out of the
water also.

This appeared to be good enough to be getting on with, so, commandeering
a steam launch, the Captain carried the glad tidings to the Admiral-----
who was cruising outside the harbour, not wishing to get mixed up in a
revolution then in progress, and by which they hoped to unseat Don
Pedro. The two British cruisers came in; made fast on either side of the
British sailing ship, and told the Captain to heave up his anchor. Then
steamed with him out of the harbour. We cheered ourselves pretty well
hoarse at the success of this manoeuvre. Needless to say, not a shot was
fired from the forts.

A common form of amusement amongst us boys, in which the HOLT HILL
played a leading part, was swimming around "ship visiting." In most
ships swimming over the side was absolutely prohibited; in others, only
allowed for half an hour or so in the evening, with very strict
precautions, such as boats in the water, and look-outs for sharks. Old
Jock Sutherland was a sport to his finger tips, and simply left us to
use our own good common sense. So when the work of the day was over,
decks had been washed,--and ourselves--tea finished, then, in the cool
of the evening, over the side we would go and swim away to the next
ship. If nobody was watching, their boys would come over the side and
join us, and so we would go on from ship to ship, until perhaps close on
fifty of us, would be swimming and singing round the harbour, in water
like warm milk. Sharks are cowards, anyway, always excepting tiger
sharks, and as it turned out we were perfectly safe and never lost a

As a matter of fact, a fish that is far more dangerous than a shark in
Rio harbour is a Blanket Fish, often called a Sun Fish; sometimes
misnamed a Devil Fish. It frequently lies asleep on the surface,
covering an area of anything up to ten or fifteen square yards. One of
these fish is apt to heave itself almost bodily out of the water, and
land on top of its objective, which may be a man swimming. They have
only one motion, and that is forward, so there is not much danger
really,--providing that you are fairly quick in the uptake, dodge
sideways, and don't lose your head.

Coming off in the gig one night, we ran right up one of these chaps,
much to the annoyance of the Skipper. It was shortly after midnight and
pitch dark. I think the Skipper had had a pretty good time; anyhow, he
was feeling quite pleased with himself. We pulled six oars, and the
custom is to judge your distance from the gangway, say a hundred feet,
and on the order "give her weigh" get in about a half a dozen good
strokes, then smartly toss the oars, while the boat with her own
impetus, runs alongside. We had just given her the half dozen, when she
ran her nose high and dry on one of these great slabs of sleeping fish,
lying on the surface. He awakened in a hurry, and, tossing his stern,
dived down. Being a long narrow boat, OUR stern was already well down,
and as the result of the Sun Fish's kick up, the skipper found himself
sitting up to his armpits in water. On our lives, we dared not laugh, so
we just hustled him up on board, out of the way, and howled our heads

Another amusement for the boys forming the boats' crews from the
different ships in harbour, was to muster up at the landing steps
ashore, and, leaving one in charge of all the boats, do a cruise round
the market, buying what we couldn't steal. I dare say we were a bit of
a trial, and the natives certainly did not overtax their patience with
us; in fact they often used to turn out EN MASSE and kick us out of the
market. I don't blame them altogether, but when, on occasions, they drew
knives, then it got beyond a joke. One time they chased us half way
across the square before we got reinforcements from the boats with
stretchers, and we were able to return their good wishes--and quite a
good account we gave. This time I not only collected two very nice
little cuts, but actually left a small piece of flesh, off one hand, on
the ground. Several of us had got cut about, when, to add insult to
injury, the mounted police turned up, but charged us boys, if you
please, instead of charging the mob!

Rio is also rather noted for its podgy little bum-boats, which cruise
round the harbour visiting the ships, and are anxiously looked for by
the hungry hordes of apprentices. In exchange for money, or a shirt if
you hadn't cash--as was usually the case, you got glorious bread,
coffee, oranges, bananas, and "alligator" pears, as they are now known,
though their proper name is Avocada. This sort of trading is stopped by
the Mates if it can possibly be detected. But when the sun shines, and a
fellow is hungry, seaboots and thick underclothing seem quite
superfluous. Many's the chap that has left Rio, bound round the Horn,
with barely enough clothes for tropical weather, let alone the rigours
of Cape Stiff. To have been round the Horn a few times you are a
"sailor," but to have been round without seaboots, you are a real "hard

We rigged up stump t'gallant masts in Rio for the simple reason, I
suppose, they had no spars long enough for t'gallant, royal, and skysail
masts. They were terrible misfits, but the best we could get from a town
in the turmoil of eternal revolutions. The sails were of No.1 canvas and
had forty-two feet of a drop. Lowered down and clewed up. At least they
were supposed to lower down, but when needed never would, so it was
usually a case of "lower away t'gallant halyards," and, as nothing ever
happened, "Haul taut and clew up." Finally we would have to take up a
downhaul, and pull the infernal yard down by brute force, on to the
lifts. That done, it was "up aloft and furl them"--a sixty by forty
sail, No. 1 canvas, and wet at that. It was more like trying to roll up
a piece of rhino hide than anything else I can imagine. You manage to
beat a crinkle in the belly, so that you can get all your fingers
fastened on to it, then, all together, you haul and tuck that particular
bit of sail under your stomach and lie on it hard. All this time the
sail is banging and thrashing about, and you are balanced on the foot
rope, so named because it is under your feet, and all else there is
under you is the deep blue sea, or worse still, the deck, if you do come
down. After two or three bights of the sail have been tucked under each
man, someone may inadvertantly ease up, or the sail will give an extra
kick, and away goes the whole damn lot, and you start all over again--
if you've been lucky enough to catch the jackstay in front of you as the
sail went bellying up over your head. How heartily we cursed those

Finally, with all our ballast on board, a round thousand tons of sharp
edged granite, every ounce of which we had man-handled from lighters to
the hold, we were ready for sea. With sails bent, tug alongside, we hove
up and said "so long" to them and their oranges, their cholera and their

With a fair wind and a light ship we sailed out of Rio harbour bound for
Calcutta--or so we thought.



It was almost a dead beat in the teeth of the Trades, so we reached away
to forty odd degrees south, where we hoped to pick up the prevailing
westerly wind, and stretch away for the Cape. We had to send down the
mizzen skysailyard and unbend the mizzen royal staysail, as it gave her
far too much canvas aft with only stump t'gallant masts forward; in
fact, with the mizzen royal, and the wind anywhere abaft the beam, it
took two hands at the wheel to keep her from broaching-to at the best of
times. Whereas ordinarily with a ship of her class you could steer with
one hand and a few spokes of the wheel. And, take it from me, to have in
your hands the eight foot wheel (diameter, not circumference) and a
twenty-five hundred ton ship, and she with a bone in her teeth, is a
thing never to be forgotten. You can "feel" her just as closely as you
can a horse with the most delicate mouth, and to be a helmsman worthy of
the name, you must know what she is going to do before she does it. She
lifts to this sea, straghtens herself up, and goes down to the next,
with the unmistakable motion that tells you she is going to run up in
the wind on the following sea. If you don't get the helm against her
before she does it, up she comes with all the upper sails shaking in the
wind and the Mate howling out to know, "Where the hell are you going to,
you soldier?"

Although we had left Rio, we were not to forget it in a hurry.

We had been out about a fortnight, when some of the crew commenced to go
down with some sort of sickness. The first chap we said was loafing,
until he died. That's always the verdict on a sailing ship, anyway. A
man is invariably "mouching" until he dies, and then we say, "Oh, he
must have been bad after all." It was smallpox.

Old Sails was the first to go under, and even then, I don't think we
were by any means sure what we were up against. No medicine, and no
doctor, of course; in fact, the last medicine on board, which consisted
of half a cup of castor oil, was drunk by one of the patients in mistake
for water. As there was nothing to check it, we just had to rely upon
our cast iron constitutions and stick it out. I seemed to be immune both
from smallpox and yellow fever. I once had a chap die in my arms of
Yellow Jack, and I used to wear a fur coat belonging to one of our
smallpox convalescents. He used to wear it during the day, and I
borrowed at night! I'll admit I wasn't popular with the watch whilst I
did wear it.

Twice I read the burial service, or such parts as I could find, in a
gale of wind when the Mate couldn't leave the poop. Sometimes we
couldn't get the body over the rail,--then it was beastly.

We reached away down into high latitudes in the hopes of freezing it
out. This was a mixed advantage, as on one hand we had to shorten down,
and keep her shortened down, for the simple reason that if we did crowd
the canvas on, we had not the hands to take it in, if it came on to
blow. This left us battling around under six topsails instead of
stretching out for the Cape under full sail.

After several memorable weeks of struggle under appalling conditions, we
at last got our anchor down in Capetown Quarantine ground. Made up our
losses and left again. I think everyone was glad to see the last of us,
as the reason for our being there had somehow leaked out ashore,
although, by that time we had lived down the scourge.

From time immemorial sailing ships have what is termed "Run their
Easting Down." That is, after rounding or leaving the Cape, they ran on
a parallel of latitude, and sometimes worked south, keeping down till
they reach St. Paul's or thereabouts. The prevailing winds are westerly
and strong, and St. Paul's serves to check chronometers for longitude,
and the run north to the East Indies. We had left Rio in ballast, and
mighty little of that, and therefore were in no case for cracking-on,
but that made no difference to old Jock Sutherland.

We were nearing St. Paul's when, in the afternoon, a big fourmaster
barque hove in sight on our port quarter, overtaking us, under six
t'gallant sails, whilst we were flying along under six topsails, but the
other ship was loaded and we were light, and in no shape, with our stump
t'gallant masts, to try to get away from her. The wind was well aft,
which made it worse for us, owing to our makeshift rig. But all that
didn't matter a bean to Jock.

"He'd never had a ship pass him with any of his sails furled, and he was
not going to start now."


We set everything, and before dark ran her right out of sight. And small
wonder, for when we hove the log at eight bells (eight o'clock) that
night, we were reeling off thirteen and a half knots. Two hands at the
wheel and then all they could do to hold her on her course and prevent
her broaching to; the mizzen royal, and the mizzen royal staysail doing
their utmost to force her up in the wind. One thing, being in ballast,
she was dry, though why on earth she didn't turn right over, heaven and
old Jock alone knew--and he said nothing. As a matter of fact, the Mate
and he were walking up and down the poop, each waiting for the other to
make the first suggestion for shortening down, and neither would. Both
good chums; both crackers-on, and you've got the situation!

At last eight bells came, and the relief of the watches. We all heard
the Mate, Mr. Williams, say, "Keep a good look-out for land ahead and of
the lee bow. Relieve the wheel, and look out. That will do the watch,"
and my watch went below. The Second Mate, taking over, said to the Mate,
"Just as soon as you get below I'm for having some of these sails in."

"Just as you like," the Mate replied, "and the sooner the better."

It was blowing a gale, and he knew quite well the risk we were running
in that sea, which by this time was like a house side, and the ship
nearly unmanageable.

As I turned in I heard the Second Mate go forward along the fore and aft
bridge which links up the poop to the half deck, midship house and
fo'c'sle, so that anyone could get fore and aft without touching the
main deck. On the fo'c'sle head he found the lookout man coiling down
the flying jib downhaul, a new rope, just rove off the day before, and
which eventually saved our lives.

We should have seen the land before, only for a heavy squall of rain
that passed ahead, just at eight bells. The Second Mate, looking up,
with the squall clearing, suddenly saw the loom of the land right ahead,
and the ship rushing for it at racehorse speed.

One of our chaps had just got up to blow out the light in the half deck,
when we heard Mowatt come thumping along the bridge roaring out: "Hard
down. All hands on deck. Let go royal and t'gallant halyards."



Poor old Mowatt! He'd got the shock of his life, and in his excitement
had given the wrong order; though he wasn't to know that. His idea was
to bring her up in the wind, and either reach clear of the land, or go
about and stand off on the other tack. He had not seen, up till then,
that there was four miles of land to windward, (the way he was turning
the ship,) but only two to leeward.

Old Jock, with his experience, when he got on deck a moment later, took
all this in, and countermanded Mowatt's order with:

"Hard up. Square away the Cro'jack yard."

The wind had been two points on the port quarter, therefore Jock also
saw she would, if brought up to the wind and being in ballast, just sag
to leeward and take the rocks broadside. Then nobody would have had a
ghost of a chance. (Not that anyone would have give a brass farthing for
our chances, as it was.) Jock saw that by putting the helm up he could
clear the two miles to leeward, if--and it was a big if--he could get
her round in time.

Under ordinary circumstances, or given the time, he would have done it,
but conditions were dead against him. She had started to come up, and
had been carrying the helm nearly hard up all the time, in consequence
of the terrific pressure of sail aft. So that by the time she checked
coming up, and started to pay off a bit, it seemed too late. She had
just gone off so far that she was back on her original course, heading
straight for the land, and the decision then had to be made, was it or
was it not too late, to continue the manoeuvre? Jock decided it was too
late, (and certainly his decision was right) but he had had to make the
hardest possible decision the Captain of a ship is ever called on to
make. Continue to try and save his ship and thus risk everyone's life,
by the ship being driven on broadside? Or, to put his ship straight at
it, and deliberately throw her away.

When I got on deck, the land was towering right up above us. It was just
then that old Jock made his irrepealable decision, and I heard him give
the heart-breaking order, "Steady the Helm. Put her straight at it.
Steady as she goes. Belay everything."

I had only stayed in the half deck long enough to get into my shirt,
pants, and shoes. Even then, it was a sight to make me feel as though I
had missed my breakfast. Gigantic seas were tossing her high in the air,
to let her drop next moment like a stone into an almost bottomless
trough, whilst the unrelenting rocks loomed nearer and nearer.

Scared, yes scared stiff, but I don't think I was rattled, in fact I
don't think anyone was rattled, Jock least of all. You certainly would
not have thought so to hear him say to the Mate in a casual sort of way,
"Well she is in the breakers now. She won't be long before she bumps."

Yet his heart must have been breaking. I know mine was sinking lower and
lower, as she tore at those forbidding black cliffs.

Only sixteen and every prospect of my bright young life coming to the
end of the chapters within the next few minutes. A queer, hardly
describable sensation of semi-suspended animation. Everyone waiting
without movement or word for the crash that must almost immediately be
followed by the short sharp struggle. Then . . . what? I don't advise
anyone to try it as an experiment. Take it from one who knows. It's
unpleasant, mighty unpleasant.

Jock's one last word of advice was to, "Stand aft under the break of the
poop clear of the falling gear."

We expected all four masts to come down like a row of ninepins. A moment
later we heard, "Every man for himself!" freeing everyone to follow
their own devices--only, there were none to follow. There was nothing
anyone could do, but just wait, wait, wait, whilst the gale still roared
and the ship laboured in the gigantic seas, racing on to her impending
doom. One could almost describe it as a relief from the racking suspense
when at last she struck. With a shuddering crash she hit an outlying
rock. The shock of that terribly alien feeling when a ship strikes the
ground went through everyone like a knife. This was instantly followed
by another terrific bump, then the sickening, rending crash, as she tore
up the rocks, ripping the bottom right out of herself.

Up to that moment we had thought she was going to sail right up to the
cliff, hit it like a wall, close up like a telescope, and go down with
all hands. However, she didn't, though we discovered later, had she
been a couple of hundred yards to the northward, this is exactly what
would have happened. On the other hand, had she been the same distance
to the southward, she would have struck outlying rocks half a mile or
more out to sea. In either case it would have meant a swift and sure
exit for all of us. As it was, she struck a gradual rise, right on the
top of high water, up which she went till her bowsprit was almost over
the dry land. Then, as though to make doubly sure, a gigantic sea came
rolling up, lifted her bows up, and dropped them between two huge
pinnacles of rock, staving them both in, but holding her in a vice-like
grip and preventing any possibility of slipping back into deep water.

So there she was, with every stitch of canvas set, a slight list to
port, sidelights burning, ropes coiled down, and everything in shipshape
order. The sea at the moment we struck was right aft, so all the power
it had was to smash in the stern, which it promptly did.

I recollect a lot of gear coming through the saloon; also an infernal
cackling from a crate of hens, that had been on the after hatch--then
blank, until I picked myself up forward. I suppose I got a crack over
the head with some piece of wreckage that came through the gutted saloon
and State rooms. I had not earned the soubriquet of "Woodenhead"
(through my ability to sleep soundly) for nothing. I felt no ill effects
anyway, so I clambered up on the foc's'le head where, by this time, the
crew had got the flying jib downhaul hitched to the end of the bowsprit,
and were sliding down on to the rocks. As almost everybody was on the
starb'd side of the boom, I nipped along to the port side. Caught hold
of the rope with one hand and let go. With the result, that, I came a
terrific cropper on the rocks below. I can only assume it was the rubber
in one's limbs at that age, and that alone, which prevented both legs
being broken.

As I landed on the rocks, a huge sea came over my head. I knew quite
well that it was in the backwash the danger lay, so I quickly took a
turn round one wrist, and round one leg, jamming it with the other, and
held on like grim death. When the backwash came, I could feel that rope
dragging through my hands, inch by inch. If it were possible to squeeze
the heart out of a rope, I should think I did. So great was the drag of
the water that it sucked my shoes off.

However, the backwash expended itself at last, and, half drowned, I
swung over the rocks again, and let go sharp, for I could feel the rope
vibrating, which indicated that somebody else was coming down to try
their luck. He also landed with a pretty good bump, and together we
scrambled up the rocks, to get out of the way of the next breaker. It
was black dark, blowing, raining, and bitterly cold, though it wasn't
until later on that we noticed the cold.

Our scramble brought us up against the face of a wet, perpendicular, and
particularly slimy rock. The sides we could not see; the top we could
only reach. Leonard, the chap with me, had his wits about him, and

"Give me your foot. Up you go, youngster."

No sooner said than done. I landed on the top, then turned to reach for

"I'm all right," he called out of the darkness.

Evidently he had found a way round and at this moment, as I got to my
feet, along came a breaker, roaring up the rocks, and just deep enough,
to lift me off my feet and carry me bodily forward. A few moments, then
again the backwash, and I was swimming for dear life, at odd times
trying to dig my fingers into the slimy, slippery stone, knowing that I
was going backwards and backwards, towards the edge of that big rock up
which I had just climbed. Over that edge, and it would be all up for me.
I put every ounce of swimming into it that I ever knew, and ended with
my legs, from the knees downward, dangling over the edge. But I was
safe, and the next sea did NOT catch me, for I was high and dry.

We lost only one man, and that was Mr. Williams, the Mate, a great
favourite with us boys, partly because he was so good natured,--altough
a strict disciplinarian--and partly because he was such a fine
wrestler. At one tme he had, I believe, wrestled for the championship of

The flying jib downhaul down which we slid to the rocks was a new rope,
half manilla and half jute, and when that grade of rope gets wet, it
oozes oil for the first week or so. All I can think is that the Mate
came down by the run, as I did, and probably broke his legs at the
bottom. Or else he was not as lucky as the rest of us in dodging the
backwash. However, we never saw him again. It was a marvel that half of
us ever saw daylight again.

What a night. Bitterly cold, blinding rain and heavy sprays breaking
right over us. If we had not been made of cast-iron we certainly could
not have stuck it.

My cousin and I--he was third mate--did a little exploring to see if
we could find some sort of shelter from the wind and rain. In great
delight I sang out that I had found a cave, and he replied: "Well get
into it, and see what it is like."

So we got in, and crawled and crawled, but it did not seem to afford
much shelter, and, eventually, we crawled out the other side. It was
only a huge boulder thrown up against the cliff. Still, it helped.

The old ship made a most wonderful picture there, with a slight list to
port, every stitch of sail set (even our precious t'gallant sails), and
side lights still burning, looking for all the world as if she was still
running her Eastern down.

About two o'clock in the morning, the wind suddenly shifted to the
north-west, and with it, the sea. Up to this time the waves, coming from
right aft had only power to smash her stern in, and nothing more. The
first sea, after the sudden shift, caught her on the quarter and broke
her back; the second sea parted her amidship, and brought down the
Mizzen and Jigger masts; in fact, the whole after part sank out of
sight. It was a staggering sight to see those towering masts with their
steel yards come tumbling and crashing down--the old ship was literally
disintegrating before our eyes. The fourth sea brought the Mainmast
down, and almost immediately afterwards, the Foremast. When morning
broke, the only vestige left was the bare bows, and although weighing
hundreds of tons, they were tossed up high and dry, on the rocks, like a
battered shell--all that remained of that once proud ship, the old HOLT

No doubt St. Paul's island in prehistoric times rose out of the sea, as
the result of some titanic submarine volcanic disturbance, and there is
no disguising the fact, a volcanic horror it has remained ever since. No
waving palms, coral reefs, and silver sands on St. Paul's; just a bleak,
bare, barren, and, for the most part, inaccessible island. Cold and raw,
with the ever present threat of going up in the air at any moment.

Peep of day next morning saw us scrambling up the cliffs aiming for the
top of the island. As we got up a bit, we found the cliff side consisted
of nothing better than loose rubble, cinders, and lots of loose rocks.
The result, and residue of the last volcanic effort. It didn't help the
climbing, for whenever we got hold of a rock, in all probablility it was
just stuck in the rubble, and promptly came away, leaving one balanced,
half in mid air and half hanging on to the rock. "Stand clear below,"
was the caution, and then let go!

That rock would start another, until there was a full fledged avalanche
careering down the cliff side, making it altogether a fairly exciting
climb, but not by any means the easiest part was dodging other people's

By the time we did get to the top, the sun was up. Did we not revel and
roll in the dry grass? What a treat to feel warmth once more.



As we were lords of all we surveyed, and at perfect liberty to go where
we wished--without the slightest fear of trespassing--three of us set
a course, as it turned out, right straight across the island. Frequently
we had to work our way round huge gaps in the ground, from which came
sulpherous fumes, in a kind of steamy smoke. Admitted there are a few
goats on the island, but they are like the proverbial Chinaman who can
live on the smell of an oil rag. Whatever they do live on, certainly
does not detract from their activity. "Now you see me, now you don't"; a
glimpse on the skyline, and gone again. Certainly before one could have
got within rifle range--if we had possessed such a thing. No doubt
these goats, also the rabbits, of which there are a fair quantity, have
been put on the island by ships, in times past. The rabbits and goats,
unfortunately, find their living on top of the island; whilst any
unfortunate human beings must always keep to the sea level, in order to
get water.

We continued on our way, and the going was somewhat like walking up a
fairly steep hill. Up this slope we trudged. No signs of either water or
life. No trees; not even a bush. I suppose we had been working our way
along for the best part of a couple of hours, up and still up, looking
more at our feet than to our front. Suddenly I stopped, for we seem to
have come to the edge of the world. There, lying like a panorama, over
two thousand feet below us, was a wonderful lagoon, absolutely circular,
with cliffs all around, except just where the sea had broken in on the
far side. There, the cliffs ran down to two shingle spits with a 16 foot
channel between them, giving entrance to the lagoon. One chap with us
who had eyes like the proverbial hawk, said he could see huts. I had
good eyesight too, but perched up there I could see nothing resembling
house or hut. As a matter of fact, as it turned out, there were five
huts, and when we did get down we found the one he could only just see,
was actually large enough to hold the whole forty-two of us, at one end!

As there was nothing to be gained by staying perched up there, we
started to look for a break in the face of the cliff, which was pretty
nearly perpendicular, but overgrown with long rank grass, any three or
four blades of which it was almost impossible to break. We soon found a
place where we could negotiate the overhanging lip, and with a very
creditable imitation of monkeys, we commenced to swing, toboggan and
bump our way down.

We found that the whole of the cliff was honeycombed with caves, and we
frequently discovered ourselves dangling bodily over one of these

I am convinced, and I always have been, that if a thorough search should
be made of these caves, hoards of pirates' treasure would most certainly
be unearthed, but the first step towards anything like that would have
to be the burning of all this rank grass.

Everywhere there are indications showing that the island has been used
for many purposes. Traces of old whalers, and sealers, and evidences of
occupations long before that. There were boats of a build unknown to the
oldest sailor amongst us, the planking and timbers, although inches
thick, crumbled away in one's hand. Old time anchors, with their wooden
stocks rotted out, in fact there was actually a built slip, where a
small vessel could be hauled up, scraped and painted. The huts must have
been in existence for over a hundred years, and there were many other
indications that immediately jump to a sailor's eye as evidence that it
had been used as a base for some seafaring enterprise.

What more ideal place to catch an unwary East Indiaman, after running
his Easting down and ready to turn north? Very likely he would be trying
to sight the island to correct his position. In bad weather a schooner
could lie in the lagoon, happily, and in perfect safety. No matter what
sea running outside, the lagoon is always like a millpond. A lookout on
the top of the island would soon spot one of the lumbering old timers in
the distance. Then the schooner could be warped and towed out, just
hiding in the entrance, till the time was judged ripe to make the
attack, and that, we can imagine, would be both sharp and short. Then
back with their booty to the lair, leaving no track or trace. even
wreckage would not stand one chance in a thousand of ever being sighted
in those latitudes. The caves lent themselves as perfect hiding places
for the plunder and, in my firm opinion, there it remains to this day,
for it is notorious that pirates never lived to enjoy their ill-gotten

There is treasure hidden all over the world, but in my humble opinion,
St. Paul's holds the long sought secret of many a pirate's hoard.

It has always been,--and still is,--my ambition to search these
caves, and sometime, with a bit of luck, I will.

There are all sorts of good reasons why St. Paul's has never yet been
searched. One very good reason is that there are a few thousand bleak
miles of sea to negotiate; eternal gales to contend with, a crew to pay,
and provisions to find. Furthermore, you must take water with you, or
content yourself with condensed water. Another item on the catalogue of
wants would be the wherewithal to burn off the grass that at present
very successfully and completely hides the openings to every one of the

Why didn't we search whilst we were there: For the simple reason that we
were far too busy keeping body and soul from parting company. In later
years I did get one expedition together, and it was only by the slimmest
chance that it fell through. We had the ship, and we had the very
necessary capital (which is of some importance). Like many other dreams,
it didn't materialise, but I still in my dreams see that smart little
schooner anchored in that lagoon, loading up with gold, jewels, and all
imaginable treasures, that forever live in the mind of the treasure

Having got down to the edge of the water, we started in to work our way
round towards the huts, which by now, we could see quite clearly. Here
and there we came across boiling springs, amongst the rocks, which
showed that something down under was still alive and warm.

Bill, my cousin, tried the water in the springs, and said it was fresh.
I just took his word for it, as I was a bit too excited to be
particularly thirsty--though that added joy was to come, and pretty

Arrived at the huts, the first cry from the fellows already there was,
"Have you found water?" I said, "Yes," and was asked to show them were
it was. So off back I went, but I suppose half an hour had elapsed
between times. Anyhow, we journeyed off for the springs, climbing over
the rocks from pool to pool; but they were all salt; salt as Lot's wife.

What had happened, I found out later, was, that between the time of our
coming round the lagoon, and taking these other chaps back again, the
tide had risen and flowed into the pools.

Others said they had found water on top of the island--a small well.

By next day most of us had become pretty desperate, and it behoved us to
call up a volunteer party, to shin up those two thousand odd feet with
oilskins, sea boots, and any other receptacles that would hold water.
Fortunately the north point had a gradual ascent, and afforded some
decent foothold.

The water party was led by an able seaman, named Bartle Macintyre, one
of the finest sailors I have ever met, and one that nothing ever
daunted. Actually, he made the party climb that cliff, with only six
short intervals of rest. Arriving at the top, I, for one, was just about
all-in. But after one last spell, we started the tramp to find this
well. The going now was not too bad, and we made good time, though, as
far as I was concerned, things were getting hazier and hazier, and I was
rapidly losing interest. I could see the fellows walking ahead, but they
seemed a mighty way off. I was long past speaking; in fact my tongue was
just completely dried up, and my lips were split in two or three pieces.
I remembered quite well one of the chaps coming back and relieving me of
the pair of oilskin pants, which I was carrying, tied at the bottom to
fill up with water.

I pointed to a slight depression I had noticed, and two or three of us
went down to see if by chance, there was any water, and found the ground
fairly moist. They called the others back. We tore up the damp ground,
squeezing the mud into the palms of our hands and drinking it. Although
it was just mud, and barely wet enough to moisten our lips, it was as
nectar to our parched throats. Very soon we all took the trail again. I
knew, quite well, why they had taken these oilskins from me, and I
realised that once I stumbled and fell down (which seemed quite likely)
I should not get up again. I was conscious, clearly conscious, and
remembered every incident; how the fellows gradually faded into the
distance, finally, I saw them no more. But I still kept trudging on and
on, determined to keep up on end as long as I could. After a time I
suddenly brought up with a start, for in front of me, I saw a pool of
beautifully clear water.

"Ha," I thought, "now, this is a mirage. Now in what books have I read
about mirages?" and I stood there trying to recollect a book, or the
name of an author that had dealt with these mirages, for I was fully
convinced that that was what I saw. Then, as I gazed at this pool of
water, which also seemed to be getting a bit hazy, I imagined I could
see men lying down around it, and in an inconsequent way, I considered
that just another strange phenomenon. Then I further noticed that they
seemed to be actually drinking. "Well," I thought, "I have read about a
mirage, where you could see water, but never where you could actually
observe men going through all the motions of drinking." Still I gazed,
making no effort whatever to reach the water, for I was stone wall sure
that it was absolutely nothing but a mirage. Then it seemed as if I
could even recognise some of the faces. "Why that is Bartle Macintyre,"
I thought. Then at last it struck me. Can it be real? and I bent down to
try and touch the water. Sure enough, it was a real pool of pure clear
crystal water. Instantly, I tried to scoop it up in my hands and drink,
but I might as well have tried to lift the water with a sponge; my hands
just absorbed it. then I remembered a quart bottle in my pocket, which
had been overlooked when they relieved me of my precious oilskin pants.
I plunged this into the water, filled and drank it; filled again and
drank it. Three times in all.

I suppose after drinking like that, nothing but an ostrich like
constitution saved me, though perhaps the saving grace was that we all
laid down without moving, and went fast asleep.

Later we woke, filled every single receptacle to its utmost capacity and
started on our way, back to the lagoon.

We took a slightly different course returning, which carried us through
some high coarse grass, and here we retrieved the Captain, who, despite
all our persuasion and in fact, some threats of force, had steadfastly
refused to leave the scene of the wreck. The loss of the ship seemed to
have preyed very heavily on his mind, and certainly he was never the
same man again, and never took another command, although at the Board of
Trade Enquiry he was to all intents and purposes, exonerated from blame.

We happened to see his head appear at one time above the long grass, and
then he disappeared, having, as it proved, fallen down, and it was
doubtful if he would ever have got on his feet again had we not found
him. We gave him a good drink, and partly carrying him, managed to get
him away. Before our party left the huts in search of water, several
boats had already been found--in various stages of decay--and we had
launched one, in slightly better condition than the rest, with the idea
of having it meet us at the edge of the lagoon on our return with water.

Knowing the conditions of the fellows when we left, we should not have
been surprised if an attempt were to be made to rush the water
containers. So the strongest formed a sort of bodyguard, wilst we
youngsters became the carriers. Much to our surprise, the fellows in the
boat took very little notice of us, and at first we thought this was
perhaps part of a rather deep game to catch us unawares, and so get hold
of the water. It should be borne in mind that before we started, many of
them were half crazy through drinking salt water.

About half way across the lagoon we got rather tired of sitting tight,
protecting our precious water bags, and asked them if they didn't want a
drink. To our amazement they replied, quite indifferently, "Oh, no, we
found water just after you left!"

So we had had our little jaunt for nothing.

Actually what they had discovered was the selfsame springs that we had
found on our first journey round the lagoon, only it so happened that in
their search they had come across them again, just at dead low water,
which, as it turned out, was the only time when the water could be
obtained in any other condition than salt. I say in any other condition,
for there was really very little to choose after all, either salt or
fresh. The taste was utterly vile. They were just some sort of mineral
springs from which the water had to be collected while still boiling
hot, and then allowed to cool down, but the taste was somewhat similar
to what one associates with, say, a mixture of chalk and antiquated egg!
We drank it simply because we must quench our thirst, but even though
years have passed I can still taste the beastly stuff. However, that was
our drink, and we could take it or leave it, just as we liked.

The menu card included penguins, crayfish, Cape salmon and eggs. The
least said about the latter, the better. Had we only arrived a few weeks
earlier they might have been possible, but at that time, most of them
that still remained eggs were in a very advanced state of incubation.
The penguins were slightly better. Half fish and half bird, they seemed
to have acquired all the bad qualities of both. The fish, unfortunately,
took after the water, and tasted, if anything, worse. Crayfish formed
the staple diet, when we could get them, which was only when the tide
was rising, and not always then. Outside the lagoon, there were stacks
of perfectly good and eatable Cape salmon. So there were in British
Columbia! Lacking the wherewithal to catch them, they were as useful to
us, in our position, as were the others. The old relics on the island
that WOULD actually float, were not equal to sea work; and after the
first couple of days there were mighty few of us anyway with strength
left to row a boat across the lagoon, let alone outside the shingle
spits, in the open sea.

Everything on the island seemed poisonous. Some of the fellows took
penguins' skins to wrap round their feet in lieu of boots, but if they
had the slightest scratch they very soon had to discard the skins, as
their feet just swelled up and festered.

Our faith had to be pinned to crayfish, which we caught by attaching the
innards of a penguin to the end of a line; throwing it out into the deep
water, and then drawing it slowly in, the crayfish following. But this
could only be done on an incoming tide, as that was the only time the
crayfish seemed to rise. They were pretty hefty chaps and could easily
nip a finger off between the serrated edges of their tails!



Several expeditions were made overland across to the wreck, in the hopes
of getting something from the old ship, but all we ever secured was
about a dozen pounds of pork--this had evidently been washed out of one
of the harness casks, on deck, and drifted ashore; a bit of canvas, and
about a fathom of rope. Out of the rope we made our fishing lines.

The party returning from the wreck, on the occasion when they had
retrieved the pork, had the good luck to catch three rabbits, and
eventually made their way down the broken north end of the cliff, which
we had found easiest to negotiate. The only drawback, as this returning
party soon found to their cost, was the fact that it led down close past
an albatross rookery.

It is a well-known fact that to a man fallen overboard an albatross is
almost as bad as a shark. The latter attacks the man from below the
water, but an albatross can, and will, drive his beak clean through a
man's skull whilst swooping past in the air, which very likely accounts
for the Ancient Mariner grabbing one by the neck and hanging on--I
don't blame him.

When the albatrosses scented the pork and the rabbits, they rose in a
cloud to share a cheap meal. The party of humans had no alternative but
to back up against the cliff, put the pork and the rabbits to the rear,
and do their best to beat off the birds. Someone who was working on the
beach down below heard their SOS, and raised the alarm. Arming ourselves
with sticks, staves, or anything we could lay hands on, we dashed up the
cliff (as well as we could do any dashing by this time) to the rescue of
the party who were making a valiant fight to retain their precious pork
and rabbits. Arriving there, we handed out sticks. Those that had knives
used a stick in one hand and a knife in the other; and for the next half
an hour it was just a battle royal with these huge birds, measuring
anything from fifteen to twenty feet from tip to tip of their wings.
Finding that their grabs at the grub were ineffectual, they varied
operations by swooping down, and making a dive at one's face or eyes as
they planed past. We, of course, retaliated, first with a stick, giving
them a crack over the head, and then, as they fell, driving a knife in
between their shoulders, which we found the best way of settling them,
otherwise, they simply rose and went for us again.

Beyond some pretty severe gashes, we came out of it quite well, still
hanging on to our pork and rabbits.

What a meal that was! All boiled down in a huge cauldron, mixed in with
a few fish, some grass, and thistles. It formed about the one and only
decent meal during our occupation of the island.

There are very few albatross rookeries to be found in the world. These
birds do come ashore to breed, but otherwise they seem to live on the
wing, and if they do sleep, they also certainly sleep on the wing, for
you meet with them thousands of miles from land, in gales of wind, when
they couldn't possibly sleep on the water. They have absolutely no fear,
and will hover with the tip of their wing almost touching the bridge of
even a steamer, and stare the officer of the watch straight in the face
with their little, black, beady eyes. They fall an easy prey to a little
bit of pork, and one of the easiest methods of catching them from a ship
is to get a piece of tin cut into a triangle with the sides half an inch
wide, tie some strips of pork onto the tin, and let it drop astern on
the end of a line. At the point of an albatross' beak is a hook, almost
exactly resembling a lion's claw. When they make a dab to catch the
pork, the point of their beak goes into the centre of the triangle, and
is drawn to the apex where it jams, and, providing he will rise in the
air, proves an easy capture. Unless the line is slacked off he can never
get his beak out. On the other hand, if he determines to resist, and
puts his feet and the wings in the water, it is good-bye to line, bait
and all.

I have seen one caught measuring thirty feet from tip to tip of its

The rookery on St. Paul's consisted of a number of ledges where it
seemed as though the fathers and mothers of all albatrosses came to
spend their last days. Some two or three hundred feet felow at the base
of the cliff was a mound of bones covering nearly half an acre of
ground, fully a hundred feet high, and must have weighed scores of tons.
It was nothing but the bones of ancient albatrosses, that, from time
immemorial had gone there to die, eventually tumbling off the ledges
from old age, to add to the bones below. Some of the beaks were picked
up were over a foot in length, and the birds they had been attached to
must certainly have had well over a thirty foot spread.

On nearly all these outlying islands there is a cache of provisions,
supposed to be maintained by the Government of the country to whom the
island belongs, but in point of fact, this job is usually carried out by
British ships. We searched everywhere as long as our strength held out
for this cache, which we knew must be there, but never found it. Some
twelve years later, when I was on my first voyage out to Australia in
the White Star Line, I happened to be reading a book of sailing
directions, which described the situation of these various caches, and
the one on St. Paul's was referred to as being "marked by a cairn of
stones on the South spit." I knew it at once. The cairn of stones had
been there all the time, but painted on the side was "Mrs. Smith and
child, wife of Captain Smith, died such-and-such a date."

Naturally, we thought it marked her grave, and that being so we would
not touch it. Yet tobacco, potatoes, tinned provisions of all kinds,
were there beside us all the time and to be had for the taking--and
last, but not least, matches also. Amongst the forty-two of us there had
been only one dry match, and with that we made a fire, which we had to
keep going night and day, the whole time we were on the island.

We seem to have been slightly worse off than other ships that at odd
times had left their bones there; that is, in the way of getting

In the entrance to the lagoon the wreck of H.M.S. MEGAERA is still
visible, although she was run ashore there as long since as 1874. Bound
from Simon's Bay, West Africa, with a crew, and relief crews, numbering
375, she sprung a leak the first week out. She was only 1400 tons, and
heavily rigged for sailing, although she had 350 h.p. engines down
below. She sprung a leak under the bunkers, in the sheathing, where a
rivet came out, and when the engineers attacked it, with a view to
securing a supporting plate, they found that the ship's bottom in places
was the thickness of a sixpenny piece, and to attempt to do anything
would undoubtedly have been fatal. They were already running before the
usual heavy westerly gale, and mountainous seas, and it seemed hopeless
to turn about and try the Vanderdecken touch and beat back to the Cape.

There is no sea in the world equal to that which one meets down in those
south latitudes, it comes literally swinging round the world, with no
land to break or intercept it.

One moment you are riding right up on the back, getting the full force
of the gale, and the next you are down in the trough, which only the
upper yards on the mast visible to anyone around. Even a twelve thousand
ton ship, on the side of one of these seas is like nothing better than a
fly on the wall. The saving grace is that they are so big that they
seldom break! Woe betide the ship that is running before it, and one of
these seas does break! I saw it once, and it was nothing short of a
miracle that anyone lived to tell the tale.

The choice the Captain of the MEGAERA had put before him was a might
bitter one. A short beat back to the Cape, or a three thousand mile run
to the nearest land, and that land was only the islands of St. Paul's
and Amsterdam. He took the wiser course; in fact, the only course, and
ran with every stitch of canvas towards St. Paul's. The pumps were
continually getting choked with weed and to make matters worse, the
straining of the ship caused other rivets to loosen up.

Ultimately, every man jack on board, including officers, was bailing
with anything, and everything, to keep her afloat. Stoke-hold fires had
been put out very early on, sails were passed under her bottom, and held
in place with lashings of rope, but proved to be of very little use. She
was making a good eleven knots under sails alone, and of course these
patchwork quilts were simply washed away. After many days of intense
anxiety, they at last sighted St. Paul's, and finally came to anchor at
the mouth of the lagoon.

They got the ship pumped out, and then fires going, divers down, and the
holes plugged.

They then went to work and tried to put a supporting plate on the
outside, when, with hardly a moment's warning, the whole original plate
gave way.

They had just time to slip their anchors, and run her as hard as they
could for the beach. She grounded between the shingle spits in sixteen
feet of water, and in the process ripped nearly the whole of the bottom
out of her; and there her bones still lie to this day.

Fortunately, whilst still afloat, all provisions, sails and stores had
been landed, and they had actually on the island food for all hands for
one month. But as there was every likelihood of their spending several
months there, they had to go on short rations forthwith; just enough to
keep them alive; and well it was they took this drastic action, for it
was four months before they were eventually taken off.

They were more fortunate than we were in the fact that they possessed
their own boats, thoroughly seaworthy, and could work outside the
harbour where ample fish could be caught. In fact, as an officer of that
ill-fated ship told me, he caught no less than 1,100 pounds of fine Cape
salmon within a few hours, with only his boat's crew, and this only just
outside the shingle spits.

Several ships came in sight but never near enough to make out their
distress signals. Eventually, with one of their lifeboats, an officer
was able to board a passing ship, bound for Surabaya, but before
anything could be done in the way of rescue, the usual gale sprang up,
and she was driven away.

However, they made port with this officer and his boat's crew on board,
who got in touch with the naval authorities at Hong Kong, and the P & O
s.s. MALACCA was despatched at once to take them off. Beyond casualties
through scalding when the boilers burst at the time she was run ashore,
there were no losses.

Some of the tales that are left written on St. Paul's have not that
happy ending; and with the crew of more than one ship, it has been the
last survivor who has finally scratched his message on a piece of wood
or stone to be read by those who came after. Just a silent record of a
few of the risks that have to be taken by those who "go down to the sea
in ships."

It is bad enough to be stuck on an island with little hope of rescue,
but it is worse when, after many days, a ship heaves in sight and
deliberately leaves the castaways. In all the time we had been there not
one single ship had been sighted, till the early morning of the day we
were taken off. That morning, the first man out of the hut rubbed his
eyes to make sure he was really awake, for there, lying becalmed, close
in to the island, lay a full rigged ship under all sail. The next second
everyone was awake and dashing out of the hut in response to his roar of

We had only one boat that made any pretence at floating, and this, with
her crew, was detailed for fishing. The tide served that morning at
daybreak, as the best time for catching crayfish, with the result that
the boat was right over the other side of the lagoon, and the ship was
hidden from the boat by the south cliff. We yelled, and hailed, and only
after a long, heartbreaking delay, got the boat from under the cliffs.

As soon as they were in a position to see the ship, they pulled as hard
as their strength would let them, out of the harbour, and were actually
half way between the island and the ship, when a slight breeze sprang
up. It is hard to believe, but down went that ship's helm, she went
about, and deliberately stood off from the land.

On shore we had a huge fire burning, sending up columns of smoke, and
everyone of us that could stand was waving his shirt. We could even see
the men on her deck.

It was a rank impossibility for those on board not to have seen the
column of smoke, or our boat, and yet, away she went, and that is the
tragedy that so frequently happens in these cases.

One of the most glaring instances was that in which the VOLTURNO on fire
in mid-Atlantic, in fine weather, was passed by a big steamship, without
her taking the slightest notice. It was fine, clear weather, and the
dense column of smoke rising from the burning oil could have been seen
twenty-five or thirty miles away, and yet, a ship not five miles off,
passes and takes no notice. Again in the case of the TITANIC, which I am
going to tell about later, we were using every modern method, visible
and invisible to call the attention of a ship actually in sight, yet,
there she lay, making no attempt at rescue, whilst some fifteeen hundred
people patiently waited and were finally drowned with that ship's lights
still in sight.

In our case on the island of St. Paul's the boat had no alternative but
to return. We did not even get the name of the ship, as there was no
name on her stern. If there had been, the Second Mate could easily have
read it; and yet, where will you find a ship without her name and port
of registry on her stern? Some have said, "Oh, it must have been a
phantom ship, the outcome of some delirious imagination. You were
starving, you know." They might just as well have put it down to the
"morning after the night before,"--only unfortunately, we lacked the

She was not seen by one, or a half a dozen, but by all of us, and you
can't mesmerize forty-two men. Anyhow it just about knocked the bottom
out of what spirits we had left, and they were mighty few. We had been
there eight days, and it would take less than another eight to finish
the lot.

Anyhow, we weren't going to be caught napping another time, so we
instituted a day and night look-out, on a hill top above the camp, where
a good view could be obtained all round, northward and westward. The
same hill where many other ships' crews have kept their sometimes
fruitless vigil, others to watch for their welcome rescuer, and where
the MEGAERA managed to mount a twelve-pounder gun.

The boat we had for general purposes, including fishing, was now
detailed to stand by, to intercept any other ship that might come along,
and the crew, although allowed to fish, were forbidden to be out of
hail. We launched another boat for a fishing party; she floated, and
that is about all that could be said for her. She was nearly as broad as
she was long; in fact, it would be interesting to know what kind of ship
ever brought her to the island. Then we settled down for another wait,
although, as it turned out, not for long.




Later on, that same afternoon, to our  joy and amazement, we again heard
that welcome cry of "Sail-o! from the lookout. At once, the fire on the
look-out hill was lit, a piece of canvas hoisted up on the flag staff,
which we had also rigged, and the boat was instantly manned and shoved off
out of the harbour. It was not long before all those who could were up
on the look-out hill; and sure enough, there was a little barque which
had just rounded the point, sailing along the western side of the island,
with just a light breeze, all sails set. She did look a picture; in fact,
speaking for myself, there has never been a more welcome picture in my

Our vital consideration now was as to whether or not she would see us or
our signal; or if our boat would float long enough to be able to intercept
her. We waited and waited, as she slowly drew along the land, then at
last we knew that she had actually seen us. Down came her t'gallant sails
and staysails; up went her mainsail and foresail, and she definitely
hauled in towards land. Joy! oh, joy, never was there a more welcome
sight. And furthermore, she had also seen our boat, which we watched
go alongside, and the Second Mate jump on board.

These then were the questions from Captain Hayward:

"What ship?"

"HOLT HILL, sir."

"What happened?"

"Wreck, and total loss."

"How many more of you on the Island?"

"Only thirty-seven, sir."

"My God! I can't take all of you. I'm already short of provisions for
my own crew of six."

Then after a few moments anxious thought:

"I will take half of you."

Mowatt replied, "Well, sir, I'm afraid it will mean certain death for
those left behind."

"Is it as bad as all that," asked Captain Hayward. Then flinging caution
to the wind, "well, all right, tell them ALL to come along then.
We'll manage somehow."

Mowatt was just a bit wise in his generation, and said, "My men all
played out, sir. Do you think you could send four of your men in the

Our boat's crew WAS played out, even with that short pull, but Mowatt
figured that with our of our chaps on board, weak though they were,
there would be no likelihood of what had happened that same morning,
and it would be all the more certain if he could persuade the Captain
to let some of his own men go away with orders for the rest to come
aboard. He asked Captain Hayward to stand in as close as he could to
the mouth of the lagoon, so that the COORONG, would not need to put a
boat out, and we could come off in the contraption we had floating
inside the harbour.

Our boat came ashore manned by the COORONG'S crew, and told us to get
aboard our own boat and come off. The thirty seven of us tumbled into
the that old galliot, and with makeshift paddles and oars and got her
through the entrance. Fortunately, it was one of those rare days when
there was practically no sea, and very little wind. The moment we got
into her, the seams started to open, and water commenced to pour in.
We baled desperately, with everything we had, and it was the toss of
a button whether we would fetch the COORONG by boat or by swimming.
We were even tearing our shirts, and stuffing the rags into the seams,
in the endeavour to make her float a few minutes more. We got alongside,
and the last man was hardly out of her, before she filled and sank like
a stone. But we were on board with the welcome feel of a ship under our
feet once again.

"Well, boys," said Captain Hayward, "I'm glad to have you on board, and
I've put out on the hatch there all the biscuits and butter I've got.
Help yourselves, you might as well have one square meal. I really ought
not to take you all, but it seems that if I leave you, you may all be
dead before the next ship comes along. I'm just trusting to sighting
a ship, and getting provisions. I'm part loaded with sugar, from
Mauritius to Adelaide, and you can help yourselves to that, for what
it's worth."

How she came to stand out of her course from Mauritius to Adelaide 
was food for quite a bit of thought.

She had a fair wind, and being short of provisions Captain Hayward 
was particularly anxious to make the best of a fair wind; yet, for
some unknown reason, as he relates himself, "I couldn't get St. Paul's
out of my mind, and when I went below that afternoon (the one previous
to picking us up) I could not sleep. The question as to whether there
was anybody on St. Paul's would not leave my mind, partly due, perhaps,
to the fact, that I HAD once taken a crew off there. Finally, in
desperation, I came on deck, and gave orders to alter the course for
St. Paul's, and I went below, and had my nap, without any further trouble.
Up on deck, later on, he thought 'what a pity to be losing this fine
fair wind,' for by standing away south to St. Paul's, it meant a precious
loss of time. Well I changed my mind, and put her back on her course
again for Cape Leeuwin,"

"That night, when I went below, it was just a repetition 
of the afternoon's efforts to sleep, and to make a long story short, I simply 
had to get up on deck and alter the course, back again for St. Paul's."

"Of course, this chopping and changing had got the whole crew on their
toes, and when finally we did sight the island, nearly everyone was on
the look-out."

"It was from a man working on the foretopsail yard," continued Captain
Hayward, "that we got the first inkling, when he hailed the deck,
saying that he could see a signal flyiing. In a few minutes we saw
your fire, and finally the boat, and well, here you are, and I'm very
glad to have you."

It was well that Caaptain Hayward put us on drastic rations from the very
first, for we never sighted a ship from there to Adelaide, twenty-two
days. Half a pound of bread, half a pound of meat, and as much pure
unadulterated raw sugar as we cared to eat.

Before that, if anybody had asked me at the age of sixteen, if I could
live on sugar, I should undoubtedly have said, "Give me the chance,"
but as we soon found out, it can't be done.

We arrived in Adelaide a regular pack of scarecrows; thoroughbred
ringbolt chasers, which means in ship's parlance, that we were capable
of reeving ourselves through any fair sized ringbolt in the deck.

From the Semaphore our fame had spread before us, and when the COORONG
docked, the wharfside was packed solid with crowds of those hospitable
Australians who, during our stay, did their level best to burst us with
good cheer. So the skin and bones brigade mustered on the wharf and
gave three hearty cheers for Captain Hayward. Three more for his crew.
Then from him, "Three cheers for the crew she's fetched."

There we said good-bye to our jolly old rescuer, each going his various
ways; soon to have the world between us; yet, how small a world.

Ten years later I anchored off Adelaide, fourth Officer of the White
Star liner MEDIC then inaugurating the new White Star Australian
service. Off watch, and strolling round the decks I happened to meet the
pilot who had brought us up to our anchorage. With the usual ship's
camaraderie we got yarning about the ship, and Australia. The Pilot's
friend asked, " Have you ever been to Australia before?" "Yes,"
I said, "and Adelaide at that, but many years ago."

"On what ship," he asked.

'Well, I wasn't exactly on a ship bound here, I was brought here after
being wrecked on St. Paul's Island in the South Indian Ocean."

"Was that ship by any chance the HOLT HILL?" he sked, rather
eagerly, and followed this question up by asking if I remembered
the name of the ship that rescued us, and brought us to Adelaide.
I replied:

"Yes, perfectly. The ship was the COORONG, belonging to
Adelaide, and her Captain was Captain Hayward."

He quickly stepped forward, held out his hand and said:

"Glad to meet you again, I'm Captain Hayward."



I sampled Australian life for three good and hospitable months.
Sometimes up in the Bush on a station, at other times in the town
sharing a happy-go-lucky life with those impulsive lovable, carefree
people. Picnics that could be planned with safety weeks ahead. Glorious
sunshine and three good meals a day--what more could a healthy lad of
sixteen want? Welcome everywhere as a survivor of a wreck that echoed
round the world, and which was common knowledge with every man, woman
and child of that island nation.

All good things must end, and the time at last came when I must tear
myself away from the everlasting attractions "Down under," if I was to
keep to the sea as a career, and I had no intentions of parting company
with her, as yet. Despite all the hours of buffeting, I never hesitated
in my allegiance to that hard-boiled mistress; harsh and bitter as she
can be at times, at others, full of captivating smiles and surprises. A
hundred years at sea couldn't wholly unfold all she has to show you.
Things that would make a landsman's eyes pop out of his head. But you
must laugh in her face, when she hits you hardest, and, above all, never
fear her; she will let you out, and make up for it in the end.

Our crew had all shipped off home, except another boy and myself. This
was before the days of D.B.S. (Distressed British Seamen), when all you
have to do is to walk into the nearest British Consul's Office, and be
forwarded on to your port of hail.

Another curious law of the sea that still exists is, that a man's pay
stops from the time his ship is wrecked. In these days of steam and
quick passages, it does not cut so hard, but in the case of the HOLT
HILL it caught out some of the crew pretty badly, particularly the
Mates, who must work their way back to England, before they could hope
to pick up their proper rank, and pay again, and you could safely reckon
on say 125 days to the Lizard. Even when you got home there was still
the ship to find.

However, these problems didn't worry Archer and myself, and I don't
suppose we should have broken away when we did, had it not been for the
Agents, impressing on us the necessity. They told us, when we used to go
round on a Saturday, for our pocket money that the Company was worrying
them to send us home. Eventually they said they would have to stop our
allowance if we didn't get move on, and get a ship. They had been
awfully decent to us; so had everyone for that matter, so much so that
when we did finally get a ship, we very nearly deserted--which would
have completely torn our Indentures, and put a finish to our budding

We had shipped on Board the DUKE OF ABERCORN, one of the old time tea
clippers; towed down from Adelaide and anchored off the Semaphore,
waiting for a breeze. That night, Archer and I had the 8 to 12 watch. It
was a real Australian summer night, soft as silk, and full of magic. I
can't just describe it, but it gets you in a weak spot. It did with us,
sitting there on the rail looking at the shore lights twinkling and
beckoning. Thinking of all the jolly fine times we had had there these
three months past; reflecting on one or two very nice folk (we'll call
them folk anyway) who would be tickled to death to see us back ashore
again. I suppose it was through talking there that the urge at last got
too strong, and we suddenly determined to chuck our hands in, and get
ashore again; a perfectly crazy idea, but what of it.

We couldn't lower a boat; too much noise, and anyway it would be sure to
be seen.

There was a long wooden ladder and a big wooden refuse shoot; they would
float. So forthwith we proceeded to launch our rickety craft. The fact
that it was a good three miles to the beach, and rotten with sharks,
didn't enter into our calculations. We had got the ladder overboard,
when fate, and our good fortune intervened, in the shape of a light

Quickly orders were being bellowed along the decks. "All hands on deck.
Man the windlass. Heave short. Loose all sail." Then, to the clank,
clank, of the pawls of the windlass rose the words of that good old
shanty "Rolling Home." It's a wonder if we didn't make some of them turn
over in their sleep, particularly when it came to the line, "To
Australia's charming daughters, we must bid a long good-bye." However,
it was soon over, and within an hour, the old timer was heeling over to
a steady breeze on her first clip for the Cape.

Less than a month, with an extraordinary 
good slant of easterly winds, saw us within a couple of days of the
Cape. Then the wind banged round out of the westward, and became a
dead muzzler.

For fourteen solid days we tried to beat up those few miles tack tack
and tack. Like Vanderdecken of old, it seemed as though we should never
make Table Bay, till at last, in desperation, we reached away south, and
picked up a slant which carried us round.

It was almost in sight of the Cape that I got my first view of a huge
Sea Bat.

For the last couple of days we had been shortened down, and I was up
loosing the fore royal, when I spotted my fish, lying apparently asleep,
on the surface of the water. Even at that height, he looked monstrous.
I could easily gauge his span by comparing him with the fore yard, which
was immediately under me, and measured exactly 90 feet from yardarm to
yardarm. I could see he was a fraction less, 10 feet perhaps. We were
almost on top of him, before he sounded; in fact, it looked as though
we were going to hit him. Then with just a couple of flaps of those
gigantic wings, and he was down and out of sight. Since then, I have
seen two others, but smaller.

The DUKE was a real old timer. Built long before the days of steel
and iron, she had raced with such redoubtable ships as the RED JACKET,
THERMOPYLAE and CUTTY SARK. In those days she carried more of a crew
than the crack Atlantic liner has on deck to-day. Nineteen knots,
day after day, she had to her credit, in her old logs, but these
hair-raising races from China, are no more.

We rounded the Cape, stretched up through the Tropics and Trades,
through the Roaring Forties, and finally reached Falmouth for orders,
and a few days later made fast in the East India dock, after being away,
just on eighteen months.

I had to go through the hoop with Messrs. William Price and Co., the
owners of the old HOLT HILL, in Liverpool for staying so long in
Adelaide. Other delinquencies, mainly to do with practical jokes in
foreign ports, were also on the list of the "Please explains."
Unfortunately, other nations don't appreciate the Britisher's love of
a skylark, particularly when played by a set of boys, whose reputation
was rather too well-known.

It was to find the ringleader, that Archer and I were called up and
hauled over the coals.

I always think it was a good thing, that the half deck crowd of the
HOLT HILL was broken up, and scattered amongst other ships of the Line;
I think, as a combination-- not forgetting Old Jock who loved a lark 
as well as any of us-- we were just a bit too hot for our own welfare.



I soon got my marching orders, and joined up again, with a happy half
deck crowd in the old PRIMROSE HILL, we were particularly cheery, and,
for the very good reason, we were bound for the Cape, and not for that
monotonous nitrate coast where 50 per cent of sailing ships were now
making their way. Steamers were quickly nobbling all the decent trades
and ports. Cape Town was one of the few left, and that only till the
docks and breakwater were finished.

We got away from England in September, which meant we should dodge the
winter in the north and pick up the spring and summer again down south.

It always seems as though a ship on leaving port would never get clear
of the accumulated muck and dirt, and we were no exception. Scrubbing
decks, washing paintwork, and reeving new running gear till again she
was all spick and span.

I was now in my fourth year and was expected to be able to get through
any job that came my way, with all the despatch, accuracy, and neatness
of a fully--fledged A.B. No longer one of the "skysail yarders."
Anything up there was for first and second voyagers; nothing above a
Royal for me now. As a matter of fact I was working just below the Royal
yard one day, when I saw staged, a fight to a finish between a full
grown bull whale, a sword fish, and a thrasher. In point of fact, the
latter two do the attacking, and the whale does the running, or tries
to, but it's not once in ten times that the poor devil escapes.
Sometimes he does by sounding, and going down so deep that the sword
fish cannot follow. But if the sword fish once gets in a position under
the whale's tail, there's very little chance for that manoeuvre, as
every time he attempts to sound, the sword fish drives home that vicious
4ft. bone snout, and sends the whale scuttling to the surface.

The thrasher (grampus of old) can only attack from above. He has two
enormous fins, anything up to five feet long. One projecting from his
back, and one from underneath, a short chopped off body and no tail.
When the sword fish attacks and drives the whale to the surface, the
thrasher then leaps out of the water, and lands on the whale's back,
driving deep, one of those knife-like fins.

We had a ring side seat, and watched the fight from start to finish.
It's not enough to say it was thrilling, which does not convey much; it
was more than that, it was terrific, and almost unheard of. Even the
watch on deck knocked off to (see) the sight. It did not last long, but
it was terrible while it did last, to see that fifty ton whale thrashing
the water into foam, in a vain endeavour to land one or the other
attacker with its flail like flukes. At other times flinging its whole
huge bulk right up in the air, and coming down on the water with a
report like a 12 inch gun. Again, tearing round in circles, leaving a
trail of blood and foam.

Then as suddenly as it started, it was over, and the old bull whale was
dead, and then, from every quarter, came the scavengers of the sea,
sharks, barracuta (sic) and so forth.

We were lying becalmed on a sea like glass, and nothing would have given
some of us greater pleasure than to shove off and go to the assistance
of the bull; but there is a trite saying from across the pond, "Don't
monkey with a buzz saw."

The trip down the Cape was the same routing as with most any ship bound
south. Across the one and only Bay, down past the western Isles, through
the Roaring Forties and into the Trades. Then the pulley-hauling of the
yards, working her through the Doldrums and across the Line. More
Doldrums, plenty of fish, and torrents of rain till we picked up the
S.E. Trades, and started to stretch away for the Cape in earnest.

Eventually we lifted the renowned Table Mountain above the horizon and
finally came to anchor in Table Bay.

At this time the notorious breakwater was still under construction, and,
although representing a cool million, cost the Colony little or nothing,
as it was almost wholly built of convict labour.

It was a cheery gang that laboured there. "So many months," or "so many
years on the breakwater," was a common saying, and quickly applied to
anyone who was apt to sail a bit too close to the wind. Many proved
I.D.B.'s--and many that were NOT proved--subscribed their little quota
to that breakwater; in fact, culprits of petty crimes, which in the
ordinary way would have been met with a small fine, were joyfully
consigned to carry out Cape Town's ambitious scheme, of protecting the
bay with that huge rampart of granite and stone. There is no doubt it
was needed, for many and many a ship's bones lie rotting on the beach in
Table Bay through lack of protection from the dreaded nor'wester.

First comes the "table cloth" on the mountain. Then the notorious
south-easter, which literally brings fine stones and gravel skeltering
down from the heights above. That is all right for the ships in the
harbour; they are sheltered, but the fun commences when the wind swings
round and comes screeching out of the nor'-west. Then the sea and the
wind drive right straight into the harbour, and in those days it was a
common sight to see a dozen or more sailing ships riding stretched out
to their anchors.

On the occasion of which I am speaking in the PRIMROSE HILL, when we
rode out a black nor'wester, we paid out 120 fathoms on each anchor, and
that is the limit of the cable carried. On to each cable we bent the end
of a thirteen inch coir hawser (thirteen inches in diameter); this was
laid along the decks and made fast to the mooring bits.

These preparations were, necessarily, carried out before the wind
shifted round. Once the sea came into the harbour it was impossible to
get forward along the decks.

Ships then are to be seen diving into hugh seas, in far worse condition
than when out at sea under shortened canvas. Shipping them green over
the bows, and everybody hoping against hope that the ground tackle will
hold. It sometimes happens that one anchor, or even the coir spring on
some ship will carry away. Then the trouble starts. That particular
cable parts, the second anchor will not hold her, she then drifts down
and fouls another ship. One or other either sink where they lie, or both
part their cables and drive on shore. Once they hit the beach there is
not a chance in a thousand of a single soul being saved. Shore lifeboats
are called away, but with that gigantic sea running, accompanied by a
terrific gale, there is barely time to get the shore lifeboat afloat
before one, two and sometimes even three ships will go crashing up on
the beach in a jumbled mass, to be pounded to matchwood in a very few

Perhaps if the warning is sufficient, a ship will prefer to get up her
anchors, and get under way, and out of the harbour before the dreaded
shift to the N.W.comes about. Every sailor prefers deep water and plenty
of sea room to monkeying around in conditions like those that used to
prevail in Table Bay.

Now, of course, the breakwater is completed, and one can lie in comfort
behind it, and watch the seas doing their worst. They still come right
over, but their force is broken.

Leaving Cape Town behind, we ran our Easting down before the usual old
greybeards. Not an uncommon procedure running before an exceptionally
heavy sea, is to erect a canvas screen so that the helmsman simply can't
look astern at the sea which every moment threatens to come over the

It often happens that the gale increases from hour to hour very slowly,
very steadily, and the temptation to continue running, whilst making an
excellent passage has often proved too great, and the undoing of more
than one good skipper. The hope is always there that the gale has
reached its maximum. The glass has, perhaps, steadied a little,
temporarily; may even show a tendency to rise. The seas grow and grow,
until the term "mountainous" becomes a literal and actual fact. Then the
psychological time comes, when the choice must be made. Heave to, or run
it out; either bring her up to the wind under shortened canvas, making
no progress whatever towards your destination, but riding in safety, or
continue to run with ever-increasing risk.

In the latter event, the opportunity for carrying out the manoeuvre of
heaving to, with any degree of safety passes; in fact, from safety it
quickly becomes a risk, then a heavy risk, and finally an impossibility.

No choice then remains. Run you must, and hope for the best; but if one
of those mountainous seas of water should bank up astern and break, then
every man must seize some immovable object and hang on to it like grim
death, hoping against hope that she will lift to it and ride. If, on the
other hand, it breaks over her, and she is what is termed "pooped," the
chances are just about a hundred to one that this is the finish. Apart
from sweeping everything before it, smashing up everything that it
doesn't wash overboard, she is filled up, rail and rail, and before she
can shake the water off, the next sea is on her. Fortunately, one is not
held in suspense. About ten minutes has seen the finish of many a good
ship, and the "gone to glory" of every man jack of her crew.

WE got through all right, and after sighting St. Paul's, this time in
safety, turned north for the sea of fragrant smells. Up through the
Indian Ocean and past the Andaman Islands, where the scent of spice
spreads over the sea like a glorified chemist's shop. It's round here
one can realise the origin of the tale of the sea serpent, but in point
of fact, they are conger eels, and abound in this sea, but can be seen
when lying becalmed in a sailing ship. They may not encircle the earth,
but they are quite big enough to encircle a good sized sailing ship--not
that there is any danger of their ever doing that; in fact, such are the
conditions of the menu on board ship, that they would be welcomed.

It was in the Indian Ocean that we got mixed up with my one and only
cyclone. A hair raiser of the first order. There is, as a rule, plenty
of warning when a cyclone is cruising about, and no excuse for anyone to
be caught out. For instance, long before there are visible indications
from the weather, the barometer will give ample notice, as it did in
this case.

Twenty-four hourse later, it commenced to bank up to the south east, a
big rolling sea got more and more confused, for no apparent reason.
Little or no wind, but huge masses of clouds. As the underpart turned a
bilious green and later on, as the edges were torn away, we saw flecks
of lightning, vicious, and threatening.

Long before this, the ship had been snugged down to the shortest
possible canvas; in our case three lower topsails. It is not only the
canvas that is on her, but that which is actually furled, which has to
be taken care of; for the wind when it comes, will rip a sail out of the
gaskets, just as easily as it will blow away a paper bag. All hands must
get aloft, literally marling the sails down to the yards; not a corner
the size of a pocket handkerchief must be left for the wind to get hold
of. Once a full cyclone has struck, no man can even hold on to the
rigging, much less secure any sails that are started out of their

We were lucky. We lost a couple of staysails, and a couple of flying
kites ripped out of their gaskets, and one lower topsail blown clean out
of the bolt ropes. This went with a report like a six-inch gun.

This would not have happened, only through some miscalculation we let
the centre pass over us.

A cyclone, as is well known, is a revolving circular storm with the
centre a flat calm. It was proverbial in the old days, and before the
tonnage of ships reached four figures--that no ship could pass through
the centre of a cyclone and live. The seas simply pounded over from all
sides, filling her up rail and rail, so that she was literally swamped.
With the high bulwarks and big washports, we proved that it is possible
to pass through; and in the circumstances with not a great amount of
damage. Apart from what happened to the ship, there were three broken
ribs and a broken arm, to add to our total casualties. This happened
whilst the centre was passing over. At all costs we had to get the yards
round on the other tack to meet the change of wind, and in order to save
ourselves and the ship, this had to be done during the time we were
actually in the terrific maelstrom in the centre, with the seas leaping
straight up in the air and thundering on board from all sides.

However, we managed it, and the yards were hauled round before the wind
struck us again, instantly and with full force, in diametrically the
opposite direction from which it had been before. It was at that moment
that the mizzen topsail, with a cannon-like report, went sailing away
out of the bolt ropes. Having drawn clear of the cyclone, and the wind
settled down to an honest gale, all hands were set about clearing up the
wreck. Even yet, occasional seas came thundering on board, and a man
caught unawares is quickly apt to lose the number of his mess--in other
words, be washed overboard. Hundreds and hundreds of fathoms of rope to
be hauled in through the wash deck ports and scuppers, disentangled from
round spars; ripped sails to unbend, and fresh ones to be sent aloft.
Everybody on deck and not a thought of sleep or rest; hot food, of
course, is out of the question. A cyclone always seems a treacherous
sort of beast compared with a good straightforward blow, that one gets
with mountainous but regular seas, off Cape Horn, or running one's
Easting Down, or even in the Western Ocean, where it can be notoriously
spiteful and vicious.



A form of sport that always finds favour in a sailing ship, is carrying
on the eternal warfare with the sailor's hereditary enemy, old John
Shark. The ideal condition is a calm day, with the ship riding on a sea,
probably like glass; just a lazy motion, sufficient to send the sails
slatting gently backwards and forwards up against the mast. Even from
the deck, in these circumstances, the slightest ripple on the surface of
the water is clearly visible and, to the man aloft, the sea an open page
for many miles round. The result is that when John Shark slips his fin
above the water, he is spotted at once.

Directly that sinister black triangle, is seen cutting through the clear
water, then, immediately one hears the cry from some sharp eyed boy
around the cross trees, "Shark on the weather beam" or "shark ahead" as
the case may be.

In the discipline of a sailing ship--which is as strict as that of a
man-o'-war--no other word or indication is permitted; but this cry
conveys all the information required to the watch below, which is all
that is intended. A couple of hands will tumble out with their shark
hook and line, harpoon and grains.

Personally, I never favour the recognised shark hook, a massive great
thing, with a lump of chain attached; in fact, in all my time at sea,
although I have caught scores of sharks, I never caught one with the
recognized shark hook.

What I much preferred was a dolphin hook, three-sixteenth metal and
three inches between barb and shank. The whole of this you can almost
hold in the palm of your hand.

About three feet of stranded wire, seized on to the shank, and a great
hank of boat lacing, or codline, as it is sometimes called--not a great
deal thicker than heavy brown string, was my full equipment.

The hook, buried in a nice chunk of fat white pork about the size of
one's fist, trailed out astern, made a most attractive bait, with no
sign of hook or line. The next thing was to throw out a few scraps of
pork, to draw him and his pilot fish close up towards it.

A shark has very poor sight, but he makes up for it with instinct, which
on occasions, I have seen used with terrible exactitude. His pilot fish,
a bit bigger than a mackerel, and striped like a zebra will go up and
nose round, but for some reason, will never touch the bait. It is not
certain what, if any, message they convey to the shark, but the fact
remains, if they do not approve of the morsel, the shark will hardly
ever touch it. It is by no means every shark that is accompanied by
pilot fish. In any case, he will snap up the odd outlying bits, and head
up for the bigger lump, which he takes in his stride.

A shark's mouth is right underneath, but that does not compel him to
turn on his back to everything. More often than not, he will just slide
his nose over it, or, at the most, turn on his side. God knows, they can
do enough damage without turning over, and I have seen a man's leg go,
like snapping a carrot; the whole thing done with such horrible
quickness, the man hardly knew it was gone. This seems barely
conceivable, but it must be realised that a shark's tooth is sharper
than an ordinary razor, and has a cutting surface that can only be
believed when experimented with. The edges consist of extremely fine
serrations, which easily wear down, but though the shark wears out one
set of teeth, that in no way bothers him, for he quickly grows another
row, and you can catch them with three, five, and even seven or more
rows. I have taken one shark tooth between my fingers, and drawn it
firmly and quickly down a STRAND MAGAZINE, and cut clean through seven
pages. This will give some idea of what our friend can do, when backed
up by the enormous muscles, attached to his tremendously powerful jaws.

However, to go back to the catching of our old enemy. Having gathered up
the outlying bits, if you have not aroused his suspicions, he will come
along and quickly take the baited hook in his mouth. It is just here,
that fisherman versus shark is put to the test. If you let him swallow
the bait, he will snap your wire; if you only let him get the bait
between his lips, and hold it there, as he often will, when you strike
you will either pull the bait out, or your hook will go through the
flesh, which easily tears away.

You must let him get it down to the corner of his mouth, where it hooks
into the gristly portion of the muscles at the joint of his jaws, and
then you have got him for a certainty. At the first jerk he commences to
dive, but he never goes down far, and you have just got to get that
strain on this small line--regardless of the burns it causes through
running out through your fingers--until you can bring him up again, and
his nose above the water, Having got him there, and the stern of the
ship (from which all shark fishing takes place) not rising and falling
too heavily, it is not a difficult matter then to hold his nose up and
drown him. Most species are not only cowards, but are extraordinarily
easily drowned by lifting and dropping their heads, and so forcing the
water in through their gills.

If you want a downright good tussle, where you are pretty certain to
leave lots of skin on the line, hook a 15 ft. tiger shark. He will give
you all the fun you want. I still carry marks on my hand, left by the
teeth of one of this breed--even after he had been landed on deck, and
his head cut off.

He was the Captain's catch, and to make doubly sure had had a harpoon
driven home; otherwise I don't think we could have possibly got him on
board. He fought like a fiend, and as he came over the tail amidships,
lashing and snapping, his first accomplishment was to take a piece out
of the Captain's arm. Admittedly it was not a very big piece, but it was
sufficient to be uncomfortable for many days to come. He landed on deck
with a crash, and immediately sunk his teeth into a spare topmast, lying
on deck. The carpenter was standing by with his axe; as, the first job,
when you get one of these fighters, is to lop off his tail. After
dancing round for about fifteen minutes, Chips at last managed to get
his tail where he wanted it, and off it came. It was not a difficult
matter then to get him steadied down, and have his head off.

One chap went to turn the head over with his foot, and immediately the
jaws closed on it. Fortunately, his boot was unlaced, and he was able to
kick it off and so save his toes.

One foolish first voyager drew his sheath-knife, and before anyone could
stop him--in an act of joking bravado said, "You!" and attempted to
drive his knife into the shark's body. An ordinary knife will not
penetrate shark skin, so the result was, the blade of the knife stopped,
and his hand continued down, severing all the sinews of the first three
fingers of his hand.

That made two for the hospital, and I made the third, for whilst getting
hold of the head, and standing it on end, I'm hanged if the jaw didn't
snap, and catch my fingers, and it was some time before we could prise
the mouth open and release them.

There is only one safe thing to do when getting one of these warriors on
deck and that is to dislocate his jaws at once--which we had foolishly
omitted to do.

It is no child's play catching sharks, particularly when carried out on
the slippery decks of a ship, but such is the feeling between sailor and
shark that a man will always willingly lose his watch below to terminate
the existence of one of these wretched beasts.

The tales one could tell of the horrors of men falling overboard,
sometimes unthinkingly dangling their legs in the water from a stage,
sometimes taking a chance and going for a swim, when to all intents and
purposes it seems impossible for a shark to be within miles; even on the
beaches, children paddling, have been taken. Incidents of this kind
could be multiplied indefinitely, but it is doubtful if it would make
good reading.

Frequently, these sharks are so ferocious that when hungry they will
fight, and often tear each other to pieces. I have caught them with huge
gashes, and the scars of old wounds, inflicted in one of these furious



Soon after our arrival in Calcutta four of us were "out of our time," or
apprenticeship, and fully qualified, as far as sea service went, to face
the terrors of the examination room for our second mate's certificate.

Through the two or three previous years we were supposed to have swatted
up mathematics, navigation, nautical astronomy, seamanship, Rule of the
Road, and all sorts of stuff that the Board of Trade have concocted to
prove the square-rigged, deep-sea mate. By far and away the majority of
which, once the coveted blue paper that entitles you to the eventual
certificate, has been obtained, is stored away, or forgotten, until the
next examination looms up on the mental horizon.

Calcutta used to have a name for ease in getting through, but when we
faced the music, the new examiner, Captain Jenny, was trying to work off
the "easy" name, and that in no unmeasured manner. In fact, he made a
well-known boast that he would fail three out of every four that came up
for examination, and, in our case, made good his boast. Curiously
enough, although I was the duffer of the party, I was the one to get
through. Although I had no particular objection to mathematics and
navigation, I was certainly no adept, whereas one of our chaps, Austin
by name, who went up with me, used to work the ship's position every
day, and, with the cussedness of fate, he was the first to be chucked
out. No second chances then.

When the head examiner (Jenny) came in looking at some of the papers,
and I heard him say, "Oh, this won't do," I actually laid down my pen,
making sure that I was going to be the next one to close the door from
the outside, but it was Dale that took the count.

However, to make a long story short, Whitney, or Rivetts, as he was
called, weathered the storm that day, but went down the next, leaving me
the sole occupant of the examination room, and no one was filled with
more amazement. Furthermore, I may say, there was some amazement on
board--not all complimentary--when it was found out that _I_, of all
people, had stuck it out and got through.

Officers were scarce in those days, so, with my chest thrown out like a
man, and a real deep sea roll, I went on board a big four master bound
for New York, as a fully fledged Second Mate.

I will pass over the awful blunders I made before I gained any sort of
confidence, and I also will not dwell on the perfectly poisonous time I
experienced that passage. We had a particularly dirty bit of work as a
skipper, and for this reason I am neither going to mention his name nor
the ship's; suffice to say, that the instant she made fast in New York I
hopped ashore and never saw either him or his ship again. As a matter of
fact, she was lost next voyage with all hands, and I'm not surprised for
although an accomplished bully, he was only a "fine weather" sailor.

It was getting on for Christmas, so I wanted to get home, but I also
wanted to see New York, as I had heard so much about it. Fortunately, I
was wise enough to visit a post office first, and send my money, such as
it was, home, keeping just sufficient--as I thought--to see me through.

I got in tow with a chap putting up at the same hotel, who had been
sailing out of New York for many years, and what he didn't know about
the under life there, was not worth knowing.

Of course, all this undertow was well known to the police, likewise, it
was common property that you could buy almost anyone in the force or out
of it, from the highest to the lowest. They used to call the places
"dives," and, believe me, entering one of these night haunts, was a
dive, morally, intellectually, and physically. In one place, the PIÈCE
DE RESISTANCE was a butting match between a goat and a negro. Each was
placed on his own side of a ring, the negro on all fours, facing the
goat (very much like a dog fight is staged) and the goat induced to
attack the Negro. At a word, the billy goat was released, and each
bounded towards the other, to meet in the middle of the ring. The goat
broke his neck, and the Negro fell unconscious to the ground; to the
thunderous cheers and shouts of approval from the onlookers.

Knives, pistols and knuckle dusters were in common use, and applied on
the impulse any moment; or in staged incidents,--which are best left to
the imagination.

I soon got heartily sick of it all.

After the clean breath of the sea, where everything is open and above
board, where men settle their differences in their bare feet, on a white
deck, with a perfectly good pair of fists, all this gouging, twisting,
and bone breaking left me thoroughly disgusted with the so called "high
spots" of New York. Anyway, I soon found myself without money, as I had,
to a certain extent, financed my initiator.

For two days I managed to survive on ten cents, the last of my wealth.

I had friends in New Jersey, who, having heard that I was putting up in
Brooklyn, had sent me a cordial invitation, but I, little fool that I
was, wanted to see the high lights, so made some half-baked excuses,
which let me out. However, I ate humble pie later on, when, having
expended my last two nickels, on two free lunches, I was left completely
broke. Then I just had to write to these friends and ask them for a

Previous to this, I had my marching orders from my hotel, and only saved
the situation there by realising that there were such things as
pawnbrokers. In a few minutes I had deposited a very precious telescope
with "uncle," and with the proceeds I laid in one enormous dinner.

My friends, of course, sent me money at once, but by this time, I was
completely fed up with New York, and everything connected with it, so I
returned the loan, picked up my bag, walked on board the first British
ship that I could see, and, with amazing cheek, asked the Captain to
take me home.

He was certainly amused, and pointed out that in the first place, he was
not a passenger ship, and in the second, I didn't look like a passenger!

I said "No, I wanted to work my passage home in time for Christmas."

He talked to me very kindly, and we had a long yarn about where I had
been, and what I had been doing and I also told him on what ship I had
been Second Mate. He said he knew both the ship and her captain's
reputation, and in the end he got up, said nothing, and walked away,
leaving me standing in the middle of the deck. I thought, "Now, what
does that mean?" and then it dawned on me that it was a clear invitation
to go and bury myself away in some nook or corner until the ship got to
sea. I seized my bag, and made the best time down to the fo'c'sle;
rolled myself up in a corner, shoved the bag up in front of me, and
hoped for the best.

I must have gone to sleep, for the next thing I remembered was a voice
roaring down the hatchway, "All hands on deck."

Joy. Oh Joy! that did NOT include me, and I went to sleep again. Next
thing I heard a voice saying "that chap must have gone ashore. He's left
a lot of stuff here, what are we going to do with it?" I stuck my head
out and replied, "You are not going to do anything with it. You are
going to be very nice and leave it all alone."

"Hullo, young fellow, you'll be in for it now. You'd better go and
report yourself."

Along many decks. Up many ladders. At last I found myself standing
stiffly to attention in front of the Captain who looked very stern and
unsympathetic. "This young man has stowed himself away, sir," said the
Chief Officer. Glowering at me from under his bushy eyebrows, the
Captain barked: "Well, what have you got to say for yourself?"

Not by the flicker of an eyelid did he admit recognition, and, of
course, I played up. Told my little tale of being paid off in New York,
and going broke; my anxiety to get home and so forth. Then, when the
Captain realised that I was going to make no reference to our meeting
and subsequent long yarn of yesterday, I saw a friendly glint appear in
his eye.

Much to the Chief's astonishment, the Captain's tone moderated
noticeably, as he said, in a resigned tone of voice, "Oh well, I suppose
we shall have to take him."

We were bound for Glasgow, and that trip was my fist taste of "Steam."
Frankly, I didn't like it. Good times, good food. Always sure of your
watch below. Yet I loathed the smoke and the smell, and longed for the
towering tiers of bellying canvas, the sound of water rushing past the
scupper holes; in place of the monotonous clank and bang of machinery. I
sadly missed the feel of something living under my feet. This ship
seemed wooden in comparison. Still, I was not going to grumble on that
account. She did me a good turn--a very good turn--and fourteen days
later saw us docked in Glasgow. Without a cent to my name, there was
nothing for it, but to sink my pride and borrow half a crown from my
friendly skipper, and send a telegram home asking for money for my
railway fare. This, after an eighteen months' voyage! Such is life at
sea. Still, I had a few pounds tucked away safely in the Post Office at
home, but with a sailor, money is merely earned to spend, and as long as
one gets a reasonable amount of clean enjoyment out of it, what better
use can it be put to?



Next voyage saw me Third Mate of the last of Greenshield, Cowie and
Company's sailing ships. Another big four masted barque, the KNIGHT OF
ST. MICHAEL. Like so many other firms, they were being forced into

In the early 'nineties, when a sailing ship arrived at her home port, it
was still an event, but with the advent of the steamboats it became
merely an incident.

I still retained a good deal of the square-rigged man's contempt for the
steamboat sailor, though, as it proved, it wasn't going to be long
before I was one myself.

We sailed from England in the March of '93, and plunged into a series of
gales that became notorious, even for that month of evil repute. In
three weeks, no less than eleven sailing ships had gone to their last
account, between the Scillies and Dungeness, and we should have added
one to their number if we had not been a particularly well found ship.
As it was, I blame the three weeks of battling about in the Wesern Ocean
for our later troubles.

We were loaded with an unromantic cargo of coal, and with the
everlasting working of the ship, there had evidently been just
sufficient friction to cause it to heat up, and eventually catch fire.
When we did get wind of what was going on down below, it was only after
we had been thoroughly smashed on deck. Bulwarks stove in, boats nearly
all gone, and a head wind to beat up to the land.

Had we possessed boats to carry us all it would not have been so bad,
but, situated as we were, if she did go up, there wasn't a ghost of a
chance for a quarter of us. Our one remaining boat, the pinnace, would
just about take twelve, with any reasonable degree of safety, and that
only in a smooth sea. Then the rest would have to make out as best they
could on the cumbersome raft we had put together out of spare spars. No
doubt it would float all right, but the question of hanging on to it in
a breeze was a horse of quite a different colour.

Then again the pinnace could not stand by the raft. She must shove off
and try to make the land, and find something that would come out and
search for the raft--and a fine search it would be. No, look at it
anyway you liked, we'd about as much chance of surviving as the sailors'
proverbial snowball in the lower regions.

The next long drawn out couple of weeks gave us lots of time to argue it
out. It was the only subject we could discuss with any degree of
naturalness. We tried singsongs; but what was the use of trying to
forget it, when, instead of joining in the chorus, a fellow would
casually stroll over, and put his hands on the deck above the fire. Of
course, the singing at once petered out, whilst someone would call out,
"Any hotter, Bill?"

"Aye," the casual reply would be, "just a bit."

Did we jump to those braces to trim the yards to each little variation
of the wind? Did we not! And let me say, not only the watch on deck, but
the watch below as well--in fact there was no watch below. Neither was
there much likelihood of rest during the day, or sleep at night, with a
potential volcano immediately underneath one, and level betting that if
you did sleep, the chances were you'd wake to find yourself rising on
the rim, getting a good start heavenward.

During the last few days the boys nearly grew corns through sitting on
the fore sky sail yard looking for the land, whilst the decks grew ever
hotter and hotter. If it had lasted much longer we should have been able
to dispense with the galley fire altogether. Then, one Sunday morning,
bright and fine, a good stiff and steady breeze came away from the S.E.
sending her through the water at a ten knot clip. But, would it hold,
without hauling into another head wind and the consequent tack and tack?

Forty-eight hours more and we should sight the land. Every sail was
tended with a care never even lavished on a prospective cup winner!
Tighten up a halyard here. Another pull on a sheet there, till the most
critical eye was satisfied, and we were getting the very last ounce of
speed out of her.

That Monday evening, just on the edge of twilight, when we had almost
given up all hope of seeing anything that night, came the glad cry,
"Land-o!" and our troubles were nearly over; at least the chances of
being frizzled or starved were. No more need for a look out aloft. If
she could stick it for another few hours, we should be able to make the
shore even with our precious raft.

As the darkness shut down we judged we were close enough in, seeing that
we had no chart of that coast, and the water was shoaling quickly.
Finally, "Stand by, halyards and sheets." Then the welcome order, "Lower
away and clew up," and down went the anchor. Nothing mattered now. We
could nearly swim ashore. Much too cold for sharks. All the same, we
couldn't see a sign of a town though Bahia Blanca was marked on the
chart as being right on the coast. The only chart we had was one of the
South Atlantic, where a spider could spread its legs over a hundred

There was nothing for it but to take the pinnace. Though I tried to
cheer them up by pointing out that if the ship did go up what fun they
could have, running through the surf on the old raft!

At it turned out later, there was a joke on all of us, for just where we
were anchored--if a S.W. gale came up--there was nothing but breakers,
that would have extinguished the fire, the ship, and ourselves included.
However, the S.W. gale held off, and we got ashore through what surf
there was, without smashing up the boat. Having pulled her up high and
dry, the Captain and I went off prospecting.

As a result of beaching her in the surf I had got pretty well soaked, so
I discarded shoes and socks, as the country seemed to consist of
limitless sand and nothing but sand. Not hillocks, or the ordinary
decent sand hills, but sheer precipices of sand with sides like walls.
It made the going rather bad, but we managed to forge ahead till,
eventually, we came across a sharp line of demarcation between sand and
vegetation. "Oh!" we thought, "this was fine. Vegetation, now we'll
strike something soon." We did, or rather I did--prickles! Prickles an
inch long, in fact the first one I trod on felt six inches. I tried
picking my way, but it was no go. I had to sit down and nurse my feet,
picking out the spikes. Then I got the Captain's handkerchief and my own
wrapped round one foot, and a heavy weather cap round the other, and
away we went again. Every now and then in the cussedness of things,
either the cap or the hankies would slip, and I'd do a hurried squat.

So it went on. At any rate, we weren't sitting on our tame volcano! And
that was some blessing. We could see the ship every time we mounted a
precipice. Then we both cheered as we sighted some horses, and made up
our minds there and then that we were going to have a ride until we
found habitation, and chance being shot for horse thieves. Having picked
out a likely couple of nags, the Skipper approached his, whilst I
stalked mine. I don't know what aroused my suspicions; perhaps I had got
to recognize a potential volcano when I saw one. Be that as it may, I
felt quite contented to look over my horse's back from the near side,
and at the Skipper and his mount on my off side. Incidentally, I kept my
hands to myself. He clicked his tongue, and cheerily walked up and put
his hand on its withers, stroked and patted it. That was all right, but
he couldn't see what I saw. Apart from abruptly ceasing his browsing, a
distinctly saucy little look became apparent in that gee gee's eye--a
look I've seen before, and sometimes suffered through not having seen.

"Come on, man," shouted our noble Captain, at the same time planting his
six foot two on the horse's back. That did it--sort of put the match
where it was wanted--and up he went. You might call it a graceful curve;
it didn't look it! And the thud with which he landed on his back fairly
shook the ground. I could not have stopped laughing to save my soul.
When the Captain did get his wind, and could speak, he just grinned and
said, "Let's walk."

About an hour later we walked up to a hut full of about the most
cheerful looking cut-throats you could meet in any Chamber of Horrors.
Fortunately the Skipper was in uniform, and, as the British Consul said
later, it was that, and that alone, which saved us both, and quite
possibly the ship. They got the idea that he was a one time big feller,
and best left alone. Incidentally, he did not improve his chances by
hauling out a handful of sovereigns and giving an old dame, who
evidently shared the hut, a couple. Then the blokes that were going to
pilot him to Bahia Blanca wanted some, and he cheerily gave them a few.
They were so utterly flabbergasted--and I was--that they never thought
of knifing him and taking the lot.

Off he went, on his sixty mile ride to Bahia, whilst I pushed off back
to the boat. I had only to do about ten miles on the back of the hacksaw
they lent me, but that was enough and to spare. I wasn't a bit surprised
to learn later, that, on arriving in Bahia, Captain Dodd fell off in a
dead faint. I should have split up the middle long before.

I was given half a sheep, as a sort of peace token, I suppose. It had
been killed on the spot, and was still bleeding profusely. This I had
slung across in front of me, and accompanied by three most choice
villains, set off on the return journey to the boat.

These horses are evidently born to walk, my old saw-bones seemed so
anyway; though I will say, the way they could take those precipices of
sand, beat creation, and came very near beating me, and would have done,
most likely if I hadn't just leaned back and unhesitatingly seized the
beast by the tail. Let 'em laugh, thought I, it's better than getting
mixed up with bleeding sheep, and both going over his nose. When we
arrived on the beach, what with digging him in the ribs with my bare
heels, and whooping and yelling like a Red Indian, I managed to get up a
gait, something of a cross between a trot and a canter. Whatever the
hybrid motion was, the effect was awful, for every time I came down, he
was sure to be in the act of coming up. This, in conjunction with his
serrated vertebrae did not improve matters. Fortunately I hadn't far to
go to fetch the boat. The combined effect of the fellows lying under her
lee was grand.

The picture, from their standpoint, was me, bare-back on a horse, with
the bleeding remains of the Skipper hung in front, bawling and yelling
for assistance, whilst being viciously pursued by three perfectly
typical cut-throats.

One could hardly blame them for seizing boat hooks and stretchers to
hold off the attack. I think the old pirates astern of me were
registering astonishment too, but their surprise and amusement was, that
anyone should want a horse to run.

Though we could not speak a word of their lingo, they knew we were mad
Englishmen, and that, I suppose, covered everything. We were soon very
good friends. Seeing the way they had been received, and that in any
case there was nothing worth stealing, they eventually returned to their
respective hutments, whilst we tried to find the soft side of the
perishing cold sand, and so spent the night with one man keeping a
bright look out in case out friends of the sombreros should change their

In the morning when we got back to the ship, we found the mate had taken
the bull by the horns, and after rigging all the hoses and buckets
available, had whipped off the hatches, and with improvised smoke
helmets, attacked the fire at its base, and got it out; if not exactly
out, at any rate, sufficiently under control for all hands to get to
work, and dig down night and day, until they had got a trunk way clean
through the lower hold. Also, we hammered up the ends of several lengths
of three inch iron piping, after drilling it full of holes. These we
drove down into the coal in different places, and then tucked the
business end of a fire hose. By the time Captain Dodd arrived with a
steam launch--or as they called it a tug--the fire wasn't worrying us a
bit. It wasn't out, but we'd definitely got it where we wanted.

With the "tug" also came a pilot who gave us the cheery news that if a
S.W. gale had by chance sprung up, the whole area where we'd chosen to
anchor would have become a mass of breakers.

The next order was to "Man the windlass and loose all sail." We didn't
need any hurrying either. The "tug," bless its little heart, took the
tow rope, and promptly got it round her propeller.

Some cheery soul suggested we should hoist her in the davits to clear
it. Meanwhile, instead of towing us, we did the towing, whilst they
cleared the rope, and before that came about we'd fetched the narrow
part of the channel, close hauled. We went about, but before we could
get way on her to go about again, she stuck her nose into the opposite
bank, fortunately mud.

With blessings pouring from aloft, we furled all sail, and in case the
reader has forgotten, I'll say again that she was a four masted barque.

We decided that the function of our little matey, with the smoke and
stink, should in future be confined to just pulling our head round each
time we went about. That seemed a fairly simple proposition, but again
it proved too much.

After getting our nose out of the mud, and once again responding to the
order "set all sail" (which in the ordinary way, comes once a passage,
and that once is quite enough) we stood over to the opposite bank, and,
of course, rammed that. I'll just say we again furled all sail and leave
it at that. Later, we once again "set all sail." We had steam on deck by
now, to the winches and windlass, otherwise the order would have been
futile. The spirit was willing, all right, but there is even a limit
with old shellbacks, though you would not perhaps think it, to watch
them. Anyway, we'd reached that limit, so when she inevitably took the
mud again, and we'd got the canvas stowed once more, we decided she
could stay there, till the tide rose and lifted her off. That would be
in the morning, so we hailed our little chum, and told him to come and
tie up alongside. Whether he didn't like being out all night, or not, I
don't know, but anyway the agent who was on board the little hooker
hailed us, and with a very ultra Oxford accent, imparted the information
that they'd "sprung a leak, and couldn't pump, unless the main engines
were going." (I heard one of our chaps say that he didn't know she had
any, and if those were the main engines probably the auxiliary would be
a foot pump.)

Whether the yarn was rigged on the spur of the moment it is hard to say,
they didn't wait to argue, but hiked off up the river as hard as they
could go. Neither did they show up again, so we remained at anchor as it
was hopeless to attempt to beat up a narrow channel with a ship of that

Later the following day the wind came away light from the S.W. This was
a fair wind, so we up anchor, and under six topsails and foresail picked
our own way with what ought to have been the help of the pilot, but it
wasn't and she soon stuck in the mud again. After that, we decided to
dispense with ALL local help and rely on our own instinct and a couple
of good lead lines, with the result she was soon anchored within some
ten miles of Bahia. That was as far as we dare go, till we could get
hold of a real live tug. Meantime we must do the journey, when required,
in the one remaining boat. I wasn't sorry, as it gave me a real good
excuse for rigging the pinnace up with mast, sails, and false keel, all
complete. I was always crazy on boat sailing, anyway.

One day, coming off with a Mr. Jones, Lloyd's Surveyor, the Skipper
addressed me by name. Lloyds Surveyor pricked up his ears and said,
"What's your name, Lightoller?" I could tell by the easy way it slipped
off his tongue that he'd said it many times before.

Now some ten years previously, a relation of mine, one Charles
Lightoller, had left England (no, not necessarily for the country's
good, though I will admit he was hot stuff) and no track or trace of him
remained. That branch of the family had tried for years to get some
authentic news of whether he was alive or dead; but the United States
had seemingly swallowed him up, when he went in at New York. I asked the
Surveyor whom he had known of that name. Of course, it was Charles, all
right, and not only that but he had died whilst actually a partner with
Jones in that out of the way little spot in the Argentine of South
American (and once again, how small, etc.).

After six days swinging to an anchor, with always an eye on our
slumbering friend down below, giving him an occasional sousing with the
hoses, along came the s.s. TORO from Buenos Ayres. (sic) A full blown
tug, with no doubt about what he could and would do. He just kicked up
his heels, and stretched out that thirteen inch coir hawser of ours,
till it looked like a fishing line. We could now send the sails down,
and did, gladly. Another couple of hours, and we were moored alongside
the one and only wharf the place possessed. A rickety contraption at its
best. As a precaution we dropped a couple of anchors just in case we
should wake up some bright morning and find ourselves bound down river
with wharf attached.

There is over thirty feet of a rise and fall in the tide, at Bahia, and
as we broke the end of out precious teakwood companion ladder the first
night, to say nothing of a couple of mooring ropes, I, as Third Mate,
took on the night watch. The broken gangway was one reason, and another
was that being a pretty fair shot I was able to keep the ship supplied
with game. I wasn't asked how I managed to stay awake night and day, so
long as no more gangways were broken. Most nights after everyone was in
the hay, I piped down on the galley seat. First, I led a line from one
of the wharf piles in through the scupper holes in the ship's side,
through the scupper hole in the galley, and made the loose end fast to a
pile of kids (double handled tin dishes the food is carried in). As the
ship rose to the level of the wharf, so the line tightened up and
eventually landed all the kids with a mighty crash on the deck. As an
additional precaution, I tied the bare end to my foot, so I was pretty
sure to wake up--at least at any rate before I went through the scupper
hole. The noise of the kids was enough to waken the dead, and it always

Then, after slacking up the moorings, and tending the gangway, I was
free again. In this way I scrounged a good few hours' unofficial shut
eye. After breakfast, instead of turning in, I made for the Saldero,
where I was certain of a mount and a dog from one of the Directors--a
Major Dicks. Then, with a gun I had purchased, I hit the trail for the
foot of a low range of hills, where there was heaps of game. Partridges,
also a kind of grouse, and, best of all, a Martinet; about the size of a
Buff Orpington hen, white flesh, and good eating. I was always sure of
enough for at least two good meals for all hands--officers and crew.
This was good luck for everyone, including the skipper, for although he
lived ashore, it eased his hand in providing meat.

Ships' allowances for food in foreign ports those days were notoriously
low. I suppose owners thought all we had to do was to slip ashore and
pick peaches, bananas, and oranges, to our heart's content. I expect
they also thought that wild pigs came to the foot of the gangway, or
perhaps the galley door.

One day I bagged a wild cat, though it should have bagged me by rights!
I'd got tired of the level plain at the foot of the hills, and started
in one day to explore the hills themselves. Mostly pretty sheer cliffs.
Climbing round a particularly awkward bit, I just got footing on a small
plateau, when, at the same time, my long whiskered friend decided to
come out of her lair to see what the row was about. She put her belly to
the ground and waved her wand in an unmistakable manner. It was a case
of who's going to be first; well, I was, by a split second, which I
believe is the shortest measurement of time. She got both barrels as she
rose, and before she could rise again, the contents of a Derringer I
had, by luck, in my pocket. Dicks fixed the skin up for me at the
Saldero, and I think someone in England still has it.

One night before leaving Bahia Blanca, whilst cruising around the shore
with some of the other chaps, I had the distinction of being jailed for
murder. Just how it came about in the first instance, is rather
difficult to say. We were on the pampas or open plain, and I somehow or
other, lost touch with the other chaps; I suppose I must have been
taking a short cut, and I'm afraid my short cuts are rather notorious.
Be that as it may, the fact remains, that I got completely lost, and to
make touch with the others again, as evidently shouting seemed
ineffective, I blew my whistle, the ordinary whistle that every officer
on board ship carries. They answered, and we came together all right.

We were journeying along in the dark, quite cheerfully, when we suddenly
found ourselves surrounded by gendarmes. What THEY said we didn't know
and for what WE were saying they didn't seem to care. They went through
us each individually, and pretty effectively, until they came across my
whistle, gave a slight blow on it, gurgled with what might have been
anger or delight--and about three of them seized me by various portions
of my anatomy and shuffled me off, just as hard as they could go. Our
other fellows naturally thought, "Here, this won't do," when they saw me
vanishing into the dark, and several of the gendarmes soon found
themselves sprawling on the ground. This added to the fun, and also fuel
to the fire, for more gendarmes seemed to spring up out of the ground.
In any case, they were on us like a shot. We got a downright sound
whacking, with the flat of their swords, and I was pushed into a tin
tabernacle they called the jail. It behoved one not to be too violent,
or, judging from appearances, and the way it swayed, the whole thing
would come clattering down.

There were two or three drunks sharing the cell, and I passed an
interesting hour or so until the other chaps routed out the British
Consul, who gave me back my whistle and my freedom. The only fact that I
could sort out from a jumbled up story was that a man that night had
committed a murder, and he had a whistle. Heaven help the whistlers on a
night like that!



It was in Bahia I got promotion, and once again found myself second mate
of a three skysail yarder. It happened through the appointed second mate
going on a terrific binge. He was an awfully good chap, and a splendid
sailor, but a bit wet.

Scores come a cropper the same way, though in the aggregate they consume
less alcohol than their prototype ashore.

The fact is, that through months of enforced abstinence, a sailor
becomes very susceptible to the effects of drink and if he has any
weakness in that way, he is fairly sure to come a cropper in the long

Having discharged part of the cargo and completely extinguished the
fire, we eventually battened down the hatches again towed down river
and, with the remainder of the cargo sailed for Iquiqui (sic) on the
Nitrate Coast.

It was a grand feeling, and one I thoroughly enjoyed, having once again
a big ship with her mountains of towering canvas under my sole charge
during my watch. One never tires of the bright moonlight nights such as
one experiences in the tropics. So bright that it is dangerous to sleep
in the full glare of the moon without shelter of some kind. The
phosphorus in the water is sometimes dazzling as the ship cuts her way;
so bright, in fact that I have actually read a piece of newspaper by the
light of the phosphorus alone, stirred up by the rudder. Of course, by
moonlight such as I speak of, in the tropics, it is quite easy to see to
read; every rope and every rope yarn is picked out like a clear sharp
etching. The truck, although over 200 ft. away, can be seen with
absolute distinctness, waving in lines across a sky literally smothered
in stars. Here and there the deep vast purple between the constellations
is only made the deeper by their particular brightness.

To watch such a star as Sirius setting, is almost like looking through a
kaleidoscope of boyhood memories. It resembles nothing better than a
huge lamp, changing colour second by second through every hue, purple,
crimson, blue, red. But it must be seen to be appreciated, and then only
in the tropics. I've known many an old shell wax poetic over the glories
of one of these tropical nights.

We made our way once again round the Horn and up to Iquiqui, where tier
on tier of ships were loading nitrate for Home and the Continent. The
nitrate is brought off in lighters, loaded with sacks, each weighing
exactly two hundredweight. These are hoisted on board by a dolly-winch
manned by half a dozen men, or, if the ship sports the luxury, a steam
winch. A platform is built down below, and the whole of the ship is
loaded by a single native Chilean, from this platform, which must be
adjusted to this man's height to an inch. These huge sacks, after being
hove up and landed on the platform are placed on this man's back and
dropped by him in tiers in the hold, and once dropped, never touched
again. Of course, nitrate is a terrific weight, and a ship cannot be
anything like filled with it. In fact, both in the lower hold, and
'tween decks, there are just a couple of pyramids. It is terribly hard
on the ship, and causes the sides to buckle in, with the result that all
rigging has to be taken up when loading, and eased out when discharging.
The man's back that carries these sacks is like a piece of leather, and
after handling that dolly-winch for a couple of months, one's hands
become likewise.

One meets every type and description of ship, and of all nationalities,
loading nitrate, and one notorious Yankee hard-case ship, the FREDERICK
K. BILLINGS, lay next to us. They lived like fighting cocks, as far as
food goes, and made our British ships resemble second rate soup
kitchens, but oh! they did have to work for their living. It was a
common rumour that many of her crew had definitely decided they would
not sail in her, but to the ordinary mind, it seemed as though they had
no alternative. The inhospitable bleak cliffs of that nitrate coast
could afford little shelter to a goat, let alone a ship's crew. However,
they solved the problem and in a pretty drastic manner.

On gala nights the custom is to set fire to a 2 cwt. bag of saltpetre on
the beach, and the light from this will illuminate the whole harbour,
the heat generated being simply terrific. Imagine then the FREDERICK K.
BILLINGS when, after making all preparations to take to the boats, one
of the crew dropped a paraffin lamp down the fore hatch. The ensuing
blaze beggars description. In precisely sixteen minutes, that ship was
burnt to the water's edge (decks, masts, yards, sails and rigging) and
had sunk to the bottom; but not before she had burnt every vestige of
paint off that side of the ships immediately adjacent to her, ruined all
their running gear, and reduced them to a piebald wreck. The crew of the
burning ship had just time to leap overboard and swim for it. Most of
them were picked up, and in the ordinary run of things, handed over to
the authorities--a proceeding they considered infinitely preferable to
sailing under their bucko Yankee mates.

This happened in Iquiqui, which also has the distinction of having
produced an island from the sea in one night, and in consequence is
named Iquiqui Island. Unfortunately it rose under a ship at anchor, and
her remains are still visible, and will remain visible for many years to

A little further up the coast, at the Port of Pisagua, the operation was
reversed, and one can now sail in a small boat over the houses of the
old town, which quietly subsided into the sea one night, also as the
result of one of the frequent earthquakes.

Although we had to work like niggers all the week, Sunday, as often as
not would see us away in one of the ship's boats fishing and shooting,
in fact it had to be a busman's holiday for there was little or nothing
else to do, certainly not in the town, and less outside of it. It is a
bleak barren coast all right; where trees don't grow, and the rain never
rains--in fact it is a common saying that a good tropical shower would
do more damage than a fire.

Anyhow, a good boat and a good crew, complete with harpoon, grains and
rifles was more in our line. Bar seals, all was fish that came to our
nets, whether herrings, rock cod, sharks or the occasional sword
fish--and he is a fighter of the first water.

Half a stick of dynamite was the best negotiator for rock cod. Herrings
often come in in shoals so thick that the top layers are pushed
completely out of the water. Then you bale 'em up with a bucket. If they
are running deep, then you send a charge of dynamite well down. If they
are only a couple of fathoms down, a good method is to tie a piece of
stick on to one end of, say three fathoms of twine (and don't forget for
a moment that a fathom is six good feet), then tie the stick of dynamite
on to the other end.

To prepare the charge, you push a hole down the stick of dynamite with a
pencil. Then take a detonator, and insert the end of the fuze. Carefully
nip the sides of the detonator with your teeth, at the same time bearing
in mind that if the detonator does go off it will blow the top of your
head off. Then with the fuze, push the detonator into the dynamite, and
hope for the best. Light the fuze, throw it overboard and stand by, but
don't do like the mate of the THISTLE, stand with your foot on the
twine, or, as in his case, the charge will naturally jerk back on board.
Like a sportsman, he grabbed the dynamite again, despite the spluttering
fuze, and tried another shot, but this time he had got a complete turn
round his ankle, and when he got that clear he was only just able to put
the skylight between him and the charge, before there was a neat hole
blown clean through the deck, and every scrap of crockery and glass in
the pantry underneath was shattered to fragments. What the steward had
to say when he realised that the top of his head might have been just
where the hole appeared, is not printable. When this occurred the
THISTLE was lying in the next tier to us.

So much for herrings

This Sunday in particular, we were after bigger fry, and hooked a
tartar. We'd sailed well clear of what goes by the name of the harbour
(only really there isn't any) when we saw a fin above the water, and at
once jumped to the conclusion that it was our old enemy John Shark.
Everyone laid back to their oars, and we rapidly closed on the fin,
which my subconscious mind already told me, was attached to no shark.

However, it was a fin, and a big one, and that was good enough. As we
drew closer I gave the order "Way enough; lay in the bow oar." The bow
oarsman then took his stand in the eyes of the boat, with the harpoon in
his hand, and the rest laid on their oars. With the way we had on the
boat, she ran close up, and then the bow oarsman let fly making an
excellent shot, burying the harpoon just abaft the fin. We knew
instantly that we had tackled something tough, for although a shark at
times will put up a pretty good fight, it was nothing compared with the
fuss this chap made. Out flew the line and down he went, in fact it was
some time before we could snub up enough and make him tow us. He made
straight out to sea, at the rate of knots. After ten minutes or so he
eased up, and came to the surface. Then we could see it was no shark
indeed, but a fifteen foot swordfish. Carefully hauling on the line we
managed to get a rifle shot in, and away he went for another stretch,
but it was soon evident that the bullet, by luck, had done the trick.

Now a sword fish, in its last throes, has a nasty habit of coming up
right under a boat. We were aware of this, and a couple of us were
peering over the side down into the water. We saw him coming but
couldn't stop him, and he drove his sword right through the bottom of
the boat, actually grazing the back of the stroke oarsman. We were then
in a nice mess, some ten miles away from the ship, and a 15 ft.
swordfish securely attached to the bottom of the boat.

There was nothing for it but to lash mast and oars together, in the form
of a raft, take the plug out of the boat, and let her fill. Then get
over the side and dive down, and make a line fast round his tail. Taking
this line over the raft of mast and oars, we pulled his tail up to the
surface, and at the same time, turned the boat on her side. With the
help of the boat's axe, we hacked the sword short off at the snout,
righted and baled out the boat. Well satisfied with the trophy, for our
trouble, despite the ten mile pull back.

Eventually the great day comes when the cargo is all stowed and the ship
is down to her marks. An age old custom on the Nitrate Coast before
breaking moorings, is to cheer each ship in the harbour. A spokesman is
chosen who usually has a voice like a full-toned foghorn. He faces the
ship hailed and calls "Three cheers for such and such ship." The crew
let go like one man, and the ship cheered must reply, though she may be
the best part of a mile a way, and woe betide her if she does not pick
up her name, and reply in time; for all the ships round about, that have
spotted this lack of attention, join in raising loud groans, and to hear
the weird reverberating echo--particularly noticeable at night time--of
a dozen or more ships' crews groaning, is a thing never to be forgotten.
The ship "groaned" never forgets it either. Once "groaned" it is then
too late for her to answer the cheers of the hailing ship; she has just
to grin and bear it, and to stand the chaff for evermore. It is looked
on as a terrible disgrace, and years afterwards, some of the crew, in
some outlying port of the world will mention the ship they are from, and
somebody will at once say, "Oh yes, you were 'groaned' in Iquiqui, on
such and such a date."

Finished loading, then comes the great affair of breaking moorings, for
here one is moored fore and aft. Each ship in the harbour sends over a
few men, and it is a whole day's job to get up the stern moorings, get
the cable forward, shackled on again and hove in. Every bit of the work
has to be done by hand, and when it is taken into consideration that
every link of the chain, of which there may be fifty or sixty fathoms,
weighs anything up to ten or fourteen pounds, it will be realised that
it is no joy ride. At last it is completed, sail is set, and the ship
quickly slips over the horizon.



As it turned out, this was to be my last voyage in sail, and will always
stand out as being the very worst. The passage out consisted of a series
of gales topped off with a fire. Whilst on the homeward voyage we never
had the skysails in once, except as a matter of form off the Horn; 165
days from Iquiqui to the Lizard (Cornwall). Six weeks in the Doldrums
where it rained so incessantly that we had the oil completely washed off
our oilskins. Five times we crossed the line, to-day a mile or two
north, to-morrow, we had drifted south again; next day further south,
then north again and so on, till we were like jellyfish. Bad weather may
be bad, but too much so-called good weather, is I think, worse.
Particularly when it means, as in the Doldrums, hauling and pulley
hauling the yards round day after day, and night after night, till, as
in our case, the crew got absolutely exhausted. However, all good things
must have an end, as ours did with a flicker of wind from the N.E. Round
came the yards once again and, for the hundredth time, the hope that it
might be the true N.E. Trades, and, this time, it was. Why I say true
Trades is because one often picks up the false N.E. Trades even south of
the Line, and again you'd get the Portuguese trades sometimes 35° and
even 40° north of the Line, which may develop into the true Trades of
the Tropics and good old flying fish weather. As a matter of fact, they
remained only too true, and in consequence, worked us away to the
westward, so that we were well over to the Gulf of Mexico.

On this voyage I caught what I firmly believe to be the first specimen
ever known of a fish with hands and feet. The head winds had forced us
over towards the Gulf until we were well within the region of the
well-known "Gulf Weed" almost identical in appearance with mistletoe.
This weed flows out of the Sargasso Sea, and originated the old tale of
ships which become embedded in acres and acres of this weed, to turn
slowly round and be steadily, but surely, drawn to the centre of the much
feared sea, until at last, with provisions and water all gone, they
become derelicts, continuing their everlasting circling through the
ages. One almost regrets that the steamer has torn that theory all to
pieces, as they crossed and recrossed the dreaded Sargasso Sea with ever
sighting any legendary and seaweedy island.

In point of fact derelict ships never remain stationary either in the
Sargasso or any other sea. There is a continual flow, mainly due to the
currents set up by the revolution of the earth, and the retarding action
of the water. The earth, moving round to the eastwards, tends to leave
the water behind it, and promptly sets up what is called the Equatorial
Current, which has its origin around the Line on the Coast of Africa.
This flows to the westward, increasing in momentum till it strikes the
north coast of South America, and flows north into the Caribbean or
Sargasso Sea, through the Gulf of Mexico, circling round and flowing out
through the Staits of Florida; thus forming the Florida and
Counter-Equatorial Current, and flowing back again to the westward, and
bringing into existence the great Gulf Stream, which strikes the coast
of England, and to which we owe our much maligned climate. A split in
the Gulf Stream takes place off the Coast of Ireland, one part going
south, forming the Reynolds Current--one of the most erratic in the
world. The other branch goes north, making the Arctic Current and coming
to the Coast of Newfoundland in the guise of the Labrador Current,
bringing with it thousands upon thousands of icebergs. In fact, one
theory regarding the formation of the great Banks of Newfoundland, is
that they have been caused by the deposit from icebergs, which were
originally glaciers, and brought with them, through the countless ages
millions of tons of earth. The icebergs, on striking the warm water, are
alleged to melt, and deposit their material at the bottom of the sea.
Whatever the truth, the Banks are certainly very much in evidence, and
form a happy hunting ground for cod, fog and icebergs.

The smaller currents are unfortunately the most erratic, and don't help
matters when trying to make a decent landfall. About the worst culprit
is the Reynolds Current, which flows across the mouth of the English
Channel. A heavy south-westerly gale in the Bay of Biscay will set this
chap running like a mill race in the wrong direction. One of our crack
Atlantic Liners (I won't mention names) coming home from New York;
instead of being well south of the Scillies, found herself north of
these islands, and sighted the Seven Stones Lightship. This, despite the
fact that the Captain was one of the most able and careful navigators on
the North Atlantic. A glance at the map will show what a narrow shave
she had.

Apart from icebergs, another inducement for the sailor to keep his eyes
skinned is derelicts, that have been known to drift about the world for
years, covering thousands of miles. Individually, they are a worse
danger than icebergs. Often they are nothing but waterlogged and
dismasted old Nova Scotia schooners loaded with timber, just floating
awash, and utterly impossible to sink, but able to rip the bottom out of
any unwary liner. It is by no means uncommon for the hull of a dismasted
ship to float, for weeks and even months, with the remains of her crew,
unmanageable, and unnavigable, with limited provisions and no means of
communication. If she has been dismasted anywhere near the Line, she is
fairly sure to find her way into the Great Caribbean Sea, or the Gulf of
Mexico, where she may circle and circle indefinitely. On the other hand
she may, with luck, come out on the Florida Current, but long ere this
happens, only a few pitiful skeletons remain to tell the story.

But to get back to my walking fish.

I had succeeded in collecting a good many specimens from the floating
Gulf Weed when one of the watch below, lying around on the hot decks,
pointed out a fish that I had missed lying hidden under the fluke of the
starboard anchor. I picked it up and popped it in my aquarium, which
consisted of an old five gallon kerosene tin. After a time, the peculiar
action of the fish, caught my eye. It sort of sidled up alongside a
piece of weed, and remained stationary, without moving its fins. My
curiosity was aroused, so I got the cap off the end of a telescope and
filled it with water, and examined the little beggar closely with a
magnifying glass. Sure enough, it had tiny, but fully developed hands
and feet. Actually, the fish was slightly flat, and swam on its edge.
The arms out of each side consisted of a transparent fin-like substance.
This formed the lower part of an arm and ended in a perfect little hand
with five fingers. Little flat legs of a similar nature, but just from
the knees down--folded up underneath the body, when it went to the
bottom of the tin the legs came down and it stood on its feet, or it
would rise alongside a branch of weed, and deliberately grip hold of it
with its hands and hang on.

It dawned on me that this must be a very rare specimen, and I set out to
try and find some methylated spirit or anything else in which to pickle

None to be got. "Try whisky," said one humorist, and I even had the
temerity to suggest to the Captain that he should give me some whisky,
as there was no methylated spirits, but I, with the fish, was consigned
to places even hotter than the Gulf of Mexico. "Fish with hands and
feet," snorted the autocrat of the sea. "Get out of this, or I'll pickle
you." I fled back to my precious fish, to find that some crabs had
solved the difficulty by eating it!

For many years I stood the jeers of all and sundry that listened to this
fish yarn, but I got my own back when, in the usual scare headlines of a
New York paper, they informed the world, that the "First known specimen
of a fish with hands and feet had been discovered and brought home by
the Captain of a steamer." As far as I know the "only specimen" is still
swimming round quite happily in the New York aquarium.

Within a hundred miles of the spot where I got my fish I also saw what
is believed to be the biggest shark in the world.

I had the forenoon trick at the wheel. She was steering easy "By the
wind," just moving through the water.

I momentarily dropped my eyes from watching the weather leech of the
mizzen royal, and glanced over the rail to leeward, and saw, what at
first I took to be a blackfish. Still I knew it couldn't be that from
the fin and the colour, and then it dawned on me it was a shark. But, my
godfathers, what a shark! I let out a yell, "Shark on the lee beam."

The Captain was on the weather side of the poop at the time, and ran
over to leeward and saw it.

There was certainly no shark hook or line in the whole wide world that
would hold this chap, so the Captain dashed into the chart room for a
rifle, and snatching one out of the rack, slipped in a cartridge, came
out on deck and fired. I doubt if the bullet took any effect, but before
he could reload, Tiger Jim had disappeared.

I believe to this day that it was Tiger Jim, a well-known shark that had
been sighted by sailing ships again and again in those waters, and he
never leaves them. He is nearly as well known as Pelorus Jack, the
porpoise (and the only fish individually protected by Government!) that
used to pilot ships through the Cook Straits.

Reports as to Tiger Jim's size vary. Some went up as far as thirty-six
feet but as luck would have it we got a first class opportunity of
measuring him. When I saw him, and recovered from the shock, his tail
was just abreast of the wheel. When the Captain ran across the forward
end of the poop Tiger Jim's nose was just level with the forward
'thwartship rail. In this manner we arrived at a very accurate estimate,
and it came out at exactly thirty-one feet, and he could have taken a
full grown calf at a mouthful!

On our long passage home--165 days from land to land--I came to
seriously consider the advantages and disadvantages of "sail."

If one ever could tear away from the never ending glamour and romance,
the ever close and intimate association with those utterly absorbing,
revelations of the deep sea, then common sense said "steam." But the
soul of any square rigged sailor in the 'nineties revolted at the
prosaic monotony one coupled with a steamboat. Still, anyone with an
inch of foresight, knew well that sail was on the wane. Steam had come
and come to stay.

One might as well make up one's mind to stow away the hard-learned lore
of sailing ship days and let it become just a treasured memory, and turn
to the machinery of modern times.

It was a bitter pill, but I swallowed it with the best grace I could
find and became a "steamboat sailor," so that frequent term of ineffable
contempt, would now apply to me! However, I stuck to my guns and said
good-bye to the good old windjammers that I loved.



I soon found myself third mate of a Western Ocean Packet, bound across
the Pond. No more watching every vagary of the wind, no more luffing up
to a squall and easing her away as she would bear it. Never again to
hear the music of that gurgling hiss, as the water skirls in the scupper
holes. How one was to miss that straining heel as she laid her lee rail
down to the water, with the welcome sound of ropes surging and cracking,
or even the well-known cry as the strain increases, "Stand by the royal

Now, three watches, and when a squall is in the offing, "Quartermaster,
pull the dodger up, please." Nothing to do but keep a sharp look-out.
All the driving done for one by the stokehold gang below. Just the
steady plug and thud of the engines; into one sea, and through the next.
No quick downward flick of the wheel, as she lifts her head to crash
down into the trough, like the way one nursed a sailing ship. I tried it
on a steamer, but it hadn't the slightest effect; the only way with a
steamer is to ease her engines. In fact, one seems wholly dependent on
the engines.

We were bound up the St. Lawrence, and in those days ten knots was
considered quite a good speed. In many places in the St. Lawrence, such
as the Racine Rapids, and even up at Montreal, before the revetment was
built, I have seen the ship doing her ten knots and barely making
headway. Even alongside at Montreal, the engines had to be kept going at
very nearly full speed whilst the ship was made fast, with the result
that owing to the huge head of steam, the moment the engines were
stopped, the safety valves lifted, and the row for the next half an hour
or so was simply deafening.

I soon began to see that steam had its good points--lots of them. Better
time, better food, better pay, and one did not lose touch so completely
with the world.

Had I been of a steady disposition and stayed in Elder Dempsters, where
I started in steam, no doubt I should have got to the top of the tree
very quickly, but for one thing I was not steady, and for another, it
was only the tallest tree that would satisfy me. Time and again I took
to the beach on some hair-brained stunt or other, just wasting time;
spending months shooting or fishing, until funds petered out. Then off
to the sea again, in the first company that would take me. Get through
an examination, and then have another glorious binge--not a boozing
binge--for I've a whole-hearted contempt for the chap who takes more
than he can hold.

It was after one of these little breaks that I found myself in the
African Royal Mail s.s. NIAGARA, bound down the Coast of West Africa,
under that notorious and well-known Captain who glorified in the name of
Bully Waters, a man of such exceeding unpopularity that his life would
not have been worth a minute's purchase in the streets of Liverpool. To
even cross the town he invariably took a cab for safety--and I'll admit
he needed it. He made an open boast that he had killed two men, though
in point of fact, he didn't actually kill them, but, owing to his
perpetual bullying and driving, he was the moral cause of one man
committing suicide, while the other chap just died, and though malaria
went down in the log, that wasn't the real cause.

When one takes into consideration the enervating climate, the terrific
heat, heavy work, unquenchable thirst, and withal a skipper who could
literally wear the sole off a sea boot, it is easy to understand a man
lacking a bit perhaps in courage and strength of character, just
cracking up completely. Bully Waters seemed to have the natural born
ability to taunt and torment men to the limit of their endurance; as a
rule just stopping short of the point were a man loses control. Why no
one ever brained the beast puzzles me.

A double crew is carried on these boats, one part white to work the
ship, the second part of negroes to work the cargo. These latter are
trained to handle the cargo peculiar to the West Coast, both discharging
and loading. Work commences about 5 a.m. and Waters on principle, would
visit every hatch, quarrel, annoy and thoroughly put every officer on
edge, and then, having set everybody by the ears, retire happily to his
cabin, have a drink, and go off to sleep again.

On one of these occasions we were part loaded with about twenty tons of
explosives, mainly gunpowder. This had to be discharged at a place
called Borutu, and it happened to be at my end of the ship, stowed in a
specially built-in magazine. Embarking this cargo at Liverpool, every
possible precaution is taken as a matter of form, such as men wearing
rubber boots, every particle of iron work carefully covered up, and the
kegs handled gingerly from man to man, until they eventually arrive, and
are stowed away in the magazine; whilst, at the masthead, high above
all, the powder flag flies. When we arrived at the port of discharge,
although we did not trouble to cover up the iron, nor adopt rubber
boots, still powder is powder, and has to be treated with a certain
amount of respect. Our "boys" passed it up by hand via wooden stages,
and placed it on the deck, whilst it was taken from overside by a
company of West African Housas (one of the finest fighting races in
Africa). The latter had a stage rigged which brought with them from the
shore to the ship and breast high with our deck. These men are born
scrappers, and it was only by using the utmost tact that peace was kept
between the Sierra Leone boys, belonging to the ship, and the Housas
belonging to the shore. At any time the slightest carelessness on the
part of one of our boys, say dropping a keg on one of a Housa's toes,
would, as likely as not, end up in a free for all tribal fight, which
would take the whole of the white men on board to put a stop to, and
that only after some few had been knocked out.

We were already labouring under these conditions, when Bully Waters must
come along and raise Cain about the slowness with which the explosives
were being discharged. These early morning efforts invariably ended in a
wordy war, for I could cuss just as long and loud as he could--and did.
Work was going on all right, and skipper or no skipper I was not going
to be bullied by him or anyone else. A very effective method I found for
dealing with him was to deliberately stop all work, and give him my
whole attention. Not edifying, it's true, but it used to do the trick,
and did on this occasion. When he had finally retired, Massey, the
fourth officer, and I put our heads together and decided to give him all
he was asking for. So a half ton iron tub was procured from forward, and
every scrap of care just thrown to the wind. The boys were worked up--as
it is always possible to work up any of these West African tribes by
telling off one boy to beat a tom-tom, until they were just dancing in a
frenzy of excitement. The half ton tub was loaded up, by simply hurling
in kegs of powder until it would hold no more; many hitting the lip of
the tub, and bursting scattered powder everywhere. Up went the tub, off
with the catch, crash came the whole half ton of powder kegs on deck, to
be simply torn away in bulk, and almost thrown at the Housas who were
waiting overside. These Housa boys also soon got wound up to the dancing
stage of excitement. Powder above, powder below, powder everywhere. It
was not long before everybody connected with the ship found a reasonable
excuse to park themselves on shore, as far away from the ship as they
could get.

A certain amount of zest was added, by the fact that the s.s. MATADE'S
bows were even then visible in the Bush, as a result of discharging a
similar cargo in the same place, when, even though infinite care was
taken, luck was against them, and up she went.

I got a certain amount of cussed contentment out of the knowledge that
even Bully Waters dare not come to my end of the ship and show the white
feather by calling a halt, not, on the other hand, dare he funk, and go
on shore. However, she did not blow up, and he gave me a rest after
that, so it was worth it.

I did one more voyage with him, and was not so lucky. Due to his
everlasting bully-ragging I succeeded in drowning three boys and a
quarter-master, and incidentally nearly drowning myself.



We had arrived off Grand Bassam to take in mahogany logs, but it
happened to be a "surf day," and as a result there was no communication
between ship and shore, and no logs could be floated off to the ship for
loading. The question to be settled was, should we stay in hopes of the
weather moderating, or should we push on homeward.

Waters gave the Chief orders to go in with the surf boat, and get in
touch with the shore and find out if they proposed to ship off any logs.
This the Chief proceeded to do; anchoring and trying to signal to the
shore when he was as close to the surf as he could get, with any degree
of safety. Grand Bassam is open to the full force of an Atlantic swell,
and if there is, or has been, a good westerly gale within a few hundred
miles, the sea banks up, with the shoaling water, curling over as it
rushes in, to finally crash down the beach throwing up sheer volcanoes
of surf. To be caught in one of these mountainous breakers, even a surf
boat (double ended like a lifeboat) is almost sure to be fatal, unless
every member of that surf boat's crew is trained to the last hair, and
even then, the chances are odds on being capsized. Our boys were quite
good in the surf boat, but not by a long shot equal to tackling anything like
the sea running that day. Waters sent for me and asked "Why the hell
can't the Chief get in touch with the beach? He's too far out." As a
matter of fact, from where we were it did seem as if he might get closer
in. I replied that "although he seemed well clear of the breakers, it
was impossible to form an opinion unless one were to take a boat and see
for oneself." He gallingly sneered, "I don't know what the blazes you
fellows are afraid of," This jeer was calculated to a nicety, knowing
full well that it held just the right sting to make me carry out any
crazy attempt to make touch with the shore. Naturally my reply was
pointed and pungent. "All right," said he, with biting contempt, "take
the gig and let's see what YOU can do."

Like a fool I took the gig, a boat with a square stern, the very worst
type of boat for the work in hand; called away a crew, and off we went,
in full view of the first and second class passengers, many of whom were
witnesses both to the "dare" and the disastrous results. They gave their
opinions in no measured terms a little later on, for it all happened
within a mile or so of the ship. The Captain's last instructions were
"take a lead line, sound in, and see how far I can bring the ship." This
called for a Quartermaster.

We sounded in as far as was necessary, and then coiled the lead line
down in the stern sheets, and went on to make touch with the Chief. When
we got alongside of him, we found he was riding right on the edge of the
breakers, one instant shooting skyward on the lip of a sea, and the
next, dropping like a stone into the trough. He certainly couldn't get
in any closer. I said I would pull a little way of the coast and see if
I could make contact further along.

Nursing the gig up to the seas, I worked her along the coast line. One
minute we were pulling like mad up the face of a curler, and the next
buried away down out of sight of everything in the trough, and, all the
time, right on the edge of the breakers. Every wave had an ugly lip to
it, and threatened to smash down on us.

With the Quartermaster I tried to signal the shore. This was no easy
matter whilst at the same time keeping just out of the clutches of the
breaking seas. Every now and then, we had to pull her head sharply
round, and work her over a comber that had just reached breaking point.

What exactly happened in the next few moments I don't know. Either my
attention was drawn too much to the beach, or one sea, out of pure
cussedness, determined to break further out than the others, but turning
my head seaward, I was just in time to look up at a gigantic comber on
the point of crashing down right on top of us. It was literally over us,
and I could see the pale sickly green light of the sun filtering through
the overhanging water, some fifteen feet above us.

I gave the order sharply to "pull port, back starboard," but although I
got her head up to the sea, before I could get way on her, the sea
broke, right square into the boat; filled us up, and drove us right down
to the bottom under the weight of tons of water. I felt the heel of the
boat actually hit the sand, and, marvellous to relate, we all came to
the surface with the boat, and sitting in our places.

Even then, I believe I could have got through, if I had had a white
crew, or if these negro boat boys, although born and brought up to the
surf, had not lost their heads. They looked round, and, seeing the next
big curler just preparing to break, they cowered over their oars in
funk, instead of pulling to meet it as it rushed at us. This time, the
boat was rolled over and over, and I went to the bottom with the
infernal lead line would round my feet.

I had not noticed that I had been sitting with my feet in the middle of
the coil.

After disentangling this mess under water, I came up to find the boat
bottom up, and a man's hands flapping helplessly above the water, close
by. That was the Quartermaster, and he was drowning. There was no time
for any recognized life saving methods, I grabbed him by the back of the
wrist, gave him a sharp jerk towards the keel of the boat and put his
hand on the keel before he had time to grab me. Instinctively, he pulled
himself up on to the boat, only to be washed off a moment later by the
next sea. I got him up AGAIN, but it was no use, there was nothing in
the smooth planking of the boat for him to hang on to. By the third
time, I was getting done up myself, so I took some of the gratings and
oars that were floating about, and shoved them under his arms. That was
the last we ever saw of him.

To make matters worse for myself, I was wearing a very thin blue serge
uniform; although anything but white ducks is almost unheard of as
wearing apparel in this climate, yet for some unknown reason that
morning I had donned this wretched thing.

When I made up my mind to swim for the shore I discarded the coat and
released a spring belt I was wearing to rid myself of my pants, but only
added to my difficulties through my pants jamming round my ankles.

With a thundering crash would come the sea and down I would go,
literally rolling over and over in the sand on the bottom, coming up
with my lungs bursting. Barely on the surface with hardly time to catch
a breath, then down again.

This was drowning

One hears about the panorama of one's past life passing in sort of a
mental review during those memorable moments.

Nothing of the kind. I was worried because I had always told my chum
sister that I would NEVER be drowned.

She fussed a lot over me at times, so I used to say to her:

"Don't you bother, the sea is not wet enough to drown me. I'll never be
drowned," and that was on my mind and making me feel really mad. I kept
saying to myself, "Here am I, after what I've said, being drowned after

The pounding I was getting must have knocked me stupid, or I would never
have let it go on. I came to the surface on one such occasion, to see a
sea already bearing down on me, just curling over and falling and here
was I sort of crouching away, hating the damn thing; when it suddenly
dawned on me, "swim into it, you fool." This, of course, is the only way
to get the better of a surf; get on its back; whatever you do don't get
under. A couple of strokes, and I drove right straight into the hollow
under the crest that was already falling. Almost immediately I was
whipped up on the back of the breaker and carried at race-horse speed
for the shore. In riding a surf, all one need do is to keep in a certain
position on its back; the knowledge of this particular spot can only be
gained through surf riding experience--which fortunately I had had at
odd times in different parts of the world.

I was swept up on the beach, but it was far too steep to get a foothold,
and in consequence I was carried back with the next backwash out into
the surf again. Rolled over a few times, then up on the crest of the
next; a lightning sweep to the shore, crash on the beach, and back once
again with the undertow.

This had gone on just about long enough when I saw some negroes running
along the sore joining hands with the evident intention of forming a
human chain into the breakers, and I remembered no more. When I regained
consciousness, I was trying to disentangle my pants from my feet, and
drag the former up to respectability round my waist. As there was no one
to be seen, I got rid of some of the sea and headed for the nearest
habitation, which happened to be one of Swanzi's Factories.

The negroes had gone to the French Authorities post haste, to inform
them of the defunct. They will not touch a dead white body and would not
have pulled me out only they had seen that I was still alive.

I was now supposed to be dead, and the French authorities came down to
view the corpse, but by this time the corpse was in the said Swanzi's
Factory absorbing whisky.

Three boys and a Quartermaster were drowned, and Bully Waters learned
the lesson of his life--and earned a dandy dressing down when he got

Never again did he dare an officer, just to serve his own purpose, and I
gained the unsolicited honour of being the only white man to have swum
through the surf at Grand Bassam.

I might say the Chief's difficulties were by no means imaginary. Under
such conditions, even a trained crew could hardly have made the beach,
and certainly not without the help of a surf man on shore. For one
thing, the psychological moment for running on the back of the breaker
can never be detected from the sea. There is a man on shore who has
probably done nothing else all his life but signal the surf boats when
to "run." He has a long bamboo staff in his hand, on the end of which is
a flag which he keeps at the "dip" until he sees the opportunity.
Meantime the surf boat, with or without a cargo, has approached the edge
of the breakers, and there it stays, alternately shooting in the air and
dropping into the trough.

Four surf boys aside, each with his paddle poised ready for the signal.
The big toe of his right or left foot, according to which side he is on
tucked into a rope becket, The coxswain holds her stern steady onto the
seas, as they come rolling along; with the boys quietly back paddling to
keep her in position.

This may go on for ten, twenty minutes, or even half an hour, until at
last the man on shore sees the chance. Up goes his staff and he races
backwards and forwards along the beach waving his flag, for it must be
remembered that the boat may be anything up to half a mile off shore.
Instantly they see the flag, placing complete reliance in this man's
judgment, they dig in their paddles and drive like fury for the beach,
shouting with all their native excitement at the top of their voices. If
the man ashore has judged aright, and he rarely makes a mistake, the
boat is picked up on the back of a huge comber and rushed for the beach
at simply race-horse speed. They must just keep on the forward edge of
the crest, but not too far ahead or the stern will kick up, the nose go
down, and the boat will be flung end over end. Not too far back, or the
drag will get them, and holding them back at the mercy of the next
breaker to come crashing down into the boat when the chances are that no
one will get ashore.

There are many days after a westerly gale that it is impossible to get
any boat whatever to and from the beach. This had unluckily happened to
be one of them. All the way home. Bully Waters was a sadder, wiser, and
quieter man. It was peace, perfect peace. Nevertheless, I, for one, had
had enough of Bully Waters.

Another thing that helped me make my decision was the fact that on the
passage home I had a whole-time does of malaria. This in itself was not
so bad, but unfortunately we had a doctor--thorough good scout--who said
he believed in allowing patients any amount of latitude to follow their
own inclinations. Whether it was because I made a particularly bad
patient, I don't know, but the fact remains that he allowed me to have
iced drinks, lie in my pyjamas, and have my boy fan me; take cold
baths--in fact, do everything I ought not to have done. The ultimate
result of this was my temperature soared to 106.2°. Down the coast, 105°
is usually fatal, and on this day in particular, one of the crew passed
out at 105°.

I was lying under a punkah, and some of the chaps kept coming down; in
fact nearly all the officers, on one pretest or another, came along to
say a few words, and sort of give me a pat on the shoulder and say,
"Cheerio old boy." I little thought it was the long cheerio they were
wishing me, as, in their opinion, I could not last the night. However,
later on, that same night, to their surprise, I showed a slight
improvement, and, and some of them put their heads together and decided
to take the law in their own hands and see if they could not induce a
sweat. Forthwith three or four of them, armed themselves with hot
bottles and hot blankets, in which they rolled me like a mummy, using
sheer brute force, with the result that they broke the fever on the
spot, and I eventually recovered. But it had given me the shaking up
that was necessary to make up my mind to give up the West Coast with all
its attractions--and they are many.



What put the Canadian North-West into my head was the fact, that on a
previous voyage homeward bound, amongst the passengers we had two
splendid fellows named Matchett and Green, who had been prospecting up
the interior, from the West Coast of Africa. We became great friends,
and first of all they tried to persuade me to chuck the sea, and go out
again to Africa with them, which I would have done, except for the
rotten malaria and blackwater fevers. "Well, then, would I go out gold
prospecting with them to Australia?" This did not appeal to me either,
as there's no room for any but experts. Placer mining was finished in
Australia and anyway I knew nothing about either placer or quartz.

Ultimately we compromised by deciding to go treasure hunting on St.
Paul's--that had a tremendous pull, but although we actually got to the
very point of buying a little brig, which we were to turn into a
schooner, the scheme, to the sorrow of us all, fell through.

Finally, we agreed to meet the next spring twelvemonth, in Vancouver
B.C., and push up into what was then the Great Unknown, and we left it
at that.

Up to this time Klondyke had not been heard of, but both Green and
Matchett, with the true miner's instinct, were determined that the
British North-West was the coming country for the gold prospector.

At home one day, some weeks after leaving the NIAGARA, Bully Waters and
malaria, I happened on an advertisement of cheap fares to Vancouver.
Here, I thought was the very chance, to get out there twelve months
ahead of Dick and Matchett, and learn a bit about gold prospecting.
Furthermore I should then be able to pull my weight with the others.
Five minutes earlier I had no idea of going, but just on the impulse of
the moment, I said to myself "I'm off."

Putting the paper down, I strolled out of the room and with a touch of
the dramatic, informed my people that I was going out to the Klondyke.
(The rush by this time had started)

Opinions were somewhat varied, but only to the extent of what particular
degree of fool I was! However I was sufficiently pig-headed and self
confident to ignore the opinions of people, who certainly knew what was
good for me far better than I knew myself--at least, so it has sometimes
appeared in the light of later days. But on the whole I have never
regretted the decision that took me out to the Canadian North-West, nor
one single experience with which the days were filled. I certainly did
not make a fortune; in fact, not only made nothing but lost all I had.
But I had a grand time.

The idea had been to go out and work on the Cariboo Mines, learning what
gold was, in order that I might meet Matchett and Green the following
spring, and be able to do my bit along with the experts. Man proposes,
but the facts of that hard bitten country disposed and bust up all my
well laid plans.

In the first place, work on the Cariboo Mines was shut out with
Chinamen. This upset my calculations from the start, and, as often
happens, the king pin removed, all the rest went wrong. So we had to
look for some other hunting ground.

As one got deeper and deeper into the country one learnt that the
reports which had been blazoned forth in England, had that element of
truth which made them worse than a pack of lies. The object was to get
men into the country. They got them in their thousands, and hundreds of
thousands, and there they were, left stranded, to settle or find their
way out as best they could.

With a kindred spirit (also of the sea), with whom I had made friends on
the way out to Canada, we made up our minds to stay east of the
mountains and work north to the Slave Lakes. But we were to discover
that the bubble of this district had also been burst. One place after
another we heard of "finds," only to learn later that they were purely a
figment of the imagination, a mirage, that promptly faded on closer
approach. We were not going to be beaten on that account however, and
since all places we heard of as likely from a prospector's point of view
became no good, and not worth while, we decided to make for rail head
which at that time was Edmonton, and to strike a trail of our own,
west-north-west, for the mountains, and then north.

All we lacked was someone with some sense and some knowledge of the
North-West. We were to find that out later when experience should have
at last overcome our abyssmal (sic) ignorance of the "Trail."

Gold we found in plenty, but never in paying quantities. It is all float
gold east of the mountains, and this we learned through bitter

The generally accepted theory is that the range of the Rocky Mountains
rose, throwing the sea back on either side. On the west, into its native
ocean, but on the east it was trapped by the land, and results in
endless muskegs, swamps and lakes, which infest that part of Canada. We
lived in a state of moisture and the only wonder is that we didn't grow
webs to our toes.

Time and again we thought we had struck rich, only to find, on applying
the test, that it was worthless. Right down on the banks of the
Saskatchewan, in Edmonton, a man could "wash" a dollar and a half a day.
The further north, and the richer it gets, but the more the cost of
transport. Up on the MacCleod, Athabaska, and Smoky River it pans out at
times, almost all a man's heart could desire, but owing to the
configuration of the country, it invariably peters out, and pay dirt in
any reasonable quantity is never forthcoming.

We, of course, were just tenderfeet, my chum and myself and two others,
but as Matchett and Green used to tell me, "having been a sailor the
trail will never worry you" and they were right. We remained in camp in
Edmonton with a temperature anything down to 40° below Zero, or 72°
below freezing point, whilst we gathered together an outfit of stores
and horses. Many a chuckle I had over the thought "if only some of my
shipmates saw me now."

Soon we had things licked into shape--or what we considered shape, and
launched ourselves out into that wild Nor'-West mid winter, rivers still
frozen and bearing. We struck away with lots of confidence and little
sense over muskegs and jamb piles; no tenderfeet us! we would cut our
own way. The only wonder is that we did not break our horses' legs, and
our own necks before we had gone a score of miles. Horses up to their
bellies in snow, stumbling over fallen trees, making a bare mile an
hour. This went on for three days until by sheer accident, we stumbled
on a perfectly good road, which had been running parallel with us, all
the way to Prince Albert, and along which we might have comfortably
journeyed had we not been so pig-headed in our determination to make our
own trail and not admit our ignorance.

The party, as I have said, consisted of four, my chum and myself, and
two fellows from the Black Hills. My chum was also a sailor, and by this
time we had come to the conclusion that as far as wood-craft in the
Canadian North-West went, our feet were very tender indeed. Not so the
two other chaps, who, like so many others from the great U.S.A., were
never willing to admit their limitations; in fact, a frequent expression
of these two otherwide splendid fellows was "We're from the Black Hills;
we ain't no dog gone tenderfeet." That might have been quite true, but
it is a solid fact, which were very soon to find out, that their
experience did not run on all fours with their self-confidence; in fact,
it was amusing at times to see how quickly their views changed, and with
child-like simplicity they would say "what in hell do we do now?" If it
is a river, they were perfectly frank that they had not the first idea
how to get across, but even in the depths of our first three days' trek,
when we became tied up between two chains of lakes, it was really
comical at times to see how jumpy these two would be "old timers" from
the Black Hills, became.

On one occasion we were startled by a steady thump or beat; with the
closest resemblance imaginable to a pit-head pump, a sort of steady
thud, thud, thud, and then a pause, like the usual gas engine. Our Black
Hills companions were the first to give voice to the general uneasiness
by an abrupt enquiry, "Say, bo, what in hell's that?"

As a matter of fact, I had heard it for some time and was turning over
in my mind the possibility of a pit engine or quartz stamp with the
limits of hearing. At the same time one had to take into consideration
the way in which sound carries in the vast trackless regions of the

One speaks, rather loosely, of "perfect silence." The Canadian
Nor'-West, in winter, is one of the few places where one can experience
it; where the snap of a bough, bursting through frost, a common enough
occurrence in a temperature 40 degrees below, echoes like a pistol shot,
and carries for three or four miles. It is easy to be deceived both as
regards sound and sight, where the silence is so absolute and visibility
so perfect.

Days went on, and at odd times we could hear this mysterious thudding.
One day, after it had been particularly noticeable, our Black Hills pals
suggested a night watch, in view of the possibility of Indians. (I
firmly believe they thought it was Indians signaling.) My chum and I
were quite in agreement with them as to the possibility, in view of the
number of tepee poles, and evidence of wigwams we came across. At the
same time, Bill and I were quite resigned to the fact that we were
tenderfeet and would, therefore, stand little chance of anticipating the
approach of Indians, whether asleep or awake. All the questionable joys
of standing a night watch, after a day's work, were only too familiar to
both of us, and frankly, we preferred to take the chance and have the
blankets. On this point at least, Bill was luridly emphatic, so that
ended all talk of keeping watch. Our Black Hills boys were none too
pleased, but since Bill told them they could keep the first two watches,
and give us a call if they liked, and then turn in. "Yes, but are you
going to turn out?" they asked. Bill replied, in the most convincing
language that we were not.

The thudding was still going on at intervals, and we were certainly very
mystified by it; until one day, whilst leading the trail, I suddenly
heard the sound quite close on my left. Throwing an arm up for the whole
pack train to stop, I dropped the lariat to the ground, which would stop
the leader in his tracks, then throwing my rifle from my shoulder, where
one carries it at all times by the sling, I dropped on my stomach, and
commenced to worm my way towards the sound. When the sound stopped I
stopped; when it went on I went on, until after scuffling along for
twenty or thirty yards, I poked my head into an open glade and peered
around. There I stayed for some little time, every now and then hearing
the drumming. Then suddenly I saw the cause of all our uneasiness.
Sitting on a fallen tree was an old cock partridge drumming with his
wings, calling to his mate! We put the cause of all our anxious hours
into the pot, and cooked him for the next meal.

That sound must at times have carried for miles with absolute
distinctness. After that, any circumstances we could not explain was
always classified as "another partridge," for the benefit of our U.S.A.
boys. They certainly never suggested another night watch.

The natural difficulties of the country come under the headings of
muskegs, jamb-piles and rivers. The former are just swamps without
bottom. You have your pack train plodding steadily along, the ground
commences to get moist, then damp, then wet, and finally soft. The
horses, commence to pick their way from tuft to tuft, at last one slips,
and down he goes, right up to the belly in pure swamp. This means timber
has to be cut, and laid alongside of him, whilst a couple of chaps sit
astride the logs, unload the 250 lb. pack from the saddle and pass it
back piecemeal to the dry land. Having done this, one fore leg is pulled
out of the mire and rested on a log, then the other fore leg ditto. Next
his tail is seized, and then, with a terrific yell, and altogether, with
a sucking squelch, he comes out. (That is, if the horse does his part,
otherwise you try again.) This operation a dozen times a day, wet
through and covered with mud, is included in the joys of gold
prospecting in the north-west.

Then rivers. Such rivers! When they do break in Spring, it's a sight to
be remembered. Crossing them is easy enough up to this point, but after
they break, then apart from the cold, one has to contend with literal
icebergs tearing down out of the mountains with a torrent of melted
snow, grinding and crashing together with thousands of tons of pressure
behind them. Of course, you've got to realise that after the rivers
break the crossing in the first instance had to be made with a horse,
and by sheer good hard swimming. At the same time a line must be taken,
and the drag from it always feels like a ton weight in the water; with a
river only just broken this is of course quite impossible.

First you must travel up stream, until a suitable spot is found for
taking off, and, what is more important still, a suitable spot is
located lower down on the opposite, when a landing can be made. If you
don't make your landing, it's a thousand to one you cannot get back

A rope long enough to reach at least twice across is coiled down clear
on the bank, and on no account must that rope be checked as it runs out,
otherwise you immediately check the swimmer. The first river we came to
was the Pembinaw, and I had made three shots before I found the bright
Alecs on the bank (again our Western States men) thought the rope was
running out too quickly and in consequence were checking it under their

As a matter of fact there were rapids just below us and unless I was
well over in the first hundred yards I had perforce to let go the end of
the rope altogether and get back as quickly as possible in order to
avoid being swept into the rapids. Eventually, I found out where the
trouble lay and on the fourth attempt succeeded.

In water of this temperature a suit of underclothes and a belt does not
offer much protection. I really don't know why one always wears a suit
of underclothes; it must be that the thick wool helps when one comes out
of the water; however it seems the usual practice up there to wear a
suit of wool underclothes.

 Having once got the line across all is plain sailing. A few
well-seasoned logs are pinned together with green willow pegs to make a
raft, which is towed back and forth.



One river we struck as we got up to the mountains seemed the father of
all rivers, the Athabaska, broken up into rapids and nearly three miles
across. We arrived on the banks one evening, and set out to get over as
it is always better to have dry clothes and the river behind you in the
morning. We forded a considerable distance and arrived on an island in
the middle, where, in the end, we had to camp for the night. Next
morning we set out to find a ford. There wasn't one, and, what was of
added interest, we found that the river was rising.

A couple of days before, we had chummed up with another party of three
heading the same way, so we joined forces in the hope that many heads
might help. I can't say they they did, but fortunately for all of us,
the assurances we had received from old timers that sailors take
naturally to the trail, proved quite true and of inestimable value,
though parked in the middle of the Athabaska, with a rising river in
front and behind us, it did not seem as if all our sailoring experience
was going to help much; and it didn't, despite seven attempts to find a
ford. There seemed nothing for it but to take the bull by the horns, get
on a horse, get into the water, and hope for the best.

The opposite bank, another island, was only a matter of a hundred yards,
but the sides were sheer with the exception of two places where the
banks had broken away. There seemed practically no hope of fetching the
break higher up the river, but the lower one was just possible. So I
determined, that night, that unless the river went down I was going to
have a shot at it, particularly as there was every unpleasant indication
that the river frequently submerged the whole island. Bill would go
anywhere where anyone else would lead. He certainly had no fear, and he
was the only one of the party who would face water. His horse was none
too good though, just a bundle of nerves; whereas mine, that I had
chosen out of a corral of fifty or sixty, could and would do anything
but talk. This was to be the one and only occasion on which I ever saw
him baulk at water, and that night, when I tried to get him to face this
flood--which was nothing but white water, coming tearing and foaming
down out of the mountains--he certainly didn't like it. In fact it is no
exaggeration to say he just hated it. Bill WOULD come, but unfortunately
he had never ridden a horse in his life, much less swam one. I cautioned
him, "Now mind, as soon as he loses his feet, get off his back and hang
on to his withers," and in we went, Rufus step by step, and every step a
snort. He certainly did not like it a bit, and, speaking generally, a
man is a fool to force one of these intelligent pack horses when he
baulks. But this was an exception. So with a pat and an urge, he went
on, step by step, with the water foaming between his legs, till at last
he lost his feet, got a dose of funk, and tried to fling back.
Fortunately, his head came round my way, and I was able to give him a
hearty smack on the nose, and head him off again in the right direction.
Then he stretched himself out and went through the water like a harbour

Having settled him on his course, I looked round for Bill who had
followed me in. All that was visible at the moment were the four legs of
a horse, sticking up above the water, and just in the act of rolling
over. Bill must have lost his head, and tried to stick on his horse's
back, both of them rolling over in consequence.

Amazing though it seemed, I struck the higher break in the opposite
bank, an accomplishment I had though utterly impossible. I'll say that
horse could swim! The moment old Rufus touched the ground with his feet
he tore out of the water like one possessed, snorting like a grampus,
thoroughly wound up, and shaking like a leaf with excitement. Throwing a
leg over him as he came out, I kept him going and galloped down to the
lower end of the island as hard as we could, coiling the lariat up in my
hands at the same time. Bill had one chance as he swept by, and one
only. If he missed the end of that lariat, he was bound down to where
the river humped itself up in a canyon, a few miles below, in which no
canoe, let alone a man, could live for a minute.

Arriving at the lower end of the island, I drove Rufus down the spit
until he was as deep in the water as I dared go and still retain good
foothold, and then waited until Bill came past. It was a critical
moment, for I knew I should only get that one throw, and that to pretty
well the full extent of the rope. I must land the end of the lariat
somewhere near him, where he could either swim to it--in which case he
would lose his horse--or, if I was fortunate enough, get so near that he
could secure the end, and still hang onto the horse's halter.

Actually, what happened, I made my throw, and with unlimited luck,
landed the end right alongside of him. I yelled to him to hang on to his
horse, while he took a quick seamanlike turn round his wrist, and with
the other hand gripped the halter. My end was round my waist, slacking
and easing away to the strain whilst Bill and his horse, swung round
into the eddy where we were standing, and got their feet on firm ground

No one ever had a closer call, though Bill didn't seem to worry.

We spent that night turning ourselves round, like a roast of beef on a
spit, trying to warm one side and then the other, lying in nothing but
our underclothes, in front of a roaring fire we had built up out of

The whole of the next day we were alternately fording, swimming, and
freezing, whilst we made our way to the mainland, were we eventually
located an Indian canoe. This we brought down to where the others were
marooned, and eventually succeeded in ferrying the rest of the party
over. The river was by then within a few inches of the surface of the
island and they had made all preparations for taking to the trees. That
would have been all right, but, unfortunately horses can't climb.

It is undoubtedly a great game crossing rapids in a canoe. You tow up
stream so far, until you find an eddy or little bay, causing a bit of
slack water. Probably just a cut of a few feet into the bank will do.
Then a bit lower down on the opposite side, another convenient eddy must
be found. Then load the canoe, and don't forget to put the paddle on top
of everything, ready to hand. Give her a push, leap in, and land in the
bottom on your knees, sitting on your feet--if you are lucky. It needs a
bit of practice, but fortunately I had had plenty of opportunity for
that in the dug-outs of Rio de Janeiro, in which you surely do have to
part your hair in the middle. I had won many a race in Rio, and compared
with a Dug-out, the Canadian birchbark is easy. Having landed in the
bottom of the canoe you seize your paddle, and dig like fury. The water
fairly curls up at the bow, and you simply tear across the river at the
rate of knots. Head her straight for the opposite eddy as if you were
going to ram the bank at full speed. Actually what happens is when the
stem touches dead water, and the river sweeping down, swings the stern
round, bringing the canoe to a standstill, riding motionless alongside
the bank all in one movement. It is thrilling all right--particularly
with rapids just below you--but tiring when you have to keep it up all
day, as we had to, to get clear of the island before it disappeared.

All throughout this long trek, swimming rivers, getting through
jamb-piles, over muskegs; hail, rain, blow and snow, my old banjo
survived. It had, as a matter of fact been a good companion and helped
cheer us up and pass many a weary hour, right from the start of the
voyage on board ship, and also on the slow going train bound west and
even, at times, on the trail.

Bill was a particularly good step dancer and singer, which had, as a
rule packed our car on the way across country. Many and evening we
passed away singing old popular songs. On the trail the banjo was
brought out when we were not too dog tired, after a terrific day's
struggle--times when it needed all one's powers of self-control to
prevent quarreling with anybody, or everybody who came near. There was
the amusing side too, such as up in the mountains, when Indians squatted
on their haunches all round us. They rarely speak, nor do they ask for
food, but it is always the custom to pass them a dish of beans, which,
of course, is the staple diet. After we had finished our meal, and put
on our pipes, the smoke of the fires slowly blowing across, sometimes,
partly for a lark, we would start up the banjo, and Bill his song and
dance. It was worth while just to see the looks on those Indians' faces.
Their features always seem carved out of stone, and it is considered the
worst form for them to register any surprise, but to hear the sound
coming out of that banjo usually beat them, and immediately it was put
down, they would gather round and peer into it, to see where the sound
came from.

How that old banjo survived beats me. It always seemed to come up
smiling even after swimming a river or working through a forest.

One follows the old buffalo trails which almost invariably lead to a
ford, also wherever buffalo could go between the trees, so also could a
pack horse pass between them. I have, on more than one occasion, seen
the banjo athwart two trees, and old Rufus gently putting pressure on
it, wondering, I expect, what sort of a fool I was to make up his pack
so badly that he couldn't get through. As a matter of fact, the banjo
was always just lightly placed on top of the pack, and was apt to swing
across. However, nothing was ever broken, all credit to the old boy.

For day and days we would be plodding on through forests, hardly ever
seeing the sun. Then, just like walking out of a door, you walk out from
amongst the trees, with nothing but the prairie in front of you, without
even a shrub in sight; nothing but limitless snow.

On one occasion, after being several days in the open, we arrived at the
edge of one of these forests, and camped for our midday meal before
diving in. It was obvious to even the most inexperienced that something
very special in the way of storms was brewing. A heavy bank was coming
up as black as night, but full of beans (literally and metaphorically)
we would be hard cases and allow nothing in the way of weather to stop
us. We still had to learn that, above all, discretion is the watchword
in that hard country. So, having finished our meal, we once again hit
the trail. It was not long before snow, in the powdery, dusty form which
it always takes in the interior of Canada, was sweeping through the
trees, growing thicker and thicker every minute. It never snows in
flakes; always this fine dust, which on the open prairie will suffocate
a man in a few minutes. We stuck to the trail for a couple of hours
until it completely disappeared. We realised we had lost the trail when
one of the horses went over the edge of the cliff and rolled to the
bottom. By the time we got him and his pack up again we decided we had
had enough, and finding a suitable spot, went into camp. The first thing
was to get a fire going, and in this country one always carries a bit of
birch bark. This will burn and burn brightly under almost any
conditions; very nearly under water. With this, and a few pine branches,
it is always possible to start a good blaze, and if one can get hold of
willow then you can have all the heat you want, and no smoke. We were
glad to get any fire whatever, so just dropped jackpines across it, and
as it burned up, so cut down bigger and bigger trees, until we had one
gigantic bonfire going, throwing out a tremendous and mighty welcome
warmth for some dozen or two yards all round. It was the only way to
hope to hold off the snow and get any degree of comfort.

A weird sight, in the middle of this Canadian forest. Sitting around a
gigantic fire, the horses' tails to wind, nothing but an impenetrable
canopy of snow all round, but so great was the heat from the fire, and
so fine the snow, that it actually melted and evaporated before it could
touch the ground. The upper part of the trees, in fact trees twenty
yards from us were out of sight in the snow, and yet where we were,
within the snow walls, was warm and dry. Soon we had the billy going,
and a pan full of pork and beans on a fire. Wet clothes and wet
blankets, which had been under the pack saddles, hanging up to dry. Even
the crashing of an occasional tree could not keep us awake. We slept and
dreamt of the gold we were surely going to find some time soon.

A few days later we did actually make our strike. It came about when we
had been choosing our camp for the night. In this choice there are two
essential factors, food and water for the horses. It may be a swamp--it
frequently was; and in that case you can cut yourself some perfectly
good boughs of jackpines and make out as comfortably as you can; but
grass there must be. On this occasion, where we were prospecting was on
a creek, and next morning while some of the party went off with their
rifles, others, of whom I was one, went down to the creek with gold pan
and shovel to "wash."

This washing out, on bars and banks, had just about become a rite by
this time. As a matter of course one shouldered gold pan and shovel, and
trudged off whenever a river showed up. To a certain extent, it had
become perfunctory, although there was always the suspense and the
latent thrill as to whether "colours" WOULD show up. You take a shovel
of pay dirt, throw it into a pan of water, and commence by giving it a
heaving circular motion, which sends the water swirling round, stirring
up all solid matter in the pan. The lighter earth, smaller shingle and
gravel quickly flow over the edge as dip after dip of water is taken,
until, finally, there is nothing left but black sand, and in this
resides the float gold, which is separated and collected by introducing
about a teaspoonful of mercury to which the gold adheres. Then,
squeezing the mercury through chamois leather, you have a little nugget
of gold left behind--if you are lucky.

I forget whose pan it was that first got down to the black sand, but
there was a yell, "We've found." Everybody dropped everything and dashed
over to see what it was. Sure enough, there were the colours shining
bright and clear as the pan with the residue of black sand and a little
water, was given that final scientific twirl which throws the black sand
forward and leaves trailing out behind the glittering specks of gold.

There is only the last test; viz., application of muriatic acid. If it
is gold, it only shines the brighter, but if it is false, maybe mica, it
will at once turn black, and disappear.

Our next call was for the acid, which could not be found. Evidently it
was stowed away in some chap's pack who, at that moment, was off with
his rifle trying to pick up a stew for the pot. Nowhere could we
discover the muriatic, but we had some acetic acid, and with this we
decided to give it a try-out, until we could make the proper test.

The effect was that the gold only gleamed the brighter, and we
jubilantly assured ourselves that we had "found." At once, everyone
started planning out the camp, the sluice boxes, and all the necessary
paraphernalia connected with placer mining. More pay dirt was washed
out, and still more colours found--and wealth and affluence were
assuredly ours for the taking! All that remained was to gather up the
gold that was lying at our feet, and trek back to civilisation.

About this time the fellow with the gun, gameless as usual, arrived back
in camp. Of course the good news was told, and, quite as a matter of
form, merely to confirm what we were convinced was already a fact, we
suggested the muriatic test. He got the acid out of his pack, and over
we went to the gold pan; gave it a little swing, and on the glittering
contents poured the muriatic. Result, complete, absolute and utter black
out. It was mica. Down went all our hopes and with them our spirits.

However, these disappointments soon wear off, and one is ready again to
strike the trail with that buoyant confidence that forever lies in the
prospector's heart. Good pay dirt, he is confident is only a little
further on.

To be well bitten with the gold bug is a glorious sensation--always on
the verge of the great discovery. The sun is never up early enough, and
sets too soon. There would be nothing to beat it, if one only had plenty
to eat. Even the scenery alone up in these mountains, almost compensates
for the hardships. Everything is wonderful and seems so amazingly near.
Even the snow caps of the Rockies, towering thousands of feet above look
as if one could leave the sunshine and be tobogganing within an hour, so
rarefied and wonderfully clear is the atmosphere. Look up a draw (an
opening between mountains). "Oh yes," you'll say, "We'll fetch that
tomorrow night," but maybe it will be three days before you reach it; a
spot which seemed at most some ten or fifteen miles away.

A grand country, but a hungry one. At that time, even the Indians
themselves were starving, and burning out the forests for game. These
mountain Indians are the only tribe left that are not treaty bound;
though, nevertheless, they have a wholesome respect for that magnificent
body of men, the Canadian Mounted.

Naturally one keeps one's eyes peeled, and one's rifle close to hand
night and day, but there was never an occasion, or even the remotest
approach to a necessity to use it. They are a friendly lot--wonderful,
both at hunting and on the trail. Their powers of endurance are almost
beyond belief, on foot and on horseback. I've known a trained Indian
runner, to go for three days and three nights without let or pause, and
without food, other than what he was carrying with him. I'll admit he
was making his way with a very urgent message; but for endurance they
are mighty hard to beat. Then keep up a glide or lope, doing a steady
four miles an hour the whole day through. The pack horses are trained to
walk and never break into a trot or canter, but the distances they can
cover, with this little short step, would be utterly beyond the power of
the horses commonly found in civilisation. Of course, this applies to
the pack horse, and should not be confused with the ordinary cayuse,
which is the boon companion of other Indian tribes such as Blackfeet,
Crows, and Sioux, who are not exactly the chaps to have with one on a
pack train. On the other hand THEY can perform marvels of horsemanship

One evening in North Edmonton, there was an argument between a half
breed Blackfoot and some white men as to whether a certain tribe of
Blackfeet had or had not been wiped out by the Crows, on the banks of
the River Saskatchewan near by. There is a place close to the banks of
the Saskatchewan known as the Hudson Bay Flats, where an old Hudson Bay
Fort used to stand. A flat piece of land, extending over perhaps, fifty
or sixty acres. It was claimed, that in a fight between the two tribes,
the latter drove the former over the edge of the cliff, into the river
and drowned the lot of them. This half-breed Blackfoot maintained that
his tribe were neither drowned nor annihilated, but that they went down
the cliff on their horses and swam the river. Almost everybody smiled at
his claim, for although the cliff consisted of earth, yet it was so
utterly sheer, that it seemed impossible for a man to get down, with any
degree of safety, let alone a man and a horse. Furthermore, taking into
consideration that the Blackfeet rode at it, full tilt, with the Crows
in pursuit, one could imagine nothing but sheer annihilation.

To me the smile certainly seemed justified.

Then this half-breed got shirty and said he would ride at that cliff
himself for a bottle of whisky, and he was not long in finding a man who
would put up the bottle, if he would do it. The next day we all turned
up on the flats, and this chap mounted his cayuse, bare back, a good
quarter of a mile away from the edge of the cliff, and without pause or
hesitation rode straight at it, over the edge, and down the odd hundred
feet and into the river. All I can say is, he simply went over and down
into the river, and swam back. How he managed it, or why both horse and
man didn't go head over heels, is simply beyond me, but the fact remains
that he never left his horse's back, although he laid full length along
it, with his head resting on its rump. I have certainly never seen, and
could never have imagined such an amazing feat--but I'll say he won that

These fellows are now all Treaty Indians, but whether with either the
Crows or the Sioux, there is now very little to fear. The Canadian
Mounted Police have brought it home to these tribes (likewise renegade
whites) that there is going to be law and order, and they know, for a
stonewall certainty, that any break away from this, and somebody will
pay the penalty.

The same applies to the white man. There's none of the wild and woolly
west business in Canada. It a man drew a gun he'd probably get his stern
kicked, good and hard.

In the past it was the custom for one of the Canadian Mounted to be
detailed off to track down and arrest any man who had committed a crime,
whether small or great, and the powers of endurance exhibited by the
tracker were never less than those of the man he was tracking down. Day
after day, and week after week, he would follow his man, and eventually
track him down. Of course, if the crime had been such as murder, the man
had to be brought back alive, or with very clear evidence of his death.
There was a recognised procedure in the latter instance which gives
evidence enough when dealing with Indians, the details of which there is
no need to go into too closely. In any case there are lots of really
good writers who have written up the Canadian Mounted--though the
romance has been somewhat dimmed since they mounted them on motor-bikes.



We had hit the trail out of Edmonton with little or no meat, and what we
had was mainly bacon. We lived in the full expectation of finding
lashings of game through the country. The sum total of all we saw, was a
moose, a bear, and a porcupine. The moose my chum got, the bear we
didn't get, the porky I got. How Bill got the moose was proof again that
his guardian angel was forever alert. The moose is an ugly customer to
wound, and has some very nasty habits of kneading a man to death, when
sufficiently annoyed. A 44-56 bullet in the stomach, certainly provides
an inducement for all the trouble one may be looking for. Bill was a
rotten shot at the best of times. I saw this big bull moose--evidently
disturbed by some of our would-be hunters, come flashing through the
trees, and at the same instant Bill also saw it, and raised his rifle. I
thought, "Now we're for it," but it was too late to shout at him. He let
drive. In my heart of hearts, I half hoped he had missed it altogether,
but, to my utter amazement, the beast dropped in his tracks--stone
dead--shot through the heart. And I have seen Bill miss a target as big
as a haystack!

The bear was my misfortune. Following the trail along the hillside we
had come across a jamb pile. This was a whole forest of trees on the
side of a hill, fallen down flat years and years ago, and now become
thoroughly seasoned timber. Once we had to cut through a jamb pile owing
to one of the horses having driven a willow stake through its chest, and
in consequence being unable to lift its near foreleg, but one never
attempts to cut through timber of this description, from choice.
Although the hill resembled the roof of a house, it was going to be
better to make the climb up, rather than try and cut our way through.

Old Rufus was easily the best pack horse, and, almost invariably, led
the trail, as he was doing at this time. All the same, it seemed almost
impossible for a horse to climb up that hill light, let alone with 250
lb. on his back. Whilst we were discussing the best plan, Rufus settled
the matter by suddenly starting off up on his own, just as if he wanted
to show what he could do when he wanted. I had no choice but to follow
him, as I held his lariat in my hands, which if I had dropped it would
have been bound to foul his feet. He went up that fifty or sixty feet
like a lamplighter, and arrived on a little plateau, with me puffing and
blowing at his side.

This little effort had been carried out in silence, and I suppose Mr.
Bruin's first intimation of anyone in the vicintity, was our arriving
just outside his front door. Probably it was sheer curiosity that made
him stick his head out within six feet of Rufus' nose on the off side.
I, being on the near side, could, of course, see nothing. The old chap
made up his mind to go down again even more quickly than he had decided
to come up. He just let out a squeal of indignant surprise, and swung
round, smiting me a mighty crack on the side of the head with his nose,
which laid me sprawling, whilst he sat on his hams, and slid down that
hill, 250 lb. and all, with his tail streaming out behind. A more
ridiculous sight I have never seen, and, despite the nearness of the
bear, I had to roar with laughter. The hill was so steep that his hind
legs were almost between the forelegs, as he tobogganed down the
hillside. My rifle, which I had been carrying in the sling as usual over
my back, had been flung clear in the tumble, and long before I could get
hold of it, our one and only bear had vanished.

The porcupine I met whilst trying to find a draw out of the mountains.

All old timers warn tenderfeet "not to lose heart in the mountains." I
suppose it is the amazing solitude, the immensity of the spaces, and the
seemingly utter futility of man that engenders the spirit of funk, when
buried in these appalling masses and precipices of granite, known as the
Rocky Mountains. I think there was more than a little evidence of funk
in our camp, in fact it had even been suggested by someone that we
should turn back. Not one of our original party, I am glad to say, but
the poisonous suggestion was there, there could be no doubt. It was the
mountains that had got everyone, so the best plan as far as we could
see, was to get out of them. I was making my way along in glorious
sunshine on a well fed animal, happy with the world, and confident of
finding a way out for the party, then all would be well. At this
juncture I saw an animal fifty yards in front of me, crossing my trail.
It looked like nothing on earth; certainly nothing that I could
recognise, never having seen a porcupine like this in my life before. It
was truly the father of all porcupines; and looked as big as many a
young donkey. Of course in the tall grass he was anything but clearly
defined. However, I judged as best I could where the head of the beast
should be, and where probably his fore-shoulder would come, and let
drive. He sank down out of sight in the grass. I circled round, still on
horseback, until I located him, and pumped in a couple more 44-56's.

He was dead all right so I proceeded to skin him. Having completed this
task, the next thing was to get him clear up off the ground, and out of
reach of the coyotes. It was quite impossible to lift him, so I had to
slip the lariat on to a hind leg, lead it over the bough of a tree, and
hitch it on to the cinch of my horse. In this manner I hoisted him up
and made him fast. I then cut off a fore-quarter, intending to cook it
for a meal that night. I did, but I might as well have tried to feast
off a cut of rhino hide; there was just about as much chance of getting
my teeth in. I picked him up on my return and took him back to camp,
where we boiled him three times a day for seven solid days before we
could even get our teeth into him. I will admit that through lack of
solid food, out teeth had become somewhat loose, but believe me, they
hardened up before we had finished with our friend the porcupine. We
remained in camp for several days, undecided whether to go ahead or go
back. Meantime fierce arguments arose on the advisability of pushing on.
By far the majority were in favour of going back. It was undoubtedly a
fact that we could only push on at a tremendous risk, as our supply of
food would shortly give out for a certainty, and we should be compelled
to depend on the country alone, which up to the present had proved a
very poor source of supply. The point settled itself in the end,
however, and it happened this way.

Bill and I would not saddle up to turn back, and the others could not
cross the rivers without our help, so it was a sort of stalemate. Every
day some of us went out prospecting to see what hopes there were of
getting colours or finding a draw out of the mountains. On one occasion
we came across a creek, though it would be termed a small river in
England. It looked as thought this river passed between two fair sized
ledges of a cliff a little further on, and then struck open country. In
this case we knew there must be a bar, and on this bar we should find
proof as to whether with this particular creek the water flowed at any
time through a gold bearing area, by the colours obtained, also we might
find a way out of the mountains.

We soon knocked a raft together, by cutting dry timber into lengths,
boring holes with a one and a half inch auger, and pegging with green
willow, the pegs going through one log and well into the next.
Immediately the wood takes the water, it swells, and binds the whole far
firmer than any rope could do, every bit as strong as if it were lashed
with good stout wire. Not only that, but owing to the resiliency and
bendability of the willow, a raft of this kind can go bumping over rocks
without any danger of coming to pieces. In fact, it becomes literally
impossible to separate the logs without either drying them out, or
cutting thought the willow pegs with a saw. We launched our raft, and
with gold pans and shovels a day's provisions--or what we had in our
straitened circumstances to allow ourselves for a day's food--took to
the river. We paddled out towards the centre, and let the current do the
rest, which it did in short order and very effectively. She soon shot
past the ledges we had seen, and then, instead of the ravine opening out
as we fondly expected, the river took a sharp turn to the right (for
which we had not bargained) and literally dived down between two solid
walls of rock.

There was nothing for it but to hang on, and wait for whatever was going
to happen. Everything was well secured to the raft, and this proved
fortunate, for as the river narrowed down, it humped up so that quite
reasonable sized breakers formed, curling up against the race of the
stream. We had just time to fling ourselves flat on the raft, and hang
on for dear life, while the thing plunged madly down the rapids. We had
to chance hitting a rock and being shot off. Fortunately, the passage
was short and sharp, but by no means sweet. Still one could not help
noticing the difference between being struck with these freshwater
breakers, and similar seas of salt water. You can knock a man down with
a bucket of salt water, but not so by any means with fresh water. Every
time we rushed at a breaker, each would yell to the other, "Hang on,
Jack," "Hang on, Bill," and we would crash through the breaking water
comparatively easily compared with meeting a similar breaker at sea.

I suppose we were some five or ten minutes making the passage, although
it seemed more like as many hours. We came out with the raft into open
water and paddled with our shovels to the side, soaking wet through,
although that condition was more or less normal. Mackintoshes and
umbrellas are not exactly part of an outfit. When it rains you get wet,
and when the sun shines you get dry, and you are lucky if you are dry
when you go to bed. Yet such a thing as rheumatics or illness is

Having landed, we automatically started on the usual procedure with gold
pan and shovel. Colours as usual--quite good colours, but not good
enough to justify packing food from Edmonton. As we couldn't get back
that night we prospected a bit further down on the opposite bank, but
with the same result. The raft would have to be abandoned, likewise,
everything else, except bare necessities, for the climb back.

Peep of day next morning we were off, up and up, colder and colder, as
hour after hour of steady climbing took us up higher and higher and at
last into the show line. Then down the other side, with always the
sporting chance of making a slip and starting a non-stop slide to
eternity; or even meeting a grizzly. The result would be the same in
both cases! There are not many grizzlies left, any more than there are
buffaloes, but there are still quite a few, and a grizzly is about the
most cussed customer that one can run across, in all the Nor'-West. As a
rule he'll attack on sight, and nothing short of a 45-90 hs the
slightest effect, and even then it has got to be planted carefully, in
exactly the right spot and followed up quickly, or you are going out.
Once a grizzly gets its paws on a man, he has far less chance than with
a lion, and that's little enough, by all accounts. Admittedly they have
not the speed of a lion, but whereas a lion is not difficult as a rule
to bring down, a grizzly seems to have about ten times more vitality. We
should have been a sorry pair if we had met one, for all we had was our
shovels. We thought, when we launched our craft that we were only going
a couple of miles there and back on the river, so we had not even taken
our usual inseparable friend, the rifle.

When, at long last, we did get back to the camp, we found the pros and
cons of advance or retreat had been settled by the rest of the chaps
packing their traps and clearing out. They had left us, what at any rate
they considered was our share of the grub--a tent, our horses, rifles,
and blankets.

Well, we had each other to swear at, and that was something; although,
as a matter of fact, when we did hit the camp we were far too hungry and
played out to consider the merits of the other chaps', shall we say,
desertion, or even our own loneliness. That came later. It was a fair
taste of just what it must be like to be absolutely alone in these
mountains. One could well believe all the tales one heard about chaps
who, from one cause or another, have been left on their own, going
stark, staring mad. There is sound advice in that caution, "Don't lose
heart in the mountains."

The actual loneliness didn't worry us a great deal, our sea training
took care of that, but it was the fact of turning back.

To turn back spelt utter failures of the whole expedition. Going on, no
matter how slowly, was to break fresh ground, with always the
possibility of making a strike. If we did decide to go on then we must
make up our minds to kill one horse and smoke the meat; that would have
to be done and we were both just as enthusiastic on that programme as we
should have been over a suggestion to kill either of ourselves. Your
horse becomes your pal, and treats you as such, and he expects the same
treatment from you. He will nose round you on the trail, and stand
around where you are cooking, in the hopes of getting a lick at the gold
pan for salt remaining, when you have finished baking.

No, we didn't enthuse over the idea one bit, yet there was no
alternative that we could see, if we were to make the Smokey River, get
in a satisfactory prospect along the course, and finally fetch Peace
River Landing. Even supposing for one instant that we could bring
ourselves to kill one of our old pals, apart from feeling like
murderers, and something far worse when we sat down to grub, the chances
of ever making the Landing with a cumbersome raft were about a thousand
to one against. However, some decision had to be made, and that right
quickly, for the share left us consisted of less than a week's supply.
It seemed as though the others must have had it in their minds, that
after taking perhaps a day to make a decision--which is exactly what we
did---it might take four or five days to catch them up, and we should
have food, for just that time.

To make a long story short, we stacked our packs, cached our tools, and
hit the trail back with three days' grub between us.



We'd no worry about catching up with the others. We knew only too well
that the first river would bring their outfit up all standing. They were
all downright good fellows, but never cut out for this sort of thing.

Sure enough, there they all were, sitting on the banks of the Athabaska,
contemplating that uninviting flood. They looked a bit sheepish, but it
was no use grousing, the only thing to do was to make the best of a bad
job and get on, so we scouted up river until we found a canoe, which we
brought down and started the ferrying. A hundred pounds at a time was
the maximum load when shooting these rapids.

We had found a very suitable spot, where the canoe would lie snugly
under the bank whilst we loaded her up, and a nice little bay lower
down on the opposite side for an eddy. It was a bad spot as far as the
river went, for it was in full flood, but it was in excellent shoving
off place, and a good spot for landing. Furthermore, there was a level
bank, without tree or scrub for towing the canoe up river on the far
side ready for the shoot back.

Having got half the provisions over, and two or three of the chaps, I
thought now was the moment to strike a bargain for provisions. Somehow,
I did not feel quite the same towards these fellows, and I determined to
get my whack out of them, so that Bill and I could pull out on our own.
I told them, quite frankly when I got half of them parked on one side
and half on the other side of the river, that they could have the canoe
and welcome, but in view of the few provisions then had left us two, I
did not feel obliged to waste any more time ferrying them back. (I still
think I took rather a mean advantage.) Anyhow, it was soon happily
settled--as far as I was concerned. We got our fair whack of grub, and
they got safely over the worst river in the Nor'-West in one of its
worst moods. To take a man over, he had to lie in the bottom of the
canoe, underneath the little wooden spreaders. The whole canoe is as
light as a feather, built of bark, and stitched with hide. Even with
only one man lying in the bottom and the other on his knees paddling,
she is pretty deeply loaded, and needs careful handling.

After the provisions and horses were all over, two fellows were left. To
save a journey I told them both to get into the canoe, and we would make
the final shoot. It was a ticklish job, and as I required every inch of
room, I had unwisely put the paddle on the bank, until they settled
themselves in the bottom. "Being in all respects ready for sea," or, as
in this case, for the river, having her nicely, if somewhat deeply
trimmed, I turned her bow off with a hand on each gunwhale at the stern,
ready as she took the fast water, to vault in--and it is a bit of a job
vaulting into one of these tiny craft, particularly as at the same
moment you strike white water. A shove, a jump, and I was in, at the same
instant reaching down for the paddle, which, to my horror, was not
there. I HAD LEFT IT ON THE BANK. How it was managed, I really don't
know, but I was over the side in about half a split second, and gave the
canoe a terrific tug that stopped her way, and actually, by some miracle
brought her back out of the rapids and into the eddy. The chaps lying in
the bottom did not realise what had happened, until I told them. They
both looked a bit green, and I'll say it gave me some jar. In any case,
I decided to take more time, and more care, so I left one on the beach,
and made two journeys of it, this time with safety.

Next morning, the other party struck the trail, but something had
happened to Bill's feet, and he was two days before he could get his
boots on, and, as we had to eat something every day, our provisions
again became perilously low. However, when we did catch the other party
up, they had been sitting a corresponding number of days on the bank of
the next river. Perhaps the saying "We're from the Black Hills, we ain't
no tenderfeet" did get rubbed in a bit. That was in return for all the
hot air Bill and I had to put up with when away from water, and I must
admit I got a certain amount of fun out of pulling their legs, anyway.

For the last week before striking civilisation, provisions completely
petered out, and we lived on the inner bark of jack pines and sourdocks.
This inner bark is mainly resin, and as none of us had used a razor
since we had started the trail, we all had pretty good healthy beards,
which, when mixed up with this resin, turned them into useful doormats.
Still, we were not bothering about our outward appearance, so much as
out inward feelings, and great were the rejoicings when we met an
outward bound outfit, on the same quest from which we were returning. We
were able to trade a rifle, and ammunition, for some good old sow-belly,
beans, and tea, and had our first square meal for a month.

Bill and I actually arrived back in Edmonton with our horses, a rifle,
half a cup of rice, and three cents between us. At that time Edmonton
was full of returned prospectors as a result of the great disaster which
had befallen the overland trail. It was a saying in those parts that you
could find your way from Edmonton to the Klondyke, via the overland
trail, by the bones of men and horses that had died by the way. Very
little was heard of it outside the country, in fact, the north is
notorious for its silence, both of nature and man. A more silent man
than the Hudson Bay trapper and trader, and the old time prospector, it
would be hard to find.

Many outfits set out from Edmonton on this terrible overland trail with
little or no idea of what they were going to run up against.

One amazing ass started on a bicycle, with bottles of Bovril strapped on

The trouble commenced in the earlier days, when they got away
insufficiently "grub staked." Having gone so far and taken such an
appalling time to cover the distance, which on paper, of course, looked
trifling--they found themselves with insufficient provisions to complete
the journey. Many would push on and on, in the faint hopes of the trail
improving and their being able to make better time; also, in the fond
hope of finding game. Very nearly everybody was confident they could
rely on the country to replenish their larder. At last, when the bitter
truth was borne in on them, they were truly between the devil and the
deep sea. With the Rocky Mountains, forming an impassable barrier on one
side, and the prairie with its muskegs and lakes on the other, they,
like us, just had to decide whether or no they would push on, or face
about and go back. Naturally, an outfit would push as long as ever there
was the slightest chance, and often, even longer. Then, in final
desperation, they would at last be driven into turning back, both men
and horses by this time terribly emaciated and weak, through hardships
and short commons. They would then meet an outward-bound outfit, who, by
the unwritten law of the North-West, could do no less than grub stake
them; that is, give them sufficient to eat for a few days at least. This
act automatically lessened the outward bound outfit's chances of getting
through and so the bad work went on, outfit after outfit, pushing away
north, having to reduce their own stock by helping those who were
starving on their way back, only to land in the same predicament
themselves. The cumulative effect almost beggars description.

It should be borne in mind that it was not a case of just a few men, but
of thousands. The total number will never be known, but to my mind, it
would be no exaggeration to say that at least ten thousand men lost
their lives on the overland trail. Outfits, made up of experienced men,
well provisioned, frequently with a sectional boar and every contrivance
that years of experience in that country could suggest, came to grief;
their whole expedition sapped and crippled, in efforts to save others.

I was invited to join up with an outfit of this description when first
we arrived in Edmonton. Their supplies ran to a full ton, not including
the sectional boat they had. These men were real old timers and I should
have been one of their party, only for the fact that I was an utter
greenhorn, and did not realise, until it was too late, that an
invitation though given in seemingly quite a casual manner, was meant in
all seriousness. By the time I did wake up, I had made arrangements with
my own chum and the others to forge our own trail.

As it turned out I should not have been a scrap better off anyhow, for,
despite their experience, none of them were ever heard of again.

Yes, Edmonton was full of men just broke to the world, who had what they
stood up in, and absolutely nothing else. So when Bill and I got back
with all our worldly wealth comprised in the half cup of rice and three
cents, it was not long before I hit the trail for happier hunting

We decided in the circumstances, it was best for us each to play his own
hand, so we parted, and within a week I found myself cow punching on the

There were three or four of us cowboys with some thousands of head of
cattle to look after. Here again was a new experience. A happy life; a
careless life. The stars for your blanket, the prairies for your bed,
and your horse still your best friend. Cook what you have with you, when
you can and how you can. Plenty to eat, plenty to drink, nothing much to
do so long as long as you keep your eyes open, and the cattle well under
control. But heaven help you when one of those brief, but terrific
thunderstorms comes down and stampedes your bunch.

Some of these are fairly big horned beasts, and, in their maddened
stride, will rip up a horse like a piece of tissue paper. There is only
one thing to do and that is to get to the leaders of the rush, and head
them off. You work away from the wind, and so you throw the head round,
forming a huge circle, until, finally with luck, the head of the
stampede catches up with the stern. At that moment it is very necessary
to be on the outer rim, for as one end catches up with the other, so
they form literally a gigantic whirlpool and the whole lot run up
together in one solid mass. Not infrequently, a good bit of damage is
done, but that cannot be helped. You will know all about the damage if
you happen to be on the inside. Then there is only one way you will get
out and that is by walking across the backs of the steers; but you can
say "good-bye" to your horse. This went on for a few weeks, till,
sitting by the camp fire one night, smoking and thinking things out, I
realised that what I had set myself out to do, namely, to make just
enough money to grub stake myself and to then head off again into the
mountains, was impossible, partly because I had determined this time to
try the west side, where there is less water and more gold.

The ordinary life led by a cowboy doesn't tend to gather in the shekels,
or perhaps it would be nearer the truth to say that it isn't conducive
to keeping them. Every so often a bunch of steers has to be taken to the
railway, or somewhere near thereto, and having disposed of them, the
temptation to "blue" one's hard-earned wealth, in one great and glorious
spree is usually too great to be withstood. Not necessarily a drinking
spree, because, actually, there is little of that done in Canada.

For my part, I never spent five cents on drink until I had made the grub
stake which would carry me out of the country.

But a cowboy who has been out on the prairie, seen no one, spoken to no
one for weeks on end, must do all the crazy things that come into his
mind when he gets into civilisation. He is like a big boy let loose.

The night I was considering all these things by the fire, there came
into my mind a promise I had made before I left England, that if things
went against me I WOULD come back. There was no question about my being
up against it, and a promise is a promise. Furthermore, I could gather
together more money, on my own job at sea, than I ever should cow
punching, so, just as quickly as I made up my mind to get out, I decided
to go back.

 It was with a horrible sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach that I
sold, and said god-bye to my old pal Rufus. It hurt like hell, and does
even yet. Still, it had to be done, so I got it over as quickly as
possible and started off back to England in dead earnest.

I had become a hobo.

The term applies to anyone who is trying to beat the country. He is not
a tramp, as is generally known at home. He is best described as "a
traveller without means of paying his way," an accepted fact in the
country, and it is a war of wits between the hobos and the various means
of transport, which in those days were mainly in the hands of the C.P.R.
Jumping trains, riding the blind baggage, or making out on the rods were
three of the recognized methods, and the brakies, your natural enemies;
who would think nothing of swinging a five pound lynch pin on the end of
a line, if they thought somebody was "riding the rods." If you were and
unluckily got a crack on the head, you simply fell off, and the train
passed on. If you were lucky and could get into a van you traveled in
luxury. Another good plan was to ride the blind baggage, the platform at
the back of the last car, but from which you are more easily expelled.
The third and last method is riding on the rods (suspension rods) under
the car. That is where I usually parked, for although the least
comfortable, I always found it the safest, and the place where one was
sure to make the longest journey undiscovered.

I still had with me my inseparable companion the banjo, also a small
sack in which I kept bacon and bread, my blankets, and another
companion, a piece of cheese. I asked, when I bought this cheese, for
the strongest the chap could find. It certainly was powerful. Perhaps
that was why I was so successful in making such long stretches without
being thrown off!

Anyway, I noticed that everyone gave it an astonishingly wide berth.
However, I eventually parted company with both my cheese, and my
blankets, my bread, and my bacon, through a mistaken sense of
hospitality on the part of a man in charge of one of the water tanks.

These tanks are situated just so far apart, where the engine may draw up
in the otherwise uninhabited country and get water. I had dropped off
the fill my billy can, and the tanker, when he saw me arrive, gave the
usual salutation, "Hullo, Bo. Where are you going?" My invariable reply
was, "Liverpool."

As a rule a hobo is making his way from one town to another, and the
vision of a man heading for Liverpool, England, seemed to strike
everyone as particularly humorous. It tickled this chap to the extent
that he would have me take, as he expressed it, "a drop of something
with a kick." He was a decent fellow and meant well, but whilst we were
busy with our salutations the train sloped off with my worldly
possessions, and I was left the proud possessor of a banjo. He was so
sorry that I believe he would have stopped the train at the next tank
and had it held--had I urged him--until I had time to catch it up. In
any case he made an excuse to flag the next train along, and whilst he
was telling a little story to the brakie, I made myself as comfortable
as I could on the blind baggage, which landed me as close to Winnipeg as
I wanted to go.

I spent three weeks in that Prairie City; an exhibition was on at the
time, which for me proved fruitful, and enabled me to collect sufficient
currency to make the long to Montreal. I had not been many hours in
Winnpeg when I heard of a man who had built a house and was trying to
get it finished, by way of painting and so forth; but he was a
notoriously bad payer and the men that were working for him had quit, as
they could not get their money.

His name was Chamberlain, so I made my way over to where he lived and
dug him out.

"Did he want a painter?"

"Yes, he wanted a painter. Was I a painter?"

"Yes, I was."

"Well," said he, "go right ahead and get it finished."

I did, though it was a pretty tall order. I found some paint brushes and
so forth and sailed in. We neither of us discussed wages. As a matter of
fact a painter's pay was three dollars a day, with which I credited

After my experiences with jamb piles and muskegs, work with a paint
brush, either in one hand or the other, was child's play, and, in any
case, I had served in the hardest school in which one can learn
painting, and that is a British sailing ship.

Chamberlain seemed tickled to death with the hours I worked and the
ginger I put into the job; in fact we became great friends, and he
cordially invited me to work any number of hours I cared. I took him at
his word. In the evening, I usually walked into the town and bought
myself provisions to cook overnight, which served me for the next day.
Good solid food, but no luxuries. One day old Chamberlain asked me where
I lived. I told him "on the prairie."

"Hell, you don't mean to tell me you sleep out there every night, no
wonder you get up early in the morning."

I told him that I had been sleeping out there for very nearly twelve
months. However he eventually made me take a room in the house. I did
for one night, and felt very nearly suffocated, and I gave up again in
favour of the open air.

The time finally came when the job was finished, and up till then no
mention of pay had passed between us; although some of the former hands,
in the goodness of their hearts, had walked all the way out to where
this house was situated on the prairie, to tender the information that I
should certainly never get any money. Well, I might, or again I might
not, but my impression was that I should get what I worked for. We left
it at that. Later on, Chamberlain informed me he was getting a mortgage
through on the house, and until that was through he could not pay me.

He happened to tell me that his solicitors were Andrews and Pitblado,
and it also just happened that while working on the exhibition grounds,
I had made contact with Andrews, who was, at that time, Mayor of
Winnipeg. It came about that he met me on the grounds where I was
working and sent me over to bring a huge wooden form. The band of the
Black Watch were playing out there at the time, and one can get an idea
of the size of the form, when four forms accommodated the whole band.
They were made of just rough hewn timber. I thought it a tall order, but
as I was in the very pink of condition I actually managed to hoist it on
my shoulder and proudly marched off with it across the grounds. By luck,
I met Andrews, who asked me a bit fluently, what I thought I was doing.
I told him I was carrying a form, and that, furthermore he had sent me
for it.

"Put the damn thing down. Do you think I sent you alone. Where's the
other man?"

Well, I had not seen him, but nothing would suit Andrews but to leave
the form there for the others to collect whilst he took me away and put
me on another job, which was all to do with ropes and tackles, and right
into my hand. I may say that I had casually told him when walking across
the grounds, in reply to his enquiry, that I was a sailor, had been out
on the gold rush, and was then a hobo, bound back to Liverpool to pick
up my job again, and we became quite good friends.

This was the chap who was getting the mortgage through for Chamberlain,
and to whom, by good luck, I had to apply for my dollars, so, having got
Chamberlain to sign my time sheet, I trotted off down town to interview
Andrews. I had enough money coming to me then--if I could collect it--to
see me through to Montreal, no longer as a hobo, but as a real,
self-respecting passenger--what a change! When I asked for Mr. Andrews
the clerk accommodated his tone of voice to my appearance, which, beyond
being clean, was hardly millionairish, and the few words we had quickly
brought Andrews out of his office to see what was going on.

I must say his office was reached by a steep flight of stairs, which led
directly into the street, and down which I was proposing to toboggan the

"Hello, my lad," said Andrews, "what's all the row about?"

I told him.

He whistled when he saw the account, and told me the mortgage was not
through. At the same time he knew exactly where I stood, and, to make a
long story short (good fellow that he was) he paid me in full on the

I then journeyed down to the Manor Bar, where kindred spirits used to
foregather, and, to their surprise, stood them all a good round of
drinks. One of the chaps who had quit Chamberlain's place before I took
on, and who had been cocksure I should not get my pay, asked me "where I
had got the wad." I told him.

Said he, "How did you manage to collect it?"

"Well, of course," said I--trying a good leg pull--"you don't want to go
round to these lawyer's places eating humble pie; you want to go in and
threaten to break up the furniture and take them to pieces. Throw things
about a bit, and say, if they don't ante up, that you'll include them in
a quick passage to the street. Just let them know you are some sort of a
chap. See then, how quickly they will come across with your money."

He gazed at me the whole time I was talking, and then just walked out.

Half an hour or so later I had boarded the train at the Depot, and was
sitting on the steps of the car yarning with a few of the fellows who
had come to see me off, when another pal came on to the platform roaring
with laughter, and said to me, "Say, what on earth did you tell
Charlie?" When I told him the yarn, he said he had just come past
Andrews and Pitblado's office in time to see Charlie thrown down the
stairs into the street. We were still laughing over poor Charlie as the
train drew out, and I started on the last lap for Liverpool.

Having made a good grub stake in Winnipeg, and being able to stick to
one train for a change, it seemed a very short time before I was in
Montreal, with its familiar ships and shipping. Here I was back on my
own territory, and in touch with my old friend, the sea. My troubles, as
far as the trail was concerned, were over. Crossing the ocean--or even
going round the world--presented less of a problem than did a few
hundred miles by land. Looking back over it all, I felt I had achieved
my object to some extent. At any rate, I had been up through the
North-West. I'd tried it out, I'd had a great time, and I'd got
back--the next bit to Liverpool hardly counted. Admittedly I had gone
broke; on the other hand I HAD got back, which was more than thousands
and thousands of others had done. There were hundreds in Winnipeg
alone--many of whom were there when I arrived on the way out, and were
still there when I left on the way back--who, poor devils, had no idea
how to make their way back home.

It was not long before I was on board ship, and in my own element again.
I was not on board in the capacity of an officer. I took the first job
that was going, and that was cattle-man--not very thrilling, with all
the beasts tied up by their head stalls, and I could not help but
compare them with similar animals out on the range. Here they were in
their hundreds; there they had been in their thousands. Neither were the
cattle-men quite the type one meets "punching" on the prairie; they were
inclined to be a wee bit impulsive at the wrong time. For instance, when
I came down a bit late for the first day's dinner, every scrap of food
had been cleaned up, on the basis of "first come, first served." Perhaps
I was more at home on this job than they had realised. However, believe
me, it never happened again, and when a few of the niceties of shipboard
life had been duly instilled, they proved quite good fellows--if a bit



Two o'clock one bright spring morning found us "tied up" in the Hornby
Dock, Liverpool, just a little over twelve months since I had left. As
all my money had been exhausted in making my way to Montreal, I stepped
off the ship with a pair of buckskin pants, serge shirt, huge sombrero
hat, and the world before me again.

A few miles hard walking brought me to my old rooms, where I must hide
myself until such time as I could have a suit of clothes made by my
friendly old tailor.

What agony it was to encase oneself again in boiled shirt and stiff
collar, but it had to be done; respectability once more, and then a
ship. There was no time to lose as I hadn't a penny in the world, and I
certainly was not going to apply at home for money.

Down to the docks I went for an interview with old Jack Rattery (sic),
the Marine Superintendent of the African Royal Mail. He was commonly
known as "Three Fingered Jack" having had two of them bitten off by a
negro down the West Coast. Bully Waters at one time had been his mate,
and they were great pals; also two of a kidney. Furthermore Rattery had
told me, when I left the NIAGARA that Bully Waters, despite the lurid
passages at arms and wordy battles that had taken place between us, had,
to my unbounded astonishment, given me a most glowing character. This
being so, I knew I was sure of a ship as soon as Capt. Rattery could
find me one. He wanted to know where I had been. I merely told him,
"Where ships don't go. But I'm looking for a ship now, sir."

I had also seen a brand new ship in dock about to sail on her maiden
voyage, and I asked him to appoint me to her. Good fellow, he gave me
the job. Right glad I was to be back again on pay, with the hopes of
wiping out some of the huge debts that had accumulated with my tailor
and elsewhere. Sextant to buy, telescope to buy, glasses to buy,
instruments of various kinds, books, in fact, the whole complete outfit,
including uniform and mufti, for I had sold everything before I had
left. Still, what matters; I was back in the good old familiar
surroundings, again serving my eccentric mistress. Good solid pieces of
gold rolling in every voyage from over the pay desk, instead of digging
them out of the earth--much more of it too--so why worry? Everyone would
soon get paid and I'd quickly make enough to hit the lone trail again.

Being a new ship and the biggest on the run, we gave a banquet in every
port, and we did not have to be looking for the makings of the banquet
with a rifle. Any amount of game here, if it was in the frig. When we
got down to Lagos, Opobo and Calabar, the guests were nearly all native
chiefs, and we had to entertain them. These chaps are big noises in
Africa, and come down in their war canoes, pulling twenty paddles a
side. The canoes are wonderful pieces of craftsmanship, and take years
to build. It was a touchy business getting the different tribal chiefs
to the gangway, and on board, without any fighting. They are all pretty
warlike, and ready to jump at each other's throats on the slightest
pretext. At a signal from the officer on the gangway, up they came
dashing to the side ladder (and they have a speed of anything up to ten
knots) and if another war canoe were slow in getting away, they would
think nothing of ramming it, and if that happened, then the fat would be
in the fire. It was only by virtue of the tact of the white officer on
the gangway that many a full blown scrap was nipped in the bud.

Once on board, they were kept separate as much as possible by the
whites, and eventually, marshalled down to the saloon. Some of these
chaps had been educated in England, even at Oxford of Cambridge, but
curiously enough, as soon as they get back to their tribe, the veneer of
civilisation almost invariably drops right away and they re-adopt both
native habits and clothes. It is a bit of a shock to have one of these
war canoes come alongside, and a fellow in native rig stroll up the
gangway, hold out his hand, and greet you in fluent English, wit a full
Oxford accent--we used this educated section to help the white men
separate the more primitive minded--and they needed separating!

On one occasion in Old Calabar, we were entertaining about fifty native
chiefs. They had been a bit jumpy from the start, but, with a little
tact, we managed to keep peace. Everything went on happily, and we got
them divided up and sitting round the long saloon table, but by the time
they had imbibed a certain amount of "bubbly water:" they were just
about fit for anything. We had a Piper on board, who, as a rule used to
march up and down the promenade deck above, and pipe during dinner. The
Captain had a brain storm in the middle of this dinner that very nearly
sent up the balloon. He passed an order for the Piper, who, without any
warning, marched right up one side of the long table and down the other
with his deafening skirl. This set our guests fairly dancing in their
chairs, eyes glaring and hands itching for a spear of a knife or any
other professional instrument. It only needed one man to start in and
the whole pack would have been on their hind legs, with anything near
the shape of a knife they could grab off the table. For a minute or two
it looked bad, and the skipper did look a bit glum. However nobody
moved. The white men studiously kept on talking, and so managed to keep
the others in their seats. After a bit, the hotheads also cooled down
and the dinner went along happily up to the ice cream stage.

Most of them had never seen ice-cream before, much less tasted it. The
first chap to put a spoonful in his mouth just went up like a rocket.

Ice to them is just the same as heat; they think it burns. It was
fortunate for us that there were only two or three of them who got the
ice-cream down at the same time, but believe me, they needed some
pacifying. Only the fact that everybody else stuck fast to their seats,
and seized these fellows by their wrists, whilst others went on eating
their ice-cream, gradually brought them to their senses again. They are
proud and touchy chaps, and really thought a game had been played on

That voyage ended my West Coast experience, and I have never been down
there since, despite the saying that, once a fellow has the coast in his
veins, he can never leave it. It certainly has an extraordinary
attraction of its own, that must be experienced to be realised. A
fortnight out of Liverpool, and it's back to nature with a bump.
Natives, pure blooded negroes, perfect physical specimens, but as full
of superstition as they can hold. Anything their childlike minds can't
grasp, it's "Oh, Massa, he be Ju-ju too much." Show them the simplest
conjuring trick and they'll run a mile, I appeared to take a two
shilling piece out of one chap's nose. He never let go of his nose for
the rest of that day, in case another should come. Awful thieves, but
perfectly trustworthy, whilst you watch them.

An officer, who had been mate of one of the Branch boats for years at
Lagos, had a perfectly marvellous record for good steady work amongst
his boys and he was hardly ever known to have a case or bale broached on
his ship. One day I asked him how on earth he managed it, for certainly
he paid far less attention than was customary to his loading from the
liner, and discharging ashore. After much urging, in a burst of
confidence and gin, he let me into his secret. He had a glass eye, also
a spare one. If they were handling any cargo that held special
attraction, he just went down below, extracted his eye, and placed it on
a convenient bale and said, "Now you Bushmen, I go for watch you all

Entering at Forcados, a 5,000 ton ship, big as she is, can navigate up
the creeks for scores of miles. Mangrove swamps on either hand most of
the way, no room to turn and little room to pass. In some places it is
so narrow that her nose must be driven up into the jungle, whilst the
tide is allowed to swing her stern, and so negotiate a sharp bend. Here
and there clearings with native villages, and men who never saw a
wheelbarrow, yet stand and stare at a modern steamship, a fortnight out
from Liverpool. No pilots; just local knowledge gained by Officers and
Captain through years of experience. Here's a whitewashed tree where you
take the right fork for Benin. There's a barrel on a stump, where you
turn off for somewhere else. High pay, yes, and one earns it. The life
served me in another way, as, being Second Officer of a Royal Mail and
passenger ship for a certain time, qualified me for a commission in the
Royal Naval Reserve, also my Master's Ticket, which I had yet to get.

One way and another, I had had a good time, but had lost a lot of
necessary sea time through periodically chasing some hare-brained idea.
Still in the end, I made it all up and even caught up with chaps of my
own age. For one thing I had never lost a minute over my exams, by
failing--and it's not uncommon to fail three or four times for one
ticket. I know one chap who went up seven times for his Master's
certificate. Then again, by taking the West Coast run, I got better
promotion and my time counted more. Anyhow, I went up, when I got home,
and, my luck still holding, passed for Master at twenty-three.

I had now the world at my feet, or so I thought anyway, and when I had
had a sufficiently good time I marched off to find a ship, but, of
course, only when funds were completely exhausted. I still had had a
tremendous amount of leeway to make up and debts to pay, owing to my
little jaunt to the North-West in the back of my mind, for as I have
said before, I only came home with the intention of making sufficient
money to outfit myself and go again. As a matter of fact, I became
involved in a much more attractive scheme, which rather eclipsed the
cold of Canada, and that was running sandalwood from New Guinea to

 New Guinea is one of the few remaining unspoiled spots of the world,
where there is a fortune waiting for those sufficiently enterprising to
take up the export of sandalwood, sandalwood oil and so forth.
Furthermore, New Guinea is the only place where the Bird of Paradise
can be found, and though he is merely a glorified edition of old Jim
Crow, he has a wonderful market. Then again, there is gold up the Fly
River, and many other things to attract those unfortunately born with
the love of the unorthodox; wanderlust, or whatever you like to call
it. However, nothing more need be said about New Guinea, for it came to
nothing, in fact the idea was effectually scotched by my getting
married. My wife made one stipulation, and that was that if I went on
that expedition, she went too. It is no climate for a white woman, so
there the matter ended.



Having got my Master's Certificate, I decided to try the Atlantic again,
and I'm not likely to forget my first ship; she was a real poem. It had
become, as usual, a financial necessity to find a ship, and one day, as
I was walking along Castle Street, Liverpool., I noticed Greenshield,
Cowie & Co.'s plate. These were the owners of the old Knight Line, under
whom I served in the four-masted barque KNIGHT OF ST. MICHAEL. On the
impulse of the moment, I slipped in and asked for the managing director,
and was shown in the sanctum of sanctums. "Oh, yes," in his deep
sonorous voice, he "remembered me quite well," and we talked over some
of the old days. Yes, he would appoint me to one of their steamers, in
fact "the very best of the Line, the KNIGHT BACHELOR, lying in London;
join her right away." Very hearty and very blunt, he held out his hand
to say good-bye. This was all very well, but I wanted to know in what
capacity. "Third Mate," said he. "Indeed," I replied, "but I am looking
for a berth as at least Second Mate, or even Mate."

"Well, of course, Lightoller, you will be no time as Third Mate. In view
of the fact that you served so long and so loyally in our sailing ships,
we can never forget--" And so on and so forth.

To make a long story short, I allowed myself to be bamboozled into going
out of that office with my sailing orders in my pocket. "Well," I
thought, "it's a good ship, and the Western Ocean, and I will take good
care that I am going to get my step up pretty soon." I still had
malarial fever in my veins, and well I knew it on the train journey down
and across London. I arrived at Tilbury Dock feeling like the complete
West African dishcloth. All I wanted was to get my head down, and forget
I was alive. I had, in my subconscious mind, all the comforts that one
associates with the Royal Mail. A nice airy cabin, a bunk with clean
white sheets, a boy to attend you, and practically every wish
anticipated. Doctor, stewards and all the rest of it. Arriving at
Tilbury Dock, I asked a porter wearily where the Knight boat was lying.
He replied, "Oh, just near by, sir. Over the bridge," and suggested he
should put my baggage on a truck and run it over. "Right," said I, my
one anxiety being to get to my cabin, and try to forget this damnable
fever. We trudged along, I simply following the porter, conscious of
little but a terrific temperature. Suddenly the porter stopped. "Well,"
I said, "why have you stopped?" "Here is your ship, sir." I looked up.
What a horror! About the dirtiest thing I'd ever clapped eyes on. Her
rusty iron sides streaked with the horrible overflow from the cattle she
had evidently been carrying. Smelling like nothing on earth. "But this
isn't the KNIGHT BACHELOR, surely?" I exclaimed. "Oh, no sir, the KNIGHT
BACHELOR sailed last week; this is the KNIGHT COMPANION." Had I had the
strength she would certainly have been no companion of mine. However, I
was just about at the end of my tether, and thought, "Come, let's get on
board, and between some blankets."

The deck was simply a jungle of old cattle pens, ashes, coal, dirt and
filth of every description.

A man came up to me and asked me what I wanted. I said I wanted the
Mate. In a very nasal voice he informed me he was the Mate. I really
thought he was pulling my leg, and I told him abruptly that I didn't
feel like joking with him, "WHERE WAS THE MATE?" This time he asserted,
a little more forcibly, that he WAS the Mate. I apologized, and said I
was the Third Mate. His reply was, "When are you going to turn to?"

"I am going to turn in," I said, "Can you tell me where I can find the
steward who will show me to my cabin?"

"Well," says my bucco, of the collarless flannel shirt, "I guess, in
this ship, we find our own cabins."

After climbing over a pile of coal and ashes, I found mine. It really
wanted scraping out--before it was washed!

I know I was a fool, but really malaria, when you do get it, simply
takes the heart out of you, and all I wanted was to get my head in line
with my heels, get under a pile of blankets, and forget the world. I
managed to dig out some blankets, and when the Mate found out how
thoroughly bad I was, he became pretty decent about it and did what he

The West Coast sufferer's remedy is simple, if drastic, and consists of
a tin of quinine powder and a packet of cigarette papers. Put as much
quinine in a cigarette paper as it will hold, seal it up and swallow it.
After a few of these, a couple of brass bands will start up in your
head; but you get used to that also, and as it does not last more than a
couple of days, one is soon about again.

Curiously enough, I had one more violent attack after this, and one
only. That happened when bound down the river on that voyage out. I had
one final and terrific upheaval off the Nore Lightship, which I thought
was going to be the end of all things; it was actually the end of old

I have often grinned over the way I got shanghaied into that wretched
ship, although it was a glorious voyage. Out to the West Indies, and
round to the Gulf of Mexico, Barbados, Portobello, Vera Cruz, Tampico,
Progresso, and all those old historical places with which the West
Indies teems. One could easily write a book about each individual place,
its inhabitants and their quaint and comical customs, though this
applies more to the islands and the northern side of the Gulf. The
inhabitants of the southern and western parts are mainly the Latin race
in about its worst form. An Englishman appreciates a joke, but not when
it's pointed with a knife, and no matter whether it's Mexican,
Columbian, or Venezuelan, they are an untrustworthy lot, and forever
digging buttonholes into their fellow men.

Whereas the West Indian negro is just a child of nature, full of fun and
harmless devilment, stinks like a polecat, but sings divinely. They are
in fact, born songsters. See them sitting in a row, with ragged hats,
say on the New Orleans Levee, dangling their bare and often dirty feet
over the stringer piece, is a sight in itself. Up and down the line goes
a word a joke, and a deep throated laugh. Then, without the slightest
premeditation, the whole line bursts into a quaint, chanting song, each
part perfectly taken and harmonized. If you don't have creeps running up
into your back hair, then you've no ear for music. And the water round
the islands, clear as crystal; in fact there are mighty few places where
you cannot see your anchor at five fathoms. All-coloured fish swimming
about, great big rainbow-hued conch shells, and, of course, our old
friend, John Shark.

The natives here, like the West African natives, are born to the
water, and will dive off the rail, after a threepenny bit had actually
touched the water, and pick it up long before it reaches the bottom. One
evening we thought we would have a try and bringing up some of these
bright coloured conch shells ourselves. We had seen how the natives go
down, and how when they got to the bottom they slipped their hands under
the shells, detaching them from the rock, and brought them up stuck to
their hands. This sport came near to be our undoing.

That evening. whilst we were leaning over the rail, smoking and yarning,
someone spotted a huge conch shell a little way out from our quarter,
Like a fool, one of the chaps was going to have that shell! So, clothed
in a birthday suit, he jumped up on the rail and dived over the side,
and down. After a struggle he got his hand between the fish and rock.
The fish then attached itself to his hand, and short of putting the
shell in between his feet and pulling with all his might, it was
impossible to get the thing off, for your fingers are sucked right into
the shell itself. This however, did not worry him. Up he came, but at an
angle that took him still further from the ship. Once again on the
surface, he waved his capture above his head, still stuck to his fist,
swimming slowly at the same time, towards the gangway. At this moment,
we spotted a sinister black shape, still some distance away, and below
water. One of the chaps sang out, "Come on, you ass, buck up." He caught
an anxious inflexion in the voice, and glanced round on the surface of
the water, but there was nothing to be seen from water level, so he
thought it was just his imagination, and continued to swim leisurely
towards the ship. Two or three of us rushed down the gangway, whilst
another fellow hailed him, and this time there was no mistake about the
anxiety. He looked again, and there, sure enough, was that black fin,
now cutting the water like a knife and about a hundred yards away from
him. He had not twenty feet to go, but, as he said later, the leaden
feet one experiences in dreams, trying to run away from some overtaking
horror, was mild compared with his feeling of pure unadulterated terror.
Of course, try as he might, he could not get that infernal shell off his
hand. He went through all the gyrations imaginable, trying to swim with
it, trying to tow it, trying to do anything that would bring him to the
gangway. By this time, we were down the gangway and on the platform,
waiting to make a grab. There was no boat in the water, and no time to
lower one, so no help was available from that source. Did he bring his
feet up when we grabbed him under the armpits? Did he not! We beat John
Shark by a good ten yards. After that episode, however, diving for
shells became unpopular--much to the amusement of the natives.

A round of the islands and we loaded up in New Orleans for home. Deep
loaded with grain, and cattle on deck, she wallowed her weary way, far
worse than the proverbial canal barge. All went comparatively well until
crossing the Grand Banks of Newfoundland. Here, owing to the shallowness
of the water, a wall sided sea gets up that is the terror of all small
and moderate-sized ships. It is well known to all Western Ocean sailors,
and with a small deep loaded ship, it behoves one to treat it with
respect and heave to in plenty of time.

One afternoon it blew up and there was every indication that we were in
for a dirty night.

The KNIGHT COMPANION was really an Eastern trader; so was the Captain.
The ship was not built to face the Western Ocean, and the Skipper lacked
Western Ocean experience. She was running heavily all afternoon, and
when I left the bridge, I half suggested that it was getting time to
heave-to. The skipper jokingly, though, half seriously said, "Oh, I
thought you Western Ocean sailors were never afraid of bad weather."
There was nothing more to say, so I went below. Even then she was
lurching and labouring far too heavily for anyone to remain long in his
bunk, so I made myself up a bed on the floor of my cabin and jammed
myself in as best I could. The pitch and heave to the following sea
rapidly grew worse, one could feel her difficulty in rising and getting
away from the seas racing after her, and threatening to overwhelm her.
An hour or so later I felt that horrible and unmistakable feeling of a
ship pooping. A sea had broken over her stern, and she shuddered
horribly as it tore its way along the decks, crushing and smashing
everything in its wake.

There was no object in dashing up on deck and chance getting washed
overboard; if the ship were going down, one might as sell stay where one
was. A few minutes later I felt her broach-to, and over she went, almost
on her beam ends, being pounded all the time by the huge seas breaking
on her. After a few long drawn minutes she eventually came to, head on
to wind and righted.

Of course, by this time, my cabin, along with everybody's was all
afloat. Water everywhere, but evidently some of the fires in the
stokehold were still alight, and the ship was able to keep head to wind.
I went on deck. What a ghastly wreck! The sea had simply crushed down
flat the whole of the cattle pens fore and aft, and cattle in all shapes
and forms were lying dying, maimed, bruised and broken, all over the
ship. Numbers, had, or course, mercifully been washed overboard.
Unfortunately, steam had been left on deck, and was running through many
of the pipes, which only added to the horror. There was nothing for it
but to release what we could, and simply let them wash overboard. Seas
breaking over us all the time, but the main aim and object was to save
the ship.

 We remained hove-to for the best part of forty-eight hours before the
gale eased down and we were able to keep her away again for our home
port. So much for the Western Ocean in general and the Grand Banks in
particular. When we did get home, I wasted no time in getting ashore,
and finding something a little more orderly and seaworthy.

After another year or so of knocking around, a good part of the time
spent ashore, mostly doing things of not much interest to anyone but
myself, I discovered one day that I had arrived at the mature age of
twenty-five, and it struck me that it was just about time that I quit
this roving and settled down to something really permanent. I fully
realised that I might quite easily have been much ahead of where I was;
still, I never regretted the time I had lost. I had had good times and I
had enjoyed them. Experience is always a good companion, if you look at
it that way. Granted there had been a considerable element of luck that
had always enabled me to catch up; in fact, in the end, when I joined
the White Star Line, I was still ahead of the average age.



So, in the year of Our Lord 1900, armed with a letter of introduction
and full of good resolutions, I made my appearance at 30 James Street,
Liverpool, the headquarters of the wonderful White Star Line. It was
customary in those days to have to wait anything up to six months before
getting an appointment, so, feeling very virtuous at having done the
great deed, I slipped away for a few months' holiday. Within a week, to
my utter disgust, I had orders to report; and on arriving in Liverpool,
found I was appointed to the R.M.S. MEDIC, the first of the five huge
White Star Liners that were to open the new Australian service. I
suppose I ought to have felt flattered at being picked out from among
the many, but it was rather a staggerer, since all my outfit happened to
be roaming somewhere round the railways, more or less lost, and
certainly unobtainable.

When the Marine Superintendent told me the ship was sailing within a
couple of days, I blurted out, "Good Lord, I've no clothes." His reply
was short, and to the point. "Get some." I did, and rambled off to
Australia with slightly less than half an outfit. But it was the White
Star Line, the summit, at that time, of my ambitions.

What a change after that precious old cattle truck. Here everything
spotless and clean; everything just-so, discipline strict, but in no way
irksome. Navigation such as I had never known it.

I soon fell into things and became frightfully keen at my job. Crowds of
passengers and plenty going on. I lasted a whole voyage, and then I sent
in my resignation in preference to being fired! Undoubtedly my own fault
for again doing those things usually left undone by the discreet and
wisely minded.

It came about this way. We were lying in Sydney, in Neutral Bay, and for
one reason and another our sailing had been delayed. She was a show
ship, the biggest that had ever been out there, and the people in
Australia gave the time of our lives. Everything and everywhere it was
the MEDIC.

I was always extremely fond of small boat sailing, and it was partly
this amusement that got me into the scrape. I, as fourth officer (since
she did not carry a fifth), with four midshipmen, had rigged up one of
the ship's boats. We fitted her with a false keel, and used to sail her
all over the harbour, that most wonderful of harbours in the wide world,
and the boat was no slouch either.

One day we had been across to Rosecutter's Bay (sic), and, as an excuse
for the jaunt, had taken sandbags to fill up with sand and bring back
for the purpose of holystoning the decks. Now, standing in the middle of
the harbour is a rock, on which is built a fort, known as Fort Dennison
(sic), or more commonly Pinchgut, owing to the starvation diet on which
the convicts were kept whilst confined in the fort. Mounted on this fort
is a huge gun, that covers the whole of the harbour.

We were coming off with a light breeze, clad in our white ducks,
thoroughly enjoying life, and went to pass windward of the fort. The
boat did not seem inclined to lie up to it, and as it was of no
consequence whatever, we ran close under the lee. One of the boys,
Watson by name, lying on his back along one of the thwarts and looking
up as we passed close under the fort, noticed the projecting muzzle of
this huge gun. "What a lark," he blurted out, "to fire that gun some
night. Wouldn't it shake 'em up?" I looked up, and as they say in
Yankeeland, fell for it. It was a proposition that appealed. So, with
each one sworn to secrecy, we set about what proved to be a task that
took over six weeks to accomplish, but it was worth it.

First, there was the powder to get, and, to avoid suspicion, it had to
be obtained in very small quantities. There was fuse to get also, but
before we committed ourselves very deeply, bearing in mind our very
limited exchequer, it behoved us to go off some night and reconnoiter,
and find out what sort of gun it was, and if it COULD be fired. For this
purpose we commandeered a scow from Cavill's Baths that lie off the

Sydney Harbour is reeking with sharks, as in fact is the whole of the
water round Australia; any baths therefore, must have a shark-proof
netting, and it is customary to have floating pontoons, on which are
built the dressing rooms, and from which the shark-proof netting is
suspended. These iron tanks rapidly become fouled in the warm water, and
it was for the purpose of cleaning these tanks that this one man scow
was used. It was capable of carrying one man, and one drum of tar, with
a fair amount of safety.

Two of the boys were wise, and at this juncture backed out of the
escapade, so the remaining two and myself boarded our noble scow one
night, and proceeded to paddle out into the middle of Sydney Harbour.
Our good Guardian Angel must have been pretty wide awake. Although it
was dead calm and the surface like glass, we could not paddle quickly
because the water came over the bows. As to what would have happened if
the slightest breeze had sprung up, doesn't need a very vivid
imagination. However, I cannot say it bothered us; we wanted to get
there and we got there, climbing up the lightning conductor and into the
turret-like top of the fort.

The interior was a huge circular well, round which this massive gun
carriage was supposed to revolve. The gun was an old muzzle loader, and
I should think the whole outfit weighed somewhere in the region of
twenty tons.

I was walking round the parapet on the inside with cat-like tread,
looking to see what I could find, when I suddenly realised there was a
face staring at me out of the darkness within two feet of mine.
Instinctively I drew back my arm, in a way wondering who would get in
the first knock when I realised that my opponent was my own reflection
in the glass of the door, which led to the lower regions of the fort.

We found the bore and vent all clear, with ramrod, sponge, and extractor
all complete. As the latter two could only be required in the event of a
second shot, they did not interest us. If we could ram home and bring
off the "One Gun Salute" as it was eventually called, we were going to
rest on our laurels. Having completed our examination, we returned down
the lightning conductor, into the scow, and back to Cavill's Baths. That
occupied one whole night, from just before midnight until five o'clock
in the morning, and not a soul a penny the wiser.

We slowly collected powder, fuse, and masses of white cotton waste,
which we marled down, with the object of ramming home in the form of
three large wads, and so completing the charge. There were fourteen
pounds of blasting powder alone, apart from a similar amount of fine
grain, the former, of course, went in the rear of the charge, as it
burns slower;

What really topped off the crazy joke, and gave it a real artistic
finish, was the idea of hoisting the Boer colours on the flag staff of
the Fort.

England was then in the throes of the Boer War, with Australia more
loyal, more patriotic, more fervently keen for Empire rights, than
was even displayed at home. It is notorious that the Australians are
always more British than the English themselves, loyal to the heart's
core, and every thought for the homeland. The scene on the quaysides,
and in the towns when a contingent was leaving for South Africa, simply
staggered belief. The people were patriotic mad, and had there been the
ships and the necessity, every man jack in Australia would have

It was under these conditions that we conceived the glorious idea of
hoisting the Boer Flag and flaunting a real roaring red rag to the
Australian bull. It had, of course, to be made, and must not be made out
of bunting, otherwise it would at once be traced to some ship in the
harbour. Actually it was made out of linen pinched from the surgery, and
painted with the Boer colours. All this had to be done behind locked
doors, and after many days we were ready at last to put our scheme to
the test.

We had located a boat which we could commandeer, and at eleven o'clock
one night, with a nice fine drizzle falling, sufficient to keep most
people in doors, we loaded up. I had the honour of carrying the fifty
feet of fuse round my waist, and the bag of powder slung round my
shoulder and under my armpits, covered by my coat. Three huge wads of
waste and the coil of signal halyards, for hauling the ammunition up,
were distributed equally between us.

With this, the three of us marched up George Street, Sydney, perfectly
confident that every policeman we came to was going to arrest us on
suspicion and trembling in our shoes in consequence; not so much I'll
say, in fear of ourselves, but that our plot might fail.

It did not.

We got our boat; then out to the fort, and up the lightning conductor.
Everything worked nicely to plan. Having hauled up the powder, I laid on
my back, and with my heels on the inside edge of the Fort, I was just
able to reach the muzzle of the gun, jam in the flannel bag containing
the power, and ram it well home. Next followed the two wads of waste,
and they also were rammed well home. Then, finally, the third wad, which
had first been soaked in water.

Our only disappointment so far had been that we were unable to train the
gun until it bore on a Russian man-o'-war then lying in the harbour. If
this had been possible, we intended to insert one of the sandstone balls
from off the top of Government Garden Gates, which would have burst on
impact with her decks, and left little or no trace, but added
considerably to the fun. This did not come off, however, as the gun
couldn't be trained.

Having rammed the charge home, until the thud of the rammer was loud
enough to bring out the sentry, we quit. The plan was for the other two
boys to hoist the flag, let go the piece of signal halyard, that we had
used to haul up the ammunition, get down to the boat, turn her stern on
the rocks, haul the signal halyards into the boat, lay on their oars,
and stand by.

I had allowed three minutes for this operation.

In the meantime the fifty feet of fuse had to be coiled round the breach
of the gun; the pricker then driven down the vent to pierce the flannel
bag of powder, a small box of fine grain powder poured down the
touch-hole, the business end of the fuse stuck down the vent, and then
to stand by with a match. All this I finally finished, and there was
still one minute to wait; it seemed like an hour.

At last the great moment arrived. Striking the match, I lit the frayed
out end of the fuse, and, as it spluttered and hissed, blew out the
match, and put it into my mouth. The flag was now gaily fluttering in
the breeze, as I dashed for the lightning conductor, to find, in the
first place, that Watson had forgotten to let go one piece of signal
halyard. This I cast off; then I more fell than climbed down the slide
of the fort, on to the rocks below, only to discover that a plank in the
boat had been stove in on the rocks, by the wash from a passing tug, and
she was half full of water.

There was no choice; the fuse was burning, so we had to go. In we jumped
and pulled like mad. The others were both Conway boys, and they could
pull. I had to strip off my shirt and jam it into the hole, and hold a
foot on to it to keep the boat afloat at all.

It was impossible, in the circumstances, to return her. We had to land,
just at the nearest point, draw her up where she would be safe, and
scoot for our lives.

We went through the Domain, over the fourteen feet spiked gates of
Government Gardens, and across Government Gardens--where Watson came to
grief by putting his toe in one of the hoops round a rose bed, turning a
complete somersault, landing on his back in the middle of the bed. We
picked him up, and some of the more prominent thorns out, and continued
the race. As yet we had not stopped even to put on our shoes.

We went over the gates on the far side of the gardens and on to Circular
quay. There we pulled up to take breath. They, of course, wanted to
know, "was everything all right?" "Had the fuse been lit?" "Would the
gun go off?" and so on. I said I'd done everything, but the only thing I
had a doubt about was that, in my excitement in driving the pricker down
the vent hole, I could not say for certain if it had pierced the flannel
bag. If this had not been done, I was afraid the main charge would not
ignite, and, of course, the gun would not go off. This was going to be a
mighty grievous disappointment; still, we consoled ourselves whilst
putting on our boots, with the thought that, at any rate, they would
find the Boer colours flying.

At this instant the whole sky lit up with a flash like lightning. Each
of us stopped in his tracks, and held his breath. Was it, or was it not
the gun? Surely not, with a huge flash like that. More likely lightning.

We waited and waited.

Then it came, and no mistake indeed. There was a crash like thunder, we
could feel the concussion even where we stood.

We danced and shouted; threw down our caps and danced on them, and even
shook hands, and, in short, behaved like lunatics. WE'D DONE THE TRICK.

We soon realised that it behoved us not to act like imbeciles, or we
should attract attention; so, very sedately and circumspectly, we made
out way back on board. The Quartermaster had been disposed of when
coming ashore by sending him on a wild goose chase to make some coffee,
and whilst he was away from the gangway we slipped ashore unseen. Coming
back, our luck was still in, and we each got to our cabins without
anyone being the wiser.

How we chuckled during the remainder of our stay in Sydney. The noise,
the uproar, the jeers and recriminations. Imagine the feelings of the
inhabitants when they found the colours of Britain's hated enemy,
fluttering in the breeze, and on the flagstaff of the harbour's main
fortification. Oh! It was great. The military authorities tried to throw
the responsibility on the naval authorities, who retaliated by insisting
the the Fort was a military garrison, and not their responsibility at

Somehow they managed to keep the papers in the dark for a couple of
days, with the result that when the papers DID get hold of it, they
pulled the official leg, until the authorities were jumping mad, and
would have cheerfully hung, drawn and quartered the culprits had they
caught them, but luckily for our hides, they never did.



A Strange Story

Who fired the gun?

The police are engaged in investigating a peculiar occurrence which is
reported to have taken place at Fort Denison the other morning. The
authorities are strangely reticent about the matter, but from what can
be gleaned, it would seem that either a big practical joke has been
played by someone, or else there are in our midst persons of a very
strong pro-Boer temperament. The police are busily engaged in looking
for an explanation.

Just as the Post Office clock had struck the hour of 1 a.m., a gun went
off at Fort Denison, breaking some of the windows and, the story goes,
putting the red light out. How it happened, nobody seems to know. On the
tower are several large guns of an obsolete pattern, and it is one of
these that is said to have gone off. Moreover, it has been stated that
in the morning, a flag with the Boer colours was found flying on the
tower. But, whilst this has not been positively denied, an official
communicated with last night said he 'never heard of such a thing.' At
the same time he admitted having received a similar report. A man was
dispatched to examine the guns, with the result that he reported that
one of them had the appearance of having just been fired. A direct
question as to whether it had been fired met with the answer. 'That
remains to be proved.'

 Meanwhile the mystery continues and all sorts of stories, possible and
impossible, are going about. One is to the effect that a boatman saw a
man pull over to Pinchgut; and, making his boat fast, climb up the
tower. It was too dark to see what he was doing, and though he watched
him for some time, thinking his movements somewhat mysterious; the
boatman took no particular notice of the occurrence until he suddenly
heard a gun go off. A fuse is supposed to have been employed, and it is
also clear that the gunpowder was carried to the fort.

The Daily Telegraph, Sydney Australia, October 11, 1900, p.7



Who Fired That Gun?

The select committee of the Legislative Assembly, appointed to inquiire
into the administration of the Military Department, continued its
sittings to-day. Mr. Sleath, M.L.A. presiding. Colonel Roberts, C.M.G.,
Military Secretary, was again under examination.

Upon the committee assembling the chairman asked Colonel Roberts if he
could offer any explanation of the reported erratic conduct of a gun at
Fort Denison.

Colonel Roberts: Why, what happened?

Mr. Sleath: Was not the military called out?

Colonel Roberts: No; what happened?

Mr. Cook: What happened to Jones? It was what happened to the gun this

Mr. Sleath: The gun went off.

Colonel Roberts: What is the joke?

Mr. Sleath: Are you not in a position to give any explanation:

Colonel Roberts: None whatever. When did this take place, and what was

 Mr. Sleath then read an extract from the press regarding the reported
firing of the gun at Fort Denison in the early morning. Colonel Roberts
said Fort Denison was not under his department, being under the control
of the naval authorities.

Mr. Sleath: Then Captain Hixson is the man to explain all about the gun?

Colonel Roberts: He ought to be.

Patrick Stenson. TITANIC Voyager: The Odyssey of C.H. Lightoller.
Halsgrove, Endurance Productions, 1998. The newspaper source cannot be


City and Suburban Brevities


A gun was fired on Fort Denison (Pinchgut), in Sydney Harbour last
week, apparently by some practical joker. The man who loaded and fired
the gun must have climbed up the lightning-conductor. Police are
investigating the matter.

The Sydney Mail, October 20, 1900.

Concerns were also raised in the Legislative Assembly

Mr. Sleath: I desire to ask the Minister of Defence whether his
attention has been called to a report appearing in both the morning and
evening newspapers to the effect that one of the guns at Fort Denison
was fired the other morning at twenty minutes to four o'clock, the Boer
flag being run up the masthead. Perhaps the hon. Gentleman will also
state whether it is a fact that the guns at Fort Denison remain loaded
all night?

Mr. See: I did not see the paragraph to which the hon. Member referred,
but since my attention has been called to it, I shall make an inquiry in
the morning, and I am hopeful of being able to give my hon. friend an
answer at tomorrow's sitting."



It was not until I got home that the full measure of my iniquity was
brought home to me. It had leaked out on board, and though I hate to say
it, one of my own shipmates was mean enough to give me away to the
powers at 30 James Street, Liverpool. They, on their part, had no choice
but to sit up and take notice for it was reported under the guise of
"endangering the Midshipmen's lives." That, and one or two other things
that had been done, which probably would have been best left undone,
although they were quite good sport in the doing, finally caused me to
realise the immediate necessity of writing my resignation, before I was
asked for it; and so nearly ended my brief career in the White Star
Line. Nearly, but not quite so.

The Marine Superintendent, dear old Daddy Hewitt--now long since passed
beyond--put me on the carpet, and gave me the darndest dressing down I
ever had in my life; but before making his final decision, he insisted
on my giving him full and complete details. Thinking that as I had the
order of the boot anyway, it was of little consequence how I told it, or
how he received it, I simply told it in my own words, neither hiding nor
elaborating anything. I suppose I enthused a bit towards the end, for I
noticed that he kept putting his hand up and rubbing his old grey
beard--not that I paid much attention--until, just as I had finished, he
went off into a roar of laughter. My dejected spirits immediately shot
up, and I thought, "Come, it isn't so bad if he can laugh," and in the
end it wasn't. He picked up my resignation which was lying in front of
him, tore it in half, and growled out, "Get out of here, and back on
board your ship."

I was taken out of the Australian Line as it was not thought advisable
for me to go back until things had simmered down a bit. As a matter of
fact, in effect, I got slight promotion, through being transferred to
the Atlantic, but before finishing with Australia I must just give this
example of the wonderful Australian hospitality we experienced whilst in

These boys and I had been across the harbour to Rosecutter's Bay (sic),
and had decided to have a ramble along the cliffside, catching lizards,
crabs, and so forth, when I suddenly realised that I had left my good
watch in the boat, and with one of the boys, who volunteered to come
with me, went off back. The other two went on, Watson, of course, one of
them. Roach and I sat there on the gunwhale of the boat dangling our
feet in the water, for half an hour or so, when we suddenly heard hails
and yells from Watson and Freke who suddenly appeared bounding down the
cliff with two men in pursuit. Roach and I shoved the boat off, turned
her round stern on, hoisted the mainsail, and stood waiting, up to our
knees in water. When the two men saw this manoeuvre, and that evidently
these boys were from the boat, they stopped. Watson and Freke tore
across the beach and into the water. We all tumbled on board and sheeted

They were in convulsions of laughter, and could hardly explain, when I
asked them with some annoyance, what on earth they had been up to. If
there was any possible mischief to be got into, trust Watson to be in
it. His story was that they were returning to the boat along the top of
a cliff, when they came to a fence that reached right to the edge. In
the fence was a gate. The only alternative to returning the way they had
come, was to open the gate and walk into what proved to be a garden.
They walked in, and the path led them up to a house. Around the house
was the invariable wide, sun screened veranda. On this veranda was a tea
table, tea already made and the table all set out with cakes, fruit, and
all the etceteras that appeal to the heart of a hungry boy. With
inconceivable cheek, Watson planted himself in a chair and invited Freke
to a cup of tea. Freke, although he should have known better, sat down,
and they both sailed in to a downright good tuck in. In the middle of
it, Watson, who was facing the hall of the house, noticed in the
shadows, a lady and two gentlemen, calmly standing watching the whole
proceeding. "Cave!" yelled Watson, and made his exit. The two gentlemen,
who proved to be father and son, came running out, and called to them to
stop. As Watson emphatically said, "We were not doing any stopping."

"Well," I said, "of course, you are for it this time."

Although they had only duck pants and soft shirts on, their badge cap
must have given them away. Anyway, they were the only midshipmen in
Sydney at that time, and I think everyone on board the MEDIC was far too
well-known for them not to have been spotted. I decided there was only
one thing to do, and that was to get back as soon as we could next day
and make full apologies, for although it might only be a joke, played on
the spur of the moment, if it got into cold print it would look beastly.
So next day back to the beach we went, and, in a weak moment, I gave way
to their entreaties that I should go up and make peace for them.

I went up, and the lady of the house came to the door. I commenced "I've
come to apologise for the outrageous behaviour of those two young
midshipmen yesterday." I got no further. Here you have the true

"Oh, don't say a word about it," she said. I THOUGHT those two boys were
off the MEDIC. We thoroughly enjoyed the joke. We called them to come
back. We wanted them to join us--but they wouldn't"

"No," I said, "they told me you had called them, but, as they put it,
'they were not stopping.' You see they are not used to your Australian
ways. In England such a thing would not be looked upon in the light of a
joke, by any means."

Nothing would satisfy her but that I should bring the boys up to the
house, and she would give them tea, right there and then. I could have
hugged her.

I went back to the boys, pulling a long face, and said that nothing but
their personal attendance and an abject apology would meet the case.
"Come on, now," I said, "and take your medicine." They came, a most
dejected looking pair. And their blank amazement was really well worth
seeing, when Mrs. Penrose, the dear old motherly soul, almost threw her
arms around them. She gave them all they could eat, and far more than
was good for them. From that hour, her place was open house to every
officer and midshipman on board, particularly the midshipmen. Parties
and picnics, afloat and ashore, during the remainder of the time we were
in Sydney, and very loth they were to leave it.

Poor old Watson!

When in Cape Town, we both tried to join the S.A. Light Horse. We
couldn't get a scrap of help, and unless we left the ship, they would
not look at us. We tried all we knew how, to get the Powers to use their
influence with the White Star Line, to sign us off, but there was
nothing doing, and as I couldn't afford to burn my boats, we went home.
Having got home, the glamour of war, to me, had faded to a certain
extent, and in any case, I realised I had got to stick at sea, and stick
to the company, if I was going to do any good at all. Watson was younger
and went back--and he stayed there. Shot in action on the Tugela River.



With the exception of one other voyage to Australia, which, as a matter
of fact, although promotion at the time, was actually a punishment
voyage, for a certain scrape I got into, the whole of my twenty years
with the White Star Line, was spent on the Atlantic service: fifteen in
the mail boats, and if ever there was a kill or cure, it was a Western
Ocean mail boat in winter time.

In those days, although the ships were much smaller, everything was
devoted to making a passage, with the result that the ship was driven
smashing through everything and anything in the way of weather, pretty
well regardless of damage done. Those ships were stronger in proportion
than the mammoths of today.

I have seen a big modern liner push a plate in, where the old time ship
would have just bumped and bounced off without a scrap of damage. Three
times in the old MAJESTIC I have seen the look-out cage, situated half
way up the fore-lowermast, and built of steel, flattened in against the
mast, but little or no damage on deck.

The officers' quarters were situated on the fore deck, and formed a kind
of breakwater to the saloon. Immense nets were spread from the fore part
of our quarters to the after part of the fo'c'sle to break up the seas
as they came thundering on board. The ports with their inch-thick glass,
were protected in bad weather with thick oak shutters with small
two-inch bulls-eyes let into them. Notwithstanding these precautions,
one afternoon, for instance, we shipped a sea, or, to be more correct,
we drove into and under a sea, that dropped on top of us; and the first
thing it touched was the nets. These it tore to pieces, and struck the
fore part of our place with such force that although built of steel, and
of immense strength, the fore part was completely bent in. The glass
bull's eye was driven through the inner port, and a piece of this glass
actually took a cup out of the hand of an officer sitting at the table
having afternoon tea, leaving the handle in his hand. Any meal in those
circumstances, was a series of gymnastics, and although not amusing at
the time, very often became the subject of an interesting yarn when
swapping lies with kindred spirits, later on.

On one occasion a huge roast of beef was planted on the Second Officer's
pillow. He was on the bridge at the time, and although immensely fond of
a practical joke at other people's expense, could never bear to have one
played on himself; but this one was on him all right. The roast of beef
was on one end of the mess room table which ran athwartships, and it was
the custom, in this ship only, for the First Officer to carve. The boat
gave one of her terrific lurches, which, when accompanied by the
propeller coming out of the water, engenders a sensation immeasurably
worse than an express lift dropping from the upper floors of a

The First must have thought the Chief was going to check the beef. One
did not, neither did the other, with the result that it came careering
across the table, and having got a good start, each officer cheered it
on its way. At the far end of the table the dish was brought up with a
jerk by striking the fiddle, or wooden stretcher that is placed there to
keep the cutlery and plates with bounds. The edge of the dish had just
sufficient lip to give the roast an upward trend, and, although there
were two bunks, one above the other, and over ten feet of space, the
roast described a graceful parabola through the air, across the rest of
the messroom, through Barber's cabin, and came to rest on his pillow.
The mess room steward at once set out to retrieve it, but we unanimously
agreed that it was in far too good a place to be disturbed.

Barber had a habit of coming off the bridge and asking the steward what
the others had had for their meal, as, of course, in these ships, there
is a pretty long menu. We had coached the steward, before we had retired
to our cabins and when Barber had made his usual enquiry, "Well, Davies,
what have you got," followed by, "What have the others had? Oh, all
right, I'll have the roast beef too," Davies replied, "The roast beef is
in your bunk, sir." At first, Barber didn't know what to make of it,
then, when he did realize this, as the song goes, "The air went blue for
miles all round," and to this day he firmly believes it was put there.
When you take into consideration that the edge of the bunk was five feet
from the deck, and ten feet from the edge of the table, it certainly did
seem pretty near an impossibility, but at the same time, it wall give a
fairly clear idea of the contortions of a Western Ocean mail boat in an
Atlantic gale.

These ships are not only the cream of the service, but the cream of the
Mercantile Marine, and it is considered a feather in one's cap to be
appointed to one. Therefore, despite the rigorous conditions, and the
powers of endurance one has to exhibit, there is never a word of
complaint. Time and again I have seen a ship driven into a huge green
wall of water, crowned with that wicked, curling breaker, which it
seemed utterly impossible for anything to withstand. An immediate dash
is made for an iron stanchion, and, gripping this with might and main,
one awaits the crash. Not infrequently the steel fronted bridge,
stanchions and rail are driven back, and nearly flattened to the
deck--to the discomfort of the O.O.W.

It certainly was not a paying game, although the Mail Boat companies
were slow to discover it. As ships grew bigger and faster, and did more
damage in consequence, Captains were warned to be more circumspect, and,
when the occasion demanded, to slow down.

The bigger the ship, the longer she could be driven before she would
take any weighty water on board, but when she did, then it was
proportionately heavier. But the increased strength of the liner by no
means kept pace with the increased volume of water she could, and would

Then again, there is the increased speed of these vessels, and, of
course, the seas have attained an increased speed by the time one does
get its head up and come aboard, the cumulative effect is sometimes
astonishing, and not infrequently, disastrous. In a word, we cannot
drive the ships to-day like we used to, even if we would; just because
their strength has not, and in point of fact, could not, increase with
their size. The temptation to drive is there, but if she is not eased
down, something will happen, as happened to one of our biggest and best
ships, the OLYMPIC.

She had a steel hatch on the forecastle, weighing about three tons. This
was built with a turtle back, and comparatively close down to the deck,
so as to give a sea, when it did come, the very least chance to get a
grip. It was secured all round, inside and underneath by one and an
eighth inch bolts, fifteen inches apart, each bolt individually screwed
hard down before leaving port. Would you think it possible to lift it?
Yet, she had such a hatch ripped off like a piece of paper and flung
down the fore well deck.

Wicked though a Western Ocean gale can be, fog still remains a sailor's
worst enemy, and this applies more so when he is in the region of ice
than anywhere. For this reason the steamship lanes are altered to clear
the Grand Banks altogether when ice is around.

Apart from the ice and fog, an added anxiety when crossing these banks
is the cod fishermen, who put out from Newfoundland, and many other
ports in the United States. One whole fleet comes over from France,
mainly Fécamp.

A blanket of fog will suddenly shut down, with not only these vessels
scattered about, but also their dories, small light skiffs, of which a
large schooner will carry perhaps fifteen to twenty. The dories have no
means whatever of indicating their presence to an oncoming ship; in
fact, the schooners are not really very much better off, particularly
when one takes into consideration the utter unreliability of sound in

The Atlantic Mail Boats have been unfairly blamed for the loss of a
great number of these schooners, whereas, knowing, as we do, the
difficulties under which the fishing is carried out, every possible
precaution and care is taken to avoid a collision. Two look-out men are
always on their stations. In fog, these are always doubled, as also is
the look-out on the bridge. The ship is slowed down, and an automatic
steam whistle blows every minute. It has never been my misfortune to run
of these poor devils down, although, heaven knows, I have been close
enough to them. A slight loom ahead, helm hard over, and gliding by
within biscuit throw, goes a big topsail schooner. A quiet exchange of
glances on the bridge, a sort of general sigh at the escape, and
everyone again freezes into immobility, and intense concentration--watching
and listening.

The risks the individual fishermen take are not only confined to laying
across the steamship lanes. They'll face almost any weather, and almost
always freezing at that. I have seen dories out and fishing in weather
one would have thought it impossible for a small open boat to live in.
Up round the Virgin Rocks, where the water breaks in a heavy sea, it is
a common custom in an increasing gale for these small boats to hang on
and hang on, each man daring the other. This is one of the best fishing
grounds, and the boats lie-to at anchor. The sea steadily rises, banks
up, and eventually breaks. Many is the dory that has been lost here
through sheer daredevil hanging on. See a couple of them riding at the
sea when it has become an absolute wall. With a careful manipulation of
the warp, they run their boat up the precipitous side of the sea, give a
sharp snub on the rope, and she is over the top just as the crest is
about to break. One by one the boats will slip and run, as the seas get
too big for them and threaten to break. But there are one or two
foolhardy ones that will strive for the honour of being the last to the
leave, and not infrequently they are the last--the long, long, last. A
slight misjudgment of the curl of the crest, maybe the anchor drags just
as he goes to snub her over the top, or perhaps the rope itself breaks.
Then the flimsy dory is picked up on that wall of water, flung in the
air, and finally crushed to matchwood--another victim of the Virgins.

I got my severest mail boat training during the seven hard, though happy
years I spent in the Queen of the Seas, as the OCEANIC was then called.
A wonderful ship, built in a class of her own, and by herself.

The usual custom is to build twin ships, as with the BRITANNIC and
GERMANIC, TEUTONIC and MAJESTIC. Then, in lone and stately majesty came
the OCEANIC. She was an experiment, and a wonderfully successful one;
built by Harland and Wolff, regardless of cost, elaborate to a degree,
money lavished where it was necessary, but never gaudily as is so common
nowadays. Her smoke room doors were a masterpiece in themselves, and
cost £500. There was eighteen carat gold plating on the electric light
fittings throughout the saloon and staircase, and paintings by
well-known artists, worth a cool thousand apiece. Hand carvings of
delicate work, and the joy of souvenir hunters. Every deck plank was
picked wood. Last, but by no means least, her Captain, John G. Cameron.
A martinet to his fingertips, who set a standard, that I, for one, found
it difficult to live up to. He was deep voiced and bluff, but a splendid
seaman, and proud of his ship. With his blue eyes and ginger beard he
was a broad shouldered edition of Captain Kettle. Head erect and
shoulders back, he would walk out on the bridge, and fire off a volley
of questions, and woe betide the unfortunate officer that hadn't an
answer ready. Not to be able to answer each, and every one, as quickly
as they were shot at you, in his deep staccato tones, was to invite the
brief but pungent query, "Then what the hell are you here for?" To give
any back chat or even look what you felt would not only put a term to
your services in that ship, but probably ruin your prospects in the
Line. Yet to be appointed to her was the most signal compliment. Of
course, we all knew the questions he was most likely to ask, and had
answers ready. They usually ran: "What are the revolutions?" "What's on
the log at eight bells?" "How's the barometer?" "Where's the wind?"
"What time does the moon rise?" This latter was not an easy one to
answer correctly, and meant a lot of figuring out. As a rule, a broad
guess was near enough, for John G. didn't always bear your replies in
mind. One officer, six feet three inches, and misnamed "Little," well
liked throughout the Line, and not least by John G., was saluted one
evening with the usual rattle of questions, the last one being, "What
time does the moon rise?" to which Little replied, "Eleven-fifteen,
sir." It then being seven-thirty o'clock and Cameron in full mess kit on
his way down to dinner. With that Cameron turned smartly round and left
the bridge, but as he was going down the ladder to the promenade deck,
behold a cloud rolled away, leaving a full moon high up in the sky.
Cameron saw it, and, for a wonder remembered what Little had said, so
when he returned to the bridge after dinner, with his cigar a-cock-bill,
his first question was in a particular "Now I've got you, my lad" tone:

"You told me the moon rose at eleven fifteen, sir?"

Little, not to be caught out, replied:

"I'm awfully sorry, sir, I got hold of last year's calendar."

"You did, did you? Bring it here and let me see it," said Cameron, with
a suspicious squint out of the corner of his eye. Little immediately
replied, in a tone of deep respect:

"I threw it overboard sir, so that no one else should make the same

Cameron looked straight at him and then turned on his heel with an
irrepressible chuckle, and the slow, but pungent remark, "You damned

He never minced matters in his remarks to his officers, although heaven
help the man who took them literally.

The OCEANIC'S bridge was covered with expensive white rubber, laid in
narrow strips, representing planks. This had to be scrubbed every
morning with bath brick, until it was snow white. Incidentally if it was
not scrubbed and got salt water on in, it became so abominably slippery
that we had to lay down coir matting to walk on. She had a bow fronted
wheel house, and covered in bridge amidships. After a shower I used to
amuse myself, when she had got a slight roll on, by trying to slide from
one side of the bridge to the other, without touching anything. It was
rather difficult to negotiate the forward bulge of the wheel house,
steering between this and the wheel on the bridge. With much practice I
became so proficient that four out of five times I would make the
passage without touching. One morning, after several ineffectual
attempts, I at last came across in one beautiful sweep, shooting both
wheel house and wheel, when, to my horror, on the opposite side, out
stepped John G. Cameron.

"And what the hell do you think YOU'RE doing, sir?"

I replied, "I'm awfully sorry, sir. I slipped."

"Slipped, did you? I wish you had broken your damned neck, sir, as you
nearly broke mine."

And with that the incident was closed.

No passengers were allowed on the boat deck, so all these episodes were
kept a jealous secret. No doubt we were looked upon as models of
rectitude and correct behaviour--or at least what they could see of us
above the dodger. On the bridge, with rare exceptions, no doubt we were,
but it was a different tale when we got below--that is, to our own

Then the fun started, particularly at four o'clock in the afternoon,
when my watch ended and afternoon tea was served. It was usual for
almost everyone off watch to have a caulk after lunch--sort of
fortification for the night watches--when there's NO fooling. Unless a
chap was off colour, and pinned a notice on his cabin begging that he
might not be disturbed, he had to come out of his own free will or be
brought out, usually by inserting a lighted blue light (which gives off
a terrific amount of pungent smoke) in a copper fire nozzle to the
ventilator at the bottom of his door. On one such occasion, the deck
steward had to make a hurried visit so that he could assure some
passengers that the ship was not really on fire.

From Second Officer of the OCEANIC to First of the MAJESTIC, then
temporary Chief of the MAJESTIC and back again to First of the OCEANIC,
such were the moves covering the next couple of years.



From the OCEANIC as First, I was appointed to the TITANIC of tragic
memory, as First, and three very contented chaps took the midnight boat
for Belfast, where she was completing. Murdoch, Chief, your humble,
First, and Davy Blair, Second; Captain E.J. Smith, Commodore of the Line
came over a little later on. Captain Smith, or "E.J." as he was
familiarly and affectionately known, was quite a character in the
shipping world. Tall, full whiskered and broad. At first sight you would
think to yourself "Here's a typical Western Ocean Captain." "Bluff,
hearty, and I'll bet he's got a voice like a foghorn." As a matter of
fact, he had a pleasant quiet voice and invariable smile. A voice he
rarely raised above a conversational tone--not to say he couldn't; in
fact, I have often heard him bark an order that made a man come to
himself with a bump. He was a great favourite, and a man any officer
would give his ears to sail under. I had been with him many years, off
and on, in the mail boats, MAJESTIC, mainly, and it was an education to
see him con his own ship up through the intricate channels entering New
York at full speed. One particularly bad corner, known as the South-West
Spit, used to make us fairly flush with pride as he swung her round,
judging his distances to a nicety; she heeling over to the helm with
only a matter of feet to spare between each end of the ship and the

For some time previous to being appointed to the TITANIC "E.J." had been
command of the OLYMPIC--since she was launched in fact. Murdoch also
came from the OLYMPIC, whilst Blair and I were from the OCEANIC.

It is difficult to convey any idea of the size of a ship like the
TITANIC, when you could actually walk miles along decks and passages,
covering different ground all the time. I was thoroughly familiar with
pretty well every type of ship afloat, from a battleship and a barge,
but it took me fourteen days before I could with confidence find my way
from one part of that ship to another by the shortest route. As an
instance of size, there was a huge gangway door through which you could
drive a horse and cart on the starboard side aft. Three other officers,
joining later, tried for a whole day to find it. No doubt with the help
of a plan, it would have been fairly simple, but a sailor does not walk
round with a plan in his pocket, he must carry his ship in his head, and
in an emergency such as fire must be able to get where he wants by sheer
instinct--certainly without a chance of getting lost on the way.

Touching on fire, the modern ship's equipment is such that it is almost
impossible, with fair play, for a fire to get a serious hold. I say
this, despite the fact that quite recently no less than three modern
liners have been burned out. Generally speaking, the fire-fighting
equipment is based on something like these lines. Close adjacent to the
bridge is the Master Fire Station, where a Fireman in full regalia is on
duty night and day, and must never be more than six feet away from the
door of his station. In his little cubby hole, he is surrounded with
instruments which keep him in close touch with secondary Fire Stations
situated in commanding positions throughout the ship. In front of him,
in the Master Station, on the bulk-head, is a glass fronted air tight
case, into which are leading numbers of little tubes, coming direct from
the Secondary Fire Stations. By suction a current of air is drawn
through these tubes and into the case. As the air comes through the tube
it impinges on a filament resembling tinfoil, causing this to vibrate,
and therefore proves that a current of air is actually passing through.
If the other end of this tube should be blocked, or stuffed up by some
unconscious humorist, this filament at once becomes stationary.

Now if anyone were to stand close to the other end of the tube, say
smoking a cigarette, the smoke would be drawn into the tube, passed up
to the Fire Station, and strike this filament. The smoke would then
become exaggerated until it resembled a ball of wool, and would
immediately catch the notice of the man on duty. If he wishes he can
ascertain for his own satisfaction whether it is just tobacco smoke, or
something more dangerous. Probably if he finds it is merely tobacco
smoke he will conclude that someone is standing nearby the tube
smoking, and may wait a reasonable time for it to disappear. If he is
not satisfied he will telephone down, calling that Station; and, the
man on duty replying, he will ask, more or less politely, if anyone is
smoking near that detector: Probably the man on the Secondary Station
will find that it is just tobacco smoke and report it. If, on the other
hand, it were, for instance, the result of some careless fool throwing
a cigarette down on the carpet, and setting it alight, very few moments
would elapse before it was known on the bridge, and communication made
to the necessary points.

Hoses are always ready, rigged in readiness and attached to hydrants, so
that even in the case of a really serious fire suddenly breaking out, it
would be known at headquarters within a very few seconds, "fire
stations" signalled, and A Fire Party with hoses buckets and blankets
would be on the spot within three minutes.

In these circumstances it is extremely difficult to arrive at any
satisfactory conclusion as to how, with fair play, a fire could break
out on a modern ship, like say the ATLANTIQUE without being instantly
detected. Admitted there were no passengers on board, yet the ordinary
fire precautions would still be in operation. With the EUROPA it was
different; she was still in the builders' hands, but judging by what one
knows of builders, the fire precautions are just as stringent whilst the
ship is being built as they are when she goes to sea; in British
shipyards, anyhow, and I don't suppose the Germans are a whit behind us.

But to return to the TITANIC. Putting a new ship in commission is, at
the best of times, a pretty strenuous job. With the TITANIC, it was
night and day work, organizing here, receiving stores there, arranging
duties, trying and testing out the different contrivances, makers of the
hundred and one instruments with their chits to be signed certifying
that this, that, and the other was in perfect working order. All the
navigation instruments fell to my lot, as also did firearms and

These latter are looked on mostly as ornaments in the modern ship.

Revolvers, rifles and bayonets in the Merchant Service, are rather
superfluous. A man governs by accepted discipline, tact, his own
personality, and good common sense. We have no King's Regulations to
back us up; neither do we need them; nor yet do we require firearms,
except on the rarest occasions. Curiously enough, the TITANIC was to
prove the only occasion at sea that I have ever seen firearms handed
out, and even then it was not Britishers they were used to influence.

After running our trials we finally took over from the builders and
proceeded round to Southampton. It was clear to everybody on board that
we had a ship that was going to create the greatest stir British
shipping circles had ever known. For one thing she was the first ship to
be fitted with a third screw, driven by a low-powered turbine. For
manuvering, the two wing screws alone were used, but once clear of the
land, steam from low pressure cylinders was turned into this turbine,
and undoubtedly gave her a wonderful turn of speed.

Unfortunately, whilst in Southampton, we had a re-shuffle amongst the
Senior Officers. Owing to the OLYMPIC being laid up, the ruling lights
of the White Star Line thought it would be a good plan to send the Chief
Officer of the OLYMPIC, just for the one voyage, as Chief Officer of the
TITANIC, to help, with his experience of her sister ship. This doubtful
policy threw both Murdoch and me out of our stride; and, apart from the
disappointment of having to step back in our rank, caused quite a little
confusion. Murdoch, from Chief, took over my duties as First, I stepped
back on Blair's toes as Second, and picked up the many threads of his
job, whilst he,--luckily for him as it turned out--was left behind. The
other officers remained the same. However, a couple of days in
Southampton saw each of us settled in our new positions and familiar
with our duties. Board of Trade surveys were carried out to everyone's
satisfaction. Life boats and all life-saving equipment tested, exercised
and passed. "Fireworks" (distress rockets, distress signals, blue
lights, etc.) examined, tried and approved. All these and a hundred and
one other details pertaining to a crack Atlantic Liner preparing for sea
were gone through. Being a new ship, and the biggest in the world, even
more scrupulous care was exercised than is usual, or applies to a ship
on her settled run. The Board of Trade Surveyor, Captain Clark,
certainly lived up to his reputation as being the best cursed B.O.T.
representative in the South of England at that time. Many small details,
that another surveyor would have taken in his stride accepting the
statement of the officer concerned was not good enough for Clark. He
must see everything, and himself check every item that concerned the
survey. He would not accept anyone's word as sufficient--and got
heartily cursed in consequence. He did his job, and I'll certainly say
he did it thoroughly.

At last sailing day arrived, and from end to end the ship, which for
days had been like a nest of bees, now resembled a hive about to swarm.

As "zero" hour drew near, so order could be seen arriving out of chaos.
On the stroke of the hour the gangway was lowered, the whistle blew,
ropes were let go, and the tugs took the strain.

She was away.



Before she cleared the dock we had a striking example of the power that
lay in those engines and propellers.

The OCEANIC and ST. PAUL (sic) were lying moored to the wharf alongside
each other. They happened to be in a position where the TITANIC had to
make a slight turn, which necessitated coming astern on her port engine.
The terrific suction set up in that shallow water simply dragged both
these great liners away from the wharf. The ST. PAUL broke adrift
altogether, and the OCEANIC was dragged off until a sixty foot gangway
dropped from the wharf into the water. It looked as if nothing could
save the ST. PAUL crashing into the TITANIC'S stern--in fact, it was
only Captain Smith's experience and resource that saved her. The
TITANIC, of course, dwarfed these two ships, and made them look like
cross-channel boats, and the wash from her screws had a corresponding
influence. Just as a collision seemed inevitable, Captain Smith gave the
TITANIC a touch ahead on her port engine, which simply washed the ST.
PAUL away, and kept her clear until a couple of tugs, to our unbounded
relief, got hold, and took her back alongside the wharf.

To the casual observer the whole incident would have been just a
thrill--perhaps not much more even though there had been a collision.
For us it would have been something much deeper. It is difficult to
describe just exactly where that unity of feeling lies, between a ship
and her crew, but it is surely there, in every ship that sails salt
water. It is not always a feeling of affection either. A man can hate a
ship worse than he can a human being, although he sails on her. Likewise
a ship can hate her men, then she frequently becomes known as a
"killer," and in the days of sail, would regularly kill a man voyage
after voyage.

The greatest care had to be taken whilst threading our way down the then
comparatively shallow channel of Southampton Water and eventually out to
Spithead. There was a general feeling of relief when at last we got her
into her proper element, deep water.

We then went across to Cherbourg--a short run which barely warmed her
up. Then a longer leg to Queenstown, and finally, the following day, we
opened her up on the long run to New York.

Each day, as the voyage went on, everybody's admiration of the ship
increased; for the way she behaved, for the total absence of vibration,
for her steadiness even with the ever-increasing speed, as she warmed up
to her work.

As day followed day, officers and men settled down into the collar, and
duty linked up with duty until the watches went by without pause or
hitch. We were not out to make a record passage; in fact the White Star
Line invariably run their ships at reduced speed for the first few
voyages. It tells in the long run, for the engines of a ship are very
little different from the engines of a good car, they must be run in.
Take the case of the OCEANIC. She steadily increased her speed from 19½
knots to 21½; when she was twelve years old. It has often been said that
had not the TITANIC been trying to make a passage, the catastrophe would
never have occurred.

Nothing of the kind.

She was certainly making good speed that night of April 14th, but not
her best--nothing compared with what she would have been capable, in say
a couple of years' time. The disaster was just due to a combination of
circumstances that never occurred before and can never occur again. That
may sound like a sweeping statement, yet it is a fact.

All during that fatal day the sea had been like glass--an unusual
occurrence for that time of the year--not that that caused any great
worry. Again, there had been an extremely mild winter in the Arctic,
owing to which, ice from the ice cap and glaciers had broken away in
phenomenal quantities, and official reports say that never before or
since has there been known to be such quantities of icebergs, growler,
field ice and float ice, stretching down with the Labrador current. In
my fifteen years' experience on the Atlantic I had certainly never seen
anything like it--not even in the South Atlantic when, in the old days
of sailing ships, we used to sometimes go down to 65° south.

These were just some contributory causes that combined and brought into
existence, conditions of which the officers of the ship were to a great
extent ignorant.

Wireless reports were coming in through the day from various ships, of
ice being sighted in different positions. Nor was that anything unusual
at this time of the year, and none of the reports indicated the extent
of the ice seen. A report would read "iceberg (or icebergs) sighted in
such and such a latitude and longitude." Later on in the day we did get
reports of ice sighted in larger quantities, and also two reports of
field ice, but they were in positions that did not affect us. The one
vital report that came through but which never reached the bridge, was
received at 9-40 p.m. from the MESABA stating "Ice report in Latitude
42N to 41-25N. Long. 49 to Long. 50-30 W. Saw much heavy pack ice, and
great number large icebergs. Also field ice. Weather good, clear."
Phillips, the wireless operator on watch who received the message was
not to know the extreme urgency of the warning or hat we were at the
time actually entering the area given by the MESABA, and are literally
packed with icebergs, field ice and growlers. He was very busy working
wireless messages to and from Cape Race, also with his accounts. The
junior operator, Bride, of course, knew noting about this vital warning,
being off duty, and turned-in. Later, when standing with others on the
upturned boat, Phillips explained when I said that I did not recollect
any MESABA report: "I just put the message under a paper weight at my
elbow, just until I squared up what I was doing before sending it to the
Officer of the Watch, or the Captain, become aware of the peril lying so
close ahead and not instantly slowed down or stopped, we should have
been guilty of culpable and criminal negligence.

For the last hour of my watch on that never-to-be-forgotten night I had
taken up a stationary position on the bridge, where I had an
unobstructed view right ahead, and perhaps a couple of points on either
bow. That did not signify that I was EXPECTING to see ice, but that
there was the POSSIBILITY of seeing ice, as there always is when
crossing The Banks; ice MAY be sighted. In point of fact, under normal
conditions, we should have probed to be well south of the usual ice
limit; only in this case the ice limit had moved very many miles south,
due solely to the immense amount of ice released in the Arctic.

In ordinary circumstances the cold current carrying the icebergs south,
strikes the warm current flowing to the north-east and under-runs
in--that is to say the cold current goes under the warm current, on the
same principle that warm water always rises. The effect of this is to
melt the iceberg around the water line. It soon "calves" or breaks up
into smaller pieces, which again break up, continuing to float in the
warm surface current for a short time, until completely melted. And so
the work of disintegration goes on in an ever increasing ratio, thereby
forming the "ice limit."

It is often said you can tell when you are approaching ice, by the drop
in temperature. The answer to that is, open a refrigerator door when the
outside temperature is down, and see how close you have to get before
you detect a difference. No, you would have to be uncomfortably close to
"smell" ice that way.

Ten p.m. came and with it the change of the officers' Watches. On the
bridge, after checking over such things as position, speed and so forth,
the officers coming on deck usually have a few minutes chat with their
opposite number, before officially taking over. The Senior Officer,
coming on Watch, hunts up his man in the pitch darkness, and just yarns
for a few minutes, whilst getting his eyesight after being in the
light'when he can see all right he lets the other chap know and
officially "takes over." Murdoch and I were old shipmates and for a few
minutes--as was our custom--we stood there looking ahead, and yarning
over times and incidents part and present. We both remarked on the
ship's steadiness, absence of vibration, and how comfortably she was
slipping along. Then we passed on to more serious subjects, such as the
chances of sighting ice, reports of ice that had been sighted, and the
positions. We also commented on the lack of definition between the
horizon and the sky--which would make an iceberg all the more difficult
to see--particularly if it had a black side, and that should be, by bad
luck, turned our way.

The side of an iceberg that has calved or broken away from its parent
glacier will usually be black, where the fresh ice is showing, and is
consequently more difficult to see at night. After considerable
exposure, this side turns white like the rest.

We were then making an easy 22 knots. It was pitch dark and dead cold.
Not a cloud in the sky, and the sea like glass. The very smoothness of
the sea was, again, another unfortunate circumstance that went to
complete the chain.

If there had been either wind or swell, the outline of the berg would
have been rendered visible, through the water breaking at the base.

Captain E.J. was one of the ablest Skippers on the Atlantic, and
accusations of recklessness, carelessness, not taking due precautions,
or driving his ship at too high a speed, were absolutely, and utterly
unfounded; but the armchair complaint is a very common disease, and
generally accepted as one of the necessary evils from which the
sea-farer is condemned to suffer. A dark night, a blinding squall, and a
man who has been on the mental rack for perhaps the last forty-eight
hours, is called on to make an instantaneous decision embodying the
safety of his crew and his ship. If he chooses the right course, as nine
times out of ten he does, all well and good, but if on the tenth time
his judgment is, momentarily, in error, then he may be certain he is
coming under the thumb of the armchair judge, who, a thousand to one,
has never been called on to make a life and death decision in a sudden

Captain Smith, with every other senior officer (apart from myself), went
down, and was lost with the ship, and so escaped that never to be
forgotten ordeal carried out in Washington; repeated again in England,
and finally concluded in the Law Courts.

Murdoch, the First Officer, took over from me in the ordinary way. I
passed on the "items of interest" as we called them, course, speed,
weather conditions, ice reports, wished him joy of his Watch, and went
below. But first of all I had to do the rounds, and in a ship of that
size it meant a mile or more of deck, not including a few hundred feet
of ladders, staircases, etc.

Being a new ship it was all the more necessary to see that everyone was
on the top line. I had been right fore and aft several decks, along a
passage known as Park Lane, leading through the bowels of the ship on
one side, and bringing me out by a short cut to the after deck. Here I
had to look round to see that the Quartermaster and others were on their
stations, and then back to my warm cabin.

The temperature on deck felt somewhere around the zero of Canada,
although actually, it wasn't much below freezing, and I quickly rolled
into my blankets. There I lay, turning over my past sins and future
punishments, waiting until I could thaw and get to sleep.



I was just about ready for the land of nod, when I felt a sudden
vibrating jar run through the ship. Up to this moment she had been
steaming with such a pronounced lack of vibration that this sudden break
in the steady running was all the more noticeable. Not that it was by
any means a violent concussion, but just a distinct and unpleasant break
in the monotony of her motion.

I instantly leapt out of my bunk and ran out on deck in my pyjamas;
peered over the port side, but could see nothing there; ran across to
the starboard side, but neither was there anything there, and as the
cold was cutting like a knife, I hopped back into my bunk.

In any case, to go dashing up to the Bridge in night rig, or even
properly clothed, when not on duty, was bound to ensure anything but a
hearty welcome. Another thing, to be elsewhere than were you are
expected to be found, in a ship like that, would result in the man who
is sent to call you, being utterly unable to find you. So I just waited.

The time we struck was 12:00 p.m., April 14th of tragic memory, and it
was about ten minutes later that the Fourth Officer, Boxall (sic) opened
my door, and, seeing me awake, quietly said, "We've hit an iceberg."

I replied, "I know you've hit something." He then said, "The water is up
to F Deck in the Mail Room."

That was quite sufficient. Not another word passed. He went out, closing
the door, whilst I slipped into some clothes as quickly as possible, and
went out on deck.

The decks in a modern liner are lettered from the boat deck downwards,
A, B, C, D, E, and so on. The fact of the water having reached "F" deck,
showed me she had been badly holed, but, at the time, although I knew it
was serious, I had not a thought that it was likely to prove fatal; that
knowledge was to come much later.

Up to this time we had had no chance for boat drill, beyond just
lowering some of the boats in Southampton. In any case, officers and men
in the Mercantile Marine are always impressed with the vital importance
of using their own heads, thinking for themselves, and acting on their
own initiative in an emergency.

Discipline in a Merchant Ship calls for the highest display of
individual intelligence and application. Each man must think for
himself. Whereas in the Navy, the Bluejacket must do as he is told,
nothing more and nothing less. All perfect in its own way where a man is
required to act with machine-like precision, but that won't work in the
Merchant Service. If a man does no more than he is told, and makes that
an excuse for leaving something undone, unseen or unattended to, he is
quickly asked, "What the hell are your brains for?"

The result is that a crew comes aboard a strange ship, and everything
seems like the pieces of a jigsaw puzzle. But there is just this
difference between the two Services. Whereas each man in the Senior
Service must be fell in, and detailed to his own particular job, to
which he has probably been trained for years, but by which method each
piece of the jigsaw must await the touch of the Master hand; in the
Merchant Service the whole of the pieces shake themselves together with
out being "fell in" and "told off." Thus, in an amazingly short space of
time, they have all shaken down and become a homogeneous workable unit.
If there should be a piece that won't seen to fit, then all I can say is
heaven help him!

You may be sure that the crew of the TITANIC had been put through a fine
sieve, and particular care taken that there were no misfits. The result
was that when the call came--not the call of bugles, but the call on
every man to exhibit the highest individual effort, intelligence and
courage, the response was absolutely universal--not a man failed.

The survivors of that night may thank God that our men did not wait for
bugles and pipes. Nevertheless, they put up as fine a show as has ever
been done in any sea tragedy in history. The final and conclusive proof
lay in the fact that every single boat in the ship was cleared, swung
out and safely lowered into the water and got away, without a hitch of
any kind.

The ship had been running under a big head of steam, therefore the
instant the engines were stopped the steam started roaring off at all
eight exhausts, kicking up a row that would have dwarfed the row of a
thousand railway engines thundering through a culvert.

All the seamen came tumbling up on the boat deck in response to the
order, "All hands on deck" just following the instinct that it was here
that they would be required. It was an utter impossibility to convey an
order by word of mouth; speech was useless, but a tap on the shoulder
and an indication with the hand, dark though it was, was quite
sufficient to set the men about the different jobs, clearing away the
boat covers, hauling tight the falls and coiling them down on deck,
clear and ready for lowering.

The passengers by this time were beginning to flock up on the boat deck,
with anxious faces, the appalling din only adding to their anxiety in a
situation already terrifying enough in all conscience. In fact it was a
marvel how they ever managed to keep their heads at all. All one could
do was to give them a cheery smile of encouragement, and hope that the
infernal roar would soon stop. My boats were all along the port side,
and by the time I had got my Watch well employed, stripping the covers
and coiling down, it became obvious to me that the ship was settling. So
far she had remained perfectly upright, which was apt to give a false
sense of security. Soon the Bosun's Mate came to me and indicated with a
wave of his hand that the job I had set him of clearing away was pretty
well completed. I nodded, and indicated by a motion of my hand for him
to swing out.

The TITANIC was fitted with a well-known pattern of davit called the
"Wellin." (sic) In operation it was merely a matter of shipping and
manning the handles of the davits, and the boats were quickly swung out.
By this time it was clear that the ship was seriously damaged and making
a lot of water. She struck the berg well forward of the foremast, and
evidently there had been a slight shelf protruding below the water. This
pierced her bow as she threw her whole weight on the ice, some actually
falling on her fore deck. The impact flung her bow off, but only by the
whip or spring of the ship. Again she struck, this time a little further
aft. Each blow stove in a plate, below the water line, as the ship had
not the inherent strength to resist.

Had it been, for instance, the old MAJESTIC or even the OCEANIC the
chances are that either of them would have been strong enough to take
the blow and be bodily thrown off without serious damage. For instance,
coming alongside with the old MAJESTIC, it was no uncommon thing for her
to hit a knuckle of the wharf a good healthy bump, but beyond, perhaps,
scraping off the paint, no damage was ever done. The same, to a lesser
extent with the OCEANIC.

Then ships grew in size, out of all proportion to their strength, till
one would see a modern liner brought will all the skill and care
possible, fall slowly, and ever so gently on a knuckle, to bend and dent
a plate like a piece of tin.

That is exactly what happened to the TITANIC. She just bump, bump,
bumped along the berg, holing herself each time, till she was making
water in no less than six compartments, though, unfortunately, we were
not to know this until much later. Andrews, the designer, and nephew of
the late Lord Pirrie was making the trip with us and it was he, familiar
with every nook and corner in her who made a quick tour of inspection
with the Carpenter and reported her condition to Captain Smith.

Actually the TITANIC was so constructed and divided into watertight
compartments that she would float with any two compartments full of
water, and the margin of safety made it fairly certain that she would
still have floated with even three of the four forward compartments full
up. Although the water would have been above the forward watertight
bulkheads, it would still have been kept out of the rest of the ship,
despite the fact that the forward part of her would have completely
submerged. The whole ship would have assumed a fairly acute and mighty
uncomfortable angle, yet, even so, she would, in all probability have
floated--at least for some considerable time, perhaps all day. Certainly
for sufficient time for everyone to be rescued; and, just possibly,
until she could have been beached. But she could not remain afloat when
she was holed in the forward stokehold as well. That made the fifth
compartment counting from forward, that was smashed in by the iceberg,
and this finally sealed her fate.

By this time all the boats were swung out she was well down forward and
the water was practically level with the main deck. Even so I still had
no thought that she was actually going to founder. There had been no
chance or time to make enquiries, but I figured up in my own mind that
she had probably struck the berg a glancing blow with the bluff of her
bow and opened up one or perhaps two of the forward compartments, which
were filling and putting her down by the head; also that she would go so
far, until she balanced her buoyancy, and there she would remain.
Bulkheads were all new and sound and should be able to carry the
pressure, and there was no reason to suppose they would not have been
equal to their task. All watertight doors had been closed automatically
from the bridge, at the time of the collision--all except one place
where there was no door, but which, in any case, would not have made any
ultimate difference.

Although I was fairly confident in my own mind that she would not sink,
one has no right to risk an error of judgment that may entail loss of
life, particularly when it is the case of the passengers you are
carrying. They are your trust and must at all times be your first
consideration, to the total elimination of all personal feelings, or
personal impressions. It was fortunate we played for safety, for, as it
turned out, she was holed in no less than six compartments along the
starboard side, and NOTHING could have saved her.

Having got the boats swung out, I made for the Captain and happened to
meet him near by on the boat deck. Drawing him into a corner, and
cupping both my hands over my mouth and his ear, I yelled at the top of
my voice, "Hadn't we better get the women and children into the boats,
sir?" He heard me, and nodded reply. One of my reasons for suggesting
getting the boats afloat was, that I could see a steamer's steaming
lights a couple of miles away on our port bow. If I could get the women
and children into the boats, they would be perfectly safe in that smooth
sea until the other ship picked them up; if the necessity arose. My idea
was that I would lower the boats with a few people in each, and when
safely in the water fill them up from the gangway doors on the lower
decks, and transfer them to the other ship.

Although boats and falls were all brand new, it is a risky business at
the best of times to attempt to lower a boat between seventy and eighty
feet at night time, filled with people who are not "boatwise." It is,
unfortunately, the rule rather than the exception for some mishap to
occur in lowering boats loaded with people who, through no fault of
their own, lack this boat sense. In addition, the strain is almost too
much to expect of boats and falls under ordinary conditions.

However, having got Captain Smith's sanction, I indicated to the Bosun's
Mate, and we lowered down the first boat level with the boat deck, and,
just at this time, thank heaven, the frightful din of escaping steam
suddenly stopped, and there was a death-like silence a thousand times
more exaggerated, fore and aft the ship. It was almost startling to hear
one's own voice again after the appalling din of the last half hour or

I got just on forty people into No 4 boat, and gave the order to "lower
away," and for the boat to "go up to the gangway door" with the idea of
filling each boat as it became afloat, to its full capacity. At the same
time I told the Bosun's Mate to take six hands and open the port
lower-deck gangway door, which was abreast of No. 2 hatch. He took his
men and proceeded to carry out the order, but neither he or the men were
seen again. One can only suppose that they gave their lives endeavouring
to carry out this order, probably they were trapped in the alley-way by
a rush of water, but by this time the fo'c'sle head was within about ten
feet of the water. Yet I STILL had hope that we should save her.

Passing along to No 6 boat to load and lower, I could hear the band
playing cheery sort of music. I don't like jazz music as a rule, but I
was glad to hear it that night. I think it helped us all.

Wireless signals for help had been broadcast over the ocean ever since
the first impact, and ships were coming to our aid. It was excusable
that in some cases the Officer of the Watch on some ships could hardly
credit his senses, or believe the wireless operator when told that the
TITANIC--that wonder of all mercantile wonders was SINKING IN
MID-ATLANTIC, and sending out calls for assistance.

The wireless operator of the VIRGINIAN told me that when he reported the
fact to this Officer of the Watch, he was literally chucked off the
bridge, for trying to play what the O.O.W. was a practical joke; it was
only as he was being pushed past the chart-room door, preparatory to
being shot down the bridge ladder, that he landed out with his foot, and
gave a terrific kick on the panel of the door. The wireless operator
knew that the Captain was asleep in the chart-room, and that this crash
would bring him out with a jump. The Officer of the Watch also realised
when the report was officially made to the Captain, that it was no joke,
and that the TITANIC was truly in a bad way. They at once altered course
and made all speed towards us.

On the TITANIC passengers naturally kept coming up and asking, did I
consider the situation serious. In all cases I tried to cheer them up,
by telling them "No," but that it was a matter of precaution to get the
boats in the water, ready for any emergency. That in any case that they
were perfectly safe, as there was a ship not more than a few miles away,
and I pointed out the lights on the port bow which they could see as
well as I could.

At this time we were firing rocket distress signals, which explode with
a loud report a couple of hundred feet in the air. Every minute or two
one of these went up, bursting overhead with a cascade of stars.

"Why were we firing these signals, if there was no danger:" was the
question, to which I replied that we were trying to call the attention
of the ship nearby, as we could not get her with wireless. THAT SHIP WAS
THE "CALIFORNIAN." Here again we were to see exemplified what has become
almost proverbial at sea, that in cases of disaster, one ship, the first
on the scene, will be in a position to rescue, and yet, through some
circumstance or combination of circumstances, fails to make that rescue.

The distress signals we fired were seen by the Officer of the Watch on
the CALIFORNIAN, also be several members of her crew. Even the flashes
from our Morse lamp were seen but finally judged to be "Just the
mast-head light flickering." Though at one time the thought evidently
did arise that we were trying to call them.

To let pass the possibility of a ship calling by Morse, in the existing
circumstances then surrounding her was bad enough; but to mistake
distress signals was inexcusable, and to ignore them, criminal. In point
of fact, the O.O.W. alone saw and counted, five distress signals (or, as
he reported them to Captain Lord, "five white rockets"). Evidently the
Captain's curiosity was more than a little aroused for him to ask, "Are
they company's signals?" To which the O.O.W. replied that he did not
know, but that they "Appear to me to be white rockets." Captain Lord
merely told him to "go on Morsing," and if he received any further
information to send it down to him.

It is an unqualified fact that every single one of our distress
signals--unmistakable and urgent calls for help, were clearly seen by
the CALIFORNIAN. These signals are never made, except in cases of dire
necessity. The O.O.W. of the CALIFORNIAN fully appreciated this fact as
was evidenced by his remark to the Apprentice on watch with him, "A ship
is not going to fire rockets at sea for nothing."

Shortly after counting eight "rockets" he again sent down word to the
Captain, with the added rider to the Apprentice, "be sure to wake him
and tell him that altogether we have seen eight of these white lights,
like rockets, in the direction of this other steamer."

Precisely at 2:40 a.m. this Officer of the Watch again called Captain
Lord, this time by voice pipe, and told him that the ship from which he
had seen the rockets, had disappeared.




The quiet orderliness amongst the passengers, and the discipline amongst
the crew, is a thing never to be forgotten. Many of the former came
quietly with offers of help. The Bosun's Mate and six of the watch
having been lost to me, the work had become very heavy, and still
heavier, as I detailed two of the remaining Watch to go away with each
boat as it was lowered. The practice was, to lower each boat until the
gunwale was level with the boat deck, then, standing with one foot on
the deck and one in the boat, the women just held out their right hand,
the wrist of which I grabbed with my right hand, hooking my left arm
underneath their arm, and so practically lifted them over the gap
between the boat's gunwale and the ship's side, from the boat.

Between one boat being lowered away and the next boat being prepared, I
usually nipped along to have a look down the very long emergency
staircase leading direct from the boat deck down to "C" deck. Actually
built as a short cut for the crew, it served my purpose now to gauge the
speed with which the water was rising, and how high it had got. By now
the fore deck was below the surface. That cold, green water, crawling
its ghostly way up that staircase, was a sight that stamped itself
indelibly on my memory. Step by step, it made its way up, covering the
electric lights, one after the other, which, for a time, shone under the
surface, with a horribly weird effect.

Still, it served a very good purpose, and enabled me to form an accurate
judgment as to how far she had gone, and how quickly she was going down.
Dynamos were still running, and deck lights on, which, though dim,
helped considerably with the work; more than could be said of one very
good lady who achieved fame by waving an electric light and successfully
blinding us as we worked on the boats. It puzzled me until I found she
had it installed in the head of her walking stick! I am afraid she was
rather disappointed on finding out that her precious light was not a bit
appreciated. Arriving in safety on board the CARPATHIA, she tried to
make out that someone had stolen her wretched stick, whereas it had been
merely taken from her, in response to my request that someone would
throw the damn thing overboard.

It had now become apparent that the ship was doomed, and in consequence,
I began to load the boats to the utmost capacity that I dared. My scheme
for filling up at the lower deck doors had gone by the board--they were
under water.

Many were the incidents of calm courage.

One young couple walked steadily up and down the boat deck throughout
pretty well the whole of the proceedings. Once or twice the young chap
asked if he could help. He was a tall, clean-bred Britisher, on his
honeymoon, I should say. The girl--she was little more--never made the
slightest attempt to come towards the boats, much less to be taken on
board, although I looked towards her several times with a sort of silent
invitation, but no, she was not going to be parted from her man.

The order implicitly obeyed was, "Women and children only." The very
highest tribute that is was possible for a human being to pay would
hardly do justice to or give the praise due to the sheer courage shown
by most women and children amongst the passengers on that ship,
individually and collectively. It made me unutterably proud of the
English speaking race. The conditions were all strange; the ship was
sinking and the boats were leaving, yet, neither man nor woman attempted
to get into a boat without being ordered.

In the case of a Major Peuchen, a Canadian by birth, who sent away in
one of the boats, unwarrantable blame was attached, at a later date.

I was reduced to sending one seaman away in a boat, and on an occasion,
after ordering away a sailor to take charge, I turned round to find that
there was only one left to attend the boat falls, for lowering away.

"Someone for that fall," I called, and the next thing a man who had
sailed with me for many years, Hemming by name, replied, "Aye, aye, sir!
All ready." Unknown to me he had stepped out of the boat, back on board,
to carry out what he considered the more important duty. Bravery and
self-sacrifice such as this was of common occurrence throughout the

The boat was half way down when someone hailed me, saying, "We've no
seaman in this boat, "and at that moment I had no one available. I
called to the people standing around, "Any seaman there:" No reply, and
it was then that Major Peuchen, when he saw that there were none of the
ship's crew available, said, "I'm not a seaman, but I'm a yachtsman, if
I can be of any use to you."

The boat's falls, or ropes, by which the boat is lowered, hang up and
down from the davit head, about nine or ten feet from the ship's side. I
said to him, "If you're seaman enough to get out on those falls, and get
down into the boat, you may go ahead." He did, and has been very
unfairly criticised for carrying out what was a direct order.

 It was about this time that the Chief Officer came over from the
starboard side and asked, did I know where the firearms were?

As I pointed out before, it was the FIRST Officer's responsibility to
receive firearms, navigation instruments, and so forth. I have also said
firearms on merchant ships are looked on as ornamental more than useful,
and as First Officer I had simply hove the lot into a locker, in my
original cabin, a locker that was of little use owing to its

Then, later on, had come the "general post," whereby Murdoch who was now
First Officer, knew nothing about the firearms, and couldn't find them
when they were wanted--I say wanted, rather than needed, because I still
don't believe they were actually needed.

I told the Chief Officer, "Yes, I know where they are. Come along and
I'll get them for you," and into the First Officer's cabin we went--the
Chief, Murdoch, the Captain and myself--where I hauled them out, still
in all their pristine newness and grease.

I was going out when the Chief shoved one of the revolvers into my
hands, with a handful of ammunition, and said, "Here you are, you may
need it." On the impulse, I just slipped it into my pocket, along with
the cartridges, and returned to the boats. The whole incident had not
taken more than three minutes, though it seemed barely worth that
precious time.

As I returned along the deck, I passed Mr. and Mrs. Strauss (sic)
leaning up against the deck house chatting quite cheerily. I stopped and
asked Mrs. Strauss, "Can I take you along to the boats?" She replied, "I
think I'll stay here for the present." Mr. Strauss, calling her by her
Christian name said, smilingly, "Why don't you go along with him, dear?"
She just smiled, and said, "No, not yet." I left them, and they went
down together. To another couple, evidently from the Western States,
that I found sitting on a fan casing I asked the girl, "Won't you let me
put you in one of the boats?" She replied with a very frank smile, "Not
on your life. We started together, and if need be, we'll finish
together." It was typical of the spirit throughout.

Boat after boat was safely lowered into the water, with its human
freight of women and children, each with an ever-increasing cargo as it
became more apparent that the TITANIC was doomed, and that the ship to
which we had looked for immediate help, was also a false hope. Time and
again I had used her lights as a means to buoy up the hopes of the many
that I now knew only too well, were soon to find themselves struggling
in that icy water.

Why COULDN'T she hear our wireless calls? Why COULDN'T her Officer of
the Watch or some one of her crew, see our distress signals with their
showers of stars, visible for miles and miles around?--a signal that is
never used except when a ship is in dire need of assistance. What
wouldn't I have given for a six inch gun and a couple of shells to wake
them up I had assured and reassured the passengers throughout those
anxious hours, "She cannot help but see those signals, and must soon
steam over and pick everyone up." And what an absolutely unique
opportunity Captain Lord of the CALIFORNIAN had that night of rendering
aid and saving close on 1,500 lives. Nothing could have been easier than
to have laid his ship actually alongside the TITANIC and taken every
soul on board. Yet, not a thing was done, not even their wireless
operator roused to see if there WERE any distress calls.

There are no police, fire brigades or lifeboats out at sea, therefore it
becomes nothing less than a fetish--the tenet above all tenets in the
religion among sailors that absolutely no effort shall be spared in an
endeavour to save life at sea. A man must even be prepared to hazard his
ship and his life.

Just before launching the last two lifeboats, I had made my final
hurried visit to the stairway. It was then conclusively evident that not
only WAS she going, but that she was going VERY SOON, and if we were to
avoid the unutterable disgrace of going down with lifeboats still
hanging to the davits, there was not one single moment to lose.

Hurrying back to the two remaining lifeboats still hanging in their
davits, I met the Purser, Assistant Purser, and the Senior and Junior
surgeons--the latter a noted wag--even in the face of tragedy, couldn't
resist his last mild joke, "Hello, Lights, are you warm?" The idea of
anyone being warm in that temperature was a joke in itself, and I
suppose it struck him as odd to meet me wearing a sweater, no coat or
overcoat. I had long since discarded my great coat, even in pants and
sweater over pyjamas alone I was in a bath of perspiration. There was
only time to pass a few words, then they all shook hands and said,
"Good-bye." Frankly, I didn't feel at all like "Good-bye," although I
knew we shouldn't have the ship under us much longer. The thing was to
get these boats away at all costs. Eventually, and to my great relief,
they were all loaded and safely lowered into the water.

The last lifeboat having got away, there remained No. 2 boat, which was
actually a small sea boat used for emergency purposes (in fact often
termed, "The Emergency Boat"), hanging in the davits.

About this time I met all the engineers, as they came trooping up from
below. Most of them I knew individually, and had been shipmates with
them on different ships of the Line. They had all loyally stuck to their
guns, long after they could be of any material assistance. Much earlier
on the engine-room telegraphs had been "Rung off"--the last ring made on
board ships at sea, and which conveys to the engine-room staff the final
information that their services below can be of no further use, that the
case (from whatever cause) is hopeless. At the same time it releases
engineers and stokers from duty, leaving them free to make the best of
their way up to the boats. Of course, in theory, each had his appointed
place in a given boat.

Since the TITANIC disaster, each undoubtedly has. But before that
tragedy brought home to the world the utter fallacy of the "unsinkable
ship" I'm afraid that many "appointed places"--as far as lifesaving
equipment was concerned--were just so much theory, concocted ashore with
a keen eye to dividends.

Certainly there was no sailor who ever sailed salt water but who
smiled--and still smiles--at the idea of the "unsinkable ship."

There was little opportunity to say more than a word or two to the
engineers. Up to that time they had known little of what was going on,
and it was surely a bleak and hopeless spectacle that met their eyes.
Empty falls hanging loosely from every davit head, and not a solitary
hope for any of them.

In point of fact, they were lost to a man, NOT ONE SINGLE SURVIVOR out
of the whole thirty-five.



Arriving alongside the emergency boat, someone spoke out of the
darkness, and said, "There are men in that boat." I jumped in, and
regret to say that there actually were--but they weren't British, nor of
the English speaking race. I won't even attribute any nationality to
them, beyond saying that they come under the broad category known to
sailors as "Dagoes." They hopped out mighty quickly, and I encouraged
them verbally, also by vigorously flourishing my revolver. They
certainly thought they were between the devil and the deep sea in more
senses than one, and I had the satisfaction of seeing them tumbling head
over heels on to the deck, preferring the uncertain safety of the deck,
to the cold lead, which I suppose they fully imagined would follow their
disobedience--so much for imagination--the revolver was not even loaded!

"Any more women and children?" was the cry, and we had the greatest
difficulty in finding sufficient to fill even this small boat--of those
who were willing to go and leave others behind. Eventually, she was
filled, and we lowered her away.

There now remained two folded boats of the Engleheart (sic) type, with
collapsible canvas sides, one on the deck by the davits of No. 2
emergency and one on the top of the officers' quarters, both firmly
lashed down. The rope falls of No. 2 were hurriedly rounded up and one
collapsible boat hooked on and swung out ready for lowering.

I stood partly in the boat, owing to the difficulty of getting the
womenfolk over a high bulwark rail just here. As we were ready for
lowering the Chief came over to my side of the deck and, seeing me in
the boat and no seaman available said, "You go with her, Lightoller."

Praises be, I had just sufficient sense to say, "Not damn likely," and
jump back on board; not with any idea of self-imposed martyrdom--far
from it--it was just pure impulse of the moment, and an impulse for
which I was to thank my lucky stars a thousand times over, in the days
to come. I had taken my chance and gone down with the rest, consequently
I didn't have to take any old back-chat from anyone.

As this boat was being lowered, two men passengers jumped into her from
the deck below. This, as far as I know was the only instance of men
getting away in boats from the port side. I don't blame them, the boat
wasn't full, for the simple reason that we couldn't find sufficient
women, and there was no time to wait--the water was then actually
lapping round their feet on "A" deck, so they jumped for it and got
away. Good luck to them.

With one other seaman I started to cast adrift the one remaining
Engleheart on top of the officer's quarters. We cut and threw off the
lashings, jumped round to the inboard side ready to pick up the gunwale
together and throw her bodily down on the boat deck. The seaman working
with me called:

"All ready, sir," and I recognised Hemmings' voice--the chap I had
ordered away long before, and who had returned on board to tend the
falls, and in whose place I sent Major Peuchen.

"Hello, is that you, Hemming?"

"Yes, sir."

"Why haven't you gone?" I asked.

"Oh, plenty of time yet, sir," he replied cheerily. Apparently the chap
had loyally stuck by me all through, though it had been too dark to
recognise him. Stout fellow. Later he slid one of the falls, swam for it
and was saved.

We had just time to tip the boat over, and let her drop into the water
that was now above the boat deck, in the hope that some few might be
able to scramble on to her as she floated off. Hemming and I then, as
every single boat was now away from the port side, went over to the
starboard side, to see if there was anything further to be done there.
But all the boats on this side had also been got away, through there
were still crowds of people on the deck.

Just then the ship took a slight but definite plunge--probably a
bulkhead went--and the sea came rolling up in a wave, over the
steel-fronted bridge, along the deck below us, washing the people back
in a dreadful, huddled mass. Those that didn't disappear under the water
right away, instinctively started to clamber up that part of the deck
still out of water, and work their way towards the stern, which was
rising steadily out of the water as the bow went down. A few of the more
agile leapt up on top of the officers' quarters where Hemming and I were
at the moment. It was a sight that doesn't bear dwelling on--to stand
there above the wheelhouse, and on our quarters, watching the frantic
struggles to climb up the sloping deck, utterly unable to even hold out
a helping hand.

I knew, only too well, the utter futility of following that driving
instinct of self-preservation and struggling up towards the stern. It
would only be postponing the plunge, and prolonging the agony--even
lessening one's already slim chances by becoming one of a crowd. It came
home to me very clearly how fatal it would be to get amongst those
hundreds and hundreds of people who would shortly be struggling for
their lives in that deadly cold water. There was only one thing to do,
and I might just as well do it and get it over, so, turning to the fore
part of the bridge, I took a header. Striking the water was like a
thousand knives being driven into one's body, and, for a few moments, I
completely lost grip of myself, and no wonder, for I was perspiring
freely, whilst the temperature of the water was 28° or 4° below

Ahead of me the look-out cage on the foremast was visible just above the
water--in normal times it would be a hundred feet above. I struck out
blindly for this, but only for a short while, till I got hold of myself
again and realised the futility of seeking safety on anything connected
with the ship. I then turned to starboard, away from the ship

For a time I wondered what was making it so difficult for me to keep my
head above the water. Time and again I went under, until it dawned on me
that it was the great Webley revolver, still in my pocket, that was
dragging me down. I soon sent that on its downward journey.

The water was now pouring down the stokeholds, by way of the fiddley
gratings abaft the bridge, and round the forward funnel.

On the boat deck, above our quarters, on the fore part of the forward
funnel, was a huge rectangular air shaft and ventilator, with an opening
about twenty by fifteen feet. On this opening was a light wire grating
to prevent rubbish being drawn down, or anything else being thrown down.
This shaft led direct to No. 3 stokehold, and was therefore a sheer drop
of close on hundred feet, right to the bottom of the ship.

I suddenly found myself drawn, by the sudden rush of the surface water
now pouring down this shaft, and held flat and firmly up against this
wire netting, with the additional full and clear knowledge of what would
happen if this light wire carried away. The pressure of the water just
glued me there whilst the ship sank slowly below the surface.

Although I struggled and kicked for all I was worth, it was impossible
to get away, for as fast as I pushed myself off I was irresistibly
dragged back, every instant expecting the wire to go, and to find myself
shot down into the bowels of the ship.

Apart from that, I was drowning, and a matter of another couple of
minutes would have seen me through. I was still struggling and fighting
when suddenly a terrific blast of hot air came up the shaft, and blew me
right away from the air shaft and up to the surface.

The water was now swirling round, and the ship sinking rapidly, when
once again I was caught and sucked down by an inrush of water, this time
adhering to one of the fiddley gratings. Just how I got clear of that, I
don't know, as I was rather losing interest in things, but I eventually
came to the surface once again, this time alongside that last Engleheart
boat which Hemming and I had launched from on top of the officers'
quarters on the opposite side--for I was now on the starboard side, near
the forward funnel.

There were many around in the water by this time, some swimming, others
(mostly men, thank God), definitely drowning--an utter nightmare of both
sight and sound. In the circumstances, I made no effort to get on top of
the upturned boat, but, for some reason, was content to remain floating
alongside, just hanging on to a small piece of rope.

The bow of the ship was now rapidly going down and the stern rising
higher and higher out of the water, piling the people into helpless
heaps around the steep decks, and by the score into the icy water. Had
the boats been around many might have been saved, but, of them, at this
time, there was no sign. Organised help, or even individual help, was
quite impossible. All one could do was just wait on events, and try and
forget the icy cold grip of the water.

The terrific strain of bringing the after end of that huge hull clear
out of the water, caused the expansion joint abaft No. 1 funnel to open
up. (These expansion joints were found necessary in big ships to allow
the ship to "work" in a seaway.) The fact that the two wire stays to
this funnel, on the after part led over and abaft the expansion joint,
threw on them an extraordinary strain, eventually carrying away the port
wire guy, to be followed almost immediately by the starboard one.
Instantly the port one parted, the funnel started to fall, but the fact
that the starboard one held a moment or two longer, gave this huge
structure a pull over to that side of the ship, causing it to fall, with
its scores of tons, right amongst the struggling mass of humanity
already in the water. It struck the water between the Engleheart and the
ship, actually missing me by inches.

Amongst the many historic and, what in less tragic circumstances, would
have been humorous--questions, asked by Senator Smith at the Washington
Enquiry was "Did it hurt anyone?"

One effect of the funnel crashing down on the sea, was to pick up the
Engleheart in the wash so created, and fling it well clear of the
sinking ship.

When I again recognised by surroundings, we were full fifty yards clear
of the ship. The piece of rope was still in my hand, with old friend
Engleheart upturned and attached to the other end, with several men by
now standing on it. I also scrambled up, after spending longer than I
like to remember in that icy water. Lights on board the TITANIC were
still burning, and a wonderful spectacle she made, standing out black
and massive against the starlit sky; myriads of lights still gleaming
through the portholes, from that part of the decks still above water.

The fore part, and up to the second funnel was by that time completely
submerged, and as we watched this terribly awe-inspiring sight, suddenly
all lights went out and the huge bulk was left in black darkness, but
clearly silhouetted against the bright sky. Then, the next moment, the
massive boilers left their beds and went thundering down with a hollow
rumbling roar, through the bulk-heads, carrying everything with them
that stood in their way. This unparalleled tragedy that was being
enacted before our very eyes, now rapidly approached its finale, as the
huge ship slowly but sure reared herself on end and brought rudder and
propellers clear of the water, till, at last, she assumed AN ABSOLUTE
PERPENDICULAR POSITION. In this amazing attitude she remained for the
space of half a minute. Then with impressive majesty and ever increasing
momentum, she silently took her last tragic dive to seek a final resting
place in the unfathomable depths of the cold grey Atlantic.

Almost like a benediction, everyone round me on the upturned boat
breathed the two words, "She's gone."

Fortunately the scene that followed was shrouded in darkness. Less
fortunately, the calm still silence carried every sound with startling
distinctness. To enter into a description of those heart-rending,
never-to-be-forgotten sounds would serve no useful purpose. I never
allowed my thoughts to dwell on them, and there are some that would be
alive and well to-day had they just determined to erase from their minds
all memory of those ghastly moments, or at least until time had somewhat
dimmed the memory of that awful tragedy.



However anyone that had sought refuge on that upturned Engleheart
survived the night is nothing short of miraculous. If ever human
endurance was taxed to the limit, surely it was during those long hours
of exposure in a temperature below freezing, standing motionless in our
wet clothes. That the majority were still standing when the first faint
streaks of dawn appeared is proof that whilst there is life there is
still some hope.

Hour by hour the compartments in this collapsible boat were surely
filling with water, due, no doubt to the rough and ready treatment she
had received when dumped incontinently from the top of our quarters,
with a crash on to the boat deck, there to float off of her own sweet

The fact remains we were painfully conscious of that icy cold water,
slowly but surely creeping up our legs.

Some quietly lost consciousness, subsided into the water, and slipped
overboard, there being nothing on the smooth flat bottom of the boat to
hold them. No one was in a condition to help, and the fact that a slight
but distinct swell had started to roll up, rendered help from the still
living an impossibility.

It was only by the grace of being huddled together that most of us
didn't add to the many that lost their lives that night.

Another thing, with the rising sea I realised that without concerted
action, we were ALL going to be pitched headlong into the sea, and that
would spell finish for everyone. So I made everyone face one way, and
then, as I felt the boat under our feet lurch to the sea, one way or the
other, I corrected it by the order "Lean to the right," "Stand upright,"
or "Lean to the left," as the case may be.

In this way we managed to maintain our foothold on the slippery planks
by now well under water.

We knew that ships were racing to our rescue, though the chances of our
keeping up our efforts of balancing until one came along seemed very,
very remote. Phillips, the senior wireless operator, standing near me,
told me the different ships that had answered our call. Of these,
according to their positions, undoubtedly the CARPATHIA was nearest and
should be up with the position where the TITANIC sank, by daylight.

For encouragement, I passed on to those around, my rough calculation and
it certainly helped the struggle to keep up. As it turned out, the
information from Phillips, and the calculation, were about right, though
poor old Phillips did not live to benefit by it. He hung on till
daylight came in and we sighted one of the lifeboats in the distance. We
were beyond making her hear with our shouting, but I happened to have in
my pocket the ordinary whistle which every officer of the Watch carries.
This piercing sound carried, and likewise carried the information (for
what it was worth) that it was an officer making the call.

Slowly--oh how slow it seemed--she worked her way towards us. Meantime
the boat under us showed unmistakable signs of leaving us altogether. I
think it must have been the final and terrible anxiety that tipped the
beam with Phillips, for he suddenly slipped down, sitting in the water,
and though we held his head up, he never recovered. I insisted on taking
him into the lifeboat with us, hoping there still might be life, but it
was too late. Altogether there were thirty of us boarded the lifeboat,
and later on I counted seventy-five living, apart from those lying on
the bottom boards. If a sea got up it was going to take all my knowledge
of boat-craft to keep her afloat.

As daylight increased we had the thrice welcome sight of the Cunard
Liner CARPATHIA cautiously picking her way through the ice towards us.
We saw boat by boat go alongside, but the question was, would she come
our way in time? Sea and wind were rising. Every wave threatened to come
over the bows of our overloaded lifeboat and swamp us. All were women
and children in the boat apart from those of us men from the Engleheart.
Fortunately, none of them realised how near we were to being swamped.

I trimmed the boat down a little more by the stern, and raised the bow,
keeping her carefully bow on to the sea, and hoping against hope she
would continue to rise. Sluggishly, she lifted her bows, but there was
no life in her with all that number on board.

Then, at long last, the CARPATHIA definitely turned her head towards us,
rounding to about 100 yards to windward. Now to get her safely
alongside! We couldn't last many minutes longer, and round the
CARPATHIA'S bows was a scurry of wind and waves that looked like
defeating my efforts after all. One sea lapped over the bow, and the
next one far worse. The following one she rode, and then, to my
unbounded relief, she came through the scurry into calm water under the

Quickly the bosun's chairs were lowered for those unable to climb the
sheer side by a swinging rope ladder, and little enough ceremony was
shown in bundling old and young, fat and thin, onto that bit of wood
constituting the "Boatswain's Chair."

Once the word was given to "hoist away" and up into the air they went.
There were a few screams, but on the whole, they took it well, in fact
many were by now in a condition that rendered them barely able to hang
on, much less scream.

When all were on board, we counted the cost. There were a round total of
711 saved out of 2,201 on board. Fifteen hundred of all ranks and
classes had gone to their last account. Apart from four junior officers
(sic) ordered away in charge of boats, I found I was the solitary
survivor of over fifty officers and engineers who went down with her.
Hardly one amongst the hundreds of surviving passengers, but had lost
someone near and dear.

Then there came the torment of being unable to hold out a vestige of

"Could not another ship have picked them up?'

"Could they not possibly be in some boat overlooked by the CARPATHIA?"

"Was it not possible that he might have climbed on to an iceberg?"

After serious consideration it seemed the kindest way to be perfectly
frank and give the one reply possible. What kindness was there in
holding out a hope, knowing full well that there was not even the SHADOW
of hope. Cold comfort, and possibly cruel, but I could see no help for

Countess Rothes was one of the foremost amongst those trying to carry
comfort to others, and through that sad trip to New York, there were
very many quiet acts of self-denial.

Everybody's hope, so far as the crew were concerned was that we might
arrive in New York in time to catch the CELTIC back to Liverpool and so
escape the inquisition that would otherwise be awaiting us. Our luck was
distinctly out. We were served with Warrants, immediately on arrival. It
was a colossal piece of impertinence that served no useful purpose and
elicited only a garbled and disjointed account of the disaster; due in
the main to a total lack of co-ordination in the questioning with an
abysmal ignorance of the sea.

In Washington our men were herded into a second-rate boarding house,
which might have suited some, but certainly not such men as formed the
crew of the TITANIC. In the end they point blank refused to have
anything more to do with either the enquiry or the people, whose only
achievement was to make our Seamen, Quartermasters and Petty Officers
look utterly ridiculous. It was only with the greatest difficulty I was
able to bring peace into the camp--mainly due to the tact exhibited by
the British Ambassador, Lord Percy, and Mr. P.A. Franklyn (sic),
President of the International Mercantile Marine Co.

With all the goodwill in the world, the "Enquiry" could be called
nothing but a complete farce, wherein all the traditions and customs of
the sea were continuously and persistently flouted.

Such a contrast to the dignity and decorum of the Court held by Lord
Mersey in London, where the guiding spirit was a sailor in essence, and
who insisted that any cross questioner should at any rate be familiar
with at least the rudiments of the sea. Sir Rufus Isaacs--as he was
then--had started his career as a sailor. One didn't need to explain
that "going down by the bow," and "going down by the head" was one and
the same thing. Nor, that water-tight compartments, dividing the ship,
were not necessarily places of refuge in which passengers could safely
ensconce themselves, whilst the ship went to the bottom of the Atlantic,
to be rescued later, as convenient. Neither was it necessary to waste
precious time on lengthy explanations as to how and why a sailor was not
an officer, though an officer was a sailor.

In Washington it was of little consequence, but in London it was very
necessary to keep one's hand on the whitewash brush. Sharp questions tht
needed careful answers if one was to avoid a pitfall, carefully and
subtly dug, leading to a pinning down of blame on to someone's luckless
shoulders. How hard Mr. Scanlan and the legal luminary representing the
interests of the Seamen and Firemen, tried to prove there were not
enough seamen to launch and man the boats. The same applied to the
passengers, and quite truly. But it was inadvisable to admit it then and
there, hence the hard fought legal duels between us. Mr. Scanlan's
conquest of the higher legal spheres of recent years proves he was no
mean antagonist to face. His aim was to forth the admission that I had
not sufficient seamen to give adequate help with the boats, and
consequently that the ship was undermanned. How many men did I consider
necessary to launch a lifeboat?

"What size lifeboat?'

"Take one of the TITANIC'S lifeboats."

"Well," I pointed out, "it would depend greatly on weather conditions."

"Make your own conditions," replied by legal opponent impatiently.

I suggested, as an example, we should take the wind as force six
Beaufort's scale.

"Yes," he agreed.

"Then," I added, "there would be an accompanying sea, or course."

"Yes, yes," he again agreed, and fell into the trap which Lord Mersey
proceeded to spring, by informing Mr. Scanlan that in the circumstances
described it would be impossible to launch any boat.

So the legal battle went on.

Still, I think we parted very good friends.

A washing of dirty linen would help no one. The B.O.T. had passed that
ship as in all respects fit for sea in every sense of the word, with
sufficient margin of safety for everyone on board. Now the B.O.T. was
holding an enquiry in to the loss of that ship--hence the whitewash
brush. Personally, I had no desire that blame should be attributed
either to the B.O.T. or the White Star Line, though in all conscience it
was a difficult task, when handled by some of the cleverest legal minds
in England, striving tooth and nail to prove the inadequacy here, the
lack there, when one had known, full well, and for many years, the
ever-present possibility of just such a disaster. I think in the end the
B.O.T. and the White Star Line won.

The very point, namely the utter inadequacy of the life-saving equipment
then prevailing, which Mr. Scanlan and his confrères had been fighting
tooth and nail to prove has since been wholly, frankly, and fully
admitted by the stringent rules now governing British ships, "Going

No longer is the Boat-Deck almost wholly set aside as a recreation
ground for passengers, with the smallest number of boats relegated to
the least possible space.

In fact, the pendulum has swing to the other extreme and the margin of
safety reached the ridiculous.

Be that as it may, I am never likely to forget that long drawn out
battle of wits, where it seemed that I must hold that unenviable
position of whipping boy to the whole lot of them. Pull devil, pull
baker, till it looked as if they would pretty well succeed in pulling my
hide off completely, each seemed to want his bit. I know when it was all
over I felt more like a legal doormat than a Mail Boat Officer.

Perhaps the heads of the White Star Line didn't quite realise just what
an endless strain it had all been, falling on one man's luckless
shoulders, as it needs must, being the sole survivor out of so many
departments--fortunately they were broad.

Still, just that word of thanks which was lacking, which when the
TITANIC Enquiry was all over would have been very much appreciated. It
must have been a curious psychology that governed the managers of that
magnificent Line. Promotion and service in their Western Ocean Mail
Boats was the mark of their highest approval. Both these tokens came my
way, and fifteen of my twenty years under the red Burgee with its silver
star, were spent in the Atlantic Mail. Yet, when after twenty years of
service I came to bury my anchor, and awaited their pleasure at
headquarters, for the last time, there was a brief,

"Oh, you are leaving us, are you. Well, Good-bye."

A curious people!

However, that was not to be for some years, and I was yet to see another
of the Line, my old favourite, the OCEANIC, swallowed up by the
insatiable sea.

Having at last finished with the "TITANIC Enquiry," I again set about
picking up the threads and found myself once more signing Articles on
the OCEANIC with many that had survived the TITANIC. One well-known
figure was missing from the Shipping Office about this time and that was
"Old Ned", known to all and sundry as just "Ned." Actually, he was
responsible for the stokehold crowd, and a tougher bunch than the
firemen on a Western Ocean Mail boat it would be impossible to find.
Bootle seemed to specialise in the Liverpool Irishman, who was accounted
to be the toughest of the tough, and prominent amongst the few that
could stand up to the life, where life below consisted of one endless
drive. Even the engineers seemed to get tainted with that unqualified
"toughness," for they must be able to hold their own with the worst.
This type reached its peak in the days of the old MAJESTIC and TEUTONIC.
The conditions under which firemen laboured in these boats, were
inhuman. Little blame if the men did become brutes. The heat of the
stokehold alone, when driving under the last ounce of steam, was
terrible. Added to this, when in the Gulf Stream, was the intense

It was no uncommon sight to see a man, sometimes two, three or even four
in a watch, hoisted up the ash-shoot with the bucket chain hooked
roughly round their arm-pits, to be dumped on deck unconscious. A few
buckets of water over them and then they were left to recover. Neither
must they be long about it, or up comes the Leading Fireman, who, with
strict impartiality, will apply both boot and fist to drive his dogs of
war below again.

The instructions were to keep up that "arrow," indicating the steam
pressure, at all costs, regardless of body or bones. Small wonder at the
tales that used to creep about, of men gone missing after a free fight,
when sharp shovels are used as flails.

"So and so missing, He must have gone overboard during the night. Caught
with the heat, poor beggar."

Yes, caught, all right, but perhaps with the sharp edge of a shovel.

An engineer at one time was seen to go into the stokehold, and never
seen to come out, nor yet seen on deck. He was a particularly powerful
type of man and brutal withal, who hazed his watch to the limit in the
demand for steam, till the stokehold was Bedlam let loose. From that day
till this--though never mentioned ashore--his disappearance was frankly
attributed to the swift cut of a shovel from behind, and his body shot
into a furnace. The truth will never be known, but from then on, and
engineer never went into the stokehold unaccompanied by his leading

These were the type of men "Old Ned" was called upon to supply and
handle. Originally a fireman himself, he knew all the tricks, and feared
none. Tall, keen, alert. Perfect athletic build. A hawk-like eye, and
monstrous aquiline nose, that had been broken more times than even he
could remember. Slow of movement and quiet of speech, with a voice that
came rumbling from way down in his chest.

A couple of hundred toughs, crowing and jostling together, waiting to
sign on. "Ned," towering above the tallest, comes through the doorway
and makes his way with hardly a check, surging through, and throwing
aside the Bootle toughs like a ship contemptuously flinging off the
little waves that would hold her. A shoulder here, an elbow there. Nor
would he hesitate to put the flat of that huge hand of his on the flat
of some more than usually objectionable face, with the base of his wrist
tucked neatly under the chin. If the man was sensible, he stepped back,
quickly and sharply, regardless of the curses of those behind him, or
how they might retaliate. Arriving at the table, "Ned" quickly says,
"STAND BACK" to those who would crowd in with their Discharge books held
out. For be it known that there will be a full score and more eager to
accept every single vacancy. Even "Brutal Bootle" looks with respect at
a man who has gained that giddy height, and been chosen by "Ned" for
"The Mail Boat" A vicious and resentful crowd they were, and though
master of the situation at the pay table, it was a different matter when
turning a dark corner in Dockland, as old "Ned" had known to his cost,
many a time and often. On the other hand, there was not a pub within a
mile or more radius, that he could not walk into and call for enough
beer to drown a man, had he wished. No fireman came ashore from the Mail
Boat, with his pay in his pocket but "chalked one up for Ned." Even a
Chicago gangster might have envied the cortège that finally followed
"Old Ned" after signing his last ship.

With the OCEANIC'S comfortable quarters, and bathrooms, there was no
call for the tough element, in fact it did not exist in Southampton,
where the mail boats were now running from. Again, she introduced a
reserve of power that enabled a steady speed to be kept. In fact, the
OCEANIC'S records for steady and consistent running have never been
equalled. Two consecutive runs of over three thousand miles and not one
minute of difference. Three consecutive voyages and only one minute of
difference between the times of leaving Sandy Hook, New York, and
passing the Wolf Rock off the Scillies.

We were bound home on that fateful August 4, 1914, when we got the brief
message that hostilities had broken out and were advised to "deviate
from the recognised tracks." We did deviate, too, for we saw no fun in
being captured in a fine ship like the OCEANIC, right at the outbreak of
war. Judge our anxiety when nearing the Irish Coast, on seeing the masts
and funnels of two ships coming above the horizon--ships obviously of
the cruiser variety. The only question was WHOSE cruisers? Well, anyway,
we had to get in sometime, and the chances were they were not
Germans--so we'd better risk it. All the same, it was undoubted relief
when at last the white ensign also came above the rim of the sea.



All the mail boats were potential cruisers, with built-in gun
platforms, so it was no surprise to see a shoal of draughtsmen, naval
architects, Government representatives, and so forth, hurl themselves
on board and turn our well-ordered routine into chaos, and the ship
into a man-o'-battle, or an imitation one anyway, for we didn't see
ourselves doing much battling with old and antiquated 4.7's.

In due course--and a mighty long one--we commissioned as one of His
Majesty's ships, and hoisted the white ensign. Our crew were duly "fell
in" (something new for them right away) and asked if they would wish to
volunteer to remain in the ship in view of the service for which she
would be required.

It seemed rather a futile question to me, and one I could, with the
utmost confidence, have given the answer to in the next breath. The men
belonged to the ship, had been in her for years, and they had no
intention of leaving her unless they were chucked out, which certainly
would not happen so long as they had behaved themselves. If she was
going "off the run" there might be additional fun, which would be
welcome, but beyond that they were not interested. In response to the
order "those now wishing to volunteer to remain in the ship, once pace
forward MARCH," they all quietly walked forward across the deck, to make
evident that it was one very good pace.

The Navy chap was a bit horrified, but I told him to never mind, they
understood in the main, what he meant.

Unfortunately, a good sprinkling were Royal Naval Reserve men, and
ex-service men who were quickly drafted to other and perhaps more useful
spheres--we were sorry--and believe me, SO WERE THEY.

Our Carpenter and Bosun were informed that they were now Warrant rank,
which didn't seem to impress them greatly, till they found themselves
each invested with a sword. As old "Chips"--not notorious for either
cleanliness or choice of language--asked me, "What the hell am I
supposed to do with this damn thing? Take it round with me when I'm
sounding ship?"

What disgusted this quaint couple most was having to move their quite
comfortable quarters, as it was considered infra dig. to be quartered so
near the crew. When told the exact meaning of the words, the Bosun
feelingly replied, "Infra dig., eh? If any of my watch is looking for a
nice thick ear, let 'em try the infra dig. on me."

Evidently he had not QUITE got the exact meaning, though he certainly
had the sense of it, and did not need a sword and new quarters to put a
point to it. A mail boat man in a mail boat, is a round peg, fitting
nicely into a round hole; a hole that is rapidly squared with the
introduction of Navy ways and manners. But when it came to drafting a
lot of Hebredian fishermen on us, they were any-shaped pegs,
endeavouring to fit impossible holes, naturally leading to utterly
impossible situations.

I was promoted to First Lieutenant and Mary of the Messdecks; also the
thankless task of trying to get these fellows from the north firstly to
understand English as we spoke it, and secondly, when it took the form
of orders, to instill in them just what was expected of them, when these
orders were given.

There were Action Stations, Collision Stations, Fire Stations, and many
other Stations and evolutions, but none that our fellows from the north
had ever heard of. Furthermore, it was sometime before they realised
that it was necessary to practice these efforts, so as to be ready if
and when the occasion arose. After a lengthy explanation of what each
individual was to do, where to go, and how to act, when Fire Stations
were sounded, the order was at last given to the bugler, "Sound off fire
stations." This he did, immediately followed by the "Still," then the
indication, "Fire in the forward magazine," and the bugle call, "Carry
on." Everyone dashed off, except three."

"Come on, what the hell are you standing there for? Didn't you hear?
Fire is in the forward magazine,"

Now I ask you, what would you do when a big fellow, with his eyes nearly
popping out of his head, replied in sepulchral Scotch, "Guid God, sir,
ye dinna say so!"

It was not that they were by any means born stupid, nor were they
scared, but they were a bit slow in the uptake. Excellent material, but
a wee bit raw, till they became accustomed to "Navy Ways." When anything
needed doing, they, as with the Merchant Service men, had a perfectly
simple method of just slipping into it, and getting it done, without
waiting for pipes and whistles and bugle calls.

Our own Boatswain gave an amusing illustration once when an order was
given to clear and lower the gangway ladder. It was a great big
cumbersome teakwood affair, weighing a couple of tons. HIS method in our
way was to take a few hands, heave it out, and lower away, in very short
order, but no particular manner, except that the operation embodies the
essence of seamanship. But now we were the Navy, and the hands must
first of all be piped. Then fallen in. Then told off with their Petty
Officers for that particular job. By the time they arrived down on the
main deck, and started to get busy, the Bosun was just about boiling
with impatience, but being now a Warrant Officer, must not lay his
sacred hand to unseemly toil. I watched him, more than a bit amused, as
I'd seen him have that ladder out, and down, time and again, in the
shortest of shakes. He stood it for a while, then with a real Western
Ocean Bosun's flow of language, he leapt on to the ladder, yelled at a
couple of his own men to "Come on" and the rest of them to "get the hell
out of it." Breaking all sacred Navy traditions and disregarding his
rank, he had the ladder tipped out and lowered down in not much more
time than would have been taken to clear it away.

Forcing the Merchant Service man into Navy ways was almost as hard as
making water run uphill. Yet, such is his adaptability, that within a
few months of was he clicked his heels and turned to the right about,
with the best. In fact, when the war was over, and we were back again in
our own happy and respective spheres it took him some time to quit
clicking his heels--and get some work done.

With our heterogeneous mixture we were bundled off on the Northern
Patrol. Gun crews formed of men who had never seen a gun before, much
less fired one. Small wonder then that when with the Fleet one night at
"night firing", the ship towing target for us signalled that it was
quite all right, "we were not hitting her, but WOULD we mind firing at
the target, which was some few hundred yards astern of her."

The OCEANIC was really far too big for that patrol and in consequence it
was not long before she crashed on to one of the many outlying reefs and
was lost.

The fog was as thick as the proverbial hedge when she ripped up on the
rocks; and in all fairness one could not lay the blame on the
navigator--my old shipmate of many years, Davy Blair--trying as he was
to work that great vessel amongst islands and mostly unknown currents.

The fact remains that early one morning she caught this outlying reef,
and was pounded to pieces by the huge sea then running. Lying broadside
on to the reef, with the tide setting strong on to it, she was held
there, lifting and falling each time, with a horrible grinding crash. I
know it nearly broke my heart to feel her going to bits under my very
feet, after all these years. The sensation, as those knife-edged rocks
ground and crunched their way through her bilge plates, was physically

How she held together long enough for us to get everyone out of her was
a miracle in itself, and certainly testified to the good work put in by
Harland and Wolff.

What with the heavy sea and swift current--to say nothing of the fog--we
had our work cut out to get the stokers and engineers away without loss
of life. With the seamen, and eventually the officers, although the
weather conditions had become markedly worse, the operation was somewhat
easier. Our much discussed Hebredian contingent certainly shone that
day. The calm and collected manner in which they went about their work
made it seem as if abandoning ship, under such trying conditions as then
existed, was of daily occurrence with them--personally I was
tremendously glad of their self-reliant help, and proud of their
fearless ability.

We stood by in the boats till next morning when another ship of the
Patrol turned up in response to our wireless signals. All the same, I
couldn't resist taking my boat back alongside what was left, at
daylight, to have a last look at my old love--this, despite frantic
signals from our rescuer who, as it turned out, had just had information
regarding an enemy submarine in the vicinity.

I jumped on board the old hooker for a quick look round. A last glance
at the old cabin where I had spent so many comfortable hours--and
damnably uncomfortable ones. Then, just as I was rushing out to return
to my boat, whose crew were expecting the ship to roll over on top of
them every minute, I spotted the ship's clock on the bulkhead. The clock
I had looked at so lovingly, when I came below for eight long hours, but
whose inevitable fingers I had cursed so heartily as they drew
inexorably nearer the last zero minute, when I must at last leap out of
my warm bunk to hurriedly dress, and dash for the bridge.

All these and many other memories seemed to lie behind that smug and
friendly face. On the impulse of the moment, I seized it in both hands,
and tore it bodily from off its wooden wall, and bore it away in

I still look at it and call up many happy memories--but now on board my
own little craft.

I got a severe strafeing from the impatient skipper, who said I was
responsible for more grey hairs in his already grey head; I didn't mind
his grousing, I had my clock.

I was never so fond of any ship as the OCEANIC, either before or since,
and her loss was like the snapping of the last link that held me to the
Merchant Service and the White Star Line. Aboard her it had been like
carrying my home to the War, but now I felt I was into the War neck and

Back to barracks at Devonport, a cushy job for those that liked to start
playing bridge in the forenoon and continue consistently throughout the
day. I'm not particularly fond of Bridge, immediately after breakfast,
even if there was a War.

Davy Blair, my old OCEANIC pal, and I volunteered for a job that we had
got wind of in the Flag Lieutenant's office. The main qualification for
the men who were to get it, we were told, as that they should be "Hard
Cases." Well, Davy and I had both done the Western Ocean, and knew it in
its worst moods these many years. If the Mail Boat Service didn't
qualify us as far as weather was concerned, then nothing ever would.

We were accepted and told to get fixed up with fishermen's rig, such as
is use by the Brixham trawlers. A visit down sailor town soon completed
the outfit, blue jersey, smock, rough serge pants, heavy weather cap,
and seaboots, making us the imitation of a perfect fisherman. My first
disguise! And if I looked as big a fool as I felt, then I'd need to be
sorry for the success of our venture.

Davy was given a section of the coast from Newquay round the Lizard
including Falmouth to Dodman point. Here my section ended and carried on
past Mevagissey, Looe, round by Plymouth, Start Bay, Dartmouth and on
past Tor Bay to Teignmouth. A fairly big patrol with a roving commission
to find out what I could get, and report back in a week's time to the C.
in C. Devonport. My craft was a pure and simple Brixham smack, with no
attempt to disguise the discomforts.

I arranged with my wife to meet me in Brixham in a couple of days' time,
and for her to do a bit of snooping on her own account along the shore
side. Also I asked the Flag Lieutenant to take the necessary precaution
of notifying the War Stations and Coastguards along the coast and any
others likely to trip me up.

We sailed away merrily into the teeth of a S.W. gale and I can truly
say, it was somewhat different from sea going in an Atlantic liner.

After cruising along that ironbound coast from Bolt Tail to the Start,
we at last got a bit of welcome shelter in Start Bay. The weather easing
down, we cruised along close in shore making slowly for Berry Head. Just
before opening the Dart, I was examining the cliffs of Penlee Point just
outside Dartmouth, with a pair of strong glasses, when I noticed two
sets of steps cut in the cliff and leading down to deep water. Nothing
terribly unusual, but odd. However, I tucked it away for future
reference, pushed on to Brixham, and trotted off ashore to make tough
with the Coastguard, as arranged with my wife. Of course, in Brixham
every one knows everyone; therefore it was perfectly apparent that for
one thing I didn't belong, and for another that I was no fisherman.

I trudged out to the Head to find that no lady of that nor any other
description had been along nor had they been notified as to anyone of my
name, type, size or build, and furthermore, not to put too fine a point
on it, who was I anyway?

My advice to them was to get in touch with the C. in C. and find out.
Meantime I clumped off back, smock, seaboots and all. Half way down the
hill I met an antiquated growler coming up, and sitting in it was the
wife of my bosom.

At the first hail the cabby just LOOKED, but he did not stop. At the
second hail he did stop and leaning through the cab window I informed
the lady that I had already been to the coastguard and that they didn't
know me from a crow, but were evidently out to satisfy their own
curiosity. Well! We'd try and make for an hotel and get some inward
comfort. This we did, and as I opened the door of the cab and took the
seat beside my wife, an audible whisper went round from the crowd that
by this time had collected, "E's got in with 'er."

My wife, by this time, was thoroughly enjoying the War. But I'd an idea
that another war was coming, and I wasn't very far wrong. When we got to
the hotel my wife went inside to do the chaffering whilst the crowd
paraded past the cab window. I took off my smock. Not a bit ashamed they
just peeped round through the window. As last, completely fed up, I got
out of the cab, and stood on the steps of the hotel to give them a
really good view. Apparently they decided then and there that I was a
German spy, and that, without a shadow of a doubt.

My wife came out with the information that they would take us in. But I
decided that if I was going to be stared at, or run in, it was not going
to be in those ridiculous clothes. So back on board I went and changed
into mufti. Of course, that completely tore it. There was not a shadow
of doubt left that I had at least a couple of German Cruisers, if not in
my pocket, then they were on board the smack, which as I have said,
hailed from Brixham.

I wasn't a bit surprised when the Chief officer of Coastguards called
with his retinue, no doubt supported by the local constabulary secreted
behind the door. In the meantime I had tucked away a much needed meal,
and in consequence, my somewhat vivid welcome to Brixham had to some
extent paled, with the result that explanations followed and we were
soon good friends and we remained good friends throughout the time I had
that patrol.

The Flag Captain was the culprit, he had completely forgotten to notify

My wife enlisted the local padre and made one or two useful enquiries
regarding Penlee House (where I had discovered the steps) whlst I had a
nose round from the seaward side.

The unanimous opinion of our committee of three was that we did not like
the look of the place one bit, and I reported back to the C. in C. to
that effect. All right, that's fine. Take the KERMAC. Keep our eye on
the coast I've given you, and the spot you mention in particular. Push
off, but don't get foul of the Military authorities ashore, if you can
possibly avoid it.

Being "in all respects ready for sea," I found myself outside Plymouth
Breakwater, Captain of the Iceland trawler KERMAC armed to the teeth
with a Six-pounder and ready to do battle with the best. Also I had been
presented with a nice selection of foreign flags, any one of which I was
at liberty to dangle in front of a prowling periscope, as an inducement
for him to come up and be sunk. "But you must be careful to break out
the White Ensign and haul down your foreign colours before you actually
open fire."

Well, that was all right. The orders were quite sound, and I daresay the
precaution necessary. All the same, I should have been sorry for the sub
that relied upon our choice of the correct flag being hoisted at the
precise and exact moment.

As a first effort we went steaming gaily past a War signal station under
the DUTCH colours, and never saw his frantic signals challenging our
identity. Of course this extremely suspicious occurrence was instantly
flashed far and wide. "Look out for suspicious vessel passing up the
coast flying Dutch colours." "Stop and examine her." As it happened we
did not pass up the coast; I suddenly took a notion, when off the Start,
to push off into mid channel for the night, on the off-chance of falling
in with some sort of adventure.

When it was discovered we had disappeared into the blue, then everyone
got on their toes and at least one division of Destroyers was despatched
to take up the chase. We fell foul of this little lot at daylight next
morning, just as we were about to enter Dartmouth, after our night's
outing. No doubt the Destroyer Skippers were also on edge after being
kept out on a wild goose chase all night. Still that was no sort of
excuse for opening fire before they even got in range. Probably they
were a bit befogged after being at sea so many hours, and it didn't dawn
on them that once inside Dartmouth I should be reasonably safe, as I
could not very well disappear overland or even up the Dart, drawing over
sixteen feet. However, having successfully carried out the intricate
manoeuvre of surrounding me, with guns and torpedo-tubes, trained to a
nicety in case I did take an ill-advised notion to suddenly submerge or
even rise out of the water and vanish into the clouds--the
representative of the Senior Officer of the Division came on board, and
with due solemnity I escorted him to my cabin and stood him a drink.

Penlee Point is a cliff rising sheer out of the sea, and Penlee House
sits thereon facing seaward. Day by day, and week by week our suspicious
increased until at last one night I happened to see the occupants
flagrantly signalling out to sea with coloured lights. I was now
absolutely certain that the house was being used for imparting
information to submarines off shore, but I kept the information to
myself in the hopes of being able to bag the submarine. It was more than
likely there was only one submarine working here at a time. It is a
rocky and risky bit of coast, and for some time I was puzzled to account
to the accuracy of navigation that would let a submarine approach with
the certainty of getting into the exact line of light for receiving
signals. The method of signalling was such that unless you were in the
precise line of light the signals were absolutely invisible. I happened
on the solution to that purely by chance.

We had been over towards the French Coast one night, and were returning
in the early morning as usual to Dartmouth--which I used as a sub-base.
Just as daylight was breaking, we picked up the English coastline, which
I examined very closely, trying to locate Berry Head or the Start, in
order to get the rough bearing on the entrance to the Dart. By and by
the sun rose and it shone directly on the land ahead, which showed up in
a black irregular line. But on this black hillside I could make out
through my glasses a distinct, short, vertical white line, looking all
the whiter by contrast with the surrounding blackness. As we approached,
this white line became still more and more distinct. From the bearing of
Berry Head and the Start (by now well in sight) I knew we must be
heading just about direct for the mouth of the Dart, and therefore, this
white line must be on the hillside just outside Dartmouth, and above
Penlee Point.

Now, back of Penlee House, the main road runs, and on the other side of
the road is steep rising ground, and on the hillside there are three
houses which had always seemed to have an odd look about them, but up to
that time I had not been able to put my finger on where the oddness lay.
I now discovered that their odd look was due to the fact that they were
painted all white. White fronts, white roofs, and even white chimneys.
Coming in from the sea these three houses formed a distinct white line,
which if kept in line led you direct to the steps at the base of the
cliff. At night, a light in the centre window of each house, kept in
line would not only lead in, but would give you the precise distance off
the land, when the ridge of the roof of the house in front cut off the
light of the house behind. Perfectly simple. Absolutely effective.

A very sore point with the Brixham fishermen was that Start Bay had been
closed for years to trawlers, although this bay is noted for its very
fine soles. Across this sheltered bay runs a sandy shoal, protecting it
from a swell from seaward. Here was the submarine's base, from where she
operated in perfect immunity, whilst from the house she got her
information as to what ships were expected up and down channel.

It was from here that she obtained her information that H.M.S.
FORMIDABLE was bound down channel. She waited for her off the Start, and
sunk her with pretty heavy loss of life. When that took place, then
things did begin to move a bit, but up until then I had steadily bucked
my head against the brick wall of Navy Customs and traditions. I was
loath to tell all I knew for fear that I should scare my bird away
before I could catch her. That nearly happened after telling the C. in
C. about some of the signalling I had seen at times. As it had taken
place from the shore I suppose etiquette compelled him to inform the O.
C. troops of the district. Be that as it may, the very next morning, two
British heroes mounted on their chargers, in full uniform, Sam Browns
and swords complete, rode up to Penlee House, knocked, and demanded to
be told "Why had they been signalling out to sea, and to whom?" The
inhabitants of the house were unreasonably reticent, for I don't believe
they told a word about the submarine!

It is hard to believe, and the only extenuation one can offer is that it
was early in the war. We had not yet taken off our gloves and that
likewise was the reason I suppose, why the authorities at Devonport
would not consent to supplying me with a depth charge to deal with my
lively little quarry. Beyond sending more and more ships for the patrol,
till I had a fleet of twenty, nothing would move them. The powers were
concerned that the submarine was merely using this place to take in oil.
The tune changed when the FORMIDABLE went down, and they then took off
their gloves and went for her baldheaded, eventually blowing her up off
the Slapton Sands where she had been hiding all along. Unfortunately,
and to my bitter disappointment, I was not in at the death. I was in
hospital. Not with honourable wounds, but of all wretched things, with



When I was at last released from the Naval hospital it was to find that
the fiat had gone forth "all permanent Naval Reserve Officers to the
Grand Fleet."

Well, one must take the rough with the smooth, but I made up my mind
that I would not spend a day longer on that tack than I could help. I
knew only too well the ghastly monotony of battleship life. However, I
was in luck, I was not sent to a battleship, but to the old Cunarder
CAMPANIA, now also H.M.S. but even so, there was every prospect of
something livelier than sitting in a wardroom drinking Gin-and-It.

She was a comic, all right, and we were a comic crowd. Officers and men,
R.N., R.N.R., R.N.V.R., R.N.A.S. The only tribe we lacked was Chinamen.
I was appointed Watchkeeper, for when there was anything to watch, and
Observer for when there was anything to observe. This was not going to
be too bad, seaplanes being what they were, or as it turned out, what
they were not.

We had many types of seaplane. The majority rejoiced in the designation
of "White's Coffins" perhaps because they were painted white, and made
quite suitable marine tombstones. Frequently they got off the water, but
more frequently they didn't. When they did, I observed. When they didn't
I usually got wet swimming to a boat.

When we were practising in Scapa Flow there was always a convenient boat
in attendance, or at any rate within hail. When doing P.Z.'s with the
Fleet at sea, there wasn't, which always gave added zest to the game,
for if you came down, you stayed down.

On one of these occasions off Iceland, when the Blue Fleet, representing
the Germans, had gone off into the blue; and we, the Red Fleet were
going to find them, the CAMPANIA was ordered to "Up Seaplanes and at
'em." They were got out, but not up! At least, out of a round dozen that
were put in the water, one alone took off safely, and that, luckily, or
unluckily, according to whether you were in her or not, was mine, and
off we flipped, to locate the "Enemy."

In front of me, I had my Code book, Morse keys and such navigating
instruments as were then in vogue, that day of Our Lord; and they were
primitive, like everything else connected with the air.

Having run out our aerial, I commenced to "keep the Flag informed," or
was pleased to think I did.

There happened to be a nice low layer of clouds above which we could
hide ourselves, coming down from time to time to have a squint round. Of
course, we knew in what direction the enemy lay. That's part of the
game. If you don't know that you can't find and fight each other, so
what's the use! We eventually made contact and found. There they were,
laid out below us for all the world like a fleet of toyships on a bit of
blue glass, each surrounded by a bit of cotton wool.

So many battleships. So many cruisers. So many destroyers. Heading so
and so, at such and such a speed. All this I carefully coded, and as
carefully tapped out.

Another call to the Flagship, and a "repeat" of the information--just to
make sure; then wind up the aerial and "Home John," after a good day's
work, being quite sure that our side would now win, and we would be the
shy recipients of loads of kudos--if not personal congrats, from
Jellicoe himself.

But it's one thing to say "Home, John," and another to get there. The
"Home" in this case being a fast moving and mighty small unit, somewhere
in the sea between Iceland, Shetland and Norway. It wasn't long before
we should have been glad to surrender ourselves to the "Enemy," only
we'd lost him too! Then, just before we ran completely out of petrol, we
found someone and down we came. To our unmitigated relief it was our own
fleet, and we were soon swinging at the end of the derrick, being
hoisted back on board. The fight, apparently, was over, but to our utter
disappointment, such is the fortune of war and bad wireless, they had
not heard a word from us since we had left!

Next thing I was put on to teach the young idea how to "Observe." It is
a great game teaching others what you don't know yourself. It does need
tact, but then this was war. So I went to work and formed my classes,
bluffed out a syllabus, and turned out "qualified" Observers.

As time went on we got more and more bottled in by subs. Snooping around
outside the net defences, with occasional mild excitements, such as a
cruiser charging blindly through the nets, fondly thinking the boom was
open, only to find himself hung up by the tail with a mixture of nets,
and propellers to disentangle when the weather moderated. But for a
couple of days, there she hung with a S.W. gale doing its very best to
make things thoroughly enjoyable for all on board. Some of the chaps
told us, when they did get clear, that they were sure she rolled
completely over a couple of times, and came up the other side; but I
think that was an exaggeration. A self-respecting ship doesn't do such

Then, of course, there was the "Battle of Scapa Flow" when Destroyers and
Light Cruisers, playing "follow my leader" slipped their moorings and
joined issue with the splashes from other's falling shell. I think in
the final analyses it was quite agreed that it must have been a
porpoise, not a periscope in the first instance, that broke surface on
that memorable day.

Perhaps the officer of the day who started the commotion had not had
enough water in it and seeing the porpoise, let rip. Others, quite
excusably, joined the fun, firing at the splashes of the original
joker's shells, which were quite easily to be mistaken for an enemy
submarine breaking surface.

Whoever the humorist was that started it, he modestly and wisely hid his
light under the proverbial bushel, despite a silent, though hearty vote
of thanks for creating the little diversion.

Being H.M.S. we must, of course, carry out our routine with H.M.S.
precision. Each little evolution neatly labeled and named. One such was
called "Away salvage party," used mainly for the purpose of retrieving
strayed or erring seaplanes--and the "Away salvage party" got plenty of
practice. Particularly as the skipper refused to have them retrieved in
any other manner. One chap conked his engine when JUST out of reach of
the ship's boom, and as a goodly breeze was blowing, he rapidly sailed
away to leeward, and incidentally, towards a line of particularly
repulsive and jagged rocks. It would have been a simple matter to have
chucked him a line, as he drifted past the after deck. But no, that
would have been too simple. It was a fine day, and the sun shone. We
would show the Fleet and the Battle Squadron in particular (of which we
were a unit) just how things SHOULD be done. With that was piped "Away
salvage party."

Up came the crew of the motor boat, with fire appliances, life jackets,
and what not. Fell in. Told off, and then tumbled into their boat. Now
comes the boat to the stern, to take the end of a grass line to the
adventuring seaplane, by this time well away to leeward. Off dashes the
boat at little short of twenty knots, but the line soon proves to be too
short, and with a quick turn taken round the mooring bitts on board she
is brought up with a sudden and mighty jerk, throwing all the crew on
their faces. Fortunately they were too far away for us to hear what THEY
had to say. Another line is procured and bent-on, then away they go

A peculiarity of the grass rope species is (and for which reason it is
used) that it floats on the surface of the water, which in this case
formed the contributory cause to our popularity.

First came the DREADNOUGHT'S picket boat with a four striper on board.
The coxswain watching our evolution, sees not the grass line, which he
neatly picks up with his prop, and stays put. "Mark one." Next turn was
the pinnace of the Flagship with the Vice Admiral on board. No
favouritism is to be shown even if he is a V.A. Neither does the
coxswain take warning by the other picket boat, nor see the line, and
the next moment we have him securely hooked. Altogether three boats,
including our own (by now quite helpless) were attached to our line,
which reached by this time half way across a goodly section of Scapa
Flow. (Where was Heath Robinson now?) Meanwhile, the erring seaplane
having reached the rocks, is now in an advanced state of disintegration,
the crew electing to salvage themselves, land on the rocks, light their
pipes, and watch the process of disentanglement. The next day we were
the recipients of quite a choice selection of signals. But such was life
with the Grand Fleet.



Having spent one winter and one summer in this manner, I was not looking
forward with pleasurable anticipation to another winter in those
latitudes. Darkness at 2 p.m. daylight at 10 a.m., is not funny when
there is little or nothing to do. So there were shouts of joy when we
heard the good news, with the inevitable introductory preamble "Being in
all respects ready for sea," we "were to proceed with all dispatch" to
Liverpool for refit.

With a bit of luck I was going to see the last of that old hybrid, and
she was going to see the last of me. A talk with the Skipper. A little
judicious strain placed on a few correct strings and then "Would I like
an independent command?" WOULD I NOT. In due course my appointment to
H.M.T.B. 117 came through, just before Christmas day! No matter. I'd
willingly sacrifice Christmas Day and a good deal more to get away from
that deadly monotony of "Somewhere in the North Sea."

Life was now worth while. Hectic and hard, but more what I was used to.
It wasn't long before I distinguished myself in the Nore Defence
Flotilla by discovering a bank that wasn't there, and bending my main
shaft in consequence. The N.D.F., as we were called, had been given a
retreat up Stangate Creek off the Medway, with the parent ship lying at
the mouth. One bright and cheery morning, I had difficulty in getting
away from my moorings and, as a result, had dropped well "astern of
station". To make up, we were doing about 18 knots (instead of the
sternly regulated eight for the creek) when my prop took ground. I
quickly took a bearing by the buoys, and noted the position.

So much inshore from those buoys there SHOULD have been deep water,
according to the chart. Well, there wasn't, and that was that. Now,
should I make the usual statement. "Regret to report having struck
wreckage in the Black Deep during the night of so and so," or should I
stick to my guns and say that there was no water there, and chance my
arm. Well, wisely or unwisely, I took the latter course, and got my leg
pulled unmercifully in consequence. "A new discovery. Lightoller's
bank!" "Ho! Ho! Ho! Had anyone seen Lightoller's bank?" This in addition
to shirty signals from the Flag to "go and find it."

The Survey Boat had been cruising around for days and the chap in charge
happened to have been a shipmate of mine in the old White Star days,
Harbord, by name. "Well, Lightoller," said he, "I'm awfully sorry but _I_
can't find it." We sounded, and better sounded. Yes, tons of water,
where I had said there wasn't! and I began to scent a Court of Enquiry.

Finally, and for no reason, Harbord says, "Let's go off to No. 1 buoy
and take a shot." We did, but frankly I don't know to this day what
spirit moved him. When the coxswain gave his reading from his sextant,
"No," says Harbord, "you must be wrong. Here take this sextant and see
what you get." He did. "Why hang it," said Harbord, "the BUOYS are all
wrong." And sure enough they were. The dockyard had laid every line of
buoys in a wrong position as compared with the chart. Not only was it my
turn to do the chuckling, but the Admiral, to signify his annoyance with
the dockyard, sent for the HARVEY, the big survey ship, and made them
take a survey of the whole creek and shift every buoy; whilst I felt my
halo increase by a good couple of inches.

About this time London was getting it badly from Zepps. We knew quite
well when they were coming over, but so far had been totally unable to
prevent them discharging their load of bombs, as, when, and where they
wished. Periodically, we of the N.D.F. would get the "Executive Signal"
and dash off to take up our respective positions in the estuary of the
Thames, in hopes of sighting them.

My pitch was just round the Tongue Lightship, and one such night, after
getting "Raid Stations" I blinded out to my position and told the
Lightship to put up a small riding light (Her regulation light being a
thing of long past.) But a little glimmer would just enable us to keep
station and concentrate on listening, instead of dodging sandbanks.

Amongst my signalmen I had a chap who had the most extraordinarily acute
hearing. I've known him to hear and describe sounds quite outside the
ken of anyone on board. I told Number One--in other words the First
Lieutenant--to put him on the bridge with nothing else to do but to keep
his ears open. Let him sit down, stand up or go where he pleased; for if
we were going to have any chance at one of these blighters, we should
have to hear him first. All things set; a Tracer in the breech of our
one and only anti-aircraft gun, ship just stemming the tide, and I
slipped down into my cabin. Not ten minutes later and the Gunner was
shouting down the hatchway in a hoarse whisper, "Zeppelin right
overhead, sir." Up on deck like a shot I went, but coming up out of the
light, I could see nothing. "There he is, sir," said the Gunner
excitedly, pointing straight up, and there sure enough he was; so close
as to blot out the sky, and so directly overhead that the anti-aircraft
gun would not bear. In those days they only came within a few degrees of
the absolute perpendicular. Everyone in the excitement of the moment had
adopted a whisper, for fear we should be heard, I suppose, though what
chance there was of that with the row his engines were making, heaven
only knows. Calling for the engineer, I told him to give her what steam
he could without touching his fires, in case a spark should scare the
Zepp away. Slowly we drew out, whilst No. 1 of the gun, with his eyes
glued on the telescope waited for the gun sights to "come on." Everyone
was holding their breath, whilst the propeller slowly churned round.

I'd given the order "Action" which the Gunner had supplemented with
"Fire when your sights come on."

At last, "Sights are on, sir," and before the words were out of his
mouth, BANG! and away went the first tracer with its little trail of
fire. "Over. Down fifty. Fire!" "Hit!" yelled everyone as the tracer
went clean through the Zepp's tail. He was now trying his utmost to get
out of range. "Independent," yelled the Gunner, and away with another
bang goes the next shell. "Hit again," reports the Gunner.

How on earth we didn't set him on fire and bring him down, heaven alone
knows. Just absolute rotten bad luck.

Then HE tried to get us and at the same time lighten himself by dropping
his bombs, for there was no doubt that he was badly hit. Another shot
gets him and he dips sharply by the tail. "He's coming down," shouts
everyone, now thoroughly worked up. But he wasn't. Down came a rain of
bombs instead, all exploding as they hit the water, like a Brock's
benefit and Crystal Palace show rolled into one. He'd had enough of it,
and was throwing everything overboard, in a frantic effort to escape. By
the flash from our gun, he saw where the shots were coming from; so he
turned his tail towards us, giving, in the darkness, an impossible
target. In the end, he managed to get away.

But London was spared that little lot. I was given the D.S.C. whilst our
friend Zepp, went back and reported having "Sunk a destroyer in the
mouth of the Thames."

I was then promoted to the one and only Dover Patrol. I'm afraid I did
not appreciate the honour, and kicked about the shift; just when I was
nicely settled in the N.D.F. with my family housed at Minster (on the

"Did I fully realise what it meant to be singled out for a Destroyer of
the Dover Patrol?" etc., etc., in the very best naval circumstance and
style. Well, no, I certainly did not, but "orders was orders" and I
might as well get on with the job.

So, once more, the family packed its grip, and moved along to No. 8,
East Cliff, Dover, whilst I reported to the H.Q. and was greeted as

"Oh yes, Lightoller. Well, you are of course appointed to the FALCON.
She's over in Dunkirk working up the Belgian Coast. Carry on, please."
With which full, complete information and instructions I was introduced
to the intricacies of the Dover Patrol.

The first thing was to find something to convey me across Channel. The
Duty Destroyer filled the bill there, landing me in Dunkirk late that
evening. I soon spotted a neat little craft lying alongside one of those
contraptions of modern warfare--a 13 in. Monitor. The little craft was
H.M.S. FALCON, of a type commonly known as the "30 knotters." Not a
great deal of space, unencumbered by guns and torpedo tubes, but
palatial, particularly below decks, compared with the Torpedo Boat I had
just left. A fair sized wardroom, and best of all, my own cabin to sulk

After the usual formalities of taking over from the previous Captain had
been got through, the next thing was to try and get to know my own crew.
Rightly or wrongly I always like to size up each man individually for
myself. Furthermore I had a strong objection to the splendid isolation
usually enjoyed by the Captain of H.M. Ships. Not through any particular
desire to rip up hoary naval traditions, but the times being what they
were, to my mind a unit was nearer her peak of fighting efficiency when
there was confidence and close touch throughout the ship. This applies
more, perhaps to a Destroyer (particularly when on more or less special
service, as we were) than on a big ship, where everything must be based
just on routine--though frankly I think a lot of said routine could be
dispensed with without any loss of fighting efficiency.

The fact that I leaned pretty solidly on experience gained through long
service in the Mercantile Marine, led to some comical patches at odd
times. For one thing, I expected each man to think for himself, and, in
an emergency, to act for himself. For instance, all the guns were kept
loaded with just the handle of the breech mechanism lever withdrawn just
sufficiently to break contact with the striker. To bring the gun into
action, all a man had to do, was to push the lever home, and press the
firing trigger. The idea being that if at any moment, a submarine, or,
what was more likely, a periscope, broke the surface, the man who
spotted her--and he was just as likely to be one of the hands round the
decks as one of the proper lookouts--would swing the nearest gun,
roughly in that direction, push home the B.M. lever, and fire. This,
instead of the recognized method of dashing to the Officer of the Watch,
and making his report to the bridge, and by the time the report had made
its round the submarine was down again in the vasty deep.

The effect of a man jumping to the nearest gun and firing, was that the
whole ship was instantly on the alert; everyone, including the O.O.W.
heard the shot, and he dashed to that side of the bridge, knowing at
once that a sub. had been sighted, and by the fall of shot he knew the
direction in which it had been seen. All this was encompassed in just a
couple of seconds of time.

Although this terrible departure from Naval customs distressed many of
the R.N. officers and petty officers, they had, in the long run, to
admit that it achieved its object, by instantly concentrating
everybody's sight and sense on one certain spot of water. The only man
who would never admit the slightest element of good in the scheme was
the wardroom steward; but he was prejudiced through unwisely standing
too near the breech of a six-pounder, when one of the stokers loosed
off, at what later turned out to be a porpoise. The steward got the
breech of the gun in the small of his back, which successfully knocked
out all the wind, and what little sense he had.

The Patrol's ordinary job was, of course, to hold the Straits. Our
secondary job was to journey up the Belgian coast and annoy the
ubiquitous Hun; at the same time protecting the left flank of the
British Army, which by now, rested on the sand dunes not far from
Dunkirk itself.

To protect our ships, whilst on patrol, from attack by submarine from
shoreward, there was a long line of mined nets. The Destroyers, in
addition to forming a screen for the big ships, had to keep an eye on
those nets, and light special acetylene lamps on Dan Buoys, so that our
own submarines could navigate with a degree of reasonable safety at

Periodically, the whole Flotilla would indulge in exchanging a bit of
hate with the shore batteries. By way of return, the German Destroyers
would raid us. But this was usually at night time when the big Monitors
were in the harbour. The latter's 13 and 15 in. guns were just a bit too
heavy for them, though they did work out a very successful scheme to
annoy us, when there was not enough water for the Monitors to get inside
the harbour. They evolved what we called an Electric Motor Boat,
commonly known as an EMB. These were driven by internal combustion, and
directed electrically from the shore by a wire attached to the boat. In
the stern was a reel of wire miles long which supplied direction. An
aeroplane formed the guiding star and gave directions by wireless back
to the station ashore. In the bows, the E.M.B. carried a high explosive
charge and traveled at some thirty knots. In consequence it was almost
impossible to hit her. With us Destroyers we could always get out of the
way, by either heaving up, if there was time, or slipping our cables if
there wasn't. With the unwieldy Monitors it was another matter, for they
could neither slip, nor move quickly enough to dodge. The result was,
they would see the feather of foam (which was all that could be seen of
the E.M.B.), and then they promptly loosed off with every gun they
possessed, with every hope, but little prospect, of registering a hit.
Of course, the Monitor had its blister, or bulge, round the water line,
so there was really no fear of her being actually sunk. But, as in one
case, the E.M.B. came charging along, everybody blazing away with really
more danger to themselves than the precious boat--and hit the TERROR'S
blister a glancing blow, leapt clean up and out of the water, exploding
on her upper works. No small amount of damage ensued. Forthwith written
suggestions were called for from all the Captains of the Dover Patrol,
working up the Belgian Coast, as to the best manner of dealing with this

Those boats were absolutely devoted to speed, and, as I knew, carried no
skeg, which as a rule protects the propeller from anything in the water,
a bit of wood, rope, or such like. They traveled at an angle of almost
30° tail down and nose up. That was how this one came to jump the
TERROR'S blister, and blow in her upper works. Well, gunfire having
proved utterly ineffective, I "had the honour to suggest" that as a
Destroyer was supplied with one grass line forward and another aft, each
said Destroyer should, on sighting an attacking E.M.B., bend the two
grass lines together and trail them astern, placing them directly across
the course of the oncoming E.M.B. She might, by smart handling, have
missed the first, but I'll guarantee she was bound to run over the
second, and a few dozen turns of two inch grass line round the prop
would quickly put paid to her little joy ride.

I was thanked, very courteously, but informed at the same time that "the
method to be adopted must be concentrated gunfire." I wasn't altogether
surprised, being, by this year of grace--and War--fairly familiar with
Navy traditions and Tape. The grass line was obviously too silly and

However, our side soon retaliated with the C.M.B.--short for Coastal
Motor Boat. These were real boats and carried a crew of four. Two
engineers, two officers and a twenty-two inch mouldy (torpedo). They had
a speed of anything up to thirty-five knots, and later in the war
reached forty-five. Originally they were based on Harwich, but not
allowed to do anything worth while. Many might wonder why. Well, the
story oft told, said that what the Navy couldn't do, no one else was
going to get a chance of doing--and collecting kudos! Be that as it may,
the High Lights in the C.M.B. world worried the Higher Lights till, in
desperation, they sent a Flotilla round to Dover--much to Admiral
Bacon's disgust. He promptly pushed them over on to "Commodore Dunkirk,"
and that's how this collection of splendid fellows with their wonderful
boats, came to be based on Dunkirk, using the Destroyers as chummy

Some of their efforts up the coast were epics. They got the Commodore--a
real sport--to send a bombing squadron of aeroplanes up the Zeebrugge.
It was well-known that apart from submarines, a division of German
Destroyers was also based there, and in the case of a raid on Zeebrugge
the latter invariably put quietly out to sea, till the flap was over.
Then, as quietly returned. All this was common knowledge, but when the
bright young sparks of C.M.B. fame, heard of it, they said, "Why,
there's a hell of a fine chance. Turn us loose." The Commodore, like a
good fellow, sent up four bombers to drive out the Destroyers and then
turned the C.M.B.'s loose, who promptly sunk one Destroyer, and put
another out of action; all in one perfectly good night's work.

A C.M.B., in effect, was nothing more than a glorified hydroplane,
decked-in forward over the engines. Aft she sloped away to the transoms
in two complete sections, leaving a lateral gap between. In this gap
reposed a twenty-one inch torpedo, with its business end facing forward,
propellers and rudders aft.

Fitted over the nose in the warhead of the mouldy, was the cup end of a
compressed air ram. On pressing the firing key, the ram forced the
torpedo along her slides to the rear and into the water. The action of
the torpedo striking the water actuated the trigger, which, in turn,
opened the compressed air chamber to the propellors, and at the same
time elevated the diving rudders. The net result was that sufficient
time having elapsed for the C.M.B. to get clear, the torpedo then shot
forward on a course identical to that on which the C.M.B. had been
traveling when the firing key was pressed.

These boats must therefore steer straight at their objective until they
were well within torpedo range; then fire,--and do their best to get
away. Even under the cover of night, they needed a modicum of luck to
get out of gun range without being hit--once they had been spotted.

It can't be denied that some of these boats did have a spot of luck at
times. On one such occasion, just as one chap had loosed off his mouldy
and put his helm hard over to pull out of the scrum, his port tiller
wire broke. The only thing he could do was to put the helm hard over the
other way with the remaining wire, and jam the rudder against the stern
to keep it quiet, whilst he--the Skipper--leaned over the stern and
repaired the offending wire. Meantime his craft was gong all out, some
thirty knots, circling round and round. One part of each circle took him
clean through the objects of their kind attention--the Division of
German Destroyers--who by way of return loosed off impartially, with
everything, even including revolvers, for he passed some of them within
fifty yards, yet not one of the crew was hit, nor the engine, nor any
other vital part. The skipper hitched up the wire, got away, and she
returned home, none the worse, beyond a few punctures above the water

Another time a chap having let go his mouldy and turned; was making
back, when the oil-feed pump broke down, and the engine instantly seized
up. They were still within sight, even though it was night, so the
nearest Destroyer commenced lobbing salvoes of four inch shells at them.
First salvo "over," next one "short." Another "over," and so the game
went on, whilst the engineers and officers merely sat under the fore
deck, alongside the engine, waiting for the cylinders to cool down
sufficiently for them to start up again.

Between them and the four inch high explosive shells was exactly half an
inch of perfectly good mahogany.

Once the engine cooled, they were all right, as they were supplied with
an auxiliary oil feed. But, meantime, they listened to the shells either
whining overhead, or crumping short, sometimes heaving sprays right over
the boat. Eventually they also got their engine going, and came away,
not a penny the worse.

All the boats were not so lucky, and as time went on an occasional one,
here and there did not return. In fact the German Destroyers were not a
great while before they discovered a method which effectually put a stop
to these little night excursions. We never knew exactly what their
practice was, but the evidence was clear, by the increasing number that
failed to report. Finally the Commodore called the circus off.

It isn't to be supposed that the German Destroyer chaps took these
attacks lying down. They retaliated by raiding the Straits again and
again, and their method of attack made it very difficult for us to
locate them. Usually they worked with a division of four modern ships
mounting 4.2 guns. (The Grand Fleet collared all our modern Destroyers,
so we had to make out as best we could.) The Germans would come down,
when there was no moon and tear up and down the Straits, sinking
everything on sight. Trawlers, Drifters, Destroyers, or anything else
that came within their ken. Their practice was, on anything being
sighted by the leading ship, to instantly pass the word down the line,
keeping their own sights "on" till the fourth ship picked up the
prospective quarry and fired. The other three pressed their triggers at
the same instant. The result was one solid salvo of sixteen or twenty
guns and then blank darkness again.

Unless one was near and actually looking that way, it was impossible to
get a bearing, for they never fired again at that object--usually there
was not need. Over went their helms, and off on another tack. Then
another flash, in a totally different direction, and still another of
the Dover Patrol had paid the price.

A drifter had been put down in this manner one night, and H.M.S. FAIREY
(Destroyer of our Flotilla) seeing the flash and hearing the report,
dashed off in that direction to discover some half a dozen men
struggling in the water. He'd got it fixed in his own mind that the
explosion had been a mine, and switched on his searchlight to help him
see, and rescue the survivors. The Huns, of course, spotted him at once,
and after swinging round, came up on his blind side and gave him a salvo
also. Only one man out of the crews of both ships was saved.



Up to this time we had been patrolling the Straits singly and
independently, but it became a distinctly losing game. So someone had a
brainstorm and instituted the "R" words. Every two hours day and night,
two words commencing with R were sent out on our wave length. There were
also two executive words commencing with R and changed every twenty-four
hours, and known only to the Captain. Just imagine how automatically
one's reply became to the signalman's, "Rodosto Renoun, sir." "Repulse
Retreat, sir," "Revenge Remand, sir," and so on, day in, day out and
night after night. As often as not the words would be reported just when
one's mind was more than fully occupied with something else.

If and when the executive words did come, all Destroyers rendezvoused at
given places in the Straits and formed up into Divisions ready to tackle
the wily Hun with SOMETHING approaching his own weight in metal. The
rendezvous of my particular Division was at a position called Y buoy
over on the French side, a place I am not likely to forget in a hurry,
for I left the best part of two perfectly good propellers there, but of
that later.

The night I got into trouble with the "R" words, as luck would have it,
Brother Bosche, of the ever fertile mind, had chosen for one of his star

In the first place he was going to carry out one of his well advertised
raids on the Straits, and when he had drawn us off after that herring,
he proposed landing--or demonstrating a landing--on the sand dunes
behind the left flank of our Army. Not only did "Intelligence" know of
the raid, but they also knew that it was a bluff--but we poor skippers
of Destroyers knew not.

The Hun, without a doubt knew his bluff had been called, when our
submarine patrol, on the line of mined nets was cancelled for the night,
and in the fading twilight there trickled out of Dunkirk Harbour one
15-inch monitor, two 13-inchers, a couple of 9-inchers, sweepers and
destroyers. This lot soon formed up, with sweepers out ahead and the
accompanying screen of destroyers hovering around endeavouring to keep
station, zigzag and yet not lose sight of the big ship they were
attached to. The WOLFE was our misfortune, and the skipper of her was a
pretty bleak sort of being. Of course, it was my own fault; I should
have been on the top line with those infernal words, but it had been no
small job to avoid some sort of snotty signal from the WOLFE about
something done or left undone.

Heaven knows, there were opportunities enough to give cause for those
sort of signals, and this blighter never seemed to miss one. I can only
suppose that it was during one of those cheering interludes, that the
signalman must have come with his Remumbo Rejumbo, or whatever the
executive words were that night, and I had or hadn't said, "All right,
signalman." Anyhow, the next thing was, we got the shaded "M.K." from
our friend of the torpid liver.

"M.K.", translated, means "Proceed in execution of previous orders," in
other words "Shove off." Well, we shoved off, hard aport, full speed,
whilst I tried to collect my scattered senses. It was pitch dark, and no
sign of another destroyer who might have given me the tip. "Number one,
what do you suppose the M.K.was made for?" Number one hadn't the remotest
idea, nor had anyone else, for by this time I had taught them all to use
their own individual think-boxes.

There was nothing for it but to ignominiously return and "Request
further instructions," in other words, to ask for it. And we got it!
"Take station astern," was the signal. Dirty dog! He wouldn't even give
me a hint. With our tail tucked neatly between our legs, we crawled
along astern. Suddenly, with a blast of intelligence, "Signalman," I
yelled as loudly as I dared, "What were the last of those damned 'R'
words you gave me," and sure enough they were the Executive words by all
that was holy and I had slipped up on them. "Signalman, make the
interrogative M.K.," meaning, "REQUEST permission to proceed in
execution of previous orders." Back came the reply, "Approved," and no
rider, for a wonder. "Hard aport," once again, and "Every ounce of steam
you can give her down below, there." Sandbanks on one side, and mine
nets on the other. (Eight knots was a safe speed, we were making
twenty-five.) No matter, we MUST make Y buoy in time. At all costs we
must not let our Division down.

What added a certain amount of zest to our midnight blind was the fact
that only a few days before the GYPSY, another of the Flotilla had been
making a similar dash in daytime, and had made a collection of some of
those nets with her prop. She was towed in, later on, and put in Graving
dock. Shores had been placed, and the water was just leaving her when it
was discovered, by the then scattering crowd of dockies, that she had a
nice little bunch of grapes hanging, all entangled, from her props. The
grapes, in this instance, being mines, still attached to bits of net.

We had no ambition to collect either nets or mines, and in point of fact
didn't, but in due course, "made our numbers" to the Senior Officer of
our Division.

Off we went hunting the hoary Hun; a job every man jack preferred to
dancing attendance on the snotty old WOLFE.

He was out that night, all right, but we couldn't make contact with him.
Blindman's buff is not an odds on game, with the coast of England and
France for boundaries. Maybe he sensed we were after his hide, or
perhaps he had been told to play a bluff. Anyhow he returned to his lair
with an empty bag that good night.

Later on, the usual signal came through, "Resume normal conditions,"
which again translated means "get on with your various jobs." Ours was
to get back to Dunkirk, and coil down, preparatory to the next jaunt up
the coast.

Dunkirk itself was no health resort in these times. At night the Germans
sent their bombers over, and by daylight, with all the impudence in the
world, their tame photographers to take record of the wreckage.

Often and often, after a night of strafing, when bombs had been dropping
everywhere, and great gouts of flame going up, accompanied by crash
after crash, one would think, "Well there will be no Dunkirk when the
day breaks after THIS little lot." But no such thing. A couple of
lamp-posts down, and a few windows broken would be the sum total of
damage. The inhabitants, in fact, made a well-earned boast that during
the whole time, the tram service was never once held up on account of
raids. Brother Hun tried very hard to get the Commodore's office, in
return for his little efforts with the C.M.B.'s, but though time and
again he had to have the windows replaced, then never managed to get a
direct hit. Certainly they compelled him to give up using glass and
resort to wood in the window frames, that did not stop the good work
going on.

Sometimes to vary the nightly programme, the Air Force would place
landing lights on the beach, and encourage the wily Hun to bomb them. He
did, and then would take bearings from the landing lights and turn his
attention to the town--as he thought; but owing to the misplaced lights,
he put his bombs into the inner harbour where we lay, which was not so
good. He caught the destroyer ahead of us one night with a bomb under
his stern, which, though it sank him by the stern--by a stroke of
luck--did not set off his depth charges. If they had gone off, we should
all have gone up. Another target he tried hard for, was the ammunition
ship tied to the inner dock. She was loaded with 15, 13 and 12-inch
shells, and was a continued source of annoyance to the inhabitants of
Dunkirk, for if they had hit the ship, the whole town would have

The Captain and crew of the ammunition ship took their risk in a
curiously philosophical way. Briefly, their argument was, "What's the
difference between sitting on one, or one hundred H.E. shells--be they
five or fifteen inch, if either you or the ship is hit? The result is
the same anyway." I suppose they were right, when you look at it that

Every day, one destroyer was told off for "Cross Channel Duty," with
dispatches and so forth, for or from Dover. In fine weather, this was
always the best job, as it let one out from the everlasting patrolling
at comparatively slow speeds in company with the Monitors. Crossing
Channel, there was always the chance of having a few shots at mines
floating about or a possible strafe with a submarine. The Straits were
strewn with the former, and it was good sport trying to hit them in a
seaway. If they were British, then it was quite safe to go close up,
despite orders to the contrary, and sink them at close range. I only
knew one to ever explode. Even then, it only sent the ring of the cap
whirling in the air. This so resembled a man throwing his own cap in the
air, that the whole Watch, viewing the affair from our decks, just
cheered to a man, on the impulse. If, on the other hand, it was a German
mine, you opened fire and kept at a respectful distance, it was not
advisable to take liberties with those chaps.

After the close shave I had up the Belgian coast, through messing up
things through missing the "R" words, I took Number one and the Yeoman
of Signals into my confidence, and shared the secret words. Orders or no
orders about utter secrecy, I was taking no more risks, and I slept
sounder in consequence. The result was that one night, some weeks later,
after the endless repetition of two hourly "R" words, we suddenly got
the Executive again.

This time our luck was in and we caught our wily friend, and gave him a
good trouncing. His report was that he had suffered no damage, whereas
on the other hand, he had sunk two British Destroyers. This was not
exactly correct, though we did get two badly damaged. Still, not by any
means sunk, they both got back into the harbour. One was torpedoed in
the stern and with the other the best part of her bows gone. The former
was the ZULU, and the latter the Nubian. With unlooked for economy, the
Dockyard cut each in two, and as they were sister ships, joined the
forward end of one to the after end of the other and with unexpected
humour, called the result H.M.S. ZUBIAN.

Dover harbour, after Dunkirk, was Peacehaven, even though there were few
moonless nights when the place was not raided and bombed. One of the
worst occasions started in broad daylight, at Folkestone, where the
Canadian troops were in camp. It was the afternoon of a very fine day,
and we were out on the Channel Patrol, which included Dover and
Folkestone. I had taken over the bridge in the afternoon, and sent the
Officer of the Watch down for a smoke, when there was a big splash
thrown up, right close alongside. I naturally thought I must be fouling
some big-gun range, but I had no notification of anything of the kind
and therefore it was their fault if they hit us. Another splash. Then,
being quite close in shore, I could see huge columns of earth being
thrown up in the air, very close around where the Canadian Camp should
be. The next minute our look-out reported, "Enemy aeroplanes overhead,"
and sure enough they were. A dozen or more Gothas had come overland and
tackled the Canadian Camp. Seeing us they thought they would have a go
at us as well. Then one of our Blimps came sailing placidly along,
having been recalled to her hangar. She couldn't see the Gothas above
her and, as her Commander told me later, he couldn't understand what on
earth I was trying to do, blazing away, as he thought, at him. Actually
I was trying to beat off the Huns who, by now, had turned their
attention to the Blimp.

Next they paid a visit to Dover, and then I did spend an anxious half an
hour or so for my wife and kiddies were there, almost exactly under
where the damned Huns were dropping the last of their bombs, spotting
and dropping at their leisure. Our anti-aircraft defences were not what
they might have been.

I found out later that my wife had been sitting on the verandah when the
fun started, and there she remained, quite unperturbed, with a pencil
and a bit of paper, spotting the shots from our batteries. To their
everlasting credit, let it be said, that they did bring down two of the

Summer time in the Dover Patrol was not bad tack, as the war went. For
one thing we could pretty well be sure of supplementing our larder now
and then with fish. The Admiral had two trawlers working for the Staff,
and we used to keep a bright lookout for them coming in with their
catch. We were always sure of twenty or thirty pounds of fish in
exchange for a bit of tobacco. Sometimes we would get a few of on our
own by putting down a small charge, one day with amazing luck. It was
just alongside the Varne Shoal, we fired a sixteen and a quarter pound
charge of guncotton and raised well over two tons of cod. When we saw
them coming up stunned it was "Away all boats." Actually we got on board
a ton and a quarter, and we must have missed twice that amount through
them coming to and swimming off. Naturally we thought we had happened on
the home of all cod, and in consequence, I "fell in" the hands and swore
them to secrecy. But what was the use. We distributed the fish to the
whole of the flotillas and, of course, everyone wanted to know where we
had got the catch. The secret, naturally, leaked out, as everyone had a
special chum on some ship, who in turn imparted the information to his
Skipper, the consequence was that everyone was seeing a "submarine off
the Varne Shoal," so that between us we nearly blew the blame shoal

There were submarines in plenty so everyone had good excuse. Now and
again someone succeeded in nailing one, but it was fairly rare. One
night a chap had the audacity to come up and shell Dover. Another time
they bagged one of our own submarines, set to watch the Gate in the line
of nets stretching across the Straits; which just shows their knowledge
of what was going on. They were not even supposed to know of the Gate in
the nets, let alone the submarine set to watch. They did though, and
came down, as I have said and torpedoed the poor devil. We tried mining
some of the routes they fancied. One of these was around the Gravelines
buoy a little west of Dunkirk. Our Layers put down a triangular
minefield with the Gravelines buoy at the apex and the Haut Frond (sic)
buoy in the center. The Germans with their warped idea of humour, came
in and laid another exactly alongside it, and thereby trumped our trick.
In the end we actually had to remove ours altogether as in the end it
became more harmful to us than the enemy.



Before our minefield was actually removed, we in the FALCON went through

It happened this way. Another Destroyer and ourselves had been doing
Escort Duty for Troopships across to Boulogne and had finished for the
day at Folkestone. Then we had to make the best of our way back to
Dunkirk, ready for the next day's duty.

It was pretty obvious that we were going to have fog, and a thick one;
in fact, it was already shutting down as the last transport got into
Folkestone. The question was, should we shove off and try making Dunkirk
with the possibility of a night in, or take the safer course and ask
permission to moor up in Dover. There was no doubt whatever of
permission being readily granted, in view of the weather conditions. But
I knew full well that if during the night it should clear up--and quite
likely it would--we should get the pertly authoritative "M.K." and have
to shove off forthwith.

We were Senior Ship so I had to make the decision.

Well, I made up my mind I was going to try for Dunkirk and the night in,
but the RACEHORSE could please herself. I would not hoist the "One
Pennant A," which means "Form Line Ahead," or in other words a definite
order for him to take station astern. I gave him a compass signal which
merely indicated what course I was intending to steer and the speed,
viz. twenty knots. He could then make his choice as to whether he would
take a chance and follow us, or go into Dover.

Frankly, I did not think he would come, so jumped right off into the fog
at twenty knots as I was a bit surprised to see him a little later loom
up astern, having picked up our wake and followed it up till he sighted

Two fools instead of one!

We must steer straight for Calais, this being the only reasonable
course. Make Calais Green buoy, a mile off shore and then turn up along
the coast and try, as best we could, to strike the entrance to the
Gravelines Channel, between the side of the minefield and the shore. It
would have been utterly crazy to have tried to strike the channel at an
angle, on a straight line from Folkestone, as we then should, a thousand
to one, either misjudge and run into the minefield, or overrun and hit
the beach, which at the best of times is low and difficult to see. We
calculated most carefully the exact time it would take us at 20 knots
from the Folkestone Gate to Calais Green buoy; also the course and then
let her go--trusting to a considerable element of luck not to ram
anything meanwhile. If we ran our time and distance to the buoy, that
should bring us a mile off shore and allow us exactly three minutes to
come and go on, before she was due to pile up.

Time up, and still no buoy in sight.

"Let her run for a minute and three-quarters."

That brought us within 500 yards of the beach, and heading for it at 20

Quite near enough, so immediately the 105 seconds was up and still no
sign of the buoy, over went the helm, hard a starboard and up she came
on to the course for Gravelines buoy, which we ought shortly to make on
the port bow.

Time up again and no Gravelines Pile Buoy. Another half minute and I
would show down and take a sounding.

Suddenly the gunner called out "There she is, sir," and sure enough,
there was the big Pile Buoy, but RED instead of BLACK. Number One was
the first to spot the color and growled, "By God, it's not Gravelines,
it's Haut Frond," it was indeed, and we were just exactly in the middle
of the minefield that had so successfully blown up five of our own ships
already. All the officers were on the bridge and pretty well all hands
on or around the decks, so everyone saw where we were and knew full what
the chances were. We kept on at the 20 knots (it was the only thing to
do) but brought her slowly round so as to disturb the mines as little as
possible, till she was on the bearing for the Dyck Lightship; and then,
just held our breath.

Would she go up or would she come through?

I stood facing aft to watch if the RACEHORSE went up, which to my mind
would have been a worse catastrophe than gong up ourselves, for I had
led her into it.

The relief when at last we sighted the Dyck and the still greater relief
as the RACEHORSE swung round in our wake into the channel, can well be
imagined. We were all right now and would get our valued "night in" in
our bunks. Having made fast in Dunkirk with the RACEHORSE alongside,
Welch, the Skipper of her, came on board to have dinner with me. "Damn
good course you made, Lightoller."

"Oh yes? See all the buoys?"

"All except Calais Green," said he.

"Did you see Gravelines?"

"OF COURSE, you went round it."

I then told him, "We went round Haut Frond."

He stared for a second, as the full meaning sank in and then, with a
world of expression, just said, "Oh, Hell."

Evidently we were not meant to add our names to the many who are
represented by the memorials standing to-day, one on each side of the
Channel. Silent testimony to the many brave fellows who played and lost.
My own hat comes off, more especially, to the crews of the trawlers and
drifters in the Dover Patrol. They were continually raided by Huns armed
with the very latest guns, 4-2's, fifteen to a salvo against the
drifter's puny little 6-pounder. Why, they hadn't the proverbial cat's
chance. Even we destroyer chaps had little enough chance when we came up
against a division of those modern Destroyers. But then we had some sort
of armament to hit back with and anyway it was our specific job. Not so
with the trawler and drifter men, they were just like sitting hens and
the Huns deserved about the credit a sportsman would get in like

However, we managed at last to put a stop to both the above and below
water raids by instituting Lightships burning flares of three million
candle power, at irregular intervals. These lit up the whole Straits.
Added to this, we mined the Straits at varying depths, so that no
submarine could venture below the surface at all. If she was on the
surface when one of these lights went off, then she MUST dive, or be
sunk by gunfire. If she dived, it was merely the worst choice of two
evils, for she was almost certain to touch off one of the mines.

It effectually put a stop to their activities in the Straits of Dover
and from then on the strain eased up considerably.

The Straits, from a weather point of view, is one of the very worst
places in the world for a ship of the Destroyer type. The seas are just
big enough for her to make the worst possible weather in the worst
possible kind of sea. Actually it is the tremendous current that makes
the sea so bad. I have seen the FALCON burying herself right up to the
bridge, when only making about four knots. On some crossings a hand had
to be stationed on the telegraphs all the time and the utmost speed we
dared make at any time was three or four knots. Frequently I have had to
stop and even then she would hardly ride up to those huge, wall-sided
seas. I've had bad weather on the Atlantic and driven hard into it year
after year, but I can safely say, even that was sometimes child's play
compared with what we had to contend with, during some of the S.W. gales
in the Straits.

Those who had had Atlantic experience stood it best. Many of those who
had not, simply cracked up. With the Skipper of one Destroyer, his hair
went completely white.

Winter was naturally, much the worst and often I have come off the
bridge after one of these nights and had to wash off with warm water,
the thick crusted salt, that had gathered round my eyes during the
night. If you rub any of that sea salt into your eyes, you certainly do
know all about it. Having got rid of the thick of the salt one then
proceeds to thaw out; for even with thick underclothes, a heavy suit and
a suit of Duffle over all, the cold pierces through. You can go on the
bridge at dusk all nicely dry and every stitch individually warmed, yet
by about three a.m. the cold has got through everything and from then on
till daybreak one gets steadily colder and stiffer.

I had two and a half years with the FALCON in the Patrol and though I
enjoyed them, I think they were two of the hardest of my life. Even in
the harbour of Dover, there was no rest day or night with a S.W. gale.

Whoever the bright boys were who designed that harbour and breakwaters,
they certainly had not the remotest relation to sailors. If they had
merely consulted anyone of the Cross Channel skippers AND TAKEN HIS
ADVICE, the harbour would not have been the ghastly failure it has since
proved. Open, as it is to a S.W. gale, no small craft can lie there with
the slightest degree of comfort. The tide has been allowed to sweep
across the entrance, so that big ships cannot enter except at stated
times and of course, mail boats (for which it was designed) cannot wait
for these times. The net result is that it has been practically
abandoned. Even Destroyers with all their immense engine power and
ability to manoeuvre, often found the utmost difficulty in picking up
their moorings and making fast to the buoys. Many a time they would have
to give it up and anchor in the Downs.



The Destroyer Flotillas in Dover were always kept at "Five minutes
notice," which meant they must be prepared to slip their respective
buoys within five minutes of getting the M.K. The custom throughout the
Flotillas was to keep everyone on board, except the mailman and wardroom
steward whose duties took them ashore and, of course all Skippers went

This lack of freedom did not make for happy ships, particularly with the
shore so near and crowds promenading up and down the seafront. If any
Skipper did let any of his men ashore, he took the risk and chanced a
good scrubbing if by chance the M.K. was suddenly made and he had to put
to sea and leave any of his crew behind; as, unless the man hid until
the ship returned, he was sure to be ticketed by an M.P. and that would,
or course, give the whole show away.

However, the FALCON never came in without at least one Watch getting a
few hours to stretch their legs and we managed thuswise.

As soon as we got to the buoy, the whaler and dinghy were at once called
away and the men concerned being already dressed for the beach, were
landed. All were on their honour not to leave the seafront, or, if they
did, for one or more to remain and keep an eye on the ship and in case
the "Recall" was hoisted, to be able to make touch with the others, the
whole party to be in the boats within four minutes, leaving one minute
to get on board. (On more than one occasion I had to slip and pick up
the last boat as I went past the pier end.) I must say the Powers were
very lenient and winked at a good deal, so long as I was not caught
out--though it was freely prophesied, both afloat and ashore, that one
day we should get our Waterloo!

We were cutting it pretty fine, I knew, but somehow, we managed it. Of
course, in the first instance, I had fell in the hands and explained the
situation clearly; if they let me down, I should get an almighty
scrubbing--perhaps a Court of Enquiry and they would get no more Special
Leave, as it was called.

However, it worked like a dream. It kept the men as happy as sandboys,
gave them something to look forward to and talk about in the night
watches and, what is more, I never had a man up for punishment the whole
time I had command of her.

I gave Number One complete discretion as regards granting leave, with
the result that there was not a smarter ship in the Division, or even in
the Flotilla. Number One need only threaten to stop the Watch's
"Special" if someone was not up to scratch, for the remainder of the
Watch to turn on the offender and nearly rend him to pieces. I really
think they valued that hour or two of Special Leave far more than any
legitimate leave. Partly, I suppose on account of the element of risk,
partly because they could swing it on the other ships, but mainly as
sheer relief from the deadly monotony of each other's company in such
confined quarters.

On one occasion I had to leave one man short. Twice with two men short,
but the crew had a funk hole arranged for just such a happening, where
the miscreants hid their sorrowing heads till the ship returned and
their chums brought up a current Leave Chit.

Personally, I had my own private recall signal, which I could always see
from the house--situated as we luckily were, on the seafront.

One night when it was blowing a gale of wind from the S.W. and usual
beast of a sea was rolling into the harbour, I was pacing up and down
the dining-room keeping an eye on the ship, when suddenly I saw the

Grabbing my greatcoat and slamming my cap on my head, I dashed off for
the Naval Pier, where the whaler would be waiting. I arrived at the end
of the pier soaking, but there was no whaler. I dashed into the signal
hut, to tell them to make a signal to the FALCON for her to send the
whaler in at once. A signal-man had just commenced taking a signal at
the time and he pointed to his pad. I, to my horror slowly read word by
word, as the signal came through from my First Lieutenant.
by-NIMROD-and-cut-down-to-water-line-stop." Here was I ashore (where I
had no business to be) and she, perhaps sinking. I couldn't break in on
the signal and tell them to send the boat; I must stand helpless and
impotent, waiting for the remainder of that signal, whatever it might

Dimly, through the swelter and rain, I could see her rolling, heavily in
the seaway and to my perfervid imagination, she seemed distinctly deeper
in the water. Was she sinking? All this and much more flashed through my
mind as I stood almost holding my breath, until the signal-man continued
and to my utter relief, I read, "Water-well-under-control-stop-in

Just then the whaler came alongside the pier and in I jumped.

Dark and raining though it was, there was a very obvious grin on every
face. With very good reason, too!

We were due out on patrol the next day and would have been out over
Christmas Day in that S.W. gale. Even if it eased up the sea would have
been beastly. Now we were in harbour and there was every likelihood of
staying there. No wonder there were smiling faces. The next week, thanks
to our good friend NIMROD, saw us on our way round to Portsmouth, for a
refit and to repair the damaged stern.

During our two strenuous years of service in the Patrol, we had a
mavellous run of luck and escape from accident. Apart from making
violent contact between my propellers and Hills Bank, just outside
Dunkirk, we hadn't scratched the paintwork. But the NIMROD seemed to
have broken the spell and her effort turned out to be the opening chorus
to a whole chapter of accidents--with Finis written at the end.

The next trouble started though going up Portsmouth Harbour at 16 knots,
exactly the same speed I used in Dover, or anywhere else for that
matter. What I didn't know, was, that the rigid maximum for Portsmouth
was 8 knots. Furthermore, it happened to be a very high tide and we sent
the water shooshing right up the streets, which in many places are just
on high-water level. Evidently there was some delay or difficulty in
locating the actual culprit, but the authorities, though much too late
then to impale the criminal, consoled themselves by determining to catch
us on the way out, when they thought we should, no doubt, do the same
trick. Well, we didn't and for the very good reason that the whole
harbour was shrouded in a regular pea-soup fog.

From leaving the wharf we saw not a thing till we got up to the forts at
the entrance to the Harbour (neither could anyone see us). Then we saw
nothing till Beachy Head and only a glimpse of that. The fog still thick
as a hedge, we made the best of our way to the entrance to Dover, which
although buried in fog, we managed to make our numbers and get
permission to enter by sound signal, we made fast to a buoy for a couple
of hours and when it cleared went into Granville Dock for a boiler
clean. Then came the second patch of bad luck. We rather prided
ourselves on being able to slip our buoy and make fast in Granville Dock
in the record time of nine minutes, where others sometimes took the best
part of an hour. I used the same old speed, namely 16 knots, a speed
which gave one perfect control with those powerful engines. It wasn't
altogether swank that induced me to use that speed, it was the fact that
I knew from experience that a Destroyer, like an Atlantic liner, is
easier handled at a high speed.

We had landed the man who usually attended the engine-room telegraphs,
as he was also the mailman. The Yeoman of Signals, who ordinarily would
have been on the Searchlight Platform, was taking duty at the

To handle the telegraphs, he had to stand facing aft and the result was
that he did not see the flag of a diving party working at the Dock
Entrance. Worse still, he didn't see that they had the red flag
mastheaded, signifying the diver was down. The diver, by a curious
coincidence, was working on the wreck of a Destroyer that had come to
grief in a gale of wind and sunk for the very reason that the skipper
was not using enough power on his engines and thereby lost control of
his ship. As a result, she fell on the stone knuckle, smashed up and

When the Yeoman did, at last, see the flag, and reported it to me that
divers were down, it was too late to stop her. If I had then come astern
on the engines I should only have churned up the water and endangered
the diver still more. So I did the best I could in the circumstances and
just stopped the engines, letting her run with her own way.

The Commander in charge of the diving party was naturally mad, thinking
I had purposely ignored his flag. Still, if he had come to me, I would
have explained how difficult it was to see his old flag, which was
abominably dirty, and was up against a brick wall a few shades dirtier.

Worse was to follow.

Having passed the diver, we at once went to our 16 knots again and shot
in through the lock gates. At the best of times with the dock empty it
was always touch and go getting through these gates and swinging at an
immediate right angle. This time there was, by further rotten luck, a
transport lying in the far corner, where we had to moor.

Immediately the stern was clear of the end of the lock, as usual, I put
the helm hard a port and went half speed astern on the starboard engine
which should swing her round eight points in her own length.
Unfortunately, the Yeoman instead of putting the starboard telegraph to
half speed astern, put it ahead. Seeing that she was gathering way
instead of stopping, I gave the order "Full speed astern both." He then
put both telegraphs to "Full speed ahead." Of course, she just leapt
across the dock and though, in a couple of seconds more I did succeed in
getting the "Full Speed Astern" she crumpled up her bow like a piece of
paper on the transport in the corner.

The Yeoman was a good fellow and owned up to his mistake like a man,
when I taxed him with how it had happened. So I told him not to worry,
that I would get him out of it somehow, or the other and I wended my way
round to Headquarters to report my mishap.

I was saluted with "Hello, what have you been up to?"

Naturally thinking Captain "D" alluded to my little mishap in the dock,
I started with,

"Well, you see, sir, the telegraphs were unfortunately put the wrong way
and before I could regain control, we crashed into the transport. I'm
awfully sorry, sir, I'm afraid it means another dockyard."

He asked me what on earth I was rambling about.

"Aren't you speaking about my smash in Granville dock, sir?"

"Am I the devil! You've been reported by the C. in C. Portsmouth for
leaving that harbour at an excessive speed and now you have just been
reported again for passing a Diving Party also at an excessive speed. On
top of that you tell me you have crashed in Granville Dock and rammed a
Transport. You can't think of anything else while you are on the
subject, can you?"

It needed a deep breath before I could start in and tell him, that in
the first place, they were infernal liars in Portsmouth, that the Diving
Party's flag was too dirty to distinguish up against the brick wall and,
finally that the Yeoman in consequence was so upset he forgot he was
facing aft and put the telegraphs to Full Ahead instead of Full Astern.

I must say I was really a bit surprised myself, when at last he did seem
to come round to my point of view.

Of course I explained how in ignorance I had entered Portsmouth and gone
up the harbour at an undoubtedly excessive speed, but that the Dockyard
authorities had been too slow in the uptake to hang the blame on the
FALCON. Furthermore, that I knew full well they were out for my blood
and had determined to catch me on the way out. Not only was I just as
determined they should not catch me, but in any case they had been
completely defeated by the fog. When I suggested that Dover should call
for a weather report on the date in question, I think Captain "D" saw
the joke and called. They must have settled it between them, for I heard
nothing more of that little episode.

To the Commander of the Diving Party, I submitted an abject apology--and
suggested he should requisition a new flag, more in keeping with his
dignity and the importance of the work he had in hand--or send the old
one to the laundry. I heard nothing more from HIM, so that was another
out of the way.

Next, I was asked what punishment I proposed to mete out to the Yeoman
of Signals--since in the Service the punishment must always fit the
crime. I submitted that he was a damn good man--that it wasn't his job
on the telegraphs anyhow, furthermore, if he had been in his proper
place, on the signal platform, he would have seen the Diver's flag and,
in short, I didn't propose to do anything.

"But you MUST do something in order that I can report that the necessary
disciplinary steps have been taken."

"All right, sir," I said, "I'll reprimand him." (which is the lowest
scale of punishment on the list). Even so, it would still have gone on
the Charge Sheet and might have affected his promotion, just then due.

After thinking it over, I had him fell-in and just said, "Consider
yourself reprimanded." (The only point was that I had not reprimanded
him.) I walked away chuckling to myself at the blank look of the
Master-at-Arms, trying to puzzle out what he should enter in his
precious book. Finally he appealed to the First Lieutenant, who, in
turn, asked me what I wanted entered. I told him I was not a bit
interested in what was entered; with the result that nothing was entered
and the Yeoman in due course got his promotion without losing a single

Just out of sheer cussedness it would seem, the crew being Portsmouth
men, we were sent up to Hull to refit and whilst there, the orders came
that the whole of my Division was to be transferred to the 6th Flotilla
with its base on Immingham, at the mouth of the Humber. We were finished
and had unwittingly said good-bye to Dover and the hectic life of the
Dover Patrol. Most of us were frankly sorry, for although it had been a
life that called for the best in a man--and took the most--still it was
REAL life and the one and only stretch of sea where one was in close and
constant touch with Jerry the Hun.

The reason for our transfer was that with the new minefield laid and the
installing of Lightships with their three million candle power flares,
the Straits had become a shade too unhealthy even for the ubiquitous
Bosche. In fact, one could safely say, after many years of
experimenting, that the Straits were absolutely and effectively closed.



The North Sea was also in the process of being closed in much the same
way, with the result that concentrated submarine warfare was being waged
on our North Sea Convoys.

I suppose our division should have felt duly elated at being chosen to
join up with the 6th and help deal with this fresh underwater effort.
Perhaps it was a feather in our heavy weather caps. Anyhow it didn't
matter for if we had dismally sung our requiem to the Dover Patrol, we
certainly were in good time for the opening chorus on the East Coast.
They turned their submarines out on us, as the Yanks say, "Good and

The stretch they devoted most of their attention to, was between the
Firth of Forth and the Humber. Further south the Convoys were more or
less under the protection of sandbanks. Poor old FALCON. She was not
destined to see much service up there. The second night out we were cut
in half and sunk.

It's a risky job working a Convoy at night time without lights. A slight
misjudgment like the Gunner made as Officer of the Watch and it is all
over. A destroyer's plating is only three-sixteenths of an inch thick,
so there is not much to come and go on. We were almost cut through. In
fact the forepart broke off during the night and sunk. Before this
happened I had ordered "Abandon ship." First the engineers and stokers
were got away on to a trawler. That made her more workable, but it was
not long before it was very evident she was not going to last the night.
So, later on, the general order, "Abandon ship" was carried out and
every one was sent away, except the First Lieutenant and the Gunner, who
stayed on board with me, until she went altogether.

There was just the possibility of getting hold of a trawler and towing
the after end in, if it would float long enough. If it went down, we
went too, but we always had the chance of being picked up. What did
trouble me was the fact that one of the depth charges wouldn't set to
"Safe" properly. It is the Gunner's job, when there is any likelihood of
a ship sinking, to put all depth charges to "safe." When he reported, he
imparted the cheerful information that there was a sporting chance that
one of them would go off if the ship sank.

If one of them did go off then the whole blame lot would undoubtedly
follow suit. In that case it meant that all three of us would get a good
start on the way!

It was a bitterly cold night in February, raining and blowing to beat
the band and we were wet through and mighty cheerless. The wind being
strong from the westward, we were steadily drifting out to sea and
across towards the German coast. I really don't know why I stuck to her,
as obviously she was bound to go down before long. I suppose it could
only have been one's natural reluctance to leave your ship whilst she
still floats.

About midnight the fore part, after wobbling about independent of the
rest of the ship, broke right off and sank. The after end was down at an
angle of about 30° at the time and steadily sinking. There were no boats
as they had all gone away with the crew. The whaler did stand by until
the crew was exhausted with the cold and wet.

I was also frightfully anxious about one of the stokers who had been
badly scalded in the stokehold, when some of the steam pipes burst
immediately after the collision. He had been put on board a trawler, as
it turned out later on, but even the help they were able to give him was
of no avail, he died.

The dreary night dragged out its cheerless prospect. There was nothing
we could do and we had nothing to eat---though the Gunner did manage,
after much effort, to get a fire going in my cabin and make some tea.
That drink of scalding hot tea put new life into us.

By 1 a.m. she was getting very low and at a still more acute angle. It
seemed it could only be a matter of minutes before she took her final
dip. How the minutes dragged by with nothing to do. It was bad enough in
the TITANIC, but in that case there was plenty to occupy both our hands
and our minds.

Two o'clock came and she was still afloat; 2:15 and the end was surely
near. Then, without a moment's earning, a bulkhead suddenly carried away
and she sank like a stone, almost to the minute the TITANIC sank and we
were, as then, left swimming around in the icy cold water.

As the ship disappeared under the waves, out one and only thought was,
"Are those infernal depth charges going off under us, or are they not?"
It was not a bit of use doing anything whatever until that question was
settled. So we just paddled and waited. After a minute or two it was
evident that they were not, so that was one relief. We joined up with
some wreckage and swam and whistled and shouted in the hope of
attracting someone's attention. About half an hour later a trawler hove
in sight and, near as a toucher, ran us down. Had I not had the usual
officer's whistle in my pocket, I believe she would.

We were taken on board and given blankets and a good hot drink.

It had long since become the rule in the Navy that whether a ship was
lost through negligence, accident, enemy action or what not, a Court
Martial must be held, whereby the Captain is either blamed or
exonerated. It was a good practice. Then, as in the case of the FALCON,
there was no stigma remaining. Poor Gunner, he thought there was going
to be some stigma all right, and had made up his mind from the outset
that he, at any rate was finished, as far as the Navy was concerned. He
would be sent back to big ships, and never get another chance of a
Destroyer (which is everybody's aim and ambition.) "Well," I told him,
"you just wait and see."

Eventually we got into harbour and went through the usual formalities
attending the loss of one of H.M.'s ships. Gunner still one hundred per
cent. pessimistic. Then came the great day of the Court Martial. Deputy
Judge Advocate up from Whitehall and quite a big show. Plenty of three
and four stripers to collect sections of our hide.

By the time the Court had assembled, the Gunner was still down and out.
I still told him the same Asquithian story, "Wait and see." I assured
him, somewhat blindly, that the tale was not yet all told and anyway in
the back of my mind that things were not going to break so badly as he

I'm afraid the solemnity of a full blown Naval Court Martial, with all
its traditions and red tape did not strike me as as awe inspiring as it
might have done. I know I inadvertently and ignorantly broke a number of
those Naval relics. The first tradition or custom to go by the board was
for the prisoner (that was me) to appear without a "Friend." It's the
custom for a "Prisoner" to choose someone well versed in legal lore,
King's Regulations and so forth, to act as his sort of Naval Lawyer. I
chose the Navigator out of the Barracks, simply because we were very
good friends. But it so happened that on the great morning when escorted
by Provost Martial (in ordinary walks of life he'd be called the Bobby)
and I called for my "Friend," I found him wading knee deep in charts.
Half jokingly he said, "Look here, old man, can't you manage without me?
I'm frightfully busy." I said, "Yes, of course. Don't bother. I'll
manage fine." And marched off quite happily.

The proceedings commenced by reading over a Narrative of Events which I
had prepared, instead of being cross-questioned. This, in itself was no
small departure I found out later, but on the other hand it saved quite
a lot of time. I had carefully tabulated and typed several copies of all
that had occurred on that eventful night, hour by hour and even minute
by minute, adding a rider to the end to the effect that "The highest
traditions of the British Navy were maintained throughout." I also gave
the Gunner a good boost up by saying: "Especially would I bring to the
notice of the Court the behaviour of the Gunner, Mr. Shonk, who remained
with me on the wreck and maintained an attitude of the utmost
cheerfulness," etc., etc., "who frequently went down the after stokehold
reporting conditions to me and at other times, made tea and played the
gramophone." The tea and gramophone touch was perfectly true, but I
included it partly as a joke, when I was writing the narrative and never
for an instant thought it would be read out before the whole Court. I
can yet see the Judge Advocate (who, to my horror, said he would read it
to the Court), with solemn jowl reading out loud and me wondering if
there would be an earthquake when he came to the last item. However, it
just seemed to strike the right chord and caused a grin--much to my

 Next thing, the President spotted that I was without a Friend and he
promptly stopped the proceedings. "The prisoner has not got a Friend,"
he said in a shocked voice. I, like an ass, said, "No, sir, he said he
was too busy and would I manage without him."

I didn't realise just how ridiculous this statement was. About on a par
with a chap who is being tried for murder and who tells the judge that
his Lawyer is away playing golf.

The court plodded steadily through the set questions and cross
questions, and cross questions, asking me, as each witness finished, "If
I wished to cross-examine?"

Of course, I didn't. I just wanted to get the thing over and the Gunner
out of the soup. Not till the Gunner had been called and examined--and
hide it as he might, the fact that he was the culprit stuck out a mile.
"Do you wish to cross-examine?" and on the impulse of the moment I said,
"Yes I did." Though for the life of me I could not have said why.

I think they all thought I was now going to pin the blame irrevocably
where it belonged. Well, they were WRONG. I was out to soften the going
for the Gunner, for he was looking pretty bleak, poor devil, as of
course he did not know what I was getting at.

I started in: "How long have you been in Destroyers?" "How long have you
been under my command?" "you have been Officer of the Watch?" "You have
been in sole charge of the Watch?"

Here the President got my idea but suggested quite kindly that I should
not ask leading questions. I apologised and set out again.

"Have you had full charge of the bridge at night on patrol?"

"Yes, sir."

"You have had full charge in the Downs, with a Convoy getting under

"Yes sir."

Then before I realised quite what I was doing, I reverted to leading

"You have never been reprimanded by me for getting too close to

To all of which he replied, "No," and "Yes," just as the questions
required, wondering what on earth I was heading for. As a matter of
fact, I hardly knew myself.

"You have had to manoeuvre in amongst ships in the Downs?"

"Yes sir."

"You have never had an accident."

"No sir."

"You have had full confidence in yourself?"

"Yes sir."

You still have full confidence in yourself now?"

"Yes, sir."

And with that I sat down.

I think the President saw my game as it developed and wanted to help.
The outcome was that after the Court had adjourned to consider the
verdict and duly returned, we were again called in. The hilt of my sword
towards me (signifying _I_ was exonerated). The D.J.A. then read a eulogy
that fairly made me blush and the Gunner's eyes stand out like hatpegs.
In short, the Court had "found" that far from being to blame, they had
really discovered in us potential heroes by sticking to and going down
with our ship.

But what was more to the point, the Gunner went to the biggest Destroyer
building, ditto the engineer--who had been scared stiff he was going to
be scrubbed for leaving the ship, whilst we other three stuck to her.
The same thing happened to Number One who also went to a big Destroyer.



I was lucky to get appointed to the GARRY, the biggest Destroyer up
there. The Admiralty, as a matter of fact, kicked about giving her to
me, but our Admiral stuck out and sent me to her, but it was a month
before Whitehall confirmed my command. She was a Commander's command
R.N. and I was only a two and a half striper, R.N.R. I got her in the
end and a fine ship she was too, though a wet one.

No more patrol work. My job now was to work the Convoys altogether. Pick
them up on their way across from Norway and escort them down to the
Humber. After that they were more or less in safety. At that time we
were losing as many as six ships out of a single Convoy by submarine

The concentration of submarines in the North Sea was now one of the
greatest menaces of the War and it was a mighty big problem how to meet
it. The Grand Fleet would not part up with a single Destroyer, on the
grounds that they couldn't be spared and here we were with boats that
should have been on the scrap heap, to deal with the vital problem of
sea-borne supplies.

Apart from the losses to the country, as a Merchant Service man it made
one furious to see these ships sunk on sight, without a chance of them
defending themselves, much less retaliating. What a hope, with about
forty ships traveling at eight knots, in four lines ahead. The loss of
shipping in the North Sea had got so bad that at last someone got a very
severe rap over the knuckles and an Admiral was shoved on the shelf.

After seeing the method of convoying I was not altogether surprised at
the numbers sunk.

The approved plan of protection was for one Destroyer to go ahead of the
Convoy, about a mile or a mile and a half. One other Destroyer on each
side, abeam and a fourth astern. To my mind an utterly inadequate
disposal, particularly when one takes into consideration the method of

A submarine sights a Convoy, knowing beforehand exactly when it is
expected. She arranges her speed so she can get a preliminary "sight"
before the head of the Convoy passes. She then submerges and rises again
for a second sight and to fire when the main body of the Convoy comes
into her line of vision. Hardly ever did they loose off, what is called
a "Browning" shot. That is a blind shot into the Convoy as a pack. They
deliberately picked their ship and with only one Destroyer to contend
with this was easy. The Destroyer ahead had passed them and the
Destroyer astern of the Convoy was miles away. So, providing she could
keep an eye on the one abeam they were comparatively safe. Events and
the position of the majority of ships lost, all went to prove this.

I had some heated arguments with the authorities on the subject, as when
in charge of a Convoy I insisted on my own disposition, placing one
Destroyer on each side abreast of the leading ships. The other two
abreast of the last ships (the most we were ever allowed was one
division of four Destroyers to a Convoy).

My contention was that the submarine took a sight just before the head
of the Convoy came abreast of her. Her second sight was taken and the
shot fired when half the Convoy had passed. By any method she could be
spotted taking her first sight by the Destroyer abreast of the leading
ships and if not then, would stand every chance of being seen and downed
when she fired, by the Destroyer abreast of the rearmost ship.

I was allowed to continue with my "Theory" after I brought down six
Convoys, averaging forty ships and lost only one and over that I claimed
to have sunk the swine that bagged the ship, but I had no conclusive
proof. I saw her periscope as she fired and put down fourteen depth
charges all round her. If she wasn't smashed up and put down, I'm a
Dutchman. We had the meagre satisfaction of a general signal being made
to the effect that "the GARRY'S attack was brilliantly conceived and
well carried out." Still that was something.

There had been so many reports of submarines sunk, that perhaps a little
scepticism in high quarters was not altogether unwarranted. But it was
small satisfaction, when one knew for a CERTAINTY, that one had been
downed. The trouble was getting the exact position and later on locating
him in that depth of water. Of course, if you blew him open and
conclusive evidence came to the surface, that was sufficient. The only
alternative was to ram the submarine, as I was fortunate enough to do
later on and then there could be no quibble.

It was a sickening experience to hear that deadly clanging crash, see a
column of water leap up alongside a merchant ship and the ship herself
tip up and go down, often in a minute, perhaps in only a few seconds,
and at the same time, knowing full well that at least half her crew had
gone with her. This concentrated submarine attack on the Convoys up and
down the coast took a toll and tightened many a belt.

The GARRY managed to collect quite a bit of credit one way and another.
Some merited and some not altogether merited.

On one occasion, bringing down a single ship of considerable speed and
something especially valuable, we were passing the Wash (rather a
notorious spot for losing ships to a submarine that was reputed to lie
there). We met the Destroyer on patrol and knowing also from experience
that it was a good spot for fish, I made a signal, "Going to drop a
depth charge. Will you pick up the fish and bring some in with you?" He
followed at a respectable distance astern, ready to drop his boats in
the water and pick up the fish. Just one on each side of the Transport,
having previously warned him, so as to avoid giving those on board an
unnecessary jar.

To be in the vicintity of a depth charge when it explodes is to get both
a mental and physical shock of the first water. Unbeknown to me there
must have been some Big Bug on the Transport, for, to my surprise, the
Admiral got a most effusive letter commending the "Defensive Action of
the GARRY, ets., etc." Little did he realise I just wanted some fish.

A little later I nearly got caught out at the same game.

With another Destroyer we were bound up for the Firth of Forth to pick
up a Convoy coming across from Norway and as we were due to be in a
locality where I knew there was good cod, I made the other chap a signal
that I was going to drop a depth charge at 7 a.m. and would give him
some fish for breakfast. When 7a.m. came, as bad luck would have it, we
met a ship coming down, escorted by a Destroyer ( miles ahead of her)
and a Blimp. The Destroyer, being out of range and hearing, I determined
not to be done out of our fish, so let go. The Transport thought he had
caught a packet at first, but, to their relief they found it was only us
at our games, whilst we lowered our boats and picked up a nice catch for
both ships' crews. Whilst our boats were in the water, the Blimp came
nosing around, no doubt just out of sheer curiosity, wondering what we
were doing. It would have been all right if he had left it at that, but
he didn't and a few days later I got a signal from the Admiral of the
East Coast, to "Report what your boats were doing in the water on such
and such a date in latitude and longitude so and so. Well, I couldn't
say we were looking for a submarine with the ship's boats and I was not
going to say we were picking up fish for breakfast, so, knowing the Navy
mind, I signaled in reply, "Re your 0014. Submit boats were examining
objects on surface of water." It was quite true and as I heard nothing
further, my reply was evidently satisfactory.

As far as possible we used to work in two divisions. One with R.N. men
in command and the other with R.N.R. chaps in command. This set up a
useful bit of rivalry and it was due to this disposition that I was able
to prove out my "Theory" of effective defence on Convoy escort.

If I was Senior Officer of Convoy, the instructions were, "Act first and
report afterwards." They were encouraged to think for themselves and
take the risk. The result was, that each Destroyer was as good as a
Division, in that she was an independent unit free to do what she
pleased within reasonable limits. If a submarine tried its games, each
ship went for him as and how she could. Everyone concentrated on the
spot without waiting for signals and from every angle. As she came
within possible range of where the submarine might then be, she
commenced to let go depth charges. Other Destroyers coming into the fray
from different angles, also let go. Whilst the M.L.'s also tore around
letting go indiscriminately. Each one had to keep a mighty close eye on
the business end of a ship crossing his bows, or he might find himself
gaily sailing over a spot where a depth charge had just been sown, with
every chance of it coming up through his bottom. In point of fact it's
not safe to be within a couple of hundred yards when one does detonate.
A Destroyer, for instance, should be making her twenty knots when she
lets go if she's not going to risk blowing her own bottom in. To obviate
this risk, with the trawlers, which had not the speed to get out of
range of their own depth charges, they were fitted with depth charge
throwers, which flung the charge out abreast of them to a safe distance.
Those ships dropping them from their sterns, you could keep your eye on,
but even then it was hard enough to keep clear, but when three or four
trawlers joined in the crossword puzzle and lumped off their depth
charges in all odd and sundry directions, the confusion certainly became
worse confounded and the water for a mile or more around, a churned up
mass, with each ship steering in every direction. It was a miracle that
we never had a collision.

Occasionally we scored with a direct hit and then there was definite
proof. Other times, just a spread of oil, big or little, according to
the damage done. More frequently just nothing at all, though that didn't
say we hadn't sent to sub. to her last account.

Neither "verbal proof" nor "traces of oil" were accepted as evidence of
a bag. Bring in a body, or any part of the internals of a submarine and
you were duly credited. But that was mighty difficult when it was
considered what a small amount of buoyant substance goes into the
structure of one of these underwater craft. Even then, nothing less than
an absolutely direct hit would bring it out. Many a time and often, I
was convinced in my own mind and to my complete satisfaction that we had
put one down, but lacking any sort of acceptable proof, I merely
submitted the time honoured report, without any claim--just resting on
the satisfaction of another Convoy delivered intact.

We got our second "unofficial" sub. off the Firth of Forth one night. I
call it unofficial, since we again couldn't claim, though in this case
also there was not a shadow of doubt. We had brought along one of the
big Convoys across the North Sea and, passing the Firth, those that were
bound there had broken off.

It was a ticklish job, this breaking off. Pitch dark and no one showing
the glimpse of a light. A dozen or more ships to break away and worm
themselves free of the Convoy, steering a course at an angle to the
other ships, crossing one's ship's stern, another's bow. Only a
suspicion of broken water to be seen in the dark and then merely a guess
as to whether it is from a ship's bow or her propeller. The man on the
bridge must judge right and quickly, for a mistake means not only the
probable loss of his own ship, but may involve half a dozen others
coming up astern. Added to this, there were always two or three
Destroyers breaking off at the same time. Still, I never saw an
accident; all credit to the men in the Merchant Ships.

The night to which I was alluding, those ships bound in for the Firth
had broken off and the rest of the Convoy had formed up again. I had
just taken the GARRY round the rear end of the Convoy to see there were
no stragglers and was making up again to the position we always kept, on
the seaward side of the rear ships of the Convoy, when a submarine,
thinking the whole, of the Convoy had passed, came up and broke surface
with his conning tower.

As I have already explained, we kept all guns loaded with the breech
mechanism lever just withdrawn. All that ANY man had to do was to push
the B.M. lever home and fire. The look-out at the after end of the ship,
whose station was alongside the after twelve pounder, saw the submarine
break surface--and here was where our system came in. Instead of rushing
to the bridge to report and so losing sight of his object, or even
yelling along the decks in the hope of someone passing the word, he at
once trained his gun on the submarine as she rose and let fly.

Standing on the port side of the bridge, I happened to be looking
seaward on the port quarter, when the After look-out fired and though in
the pitch blackness I couldn't see the submarine herself, I could
distinctly see the impact of the shell as it struck the hull and
exploded inside. It as all over in a split second, the flash of the gun,
the crash and explosion, the impact of the shell on iron and the
following much smaller flash. The whole procedure was just a mental
photograph, clear and distinct and I'll take oath on a stack of Bibles a
mile high that that submarine still lies in the deep water away north of
St. Abbs Head.

But would that have convinced the Authorities? Not a bit of it. So I
saved myself the trouble of claiming and just gave the usual, "I have
the honour to report that on such and such a night at such and such a
time, in alt. and long., so and so, I sank a submarine by gunfire,
etc.," all of which I've no doubt, raised a sympathetic smile--and,
small wonder, they'd heard the tale before. They wanted PROOF.



A few days later another Destroyer gave proof enough, and here is an
example of the luck of the game. One chap may be on his toes all the
time and never get his chance, whilst another comes along and simply
falls over a submarine. (The War, as far as we were concerned had long
since resolved itself into the state of Submarine versus Destroyer.)

The Captain of the lucky ship and I were very good friends and former
shipmates and we used to knock around together a lot. The GARRY happened
to be lying alongside, when my pal Grant came ashore on his way to hand
in his written report of how, where and when, he came to sink this
submarine and capture her entire crew. Seeing the GARRY alongside, he
just dropped on board for a minute's yarn. Of course, I heartily
congratulated him as soon as he showed his nose in my cabin and asked
him just how he had managed to ram and sink this submarine, which was
quite a modern one and carried two four inch guns against Grant's measly
12- and 6-pounders. He shoved his report into my hand and told me to
read it, when I would then know all about it.

I read all the usual preamble and trimmings, till I came to where he
"sighted this submarine whilst in his position astern of the Convoy."
"Astern of the Convoy?" I said. "Why you are the one, above all others,
who condemns that method of following up astern. How the devil did you
come to be there?"

He laughed and after swearing me to secrecy told me his tale.

It appeared some slight trouble had developed in his engine-room. The
engineer came on the bridge and asked permission to stop the engines for
half an hour or so. Instead of following the correct routine and making
a wireless signal to the S.O. of the Division and having, perhaps, to
state whys and wherefores, he said to the engineer, "Well if it's only
going to take half an hour, I'll slip round astern of the Convoy and
stop her. Get through as soon as you can and we will put her to it and
pick 'em up again and no one will be any the wiser." The repairs took a
bit longer than the time stipulated and Grant got a bit anxious. It was
pitch dark and there was just the horrible chance that he might lose the
Convoy altogether and then he WOULD get a sound scrubbing, if he was
found wandering around looking for a Convoy when daylight broke. The
result was that when the word did at last come from the engine-room that
they were "ready to proceed," Grant at once put her to twenty knots,
intending to slow her down when he had run his distance to within a
couple of miles of where the Convoy should be and then pick them up at
an easy speed, for it was far too dark to see more than a hundred yards
ahead. As it turned out, Grant's underwater friend had heard the convoy
lumbering along and as it was far too dark for him to even take a
"Browning" shot, he had submerged until the ships had all passed
overhead. When they were past and even the Destroyer that, as he knew,
in some cases trailed out astern, would, he judged, be well out of the
way, he rose to the surface intending to lie there and get a breath of
fresh air till daylight.

The first thing they knew was Grant came blinding along at an absolutely
unheard of speed, for a Destroyer following up a Convoy, hitting them
half way between the conning tower and tail. As Grant said, he "never
saw a blame thing till he was right on top of him and couldn't have
missed him if he had tried." Grant actually went right over, doing
little or no damage to the submarine. The skipper of the submarine got a
horrible shock, on seeing a Destroyer shoot out of the darkness and,
literally, leap over him. He fully thought that Grant's ramming had been
intentional, also that his sub. would be damaged and being unable to
submerge, would be sunk by gunfire. To avoid this, he ordered the
Kingston flooding valves to be opened and took to the one and only boat
and sang "Deutschland über Alles" whilst his ship went down. Meantime,
Grant, who had ripped the bottom out of his ship had just time to signal
the S.O. of his Division, take to the boats and HIS ship went down. All
he could do now was to await the coming of a Destroyer to pick them
up--unaware, of course, that the submarine had opened her Kingston
valves and abandoned ship. It was a perfectly calm night and as they
could hear the Germans in the distance singing their song of success,
Grant's crowd retaliated by joining the marine musical comedy with
"Rule, Britannia." When the S.O. arrived on the scene and heard the row,
as he said, he thought everyone had gone completely crazy. But the utter
disgust of the sub. skipper can be best imagined, when a bit later on he
learnt the facts of the case.

In the first place, he had surrendered to a ship, which he could have
blown out of the water and in the second place he had sunk his own ship
where there was no need, as Grant having ripped the bottom out of his
ship had already gone down.

The very next day, "Capt. D" came along to me bubbling over with
satisfaction, "There you are, my lad, Destroyer astern of the Convoy
rams and sinks a submarine. Where is your 'Theory' now?" This went on
for a good half an hour and I could see the re-adoption of the rotten
old method and with it the losses in ships going up and up instead of
coming down and down. There is nothing for it, I thought, so here goes.

"Now look here, sir, if I tell you something will you promise faithfully
to keep it under your own cap and not let it influence your appreciation
of Grant's little effort?"

He promised and I'll say his face was a study when I told him the inside

All Capt. D. said was a very heartfelt, "Well I'm damned."

But we heard nothing more of reverting to the old method. Grant's stock
went up with a bound and he was put alongside the wharf to act as
flagship whilst in port.

The grades of favour were very marked and quite distinct. That ship,
highest in favour, got the wharf job and one could go ashore any time.
The rest of the flotilla laid at the buoys. The next in favour nearest
the wharf and so on up the line of buoys and down the scale of grace.
Those farthest away, being the bad boys of the family, were not likely
to forget their misdeeds or misfortunes either and the last two or three
buoys came right abreast of a Fish Manure Factory.

In summer time with an off shore wind, which it usually seemed to be,
you could cut the air with a knife. Not a port or a skylight could be
opened. The GARRY knew every grade and stage in the manufacture of fish
manure. Not content with the perishing stink, those farthest up the line
also got most of the odd jobs, chasing submarines. Sometimes real but
more often fictitious.

Someone outside sees a porpoise and, on the off chance that it is a Tin
Fish, makes a signal that they have sighted a submarine. Next thing the
ship alongside the Wharf hoists "GARRY and STOUR. Raise full steam for
full speed with all dispatch. Proceed to position so and so and search
for submarine reported in that vicintity." Off you go and so spend the
best part of the day that you might with luck and good conduct have
spent ashore. After being roped in for this little joy ride a couple of
times, instead of spending the best part of the day searching for a
submarine (if not actually fictitious, at least certain to be miles away
by the time we had got down the Humber and out to sea) I evolved the
plan of "sighting" the sub., dropping a packet of Depth Charges, making
the necessary report and returning to our smelly buoy with everyone
perfectly satisfied.

If there happened to be any sort of a breeze from the N.E., then every
member of the crew was more than satisfied to get back to the quiet of
the buoy, fish manure notwithstanding.

What a coast it is in a N.E. Gale. To zigzag along with a Convoy, day
after day, doing a bare 8 knots is enough the try the stomach of a lion
and the heart of a Saint, and what a sight to see those forty-odd ships
constituting the Convoy picking up their anchors and, one by one,
steaming out round the Spurn as daylight broke and into the driving
gale. One minute in a mill pond, the next diving and thrashing about
with clouds of spray flying across the decks.

As S.O., we had to wait (and how willingly we waited) under the lee of
the Spurn, till the last ship had picked up and got out. Convoy orders
from the Convoy officer delivered on board and then we were for it. A
cold winter's morning and sea like nothing on earth. Out we would have
to go, with nothing for the next couple of days and nights but roll,
roll, roll. The one saving grace of the bad weather was that it made it
impossible for the submarines to attack with any degree of accuracy.
Furthermore, if an attack were made anywhere near the surface, there was
a ten to one chance that her conning tower would show between the seas
and that would soon put paid to her little efforts.

It was bad enough on the surface, but it must have been hell for those
chaps under water. No wonder one heard of all sorts of wheezes to get
rid of their Mouldies and return to the Fatherland. Still, by far the
majority of their ships were manned by men of pluck and resource, the
only pity being, that it was expended on such an unworthy cause.

The man that could sink a merchantman, from below the surface, without
giving him the ghost of a chance, must have had a mentality lower than
the worst aborigine and heaven knows, they glory in some pretty flthy

Anyhow, that was my feeling about them and their work, so I suppose
there was little wonder that when one did surrender to us, I refused to
accept the hands-up business. In fact it was simply amazing that they
should have had the infernal audacity to offer to surrender, in view of
their ferocious and pitiless attacks on our merchant ships.

Destroyer versus Destroyer, as in the Dover Patrol, was fair game and no
favour. One could meet them and take them on as a decent antagonist. But
towards the submarine men, one felt an utter disgust and loathing; they
were nothing but an abomination, polluting the clean sea.

We had made the usual rendezvous "somewhere in the North Sea." Picked up
our Convoy and had got nearly down to the Tyne. Forty odd ships, four
Destroyers, six M.L.'s, six armed trawlers, one Convoy Leader and two
Seaplanes. (The latter needed nearly as much looking after as the ships,
for they were forever coming to grief.) Up until then we had not lost
one ship, although there had been some pretty sharp attacks. We were
cruising steadily along when suddenly up shot a periscope between the
GARRY and the Destroyer, zigzagging off the leading ships, just where he
WOULD come up to take his shot. Instantly the order was given "Full
speed, Action." The GARRY leapt ahead of where we had sighted him and
down went the first Depth Charge, almost immediately followed with a
second, a third, and a fourth.

Had he fired? Would we see that terrific column of water leap up
alongside one of our ships, to be followed by that metallic, clanging
crash, signaling the doom of yet another victim to one of these
unsporting beasts. Suddenly the lookout on the searchlight platform
bellowed at the top of his voice: "Submarine breaking surface on the
port quarter, sir." Sure enough, our last Depth Charge had brought him
up. "Hard aport. Submarine red one--two-o. Five hundred yards.
Independent, Open Fire." Having set that ball rolling, I then turned my
attention to the good old GARRY. By now she was dancing up to her 20
knots and swinging her head round in the direction of the enemy. Would
he come to the surface and retaliate with his heavier metal, or would he
submerge before we could get at him. The forward 12-pdr. settled the
question as to whether he would or could submerge, by a direct hit at
the base of his conning tower. Now the other guns were getting the
range, but so far, what with the ship swinging so rapidly and increasing
speed, accurate shooting was impossible. Now the submarine was coming
still more to the surface.

"We shall get him. Steady the helm. Steer straight at him Coxswain."

"Aye, aye, sir," comes the quiet reply and the GARRY tears through the
water with ever-increasing speed.

Four, three, two hundred yards. At one hundred the order was,

"Prepare to ram."

And, with a crash, we are on him. Now there is no question about losing
him. All the same it was a glancing blow, though it has ripped our own
bows wide open. Has it ripped him up sufficiently to put him out of

"Hard-aport, Coxswain." And round we go again.

Shall I risk another run at him, as he is still showing up on the
surface? I knew the GARRY'S bows must have been seriously damaged and
mainly under water. Still, at all costs, he must not escape, so, once
again we race through the water and settle the matter by hitting again
and this time ripping her up completely and ourselves as well. Down went
"U ll0" where she belonged, (last--according to Von Lucknow--to be sunk
in the war) and down we went by the bows.

I left the rescue work to the others, who picked up fifteen out of the
water and then took stock of the damage we had sustained. No doubt it
was serious and the vital question now was, should we beach her, make
for the nearest port, or should we chance it and try and get back to our
base in the Humber?

After holding a council of war we decided that we might just about be
able to float long enough if we proceeded slowly stern first throughout
the night, for the hundred odd miles that lay between us and the Spurn.
Having made the decision we started off, but that night stands out as
one of the most anxious nights I have ever put in and I have had a few.

If I got her back and rounded off the job, so much to the good and all
the more credit. If she couldn't float and I had to beach her, she would
probably be pounded to pieces and I should be blamed for not making for
the nearest port. If she sank out of hand I should get soundly scrubbed
for the same reason--and heaven alone help me if I lost any lives in
the process.

Well, we tommed down the forward mess decks above where the bottom had
been ripped out, shored up bulkheads, and hoped for the best. We could
make just 8 knots, and signaled our base to that effect, "Returning
under own power stern first eight knots." The signal that we had rammed
twice and sunk a submarine had already gone through and, as I was told
afterwards, the Engineer-Admiral brought all his influence to bear for
us to be ordered into the Tyne. His contention being that having rammed
the submarine twice, we couldn't possibly float all through the night
let alone navigate her back to the Humber. Naturally the Admiral and
Captain "D" wanted her back and, as thy told me later, "they knew I
would get her back if I could and anyway I had been long enough at sea
to decide for myself just what was best to do."

It was a very doubtful best, but we did it and daylight in the morning
saw us rounding the Spurn, where two tugs were waiting to help us limp
back to dock.

By the time we got her into dock her bow was deep down in the water and
her stern cocked up in the air. Water was well over the mess decks and
the last bulkhead was bulging ominously. If that went, we went. A
carriage and pair might have driven through the gap in her bows where
the armour plated conning tower of the submarine had caught her.

Of course, everybody was very nice. Congratulations and decorations all
round. Mine was promotion and a bar to the D.S.C. All hands were given a
welcome bit of leave, whilst the GARRY was placed in dry dock, where the
dockyard maties simply ran round the crumpled bow with oxo-acetelyne
flames and cut it right off.

Within a very few weeks the new bow was on, the last coat of paint was
dry, stores on board and once again she was ready for sea--not a trace
of the war scar left.

I didn't go to sea with her, but transferred command to a bigger ship in
Portsmouth then fitting out for Special Service.

As it turned out, I didn't take this ship to sea either, for the War
ended abruptly. Guns were secured and warheads came off torpedoes.

The excitement of the fight was over and ships proceeded "On their
lawful occasions" unmolested.

No more convoying needed. No more attacks to stave off. Salt had gone
out of the Service, the crazy War was ended and conditions changed in a
night. Then why hang it out? Common sense said, go while the going's
good. Leave whilst the flavour of excitement still remains--don't wait
till the taste grows stale.

Despite remarks of, "Why this unseemly haste?" Within a week I had paid
off my ship, demobbed and reported "Back for Duty" with the Greyhounds
of the Atlantic, back to the White Star Line.



I found things a bit raw in the Merchant Service and discipline more
than a bit ragged, mainly due to the exigencies of War.

Merchant Service Men were thoroughly fed up with being made stool
pigeons for everyone and anyone to shoot at. They had suffered terribly
and far more than was either necessary or right. The losses had been
frightful and the sufferings more awful than can well be conceived.
There was some element of truth in the saying that "Men went into the
Navy for Safety."

I was appointed to the CELTIC and my hands were full for a couple of
voyages, licking her into shape. The men were completely out of
hand--although that did not trouble me much. I'd handled them all my
life and my sympathies were wholly theirs, so we soon found common

Very quickly, in fact all too quickly for my liking, she settled down
into a steady routine, with a splendid, hard-working crew.

Perhaps it was because I brought back no Navy ideas to the old Merchant
Service, that enabled us to see eye to eye. The fact remains, she went
through her transmogrification as quickly as any ship of the Line and
with the least trouble.

Once steadied down in the regular run, life dropped into its same old

On the English side the memories of war were an open sore. On the
American side thee were still busy winning it. It was quite amusing, in
a way, to hear how pat everyone had the figures of the huge amounts the
U.S.A. had sent to "Yurrup." So many millions of shell, so many millions
of bully-beef--both classed in much the same category.

They were still three thousand miles distant from the War.

After a time one got used to the child-like simplicity with which they
made statements that showed, only too well that they had never even been
on the fringe of the Fight.

For my part, the peace time routine palled and it was only a few short
months before I decided to have done with it and seek some excitement
ashore--I got it all right, but that has nothing to do with this story.

There used to be a fine picture in the front of old Todd and Whall's
Seamanship (a book familiar to all apprentices) when first I went to
sea. It was a picture of the s.s. CELTIC, the old CELTIC of the White
Star Line, driving her way to westward. A big fourmaster with twin
funnels and somehow I got to look on her as the height and summit of my

Years passed. Ships came and ships went. Now one Company and now
another. Off on the trail and back to sea. The war blazed up and burned
out. Yet it was a curious coincidence that for my last ship I should
find myself in the modern edition of my boyhood's ambition; the R.M.S.
CELTIC. And it was in my cabin on board this ship that I finally wrote
my resignation and said good-bye to the Sea.


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